#my cherry bear means the world to me 🥺

[1004tyun-archive]

mommyyy i already miss you so much ;///; i know i said you should sleep anytime but i guess it’s still hard cause i know that means i can’t talk to you… but your health is the most important to me!! 🥺😭🩷🩷

i got around an idea for gyu i had already told you about it so long ago hehe but i got it more polished so i have some sort of an outline~? i don’t think it’ll be smut tho >3< that’s all i got for now my love… work is how it is… can’t wait to be back home 🥺🩷

i love you my dear crystal gem 🥺🥹💎🩵🩷 sleep well my pretty lady <33

MY BABY.,,,

i know i’ve been slacking on my sleep schedule lately not being able to talk to you is so hard though :(( but i’ll try to be better about this i promise >< i don’t want you to worry about me!!

oooh a gyu idea? 👀👀 i can’t wait to hear about it! knowing you it’ll be wonderful~ 🥺🩵🩵

can’t wait for you to be back home so you can get some proper rest 🥺 i love you so much my sweet cherry fairy, i’ll try to get some rest >_< 🩵🩵🩵

[dizscreams]

We need more Instagram au I love yours you are so freaking talented

PART THREE BABY LETS GO?!

Instagram posts if you were dating Jack Champion PT. 3

tags: @ourloveisgod23 @xyzstar @wenvierismycomfort @wekiamo @h34rtsformilli @c8rdigan @teyamsgirll @aqellano @brakke-dino @aesthetixhoe @mbankfav @beary-rambles @gabbylovesreading

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y/nnn763 AVATAR PREMIERE!!!! @ jackchampion

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jackchampion OMG Avatar Premiere!!

| y/nnn763 yk were kinda cute together 😏

| jackchampion we’re*

| y/nnn763 SHUT 🤬 UP 🤬

user728 YESSSS

jakesullyismybbg62 OMGOMG

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jackchampion Plane

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y/nnn763 Good job Jack, you know what a plane is!

| baileybass So proud!

| misstrinitybliss 😂

| jackchampion You’re all jerks. 😑

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y/nnn763 him <3 @ jackchampion

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jackchampion ❤️❤️❤️

y/nnn763 Nvm I’m deleting this. He just bit me.

| jackchampion NO I DIDN’T

| y/nnn763 OH YOU DIDN’T?

| jackchampion I DIDN’T

| y/nnn763 FINE.

| user728 ooooo

| EthanLandrysWifee09 FIGHTFIGHTFIGHT

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y/nnn763 payback @ jackchampion

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jackchampion NOOOO

jackchampion FINE I ADMIT IT

jackchampion DELETE IT

jackchampion Please???

jackchampion Pretty please?!?!

jackchampion WITH A CHERRY ON TOP

| y/nnn763 ofc anything for you pookie 😍

| jackchampion Nvm I kinda like the picture it can stay up

| y/nnn763 ?!

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jackchampion I don’t post a lot of cute stuff of her so ❤️

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y/nnn763 you really have a way with words Champion

| jackchampion Thanks babe 😎

| y/nnn763 ofc my sweetiepie snookum cutie bear

| jackchampion You’re disgusting. JUST GIVE ME A NORMAL NICKNAME

| y/nnn763 Okay Jackie Bear 🥺

| jackchampion Get off Instagram permanently

devynnekoda cutiesss!

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y/nnn763 he’s sleeping 🤫

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jasminsavoybrown This is both creepy and cute

| y/nnn763 Thanks! :)

| jasminsavoybrown ❤️

masonthegooding Pour water on him

| y/nnn763 YES THATS SUCH A GOOD IDEA

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jackchampion As much as we like to joke on here I really do love her. This girl means the world to me! @ y/nnn763

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y/nnn763 AWWEEEE

y/nnn763 you’re so cringeee

y/nnn763 BUT I LOVE YOUUU

champi0n671 AW

usernothere72 WHEN IS IT MY TURN

ethansgirl did she make you post this?

| jackchampion Yes.

| y/nnn763 THIS RESPONSE DEFEATS THE WHOLE PURPOSE OF YOUR POST

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y/nnn763 he’s lurking.. @ jackchampion

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jackchampion I want everyone to know that she told me, “Go hide in the bushes and look creepy for Instagram!”

| y/nnn763 No I didn’t!

| jackchampion Yes you did! You sounded like a mom while you said it too

| y/nnn763 I don’t know what that is supposed to mean but I don’t want to hear it from someone who dresses like a middle aged dad

| jackchampion I’m abt to go to your room and tackle you

| y/nnn763 DO IT!!! you wont 😒

| user782 it’s been five minutes, any updates??

| y/nnn763 update: he did indeed tackle me ‼️

MORE COMMENTS THAN I USUALLY DO SO I HOPE YOU ENJOY LMAO and tyvm @sewnwires for helping me with some of the images!! I will def make another part with some of the other images you sent <33

[cherrypeaking]

hi cherry~ 🥺🫶🏾

it’s so easy to miss you, you know that?

it’s only been about an hour since you went to bed and i already miss you so much. you being in my life has felt like nothing short of a dream come true. i love talking for hours, i love getting to know you little by little, i love that we can talk about anything and i won’t feel scared to say what i’m really thinking. i don’t think i’ll ever get tired of telling you how wonderful you are~ you’re seriously so beautiful inside and out; you’re so kind and thoughtful and earnest and sweet. i’m so thankful that fate pulled its strings and got us to meet each other bc idk what i would be doing nowadays if i wasn’t talking to you! my daily life would be so boring ><

i love you, cherry. 🩵 i love what we have with each other, whatever label we decide to use for it doesn’t matter when it’s this powerful and means so much. i’ve never experienced the kind of love you’ve given me before, it makes me feel like i’m floating on a cloud ☁️ i hope the love i give you makes you feel the same way 🥺 thank you for being you.

