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What if Carmen Sandiego Characters’ Birthdays were the same as their VA’s?
Ever wondered what your favorite character’s birthday is? I noticed that none of the characters have any canon birthdays (please tell me if i’m wrong), so why not make them the same as their voice actors?
Note: I searched up every character’s VA for this. Some of them i couldn’t find a birthday, so they aren’t included in this list. Some characters also have the same birthdays due to having the same VA, or it’s just a coincidence. Also, Mime Bomb has no VA so.. he has no birthday i guess
January
Otter Man — January 8
February
Julia Argent — February 16
The Mechanic — February 17
March
Trey Sterling — March 11
Madame Goldlove, Neal The Eel — March 21
Le Chevre — March 23
April
Dash Haber, Hugo — April 1
Shadowsan — April 19
May
Ivy — May 8
Saira Bellum & Agent Zari — May 10
Gunnar Maelstrom, Vlad, Boris, Mr. Humphrey, ACME Agent — May 28
June
Paperstar — June 27
Sterling Sterling — June 15
July
Tigress — July 13
Sonia — July 19
The Troll — July 20
Carmen Sandiego — July 30
August
Moose Boy — August 11
Chief — August 13
Spinkick — August 29
September
El Topo, Interpol Supervisor — September 13
Countess Cleo, The Driver — September 16
October
Coach Brunt — October 16
Xifeng — October 25
November
Roundabout, Hideo — November 10
December
Cookie Booker (and OG Carmen) — December 11
Flytrap- December 20
Player — December 23
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Cutie Reviews: Doki Doki Oct 17
Okay cuties, this is my final October review. Thank goodness because I’m still really behind. It’s going on December and I didn’t even cover my November reviews yet.
I’m still sick btw. I wanted to have this done days ago but a “pet issue“ came up that distracted us around Friday and Saturday, then on Sunday I got a “surprise day trip away from the house”. We went to the zoo, which was a lot of fun but I feel like it extended my illness considering it was about 40 degrees out and I’ve been coughing a lot more. Now as its Tuesday I might have strep throat- but good news, we found medication that has really helped me (and puts me to sleep for like 9 hour intervals) so I’m good to go!
The zoo was also a lot of fun :3 I’ve always been in LOVE with animals and took a lot of pictures.
Like last year, we’re treated to a HALLOWEEN themed box (Also officially titled “Creepy Cuties” ♥). If you would like to see how it compared to last years, you can visit my review of that crate:
https://cutiecrates.tumblr.com/post/155716993687/review-doki-doki-oct-2016-box-11
Just a word of precaution though- my reviews were very new at the time so I wasn’t very good at it... I’m not saying I am now, but I can see improvement.
Also, like last year we are treated to art by one of my favorites: Tokimekiwaku, who makes the yandere themed visual novel series I’m a big fan of, Liar Liar.
Now before I officially start with the review I wanted to show everyone the special themed boxes they gave us:
I’m pretty sure this wasn’t done with last years crate, so I really like this touch of Halloween themed designing. I hope we get one for Christmas too~
Now, because I forgot to take pictures of it I’ll quickly cover the Suteki Crate items. I know I’ve been forgetting them as of late and I have no idea why.
In this months crate, we could get: a Maple Leaf Hello Kitty plush, Cardcaptor Sakura life sized wand, Jiji plush and carrier from Kiki’s delivery service to match the included Kiki headband, a Mochi-style pumpkin plush, a My Melody lantern, New Nintendo 2DS XL with Kingdom Hearts 3D, and a Spirited Away music box.
I’m already predicting that by the end of this review, I will have favored this crate to last years. I was in love with quite a few items from it, but I’m excited to compare the two~
First we get some of these adorable and fun Sanrio Gift Bags. You get 8 in total and each feature the same, colorful mascots donning their Halloween best on clear pouch-sized bags. You can use them for yourself or use them to show someone a little Halloween spirit, and they could also work as a last-minute emergency pack if you’re in a hurry or run out of normal food storage packs.
Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I didn’t end up using these for Halloween. My plans of getting a bunch of “fun“ things to give away didn’t happen this year so we only gave away a piece or two of candy each, nor did I have anyone special to use them on. For now i’ll be hanging on to them, but I’m in love with the fact that A: They’re practical, and B: they’re SANRIO, these are the perfect additions for a cutie kitchen!
Speaking of we also got these Doki Doki Halloween Mugs featuring Tomomi and Nuki ♥
For a while I wasn’t too excited with the original Doki Doki items we were getting, I mean I like them, but at the same time we were promised apparel and fun accessories and it felt like we weren’t getting that in comparison to what we got last year.
Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
While I’m not the type who uses a mug ALL the time, I do use them for DIY, crafts, and when I’m sick like now...
I also LOVE how cute the design it :D it’s perfect for Halloween or any time of the year! I love the pop of color on the design, and the mischievous but cutesy styling to create a precious, unique piece for the Doki Doki branding.
The cute accessories keep on coming~
We also got a pair of these one-size fits all Tsum Tsum Socks, available in 9 different designs x3 considering I’m obsessed with Minnie I’m happy to have gotten this one. But there is irony here, I already have a pair of socks that look exactly like these- minus the tsum tsum.
Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
The socks are ultra-soft and comfortable. I’ve worn them a few times already and I’m in love with how cute they look paired with my strappy shoes. They end directly beneath the ankle- something that would have bugged me to no end as a child. For some reason I HATED socks like that.
However, I do have my concerns with the socks. It’s a little bit silly, but I’m actually worried about snagging issues because of how soft they are. As stupid as this is going to sound, I’m also bothered by the discolored spots.
I’m weird like that I know. But their paws should be Black or White, not skin-tone.
We also got this kawaii Rabbit Ragdoll Keychain. The perfect spoopy accessory for costumes, cuddling, or to give your own doll a buddy:
I’m not sure what I’ll name her just yet, Patches feels a little cliche.
Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Now in comparison to the 2-types of plush items we got last year this one falls a tiny-bit flat. I don’t feel any sort of spookiness to it- however, I’m also a sucker for ragdolls and things inspired by them so I still really like it ♥ I know Yoko got attached to it fairly quick.
Next is our monthly Hoppe-Chan, who once again decks herself out in fun, colorful Halloween charms. She was available in orange or purple with 3 different designs, each with a pumpkin, bat, or witches hat ornament. You can probably tell which one I got right?
Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥
I wish I got/saw what the bat one looked like, I love bats :D but the reason I’m rating this one a bit lowly is because I think I actually prefer last years to this one. While I like this ones colors... it looks like a cheap knock-off to the previous one. As a stand-alone Hoppe-chan I like it enough, and I love the idea of them introducing alternate style/color varieties lately, but when you compare to the two I feel like last years was superior.
We’re approaching our final few items now, and they go together wonderfully!
First we get some Cat Paws, which as an avid cat-lover I entirely approve of ♥ I always wanted a pair of realistic cat paws gloves so I was beyond happy to pull these out x3 I wore them for Halloween and paired them with the next item we got.
Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
They’re soft and thick, very plush with details and molding around the paws to create an almost realistic paw.
The only real issue is that they are a bit impractical, sadly. My fingernails were so crammed up in them they were kind of bent and a little sore. Not only that but the way the hand is shifted in there could be uncomfortable to some, and you can’t do very much with them on. But that’s kind of a given, isn’t it?
Ultimately I love them, but they might not be for everyone...
See, these are the purrrfect accessories for the kitty paws- or on a day you feel like being a cat ♥
Which is pretty much every day for me~
These are adorable, realistically proportioned Neko Mimi/Cat Ears. Featuring a black color scheme and pink undertones, a bell on each ear, and a ribbon.
But once again there is some irony.
I JUST bought a pair of cat ears from Hot Topic on my birthday (October 15th if you forget ;3). However, they were grey with alternate pink ribbons on them, so I wore those to work and these black ones for Halloween.
Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I LOVE these ears! They’re so cute! I’m obsessed with black cats in particular, so they are really fun to wear. They don’t look weird on the head at all, they look practically natural. However there is one tiny little issue... one of my bells don’t work T^T the little thingy inside fell out I guess, or its stuck.
It’s a tiny bummer, but one I’m willing to live with.
♥ Cutie Ranking ♥
Content - 4 out of 5. I loved everything, and the items were great in general :D in terms of pricing I felt like it was well worth it in comparison to last years box (we got a lot of cheaper, small items if you didn’t check out that entry)
Theme: 5 out of 5. It’s dead-on Halloween! Even the box reflected that!
Total Rank: 14 out of 15 Cuties. I remember ranking the prior years box as being fairly high on my scale- but in all honesty back then I didn’t know what I was doing. I think by now I’d actually rate it within a 7-9 range. The items were much cheaper and on a small sale in comparison to this crate, and while I admit I love the plush, hair clips, and Hoppe-chan from last years, I overall prefer this one.
♡ Cutie Scale ♡
1. Tomomi and Nuki mug - I HAD to give them the top spot this year. I love how the design not only fits the cute and mischievous side to Doki Doki crate, but I like how it clearly says Halloween!
2. Cat Ears - Kawaii ♥ I love the additional accessories
3. Cat Paws - generic sure, but I LOVE kitties and I always wanted a pair. The detail on them is really nice too.
4. Sanrio Bags - I love the colorful pops of halloween colors and styles!
5. Hoppe-Chan - usually ranks a lot higher, but she’s kind of plain this year...
6. Rabbit Ragdoll - A big generic as well. I love the mix of patch fabrics used though and it looks so precious~
7. Tsum Tsum Socks - in comparison to the other items they feel a bit generic. They don’t really feature any special designs or Halloween-esque details.
Okay Cuties, that does it for another review :P I’m hoping to hurry and get my November’s done, but I’m confident that I can cover them and my December crates no problem!
Until next time, stay Cute ♥
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The NFL’s top trade candidates, broken down into 4 groups
Photo by Justin Edmonds/Getty Images
It could be a busy trade market ahead of the Oct. 29 deadline and we’ve got a list of players who could be on the move.
Not all trades are the same.
Cornerback Jalen Ramsey was traded to the Rams because he was fed up with playing for the Jaguars. Emmanuel Sanders was sent to the 49ers because the Broncos knew the 32-year-old receiver was going to leave in free agency anyway. The Falcons shipped receiver Mohamed Sanu to the Patriots so they could start to dig their way out of a tricky salary cap situation.
With the trade deadline coming on Oct. 29, more deals are undoubtedly on the way.
Some teams need to get younger, others need to save money, and there are a few that just want value for players who won’t be on the team much longer.
Here are a couple dozen players who could be on a different roster when November begins:
Players headed for free agency
The trade deadline comes right around the midway point of the NFL season. For players on the final year of their contract, that leaves them less than 10 games away from becoming a free agent.
For some, it’s inevitable. Last year, Golden Tate was on the final season of his contract with the Lions and an extension looked unlikely. His 31st birthday was on the horizon and the younger duo of Marvin Jones and Kenny Golladay was filling the rest of the depth chart. It made sense for Detroit to send Tate to the Eagles for a third-round pick rather than wait for him to leave in the offseason.
Here’s a list of players set to hit free agency in March, who might not be in the long-term plans of their current team:
Robby Anderson, WR, Jets
New York’s inconsistent deep threat has been tough to figure out so far in his career. Now, he’s averaging just 2.8 receptions per game in 2019. That lack of production may push the Jets to move on from Anderson. The booming market for receivers makes now a good time to do it.
Vic Beasley, DE, Falcons
In 2016, Beasley was an All-Pro with 15.5 sacks. In the 37 games since, he has 11.5 sacks. He’s set to hit free agency in the offseason, but the Falcons are mostly trying to trade Beasley because he just hasn’t been very good. Perhaps another team can convince itself that the 2016 version of Beasley can return.
Kenyan Drake, RB, Dolphins
Miami is ditching players left and right, so it wouldn’t be surprising if it decided to do the same with Drake. He’ll be a free agent in 2020, and hasn’t scored a single touchdown in 2019. He finished 2018 with 1,012 yards from scrimmage and nine total touchdowns. If the Dolphins don’t plan on re-signing him, he should be another tank casualty.
Melvin Gordon, RB, Chargers
A long holdout that began in the summer didn’t end until Gordon reported to the team in the last week of September. Prior to that, Gordon was allowed to pursue a trade, but couldn’t find a viable option. Now that he’s averaging 2.3 yards per carry, the Chargers may be more willing to play ball with a team interested in acquiring the two-time Pro Bowl running back.
