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jasminelee324 · 5 months ago

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you’re trying to make me jealous, aren’t you?”>*not trying to do anything. You simply areconstant reminder of why you ended things in the first place.>>girl if u dont block this, yake your keys and file a reststraining order with the police and amd leave that man to be a ward of THE STATE AAAAND get Officer Gojo's number while you're at it!

he follows obediently, hands gripping the basket, a>>WALK HIM LIKE A DOG!what happened to that?”>>cleay the consequences of ones own actionssss???? dpmo

what makes you think i need a reason to be here?>>look whoooos orbiting around who now??? Hmmm?”you’re still mad at me, aren’t you?”but refusing to let him get under your skin like he used to.>>FINALLLLLLLLYYYYY. YN STANDING ON BUSINESS!!!!! I'M SO PROUD😭👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

his vulnerability, rare as it is, catches you off guard.>>Noooooooooooooo! Pls pls pls pls pls bookie GET UPPPPPPPPPPPP😭

a look of genuine regret.>>that's not your problem anymoreeeee

the love you’ve carried for him hasn’t disappeared>> Girl PLEASEEE go to therapy instead of back to this man, i promise it will get better🙏🏾

your chest tightens as you let out a soft, defeated sigh. “i hate that i miss you too,”>>ladies, gentlemen and tumblr shadows...i regret to inform you, we've lost another one🥲

you’ve already surrendered.>>here lies yn. She stood on business for 30 seconds and i was proud of her for all 30 of them🥲🤧😭

he knows he's won, even if just a little.>>girrrrrrlaa thats a TEXTBOOK narcissist!(i am not a mental health professional and this i not to be taken as a diagnosis for anyone. if concerned pls seek professional help) FLEE!!! 🏃🏾‍♀️ 🏃🏾‍♀️ 🏃🏾‍♀️ 🏃🏾‍♀️ RUN dont walk😭 There's still a chance for youuu!

i’ll earn your trust back, i’ll treat you right. i’ll be the one you fall back in love with.>>yap yap YAP😭.

Poor yns friends are going to have to comfort her when this man fumbles AGAINNNN

and i’ll make sure you don’t regret giving me this chance.”>>i'm tegretting this on her behalf already

💗 I can at least acknowledge that to some extent I'm just beaching and moaning. Ik at heart I'm a sukuna hater but the occasional fic does sway that, BUT THIS only reminds me of every reason behind my intinal instincts😭like Eren Yaeger himself has popped up and told me to LOCK IN!

The writing itself is absolutely beautiful though. And without a doubt goes above and beyond in its ability to evoke strong emotions and empathy for the main character. 10/10👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

he’s annoying, but maybe, just maybe, you’re willing to let him try.>>CHAI🙆🏿‍♀️

i won’t let you down, doll.”>>yes he will but none the less we'll chalk it up to yn's future character development arc. Possibly her villain origin story😭

pouring every unspoken promise and emotion into it>>almost had me weak in the knees. 😩🤭lemme stand up😭btwn me and yn one of us has to😭

what’s wrong with a little public display of affection>>bsff

ryou’re still a menace to society>>AND IS AND yn imma hold ur hand when I say this: yn i want you to remeber that you TOO, you're a part of socieTyyyyyyyy!

tonight’s going to be a night you’ll never forget>>me hoping this doesnt take a turn for the worse and he UNALIVES her😭😭😭ynnnn! Noooo She was so young, so free😢you’ll be missed bookie. Fly High 🕊 karasuno high!!!🏐 (im so sorry😂😂😂😭😂😂😂😂😭)

i’ve got everything planned to perfection. tonight’s going to be a night you’ll never forget.”>>im not gon' lie to some extent.....i get it BUT to do better we must first want better and i need ms.yn to have THE VERY BEST🗣which means standing in business when NECESSARYYYYY and NOT folding under pressure even as it gets worsa and kuna is the personification is WORSA

😭Idk if im happier i made through or that yn did. She dididn't t chopped up and thrown inthe teunk so a win is a win. No matter what she's still better off in your hands than what Gege would have done to her😭😭😭Ty for your time and you gift of literacy that you have chosen to share with the world. This is truly a heightened ability to make out scenes so vividly and to breathe life into the characters to the point it's like they're jumping off the page. Please never stop writing. Albeit an emotional rollercoaster it has been an utmost pleasure reading your work💗🤝

THE GIRL IS MINE : RYOMEN SUKUNA

you and sukuna have been broken up for three months, but it seems like he can’t take the break-up seriously and he tries to convince you to get back to him.

warning. non-sorcerer! sukuna, ex-boyfriend! sukuna, fluff.

it’s been three months since you broke up with sukuna, but life hasn’t gotten any easier. he’s relentless, calling and texting you as if nothing has changed. he still has a set of your keys, and although you’ve considered asking for them back, a part of you never has. instead, you just let him come and go as he pleases, all while pretending to ignore him every time he shows up uninvited.

as valentine’s day approaches, your friend asks you for a favor. she needs a gift for her boyfriend and wonders if you could pick something up for her. wanting to help, you agree and head to a nearby store, the weight of sukuna’s lingering presence dulling your mood.

the store is filled with romantic displays, everything draped in pink and red. you have a basket hooked on your arm as you wander the aisles, searching for something thoughtful and nice. you reach for a bottle of cologne, turning it in your hand, when that familiar deep voice cuts through your thoughts.

“looking for something, princess?”

your heart sinks immediately. you don’t need to turn around to know it’s him. sukuna. you grit your teeth, bracing yourself as the last thing you wanted today was for him to ruin your peace.

you slowly turn, meeting his cocky smirk. he’s standing there, casual as ever, like he’s done nothing wrong, like he hasn’t been making your life a nightmare since the breakup.

“i don’t remember inviting you into my day,” you mutter, tossing the cologne into your basket as if his presence isn’t already gnawing at you.

he chuckles, stepping closer. “you never had to. i always know where to find you.” his tone is laced with arrogance, the same arrogance that made you fall for him before you saw his darker sides. you roll your eyes, gripping the basket tighter. “what do you want, sukuna?”

he leans against the shelving, that smirk still on his lips. “just thought i’d see how my girl is doing, can a boyfriend do that?” he asks, feigning innocence. you know he’s as far from innocent as it gets. his eyes rake over you, studying you with a familiarity that makes your skin crawl. the store’s romantic atmosphere feels like a mockery with him here, tainting the air with his presence. you shift uncomfortably, trying to ignore the weight of his gaze.

you roll your eyes, already exasperated. “i’m not your girl anymore, sukuna,” you say firmly, turning your attention back to the cologne bottles in front of you. you unscrew the cap of one, taking a quick sniff, hoping to focus on anything but his presence.

sukuna doesn’t back off; he never does. leaning against the shelving, he watches you with that familiar, infuriating smirk still playing on his lips. you can feel his gaze burning into your skin, making your nerves bristle as you move from one bottle to the next, trying to act like he isn’t getting under your skin.

he lets out a low chuckle at your response, the sound sending a chill down your spine. “ah, but you’ll always be mine,” he says, a dark edge in his tone, as if it’s a warning. “you can’t just erase three years together, princess.”

he pushes off the shelving, walking towards you with an unwavering confidence. he reaches out, his fingers tracing the nape of your neck, causing you to shiver involuntarily.

his touch is possessive, just like it always was. he steps closer, his body invading your personal space. “you can pretend all you want,” he whispers in your ear, his breath hot against your skin. “but deep down, you know you miss me.”

he reaches around you, grabbing the bottle of cologne from your basket. he turns it in his hand, inspecting it with a mocking smirk. “you’re not buying this for yourself, are you?”

you look at him with a flat, unimpressed expression, resisting the urge to shove him away. his possessive touch still lingers, just like it always did, and the proximity is suffocating. “no, it’s for someone else,” you say bluntly, keeping your tone as neutral as possible. your patience is wearing thin, but you don’t want to give him the satisfaction of seeing you rattled.

his smirk widens at your answer, as if he finds it amusing. he sets the bottle back in your basket, his hand still lingering. “aww, buying a gift for someone special? who is it, your little rebound?” he teases, leaning closer.

he’s intentionally trying to rile you up, and damn him, it’s working. his presence is overwhelming, and his taunts are a constant reminder of why you ended things in the first place.

sukuna’s voice drips with mockery as he steps closer, his smirk still in place. “so, this is what you’re doing now, doll? buying cheap cologne for other men?” you clench your jaw, rolling your eyes as you grip the basket a little tighter. turning to face him, your expression is flat and unbothered. “yup,” you reply sarcastically. “that’s exactly what i’m doing. must be a real shock for you.”

sukuna grins at your retort, amused by your attempt to brush him off. he takes another step forward, his face now just inches away from yours.

“oh, doll,” he says, his tone almost condescending. “i know you too well. you’re not buying that cologne for just anyone. you’re trying to make me jealous, aren’t you?” he reaches out, his finger gently tracing along your jawline, his touch sending a mixture of irritation and familiarity coursing through you.

you just sigh, turning away again. “whatever helps you sleep at night, sukuna.” you continue browsing, determined not to let him ruin your day more than he already has.

sukuna laughs, a mocking sound that irritates you even more. he follows you as you move down the aisle, his presence like an unwelcome shadow.

“oh, come on,” he says, his tone laced with mock disappointment. “you can’t even look at me anymore, princess?” he reaches out, taking the basket from your hands, forcing you to stop and face him. he holds it just out of reach, grinning down at you. “i think you miss me more than you care to admit.”

you hum in response, not even bothering to look up at him as he grins down at you. “if you say so,” you murmur, shrugging casually. you know better than to feed into his antics—he wants a reaction, and you’re not going to give him one.

instead, you let him hold the basket, walking further down the aisle and continuing your search for the gift. sukuna follows, as you expected, holding the basket just like he used to. you can't help but find the situation ironic; despite his cocky attitude, he’s the one carrying your things while you shop. in a way, it’s a win-win.

his presence might be irritating, but at least you don’t have to lug around the basket anymore. as you browse through more cologne options, you toss a few bottles into the basket without a word before moving to look for something else, fully aware that sukuna will just keep following you around like a shadow.

sukuna watches you as you wander down the aisle, his eyes studying you with a mixture of fascination and annoyance. he follows obediently, hands gripping the basket, as you add more items to it. he’s oddly compliant, and it annoys him that you’re not falling for his usual games.

“you’re not very responsive today, doll,” he comments, his tone a little harsher than usual. “not even going to give me a little fight?”

you grab a sleek watch from the display and turn to sukuna, ignoring his comment. his eyes narrow slightly in suspicion as you take his wrist, sliding the watch onto it without hesitation. he watches, surprised but intrigued, as you adjust the strap, examining how it looks on him.