there’s no one else like you in the world 🥺🫶🏾

-

your crystal gem 🩵💎

crystal 🥺🥺🩷💎

it’s so easy to miss you too ;_; you could be gone for like 10 minutes and i’d already be missing you 🥹 i didn’t think you’d miss me so much in return 🥺

i wanna keep talking to you for hours 🥺 i so wish we were closer so we wouldn’t have to worry so much about the timezone difference… it all really feels like a dream >< like when i joined i didn’t expect to necessarily even manage to make a friend here… but you came in my life and you’ve been nothing but sweet understanding and making me feel so safe happy and warm 🥺🩷 i’ll never get tired of saying i love you and just how beautiful you are 🥺🥲🩷 i want you to feel like the best person in the universe because that’s who you are to me 😖🩷🩷

i love you too crystal 🥺🥺 i really love what we have too and that we are just naturally letting it flow… your love definitely makes me feel so happy mommy 🥺🩷 i don’t think i’ve experienced something like this either… meeting someone and feeling all this so naturally after maybe only a month or two of talking and to have it reciprocated feels so unknown to me… 🥲🩷 i just wanna keep talking to you, and hopefully we will be able to do stuff together too one day 🥺

you’re my favorite person crystal gem 💎🥺🩷 please don’t stop being yourself 🥺🩷

the fact you signed your ask this way made me smile so hard >\\\<

— your cherry bear 🍒

[purplehoodiesandclementines]

A message from Simon 💜

Ok so like many of you, I would have loved for Simon to make an actual (i.e. non-dream version, more-than-voice) appearance in the teaser. Although obviously I respect all the creators' decisions and know this was only the first 4 minutes... (what can I say, I just miss him ok?)

But y'all, listen! I found a thing. Since we can rely on the YR creators to continue imbuing even the most minute details with meaning, I just realized that the tiny snippet we get of Simon singing already gives us a pretty good insight into his current head(heart?)space! And a rather heartbreaking one, I should say... 💔

So some geniuses over on Twitter already figured out that the song Simon sings at the end of the teaser is  Aldrig igen (må sådär) by Cherrie ft. Stormzy.

For reference, the section we hear Simon sing in the teaser starts around 2:00 min.

We should probably get a mother tongue speaker to give us a complete + proper translation of the lyrics - but until we do, check this out (this has only gone through google translate, so bear with me!):

(Feel Like This) Never Again

[You] say you'll change but I hardly believe it

...

We thought [it was] for real but that feeling went away

...

You and your lies, you go hand in hand

Deserve much better, took me a while to realize

[now these are the lines we actually hear Simon sing:]

Lying in bed, on a Saturday

In front of the tv, but what am I doing?

My feelings, they are fragile

The whole world will hear

It was a long time ago, but I've learned to

be alone, I'm the strongest

It will never happen again

It will never happen again

Because I don't want to feel like that

I don't want to feel like that

I don't want to feel like that

Who wants to feel like that

I don't want to feel like that

Tell me, who wants to feel like that?

Who wants to feel like that

I don't want to feel like that

I don't want to feel like that

It will never happen again

it will never happen again

Thought we were real, why did it feel fake? <- 😭

...

First you want to leave me, now you want to stay

Deserve much better, took me time to understand

I don't want to know if you feel guilty

It's the last thing I want to hear

Doesn't matter what you say now

You try, but we're over

Save your words

For someone else who wants to hear

...

Because I don't want to feel like that

I don't want to feel like that

I don't want to feel like that

...

It will never happen again

it will never happen again

...

So. There's that.

This is the song Simon has been singing over Christmas break... 🥺

And I gotta say, as much as it breaks my heart, I completely get where Simon is coming from and part of me is thinking "good for him". I just hope (and kind of know), as much as this is where he's at right now at the start of S2, this is not where he'll stay... Hell, it looks like things are gonna change in ways neither he nor we can even anticipate, and I'm SO here for it. 🔥💪

Also, can we just agree, the degree to which those lyrics apply to Simon's experience with Wille (his perspective at least) is ridiculous, right??!

SO looking forward to your thoughts on this!

[kimvvantae]

You know, I know you are a great writer. I mean you wrote TML which I adore so much. And then Umbra please it’s so amazing💕 (I will scream in a separate ask about it in the future) but yesterday I read saudade after I saw that you are currently writing it and I couldn’t stop. I had to finish it late at night. And let me tell those are the best fics. I was so into this world. It’s so intriguing, so special, so well written. I am so in love💖

These two captured my heart. I mean it aches just to think about their tragic lovestory. I don’t know if it can get more sad then this. I am a sucker for it but please how much sadness can they bear. After every lightly fluffy moment, a wave of sadness washes over me. And I felt, I felt it in my bones. It tells a lot about your writing. I love your world building. The fusion between fantasy and non fantasy was excellent. A lot of times I was overwhelmed by the turns this story took. I love how I didn’t know what to expect when I started. And I love how you pulled the strings.

And of course I love the characters. They are the cherry on top. I can’t emphasize enough how glorious they are. They are so special. Not comparable to other ones I read about. A more special pair then them, hard to find if you ask me. They just match. In their sadness, in their stubbornness, in their willingness to help others even if they are hurting so deeply. The way they don’t give up even if the world is against them. They haven’t lost the last spark of hope yet. And while being similar in many ways, they are still their own person. They have flaws, I love how you pictured characters who are real. Humans or vampires👀 but they remain flawed no matter what. Chaeyoung wasn’t afraid to call her a selfish bitch and it felt so good to see real interactions. And their backstories, I love that we got to see why they are who they are. It’s great that we got the whole picture (I am so curious if we get two perspectives on the last chapter). And of course Chaeyoung, please she is such a cutie. She and Lisa are such an adorable pair.