Chris Harris, CB, Broncos
Harris could fit in a few different categories here, but the No. 1 reason the Broncos should part with the 30-year-old cornerback is that he’s probably leaving after the 2019 season anyway. Harris even seemed to say as much to reporters earlier this year. A lot of teams could use secondary help, and the Broncos aren’t contending for a Super Bowl this year anyway.
Yannick Ngakoue, DE, Jaguars
Joey Bosa and Ngakoue are the only two players from the 2016 draft class with more than 30 career sacks. Ngakoue held out for a contract extension in the offseason and didn’t get one. He later told reporters “[the Jaguars] had a chance to sign me for a long-term deal but it didn’t get done.” With his contract expiring in March, Jacksonville could add even more draft capital by trading the 24-year-old pass rusher for a king’s ransom.
Leonard Williams, DE, Jets
Quinnen Williams is the future of the Jets defensive line and that makes a big extension for Leonard Williams unlikely — especially when he has zero sacks through six games. The 1-5 Jets could look to get what they can get for the former top-10 draft pick.
Players who are too expensive
It’s always smart to see the big picture. Spending to acquire or keep talented players is usually a good idea, but eventually the money runs out. Even if a team isn’t near the salary cap limit, it still makes sense to cut down on expenses whenever possible.
For teams that are especially strapped for cash — or maybe just ones that are thinking about the long haul — the trade deadline can be a good way to get rid of their most cumbersome contracts.
Geno Atkins, DT, Bengals
Atkins has been to the Pro Bowl seven out of the last eight years, so the Bengals probably don’t want to see him leave Cincinnati. But the defensive tackle will also be 32 in March and he’s due to count $14.2 million, $14.8 million, and $16.05 million against the salary cap in the next three seasons. A rebuild is on the way for the Bengals and getting value for a great player while ditching his contract could be a starting point.
Le’Veon Bell, RB, Jets
New Jets general manager Joe Douglas wasn’t the one who thought a four-year, $52.5 million deal for Bell was a good idea. That was Mike Maccagnan, who was fired as GM in May. Jets coach Adam Gase reportedly didn’t like the price tag of Bell. That’s why it wouldn’t be that weird if the Jets shipped away their prized free agent after only a handful of games.
Jamison Crowder, WR, Jets
Crowder was another Maccagnan acquisition earlier in 2019 on a three-year, $28.5 million deal. That’s a lot for a receiver with a career-worst 9.3 yards per reception and still no touchdown receptions. Considering the return Emmanuel Sanders and Mohamed Sanu got on the trade market, the Jets could be better off sending Crowder’s contract somewhere else.
Devonta Freeman, RB, Falcons
Only four running backs have a higher average salary than Freeman, he’s not playing up to that price tag. Freeman’s averaging 3.5 yards per carry and hasn’t had a 1,000-yard rushing season since 2016. With salary cap hell coming soon for the Falcons, it’d be a win for the team if it could find a team willing to take a chance on Freeman.
Von Miller, LB, Broncos
Denver would be wise to burn things down and start over. It already traded Sanders, but the real swing for the fences would be dealing away Miller. He’s due to count more than $25 million against the cap next season and $22.125 million in 2021. Miller turns 31 in March and only has 2.5 sacks so far in 2019. If a team comes with a lofty offer for the Super Bowl 50 MVP, the Broncos could really kick start their rebuild.
Trumaine Johnson, CB, Jets
The third Jets player in this section is the hardest to trade. Johnson got a five-year, $72.5 million deal fr in 2018, but now he has a tenuous grasp on a starting role in New York. If the Jets can convince a team to take on Johnson’s salary, they’d likely take peanuts in return just to ditch the contract.
Josh Norman, CB, Washington
The days when Norman was considered one of the premier shutdown cornerbacks in the NFL are long gone. Now he struggles to stop anyone and is costing Washington points. He’s due to count $15.5 million against the team’s cap in 2020, but will likely be cut before he ever sees that salary. Washington would love if it could get another team to take on that problem instead.
Desmond Trufant, CB, Falcons
Another solution to the Falcons’ aforementioned upcoming salary cap disaster would be to trade Trufant. Unlike Freeman, the veteran cornerback is still playing pretty well. He’s just not playing well enough to warrant eating cap hits between $14.15 million and $16.15 million in the next three seasons. Plenty of other teams would be capable and willing to pay that price, though.
Players who are too old
It always feels awkward calling someone old when they’re only around 30, but the sports world is a weird place.
You: "I'm only 35, I have my whole life ahead of me." Sports Broadcaster: "Here comes the oldest player in the league. He's 32. A miracle."
— Troy Johnson (@_troyjohnson) December 6, 2016
For many teams — especially ones that know they have rebuilding to do — the trade deadline can be the right time to offload aging veterans and see what their young replacements can do.
Carlos Dunlap, DE, Bengals
Spoiler alert: Here’s the first of three consecutive Bengals on this list. The team’s Super Bowl window is 100 percent closed, and there are a few older players on the roster who could fetch value on the trade market. Dunlap, who turns 31 in February, is one of those players after six straight seasons with at least 7.5 sacks. He’s not going to make the Bengals a contender, but a team already set up for a playoff run could use his help.
Tyler Eifert, TE, Bengals
While he’s only 29, the 2015 Pro Bowler is about 38 in football years. Eifert missed 15 games in 2014 due to an elbow dislocation, six games in 2016 with an ankle injury, four more games in 2016 due to back injuries, 14 games due to another back surgery in 2017, and 12 games in 2018 with an ankle fracture. He’s been healthy in 2019, but not very productive. The Bengals would be fine moving on with C.J. Uzomah and Drew Sample at tight end.
A.J. Green, WR, Bengals
The last of the Bengals trio is the one they insist isn’t for sale. Green doesn’t quite have Eifert’s injury history, but he’s now missed 20 games (and counting) since the beginning of the 2016 season. Green turned 31 in July and is probably the most valuable asset on the Bengals roster. If Cincinnati decides it’s rebuild time, trading Green makes sense.
Reshad Jones, S, Dolphins
The only other player on the Dolphins roster with at least 10 seasons under his belt is Ryan Fitzpatrick. Miami is tanking and there’s not much logic in keeping around aging veterans. There aren’t many tradable players left for the Dolphins, but Jones is one. Dumping his $15.63 million and $14.55 million cap hits in the next two seasons is just a bonus.
Patrick Peterson, CB, Cardinals
Around this time last year, Peterson requested a trade out of Arizona. He has since apologized and the Cardinals have turned away callers interested in trading for the eight-time Pro Bowler. Calling him old is a stretch, considering he’s 29 and has never missed a game due to injury, but getting younger would be the only reason for the Cardinals to move on from Peterson. He’s still a great player and a relatively affordable one too.
Players who just don’t fit
Sometimes a player just doesn’t work on a certain roster. A scheme change could make someone a square peg trying to fit in a round hole, and a crowded depth chart could force a player out of town.
The Patriots didn’t really want to trade Jimmy Garoppolo in 2017, but Tom Brady wasn’t going anywhere, so eventually their hands were tied.
Here are a few players who just don’t fit into the plans of their current team and would be better off somewhere else:
O.J. Howard, TE, Buccaneers
The 2017 first-round pick looks like the odd man out of the Bruce Arians and Byron Leftwich offense in Tampa Bay. After scoring 11 touchdowns in his first two seasons and recording 56.5 yards per game in 2018, Howard’s numbers have tanked in 2019. He’s only averaging 29.3 yards this season and hasn’t caught a single touchdown. The Buccaneers would benefit from sending Howard to an offense that actually uses tight ends.
Josh Rosen, QB, Dolphins
Miami gave up a second-round pick during the 2019 NFL Draft to see if Rosen could develop into its quarterback of the future. It’s hard to imagine the Dolphins still think that’s a possibility. They’re careening toward the top pick of the 2020 NFL Draft (or at very least, close to the top) and will probably take a quarterback there. While Rosen’s value is hurt by his 52.0 passer rating in 2019, there are certainly teams that wouldn’t mind seeing what they can get out of a top 10 pick who’s still just 22.
Solomon Thomas, DE, 49ers
The San Francisco defensive line is really freakin’ good and it’s not because of Thomas. The No. 3 pick in the 2017 NFL Draft is just a rotational player with DeForest Buckner, Arik Armstead, Nick Bosa, Dee Ford, and Ronald Blair all outplaying him. Thomas is expendable and could have a bigger role in a defense that isn’t so stacked up front.
Trent Williams, OT, Washington
Washington doesn’t really want to trade Williams, but it doesn’t have much of a choice. The left tackle appears content to sit out for as long as it takes for the team to send him elsewhere. Washington isn’t in a rush to get a deal done, but sooner is better than later.
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Survey Thing
Thanks @canadiangoober for the tag. This is a long one, but it’s summer so I have the time.
1 - Who was the last person you texted? One of my friends showing her Liam’s selfie from last night.
2 - When is your birthday? May 5
3 - Who do you want to be with right now? Hmmmmm, my bestie is in Spain with his hubby. I wouldn’t mind hanging with him for a bit.
4 - What sports do you play? HAHAHAHAHAHA! Look, I love sports. I will watch anything sport related. However, I cannot play a sport to save my life. I have no athletic ability. I can be loud and loyal though!
5 - Who is the first person in your contacts? The number I have to call if I need a sub for my classroom.
6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment? Strip That Down and Slow Hands are tied for 1st.
7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with? Bear Grylls or someone of that ilk so that I can get off that stupid island!
8 - What do you feel right now? Heat. It’s hot here.
9 - What chocolate is your favorite? Dark Chocolate I guess. I’m not a huge chocolate person.
10 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have? 4
11 - Why did you create a Tumblr account? An author whose books I used to love (then she totally wrecked the main character, which is her choice of course but I was so disappointed that I had to stop reading the series) had a tumblr so I looked around and liked it. Then I watched Carpool Karaoke and I was done.
12 - Who is your favorite blogger? Oh wow. That’s hard. I like people who are anti Larry. I like blogs where all the boys are supported.
13 - Where do you want to be right now? In the mountains
14 - What do you want to be in the future? Safe, happy, loved, lottery winner
15 - When was the last time you cried? Yesterday. It was some video on the internet
16 - Are you happy? Yes
17 - Who do you miss? Ok. Settle in. Two years ago my best friend of over 20 years ended our friendship. She had been going through a difficult time and decided that I had not been supportive enough during her time of need. One day I called her and she didn’t answer. A few minutes later I got a text telling me that she was too hurt by my behavior and that she didn’t want to speak to me. I read the text once and deleted it. Then I erased her contact info and blocked her on all social media sites. It was without a doubt one of the hardest things I have ever done. It went against every instinct I had. I wanted to pick up the phone and apologize and try to soothe things over. But I knew that I couldn’t. Not without me regretting it down the line. I miss her every day. She would’ve loved my new found devotion to One Direction. She would’ve loved going to see Harry with me, she would’ve helped me get tickets to the Oct. concert in Atlanta. She wouId’ve gone to see Niall, and Louis and Liam. I still see something or hear something and pick up my phone to call her before I remember that I can’t. It still sucks. I miss her.
18 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life? No. I don’t think so.
19 - What was the best thing you were given? My Kindle, my doggies.
20 - Who was the last person who called you? My dad
21 - What is your favorite dish? There is a restaurant in the mountains near my house and from beginning to end they have the best food ever! I would start with the fried green tomatoes on a bed of shrimp and grits, followed by a steak that you can cut with a fork, and then key lime creme brulee.
22 - Who is your best friend? Gary
23 - What is your biggest regret? Not going away to college. I went to a college close to home and I loved it, but I wonder what would’ve happened if I had left.
24 - Have you ever cheated on your partner? No
25 - Who do you spend crazy moments with? My family
26 - Name someone pretty. I’ve always thought Angelina Jolie was beautiful.
27 - Who was the last person you hugged? My niece or nephew probably
28 - What kind of music do you listen to? Pop-rock, and pop
29 - Are you over your past? Some things, sure. Some things I don’t think you can get passed.