“i need to buy my friend’s boyfriend a gift for valentine’s,” you say, your focus on the watch as you tilt his wrist to see how it catches the light.

the second the words leave your mouth, you don’t realize what you’ve just done—reassured his jealousy with an unintended confirmation. sukuna’s smirk returns, this time with a sharper edge. “so that’s what this is about,” he says, his voice dripping with amusement. “trying to make sure your friend's boyfriend looks as good as me, huh?”

you glance up at him, catching the glint in his eyes, but you refuse to let him rattle you. “just trying to see if the watch looks good,” you reply coolly, slipping it off his wrist. “not everything revolves around you, sukuna.”

sukuna’s smirk widens, his ego stroked by your admission. he watches as you slip the watch off his wrist, his gaze unwavering.

“aww, doll,” he coos, stepping closer to you. “you’re right, not everything revolves around me, but you used to.” he reaches out, his hand cupping your chin and forcing you to look up at him. “you used to be so focused on me. what happened to that?”

you meet his gaze, completely unimpressed by his touch, and stare at him for a moment. “you should ask yourself that,” you reply flatly, your voice carrying a note of finality. pulling your chin from his hand, you turn away without hesitation, walking toward another aisle as if his presence meant nothing.

sukuna watches you in silence for a beat, his usual cockiness lingering in the air. before turning down the next aisle, you glance over your shoulder at him, your voice casual as you ask, “what are you even doing here, anyway?” your question hangs between you both, a quiet curiosity beneath the surface.

sukuna follows you, his smirk faltering slightly at your continued disinterest. he takes a moment to answer, watching you as you browse through the aisle.

he takes a step closer, his voice low as he speaks. “i was shopping, doll. i saw you walking in and decided to come say hi,” he says, his tone betraying a hint of annoyance. he leans against the shelving, his eyes still roaming over you. “what makes you think i need a reason to be here?”

sukuna's eyes narrow as he watches you, his previous smirk replaced with a more intense gaze. the store around them seems to fade into the background as he becomes more fixated on the interaction.

his voice dropping to a low murmur. “i guess i just wanted to see how you've been doing.” he reaches out, his fingers gently brushing a strand of hair away from your face. “you look good,” he says, his touch lingering for a moment before he withdraws his hand.

you remain focused on the items in front of you, barely acknowledging his presence even as he steps closer. his touch as he brushes the strand of hair away doesn’t faze you, though you can feel the weight of his gaze on you, more intense than before.

“i’ve been fine,” you say, your voice distant, uninterested in entertaining his attempt at a deeper conversation. you glance at him briefly, your eyes sharp but calm. “thanks for the compliment, i guess.” you shift slightly, turning away from him and continuing to browse, refusing to let him pull you back into his orbit.

sukuna's annoyance grows as he sees your dismissive attitude. he's not used to being ignored, especially by you. he watches as you turn away, his gaze following your every move.

he remains silent for a moment before speaking up again, his voice laced with frustration. “you’re still mad at me, aren’t you?” he asks, the words more of a statement than a question. he steps closer again, invading your personal space as he tries to get a reaction out of you.

you stop in your tracks and turn to face him, meeting his frustrated gaze with calm indifference. “i’m not mad at you, sukuna,” you say, your voice even and unwavering. “i just don’t see the point in acting like your girlfriend anymore, because i’m not.”

your words hang in the air, and you can see the frustration flicker in his eyes. he’s clearly not used to you being this distant, this detached. you give him a small, almost dismissive shrug before turning your attention back to the shelf. “there’s no reason for me to be mad. it’s over. simple as that.”

you grab another item, turning away from him, fully expecting him to continue trying to push your buttons, but refusing to let him get under your skin like he used to.

sukuna's frustration turns into irritation at your nonchalant response. he can’t wrap his head around your cool, almost distant demeanor. he wanted a reaction, some sign that you still felt something. but you’re not giving him anything.

he grits his teeth as you turn away, your dismissive shrug like a blade to his ego. “it’s simple, huh?” he says, his voice edged with sarcasm. he steps closer once more, his body almost brushing against yours. “if it’s so simple, then why does it feel like you’re trying to make me jealous?”

his gaze roams over you, as if searching for some kind of crack in your composure. he’s never seen you this calm, this unflustered by his attempts to get a reaction. “buying valentine’s gifts for someone else,” he continues, his tone mocking. “that’s a low blow, doll.”

you let out an exasperated sigh, turning to face him with a tired look. “i already told you, it’s for my friend’s boyfriend,” you repeat, your tone flat and dismissive. “you’re really reaching here, sukuna.“

you shake your head and turn back to browsing, not even bothering to engage with his mockery anymore. it’s clear he’s fishing for a reaction, but you’re not giving him the satisfaction. “honestly, it’s getting a little old,” you add, your voice laced with irritation.

sukuna’s frustration begins to boil over, fueled by your repeated dismissals. he steps closer again, his body almost towering over you. “it’s old?” he repeats, his voice gaining an edge of anger. “you really think you can brush me off that easily?” he moves in, his presence demanding your attention. “you can’t just act like i don’t mean anything to you,” he says, his jaw clenching. “after three years, doll, you owe me more than this.”

you look up at sukuna, meeting his intense gaze with a sigh, feeling the weight of the conversation hang between you. his usual arrogance falters as his eyes soften. his hand comes up to cup the side of your neck, his touch unexpectedly gentle.

“just… let me apologize,” he says softly, his voice losing its edge. “let me talk first. let me make things right.” his vulnerability, rare as it is, catches you off guard. you can see the tension in his jaw relax as he waits for your response, his thumb brushing lightly against your skin. the desperation to fix things, to go back to what you had, is written all over his face. you hesitate for a moment, feeling the conflicting emotions stirring inside you.

sukuna’s grip on your neck softens, his thumb tracing a gentle circle against the skin. his eyes hold a vulnerability you've rarely seen, a look of genuine regret.

he takes a moment, collecting his thoughts as he speaks. “i know i messed up,” he says, his voice softer now. “i took you for granted, doll. took us for granted.” he steps closer, his body almost brushing against yours. “but i... i miss you,” he admits, his words hanging in the air. “i want you back.”

you stare at him, searching his eyes for any hint of sincerity. the regret in his voice, the soft touch of his hand, all of it feels so unfamiliar from the sukuna you knew—yet painfully familiar at the same time. as much as you hate him for what he’s put you through, the love you’ve carried for him hasn’t disappeared. three months wasn’t nearly enough to erase the years of memories, the moments where you felt like you were his whole world.

your chest tightens as you let out a soft, defeated sigh. “i hate that i miss you too,” you admit quietly, your voice barely above a whisper.

you nod, more to yourself than to him, feeling the weight of your decision as you meet his gaze again. “fine,” you say, almost as if the word leaves your lips of its own accord. “ we can talk, but this… this can’t be like before, sukuna. i won’t go back to that.” your words carry a quiet warning, but the truth is, you’ve already surrendered.

sukuna’s expression shifts, the hint of a smile playing at the corner of his lips. he recognizes the surrender in your eyes, the defeat in your voice. he knows he's won, even if just a little.

he nods, accepting your conditions, his hand still resting gently on your neck. “no,” he agrees, his voice almost a whisper. “it won’t be like before. i'll make you fall in love with me all over again.” he steps closer, his body pressing gently against yours, the heat of him sending a shiver down your spine. he leans in, his breath warm against your skin as he speaks, his words a quiet promise.

“i’ll show you that i can be better, doll,” he says, his voice soft but firm. “i’ll earn your trust back, i’ll treat you right. i’ll be the one you fall back in love with.” he pulls back, looking at you with an intense gaze. “just give me a chance.”

you frown, the familiar feeling of annoyance bubbling up inside you. sukuna always knew how to worm his way back into your life, no matter how hard you tried to push him away. and the worst part? you always let him.

you roll your eyes, letting out an irritated groan. “you’re so annoying, sukuna,” you mutter, not even bothering to hide your frustration.

without waiting for him to respond, you turn on your heel and head towards the register, your footsteps a little heavier than usual. he follows, of course, still holding the basket as if he belongs there beside you. even now, with his promises and sweet words, he’s still the same—a force of nature, barging into your life whenever he pleases. but despite the frustration, you don’t tell him to leave. you never really do.

sukuna grins as you storm off to the register, following closely behind you. he watches as you try to maintain an air of frustration, but he can see through it. after all, he knows you better than you know yourself.

he remains silent, walking beside you as you make your way to the register. he places the basket on the counter, his presence looming over you. he can see the conflicting emotions playing out on your face, and it fills him with a twisted sense of satisfaction. as you pay for your purchases, he watches, waiting for your next move.

you can feel his gaze on you as you finish paying, the weight of his presence heavy in the air. as you turn to leave, he follows, his footsteps echoing behind you.

once outside the store, the cool air does little to soothe your irritation. you pause, turning to face him, your expression still guarded. “now what?” you ask, your voice carrying a hint of challenge. “you’ve successfully annoyed me into giving you another chance. what next, sukuna?”

sukuna grins at your question, enjoying the slight challenge in your voice. he steps closer, his body almost touching yours. “now, doll,” he says, his voice laced with a hint of mischief. “now i show you how good it can be between us again.”

he reaches out, his hand gently brushing your cheek as he lowers his voice to a whisper. “i’ll make you remember why you fell in love with me in the first place,” he promises. “and i’ll make sure you don’t regret giving me this chance.”

he leans in, his breath warm against your ear as he speaks, “i’ll court you proper this time around. dinners, outings, everything to show you that i’m serious about treating you right.”

he pulls back, his eyes roving over your face as if committing it to memory. “and if you don’t like it, you can walk away at any time, doll. i won’t stop you.” he waits for your response, his heart pounding in his chest, the anticipation making his blood run hot.

you fight the smile threatening to break through, biting your lip to keep it at bay. despite everything, there’s a part of you that’s amused by his persistence, his bold promises. “you better make it worth it,” you say, glancing up at him with a teasing smirk, “if you’re going to waste my time like this.”

his eyes light up, a glimmer of victory in them as he takes in your words. he leans in closer, his lips ghosting just above yours as he whispers, “oh, doll, I promise you—it’ll be worth every second.” you roll your eyes again, but this time, there’s a hint of a smile tugging at the corner of your lips. he’s annoying, but maybe, just maybe, you’re willing to let him try.

sukuna grins at your response, enjoying the subtle shift in the air between you. he can see the hint of a smile, the slight falter in your confident demeanor. he knows he’s getting to you, and it fuels his determination. he leans in even closer, his lips hovering just above yours, his breath warm against your cheek. “i’ll make it more than worth your time, doll,” he whispers, his voice low and enticing. “i won’t let you down.”

he pulls back, his eyes locked on yours, a silent challenge in his gaze. “let me prove it. give me this chance, and i’ll show you that i’m serious about winning you back,” he continues, his voice soft but firm. “i won’t let you down, doll.”

he reaches out, his hand gently tracing the side of your neck, his touch light and almost reverent. “i promise you,” he murmurs, “i can make you happy again.” he waits for your response, his heart pounding in his chest as he holds your gaze, hoping you’ll give him this chance.

