#my brain is sooo slow smh

[kdyism-closed]

PIWON ARE IN THE SAME COMPANY AS SF9??? and no one told me????

[adhd-attention-deficit-dumbass]

Any tips for focusing on schoolwork? The quarter ends next week for me and I have 12 missing assignments but I can’t just sit down and do it smh. My meds don’t do shit to help me so I basically run on caffine and Doritos

I was planning on making a longer and more detailed post about this since I struggled with the exact same thing last semester but I’ll do a quick one since you’re in a hurry!

-Ask a university student with ADHD

How to overcome executive dysfunction and just get it done!

A quick overview for the stressed and depressed ADHD student

All strategies mentioned are ones I have tried during a very stressful period in my life and I can happily announce that I succsessfully passed all my re-exams!

1. Study at the library or a similarily quiet place, by no means attempt to study at home or god forbid a café you’ll regret it.

Studying at the library takes so much less effort and energy than studying at home or in s noisy café, save your precious energy for focusing on your work instead of trying to avoid distraction

Libraries are great and full of people who are also studying which will help you feel more motivated!

2. Get rid of your phone 📱

This one ☝🏻 oh boy, it was a game changer, I know you think you may have the discipline not to get distracted but it makes a world of difference

Put your phone in a seperate room on silent if you can, this is the most effective way.

If not, put it at the bottom of your bag and make it as hard as possible to find

Use wireless headphones 🎧 for music so you don’t have to keep your phone within arms reach

3. Write down exactly what you’re doing and divide into small easily doable tasks

Part of the struggle is not knowing what to do, or the task feeling too big and too hard. Write down the task in steps, as many as you need, as simple as you can. Break them down to the smallest and most easily done bits until you feel like you can handle them.

Example: For uni last semester I had 3 smaller tests per week apart from the usual exams. We had to translate between 1500-3000 words every two days on our own and during lectures We’d do a quick 15 min test based on what we’d read that would affect our final grade.

”Translate 2000 words” sounds like a lot so the way I did it was that I put the text into a word file and dived it into seperate paragraphs

I’d end up with 10-12 paragraphs and that would be my focus

So if I had two days to translate, I’d translate 6/12 paragraphs the first day and the remaining 6 the next day

It feels much easier than sitting with a document of seemingly endless work. Because we can have a hard time planning and looking ahead, it helps to give yourself some structure

4. Check off and visualize finished tasks to boost motivation ✅

Again, using last semester as an example

The way I did it is something I call:

The heart strategy❤️

At this time I was obsessed with Zelda games and I randomly drew a little heart in my planner while thinking of Zelda and thought ”huh, what if I used ”video game hearts” as a representation for my own work?” And I have been doing it religously since.

The way I did it was I drew 12 hearts in my planner in a line like this, seperating them with a line in the middle.

🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 | 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

When I finished translating a paragraph I would fill a heart with a bright pink pen because I love pink💗 It was almost like a reward and it made me more motivated to keep going, it also provided a visual to let me know how much work I had gotten done and how much was left

So when my planner looked like this:

💗💗💗💗💗🤍| 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

It would motivate me because it meant I was almost finished for the day and I knew that I had completed half of the task already.

5. Wireless noise cancelling headphones 🎧 + ADHD friendly music

Noice cancelling keeps you from getting distracted by 🗣🎶👏🏻✍🏻👣

Wireless is just amazing in general but it also keeps you away from your phone which will often distract you even when you’re trying hard. Some models allow you to even change songs without touching your phone, which is super helpful

Make a list of music or find good mixes on youtube/Spotify that are not distracting 🎶 They can be motivational and upbeat or slow and relaxing, whatever helps you the most

I have a ”Motivational study songs” list with a lot of upbeat high tempo songs that are about reaching your goals, a mix of rock, pop, Disney and musical songs

Never gonna give you up by Rick Astley is the perfect ADHD study song idk why but it just works wonders for me

But some days the upbeat music is just too distracting so then I put on classical music (mostly Tchaikovsky) or a lofi youtube video. Changing up music is good since your ADHD brain will get bored of the same thing easily