30 - Who is the last person in your contacts? My eye doctor
31 - What kind of person do you want to date? Someone kind, smart, compassionate, settled, tall (that one isn’t a deal breaker)
32 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night? Nope
33 - From whom was the last text message you received? My friend agreeing with me that shirtless Liam is very pretty
34 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt? jeans
35 - How’s your heart? It’s fine
36 - Did you ever have a girlfriend/boyfriend whose name starts with a “J”? Yep. Jeremy. He was my first real kiss.
37 - Do you like someone as of the moment? Not really
38 - What would you want to say to your latest ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend? Thanks and good luck.
39 - Do you have any phobias? rodents. I just can’t.
40 - Did you try to change for a person? No, not change. But I do try to learn more about the things that my friends like--mainly so that I can talk to them about the things they like. Although if I find that I don’t like something I don’t force myself to like it.
41 - What’s the nicest thing have you given to someone? I bought an entire set of winter clothes for a student once. He never knew it was me.
42 - Would you go back to your previous relationship? Goodness yes. He was a great guy. We just weren’t great for each other at the time.
43 - Are you in a good or bad mood? Good
44 - Name someone you can’t live without. My parents
45 - Describe your dream date. A fun tailgate, a Georgia football game, drinks after
46 - Describe your dream wedding. Something casual. I don’t need the big ceremony anymore. I want a simple ceremony and a huge kick ass fun reception. I want people to have fun!
47 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s? A couple from students.
48 - Have you ever been kissed? Yes
49 - How long is your longest relationship? 3 years
50 - Do you regret your past? Parts of it, sure. But that doesn’t mean that I would change anything.
51 - Can you do something stupid for someone else? Every time I take my niece and nephew bowling and they kick my ass it’s pretty stupid. They’re 8 and 5. I mean, come on!
52 - Have you ever cried over someone? Yeah
53 - Do you have a grudge against anyone? I try not to, but I do.
54 - Are you a crybaby? About other people, yes. I can’t remember the last time I cried about myself.
55 - Do people praise you for your looks? Not really
56 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t? Yes.
57 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret? Yep
58 - Do you like getting hurt? No
59 - Does anyone hate you? I don’t know. No one has said it to my face, but I’m sure there are people out there who don’t care for me.
60 - Did you slap anyone whose name starts with an “R”? No
61 - What hair color do you prefer? I don’t care. Brown I guess.
62 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it? I’d like to not care as much about my weight.
63 - Do you love someone as of the moment? Yes
64 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself? No
65 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school? Yes. I work with 150 people. It’s not all smooth sailing.
66 - Can you live without internet? No
67 - What’s the song that remind you of your special someone? Ms. Jackson
68 - Are you good at holding back your tears? No
69 - Are you a crybaby? No
70 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical? Yes. Once. It wasn’t pretty, but it was no big deal.
71 - Are you a KPOP fan? No
72 - Do you study hard? Yes. I liked school.
73 - Have you ever sacrificed something important to you for someone you love? No
74 - Did you ever had a kiss under the moonlight? Yes
75 - Have you ever ridden a boat? Yes
76 - Did you have an accident last year? No
77 - What kind of person are you? I’d like to think I’m kind, accepting, loyal.
78 - Have you ever thought of killing someone? No
79 - Have you ever been jealous? Yes.
80 - How can you prove your love to someone? I don’t know. I think it would depend on the person.
81 - What are you thinking right now? If I want to work on school stuff when I am finished with this.
82 - Who is the 6th person in your contacts? A fellow teacher--Amanda
83 - Do you have any memories you want to erase? No
84 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel? Yes
85 - Did you ever badmouth someone? Yes, but I am working on that. It’s not something I am proud of.
86 - Have you ever had an argument with someone? Yes--I teach 5th grade!
87 - Do you have trust issues? Yes--stupid anxiety
88 - Are you broken-hearted? No, cracked maybe.
89 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”? My niece and nephew
90 - Do you think all the pain is worth it? Yes
91 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”? Yes, but that doesn’t mean you can’t help a little.
92 - Who do you want to marry? I don’t know if marriage is in the cards for me.
93 - Do you believe in destiny? Yes
94 - Have you ever thought “I already found my soulmate”? No
95 - How do you look right now? Clean? I don’t know.
96 - Do you believe that first true love never dies? No, it dies.
97 - Have you found your true love? Nope
98 - What should you be doing right now? Working on school stuff
99 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends. Jeremy
100 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough? Yes. It’s a constant struggle. But sometimes I win. And sometimes I tell people when I don’t feel good enough and they help me. But it’s hard.
#survey#please do it if you want to#please ask about anything that doesn't make sense#I'll be glad to try to explain an answer better#or give more details
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Revenge time, you gotta do all of them too.
lmao ayyy ur finally off anon for smth!
jokes on u i love answering things like this it’s not revenge it’s a treat
hERE WE GO
1: What is your name and does it mean anything? my name is Rachel and it means ewe in hebrew and was the favored wife of jacob
2: How long have you known your best friend? like? two and a half years idk when did we meet
3: What position do you normally sleep in? any that i find comfortable altho probably most common is on my stomach surrounded by a nest of pillows ayy
4: Were you a part of any “clique” in high school? um my school is kinda too small for that but ig u could say i was (and am until the third) part of the “weird kids”
5: Who was your favorite teacher in high school and why? aaaa mr scott bc he was just So Rad holy fuck he took us to portland for a weekend and let me lay on the floor in class and overall was hella
6: Do you wish to travel a lot? ehh??? like i have no money to even go to the store now gotta be realistic abt this shit. i suppose ideally tho ig i’d love to explore if i knew i had a home to come back to i need me roots i am a tree
7: Did you participate in any sports while in school? hELL NO
8: Show a sample of your handwriting:
9: Have you ever given blood? yeah and it made me sick for three whole days, never again sry ppl
10: Do you like the way that you grew up? hPFHDSAFKL; nope
11: Do you like your siblings? Why or why not? hadhsf;lks;dfa again nopE they were all abusive
12: How did you meet your best friend and why did you become friends? u sat @ my table and told me damien was scary and we became friends bc u liked to read and same
13: Name one movie that made you cry. fuCKING WHERE THE RED FERN GROWS. GETS ME EVERY TIME
14: Do you prefer to read poetry, write poetry, or neither? both! lov me some poetry mm good shit lov that word crompch
15: Things about someone that you find attractive? when somebody has a passion and they talk abt it or try to share it w/ u like i might not be interested but it’s 100% guaranteed that i will still lov that u have smth u care abt a lot *unless it’s murder tbh
16: What song are you currently listening to? the silence of my soul idk i was watching mark play prey
17: Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how? nope i am made of solid wood no bones to break
18: A random memory from you childhood: when it would rain i would go play in the concrete ditch beside our apartment complex
19: Where did you grow up? Arkansas. mostly camden but when i was a bby child we lived in stephens for a couple years (until i was like? abt to be in second grade)
20: What was the last thing you watched on tv? i don’t watch television like a normal Human i binge netflix and the last thing i watched was a show called Father Brown which had the guy who played arthur weasley and he was a priest who solved murders it was p good i liked it
21: Do you think you’d make a good parent? i’d b that vodka aunt tbh (but like replace vodka w/ choc milk or apple juice or smth no alcohol will touch these pURE lips)
22: Would you like to meet any of your Tumblr friends in person? i mean sure if i trusted them but i don’t know any tumblr ppl all that well so
22: What was the last dream you remember having? we went to a vacation house and when i checked tumblr a guy i hated and had blocked had found me again and sent me dick pics and other nudes thru the message system and got mad when i didn’t respond bc i lost my phone but my only response was to be like wTF DUDE STOP??? and then we left and i woke up but he was so pissed and i was just like how did u find me wtf
23: When is your birthday? oct 23
24: How many pillows do you sleep with? So Many
25: Do you wear glasses? If so, how long have you been wearing glasses? I WEAR THE DREADED FACE LENSES and i have since like sixth grade (altho i probably needed them for longer i just kept somehow passing the school eye exams bc by the time they caught it i was having such bad migraines i had to hide under the desks @ school bc the light was too much and i couldn’t see SHIT)
26: What color is your hair? shit colored
27: Name 5 facts about your appearance: round, friend shaped, DREADED FACE LENS, about a 1, Squishy
28: What is your favorite soda? cherry cream or cherry sprite
29: What is a strange talent that you have? i can completely forget conversations i just had lmao jk that’s not a talent that’s mental illness! hm i can somehow telepathically sense certain songs when somebody else is thinking abt them
30: How’s the weather right now? LOVELY but still kinda cold
31: Why did one of your friendships end? nobody likes me and i’m gonna die aloneidk man ppl just stop being my friend they get bored of me or smth
32: Who do you miss right now? a lot of ppl
33: Why did your last relationship end? i am a single pringle who has never been in a relationship other than platonic friendship unless u count our broship bc we are totally still getting married in holy matribrony
34: Are you still figuring out who you are? isn’t everyone?
35: Have you ever been admitted to a hospital? Why? no but i came close when they thought i had like? gallstones (i think it was gallstones anyways it was smth like that) when i was eleven bc they were gonna do surgery but it was rly just stress presenting in a weird physically painful way
36: What is your favorite restaurant? what are restaurants? i have never heard of such a thing do u think i, a poor people, have seen such a sight? a myth, no more
37: What is word that you always seem to spell wrong? All of them i cannot read
38: Would ever adopt kids? i mean i adopted my cat does that count?
39: What is your favorite kind of pizza? DISCOURSE FLAVORED jk pineapple ham pizza is bomb but i also just like str8 up pepperoni
40: What was your first thought when you woke up this morning? “god i dont wanna do this” this referring to school but then my second thought was “aa my son is so cute” bc he snuffled my face when he saw i was awake
41: When was the last time you got really really happy and why? whenever i look @ archie bc he is my son my lov nd one of the only things keeping me from going insane in this hellhole called home
42: What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten? germ-x
43: How do you start a conversation? i dont
44: What’s a band you’ve been obsessed with lately? idk? i don’t rly pay attention to that but ig i rly like mother mother lately
45: Do you come from a family “of money?” lMAO I WISH
46: Do you have a bucket list? sort of but not really? like my kinda bucket list involves: adopting and keeping three cats, two dogs, a ferret and a bunny, having my own library room in a house i own, and having enough money that i can actually own a house of a reasonable size like u kno all things that i will never be able to accomplish exactly like a bucket list is for but Not
47: What is your favorite series of books? so many
48: When was the last time you laughed so hard your stomach hurt? when i saw that lord of the rings thing i just reblogged
49: Where do you go when you’re sad? my brain?
50: 5 random facts about yourself: I lov the aesthetic of traditional art but i suck @ it i played clarinet for 5 years and i was rly disappointed when the band director made it so that i no longer felt comfortable in the band and quiti have a need to say hello to every crow i see
i love what’s in the ocean but i hate looking at the ocean and beaches
i chew my nails when i’m stressed and i hate it but i Can’t Stop
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As Youth Suicides Climb, Anguished Parents Begin To Speak Out
Alec Murray was 13. He enjoyed camping, fishing and skiing. At home, it was video games, movies and books. Having just completed middle school with “almost straight A’s,” those grades were going to earn him an iPhone for his upcoming birthday.
Instead, he killed himself on June 8 — the first day of summer break.
Caleb Stenvold was 14. He was a high school freshman in the gifted and talented program. He ran track and played defensive cornerback on his school’s football team. Just two months into high school ― and four months after Alec’s suicide — Caleb killed himself on Oct. 22.
The teenagers, both from Reno, Nevada, didn’t know each other. But their families now do, bonded by loss. Their parents are haunted by what they don’t understand: why.
They ― along with mental health experts, school leaders and researchers — are trying to understand why suicide by children ages 10 to 14 has gone up and up. The suicide rate for that age group almost tripled from 2007 to 2017. Newly released 2018 data from the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention show a 16% increase over the previous year.
“Every family needs to have a conversation about suicide with their children — starting very young. Don’t just spring it on them when they’re 10,” says Paige Murray.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
While experts point to a host of explanations for the alarming rise, scientific proof about cause isn’t conclusive. Some research shows correlations with social media use, cyberbullying and the internet, but studies citing them as a suicide cause are less decisive.
The parents of Caleb and Alec believe impulsivity ― very common in teens because their brains aren’t fully developed — played a role in their suicides.
Kerri Countess, Caleb’s mother, called his suicide “totally unexpected and unimaginable.” He was the youngest of her five sons.
Paige Murray said son Alec “showed no signs of mental distress or depression or anxiety.”