It’s so worth it. I have no idea how it continues but I know that you will do an amazing job, no matter what. I just hope they have their happy ending. I don’t know how much I can bear. And take all the time you need to finish this masterpiece. It will be hard to say goodbye but I need to know what is still in store for them. Imam so excited. As previously mentioned I loved it so much. Thank you so much for spending so much time on it. The effort you put into it is seen, even if I can only imagine how much work it actually is. So if nobody told you this today. You are doing amazing. I hope you have a great week. Lots of love from me❤️‍🔥 Take care

🎀 (I don’t know if you remember me, it’s been an eternity tbh but I am still here and I still love giving long reviews about your amazing stories)

THIS TYPE OF REVIEW GETS ME SO HAPPY THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO REPLY 😭😭😭😭😭😭

yes i remember you!!!!!!! glad to see you here again!!! so happy that you liked saudade too 😭😭 yes i'm working HARDDD to make a good ending for this series and i'm already excited to know your reactions about it!!!

yeah you made a good question - how much sadness can they bear? this is basically the main theme for the last part. can they bear more pain? can they stay away from each other? HOW can they be together considering everything seems to be against them? bro i want to answer these questions so bad 😭 i already spent too much damn time in character developing now it's time for RESOLUTIONS

i'm so happy that you mentioned chaeyoung bc she's like my fav character in this fic 🥺 she's the friend anyone would want to have! she'll be by your side when you need her, but she'll also call you out on your bullshit when you deserve it 😌 i really wanted the characters to feel flawed and real and i appreciate that you noticed it! adding flaws to characters is one of the most fun parts about writing (up there with world building imo) - flaws that make sense for them. i'll dive deeper into this aspect next chapter, but tae DEFINITELY has a controlling/possessive problem, because during his human life, everything was out of his control. he'll have to learn that he CAN'T control everything and that he MUST trust others sometimes. also oc still is a bit spoiled and selfish, and she'll also have to overcome these issues 😗

i don't want to spoil much more but uhhh i'm so excited to finish the last part already 😭😭 thank you so much for your review, it definitely motivated me to keep writing!!! tysm for reading & i hope you have a great week too 💗💗💗

[1004tyun-archive]

mommy 🥺 i don’t think i’ll be able to send a great ask because i feel a little upset 😢 i feel guilty about something at work and i just feel bad ;;

i’m thinking of you and how much i love you to try and calm me down 🥺🩷 my neverland, my miracle, my crystal gem 🥺😭🩷🩷 i had so much fun calling you and i keep reading your recap 🥺🥺😚🩷🩷 i love you so much my sweet girlfriend 🥺 i wish i could just hide myself in your arms and not think of anything except you because you’re my everything 🥺🩷🩵💎 mwah <3

my sweet girl :(( every ask you send is a great ask!! i love hearing from you no matter what! 🥺🩵 i’m really sorry about work you deserve so much better ;;

i wish i could hold you in my arms baby :( my fairy, my princess, my dream come true 🥺🥺🩵🩵 i had a lot of fun calling too i still haven’t stopped thinking about it 🥹 i love you and i miss you so much it’s hard not to see you in everything around me when you’re my world my love 🥺🥺🥺🩵

[tyungelic]

happy birthday to my magnum opus, still one of my most favorite fics i’ve ever written! 🥺

❥ late bloomer

✿ pairing: non-idol!taehyun x noona!reader

✿ summary: your high school and college years were nothing short of uneventful. no first dates, no first kiss, no first boyfriend, nothing. but when you and taehyun hit it off at an art exhibit and start a relationship, you know you want him to be your first for everything. but does taehyun know he's your first?

✿ genres: established relationship, smut, slight angst

✿ warnings: slight age gap (reader is 25, taehyun is 21), virgin reader, soft dom taehyun, body worship, mirror sex, voyeurism

✿ word count: 5.8k words

✿ a/n: hi friends! i've been noticing an increase in the taehyun noona lover agenda, so i thought why not toss my hat in and give y'all a noona reader fic of my own? i hope you enjoy <3

very special thank you to @cherrypeaking for being my sounding board while writing this fic! screenshots were shared, tears were shed, memories were made 🥹

You zoom down the streets of Seoul with purpose, the wind blowing through your hair as you blast Carly Rae Jepsen’s entire discography in your car, not caring if anyone’s bothered by the way the bass shakes your car. Today’s a special day, after all.

You and Taehyun’s halfiversary, to be specific. It was like pulling teeth trying to get him to play along with the gimmick of celebrating the first six months of your relationship, but you were too excited not to celebrate it. You had a feeling there would be many more months to come, you knew it from the first date. You’ve never been more certain about anything.

You roll up to Taehyun’s apartment complex and turn your music down to a whisper’s volume. You text him indicating that you’re outside and he steps out moments later. He looks so dashing in a white dress shirt, black pants, his dark hair pushed back, and a Rolex adorning his wrist. As soon as he slides into your car, you’re hit with the scent of his woodsy, floral cologne.

Does he have any idea how irresistible he is?

“Happy halfiversary, baby,” you say and lean in, smiling into the kiss he gives you. You playfully smack him on the arm when he doesn’t return the greeting and he holds back a smile, his lips pressing into a line.

“Come on, you have to say it too!”

“Or what, the magic won’t work?” he asks dryly.

“Come on, say it!” you whine, then cross your arms. “I’m not driving us to our reservation until you say it.”

His smile gets harder to suppress as you give him puppy eyes, you can tell his resolve is beginning to crack.

“Happy… halfiversary, Y/N,” he finally says. You pump your fist and kiss him on the cheek. He can’t stop himself from smiling and neither can you.

If there’s one thing you’ve grown to admire about Taehyun, it’s his dry sense of humor. He takes so much pleasure in messing with you, but you love to return the energy, pushing the boundaries of just what you can get him to do in the name of love.

You switch to the playlist you and Taehyun made when you first started seeing each other and warmth spreads in your chest as you reminisce.

It hasn’t been too long you started dating, but every day has been so bright since Taehyun entered your life.

You’re relieved by everything he is. Protective, kind, warm in his own special, Taehyun way. His warmth radiates even as he sits across from you and holds your hand, rubbing your knuckles with his thumb. The flame of the candle between you enhances the brown in his eyes.

Being an art museum security guard is a niche job that requires you to look tough and always be on your toes, but being around Taehyun allows you to let your guard down.

You’re the older of the two of you; you’re a couple of months into being 25 and Taehyun turned 21 just days before you met, but you turn into such a giddy child whenever he’s around.