There are also quiet and very aestethic ”☕️study with me 📖” videos on youtube that are like 2 hour long where a person just sits quietly and studies

they can be great because it makes you feel like you have a study buddy but they wont distract you by talking 🙊 as long as you don’t get distracted by them

That’s all for this post! BELIEVE ME i tried SOOO hard to keep it short and it was a lot longer at first i’m sorry if it’s a lot to read🙈

I hope some of this is at least somewhat helpful. Thank you for reading and good luck with your studies!💗

[kanene-yaaay]

22 (i hope you slept well), 54 (maybe i'll pick you up if you don't have and we go to mcdolans😎😎) and 118

p.s. you are very kind and my heart melts when I see how you support people

22. How many hours of sleep did you get last night? 

I did, thank you! No weird dreams, tho, which honestly I think it’s a very boring decision from my brain. What a shame smh smh.

I think I got about 7/8 hours of sleep! ^v^) I don’t like how my mind gets all fussy, slow and messy when I don’t sleep the necessary amount so I always do my best to sleep x)

Btw! Hope you sleep well today too <3

54. What plans do you have for tomorrow?

I will hang out with my sisters!! I am very excited because due the preparatory course I went to I wasn’t able to just hang out with friends and :DD since now it’s over I can do NOTHING at all! All day everyday! :DDD

BUT HEY DON’T THINK THAT I WON’T ACCEPT YOUR OFFER U BEAN JUST GIMME LIKE THREE MINUTES AND I WILL GRAB MY FANCY TINSEL AND WE CAN GO

118. What is something dumb you believed as a child?

Bold of you to assume I stopped believing in dumb things-

XDD

Sooo, I can’t really think of anything really dumb but hmmm do you remember that old cartoon DragonTales? I believed with all my soul that one day I would find a scale just like the kids and then I would be able to find the magic dragon place ~

PS: ALSO YOU BEAN HOW CAN YOU BE LIKE SO  K I N D  AND LOVELY I MEAN????? YOU SAY I AM SUPPORTIVE BUT THEN YOU COME HERE AND PROCEED TO BE THE SWEETEST PERSON EVER AND GIVE ME JOY AND DETERMINATION <33

[thisiswhymomworries]

Week One

OK so let's start this off with some info stuff first, just for context since I'm on a form of T that seems to be less common

When: I started taking T on Friday, October 18th, so this is for 10/18/19 - 10/25/19

Testosterone: I'm using Androderm, which is a daily patch you stick on exactly like a nicotine patch

Dosage: 2 mg per day, although you can get them in 5 mg per day patches

Changes: Increased hunger, slightly increased acne

Yeah so I fucked up using these patches bc I read my prescription, the doctor's instructions, and ALL the fine print and none of it said FOR HOW LONG you wear the patch. So I was taking them off at night before I went to bed for this whole week, and they're 24 HOUR patches, sooo. This is week one on a half dose basically smh

So the only change I really noticed this week was that I got hungry sooner, more intensely, and more often. For context, going out to eat at a Mexican restaurant, I'd have to be careful not to get too full off of chips and queso before the meal. At the end of this week though, I went out to Ted's Mexican Café, ate half a basket of chips and a whole cup of queso, ate my usual amount of beans, rice, and chicken tamale, and THEN went out and got a single scoop ice cream sundae at Freddie's Custard

(more on the changes, patches vs shots, and comparison selfies below the cut)

That might not sound like a lot to normal people lol but I've struggled my whole life with ARFID (autistic sensory issues with eating and the vague stomach problems we all seem to have). Going on T hasn't made me any less of a "picky eater" or otherwise helped with the sensory issues of not tolerating strong tastes (spices), smells, or mouth feel (food texture), but it HAS let me eat normal proportions of the food I do like and not feel sick afterward.

The increased hunger has also resulted in my body sending CLEAR signals to my brain about when I'm hungry and when I'm full, versus previously my stomach would just hurt and that's all the info I got. Was I hungry? Hurt 😊 😊 😊 Full? Hurt 😊 😊 😊 Nauseous? Overheating? Anxious? HURT 😊 😊 😊

Now I can actually tell a difference between all of that and actually being hungry!!

So yeah, that might not really be trans-related, but goddamn has this one single change improved my life.