“We think it was an incredibly impulsive act by a hormonal young man,” she said, noting that Alec’s stellar grades were posted online the day of his suicide.
Caleb was a high school freshman in the gifted and talented program. Just two months into high school ― and four months after Alec’s suicide — Caleb killed himself on Oct. 22. Caleb’s parents, Storm Stenvold and Kerri Countess, created a website dedicated to preventing youth suicide by promoting conversation and human connection.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
Experts suggest that our celebrity culture, where suicidal thoughts are sometimes romanticized or normalized, also plays a role. Alec’s parents and Caleb’s parents say they need to speak out and warn other families.
When Caleb died, “we wanted everyone to know he died of suicide because if it can happen to my child who was not bullied and did not fit into the reasons people kill themselves, it can happen to anyone,” Countess said. “It was an impulsive and immature act.”
Amy Kulp, executive director of the Washington, D.C.-based National Center for the Prevention of Youth Suicide, said youth, in particular, “have very few experiences with dealing with outside stressors” and “tend to be quite impulsive.”
“If they have a precipitating event like they are bullied or don’t make a team or a friend stops talking to them or something is on social media that they’re embarrassed about,” she said, “they don’t know they will get through it.”
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Kulp said the rise in suicide among the youngest adolescents has spawned prevention programs targeting elementary and middle schoolers, teaching things like resilience, wellness, self-care and coping behaviors.
Psychologist Mary Alvord said she’s been seeing “younger and younger kids” in her practice.
“At ages 6, 7 and 8, I’m now seeing kids with depression,” said Alvord, of Rockville, Maryland. “It used to be suicide attempts were more in high school. Now, I’m seeing more completed suicides in middle school and even upper elementary school.”
The CDC data illustrate “a steady consistent increase,” that “deserves our focus and our attention,” said CDC statistician Sally Curtin. “It’s linear and has gone up every single year since 2010.”
The CDC also monitors suicide attempts and self-inflicted injuries, based on data from emergency rooms. The latest CDC report published Jan. 31 found that from 2001 to 2016 such visits for those 10 and older increased 42%, with “substantial increases occurring in younger age groups.”
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During the most recent study period, from January 2017 to December 2018, such visits increased more than 25%. For girls ages 10 to 14, data from 2009 to 2015 reflects almost a 20% increase in emergency visits for self-inflicted injury.
Youth today are much more familiar with death, said Jonathan Singer, board president of the nonprofit American Association of Suicidology, citing more than 20 years of mass shootings at schools among reasons.
“Death has become public,” he said. “With the internet and social media, when somebody dies, it’s all over your newsfeed. Hundreds of millions knew within minutes that Kobe Bryant had died. Death is much more a part of their generation.”
Among those aiming to reverse the trend is the National Association of State Boards of Education, based in Alexandria, Virginia, which examined the 2017-18 school year and determined that 25 states and the District of Columbia required or encouraged school districts to develop suicide prevention policies.
The parents of Alec and Caleb are moving past blame into action. Lee and Paige Murray (on couch) are working with the Reno Behavioral Healthcare Hospital and other agencies to better coordinate local suicide prevention.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
According to the organization’s policy review, author Megan Blanco said only three of 10 states with the highest youth suicide rates (ages 10-24) had a suicide prevention policy. The youth suicide rate for Nevada — where Alec and Caleb lived ― is 14.4 deaths per 100,000, which is higher than the national average of 10.6 deaths per 100,000. Nevada was not among the 25 states with a prevention policy, she said.
Alvord, the psychologist, has conducted programs to promote suicide awareness as a joint effort of National PTA and the American Psychological Association. She also helped APA develop online advice for parents to talk to teens about suicide.
Dr. Kenneth Ginsburg, a pediatrician and an adolescent medicine specialist at the Children’s Hospital of Philadelphia, co-founded the Center for Parent and Teen Communication.
“It’s never a mistake to ask a person about their emotions or whether [someone should] be worried about them,” he said.
“People think depression is always seen as sadness,” Ginsburg said. “While sadness is a very important clue, adolescent depression can present with irritability, rage or anger, instead of just sadness. Physical symptoms such as headaches, fatigue, belly pain, dizziness, loss of weight ― these are all things that can present as having problems with mood or depression. Parents may miss the signals.”
The day after his death, Caleb’s parents sought answers on his phone and computer, asking their son Matthew, then 16, to search Caleb’s history back to middle school for possible clues. They found one thing: a search for “suicide” the day before Caleb hanged himself.
Nadine Kaslow, a professor of psychiatry and behavioral sciences at Emory University School of Medicine in Atlanta, said parents need to realize that kids communicate differently today and any thought of banning social media or phones isn’t realistic or wise.
“Parents often get mad at kids because they’re texting or Instagramming or Snapchatting,” she said. “I worry when kids are not doing those things. If they stop doing that, they’re not having fun.”
Jean Twenge, a psychology professor at San Diego State University and author of the book “iGen,” has a darker view of the effects of media consumption and technology, based upon her research. Studies published in several journals in recent years — including the Journal of Abnormal Psychology, Psychiatric Quarterly and Sleep Medicine — found detrimental connections between the omnipresent smartphone, social media, sleep disruption and depression.
A memorial to Caleb Stenvold, who took his life at age 14, holds a place of honor in his home.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
The mother of three (including a 13-year-old) believes technology should not be in a child’s room overnight, and she doesn’t believe anyone 10 to 14 “absolutely needs a smartphone.”
Twenge said it’s difficult to determine a reason other than technology for the suicide spike in recent years.
“Phones and smartphones check all the boxes of possible causes,” she said. “It’s something that’s affected a very large number of people and affected their everyday lives. It’s hard to think of anything else that fits that criteria.”
Perhaps the most significant analysis supporting Twenge’s worries appeared this month in the Canadian Medical Association Journal. The evidence from cross-sectional, longitudinal and empirical studies “implicates smartphone and social media use in the increase in mental distress, self-injurious behaviour and suicidality among youth.” The review also found that social media “can affect adolescents’ self-view and interpersonal relationships through social comparison and negative interactions, including cyberbullying; moreover, social media content often involves normalization and even promotion of self-harm and suicidality among youth.”
A Pew Research Center report on cyberbullying released in 2018 found 56% of 13- to 14-year-olds had experienced cyberbullying; more than one-third said they had been the victim of offensive name-calling or false rumors.
Their parents said neither Alec nor Caleb were bullied. But many others are.
“We don’t know if bullying is the cause, or if kids who are depressed make better targets for a bully,” said Justin Patchin, co-director of the Cyberbullying Research Center.
Henry Kautz, a professor of computer science at the University of Rochester in New York, sees a similar dynamic with technology.
“People have been quick to point to studies that show increases in screen time and increases in depression. But it’s really unclear which way the causation goes,” he said. “Are people who are bullied and isolated seeking refuge in more screen time or is it the other way around?”
Caleb’s parents created Forever14.org, a website dedicated to preventing youth suicide by promoting conversation and human connection. They have filed paperwork to create a nonprofit with the same mission.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
The parents of Alec and Caleb are moving past blame into action. The Murrays are working with the Reno Behavioral Healthcare Hospital and other agencies to better coordinate local suicide prevention. Caleb’s parents created Forever14.org, a website dedicated to promoting conversation and human connection in order to prevent teen suicide. They have filed paperwork to create a nonprofit with the same mission.
“Don’t think it’s too young to talk to your kids about if they might feel like hurting themselves. You might think you have time to tell them, but you can’t go back,” Caleb’s father, Storm Stenvold, said. “I don’t know what pain he was in for that time that he felt he needed to do this. He decided on this very quickly. He was rarely alone. He was home less than three hours by himself.”
Paige Murray agrees, which is why she and her husband, Lee, said they weren’t going to be silent about Alec’s suicide.
“Every family needs to have a conversation about suicide with their children —starting very young. Don’t just spring it on them when they’re 10,” she said. “It should be part of everyday conversation about loving yourself and making sure tomorrow is another day. Make sure it becomes a part of everyday knowledge.”
“This wasn’t a conversation that ever entered our house until June 8, but knowing what we know now, it should be. We were blindsided by it,” Lee Murray said. “It’s hindsight. We could have done better, but how would you know?”
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As Youth Suicides Climb, Anguished Parents Begin To Speak Out
Alec Murray was 13. He enjoyed camping, fishing and skiing. At home, it was video games, movies and books. Having just completed middle school with “almost straight A’s,” those grades were going to earn him an iPhone for his upcoming birthday.
Instead, he killed himself on June 8 — the first day of summer break.
Caleb Stenvold was 14. He was a high school freshman in the gifted and talented program. He ran track and played defensive cornerback on his school’s football team. Just two months into high school ― and four months after Alec’s suicide — Caleb killed himself on Oct. 22.
The teenagers, both from Reno, Nevada, didn’t know each other. But their families now do, bonded by loss. Their parents are haunted by what they don’t understand: why.
They ― along with mental health experts, school leaders and researchers — are trying to understand why suicide by children ages 10 to 14 has gone up and up. The suicide rate for that age group almost tripled from 2007 to 2017. Newly released 2018 data from the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention show a 16% increase over the previous year.
“Every family needs to have a conversation about suicide with their children — starting very young. Don’t just spring it on them when they’re 10,” says Paige Murray.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
While experts point to a host of explanations for the alarming rise, scientific proof about cause isn’t conclusive. Some research shows correlations with social media use, cyberbullying and the internet, but studies citing them as a suicide cause are less decisive.
The parents of Caleb and Alec believe impulsivity ― very common in teens because their brains aren’t fully developed — played a role in their suicides.
Kerri Countess, Caleb’s mother, called his suicide “totally unexpected and unimaginable.” He was the youngest of her five sons.
Paige Murray said son Alec “showed no signs of mental distress or depression or anxiety.”
“We think it was an incredibly impulsive act by a hormonal young man,” she said, noting that Alec’s stellar grades were posted online the day of his suicide.
Caleb was a high school freshman in the gifted and talented program. Just two months into high school ― and four months after Alec’s suicide — Caleb killed himself on Oct. 22. Caleb’s parents, Storm Stenvold and Kerri Countess, created a website dedicated to preventing youth suicide by promoting conversation and human connection.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
Experts suggest that our celebrity culture, where suicidal thoughts are sometimes romanticized or normalized, also plays a role. Alec’s parents and Caleb’s parents say they need to speak out and warn other families.
When Caleb died, “we wanted everyone to know he died of suicide because if it can happen to my child who was not bullied and did not fit into the reasons people kill themselves, it can happen to anyone,” Countess said. “It was an impulsive and immature act.”
Amy Kulp, executive director of the Washington, D.C.-based National Center for the Prevention of Youth Suicide, said youth, in particular, “have very few experiences with dealing with outside stressors” and “tend to be quite impulsive.”
“If they have a precipitating event like they are bullied or don’t make a team or a friend stops talking to them or something is on social media that they’re embarrassed about,” she said, “they don’t know they will get through it.”
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Kulp said the rise in suicide among the youngest adolescents has spawned prevention programs targeting elementary and middle schoolers, teaching things like resilience, wellness, self-care and coping behaviors.
Psychologist Mary Alvord said she’s been seeing “younger and younger kids” in her practice.
“At ages 6, 7 and 8, I’m now seeing kids with depression,” said Alvord, of Rockville, Maryland. “It used to be suicide attempts were more in high school. Now, I’m seeing more completed suicides in middle school and even upper elementary school.”
The CDC data illustrate “a steady consistent increase,” that “deserves our focus and our attention,” said CDC statistician Sally Curtin. “It’s linear and has gone up every single year since 2010.”
The CDC also monitors suicide attempts and self-inflicted injuries, based on data from emergency rooms. The latest CDC report published Jan. 31 found that from 2001 to 2016 such visits for those 10 and older increased 42%, with “substantial increases occurring in younger age groups.”
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During the most recent study period, from January 2017 to December 2018, such visits increased more than 25%. For girls ages 10 to 14, data from 2009 to 2015 reflects almost a 20% increase in emergency visits for self-inflicted injury.
Youth today are much more familiar with death, said Jonathan Singer, board president of the nonprofit American Association of Suicidology, citing more than 20 years of mass shootings at schools among reasons.
“Death has become public,” he said. “With the internet and social media, when somebody dies, it’s all over your newsfeed. Hundreds of millions knew within minutes that Kobe Bryant had died. Death is much more a part of their generation.”