You swing your arms as you hold hands and walk through the city streets together, and Taehyun watches you in amusement, a quiet fond smile on his face.

You make your way from the restaurant to the grocery store to stock up on snack foods for the night.

As you and Taehyun load your many bags of snacks into the trunk of your car, it finally hits you.

You’re going to be spending the night with him for the first time. You’ve never spent the night with a boyfriend before, much less even had a boyfriend before, period.

Your CRJ marathon continues as you drive back to Taehyun’s apartment. Want You In My Room starts to play and the heat rises in your cheeks. You try to keep your cool as the song plays. You’re having good conversation, but of course it settles to silence in the middle of the first chorus.

♪ I wanna do bad things to you / Slide on through my window / (I want you in my room) / Baby, don’t you want me, too? ♪

You get flustered and quickly switch to the next song.

“Subtle,” Taehyun remarks and you want to bury yourself in your steering wheel.

Despite your prior embarrassment, Taehyun has your back pressed against the wall the moment his front door shuts behind you. His hands slide up your waist and to the side of your neck as his lips press against yours.

He kneels in front of you and runs his hands up your legs and under your dress to play with the tops of your sheer tights.

“Can I take these off?” he asks, running his his hands down to rest on the backs of your thighs. He’s so breathtaking from this angle, looking up at you with those eager, glittering eyes.

His breath is fanning against your thigh, sending tingles up your spine and making you dizzy. Every cell in your body is urging you, screaming at you to say yes.

And yet…

“Wait,” you say, breathing a little heavily. “I… uh, I-I didn’t shave.”

“That doesn’t bother me.”

“Well, it bothers me,” you emphasize, sounding more offended than you intended. Taehyun pauses to look at you for a moment before the warmth of his hands slowly leave your body. You feel a pang of guilt and offer a meek apology as he rises to his feet.

“It’s okay. We don’t have to do anything if you don’t want to.”

But that’s the problem. You do want to, you really really want to.

But there’s a massive roadblock that always stands in your way whenever situations like this arise.

A roadblock called inexperience.

You change into your pajamas and spend the rest of the night watching competitive cooking shows on Netflix while gossiping about your work lives and sharing snacks like you’re two kids having a sleepover.

You fall asleep on the couch snuggled into his side and you’re stirred awake by his movement.

“Let’s get to bed,” he says sleepily. He helps you up from the couch and you can’t ignore the butterflies in your stomach as you realize you’ll be sleeping in the same bed together for the first time.

Once it dawns on you that you’re sleeping together, you’re too giddy to possibly fall asleep. You say goodnight when Taehyun falls asleep, but you’re still up, taking in the atmosphere of his bedroom. He has blackout curtains but a small, round galaxy lamp casts shadows on the ceiling and grants the perfect amount of light to the room. Everything smells like him, floral and woodsy like his cologne, but also like the lavender scent of his hair shampoo.

You could imagine yourself here more often.

When you wake up hours later, all you can do is stare at Taehyun’s sleeping face. He looks so peaceful when he’s sleeping, even with his mouth slightly open and messy hair.

“Morning,” Taehyun says. His morning voice is so sexy, it warms up your entire body. He throws an arm over you and snuggles you closer. You’re close enough for the tips of your noses to touch, close enough to hear his breathing.

“G’morning,” you say then kiss the tip of your boyfriend’s nose.

“I made a brunch reservation for 10:00,” he says. “It’s a quarter to 9 now, so we have time.”

“Time for what?” you ask.

“Time for this,” Taehyun pounces on you and kisses you. You kiss him back and things get heated pretty quickly with his tongue making its way past your lips and into your mouth.

Your heart catches in your throat when you feel his morning wood poking at your inner thigh.

“Wanna make a mess before we get ready?” he asks, his tone suggestive as he slips his fingers past the fabric of your worn t-shirt. Your heart is hammering in your chest as the warmth of his hand against your waist makes you dizzy.

“I-I think we should start getting ready,” you say, shying away from Taehyun’s touch. He looks a bit disappointed but ultimately does what you say and removes his hands from your body.

You quickly get up to get your clothes for the day and go to take your shower.

The rest of the day is awkward, to say the least.

You and Taehyun walk back from brunch. You reach for his hand and hold it, but he doesn’t hold yours back. Taehyun, the chronic hand holder, not reaching for your hand as soon as you left the restaurant already raised a red flag, but him not holding your hand at all?

You get back to his place and take a seat on the couch. Taehyun sits on the couch too, but not immediately next to you. And at first, you chalk that up to him needing a bit of space. It’s not like he was icing you out, he wasn’t kicking you out, after all. He was still in the same room with you, just a little more quiet and distant than usual.

He’s pretty quiet for the rest of the day, giving you tacit responses when you ask questions and giving a half-hearted laugh when you try to tell a joke or make him laugh.

You finally notice things are wrong when he’s cooking dinner. You wrap your arms around his waist and he exhales through his nose.

“Now you want to touch me?” he asks. Your heart breaks a little as you let go of him.

“What’s that supposed to mean?” you ask.

“Nothing.”

Oh, so now it’s back to the short responses?

“No, it’s not nothing,” you say, it’s impossible to hide that you’re upset. “What did you mean?”

“Do I really have to spell it out for you?” he asks. Where did this tone come from? He sounds like he’s joking, but not really. It’s really setting you off.

“Clearly there’s something I’m not getting,” you say.

“Then maybe you need some time to figure it out. Time away from me.”

You’re taken aback.

“Taehyun, what are you saying?”

“I’m saying you should probably go,” he finally turns to face you and his face is devoid of any warmth. When he looks at you with those cold eyes, it’s like the warmth leaves your body as well.

You search his face for any inkling of mirth or signs of him joking, but you don’t find any.

He really wants you to leave.

“Fine, I have work tomorrow anyway,” you stuff your clothes back into your bag, and storm out of Taehyun’s apartment without even a second glance. He doesn’t even look at you as you leave.

You walk to your car, not being able to hear much over your heart pounding in your ears. By the time you’re seated behind the wheel, your heart plummets.