you hum softly, the sound filled with a mix of satisfaction and surrender as you reach up to cup his cheek. his skin is warm beneath your palm, and you can feel the tension in him, the anticipation radiating from his body as he leans into your touch. “alright,” you whisper, your voice barely audible, your lips just inches from his. the weight of the moment hangs between you both, heavy and charged.

sukuna's heart races in his chest as you reach up to cup his cheek, his eyes locked on yours, intense and full of desire. he leans into your touch, the simple touch sending sparks of electricity coursing through his body.

he swallows hard as he processes your words, your soft agreement sending a wave of relief and hope through him. the corners of his lips slowly curl into a wicked grin as he leans in, his face just inches from yours. “you won’t regret this, doll,” he murmurs, his voice a low, seductive rumble.

sukuna's grin widens as he feels the heat radiating off you, his heart pounding in rhythm with the surge of adrenaline. wrapping his arms around your waist, he pulls you flush against him, the warmth of his body enveloping you in a cocoon of familiarity and desire.

there’s a moment of hesitation, a breath held in anticipation, before he leans in, capturing your lips with his. the kiss is fierce and possessive, igniting the fire that had long lain dormant between you. it’s as if the world around you fades away, leaving just the two of you wrapped in this intoxicating moment.

he kisses you deeply, pouring every unspoken promise and emotion into it, a desperate attempt to convey how much he truly wants you back. the taste of you, the feel of you in his arms, reminds him of everything he’s been missing.

sukuna grips your waist, his fingers digging into your skin as he pulls you closer, molding your body to his. the kiss is intense, filled with a mixture of desire, possessiveness, and a hint of longing. he kisses you with a fervor, his lips moving against yours with a hunger that resonates deep within him.

he pours his heart and soul into the kiss, his tongue tangling with yours in a familiar dance. his hands roam over your body, as if memorizing every curve and contour, as if trying to commit your taste, your scent, everything about you to memory.

he breaks away for a moment, panting slightly, his eyes dark with a mixture of desire and vulnerability. “i’ve missed this,” he whispers, his voice rough and filled with a huskiness that goes straight to your core. “missed you, doll.”

he presses closer to you, his body molding against yours like a perfect puzzle. his lips find your neck, trailing hot kisses down the sensitive skin, igniting a trail of fire in their wake. he bites down lightly, a low, possessive growl rumbling in his chest.

the heat of sukuna's lips against your skin sends a jolt of desire through you, but as his intensity escalates, a sudden rush of awareness snaps you back to reality. with a firm push, you create a bit of space, feeling the cool metal of a nearby car press against your back.

“sukuna,” you say, your voice a mix of annoyance and a lingering thrill, “we're still in public.” your heart races, both from his touch and the embarrassment of being caught in such a passionate moment surrounded by strangers.

he pauses, looking down at you with that familiar smirk, his eyes glinting with mischief. “what’s wrong with a little public display of affection?” he teases, leaning in closer, his breath ghosting over your lips.

you can’t help but roll your eyes at him, even as the corners of your mouth threaten to lift in a smile. “some people might not appreciate it as much as you do.” you try to sound serious, but the way he’s looking at you makes it hard to maintain your composure.

sukuna chuckles softly, clearly unfazed by your protest. “let them watch, then. they’ll only wish they had what we have.” he leans back slightly, just enough to gauge your reaction, his expression softening as he adds, “but i guess i can control myself... for now.”

the way he says “for now” sends another wave of excitement coursing through you, reminding you just how hard it is to resist him, even in public. you can’t help but roll your eyes at his confidence, a mix of amusement and exasperation bubbling up inside you. “you’re still a menace to society, you know that?” you retort, trying to keep your tone light despite the way your heart races.

sukuna grins at your playful push and your annoyance at being caught in a public display of affection. his eyes darkened with desire and a hint of mischief.

“oh, come on, doll,” he teases, his voice low and sultry. “where’s the fun in hiding our passion?” he leans in closer, his breath hot against your ear as he whispers, “i’ve never been one to care about what others think. and you know damn well i have a hard time controlling myself around you.”

you shake your head, unable to suppress a smile as you look into his eyes. “you’re ridiculous. what are you trying to do, make everyone jealous with your terrible flirting?”

sukuna chuckles deep in his throat, his smirk growing wider. “you say ‘terrible’; i call it charming,” he replies, his voice dripping with confidence. “and if it makes everyone else jealous, then all the better. they won’t know what they’re missing.”

he dips his head, his lips brushing against your neck again as he murmurs, “but who cares about them? all i care about is how you react to it.”

you groan in annoyance, a mix of frustration and amusement bubbling up as his lips graze your neck again. “seriously? you can’t just help yourself, can you?” you retort, swatting him away playfully, though the warmth of his affection sends a thrill through you.

sukuna chuckles, pulling away just enough to look at you with that infuriating smirk still plastered on his face. “i can’t help it if you’re just too tempting, doll,” he replies, his voice teasing. he then leans down to press a soft kiss to your forehead, and for a moment, all the tension melts away. “but fine,” he concedes, a hint of mischief still lingering in his gaze. “i’ll lower the pda for now.”

he takes your hand in his, his thumb brushing over your knuckles as he leans in slightly, a playful glint in his eyes. “how about we go shopping for a dress for you to wear at dinner on our valentine’s night? i want to see you in something that makes you feel as special as you are.”

your heart flutters at the thought, and you can’t help but feel a smile tugging at your lips. “a dress, huh? are you planning on making a grand entrance or something?” you tease, raising an eyebrow as you try to gauge his intentions.

sukuna grins, his eyes sparkling with mischief and excitement at the idea of seeing you all dolled up in a pretty dress. “oh, doll, you have no idea,” he replies, his voice low and sultry. “i have grand plans for our valentine’s night. and let’s just say, you in a dress is just the beginning.”

he chuckles at your teasing, his hand still holding yours tightly as he looks down at you. “i’m going to do everything in my power to make sure you have the best valentine’s day you’ve ever had.”

sukuna starts walking to his car, his grip on your hand firm yet reassuring, you can’t help but feel a mix of anticipation and curiosity bubbling inside you. you glance up at him, the playful glint in his eyes making your heart race just a little faster. “alright, mr. mysterious,” you say, tilting your head slightly to study his expression. “where exactly are you planning on taking me?”

sukuna grins, his eyes gleaming with excitement as he leads you to his car. he opens the door for you, gallantly gesturing for you to get in before leaning against the car’s hood. he crosses his arms, a smug smile playing on his lips.

“that, doll, is a surprise,” he replies, his voice laced with a hint of playfulness. “but let’s just say it’s a place that’ll make you feel like a queen.”

as you settle into the passenger seat, sukuna makes his way around to the driver’s side, getting behind the wheel. he starts the car and glances at you, his eyes sparkling with excitement. “but don’t worry, doll,” he reassures, his hands confidently gripping the steering wheel. “i’ve got everything planned to perfection. tonight’s going to be a night you’ll never forget.”

you nod, feeling a mixture of excitement and nervousness at the prospect of shopping with him, knowing it’ll be a different experience than before. “alright, lead the way, charming rogue,” you say with a playful roll of your eyes, your heart racing at the prospect of what the evening holds.

sukuna laughs, his eyes flickering with amusement. “oh, doll, you’re playing with fire calling me that,” he teases, his voice tinged with both warning and promise. “but i’ll take it as a compliment.” he puts the car in gear and pulls out of the parking lot, his hands steady on the steering wheel. “just sit back and relax. i’ll have you looking like a goddess in no time.”

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slugbeaker · 1 year ago

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hmm for the ship ask game Katherine Collins/Catherine Chun?

BRO we're on the same wavelength bc I literally had another post I was working on for these two about their parallels already in the works lol! 😭❤️

Ship It

1. I def ship it lmao. They may live in two different game universes with a centuries time difference between them but they're also two of the smartest people, canonically in their respective games, alive so I think they can figure that out 😂.

I think they would be able to understand each other in a way a lot of other people around them can't because unfortunately their intelligence winds up separating them from the people around them a bit and their less than stellar skills in socializing add further difficulty to that. But I think Kate and Cath are similar enough they'd be very comfortable with each other.

I also like to think they'd be just as mindblown by the other's prowess in science as people normally are by THEM and it feels like finally finding an equal in a lot of ways. I think Kath would find the ARK project an absolutely wonderful and endearing idea and Cath would be endlessly fascinated by the Pattern/liquid light phenomenon. The only hiccup I can foresee is maybe Kate getting attached to the WAU and personifying it in the way she does the Pattern which Cath would def not agree with. 😂 BUT Kate also mainly personified the Pattern bc she was lonely and sad and Stephen is a bit of a bitch so if she had Catherine that might help her feel the need to not resort to those levels of desperate companionship as much. 🤧🤧

2. My favorite things about the ship are honestly mainly that it's about two nerdy ass, science loving gals finding love in each other in the face of a world that literally shuns them for their idiosyncracies. Cath and Kate deserved so much better than they got and both of their stories end in tragedy. I've made another post a while ago talking about how it breaks my heart that Cath is murdered for finally speaking up for herself when the whole game we hear audios telling her she needs to be more assertive, and I think it is equally tragic that Kate sacrifices everything she has for an alien Pattern that likely is going to absorb her the same way it absorbed everyone else bc she incorrectly interpreted what it really wanted due to her own loneliness. Loneliness is a heavy running theme for these two and in my heart that needs to be fixed with sapphic romance lmao 🥲🥲🥲 (shoutout to the characters that WERE nice to them tho - Simon, Imogen, and Sarah for Cath and Father Jeremy and Frank for Kate 🤧)

3. Hmmm I don't know if I have any unpopular opinions on it bc I've never seen anyone else ship them so I guess the ship in and of itself is an unpopular opinion but that's probably bc more people need to play Everybody's Gone to the Rapture so they can enjoy Kate as a character! And if they've played that and not SOMA, then play SOMA, it's worth it avssgsdhdhf 🤣

Maybe bc it would take away from Cath and Imogen's relationship too? But I still love that ship just as much too, there's always room to pair characters up with everyone around imo bc its about making interesting dynamics💫 😂

Thank you for the ask and letting me ramble about these ladies, sorry it got a little long 🤣❤️

#ask game #catherine chun #katherine collins #soma #everybody's gone to the rapture #frictional games #the chinese room

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chuluoyi · 1 year ago

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Yes... I grinded my ass off... And now I have nothing to grind for baby Lukey... And IT'S OKAY!!!! You can still get tears from the event itself!! And by upgrade they mean upgrade the star thingies- You know when you get dupes you can star up the cards? Yeah that's the upgrade they meant... I didn't know and kept trying to use my stellin till I realised like 'oh fuck I've been wasting stellin for no reason' cause I still couldn't clear the achievement... But yes I'm left with 36 stellin now after levelling up my new card...