Among those aiming to reverse the trend is the National Association of State Boards of Education, based in Alexandria, Virginia, which examined the 2017-18 school year and determined that 25 states and the District of Columbia required or encouraged school districts to develop suicide prevention policies.
The parents of Alec and Caleb are moving past blame into action. Lee and Paige Murray (on couch) are working with the Reno Behavioral Healthcare Hospital and other agencies to better coordinate local suicide prevention.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
According to the organization’s policy review, author Megan Blanco said only three of 10 states with the highest youth suicide rates (ages 10-24) had a suicide prevention policy. The youth suicide rate for Nevada — where Alec and Caleb lived ― is 14.4 deaths per 100,000, which is higher than the national average of 10.6 deaths per 100,000. Nevada was not among the 25 states with a prevention policy, she said.
Alvord, the psychologist, has conducted programs to promote suicide awareness as a joint effort of National PTA and the American Psychological Association. She also helped APA develop online advice for parents to talk to teens about suicide.
Dr. Kenneth Ginsburg, a pediatrician and an adolescent medicine specialist at the Children’s Hospital of Philadelphia, co-founded the Center for Parent and Teen Communication.
“It’s never a mistake to ask a person about their emotions or whether [someone should] be worried about them,” he said.
“People think depression is always seen as sadness,” Ginsburg said. “While sadness is a very important clue, adolescent depression can present with irritability, rage or anger, instead of just sadness. Physical symptoms such as headaches, fatigue, belly pain, dizziness, loss of weight ― these are all things that can present as having problems with mood or depression. Parents may miss the signals.”
The day after his death, Caleb’s parents sought answers on his phone and computer, asking their son Matthew, then 16, to search Caleb’s history back to middle school for possible clues. They found one thing: a search for “suicide” the day before Caleb hanged himself.
Nadine Kaslow, a professor of psychiatry and behavioral sciences at Emory University School of Medicine in Atlanta, said parents need to realize that kids communicate differently today and any thought of banning social media or phones isn’t realistic or wise.
“Parents often get mad at kids because they’re texting or Instagramming or Snapchatting,” she said. “I worry when kids are not doing those things. If they stop doing that, they’re not having fun.”
Jean Twenge, a psychology professor at San Diego State University and author of the book “iGen,” has a darker view of the effects of media consumption and technology, based upon her research. Studies published in several journals in recent years — including the Journal of Abnormal Psychology, Psychiatric Quarterly and Sleep Medicine — found detrimental connections between the omnipresent smartphone, social media, sleep disruption and depression.
A memorial to Caleb Stenvold, who took his life at age 14, holds a place of honor in his home.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
The mother of three (including a 13-year-old) believes technology should not be in a child’s room overnight, and she doesn’t believe anyone 10 to 14 “absolutely needs a smartphone.”
Twenge said it’s difficult to determine a reason other than technology for the suicide spike in recent years.
“Phones and smartphones check all the boxes of possible causes,” she said. “It’s something that’s affected a very large number of people and affected their everyday lives. It’s hard to think of anything else that fits that criteria.”
Perhaps the most significant analysis supporting Twenge’s worries appeared this month in the Canadian Medical Association Journal. The evidence from cross-sectional, longitudinal and empirical studies “implicates smartphone and social media use in the increase in mental distress, self-injurious behaviour and suicidality among youth.” The review also found that social media “can affect adolescents’ self-view and interpersonal relationships through social comparison and negative interactions, including cyberbullying; moreover, social media content often involves normalization and even promotion of self-harm and suicidality among youth.”
A Pew Research Center report on cyberbullying released in 2018 found 56% of 13- to 14-year-olds had experienced cyberbullying; more than one-third said they had been the victim of offensive name-calling or false rumors.
Their parents said neither Alec nor Caleb were bullied. But many others are.
“We don’t know if bullying is the cause, or if kids who are depressed make better targets for a bully,” said Justin Patchin, co-director of the Cyberbullying Research Center.
Henry Kautz, a professor of computer science at the University of Rochester in New York, sees a similar dynamic with technology.
“People have been quick to point to studies that show increases in screen time and increases in depression. But it’s really unclear which way the causation goes,” he said. “Are people who are bullied and isolated seeking refuge in more screen time or is it the other way around?”
Caleb’s parents created Forever14.org, a website dedicated to preventing youth suicide by promoting conversation and human connection. They have filed paperwork to create a nonprofit with the same mission.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
The parents of Alec and Caleb are moving past blame into action. The Murrays are working with the Reno Behavioral Healthcare Hospital and other agencies to better coordinate local suicide prevention. Caleb’s parents created Forever14.org, a website dedicated to promoting conversation and human connection in order to prevent teen suicide. They have filed paperwork to create a nonprofit with the same mission.
“Don’t think it’s too young to talk to your kids about if they might feel like hurting themselves. You might think you have time to tell them, but you can’t go back,” Caleb’s father, Storm Stenvold, said. “I don’t know what pain he was in for that time that he felt he needed to do this. He decided on this very quickly. He was rarely alone. He was home less than three hours by himself.”
Paige Murray agrees, which is why she and her husband, Lee, said they weren’t going to be silent about Alec’s suicide.
“Every family needs to have a conversation about suicide with their children —starting very young. Don’t just spring it on them when they’re 10,” she said. “It should be part of everyday conversation about loving yourself and making sure tomorrow is another day. Make sure it becomes a part of everyday knowledge.”
“This wasn’t a conversation that ever entered our house until June 8, but knowing what we know now, it should be. We were blindsided by it,” Lee Murray said. “It’s hindsight. We could have done better, but how would you know?”
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As Youth Suicides Climb, Anguished Parents Begin To Speak Out
Alec Murray was 13. He enjoyed camping, fishing and skiing. At home, it was video games, movies and books. Having just completed middle school with “almost straight A’s,” those grades were going to earn him an iPhone for his upcoming birthday.
Instead, he killed himself on June 8 — the first day of summer break.
Caleb Stenvold was 14. He was a high school freshman in the gifted and talented program. He ran track and played defensive cornerback on his school’s football team. Just two months into high school ― and four months after Alec’s suicide — Caleb killed himself on Oct. 22.
The teenagers, both from Reno, Nevada, didn’t know each other. But their families now do, bonded by loss. Their parents are haunted by what they don’t understand: why.
They ― along with mental health experts, school leaders and researchers — are trying to understand why suicide by children ages 10 to 14 has gone up and up. The suicide rate for that age group almost tripled from 2007 to 2017. Newly released 2018 data from the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention show a 16% increase over the previous year.
“Every family needs to have a conversation about suicide with their children — starting very young. Don’t just spring it on them when they’re 10,” says Paige Murray.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
While experts point to a host of explanations for the alarming rise, scientific proof about cause isn’t conclusive. Some research shows correlations with social media use, cyberbullying and the internet, but studies citing them as a suicide cause are less decisive.
The parents of Caleb and Alec believe impulsivity ― very common in teens because their brains aren’t fully developed — played a role in their suicides.
Kerri Countess, Caleb’s mother, called his suicide “totally unexpected and unimaginable.” He was the youngest of her five sons.
Paige Murray said son Alec “showed no signs of mental distress or depression or anxiety.”
“We think it was an incredibly impulsive act by a hormonal young man,” she said, noting that Alec’s stellar grades were posted online the day of his suicide.
Caleb was a high school freshman in the gifted and talented program. Just two months into high school ― and four months after Alec’s suicide — Caleb killed himself on Oct. 22. Caleb’s parents, Storm Stenvold and Kerri Countess, created a website dedicated to preventing youth suicide by promoting conversation and human connection.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
Experts suggest that our celebrity culture, where suicidal thoughts are sometimes romanticized or normalized, also plays a role. Alec’s parents and Caleb’s parents say they need to speak out and warn other families.
When Caleb died, “we wanted everyone to know he died of suicide because if it can happen to my child who was not bullied and did not fit into the reasons people kill themselves, it can happen to anyone,” Countess said. “It was an impulsive and immature act.”
Amy Kulp, executive director of the Washington, D.C.-based National Center for the Prevention of Youth Suicide, said youth, in particular, “have very few experiences with dealing with outside stressors” and “tend to be quite impulsive.”
“If they have a precipitating event like they are bullied or don’t make a team or a friend stops talking to them or something is on social media that they’re embarrassed about,” she said, “they don’t know they will get through it.”
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Kulp said the rise in suicide among the youngest adolescents has spawned prevention programs targeting elementary and middle schoolers, teaching things like resilience, wellness, self-care and coping behaviors.
Psychologist Mary Alvord said she’s been seeing “younger and younger kids” in her practice.
“At ages 6, 7 and 8, I’m now seeing kids with depression,” said Alvord, of Rockville, Maryland. “It used to be suicide attempts were more in high school. Now, I’m seeing more completed suicides in middle school and even upper elementary school.”
The CDC data illustrate “a steady consistent increase,” that “deserves our focus and our attention,” said CDC statistician Sally Curtin. “It’s linear and has gone up every single year since 2010.”
The CDC also monitors suicide attempts and self-inflicted injuries, based on data from emergency rooms. The latest CDC report published Jan. 31 found that from 2001 to 2016 such visits for those 10 and older increased 42%, with “substantial increases occurring in younger age groups.”
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During the most recent study period, from January 2017 to December 2018, such visits increased more than 25%. For girls ages 10 to 14, data from 2009 to 2015 reflects almost a 20% increase in emergency visits for self-inflicted injury.
Youth today are much more familiar with death, said Jonathan Singer, board president of the nonprofit American Association of Suicidology, citing more than 20 years of mass shootings at schools among reasons.
“Death has become public,” he said. “With the internet and social media, when somebody dies, it’s all over your newsfeed. Hundreds of millions knew within minutes that Kobe Bryant had died. Death is much more a part of their generation.”
Among those aiming to reverse the trend is the National Association of State Boards of Education, based in Alexandria, Virginia, which examined the 2017-18 school year and determined that 25 states and the District of Columbia required or encouraged school districts to develop suicide prevention policies.
The parents of Alec and Caleb are moving past blame into action. Lee and Paige Murray (on couch) are working with the Reno Behavioral Healthcare Hospital and other agencies to better coordinate local suicide prevention.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
According to the organization’s policy review, author Megan Blanco said only three of 10 states with the highest youth suicide rates (ages 10-24) had a suicide prevention policy. The youth suicide rate for Nevada — where Alec and Caleb lived ― is 14.4 deaths per 100,000, which is higher than the national average of 10.6 deaths per 100,000. Nevada was not among the 25 states with a prevention policy, she said.
Alvord, the psychologist, has conducted programs to promote suicide awareness as a joint effort of National PTA and the American Psychological Association. She also helped APA develop online advice for parents to talk to teens about suicide.
Dr. Kenneth Ginsburg, a pediatrician and an adolescent medicine specialist at the Children’s Hospital of Philadelphia, co-founded the Center for Parent and Teen Communication.
“It’s never a mistake to ask a person about their emotions or whether [someone should] be worried about them,” he said.
“People think depression is always seen as sadness,” Ginsburg said. “While sadness is a very important clue, adolescent depression can present with irritability, rage or anger, instead of just sadness. Physical symptoms such as headaches, fatigue, belly pain, dizziness, loss of weight ― these are all things that can present as having problems with mood or depression. Parents may miss the signals.”
The day after his death, Caleb’s parents sought answers on his phone and computer, asking their son Matthew, then 16, to search Caleb’s history back to middle school for possible clues. They found one thing: a search for “suicide” the day before Caleb hanged himself.
Nadine Kaslow, a professor of psychiatry and behavioral sciences at Emory University School of Medicine in Atlanta, said parents need to realize that kids communicate differently today and any thought of banning social media or phones isn’t realistic or wise.
“Parents often get mad at kids because they’re texting or Instagramming or Snapchatting,” she said. “I worry when kids are not doing those things. If they stop doing that, they’re not having fun.”
Jean Twenge, a psychology professor at San Diego State University and author of the book “iGen,” has a darker view of the effects of media consumption and technology, based upon her research. Studies published in several journals in recent years — including the Journal of Abnormal Psychology, Psychiatric Quarterly and Sleep Medicine — found detrimental connections between the omnipresent smartphone, social media, sleep disruption and depression.