It hits you that you’ve hurt your boyfriend’s feelings big-time. You didn’t need to see him on your way out to know that.

You can’t even bring yourself to start your car. You sit behind the wheel and hold back your tears until you can’t any longer, tears spilling down your cheeks while you mentally beat yourself up for having done this. Why were you so afraid? Why were you going out of you way to drive a wedge between the two of you?

It’s like you wanted him to hate you.

You check your phone at every red light, hoping and praying that he reaches out to you first, but to no avail. No message, no phone call, nothing from him.

A sinking feeling festers at the pit of your stomach. You’re not sure if you even want to go home, but you can’t think of anywhere else you could go.

Your housemates Jihyo and Nayeon are sitting in the living room laughing at something on TV and you know you’ve tanked the energy the moment you step through the door.

“You’re back,” Jihyo greets from the couch. “How’d it go?”

“It was… nice,” you say, voice strained.

“Y/N? What’s wrong?” Nayeon asks, clearly detecting that something’s wrong.

You can already feel the tears returning and you can’t stop them from falling. You break down into sobs and both Jihyo and Nayeon get up to console you. They lead you to the couch to sit down and you tearfully explained everything that has led up to this point.

“I hurt him,” you say between sobs and Nayeon rubs your shoulder. “He’s never gonna speak to me again.”

“Did he say that?” Jihyo asks.

“No, but he didn’t need to. Ever since this morning, he’s been tiptoeing around me and walking on eggshells trying not to upset me. He didn’t touch me, he didn’t even sit near me. He probably thinks I hate him.”

“Sounds like he thinks you’re mad at him,” Nayeon suggests.

“I’m not mad at him, I’m just.. scared of messing up.”

“Why are you so scared of going through with it?”

“I-I don’t think I’m ready. It’s something I want, but I don’t feel ready. There are only so many articles you can read and videos you can watch in preparation. Nothing compares to actual experience, and until meeting Taehyun, I’ve had none. What if I do something wrong? What if there’s something wrong with the way I smell or the way I taste or I can’t get into the right positions or—”

“—Y/N, no one’s first time is perfect,” Nayeon says. “The only way it can be close to perfect is by communicating with each other.”

“Right,” Jihyo adds. “Just like how you can’t read his mind, he can’t read yours either. You have to talk things through with him, even if it’s hard.”

You fall silent.

“Does he know he’s your first?” Jihyo asks.

You shake your head, feeling a bit embarrassed.

“Y/N, you should tell him,” Nayeon says. “He should understand, he loves you.”

“After tonight, I’m not so sure he does. I don’t wanna lose him.”

“Please, you should see the way he looks at you,” Jihyo says. “He looks at you like you hung the moon and put every star in the sky. You’re not gonna lose him over this, just talk it out.”

You keep Jihyo and Nayeon’s words in mind as your fingers hover over your phone screen the following afternoon.

You have to do this, it’s now or never. A knot forms in your throat as you begin to type.

you: Hey are you busy tonight? I want to talk

taehyun: We’re talking now

you: No I wanna talk to you in person

you: If that’s okay

you: We can meet at that cafe you like

taehyun: That’s fine I have time after work

you: Okay see you then

He doesn’t respond and your entire body gets tense. Jihyo wasn’t wrong about this being hard.

You end up arriving first, standing outside the café with your hands in your pockets mentally hyping yourself up for this difficult conversation. You can do this. It’ll be hard but it’s important for your relationship.

You spot Taehyun from the corner of your eye and walk toward him, greeting him and giving him a hug. He doesn’t hug you back, that on its own worries you, but you try not to let it discourage you.

“How are things?” you ask from the across the table.

“Fine,” he says. His tone is so cold, not like the playful kind of cold tone he uses to tease you, but genuinely cold, distant even. A frigid silence settles between the two of you and your throat tightens.

“I wanna apologize for last weekend,” you start. “I didn’t mean to be so weird.”

“It’s fine,” Taehyun says, his voice is tense and it unsettles you.

“No, it’s not fine. I hurt you when I didn’t mean to, and I’m sorry.”

Taehyun is unusually quiet, part of you wants to ask him why but you also want to give him the proper space to think.

"Y/N, be honest. Are you trying to break up with me?"

That question hits you like a slap in the face.

"What?"

"Whenever I try to touch you, you always push my hands away, change the topic, or run away. This didn’t start with last weekend, it’s been going on for a while now and I don’t know if I can take it anymore. What am I doing wrong? Am I making you uncomfortable?"

"No, no. Taehyun, you're not doing anything wrong."

"Then why are you pushing me away?"

"I’m not pushing you away, I just…" you hesitate, looking down at your hands then back up at Taehyun, who's looking at you expectantly. He’s a bit upset, but it's clear that he wants to hear what you have to say for yourself.

The thing is, you aren't completely prepared to say it. You swallow, fighting the dryness seizing your throat.

"I’ve spent all my life feeling invisible. My friends had their first kisses before I did, got married before I did, started having kids before I did while I couldn’t even get a date. I felt like time was running out for me, and then I met you. Taehyun, you make me feel seen. Being with you makes me feel like the lovesick teenager I never got to be. Before we got together, I'd never had a boyfriend, been on a date, held someone's hand, or had my first kiss. You've been my first for everything, but whenever sex comes into play, I-I get scared.”

“Scared?”

“Scared that I won’t measure up, scared of how you’d react. You’ve had years of experience with different partners while I just bought a vibrator for the first time this year. Can you believe it? 25 and I just bought my first sex toy,” you say with a wry laugh. “You make me so happy, Taehyun. There’s no one else I’d rather have my first time with, but the thought of disappointing you or making you slow down for me hurts too much. I don’t want to do that to you."

There’s a long silence between the two of you. Taehyun pulls you into a tight hug. You’re startled at first, but you soon close your eyes and wrap your arms around him in return.

“I don’t even know where to start,” he sighs. “I’m- I’m so sorry, Y/N.”