As for the acne, that was really just extra redness around the areas I tend to break out in during this first week, but I did get a large pimple and a few smaller ones in those areas once the second week hit

No bad side effects at this point either. I didn't have any mood swings, exhaustion, or nausea. The patches are kind of known for people having a bad reaction to them, like redness, swelling, and itching, but this didn't happen. Spoiler: I do get all that bullshit the second week, but that's also when the weather changed SUPER abruptly (literally from 90 to 60 to 30 in less than a week) and my skin always dries out, gets red, and starts itching during the winter, so I'm not quite ready to blame all of that solely on the patches

more info on them down below!

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Patches technically give you the same amount of testosterone as shots, just applied daily instead of in a big dose all at once either every week or every two weeks, but the anecdotal wisdom is that the changes are less pronounced and/or happen more slowly. Gels and creams seem to be the same on that front, from what I've heard

I personally wanted to use patches instead of shots because I want slower changes to make sure I'm OK with the side effects. You can't pick and choose, and I'm not too excited about some of them, plus anything uncertain and/or changes in my life give me anxiety, so I'm actually happy with a possibly slower transition

Since patches are applied daily, that also keeps your T levels more stable, versus getting a big spike with a shot that slumps down over the next week / two weeks until the next shot. I didn't want a sudden jump in my hormone levels in case of mood swings, and again, I very much prefer slow, steady, and small changes over a longer period than a sudden big change

If anyone's interested, I can make another post about how I got a prescription for Androderm, how much it costs (it is a lot more expensive than shots), the coupon I'm using that makes it actually affordable ($95 for 60 patches), and all the bullshit doctor visits / insurance stuff

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all right, I think that's everything, so I'll move on to making the Week Two post now! feel free to send me an ask or a message if you have any questions ^^

comparison selfies from the start of the week to the end of the week:

(friend next to me cropped out for her privacy)

[charmed-asylum]

BUT GIRL WTF LORDDD I CANT NOT W THESE MEN SHIT WTF LORD I CANT I CANT BUT REALLY. Smh damn Steve I can’t I mean honestly he smart waiting it out bx she like fuck it ( but is is CE sooo) STILL TIA THAT AOME FUCKIN SHIT HUHHH THIGH HUMPPING THO WOW I CANT WOW SMH LORD THEN HE HAD DID WHAT HE DID DURING THE MOVIE THEN AFTER ALL THAT FUCK HER BRAINS OUT POOR BABY GIRL ( now I’m sayin it) damn I can’t I mean shit at least he wash her up bc she probably lookin a hot ass mess. Fluffy blanket is that her room I can’t but what no I mean wow. I read this really real real early as I was ending my shift at my internship but I was like nah tia u reading that backwards come back NOPE I READ IT 4 more times lord smh she slow she not paying attention to the common sense you was getting chase and attack by something that scared both u and ur bro to DEATH which snatch u okay or am I slow af. Oh a way out away out to where mama where not like you can crawl to the highway or back to your bro house and like they got your wallet and phone and what not being your a woman of today era all your stuff on your phone which is like damn really huh I can’t these boys to men are killin me

In Memoriam (Dark!Steve, Bucky & Sam x Reader) 7

Summary: After the death of your grandmother you make a trip to visit her old estate, and you discover it may be more trouble than it’s worth.

Warnings: Noncon/Rape, ghosts, smut, bondage, thigh riding, cockwarming, spanking, rough sex, oral sex, over stimulation, mentions of death, allusions of abuse. 18+ only peeps, it’s obviously dark.

Notes: well this started as a tiny idea for @charmed-asylum’s bingo challenge! (Congrats, love. You’re amazing!) and it kinda spiraled into this craziness. Also there is a surprise guest, but I don’t feel like giving it away so… hope you enjoy! ❤️

Chapter 7:

You are vaguely aware of the change in the atmosphere of the room. It’s not that you miss the other two’s presence, but being alone with Steve hardly makes you feel safe. Your hands clamp over your abused center and you hiss at the sting your own touch brings.

“Come here,” Steve orders softly as he holds out his arm to you.

You narrow your teary eyes at him and ignore his request.

“Come. Here. Now.” He commands venomously, slow and deliberate with each word.

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