Ah omg arranged marriage 😭Omgomg do you read 'Under the Oak tree' ? It's an arranged marriage manhwa with spicy scenes [ohohoh!] If you don't you should give it a read, see if you'll enjoy it. And Angst! My absolute fave! AHHAHA SAME GIRL I thought he was the antagonist 😭😭Especially after the prologue I was like 'Who tf are you' and I thought there would be that route where the MC gets together with the bad guy and gets whisked off... And I guess I know why I'm still single now... It's either I'm really just too in love with 2D men, or it's my mum's high standards and taste in men...

Right!!! Ahhhh I'm so in love with Satosugu! And it's okay! Take your timeee, just do it once you're more comfortable. Geto has a pretty complicated character if you ask me so it's understandable that you'll need more time...

😭😭You must be so tired... Remember to stay hydrated and rest well too! Your health comes first!! LUKE JUST GO HOME SO PEOPLE CAN REST 😭😭😭

Hidden inventory is indeed our last spring of youth... I felt my teenage life get sucked away HELP. To add up I'm like around their age during hidden inventory and I relate so much better to them except the cursed energy part... And Culling games... I don't even want to imagine... I'll probably drop JJK by then I don't think my heart can take it. I think JJK will end me before I do it myself...

exactly... It's really childish and stupid... Like guys most of you are at least 16 so act like your age please don't go around arguing over shit only kids fight over... I used to watch Aot like I stopped at S3 before they switched to MAPPA... and yeah basically every big fandom will or has experienced debates over the littlest things... Every fandom has it's toxic community...

Hahaha! How's your bf after the last episode? I heard it's super depressing...

-🪩

i… only got 1 tears *sobs* and now it’s in pity 60🤧 STAR THINGIES LMAO yeah it immediately comes to mind the moment you describe it like that😭 36 stellin is alright! i’ve been left with 2 stellin i remember thinking just how broke i can get?💀

i read that!!!🥹 i love it but i’m a bit sad that maxi struggles so much to stand up for herself😔 riftan is a hunk though omg. oh and i read another manhwa called “light and shadow” it’s such a good arranged marriage manhwa that i read it lit thrice bcs the both the hero and heroine are badasses who take no shits from anyone else🥹

aw don’t worry disco anon!! i’m sure you’ll find the right person someday!! i used to be insecure with myself too and thinking that i don’t fit but no—it’s just that we haven’t met the right person yet!!🥹 they are there somewhere🫶🏻

aww thank you!!! you’re so nice afahjsa and you stay healthy too!🥹🫶🏻 the weather nowadays can be a little challenging😫

omg really?!😭 you’re still so young and your watchlist being jjk is indeed so soul-sucking😭 not that i was any better. when i was that age (gods why am i sound so old i’m only 24) my watchlist was naruto… and i binged it all until the end over the course of summer holiday🥲

SO TRUE AHHAHAHA jjk will end us before we do it is so canon ogmf😭 like for how long now that we didn’t know what megumi’s status is?

ohhh may i know why? they said it’s much better when it moved to mappa? bcs tbh mappa is a good animation company, but it’s just that their working conditions that are so concerning🤧

he’s being dramatic and totally heartbroken about eren and mikasa🥹 he even has his lockscreen changed into a live wallpaper of aot🥹 i swear it’s karma bcs when gojo died, he was unapologetic towards me (he rolls his eyes 🙄 whenever i’m swooning over gojo and he is a suguru lover, btw!) and now i get the chance for a payback🥹

#so you didn’t follow aot until the end??#or have you got spoiled 🥹🥹#📨 — mailbox #💌: 🪩

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vquacki · 4 years ago

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I Hate You

I Don’t Hate You

Accidentally Saying ‘I Hate You’ In An Argument

Characters: BONTEN - Rindou Haitani, Ran Haitani, Sanzu Haruchiyo

Warning ⚠︎︎ : Mature content, cussing, MINORS DNI

Note : This was requested! Thank you for the idea bb! It was definitely a challenge to write! I really hope it's to your liking (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃

ANd YeS, I know I said I'd stop doing Rindou, Ran and Sanzu but right when I said that, a flood of requests came in with their names on it! But I'll start writing for other characters soon!

ALSO SOMEONE RECENTLY STOLE MY WORK 🤧 Please help me by reporting them 🥲 their @/wnapelolaiss on wattpad.

I hope you enjoy! <33

R I N D O U

He’s independent, he said.

Then why'd he have to make you worry like this?

The drooping bags under his eyes followed with the uneven eating patterns say otherwise.

“Okay Rindou, I understand that but you need to eat-” You reasoned, standing in front of his office desk. Palms on the flat surface as you stared down at him.

“Y/N, I'm fine. Just let me finish my work” His reply jagged, fingers still typing on his keyboard. Eyes not faltering from his dimed screen.

“How about one meal? I'll make it right now for-” You proposed, hopping up and down excitedly. Trying to coax him into your love filled meal-

“Fuck Y/N! Leave me alone! I said I'm fine” His hands slammed down on his keyboard, the desk shifting at his sudden hostile movement.

The day had been stressful enough, with Ran pestering him all throughout his meeting. As well as the gruff pink haired man known as bonten’s number two nagging him about his duties and missions. It was just a blur, he wanted to come home, get the rest of his work done early and rest. That's it.

“Fuck why cant you just hop off my dick, such a pest” He grumbled under his breath, not anticipating for your ears to hear.

“I hate you” You muttered, clumping your hands into fists at your sides.

“Huh?” Rindou raised a brow.

‘Did he hear you right?’

Your eyes widened, realizing your own words. Hands swiftly covering your mouth as you stared at the shocked man in front of you.

“Rin- It slipped out, I'm so sorry” You spewed apology one after another as your hand reached across the table, trying to grasp his hands in yours. Only for them to be ripped away from you.

“Get the fuck out then” His finger pointed at the door, eyes not daring to meet yours, instead focused on the rigid carpet that aligned his office.

Tears fell past your eyes, without another word you turned around. Quickly pacing yourself out the door.

His heart ached, irises trailing your back as you left. He knew you and him both needed it, needed time. But he'd be lying if he said he worded it the right way.

He knows he messed up.

Hours had passed, stifling into your pillow as you allowed your tears to seep into the pillow comforter below you. Your body stiffened in its fetal position when you heard a loud knock on the door.

“Y/N can I come in?” The familiar voice muffled from the other side of the door. He patiently waited, listening to the slight shuffling inside the room, taking the long silence as a no. His eyes widened when the door swung open, your shriveled hair sprawled around with the blanket wrapped around your figure.

Glossy eyes staring up at him.

“I'm sorry, Y/N.” Rindou blurted, his words forcing themselves out. At that moment you were all he could think about. The globes of tears that sat still at the edge of your eyes, threatening to spill any minute, accompanied by the redness that bloodmed on the tip of your nose along with your undereyes.

“I know this is a crappy excuse but I was just stressed with work an-” His hands fiddled against each other, that bubbly feeling at the pit of his stomach registering as anxiousness. He felt like vomiting, it all felt too nauseating.

“I'm sorry too, Rindou!” You cried, your hands releasing the blanket to wipe your eyes from the fat droplets that rolled down your cheeks.

“I shouldn't have said those words to you” You weeped, slowly taking baby steps until you were up against Rindou’s chest.

It hadn't completely slipped his mind, those repeating words lingering in his head for hours as he slowly built up the courage to come straight to you and apologize wholeheartedly. That frightening sentence that senselessly left your mouth.

‘I hate you’

Followed with the string of questions his conscience chucked at him, ‘is this the end?’ ‘are we going to break up’ ‘does she really hate me now’. His heart was racing just from thinking back on it. Yet he was dumbfounded, he was astonished you didn't end it right on the spot.

“No Y/N, it's because of me you said that. It's on me baby” Rindou wrapped his arms around you, burying his head into your shoulder blade.

“I'm sorry” Rindou whispered, his uneven breath tickling your neck as he spoke. You stayed quiet, listening to all the words that spewed out of his mouth.

“Just please.. Don't hate me” Rindou continued.

“I love you too much.” His grip tightening around your shoulders, closing his eyes nuzzling into the warmth of your neck once he felt your arms finally wrap around him. Recuperating his sorrowful hug.

R A N

“You come back late everyday, covered in who knows blood!” You two had been going at it for hours, arguing left and right. Starting right when he stepped foot inside your shared home.

“Doll, stop right there, because I'd never let some low life spill my blood.” Ran sighed, he was starting to get aggravated. His legs were crossed on the couch, his chin resting on his palm as he boredly stared at you.

“Ran please, I'm just worried.” You responded, foot tapping impatiently on the wooden floor.

“Eh? What's there to worry about? Don't worry about such nonsense, it's useless” Ran scoffed, indeed it was irritating. Tiredly coming home from a day of viciously whacking people to the nagging of his significant other. What could he do to just get some peace and quiet, at the very least alone time.

“Ran are you being fucking serious right now?” You scowled down at him, crossing your arms over each other. He wasn't alone, you were beginning to feel heated. You didn't understand how he didn’t acknowledge what you were feeling right now.

You sat alone every night waiting, unsure if the male would even come back. Your heart pounded, it was like everything was in slow motion. Watching the clock slowly tick for hours, your legs bouncing up and down in anticipation.

“Yes I am Y/N”

He had stopped calling you by your pet names. That's when you knew he was finally being serious, just as you were.

“Please, can’t you stop once night time comes? I just want you home with me. Where I know you're safe.” You pleaded, sitting down on the coffee table in front of him.

“Well someone has to play breadwinner, what could your measly job’s paycheck pay in this house? you think the bills pay themselves?” Ran uttered, rolling his eyes when he thought you weren't looking, a tendency he had when he talked to his underlings.

But, you weren't his gang member.

It was a frequent habit, Ran would say something snarky under his breath if someone ever were to piss him off. But the moment the sentence left his mouth he knew it was wrong. Along with the tears that spilled out of your eyes once his orbs met yours.

“Fuck- Y/N, it slipp-” Ran barley got out his forsaken apology before you interrupted him.

“I hate you.” You mumbled, a stream of tears running down your face.

“What?” Ran was stunned by those words that left your mouth. He knew how you were with words, but he never expected it from you. Never in a million years would he have imagined this outcome.

“I'm sorry Ran.” You sobbed, dropping to your knees in front of the male. It happened again, his mouth hung open. He didn’t know what to do, he was frozen on the spot at your whimpering frame below him.

“I'm so sorry Ran, I- I don’t know why I said that.” You bawled, one hand desperately clutching the couch cushion while the other covered your face.

“No no, It's my fault love, I let my words get the best of me” Ran was slapped out of it when you clawed at the seat he sat on. Kneeling down beside you, he engulfed you in his arms. Pulling you until you sat on his lap.

“I promise I didn't mean it, I'll stay with you okay?” He smiled remorsefully, bringing his thumb up to your cheek, wiping the continuous tears that fleeted from your sockets.

He continued to whisper loving words into your ears, followed with repeating apologies for the rest of the night until you fell asleep in his arms.

S A N Z U

“When will it stop?” You were on your last straw, he was always on it. Eyes red from the drugs that were scattered across the dining room table.