Another thing you’ve learned to love about Taehyun is his firm belief of actions speaking louder than words. The way he holds you tight in this café speaks for him perfectly. Sometimes words aren’t needed and this is one of those times for him.

“Let’s make some plans,” Taehyun says, determined. “I’m gonna give you the best first time you’ll ever have.”

As the week progresses, Taehyun texts you asking about your sexual preferences, your kinks, anything you’d like to try, and you answer to the best of your abilities. You blush when he tells you the things he’d like to do to you.

Things like tying you up, spitting in your mouth, overstimulation, the works. He emphasized that he’d only do these things if you want him to, but little does he know that you’d let him run you over with a tractor as long as he called you his princess while doing it.

But maybe you’ll reserve those for after your first time. Baby steps.

You open your underwear drawer and the tip of your one and only vibrator is staring you right in the face.

You stare at it for a good minute, wondering if you should bring it along on your journey. You suppose it wouldn’t be a bad idea and tuck the toy into your purse.

You throw on your best dress and heels and make your way out the door. Your heart is beating at a thousand miles a minute but talking things through with Taehyun all week combined with your housemates’ good luck texts this morning give you all the confidence you need.

Your heart is pounding as you walk down the narrow hallway of his floor and get closer to his apartment. You knock on the door and you’re greeted with a surprisingly dressed down Taehyun. He’s got a black t-shirt and grey sweatpants on, a far cry from the glam look you decided to go with for today.

“Wow, you got all dressed up for me?” Taehyun wraps his arms around your waist and kisses you.

“I feel so overdressed,” you confess.

“Don’t worry, that won’t matter later,” he says with a smile and your cheeks burn. He leads you to his bedroom, but you can hardly wait to touch him, to kiss him, to feel him.

You don’t even make it to the bed before you pounce on him, pressing his back to his bedroom door and kissing him hard. He leans into it almost automatically as his hands find your waist to pull you impossibly closer.

“Have I ever told you how sexy your legs look in tights?” Taehyun asks, running his hands up your legs.

“No, but I wouldn’t mind hearing it a couple hundred more times.”

“As you wish,” Taehyun kisses your neck and his hands go to the tops of your tights. He peels them off of your legs and casts them to the side. He sucks on the skin of your neck and you sigh at the sensation as he leaves a few pretty hickies behind.

His hands trail up your ass and to the invisible zipper on the back of your dress. Your heart skips a beat as you feel your dress slowly fall off of your body and pool around your feet on the floor. Taehyun grabs your shoulders and turns you toward the full-length mirror. He snakes his arms around your waist to hug you from behind.

”God, look at you,” Taehyun whispers against your skin. “I can’t believe no one’s gotten their hands on you yet. How did I get so lucky?”

Taehyun sits at the end of the bed and pulls you down onto his lap so that you’re still facing the mirror.

“Lift your hips,” he says into your ear. You do as your told and lift your hips so he can take your panties off. Once he rolls them down your thigh, you wriggle out of them and kick them off to the side. Taehyun unhooks your bra and pulls it off of you, letting it fall to the floor next to your underwear.

It’s a little embarrassing, sitting in his lap completely naked while he’s fully clothed.

Taehyun explores your naked body with his hands, fingers dragging up your thighs to your stomach to squeeze your breasts. You close your eyes and relax into his touch, feeling every individual callus on the skin of his palm. He slides his thumb over your bottom lip and you sigh, granting him access to your mouth. He shoves two fingers into your mouth and your tongue lazily swirls around his fingers before you begin to suck on them.

“That’s it, princess. You’re a quick learner,” he says and you tingle from his praise. He thrusts his fingers in and out of your mouth and you suck on his digits with every movement.

After a minute or so, he pulls them out of your mouth with a wet pop. Your eyes shoot open when you feel his saliva coated fingers in your pussy. Your back arches from the sensation and you make a noise you’ve never heard yourself make before. Taehyun chuckles.

“You’re so cute,” he whispers and kisses the shell of your ear. “So wet already and we’ve just barely started. I can’t wait to make a mess of you.”

He grabs your jaw with his free hand and turns your head to face the mirror head-on.

“Keep your eyes on the mirror for me.”

You obey, but it’s so hard. Your vision goes blurry as you watch as his fingers thrust in and out of your wet, throbbing entrance. He curls them in just the right way to have you moan so loudly that you shock yourself. You throw your hand over your mouth, but Taehyun quickly removes it.

You've never seen or heard yourself like this before. He’s driving you absolutely wild.

His erection presses against your ass and when you grind against it, his breath hitches.

He rubs at your swollen clit with the heel of his palm. It’s enough to have you clamping your legs shut and squirming in his lap. Taehyun uses his free hand to hold your leg open as he continues to tease your clit at that same, excruciatingly slow rhythm.

You come undone, high pitched moans leaving your lips as you writhe in his lap and he holds you in his strong arms. He continues to finger you through your orgasm until you’re reduced to a panting and whimpering mess.

“Good girl,” he whispers. “You’re so good, princess.”

You go limp in his arms and he holds you, closing his eyes and burying his face in your bare shoulder.

“Are you okay? Do you have enough energy to get on the bed for me?” he asks. You nod and he helps you up anyway, taking your hand and getting you properly seated on the bed.

You sleepily watch as Taehyun slowly undresses, pulling his t-shirt over his head and tossing it into the nearest laundry basket. He pulls a foil packet from the pocket of his sweatpants and places it on his nightstand.

And then, suddenly, you have a lightbulb moment.

“Can we try something?” you ask.

Taehyun raises an eyebrow. “In the mood to experiment already?” You nod shyly and he leans in, eager to listen.

“Can you get my vibrator from my purse? I want you to use it on me.”

It’s a simple little thing, a pink silicone rabbit vibrator about five inches tall.

“What do you want me to do?” he asks, hand resting on your thigh.

You shrug, “I don’t know, be creative.”

“How about you show me how you use it?” he tosses the device to you and your mouth goes dry.

“You’ve used it on yourself before, right? I want to watch you use it.”

You’re frozen in place as the gears in your brain slowly turn in an effort to process what he just said.

