#my blood pressure is so high

[storkmuffin]

turned on an astrology podcast as background noise. the format is that people write in and the astrologer gives them advice on their problem. and zomg there's a girl asking for a reading who is ... uh...

her now fiance is a man who has never worked consistently, has lived off of her working three jobs the entire time they've been together, that she hasn't wanted to fuck for long periods of their cohabitation (please girl, please please listen to your body, your body doesn't want him to touch you), and now wants to pimp her out to onlyfans but packaging pushing her into prostitution as "lifting financial burdens so she can enjoy him as he is" and "letting go of resentment."

the extent to which people are recognizable archetypes across culture and time is really horrifying. a man who takes money from a woman, pushing her into prostitution so he can live off of her selling her body - this is a type of abusive relationship that has always existed. it's not to do with late stage capitalism or whatever. this type of exploitative man who uses up a woman with a sense that somehow she 'needs' him is as common as a man who kills a woman he used to fuck and beat up.

i'm on the edge of my seat right now, desperately hoping that this astrologer is able to talk this woman out of this relationship with this freeloading monster of a man who now wants to sell his lover's body. the astrologer is being so gentle, so delicate, trying not to spook this (sorry to say this but, very weak, very stupid, very very damaged) woman, making the conversation safe and friendly and full of laughter, as a means to a greater end. couldn't be me, but i'm so thankful this woowoo astrologer actually provided a little window for this woman.

[omensofatimelord]

The thing about testosterone being a controlled substance means that acess to it for hrt is restricted. While it makes access a significant issue for many people and an easy and effective way to prevent trans men and mascs from transitioning (as we've seen terfs campaign for and succeed at doing in Britain) it also means that is very easy for health care professionals to be able to take it away from trans men/mascs arbitrarily. This is most aborant in cases where trans men/mascs are forced to detransition to gain access to abortions after being raped. However, the first sign of an issues tangentially related to hormones a gp, without any training in trans people or hormones, can and will stop a person's testosterone. Apart from how stressful it is to know that for the rest of your life you'll be dependent on the goodwill of a random person, this has measurable negative consequences for a trans person subjected too it.

Going off t fucking sucks at the best of time, but being forced off t will most likely result in depression and worsening mental health for a trans man/masc, who are already one of the most likely groups to attempt suicide. It can also put a trans person at risk if they suddenly start being visibly trans again, especially if they're closeted in, say, a work place environment. Trans people, including trans men, are already one of the most targeted groups of harassment and violence and sexual assalt and forcibly reducing or stopping t can out people and risk their safety. And a gp won't see this or care about this, or attempt to treat a trans man/masc first or ask for their opinion or situation.

Ultimately, testosterone is seen as entirely optional and so the first resort when something goes wrong it to take it away, when it should be considered the last resort, and is considered the last resort for cis men. And as long as testosterone continues to be a controlled substance it will remain like this.

(edit for clarification: I am a kiwi, this post was intended as a general critique of accessing t through health care systems - based in my lived experience in NZ and what ive heard from international trans ppl; including but not limited to the USA)

[kugisakiss]

the rite of passage for any sibling relationship is lying to each other

[blairamok]

root canal complete, it only took a full blown panic attack in the chair and the ems being call on me but we got there in the end after three doses of tranquilizer👍

[rockhousejai]

Mickey and Pluto idea I had

Bonus stuff

[monst]

Sometimes y/n is better than me cause istg I would crash tf out ✋

[carebeardean]

“fic writers love to torture this readers” have you ever received this. in your mail. I’m going to hunt them for sport/pos

[night-creeps]

I still think I was onto something when I said that Kim's fixation on the revolutionary air brigades felt kind of like a kid with glasses really wanting to be a firefighter and then learning that you can't be a firefighter if you don't have natural 20/20 visiom because the heat would melt plastic or cause burns from metal frames and contacts weren't a safe choice either. It feels a lot like that. He wanted to work on those aerostatics but couldn't because of his eyesight