“Mm maybe tomorrow?” Sanzu chuckled, he was in no mood to be all serious.

“Besides, I'm not addicted princess,” He added, kicking his legs up on the table. Rattling the dueled colors tablets all over the place, some even falling onto the floor.

“Haru, I just don't want to wake up to a lifeless body one day, okay?” You hissed, holding the bridge of your nose in frustration. It was the same thing every week, him joking about quitting. He never once followed through, proving your statement.

“Are you even listening? Pills can't take me out, sweetheart.” Sanzu grinned, using his propped up legs to lean back in his chair.

“Get over it, i'll stop when I say so '' He laughed bitterly, it was starting to kick in. The whirling feeling in his head, everything started to get fuzzy. Though it didn't affect his speech one bit, he was used to it. It felt so good.

“You never consider my feelings do you?” your fingers clenched the hem of your shirt. Liquid starting to brim your sockets, blurring your sight.

“I hate you” You bit your lip, it was sudden. You didn't even realize those words escaped your mouth.

“You hate me?” the clank of his leaned chair hit the floor tiles, his lanky figure standing up. Walking towards you until he hovered over you.

“No- fuck Haru, Im sorry” You apologized, you felt the pad of his finger brush against your cheekbone.

“I'm scared haru,” You cried into his white button up.

“I don't wanna lose you” Your arms wrapped around his waist, burying your tear stained face into the cloth.

“I'm sorry too princess, didn't know you were that scared.” Sanzu patted your head, fingers combing through your locks as you weep into him. He had seen you cry before, but not for him. His heart was aching, watching you break down in his arms.

“You won’t, I won't ever leave you” Sanzu soothed you.

“You're precious to me, I'd never leave my gem all alone” He reassured you, stroking your cheek with the back of his hand. His blue eyes staring lovingly at you.

“Isn't that right?” He hummed, pressing light kisses on your temple.

“Yeah” You weakly mumbled, sniffing into your sleeve as he picked you up bridal style, heading over to the bedroom for a very much needed cuddle session.

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imo-chan-imagines · 4 years ago

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hello, imo-chan! can we all have some cockwarming fkbu headcanons? i really love your work ♡

Cockwarming / FKBU headcanons

Characters: fem!reader, Kambe Daisuke, Katou Haru

Tags/warnings: Fugou Keiji Balance: Unlimited (anime),18+, smut, lil' bit of fluff cause I'm so freaking soft for these two 🥺, cockwarming, smidge of daddy kink for Daisuke, hint of a breeding kink for Haru, headcanons, request

A/N: Yes, Anon, you absolutely can!! Thanks so much for requesting these 😇 And that's so sweet of you! I'm glad you like my stuff! I hope this makes a good Valentine's Day present ♡

⚠️ 18+ CONTENT! MINORS: PLEASE DO NOT INTERACT ⚠️

♤ Kambe Daisuke ♤

Daisuke, everyone's fav kinky boy, likes you cockwarming him as a kind of game/initiation for sex. It's a bit of fun for him

He likes to test your limits, tease you, make you behave, etc. hello daddy kink 👀

He'll have you on his cock on the sofa, facing out and watching something on Netflix or whatever, and you won't be allowed to move your hips at all, or you'll get swift slap nothing too hard, but he does like to play rough

He knows it's demanding and that it drives you crazy not being able to move with him inside you but that's the point, babygirl 😇

Be a bad girl and he'll scold you every now and then with a deep thrust or two, just to leave your body aching for it even more than before

But be a good girl for him, and he'll slowly start to draw circles around your clit with his fingers

And if you moan all nice and prettily for him, and take it just like he asked you to, he'll let you cum around his cock ❤

But start to buck your hips and he'll immediately stop, give you another hard smack, and go back to the waiting game and he will continue to edge you like this until you can behave

If you were good, after all this, he'll reward you with some 'proper' sex

He will be so fucking hard and aching for it, he will literally rail you into the sofa/mattress/desk/ground etc. 🥵

A round or two of some hard, fast stuff, or maybe some slow, deep rounds if that's what you want

Speaking of what you want: be good during his little game, and he will give you THE WORLD afterwards. Literally whatever you want, sexually or otherwise

And he will praise the shit out of you too 🥺

"You were so good babygirl, not getting carried away like that, just because daddy asked"

"So pretty and obedient. You've made daddy very happy. Now let daddy make you feel good"

Etc. Stuff like that. You're his little angel 🥺🤧

But if you were really naughty, then he didn't even let you cum, and you're definitely not getting any good dick after, sorry boo 😔

Okay, so one of his favourite times to play this game is when he's at his desk doing work and you're being needy 🤭 if it's at his desk, he'll have you facing him rather than outwards

Not that there aren't times he's more than willing to let his needy, little baby sit on his thigh/cock and get herself off on him while he works. That's just not true. He enjoys that too 🤗

But he likes doing at his desk because, when he rails you after, he can fuck you into the desk, which is one of his favourite things to do 🤪

Daisuke definitely enjoys the addition of cockwarming to the *cough* dynamic that you two have going. It adds a little spice and variety

But it's not just that. I don't know if you'd say he actually has a cockwarming kink because he doesn't fixate on it, but he does like the connection, and the feeling of you being around him for extended periods of time

It's also very comforting and stress-relieving

It's because of this that it's not the only time he'll do it

Sometimes, he'll stay inside you for a little while after having sex, hold you close and breathe in your scent it's very relaxing 🥺🤧

But that's only every now and then

Y'all, I'm tearing up, like 🥲��

Would he secretly do it in front of other people? (like under a blanket or something)

Probably 🤤 as long as you were okay with it. Consent, y'all 🙌

Okay, but like, imagine: him whispering dirty little things in your ear, deep and rasping, his breath ghosting over your neck as his hands grip your hips and ever so slightly gyrate our hips around his cock. And all the while you're trying not to make a noise in front of everyone. I- 😳

And now I'm being taken away to horny jail. I shall take my leave💀

♡ Katou Haru ♡

For Haru, cockwarming is much more of a personal, romantic thing than a kinky thing, if you get me

Staying inside you while you curl up together after sex is basically his favourite thing to do 🥺

He loves the feeling of being so close to you – literally inside you – but this time in a non-sexual way

Physical and emotional connection is so important to him 🥺🥰

Catch him wrapping his hands around you, burying his head in your neck, playing with your hair, and peppering your back, neck and shoulders with kisses and love bites

Not that cockwarming is completely non-sexual for him. He definitely gets sexual gratification from staying inside you especially if he came inside you 🤫😏

It just sort of completes the experience 😚

If you wanted to try a game-type punishment/reward scenario with him, he wouldn't be outright opposed to it, but he might be a bit bashful and need some convincing

He'll probably be the one struggling not to move, though. Just saying 🤭

I can definitely see Haru as the kind to like casual cockwarming, without much of a sexual thing going on, once he gets introduced to it

Just, like, having you sitting on his cock while he finishes up some paperwork, or sitting watching TV, maybe even doing it discreetly while being on a video call with someone oop 🙊🙈

He might be a bit embarrassed about it at first, but the more you do it, the less it bothers him

It's like a cute bonding experience???

Like, fuck yes 😩 just spending quality time with him inside you like that

Not that it never turns sexual. You might have been sitting with him inside your for close to an hour while he's busy, but the desire has just been building in him non stop, and before you know it, he's bucking up into you, his hands pulling at your clothes and his work forgotten, because he neEDS TO FUCK YOU, LIKE RIGHT NOW

Needy Haru is my weakness 😩 Like, YES. Satisfy yourself in my pussy 🥺 Cum inside me in me as much as you want, Detective 🤤

*cough* enough about me...

I guess you could say Haru has more of a cockwarming kink than Daisuke does, but it's...less 'kinky' in a sexual way??

Does this even make any sense anymore??? Does anyone get what I mean?? Because it makes sense to me 😭

The times it does get more sexual is normally just after he's first inside you during sex

Sometimes he'll pause after easing all the way in and just ask for you to both stop for while, so he can feel you around him, the anticipation and sensations eating away at him

The first time he tried that, he literally came from nothing else, he found it so arousing 🤫

When he does that, you can lowkey maybe hiGHKEY feel him getting bigger and harder inside you LIKE–

He probably didn't even realise he was into this kind of thing

It was just that, one time he forgot to actually pull out before falling asleep. And then he woke up the next morning, you in his arms, looking like an angel sent from heaven basking in the light streaming through the windows, feeling the most rested he's ever felt, his heart swelling in his chest, and tears of bliss pricking at his eyes, and he just–

He was in love if he somehow wasn't before

I'm LITERALLY bawling over here 😭😭 Why do I do this to myself? 🤡

Haru is pretty shy about all this, though. He would literally NEVER tell anyone else about it because he just knows they won't understand he's taking it to the GRAVE 💀😂

Earlier on when you first started getting into it, he used to get all flushed and embarrassed about having the verbalise asking if you wanted to sit on his cock, or if he could stay inside you after sex so freaking cute 🥺

He really went >//<

Which is why, as you two got more used to the concept and each other's wants and needs, and less talking was needed, he settled into it way more

But he really just loves spending this quality time with you, whether or not it ends up in sex

Catch me casually sitting on my man Haru's dick while we read the newspaper together or something 🥺

Can you tell I'm alone this Valentine's Day? 🤡

Okay, that's it from me. Peace out, my bambinos✌😋

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captainaikus · 2 years ago

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okay i think i figured out the issue as to why my last ask from our convo didn’t sent (not from this morning). cause i had sent one a while ago and you never responded so i thought it was a glitch or you just didn’t get it or you’d finally gotten sick of me. i had a picture attached (my screensaver) so that’s probably why it didn’t sent. i just let out a huge sigh of relief cause i thought you’d finally gotten sick of me 😭😭. but thankfully that is not the case 🥹🥹 *gestures to the ask from this morning*. okay so i’ll just send it again if that’s alright. *ahem*

also. i think im finally ready to come off anon. surprise?? i was thinking about it for a while cause we’ve talked a lot by now (2 months almost i think?) and i consider you one of my online friends (im okay even if it’s not reciprocated). and it just felt right. you can still call me starry if you want (i love the nickname it’s so cute 😭❤️).

okay so here’s the actual ask

BELLE!!!! I’m honored (abt your screensaver) 😌😭🤧. I spontaneously change it to different TR panels and choosing one for the ending was so hard but I ended up choosing a classic.

Heads ups this is gonna be a long one I’m sorry .

Ohhh what kind of sensitive topics if you don’t mind me asking? I personally feel like topics are talk about raw things are some of the best pieces of writing. Another reason why hurt/comfort is one of my favorite tropes. Just exploring the angst and hurt and hard to deal with feelings into understanding and comfort and closure really hits for me.

And same here. Every time I get on Pinterest it’s just. Hot shirtless fictional character. Hot shirtless fictional character. Hot shirtless fictional character. Angst fanart. Hot shirtless fictional character. And then I end up going down the rabbit hole of trying to save all of them while simultaneously finding more and it becomes an endless cycle 💀💀💀.