A memorial to Caleb Stenvold, who took his life at age 14, holds a place of honor in his home.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
The mother of three (including a 13-year-old) believes technology should not be in a child’s room overnight, and she doesn’t believe anyone 10 to 14 “absolutely needs a smartphone.”
Twenge said it’s difficult to determine a reason other than technology for the suicide spike in recent years.
“Phones and smartphones check all the boxes of possible causes,” she said. “It’s something that’s affected a very large number of people and affected their everyday lives. It’s hard to think of anything else that fits that criteria.”
Perhaps the most significant analysis supporting Twenge’s worries appeared this month in the Canadian Medical Association Journal. The evidence from cross-sectional, longitudinal and empirical studies “implicates smartphone and social media use in the increase in mental distress, self-injurious behaviour and suicidality among youth.” The review also found that social media “can affect adolescents’ self-view and interpersonal relationships through social comparison and negative interactions, including cyberbullying; moreover, social media content often involves normalization and even promotion of self-harm and suicidality among youth.”
A Pew Research Center report on cyberbullying released in 2018 found 56% of 13- to 14-year-olds had experienced cyberbullying; more than one-third said they had been the victim of offensive name-calling or false rumors.
Their parents said neither Alec nor Caleb were bullied. But many others are.
“We don’t know if bullying is the cause, or if kids who are depressed make better targets for a bully,” said Justin Patchin, co-director of the Cyberbullying Research Center.
Henry Kautz, a professor of computer science at the University of Rochester in New York, sees a similar dynamic with technology.
“People have been quick to point to studies that show increases in screen time and increases in depression. But it’s really unclear which way the causation goes,” he said. “Are people who are bullied and isolated seeking refuge in more screen time or is it the other way around?”
Caleb’s parents created Forever14.org, a website dedicated to preventing youth suicide by promoting conversation and human connection. They have filed paperwork to create a nonprofit with the same mission.(Lauren Casto for KHN)
The parents of Alec and Caleb are moving past blame into action. The Murrays are working with the Reno Behavioral Healthcare Hospital and other agencies to better coordinate local suicide prevention. Caleb’s parents created Forever14.org, a website dedicated to promoting conversation and human connection in order to prevent teen suicide. They have filed paperwork to create a nonprofit with the same mission.
“Don’t think it’s too young to talk to your kids about if they might feel like hurting themselves. You might think you have time to tell them, but you can’t go back,” Caleb’s father, Storm Stenvold, said. “I don’t know what pain he was in for that time that he felt he needed to do this. He decided on this very quickly. He was rarely alone. He was home less than three hours by himself.”
Paige Murray agrees, which is why she and her husband, Lee, said they weren’t going to be silent about Alec’s suicide.
“Every family needs to have a conversation about suicide with their children —starting very young. Don’t just spring it on them when they’re 10,” she said. “It should be part of everyday conversation about loving yourself and making sure tomorrow is another day. Make sure it becomes a part of everyday knowledge.”
“This wasn’t a conversation that ever entered our house until June 8, but knowing what we know now, it should be. We were blindsided by it,” Lee Murray said. “It’s hindsight. We could have done better, but how would you know?”
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september 23rd, 2018 12:08 AM
in my last entry, i said that i would not type up another until i had confronted my mother.
well. over a year later, and here we are. my mother has been confronted, but not by me. i would like to attempt to do an overview of my life the past year.
a warning. i am in emotional states all the time. if my thoughts dwell on my family members that i miss or events that enrage me, i bring myself to tears within seconds and my head aches and i cannot focus much these days. my depression is at its height but by some fucking miracle i didn’t relapse. i didn’t. i also didn’t have the means as the box cutter disappeared.
i will try to remember the details. i found out recently that untreated mental illness literally erodes away your physical brain and memory. so. forgive me.
[aug 2017] my birthday passes by with a quiet birthday. we had taken my brother down to his school in hollister. my mom came with us and everybody was uncomfortable. my mother made a scene, asking my father if it was okay to eat the food that came with our air b&b. she was pathetic. i ignored her and shut her out this entire time. the brakes went out in my dad’s yukon. what would have been a fun trip is now spent fixing the yukon and sweating in the car. this trip marks the end of the close relationship i had with my brother for nearly all my life. we’re still close but i see him every three months for a few days at most. this wears on my soul and brings me to tears now. i miss him so god damn much, all the time. anyways. mom moves to atchison. toby goes back and forth each week despite his desire to live with my dad all the time. my mom doesn’t care, doesn’t get a job, can still to this day never pay for anything, such as gas or food for her own son, and constantly pawns my brother off on my father. my littlest brother is 13, now 14, and is still subject to all that.
[sept 2017] i move into the dorms pretty much by myself. i think my dad brought up my minifridge, but it was sophomore year and no big deal. no one else really said anything, no one else being my extended family. i expect their silence constantly and nothing else except for when it’s “important”. you know, christmas, birthdays, baby showers, all that sort of bullshit. anyways, i start classes and i actually make a ton of new friends in my biology and chemistry classes. amanda, maggie, dev, trent, carter, mackenzie, aaron, all the katies. through them? ameen, meg, brendan, kady. it’s really wonderful. i have a good community. classes are fine. i go home for toby’s homecoming. mom has become the master narcissistic manipulator that she is and is trying to warp everybody’s image of my father and me. she does so within the small, close-minded community we’re from. friends of my family, people i’ve known for years, people i haven’t had conversations with for years, block me on facebook, on all social media. it’s really awful. at homecoming, my mother carpools with us while spouting all that bullshit on facebook and actively shitalking my father. i know that homecoming is going to be fighting between my mother and father. we don’t even make the 10 minute drive to the school before they start in. they begin yelling. oh, i forgot to mention. i told my father about the men my mother had been sexting on facebook with the help of my sister. so my dad knows. he brought those men up. my mom laughs hysterically asks my dad how he knew. he doesn’t respond. my mom asks why my father isn’t stepping up and giving her gas and food money like he should. i ask her why she doesn’t get a job if she’s able to walk 12 miles a day like her facebook posts say she can? my mom scoffs and says, “so you’ve got her on your side too, huh? telling her lies?” this pisses me off as i’m 19 years old at this point, fully capable of thinking, and tell my mom this. i tell her she doesn’t have her family anymore. she tells me thanks and walks away. my mother asks my father to walk with her later on. i tell my sister and cousins the deep gossip. they send their condolences. it’s petty thinking back on it.
[oct 2017] nothing much happens. i get along fine with my roommate. classes are fine. mom is spouting shit and i just get angrier and angrier. she walks over everybody. all my mom’s family isn’t talking to her. my sister and i bond over the salt.
[nov 2017] pretty much the same. my cousin has the first grandbaby. she’s cute and i love her and her name is kyah. my cousin salts with me. no one lets my mom know of the baby’s birth until a facebook post a few hours later. pisses my mom off. haha. i think it was around november that a leak sprung up in my room and i was moved. the girl i moved in with is named erin. she’s incredibly rad and understands me pretty deeply. both equal parts oversharing and similar past experiences and we became very important to each other very quickly. i’m also still angry and emotionally distraught all the time and erin helped. she genuinely makes me laugh and was a pillar of support. she knew intricate details better than marissa does. she is easier to talk to than marissa. isn’t that wild?
[dec 2017] garryck comes for christmas. i am still working. i do good in classes. i have a crush on my friend carter in my chemistry class but nothing happened with that and i’m at the point where i just appreciate the aesthetic and his personality yknow. anyways. we have christmas with my mom’s family but don’t invite my mom. shitty, yeah? who the fuck cares. i am able to tell erin about all this in full detail. i have never been so fully understood by another person outside of my family. it’s really incredible.
[jan 2018] nothing really happens. normal month, normal me, whomst this. nah, i’m still angry all the fucking time. every little thing sets me off. it all stems from my mother and what she is still actively doing, besmirching my father and i. it’s awful awful awful shit.
[feb 2018] something of importance happens. those first few months, i was always able to rely on my mom’s side of the family to vent and shit and i still am, but not with my sister. my sister got pregnant in december and february was when the prospect of having a child really got to her. and she didn’t want to do it alone. she didn’t want to do it without my mom. so my sister really, really pressured me into making up with my mom, to sweep everything away, to rewire my brain and change my chemical makeup and forget all my god fucking awful memories and somehow muster up the strength to speak to my mother without wanting to deck her. it doesn’t work. the kid won’t bring us together. spoiler: he doesn’t. my sister stops talking to me. she is easily manipulated. she beings believing the shit my mom says about my dad, her stepfather. it’s all shit.
i think this went down in february. my memory is foggy. erin meets my friends and there’s awkwardness. erin occasionally makes me uncomfortable. she made them uncomfortable. i have to talk to her all the time. i have to compose myself all the time and be around her all the time and. and i dont think i could take it. i’m a really awful person, you know? i have been this past year. anger and malice has been eating away at me for so long and i am so tired. so... i switched rooms without telling erin why. she asked and asked and pestered and insulted until i finally laid it out. she apologized. she said she would change. she said she didn’t realize. she said she was sorry and sorry and sorry. i left her on read for six months. i ignored her in between classes and at meals. i became a real fucking asshole. i cut off one of my closest friends.
[march 2018] the shit with toby goes down. i won’t bother logging it here. buchanan county courthouse already has. but it puts a strain on things. mom wants to move back to kansas kansas. like the shawnee mission area. dad does too. dad wants to leave rushville and missouri. they begin arguing about schools. mom wants wellsville, a hick town of hick people and hick classes and hick education, the worst. my dad wants a normal functioning school where toby can be a normal non-hick. so does literally everyone, even my mom’s friends. my dad gets laid off. he is struggling to make ends meet.
[april 2018] my dad begins talk to me about rehoming my dogs and our cats. the thought really fucking tears at my heart. he wants to leave rushville so bad and go back to his friends and his life before my mom, before everything went to shit for him. i could not imagine being my father and living in that house all completely by myself. the house that held my family of 5 people, two dogs, three cats, birds, fish, loud, furniture everywhere, home everywhere, music everywhere. his family. everywhere. and that house without my brothers and me and mom became a husk. a ghost of his life when it was bad but it was full and it was full of life and it was full of his children and their voices and their music and god do i fucking miss it so fucking much i miss that so fucking much and i can’t spend my nights alone without thinking about things used to be and i miss everything so much i miss everyone so much. i was so afraid of my father killing himself after being laid off and facing massive amounts of debt that he called his father, whom he hadn’t spoken to in nineteen years, for help, only to be met with silence. he didn’t though. he had three children who loved him so fucking much and relied on him for everything and everything was him and he was everything and is everything to me and there’s no one on this godforsaken planet that i love more than my father. while untreated, my life would end with his. i think he knew that. i was so afraid of my mother killing herself because that would be completely and totally my fault but how could i prevent that? i need to turn off the smiths right now.
i need to breathe. i need to ground myself. i need to remember it is going to be okay. april was okay. nothing happened major.
[may 2018] nothing happens here. school ends. dad has been hanging out with his friends, one of them being amy and her family. oh, my mom through all of this has been disagreeing to settlements and therefore heavily delaying the actual divorce and has been doing that since sept 2017. my parents didn’t get officially divorced until aug 2018. that’s how much of a cunt she is. my dad’s two greatest friends are amy and marilee. they’re really really really wonderful women who help my dad and help me and family and i don’t know them that well but they’d do anything for my brothers and me. they’re true friends, good kind souls that fill this world. amy is also going through a divorce. my dad and her bond over that. but they don’t see each other. they don’t date, despite my mom’s best efforts to convince the world they’ve been having a 12 year long affair and amy’s youngest is actually my dad’s. oh well, haha. my mom’s a dumb petty bitch. anyways. we go to amy’s mom’s lakehouse and have a really good time swimming in the water. garryck comes up from school for a few weeks and brings his friends and it’s all a really wonderful time and we spend weekends out there and amy’s mom nancy is a wonderful woman and everything is great.
[june 2018] summer is still great. i work all the time. i move into an apartment in saint joseph with my friends kady and ashleigh. everything is good. we split it. jyro moves with me. everything is really great and nice. the summer is nice. i don’t hear much above my mom. living on my own, it was like. yknow. The Milestone. The last one that separated me from my adolescence. i see my dad about every two weeks on the weekends i don’t work. it is a good routine and it really really messes with me if i don’t see them at least every two weeks. i can see the damage to my mental state. it gets the worst right before i go and visit them, when it’s been the longest. i just love sitting and chatting with my papa. i feel like it makes me whole, complete, recharged and energized. i love him so much. the summer is bliss. the summer is great. i pay rent and become and adult and bills and everything is good.