[neonhellscape]

pasqal setting off an industrial explosion 3ft away from himself, somehow surviving, immediately ready to pick a fight with you including saying in THE most dramatic line 'flee for i am death' said as sole survivor while he's standing in a blaze of a machine he never even touched, meets a rogue trader and where everyone else so far has kinda lost it he basically just opens a backdoor to the imperium government records to look you up and says hm checks out, having a tiny tiny breakdown when you tell him he made the machine explode and then he cant remember how he did it, saying skill issue at the people who died escorting him, then immediately setting up two turrets to Melt people and almost win the fight singlehandedly. [said with utter delight] there is something wrong with him

[goryhorroor]

me and my brother were hollering at the screen for the survival of frodo the cat in a quiet place: day one

[tj-crochets]

Hey y'all! I didn't get many requests for particular pride flags or pride plushies this pride month, but I did get a few requests for an intersex pride something. The intersex pride flag (like a few other flags) is more difficult for me to make, because a symbol is harder to incorporate into an oddly-shaped plushie than just stripes, and the circle will have to be* appliqued by hand so I'd prefer to limit the number of circles. So far, I have three ideas: 1. one of my pride bees (a very round bee consisting of three stripes) that's yellow with a purple stripe in the middle. There wouldn't be a flat ring, but the stripe would kind of form a ring? 2. a yellow dog plushie with a purple ring around its eye like the dog from Little Rascals. Idk how well known that dog is anymore or if it would be recognizable, but it's a one-applique option? I could also include purple patches on the back that are not rings, like the dog's markings in the show (in the movie? to be honest, I just remember the ring around the dog's eye) 3. a blue ringed octopus but the rings are purple. I think this would be awesome but I don't want to applique that many rings by hand and haven't found a fabric with the rings at quite the right scale and density for this project, so this is probably a longer-term one but I do want to make it eventually Do y'all have opinions on any of these, or any other ideas? For intersex pride plushies or for other pride plushies, I've had some work and some family things come up this month that mean I have not gotten as much sewing done this month as I wanted to, and I do love making pride plushies and would love more suggestions *yes, there are a few other ways I could possibly do that, but functionally with the way I make things it'd be by hand

[halffizzbin]

Sorry to talk about food tracking on main but how the hell do you simultaneously eat fewer carbs and more fiber when carbs are where they put all the fiber????

[fishoutoflovebeach]

every time i talk to someone about my legs not working correctly or that im having pain in my knees, ankles or hips, i feel gaslit to believe they’re fine and im just overreacting. that my ‘temporary pain’ is just another way to stuff my face with painkillers so id shut up and be an able-bodied, working class citizen. that im crazy to think im ill because im as healthy as a horse [hehe michael rutherford reference] or it’s just something to do with my ever changing stressful situations [which is a whole other can of worms oh. my gods] or its my diet [this has actually been said to me before.]

when i know it isnt. i dont know what’s wrong with me, and i cant afford to know due to the damn usamerican health system. and i dont know if it would be forward for me to buy a mobility aid just so i can go on a walk without feeling sick halfway through [because morning walks are part of my everyday routine. if i dont something will go wrong, for me.] i was gutted out of money just because i went to get new glasses, getting a wellness check PLUS asking if i have POTS or a hypermobile disorder [which ive done research on, im not self-diagnosing myself] would put me in so much debt. [and im not counting the gender affirming care, which again is another can of worms that i would probably discuss more than my stress and trauma] when explaining my leg pains, i also bring up the fact that ive ran several small motor vehicles [go-karts and golf carts] into trees and fence posts respectively. could that be a reason for my pain? sure. but take it as a grain of salt. whether inflicted or not, pain is pain.

i feel like i whined a bit here, but after whatever happened today, i just want to reflect a little bit. maybe put an opinion in or something, i don’t mind. hearing from other people helps :>

[a-totally-reasonable-username]

Annoyed bc i'm just so so tired and can barely keep from falling asleep much less do anything but lie in bed.... Hmm i wonder.... *Checks blood pressure* *96/51* ... Yep that'd fucking do it :/

[cybervom1t]

yeah i am balls deep in a panic attack right now lmao

[rootmash]

got trounced by prometheus with five dds this guy is the fucking worst