Pshhhh the Izana fanart had me wheezing. Just the absolute judgmental look in Izanas face. I just know Kakucho was ready to pounce on Izana to hold him back from hunting down Shion adhkbffjjgg. And ofc it was Shion because who else 😭💀. I’m complementing if I should change my screensaver to one of the hundreds of Izana pictures I have saved (rip my storage 🥲) but I think I’m gonna keep the Takemikey one a bit longer mostly because if I change it that means I’m finally slowly starting to come to terms with the fact that the manga is over AND IM NOT READY FOR THAT YET DANGIT. OH!! And I can’t believe I forgot to mention that I finally changed my pfp on tumblr. I ended up picking Takemitchy because the end of TR was fast approaching. And I also changed my theme from orange-flowers-in-the-sunset to purple-clouds-during-the-early-morning. I’m quite proud of it if I do say so myself 😌.

If you do decide to start writing TR content then you have my full support. But even if you don’t then that’s totally okay too. I don’t wanna accidentally pressure you into it with my constant rambling about it. But if you do pls let me know so I can celebrate the fact that one of my favorite writers is gonna start writing/doing TR content 👀🥳. Rindo is a great place to start. He needs more content I hardly see any for him as compared to Mikey, Izana, Chifuyu, Mitsuya, and etc. My baby needs some love too.

Dude Reo had me when he did the super hot eyebrow thing LIKE SIR NO REASON TO DO THIS TO ME. NOT TO MENTION HIS DID IT TWICE?!?!? And the freaking HEADPATS he was giving Nagi???? Nagi no offense but can we pls share your bf?

And ofc take your time with your fics. Amazing things aren’t produced in a day. They need to be edited and fleshed out and rewritten. All a hundred times over. So take your time and don’t let anyone pressure you into doing more than you want to because at the end of the day this is YOUR blog and YOUR writing. Personally, I’m just happy with the interaction 😊❤️. NOT THAT YOUR WRITING ISNT AMAZING IT IS but a lot of authors just don’t interact and I wanna get to know the amazing person behind the beautiful writing too you know? Makes all if it more real I think. But that’s just me.

Ohhhh man I’ve heard quite a few things about Kaiser and I’m still undecided abt him cause new characters can be hot as they wanna be but if they hurt one of my babies (unjustly) then it’s on sight 😤😤.

“Dommed his way through it” agjfshbcfhjhg. Basically 😭💀. I read someones post saying how much they love him yet he’s got the personality of an apple and I was like yes but no but yes but no while laughing. Baby boys been through so much I think he deserves a break 😭.

Yes expose the flawed systems of this world 😤😤. Seriously though, I’ve heard so many stories about how models are treated and it makes me so sad because they really are some of the sweetest people out there (you’re a perfect example) and yet they go through so much. For me, I come up with stories and characters that often go through or have a personality trait of mine so that I can sort of analyze and work through it in my writing (that is if I don’t decide to go the angst route ofc). And its almost always done unconsciously . So it’s therapeutic for me.

I’m glad you’re doing well!! I’m on break rn and having no work to do is so weird because I’m so used to being productive and working all the time. So that that when I don’t have work I’m just like. Suspicious that I’m gonna miss a deadline or something and everything feels off balance . Trying to break that habit and just learn how to relax again.

Well he’s obviously wrong because your shirt looked amazing 🙄 (even tho I wasn’t there). Men. I swear if fictional men were real, real men would be sweating so much harder than they aufesst are because women are realizing that we deserve better than the bare minimum. They’d also very much be scared for their lives cause if our fictional men found out how we were being treated just due existing it would be all over for them. Sorry abt that bit. the state of the world makes me feel a lot of intense emotions sometimes.

Stuff abt me huh? Hmmmm well I like to write, eat, and sleep. I need more hobbies 💀. I like to learn new things whether it be about animals, politics, wars, or art. I love reading and books. One day I want to have a whole room set aside as a library in my house with two floors and a walking ledge and those rolling ladders and stairs. The whole Beauty and the Beast library but small enough to fit in a small house. I like meeting new people. The things you can learn from a single conversation astound me. I like researching any topic that catches my eyes and analyzing it so much that it unknowingly becomes a hyperfixation. Idk it just scratches an itch in my brain. I want to travel the world one day. And learn and speak and write fluent Spanish, Arabic, and French. I also like leather jackets and comfy clothes and eye makeup. Oh and I like listening to music a lot. Especially walking outside with my earbuds in while it’s cold in the late afternoon when it’s dark but there’s still light and laying in the grass on a hill.

Shows: EXTRAORDINARY ATTORNEY WOO!!! I love that show. It’s been a minute since I’ve watched it tho. Gotta start binging again. But I usually don’t watch shows unless they really catch my eye. OH!!! But I’m short excited for the Percy Jackson tv show coming soon!! Reliving my childhood in 24 minutes every week is gonna be a real treat.

Anime: I’m not watching anything new atm. I binged one piece over the summer though and got to the Sabody arc (early 400s). I’m rewatching TR for the 3rd time this month tho. I cant make myself reread the manga yet it’s gonna be too much for me to handle too soon 🥹🥹🥹. WAIT I TAKE IT BACK. I’m currently watching Blue Lock and Chainsaw Man. I cant believe I forgot 💀💀. Oh and I’m also rewatching the Ranking of Kings and Banana Fish (I don’t know what made me decide rewatching this angst fest was a good idea especially with TR ending but I’m here now so 🥲🥲🥲).

SNACK: Tbh honest I’ll eat anything. Either I’m a vacuum or I’m incapable of eating so my body lovesssss me 💀. Im honestly more of a meal person. I love spicy and savory food tho. My mom never gave me a bunch as a kid so when I eat them now it’s very rare and even then I’m very picky abt which ones I like. I do like caramel, milk chocolate, or whole chocolate flavored sweets tho.

Manga/Books: I’m currently rereading the wrath and the dawn, reading belladonna, and reading HP Lovecrafts stories. On the manga side, I’m reading Chainsaw man (cause I wanna stay ahead of the anime) and I’m finally starting Moriarty the patriot.

I’ve been meaning to read more nonfiction books cause I can gain a broader perspective but i don’t know where to start or find an hood ones or find ones that aren’t mainstream but secretly awful. Do you have any recs?

The Bachira b-day suit panel is very much appreciated 👀😂. ALSO I would love to chat but for some reason my tumblr messaging is broken? I even tried on my laptop and it didn’t work. So I sadly excepted my fate of asks only communication a while ago 😞🤧. Also also some people really need to learn what boundaries are. Like just in general. AND NOOOO THAT FIC IS ONE MY FAVORITES ITS ADORABLE. And ofc that doesn’t erase the fact that your writing has improved by a lot (it has wonderfully btw) but you should also be proud of some of your early works no matter how cringe they seem to be.

How was your day? I hope uni has been going well? As always, I hope you have a good day!!! *sends many virtual hugs*

- ✨ anon

Tags for this ask : sensitive topics; mentions of depression, SH and just me talking about my writing, opinions and life

I- this is first time I’m experiencing an ask based tumblr glitch. I’ve only heard of it from other writers, but experiencing it? This was first for me and I’m sorry that happened to you. I promise I haven’t gotten sick of you and I still look very much forward to your texts . I was wondering where you were after I sent that response out - cause I thought you got tired of me instead 🥹

And omg when I saw you come off anon! 🥹 I was so excited!! Hi!! And ofc you’re one of my online friends as well! One of the first actually 👉🏻👈🏻 like- yeah I used to speak to writers here- but the relationship wasn’t a very consistent one. Like if I’m being point blank about my opinion, It’s not very often that I speak to authors and writers here as idk why but I get the feeling that they see me as a person using them for the sake of reblogging my works and liking them (a few writers being exceptions ofc) - which isn’t the case cause I can get by fine without their help; and I can tell when I’m not wanted even if I can’t see you. So you’re right, a lot of authors don’t interact and they mostly stick to their own circles (again, some of them being exceptions ofc) and me being me, I’ve never done well with crowds; and I’m a loner here - I closed in on myself and didn’t interact with any blog - it kinda helped cause I didn’t have majority opinion of how and what a character should be like or how I should write them shoved in my face. And I focused on interacting with my followers and people who took interest in my work - cause at the end of the day I’m creating content for you guys - who follow me and for myself cause I consider it therapy.

but yay! I finally saw you! ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ and ofc I’ll still call you starry!

I’m sorry for closing my chat box; but there was the need to put boundaries for some people ૮ ◞ ﻌ ◟ ა(the amount of spam I got from dating websites and meetups and suggestive messages is crazy and then the ask to sequels came in when I opened it so I had to close it again, and I’m sorry you couldn’t reach me :/ I’m creating a new account so that I can follow some of you back and have fun - a first time thing for me so I’m kinda nervous ૮₍˶Ó﹏Ò ⑅₎ა )

I changed my screensaver again

Sorry I had to do it. It was Rindou and he looked very pretty - and maybe I’ll put gojo back idk- I don’t like indecisiveness but atp it’s just me when I go to get food with friends and screensavers (and pfps)

I’m glad to see someone agree with me abt writing hurt/comfort topics. When I mentioned about sensitive topics what I was talking about stresses on mental health - ranging from mild to severe issues; topics such as depression, and SH thoughts, eating disorders and stuff like that as well how people think about their body image and just very overwhelming emotions in general. Cause these are real issues and speaking from experience, people don’t talk about it cause it’s the case where they have to think twice before saying something to someone or afraid that they would judge them if they opened about it. I’m not a professional but since I’ve experienced this before (and at times still do) I wanted to write about it and since breaking mirrors was so well received - I made a decision to write something deeper and more intense which covers these topics. And what I really like you saying is that these are raw forms of writing which is very true cause the feedback I got for breaking mirrors just proved that people liked my fic and provided them comfort in some way - which means that it was relatable. And that’s what I am aiming for since this is an ‘x reader’ insert.