[july 2018] my mother moves to wellsville and moves in with a guy down there, so the dumb bitch loses her alimony lmaooo. however this means there is now an hour and something odd drive between my mother and father’s house, where toby must be transported. my mother can’t even afford her phone bill, so there’s no way she can afford the gas for this. of course, my father transports him, because he’s working odd jobs constantly and stressed about not being able to find a job and i get that second hand anxiety because i want him to be okay and i want to live an easy life without stress and he can’t do that with my leeching mother. breathes. anyways. she moves toby down there without telling him that doesn’t go well and that pisses me off royally and everything is rough for a few moments. i don’t ever talk to my mom. i block her on facebook. i think my sister’s baby shower is this month. i spend the days prior with my aunts and cousins helping set up. i was also sick and pretty useless. anyways, we salt about my mom because she’s not communicated about shit and everyone is upset with her and not talking to her so i’m just drinking the tea at this point in time. baby shower is fine, sister is exasperated with lack of a relationship with my mom, the thing goes fine, whatever. nothing really else happens in july. i bought my dad a hat for his birthday.
[august 2018] wooooooooooo birthday month. also a really awful month. my brother went back to school. my dad rehomed both my dogs to new homes, but at least they’re together. that was really really really really really rough and i miss those pups so fucking much and i am so angry at the situation at everything at everything at everything i miss my dogs. i had to rehome my ferrets. i did that by myself. a rescue in liberty took them. i miss those fuckers so much. but they’re in a better place. my dad also rehomed our two other cats. i did not get to say goodbye. i don’t know where they went and i can’t visit them like i can the dogs. it really really gets to me sometimes, thinking i was so important in their lives and now i’m gone. i got a card from work for my birthday. marissa and ashleigh took me out to dinner. some cards and a bunch of facebook posts. school starts back up. i see my old college friends that i genuinely miss. i see erin in one of my classes and i realize how much i miss her, but she looks at me with so much resentment. i fucked up so bad. but i missed her and i needed. well i wanted our friendship back. it wouldn’t be the same, no, but god do i need all the help i can get traversing my fucked up life. so i sent her this long ass message, explaining myself, my mistakes, why i fucked up, why i was so immature, why i was a total asshole for no reason. she took me back and i am so happy. our friendship is so good again. i love having her back and i think about the good things in my life like that a lot. toby started at wellsville, much to everyone’s chagrin. my sister has her baby. his name is bentley. he is very cute and i love him. my sister does not talk to me or my dad as much. i think she is slowly cutting us away. i try not to think about it.
[sept 2018] my dad did get a new job and apartment actually in august but i’ve already typed this and ya bitch lazy. hence all the rehoming. he gets health insurance october first. i am so ready to go to the doctor again and get my thyroid and my depression treated. i don’t remember a lot of things from my childhood anymore and it is scaring me and i think my depression is causing it. though i am not a doctor. this boy sam is talking to me and goes to my uni but we haven’t met in person, though i think he likes me. i am not sure.
life is okay right now. i am sitting in my dad’s apartment waiting for him to get off work at 2am. i have been watching rick and morty and shitty teenage romcoms all day. i am really exhausted right now but i’m waiting for him. i hope things get better for me. they’re okay right now. i am going to see the national october 7th. i saw modest mouse back in may. that was really fantastic. i don’t have to retake chemistry 120. i have my cat. my monstera has new growth. halloween is soon. there are a lot of good things right now. i just heard matt’s “hey baby” in nobody else will be there. what else do i need right now?
hopefully i’m treated soon and will keep up with this better
xox lex
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7 Celebs Who Are Owning the Silver Fox Look
Some celebrities choose to dye their precious locks to hide signs of aging. Hey, we all do it, right? Some celebs, though, choose to embrace the salt-and-pepper and even go full-on gray. Plenty of our favorite famous faces wear wigs to try out the silver look -- or stonewash, if you’re fancy like that -- like Kylie Jenner and Lady Gaga, to name a few. Others have let their natural graying happen, and we have to admit that we like what we see. Let’s not forget when Patrick Dempsey transitioned from his dark brown mane to having a sexy silver streak at the front of his head -- need I say more? Cara Delevingne has been switching from blonde to silver to brown again for years, and we are finally on board with this trend.
Read on to see some of our favorite A-listers who are totally killing the silver fox game and one who, though he’s known for his silver head of hair, actually hates the phrase “silver fox.”
1. Pierce Brosnan Salt and pepper brands should pay Brosnan for all this free advertising. The 65-year-old has officially embraced his gray, and I would not be mad if he wanted to reprise his role as James Bond looking like this. James Bond: The Later Years, perhaps?
Dress Pierce Brosnan like a Texan (like the kind he plays on AMC's ‘The Son’) and it becomes clear in an instant that the man can imbue any wardrobe with his innate Pierce Brosnan-ness. It's unfair, really. His tips for how to grow a mane of dignified facial hair and don a cowboy hat at the link in bio. (📷 @wearetherhoads)
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2. George Clooney I don’t think anyone quite appreciated how silver the 57-year-old actor was until he showed up to the Royal Wedding in full-on silver fox mode. Are he and Amal a vision or what?
Hollywood royalty George and Amal Clooney at the #RoyalWedding—George is rocking the classic matching-tie-and-pocket-square move that every guy keeps handy for spring & summer weddings. (📷 Ian West - WPA Pool/Getty Images)
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3. Helen Mirren Dame Mirren is usually photographed a bit more blonde than gray, and she keeps her naturally icy hair fresh by adding highlights here and there to compliment her staple face-framing haircuts. Other than that one time she showed up to the 2013 BAFTA Awards with a pink bob, that is.
Our September issue, starring #HelenMirren, is the long-awaited, utterly necessary celebration of growing into your own skin — wrinkles and all. No one is suggesting giving up retinol. But changing the way we think about aging starts with changing the way we talk about aging. With that in mind, and starting with this issue, we are making a resolution to stop using the term “anti-aging.” Tap the #linkinbio for more on this initiative, and why we're encouraging others to follow suit. 📸:@scotttrindle 📝:@heymichellelee 👗:@hanneshetta 💁🏼:@lukehersheson 💄:@ctilburymakeup
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4. Jamie Lee Curtis The 59-year-old Halloween actress has been rocking her natural color since the 2000s, going fully gray in 2004. “It helps if you can be courageous and cut your hair off like I did,” she told Marie Claire in 2007. “It's much harder to transition with longer hair, since then you're stuck with two inches of gray roots.”
Going out with a bang, albeit a very short one! So fun to be back for one of the last episodes! It has been a pleasure to be the New Girl’s mama, Joan. End of the run and my girl is all grown up! @newgirlonfox @seanjameshair
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5. Taylor Kinney Although only 36 years old, the Chicago P.D. star and Lady Gaga’s former beau has rocked the salt-and-pepper look for years. Appropriate, since Mother Monster had silver hair at one point while she and Kinney were dating.
Check out my friends foundation http://www.bickellfoundation.org Lots of love from Chicago. @abickell @bbickell
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6. John Slattery Slattery isn’t shy to admit that he’s had gray hair since college, just like his father, who apparently walked down the aisle with a full head of gray at age 23. The Mad Men actor isn’t fond of dying his hair, but doesn’t want to be called a “silver fox” either.
“I hate ‘silver fox,’” he once told Vanity Fair. “I absolutely hate it. It just sounds so slimy and embarrassing.”
John Slattery. #johnslattery #madmen #rogersterling #madmenpics
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7. Anderson Cooper The journalist and television personality went salt-and-pepper in his 30s, and although it’s become a signature look for him, he’s said in the past that he doesn’t love the look as much as the rest of the world does.
“I don’t really like my gray hair. I wish I still had brown hair. It’s not my thing,” Cooper said on Live! With Kelly in 2016. “If I could, I would probably color my hair, but I couldn’t imagine sitting in a salon with tin foil in my hair reading old issues of Rosie for hours. At this point, it’s too late -- the cow has left the barn.”
Happy birthday to the man who wears many hats: journalist, television personality, author, and V.F.'s June 2006 cover star @AndersonCooper. Photograph by Annie Leibovitz.
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Mabelle Peabody - DIARY - 1907 - 15 years old
Mabelle Alma Peabody born 13 December 1891
“Mabelle 1907” Harold b 1 Jan 1903 Irene b Oct 1903
“15 years old”
“Property of Mabelle Peabody from her mother Xmas 1906”
“Mabelle Alma Peabody [indecipherable] 156 Mascoma Street, Lebanon, New Hamp.” [Blue Site: hse purchased March 1903]
2 days per page
Headings on page: Ther. Tues. Jan. 1, 1907 Wea.
Harold is 4 years old today.
Warm tho’ cold wind. Wet & sloshy.
School began. Nothing new. Resolved: to keep a diary; to read a chap. every night (now at Mar’8); to do more studying outside of school; to do better every way. Papa still at Windsor, Vt., — has been baling hay there nearly a month. Mama had the misfortune to lose the inside of her fountain pen. Came home to dinner. [dinner is mid-day meal, so she would have walked home from her school, wherever it was.]
Wednesday 2
Somewhat warmer – icy walking. Mama bought a Waterman’s pen to-day. Don’t quite like it. I think she’ll exchange it. Received letters from Mabel W. & Alice Holton. Came home to dinner yesterday and to-day. Mama got thrown from the sleigh — the runner caught while crossing the track. No one hurt. No damage done.
Ther. Thurs. Jan. 3, 1907 Wea.
colder — and icy.
Pa came home to-day, almost 9 o’clock without supper. Has finished pressing hay down the river. [Windsor is down-river from Lebanon.] Pa came near running onto a live wire on his way home with the team tonight from Hartland. It’s 11 am. Good night. As a New Year’s present I got a — — from Aunt Ella P.
Friday
cold
Went to school as usual. Had a German [———] Went down to Ernest and Ann’s tonight with Eva [—]. Had a fun time. Played dominos. Eed beat. Pa’s pressing hard at WRJ [White River Junction]. The electric lights were put in just before Xmas. Used about $1.00 of electric so far.
Saturday Jan 5
about same.
Washed my hair. Ma went uptown late in the p.m. No mail or news. Have done no studying for Mon.’s lessons. Now at 1 pm some children are sliding down up here — seem to enjoy it very much — I have not been this winter.
Sunday 6
Looks like spring. rain.
None of us went to church today or S.S. [It would have been Christian Science.] In fact, went nowhere at all. Stayed to home directly and studied. Intended to start half a dozen letters. — — —.
Mon. Jan. 7
warm, and raining in eve.
Went to school. Had most of my lessons. Got my report card. Got S. in Eng, German, Geometry, V in [lealsesr]. Last time ‘twas Eng, Geo, Latin V, S in German, better! Eh? Got a pretty card from M.H.W. (Mabel Wilson.) Went to bed at 11:30. --- a lot.
Tuesday Jan 8
colder. flurries of snow. Rain & hail during the day. Myrtle Cole came down after school. We went out sliding on a hand sled. Couldn’t find the tranverse. Came home for dinner to-day for the 5th time this year ’07 or term. Dad’s finished pressing at WRJ, came home this evening. Bed 10:30.
Wed. Jan. 9
cold. Windy! and cold! Came home to dinner tho’ it was awfully cold and windy. Pa and the men (Arthur Holt & Geo. Stearn), off to Plainfield. Have been working on the hay press here out back of the barn. Got a letter from J.H[K?]D. and Aunt [Anna]. B--- --. [Written sideways in the margin: (CHS:07) This may mean “J.K.D. is in the class of 1907 at C. high school.) Am going to bed now 9-30. Isn’t that early for me?
Thurs. Jan. 10
40° colder this am than 80 --- [a lot more weather hard to read.]
Went to school of course and had dinner at the café! No news except it’s too cold to work, walk, or write in a diary in my room even. Took a test in German don’t expect to get passing on it. Bed – 9:30.
Fri. Jan.11
Stayed at café to dinner. Had a good time with Winnie Halley who boards there also. Think I should go home right away. a little warmer. cold enough. expected to go out sliding to-night but didn’t. Studied an hour to-night. My eyes ache. I feel dispirited, lonesome, or something. am retiring at 10:30 P.M.