“You’re already naked, love. Just get in the usual position you’re in when you use it. I won’t judge you, I promise.”

You’re hesitant but you eventually roll over onto your stomach and shift onto your knees so that your ass is in the air and your face is buried in the softness of one of the memory foam pillows. It smells just like his shampoo, you close your eyes and bury yourself in the scent until your eyes suddenly snap open and you remember what you’re in the middle of.

You can’t see Taehyun but can you feel his eyes on you and it sends a shiver down your spine.

“I’m waiting,” he says in a teasing tone and your face heats up. You press the button at the bottom of the vibrator to turn it on and hold it against your pussy, not yet sliding it inside. You take a breath and rub it against your slit, your thighs twitching when it brushes by your sensitive clit.

“What do you think about when you touch yourself?”

You jolt at the question, already feeling flushed.

“Don’t be shy, you can tell me. It’ll be our little secret.”

He must think he’s so funny. It’s hard to concentrate, your mind is already foggy as you try to focus on your own pleasure while trying to put on a good first show for your boyfriend.

“Put it inside,” he says, softly but commanding. You do as he says, mewling as you push the silicone toy into your dripping core.

“Do you imagine me fucking you?”

Taehyun hovers over you, his toned chest pressing against your back. He kisses your shoulder and slides a hand down over your busy hand, helping you to thrust the vibrator in and out of you.

“It doesn’t compare to me, does it? Doesn’t stretch you out and fill you up like I can, either.”

The mere thought of having him inside you is enough to turn you on even more. Your pussy tightens around the toy, but he’s right. It isn’t enough. You want— no, you need more.

You need him.

“What’s wrong, princess? Can’t cum? Not even with me helping you?”

Your eyes are brimming with tears, you’re so close yet overstimulated at the same time and you’re not sure you can take this any longer. You wordlessly shake your head.

“Want my cock instead?” he asks and you nod fervently. He pulls the vibrating toy out of you and the vibrating sensation that initially numbed your pussy is replaced with the head of Taehyun’s cock. You whimper and he kisses your shoulder.

“Let me know if I need to slow down, okay?”

You give a nod and he plants another kiss on your shoulder before aligning his cock against your pussy and pushing into you. You hiss, hands tightly gripping the cotton sheets beneath you as you feel him slowly fill you. Your body feels like it’s on fire, stretching around him burns, but the pain slowly starts to settle in the boundary of pleasure as Taehyun slowly slides into you until he bottoms out.

You’re pretty sure you’ve elevated to higher plane. You can feel every curve and vein of his length inside you, he fits you so perfectly.

“Are you okay?” he asks, voice soft as a feather.

“Mhm,” you sigh. “Feels so good…”

“Mm, that’s my girl,” he rubs your thighs and up towards your stomach. “Relax, okay? I’ll take good care of you.”

You steady your breathing for a moment before he drags his length out of you and plunges it back in. He thrusts particularly deep and hits a spot that has you drooling and grabbing the sheets until your hands start shaking.

“Fuck, Taehyun…!” you cry.

“I’m here, princess. I’m here,” he says soothingly. “You’re doing so good.”

He continues to pound into you, hitting that same spot over and over, it feels so good you could cry. His girthy cock is filling you up, stretching you out so perfectly; you can’t imagine why you waited so long for this, but you’re so glad you’re experiencing it now.

Your entire body runs hot and your thighs quake as you feel a pressure building in your hips.

“T-Taehyun, I’m… ‘m- shit, I’m so close,” you squeak.

“Cum for me, princess. I want you to fucking drench me,” Taehyun says, thrusting faster. “Come on, give it to me.”

You cum so hard that your entire body shakes and your voice breaks. You call Taehyun’s name over and over like it’s a prayer and he holds you tight. Your reaction is enough to push him over the edge as he fucks you through your orgasm.

“You’re mine, Y/N. You’re mine, no one else can have you,” he breathes, thrusting in you faster and faster until he finally cums. You shudder at the way his cock swells inside of you. Your chest rises and falls as you try to catch your breath.

“C’mere, I wanna look at you…” Taehyun pulls out and turns you over on your back so that he’s hovering over you. The outline of his toned body has your heart racing. It’s only been seconds but you already miss the feeling of him inside you.

“You’re so pretty,” he leans in to kiss your forehead and you instantly get butterflies. He falls onto you and you wrap your arms around his waist. You lay there for a minute, still catching your breath until your breathing is in sync.

“Y/N, I want…” his words trail off, he looks flustered. You silently urge him to continue and he gives you a shy, hesitant look you’ve never seen before.

“You might not have been my first, but I want you to be my last,” he confesses. “I know it might be too soon to say it, but I—”

Before Taehyun can continue, you grab his face and kiss him. It’s clumsy, your faces mush together in an awkward kind of way but you can’t help the way you’re feeling. All the admiration and fondness you have for him overtook you like a tidal wave. You separate and he stares at you with wide eyes.

“Sorry, continue.” you apologize, breathless. Taehyun looks at you with amusement.

He chuckles, “No, I think that spoke for me just fine.”

“Come on, say it.”

“Are you gonna interrupt me again?”

“Only if you want me to,” you say with a suggestive raise of your eyebrows. Taehyun laughs, it sounds like the ringing of bells.

“I love you, Y/N. I wasn’t kidding when I said you’re mine.”

You smile, holding back your tears of happiness, “I hope you know there’s no getting rid of me now that you’ve said that.”

“Wouldn’t want that for the world,” Taehyun kisses you and lays his head on your bare chest. You run your hands through his hair.

“I love you, Taehyun. I love you so much.”