My Pinterest looks very weird. I’m omw to posting a shirtless man’s pics on my pinned post who idek for the sake of making my blog look good (literally on the cusp of doing it and maybe I will- Sam smith dropped unholy and it’s hoe hoe hoe season too + the fact that we’re gonna slut shame men on this blog) I spend a lot of time on Pinterest cause of pretty people tbh -

I really like your pfp! You got me thinking of changing mine honestly- but Aiku *heartclench* my love - I’m actually in the middle of making one - (*≧ω≦) and I did check out your blog! It’s so chaotic and cute! And I really love the color as well - it’s very soothing (˶‾᷄ ⁻̫ ‾᷅˵)

Gonna tell you now- I had an emperor! Izana that I started months ago, kisaki and Rindou now. Cause I thought of something and it made me go ‘holy hell. That’s- I have to write that down’ and Sanzu’s as well cause I have a lot of art of him saved - his hair is so pretty pink 🥺 but I need time to work on it and I can’t promise it soon cause I have 30+ something wips pending (*T.T)

Everyone’s thirsting for Reo, (me praying at my Oliver shrine hoping that he comes out good and his va is what I imagined so I’m excited for it-) he does give off mature vibes and I’m like 100% sure he’s gonna be a sugar daddy on the market. *wheezing* Nagi share your bf 😭

Istg Izana’s expression - public execution. Time for them to be canceled on Twitter. I love seeing small fanarts like this. And I even found one Mikey art that had me thinking abt changing the theme of my blog

I said what i said. Rin doms his way out of problems- personality of an apple 💀 but they like him. It makes sense

And yeah we should expose issues. So for modeling, honestly it’s not about the body cause I’m pretty average looking like seriously - breaking mirrors was based on my experience; but it’s about the poise, confidence and manners you have as well. (although I have seen some of them be bitches for no reason? Being nice doesn’t cost you anything - being mean is just gonna make karma bite you in the ass) but I think people everywhere are beautiful - body standards shouldn’t determine anyone’s self worth. And I know models look pretty, it’s all about owning the image. Like I have peach fuzz. I don’t shave it instead I ended up cutting my hair short - which exposed it more. Instead of feeling upset about it, I just decided to own the look and be more confident cause this is the way I am and it changed a lot of things for me. In short, Willy Wonka was right about confidence being key -

As for my writing, I’m good at reading people tbh; and the same goes for characters as well - so I draw my own conclusions after dwelling on the thought - and yeah writing is therapeutic. Oh god ik that feeling on when you’re on a break and the feeling of having a jumpscare comes over you (>﹏<) can’t even have good time in peace

Ik it’s a good shirt - hmph. I’m not gonna take an opinion from someone who wears sweatpants and a loose tee. *wheezing* - real men would be sweating if they saw Aiku, Rindou and *proceeds to name 160 husbandos* at my door.

I love the idea for beauty and the beast library 🥺 how I wish I had that - *sigh* and yes! You can learn a lot of things from one convo with a person and if you think about it you literally have a lifetime to know everything about them - cause that one convo is never enough. I totally get the whole thing with a hyperfixation - researched a lot about Egypt when I was younger; and got fixated to a point my mom had to drag me away from the computer- fun fact; Arabic has words similar to Indonesian and Hindi! Leather jackets are so cool and comfy clothes are literally the best thing to sleep in - my ears get cold during the winter or when it sets in- so I wear headphones and walk around places.

Woo young woo is so precious and I love the way they introduce themselves - woo to the young to the woo - 🐋

For anime, I’m contemplating if I should re-watch Vinland saga - the way I cried in the last episode. I. Bawled my eyes out and I still get teary when I think about it 😭; latest updates on snacks, so I bought a lot of sour candy (yea I eat a lot of sour candy)- and my roommates thought it was really sweet. Ended up with headaches over how sour it was and accompanied me to the store, ended up buying sweet things and finished most of the candy and left me the mints ಠ_ಠ

So I mostly read books on history, politics and psychology. To get started I’d recommend going for some autobiography or biography; like geisha of Gion or historical fiction like memoirs of a Geisha - that’s what got me started. I’m glad you liked my comfort fic - a creation that makes me embarrassed cause when I read it the nicknames there are different and these are more solid and I use them for every fic atp. But yeah my fics have come a long way and no matter how cringe they seem, everyone has a starting point in their hobbies and this was one ‘em.

Speaking of Uni, when I had the Mikey and haitani brothers screensaver; remember that guy who made a comment about my weight that I told you about, calling him Danny btw- he said that there was a naked man on my screen.

Okay… and? Do you want the same screensaver I have? Will that make you feel better? So yeah there’s that and Uni had me by the neck cause of this one prof (T.T*) but life’s been going well otherwise! I hope you’re doing well (working on that side account so that I chat with you!) and sorry for the late response (ㅅ´ ˘ `)♡

*sending koala hugs back*

#Belle.☏#.lost sheep : ✨ anon

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angieloveshua · 2 years ago

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Hi,.....if you don't mind me asking, can I ask your top 5 (or top 3) favorite characters from Bing an Ben? And why do you love them? And your top 5 favorite moments from the novel? Sorry if you've answered this question before....Thanks....

My favourite characters in Bing An Ben are:

This is obvious, my #1 is He Yu. I just love him. He's my comfort character, and I relate a lot to him. He's extremely well-written. I can't talk enough about how he managed to go through his mental illness all those years. And I just love the way he loves, and... My God, I will make this post too long. Maybe I could just do a post talking about him.

My #2 is Xie Qingcheng. I have to say that I wasn't fascinated at the beginning, but this was all Meatbun's plan. When I got to know his side of the story, I cried for that man, like, seriously, I just want him to love himself. 🤧

#3. Duan Wen is also an interesting character. He knows how to play his cards. I believe that he would've been a honorable man (and maybe have a happy ending with Li Yun 🥲) if it weren't for Duan Cuizhen's influence.

Plus: Although I hate him, I really do hate him, I have to say that I'm deeply interested in Anthony's psychology as a character.

Now, favourite scenes:

My #1 is, of course, when Xie Qingcheng finally confessed his feelings for He Yu. That scene was glory. That's what love it's really like. Shakespeare was left shaking when Meatbun wrote: “I love you in regret, I love you in uneasiness, I love you in the absence of words, I love you in tears.”

I DEVELOPED A TRAUMA BECAUSE OF THIS SCENE, seriously, I realised I have a problem with break-ups when Xie Qingcheng left He Yu. I cried since he opened his mouth until the next chapter. I was so heartbroken that I can't recall the dialogue (and I remember entire paragraphs of BAB).

When He Yu cried because he couldn't take it anymore and confessed to Xie Qingcheng. My boy, I was in tears. But at the same time, it was so beautiful. As I said once in a post, who the fuck is Romeo in front of my little devil.

That scene at the beginning of the novel when they were dealing with Jiang Lanpei, and He Yu said, “You act like a fool, I act like I'm normal.” It's still on my mind because this scene reveals so much about He Yu's conflict with his mental illness and his “perfect facade.”

When He Yu and Xie Qingcheng escaped from Yi Ahwen in a motorcycle while she was shooting at them. I felt like I was watching Fast To Furious. Just fucking awesome.

Plus: And, of course, I go back to the extras every time something goes wrong in my life (almost all the time).

#bab #angie q&a #read bab daily agenda

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katnissmellarkkk · 4 years ago

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Okayyyyy, I got massive stomach cramps and don’t feel great right now so I decided it’s a good time read and blog chapter four for THGagain 😅🤧🥳

I feel nauseous as it is, Katniss narrating Haymitch laying in barf is 🤢

Peeta and her just exchanged a glance about Haymitch, they’re already silently communicating 🥰🥰🥰

Yes, I will be blogging every minuscule detail of Everlark’s interactions and what about it?

Katniss and Peeta already have a silent agreement, they’re bonding here already 🥰🥰🥰 yes my shipper comments are coming in hot and strong like a freight train this morning they’re surprising even me ok

Okay, Katniss shut up about Haymitch smearing his vomit across his face I really chose the wrong time to read this chapter, y’all pray for my stomach

If Haymitch is sort of fat the way Katniss kind of makes him sound (calling him paunchy and implying a beer belly) then her and Peeta really must both be considerably strong because hauling a drunk, 240ish pound (I’m just guessing his weight) man can’t be an easy feat.

Why did Katniss just give me the image of Haymitch’s hairy chest? 😂😂😂😂😂 she’s so over the top descriptive in some ways and in others, she just glazes over important details like 😅😅😅

Of course she sees everything Peeta does as trying to get one up her in strategy and not because he’s a genuine or caring guy 😅😅😅 I don’t blame her she’s going to a death match after all but I still laugh, knowing what’s coming and who Peeta is.

Speaking of this scene reminds me though, I don’t remember who said it recently but I saw a different post about this idea and I really liked it : what if Peeta is so comfortable / casual about bathing or caring for a drunk Haymitch because he’s experienced this same kind of interaction with his father? The man who apparently doesn’t stop his wife from beating at least one of his kids? What if he drinks and that’s why this part with Haymitch isn’t seeming to throw Peeta at all? Maybe it’s a far-fetched idea but I thought it was worth mentioning 🤷🏼‍♀️

Oooo though, Peeta right from the start couldn’t stand the people of the Capitol any more than Katniss could. They have more in common than I even thought.

Also though, Katniss thinking to herself that she would make a Capitol worker deal with drunk, dirty Haymitch as a form of vengeance because of their privilege and idiocy versus Peeta who doesn’t want revenge is really a good, very subtle show of character and who they are when they start out in the series. And how Katniss was really stuck in a middle ground between Gale’s ideology and Peeta’s, and how she evolves and fully comes to Peeta’s side at the end. Let’s be real though, by the end I don’t think even Gale was on his own side anymore when it came to justice and vengeance and war.

Awww Katniss is just suddenly realizing Peeta’s kind at his very core 🤧😫🥺🥰🥲. I need to stop writing about every little detail and just get on with this chapter sorry to anyone who’s reading this wreck.

“Kind people have a way of working their way inside me and rooting there. And I can't let Peeta do this. [...] I decide, from this moment on, to have as little as possible to do with the baker's son” yeah, this resolve really worked out for you, girlfriend 👍🏻

Also I kind of love how at the start she would constantly refer to Peeta as “the baker’s son” like Mr. Mellark is just chilling with no name, he’s just the baker and Peeta is just known as his son. Can you imagine if we got Peeta’s or someone else’s point of view and Katniss was referred to the coal miner’s daughter? Like that Barbara Streisand movie that I’ve never seen but my gramma has on VHS.

Okay she just threw the cookies from Mr. Mellark out of the window and like 😤😓 like what if my idea that Peeta made those cookies specially for her is true and the brat just tossed them out the window like talk about ungrateful kids nowadays

“the packet of cookies hits the ground and bursts open in a patch of dandelions by the track.” I don’t know what this is exactly meant to symbolize but I’m gonna pretend it confirms my Peeta baked the cookies idea 😎😎😎

Katniss’ flashback to Prim and her collecting dandelions and going through the plant book to find more edible plants is nice if for nothing else, it shows Prim actually taking an active part in helping them survive. I need to be nicer to Prim, I gotta keep trying to turn this bus around.

Katniss’ descriptions of going places alone for the first time without her father is so sad 🥺🥺🥺

Also though she said it was the first time past the fence “without my father’s weapons to protect me”. So did Mr. Everdeen have more than a bow and arrow? Because Katniss says one line later that she retrieved the small bow and arrow her dad made her for a little protection, which is a). Super cute because I never realized her dad made her mini hunting gear 🥺🥺🥺 and b). Wording to me just sounded like Mr. Everdeen was in possession of more weapons than just a bow but maybe it’s just me 🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️

It’s so melancholy though that Katniss never had truly hunted before her father died. He hunted and she just came along. He never saw her shoot her first deer. 🥺

I feel like the segment here is very important, “Plants are tricky. Many are edible, but one false mouthful and you're dead. I checked and double-checked the plants I harvested with my father's pictures. I kept us alive.”

I always forget that in Katniss’ eyes Peeta was rich. She even just referred to his father as one of her wealthier clients.

Okay but girlfriend really said she dug up katniss roots with her toes and then had her mother and sister eat them 😒😒😒 gurl, thats nasty

Also her father’s “as long as you can find yourself, you’ll never starve” was such a dad joke, omg 😅😅😅🥲😂😂😂😂, he sounds so nerdy

Ummm so Mrs. Everdeen started singing and that was a key moment to let Katniss know she was better but like ... does everyone in Twelve sing now? Did both her parents have good voices? Does this lady ever sing again? She barely has any speaking lines I don’t know where she would sing

Aww, that part where Katniss says she could never get past her mother’s abandonment and could never really forgive it resonates with me. Idk why because I never went through anything like that. But I’m unforgiving so. Also it seems a lot more accurate and true to a real girl’s reaction than a lot of other directions that could have gone.

Awww, Katniss’ regret 🥺. I feel that too. You wanna be able to express your anger because you have so much hurt but there’s a part of you deep down that wants to work things out still 🤧🤧🤧. Esp if you’re probably about to die.

Okay, sidebar but fish stew and strawberries sounds nasty 🤮 that might just be my bad stomach right now

Bahahaha I’m sorry bad place to launch but “I’m so glad I didn’t drown that cat, so he can comfort my sister in my absence” got me

Now I think of it though. Parallel beginning to end. Buttercup comforts Prim when she thinks Katniss surely can’t come home again and then he comforts Katniss in the end when she knows for a fact that Prim can’t come home again 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Ugh I feel her loneliness though. I hate when I’m away from people I love and I’m strange places with people I don’t know but will one day become close as family to and I think about what everyone else is doing without me. That’s just like ... the loneliest feeling ever. 😭😢😓😥

“Probably the drawers hold any number of nightgowns, but I just strip off my shirt and pants and climb into bed in my underwear.” This works very well with my headcanons for post canon and all my AUs. Basically how her and Peeta sleep in my mind 😎😎😎🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

Katniss can’t cry even after the day she’s had because she’s too used to pushing back on all her emotions and forcing herself to be strong, to the point that it’s ingrained in her even when she’s facing an almost definite promise of death 😥😥😥

There’s probably a parallel between her comfort being the train rocking her to sleep and Peeta rocking her to calm her down in Catching Fire. 🤷🏼‍♀️. Idek where the parallel really is but I thought it so I said it that’s how this works.

Does Effie feel like repetition somehow makes her words more impactful? 🤨

Katniss’ practically coming through with the whole “I put my clothes from yesterday back on since they’re not dirty yet.” Kind of just reminds the reader that she probably has to typically wear all her clothes until they’re so filthy she has no choice but to wash them in the sink or lake.

How does her braid still look acceptable? If I ever sleep in any hairstyle it looks like the 80s crimped pony when I wake up 🥲.

Why is Effie swearing and Haymitch is laughing while Peeta looks embarrassed? Do we ever get an answer for this?

Awww, Katniss has only had an orange one time in her life, when her father bought one for her, for New Years 😭😭😭😭. Like the fact that she doesn’t even recognize orange juice because she’s never had it 😔😔😔 and the fact that an orange, one of the nastiest fruits in the world with its vile taste and texture is a treat to her 😫😫😫

I agree with you though, boo, about coffee. It does taste bitter and thin 😖😖😖

Also I know her mother was a merchant growing up but part of me thinks her mom experienced all these luxuries (the velvet dress, the coffee, etc) because she was close to the Donners.

Peeta and her have never had hot choccy 😩😩😩 well I decide they have it every day after the war

Omg her savage comments to her mother 😅😅😅

Is Haymitch drinking a Bloody Mary? 🤣🤣

Ugh I forget how irritating Haymitch is at the start? Like I’m trying to remember does he really not ever even try with the tributes or is that a show he puts on to make it seem like he doesn’t care? He must care if he can recall every single one of them for the memory book in the end of Mockingjay.

Katniss and Peeta are still having silent conversations like y’all kids are already married basically 🤷🏼‍♀️ I don’t make these rules I just push them

They’ve never had a real conversation but this is their third silent one 🤣😅🤧

Honestly Peeta is written though as such a love interest from the start. I was thinking about that last night, that when I first read these books with zero expectations of anything, there was always something that hit different in her narration of Peeta versus Gale and every other male she encounters. I get why it’s seen that she secretly harbored a crush on him from the start. I was in like 9th grade when I originally read these books leave my stupid newfound revelations alone

“I'm surprised to see the hardness in his eyes. [Peeta] generally seems so mild.” This is why I love him. Peeta’s so much more than a generic kind person. He has so many layers.

Even Katniss is shocked by the different aspects of his personality and he’s not just some walk on nice dude 😅🤦🏼‍♀️ it’s a journey for her in the first book to get to know him and all his different layers.

And I kind of feel like the people who say he’s super weak or child coded ... just never truly understood Katniss’ changing perspective on him. Like somehow a few people ended up getting trapped in how Katniss saw him at the start or something. That made no sense ignore it it’s a working theory.

Omg Peeta’s got some violence in him. Honestly I always liked how he just unexpectedly knocked the glass from Haymitch’s hand and shattered it on the floor. Like he smacked it hard.

Somehow I feel like Peeta’s ability to lash out stems from his abuse ngl 🤷🏼‍♀️

Also I love that Peeta talks about both him and Katniss. “That’s very funny. Just not to us.” Because they’re already a team. They’ve already got an unspoken understanding. It’s so beautiful 🥺

Idk why it makes me laugh that Haymitch “consider this for a moment” before just punching Peeta. Like I know in hindsight he punched Peeta here as a test to see if bread boy was a true fighter (he is, y’all 😭) but it reads on the first time as Haymitch is drunk and is slow on the uptake 😅.

Katniss’ diving a knife into the table seems less impressive honestly than Peeta managing to knock a glass from Haymitch’s hand, all the way across the room 😑🤭

Also she braces herself to get hit as well but can you even imagine if Haymitch hit a little girl? Like she’s not Prim but she’s a five foot like one sixteen year old who probably weighs less than 100 pounds. Just saying, imagine how much different we’d all feel about their mentor if he punched her too 🤐

“Did I actually get a pair of fighters?” 🥺🥺🥺 you have no idea, old geez 😭😭😭😭😭

Peeta is so sad though when you realize he just took a hit and nonchalantly puts some ice on like it’s nothing.

Also Haymitch saying don’t ice it, let the mark show, must be a foreign thing to Peeta, considering the implied abuse from his mother. He’s probably spent his whole life icing bruises and marks to make them less visible to people at school 😭😭😭😭

Bahahaha “that’s against the rules”. Peeta is such a rule follower at the start. Probably because as a merchant he was better off than the Seam so he was likely raised that if you disobey or get in trouble, you’ll lose the food or money or business that’s keeps you surviving, versus Katniss who just straight up had to break the law in order to live. I’m just making notes here this isn’t a serious thought yet.

I wasn’t aware Katniss was experienced at throwing knives 😦. Girl, you always had a good shot at these games, why you sell yourself short? Why does Peeta as well? Lord, what district 12 kids need is a motivational speaker and perhaps some self-help books.

“Not entirely hopeless” sounds like a compliment coming from Haymitch 😭😅

“Attractive enough” is an indication they’re both v v v sexy 😎😏 I’m kidding no one vague blog about me

“the best-looking tributes always seem to pull more sponsors.” Side eying you, Finnick 😛

So do a lot of kids resistant their stylists most years? Based on Haymitch’s advise to them it seems like he’s dealt with some temper tantrums 😅

Oh wow. She’s giving geographically explanations for the Capitol and its location and I got a D+ in geography so let’s move on because I don’t understand what place she could be referring to 🤧🤐

I do love how at the start she constantly refers to Peeta as either the baker’s son or his full name. 😅😂🥳

Awww Katniss is claustrophobic because of her father’s death 😭🥺🤧

“Both Peeta and I run to the window to see what we've only seen on television, the Capitol, the ruling city of Panem” they’re so young and little and sheltered 🤧🤧🤧🤧 like two kids their first time you take them to Disneyland. If Disneyland was trying to kill people, that is. Which it might be because those rides and their seatbelts never feel secure ya know what I’m saying I digress but still.

There’s a sweet shop in district 12??? I was over here thinking I invented it after the war in my fics??? I gotta rewrite now 😒

Okay how did Peeta’s waving get construed recently as being childlike? He literally just outright said he only waved at the people because one of them could be rich. It was blatantly to showcase the difference in Katniss and Peeta. Katniss walked away the second she grew disgusted by the Capitol people because she won’t perform for anyone. Peeta, who’s probably been performing to hide his mother’s abuse his whole life, knows how to manipulate a crowd and sees the importance in making powerful people like you. Even if you find them vile.

Katniss now going on about how she’s misjudged Peeta and he is a master manipulator. I mean, she ain’t wrong but she still ain’t right here either.

“His father showing up with the cookies and promising to feed Prim. Did Peeta put him up to that?” I seriously think Peeta did ask him to go give her the cookies, just not for the reason she thinks 😅.

I always thought his crying at the Justice Building/Train Station was genuine and legitimate but honestly, Katniss makes a good point here. We later do see how cunning and artful Peeta is with manipulating a crowd. He’s always 10 steps ahead of Katniss on that count. Maybe his crying was an act?

“Volunteering to wash Haymitch but then challenging him this morning when apparently the nice-guy approach had failed.” I don’t think that’s true 🤣😅. I think Peeta just got fed up.

“And now the waving at the window, already trying to win the crowd.” You could have waved too, Katty Deen 😂. It’s funny how she had a better opportunity to do all these things Peeta did to win people over. She’s a girl, she’s much smaller than him in the book, she’s pretty according to Haymitch, Prim, Gale and Peeta. If she’d cried at the station or waved to the crowd and then showcased her bow and arrow skills, she’d easily have been considered a potential Career.

“All of the pieces are still fitting together, but I sense he has a plan forming. He hasn't accepted his death. He is already fighting hard to stay alive. Which also means that kind Peeta Mellark, the boy who gave me the bread, is fighting hard to kill me.” No, dum dum. He’s fighting hard to be likable and keep you alive. I don’t think he had the Star Crossed Lovers planned from the get-go but he clearly knew he could be a key player making her the victor. And he is. But he also becomes one too and that’s just beautiful 🥺🤧😭😭🤧😭🥺😭😭🥺🤧🤧😭🥺🤧🤧😭🥺😭🥺

Okay, that’s all for my thoughts on chapter four! 🥳🥳🥳🥳 I know I carried on far too long but if you made it to the end, feel proud of yourself. Because I never shut up.

#this is probably littered with typos but yolo #thgagain #yes I will continue to use Jennifer gifs for these ok

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