[1004tyun-archive]

my precious fairy of crystals 🥺🥺🩷💎

i hope you’re sleeping well, i’m having fun playing games while patiently waiting for you to wake up 😚🩷 i didn’t do much as i’m still very weak from my period so i’ll just be lazy all day this weekend 🤭🩷

not a lot to talk about except for the fact that i love you to the moon and back 🥹🩷 every day i feel so thankful and grateful that you’re in my life… i never thought i’d meet someone like you with whom i can get along so well and who’s so beautiful inside and out 🥺🥺

i always remember how i felt, trying to be more and more romantic in my asks but terrified that you’d reject me 😖 and here you were feeling the same that feels unbelievable 😳😭 god i love you so much my precious crystal mommy 🥺🥺😚🩷💎

these little donuts are so cute?? when i saw them i wondered how to make them and what they’d taste like :0 have you had donuts like these?? 🥺🩷

i also wanted to tell you not to feel bad about not being able to write often mommy 🥺🥺 your writing is so so great and my favorite as always 🥺🥺🩷 no matter when, i’ll always be happy to talk about your ideas and to read your fics when they’re posted or even before 🥺😚🩷 your happiness is what matters the most to me and as long as you’re happy i am happy too 🥺🥺🩷 i can always try to help my love, i want to 🥺🫶🩷 and like i’ve said, my writing/reading has hit a slump too >\\\< i just always wanna be with you and talk to you mommy~

i love you so much i wish i could hug you so bad my love 🥺🥺 hearing your singing voice made me so so happy and full (not like that- unless…)~ you’re my precious crystal wifey 😚😚💎🩷 i’ll see you soon!! 🥺🩷🩷

my sweet little cherry fairy 🥺🥺🩵🩵

i slept so well bc i thought of you before going to bed 🥺🥺 you deserve to have a lazy weekend i hope you enjoy yourself 🥺🩵 i’m going out to a bts 10th anniversary event with my bff today and the place we’re going to has such an interesting menu i wanna order some items just so i can try them and report back to you hehe

my baby :((( i’m gonna cry you’re the one who’s beautiful both inside and out 🥺 you have such a beautiful soul and i’m so so thankful for you 🥺🩵 my woman~

omg i’m laughing bc the moment i realized i liked you i was so scared of you knowing in fear of scaring you away and then i proceeded to write the worlds longest ask response talking about how thankful i was for you and how i was so glad we met and the whole time i was writing it i was like “okay don’t make it TOO lovey dovey” but my first priority was making sure you knew how much i cared about you 🥺🥺🩵

aaa this moodboard is so pretty lovey 🥺🥺🥺🩵 i love mochi donuts!! they’re so chewy and soft and sweet (they kinda remind me of you 🤭🩵) i’ve never made them before but they’re so delicious especially when made fresh 😋 i wanna share some with you~ 🥺🩵

my sweetheart 🥺🥺🥺 thank you so much i take so much comfort in being your favorite considering that you’re my favorite 🥺🩵🩵 i love talking through ideas and fic wips with you my love 🥺 your help means a lot to me and your happiness matters the most to me 🥺🥺🥺 it’s hard to write when all i wanna do is talk to and think about my cherry bear >///< i’ve been working little by little though, just taking it day by day~

my baby 🥺🥺🩵 i’m so glad you like my singing i was worried about singing fairy of shampoo bc it’s a little out of my range and i started to feel bad bc damn tubatu can sing this but i can’t?? 😭 but i still think it ended up sounding good especially since you liked it! 🥺🩵🩵 (makes you feel full, huh? 😳😳 does mommy make you feel full baby?)

hehe my pretty cherry wifey~ 🥺🥺🩵 i love you, talk soon~

[1004tyun-archive]

even if you’re still awake i want to keep it a tradition 🥺🩷

crystal gem thank you so much for staying here despite how late/early it is ;////; i know i’m gonna miss you so much when you go to sleep but my baby needs to sleep too 🥺😭🩷 whenever that happens i know it’s gonna be hard because i always miss you ;///;

i wish i could be there with you rn, i need you and your everything 🥺🥺 i love you so much my crystal gem 🥺💎🩷

if i were there i’d keep kissing you hours >\\\< aaaaah i feel shyer when it’s an ask but i wanted to say it hehe 😳😖🩷 also i’m glad i managed to switch it up for longer this time everything is possible right

my darling, my crystal gem, my crystal clarity, my fairy of crystals, my favorite writer, my favorite person… my girl… my woman 🥺🩷 love of my life that’s who you are to me 😳😚🩷

tumblr keeps crashing whenever i start writing a response to this homophobia at its finest 🤨

my sweet girl 🥺🥺 it was 10000% worth it to stay up and talk to you for longer i’d do it everyday if i could but i think my body would start fighting me back 😭😭 sleep will come later but i needed you now 🥺 i already know i’m gonna miss you once i fall asleep so you have to come visit my dreams again, okay? a good dream isn’t good if my girl isn’t in it 🥺🫶🏾🩵

hehehe you’re so cute baby >//< 🩵🩵 i wish you were with me in bed right now i’d never let go of you 🥺 i want you so so badly ;;; 🩵 i was so impressed by how long you were able to switch it up this time around!! i was sooo tempted to switch back a couple of times but i held it together >< my baby is so fucking sexy….

cherryyy 🥺🥺 you’re the love of my life 😭😭😭 my woman, my cherry bear, my hot choco fairy, my cherries jubilee, my cherry baby, my cherry marshmallow 🥺🥺 you mean the world to me, my dear <3333

[cherrypeaking]

(hoping and praying tumblr didn’t eat the first ask i sent you lmao 😭)

I love you so so much cherry :( the love and yearning i have for you grows with every passing day

i miss you so much that it hurts idk why it’s particularly affecting me today but i’m near tears just thinking about you :( you’re so precious to me i wanted this to be funny and sweet but i’m super emotional right now 😭 crying over my phone and everything bc i’m being a total softie

i love you my cherry bear more than words can describe. whatever happens, i’ll always be there for you i just wish i could hold you right now ;;;; you mean so so much to me

stay by my side okay? 🥺

ahhhh;;;; had to hold myself back again for this one >< this just made me tear up 🥺🥲🩷

please don’t cry my crystal gem 🥺😭💎🩷 i’ll always be here if you want me to… i hope you’ll always want me here 🥺 you mean the world to me 😖🥺🩷

i love you i love you i love you 🥺🩷

you’re the gem of my life 🥺💎🩷