Sat. Jan. 12
cold. about 3 in. of snow fall. Went to Laura Camp’s party, a celebration of her 17th anniversary of her birthday. About 10 out of 15 invited came. Lots of fun. N.E.D., Cathie Baulduc, Minnie H., and I gave her the “C.(Courtship) of Miles Standish” by L(Longfellow). Pa came home this pm around 3. (retiring about 11 !!!!!)
Sun. Jan. 13
Cold. pleasant.
Sum total of my doing: got up at 9. Went to church and S.S. Went to Eps---th League and heard Mrs. [Trompswich]’s lecture on “[Gyssy].” [wrote letters & a postcard to various people] Retired 11:00.
Mon. Jan. 14
Cloudy. Not sent to school. Myrtle A. Cole has left school and she and her folks are moving to Orange, Mass. Won’t I miss her, tho’. She takes it better than I should. I called to see her this p.m and stayed an hour. No other news. Good night. 10:30.
Tue. Jan. 15
Cold. Went to school. Took dinner at café. Called at Myrtle’s a few minutes. Began in the gym this p.m. Received some good advice and some exercises. We are to go every Tues., Thurs., Friday.
Wed. Jan 16
Myrtle C. & May Cobb came down after school and M. Cole and I made candy. Had a fun time. M also played Ouija. Went to café and paid my small bill. Think I paid too much. Mrs. F. doesn’t.
Thurs. Jan. 17
Too much cold to go out to see. Cold and clear.
Papa’s away pressing hay as usual and didn’t come home to-night. Water froze up in house, barn, and it took Ma about an hour to thaw it out. Haven’t seen Myrtle today. First time for a week! W--- w-- --- gym about an hour. (11 pm)
Fri. Jan. 18
Rather warmer. Went to school and went into gym about an hour. Myrtle Cole is staying overnight with me. She was here all eve and we had a fine time playing with the Ouija board. Pa came home tonight almost sick with a cold. This p.m. his hay press came all to pieces and splinters flew in every direction but no one was hurt at all. (10:45)
Sat. Jan. 19
---- -- & cloudy. Myrtle went home early this morning. I haven’t seen her since and haven’t seen any of the other girls either. Haven’t been outdoors today. Aunt Hattie D. came this M. and A. Holt. --- met her at the station. --- electricity ---
Sun. Jan. 20
Warm this morning but is fast getting cold now with a cold strong wind. I haven’t been to church today but Ma and Aunt Hattie went this a.m. I wrote letters to Aunts Ria and Addie respectively and sent souvenir cards to Will & Ethel Hazeltine, Wm. Paine, and Della Robinson. Haven’t been anywhere to-day except after the milk and the wind was so strong I thought I might not get back from there. We are getting our milk from Mary Brown’s at .05 a quart. Must retire now for it’s most 9:30. I got a nice letter from [Leonie] and [P----] today.
Mon. Jan. 21
Cold and clear. Icy walking. Stopped to Myrtle’s on my way home from school 15 minutes. Geo. Stearns’s father died Sat. night so Geo. S. did not come out to work to-day. No mail or other news to-day. Am going to retire at 9:30. Papa is feeling better.
Tue. Jan. 22
Warmer. Snowing slowly all day. Called at M.A.C.’s a while after gym. A ring .39 pins one each & a locket & chain came today from S.H.Burns & Co. They are very pretty. Papa went on the 6:40 from the Jct towards Albany, N.Y. where he has gone to see about buying a new press so we are alone to-night. Anna H. made over my yellow cream waist [shirt waist dress probably; possibly a blouse] and it's pretty. We are ---- --- of forming a ----- club next. (11:00)
Wed. Jan. 23
Cold and clear. Pa came home. Left Albany 11 last night and got here on the same train as 3 o’clock. Didn’t see Myrtle today. Didn’t have our sleigh ride as we planned. Aunt Hattie made me a Peter Pan waist this p.m. (bed 9:45)
Thur. Jan. 24
Cold & clear. It was 32° below 0 this morning. Papa’s home, but very ----. --- opposite --- MAS on my way at LHS. She was up to the farm (K---ist-d) to stay several days. Aunt H started my red checkered waist to-today. 9:15
Fri. Jan. 25
About the same. Aunt H has my red checkered done and started my green one. It was sunny all day. We had our session to-day and got out at 12:45. Came home to dinner. No news of any consequence. 9:30.
Sat. Jan. 26
About the same. It snowed all day. My green dress was finished to-day. Pa and --- have been working on ---- account all day. He went uptown in the p.m. No mail for me. 10:00.
Sun. Jan. 27
Colder. It was 18° below 0 this morning. I went to church to-day in my new green skirt and red waist and heard a minister from P Seminary preach. We’re all --- it him myself but I’m not bragging for it was too ---- yet. I sent a postal to Leonard P. and one to Marion King. A young man called this morning and asked for “has 3 daug—n-ts” which he got. Stamps are scarcer than --- ---- once. I’m going to bed almost 10.
Mon. Jan. 28
Almost same. Came down with the grippe this a.m. or last night. My stomach is awfully sore to-night. Stayed to gym to-night. The days of practice are changed to Mon., Wed., & Fri. Aunt Hattie is getting ready to move on to B. ----- ---- on the 8:15.
Tue. Jan. 29
Colder. Colder. Colder. My stomach is worse than yesterday. I did not go to school. Pa’s new hay press came to-day and he had it brought down to-night. My new gym suit has come. Harriet has [some talk about altering and cloth color and about Aunt Hattie] I miss her very much. Bed 9:30.
Wed. Jan. 30
Rather warmer. Did not go to school today either but am some better I think. Pa and Ma went to some [Lecture Course] entertainments. Had a good time I guess. (10:15).
Thur. Jan. 31
Colder. 15° below 0 8:30 this morning. I went to school but got excused from recitation. My eyes ached so this evening that I couldn’t study. Ma wrote some in the circular letter to-night. Pa is up at Earl Giles to-night. He began work with his new press to-day. I got a little note from Mrs. A. R. Today. She is well but somewhat lonesome I guess.
Fri. Feb. 1
Warmer. Cloudy. Went to-school to-day but didn’t feel much like it this morning. Papa came home to-night. Likes the new press OK. Received a good letter from Myrtle to-day. She is out at Kiniston’s farm still. No news or mail of consequence. Bed 10:45. Have used $3.00 of electricity so far.
Sat. Feb. 2
Warmer. Damp and wet out to-night tho it doesn’t quite rain. Pa was up ---- this AM. Pa came home early. Oh how I would like to see Myrtle. My eyes and cold are better but I don’t feel very good yet nevertheless. Will Spencer, Milton and Margory Spencer’s father died to-day and a collection was taken to get flowers for the funeral. 10:30.
Sun. Feb. 3
Colder. Gray & mushy. Did not go to church or S.S. Wrote Myrtle an 8-page letter. Did a little studying. Wrote a postcard to Jennie. Am feeling pretty well. Am going to bed early soon after 8:30.
Mon. Feb. 4
Cold and clear. Myrtle came down this morning for Mrs. Guy. Mrs. Guy hurt her neck so M came down to stay with her and help for a few days. I stopped in to see her to-night after school. We got out at 1:45 on account of Mr. Spencer’s funeral. I am late in getting to bed. 11:00.
Tue. Feb. 5
Snowed all day but the snow is light. We had only one long session at school to-day. Pa is still at Meriden. Myrtle is still at Guy’s but I didn’t stop to see her on my way home (12:30) I was too hungry. 11:00
Wed. Feb. 6
Colder. Somewhat cloudy. Called at Myrtle’s a while after L.H.S. Pa came home to stay over night. Myrtle thought she would come down to-night but had a ticket given her to go to the Fireman’s Ball so til. thought she would go there instead. I was sorry but not particularly, studied instead. Nellie F.P. is sick abed I hear. Her sister Margie came home from Littleton/Lewistown --- --- --- --- ---
Thur. Feb. 7
Went to school. Myrtle came down and spent almost an hour with me to-night. Nellie & Mabel Di are some better I understand. Went in today and yesterday to see about getting a new skirt at R&E. Haven’t got one yet. Am going to bed at 10:00.
Fri. Feb. 8
------. Warmer. Stayed to gym after school then stopped at Myrtle’s awhile. Went up and went to church at the Baptists with Lillian M. T. and then we went over to L.H.S. and heard the last of a lecture. Was so terribly interesting. I had a fine time. ---- ---- I could go every Friday. Have studied only Eng. yet. Bed 11:30.
Sat. Feb. 9
Colder and fair. Ma has been uptown awhile this p.m. Pa in the vicinity of house has been working on his engines. I should have done a lot of studying but haven’t. Looked for a piece to speak next ---- in school but didn’t find one that I quite liked. We are each owe to speak before the Eng. class in over a month. Bad! Bad! 11:00
Sun. Feb. 10
It has snowed nearly all day so none of us has been to church or S.S. I have written no letters, no postcards, but have studied Geo.[graphy?] & Geometry. Bad -i--- -- ---- --- light make my eyes ache quite hard this evening. The wind blows and it's a cold night. Bed 10.
Mon. Feb. 11
Cold and mucky. Have been studying most of the time but haven’t my lessons yet. Stayed for Gym and make-up for Geometry. Haven’t seen M since Fri. p.m. Pa and Ma went to a lecture in the “course” by Mr. McArthur. Good. [When they got home, they told Mabelle the lecture was good.] It’s quite cold tonight. Bed 11:15.
Tue. Feb. 12
Stayed after school to rehearse my piece to my teacher Miss Dole. Ma just almost finished the accounts on 9 mo accounts. This P.M. she went my to Mrs. B’s and they worked on them together. I was alone from 6 to now, 11:30. And am down with a cold I fear.
Wed. Feb. 13
Rather warmer. Went to S. Spoke my piece in Eng. class, fairly well. Got postal or Valentines from Cal. Also Irene and Harold have one. Pretty. No other news. Am going to bed now. Stayed to gym. Haven’t got a suit yet. Am feeling rather better tonight. 10:45.
Thurs. Feb. 14
Warmer. Snow’s melted considerable to-day. Came straight home from L.H.S. to-day. Have only got three lessons since I came, tho: Geo., Latin, & Eng. Mama went up St. awhile this p.m. with Mrs. E. Pa came home to-night. Harry Kenniston has not been to school for two days so I have not been able to hear from Myrtle for more than a wk.
Fri. Feb. 15
Went to L.H.S. Stayed to Gym. It was Miss Mann’s turn to lead. Went to church this eve. Had a fine time. Came home alone. Myrtle is down to her cousins’. Mrs. Guy’s on Mechanic Street and hasn’t been up to the farm in more’n a week. Have got [nyling] toward Mon’s lesson. ---- ---- ----. Retiring 9:35
Sat. Feb 16
Warm and sloshy walking. Did most of the housework as Ma didn’t feel very well and she went uptown the a.m. got back almost 2. I went up to Lilla T. and stayed to supper — got home almost 8. My Gym suit’s come and I bought some shoes to go with them. It’s OK two times I think. Ma went to a wedding anniversary --- --- --- Bed 10:45
Sun. Feb. 17
Cold. Has been slowly snowing most all day and the wind is blowing it into drifts. Ma and I went to church and I to S.S. Ma went to two sermons this eve. a union meeting at the Baptist and a meeting at the Meths. I wanted to go to the Union but couldn’t. I haven’t studied much to-day so must get up to --- m--- on M --- and my Latin. Retire 9:45
Mon. Feb. 18
Cold & clear & fair. L.H.S., Gym. Came directly home and have studied most ever since. Yet haven’t all my lessons tho. Pa is pressing hay now for Grafton and he is not going until to-morrow some time. Ma wrote to Aunt H. this evening. Retiring 9:45.
Tue. Feb. 19
Quite cold. Snow flurries towards night. Lilla came down and stayed with me while Ma’s away at a Grange Play at Enfield Center. Haven’t a great lot of studying this s---. My head aches like everything! Retiring 11:00
Wed. Feb. 20
Cold and fair. Lilla went up with me this a.m. but we started so late that we were almost tardy. In spite of the fact that I have had a sore throat and headache all day I went out sliding with Lelia Gardener. My eyes ache awfully. 8-9.
Thur. Feb. 21
Cold but fair. There is no more school until Mon. Tomorrow is the 22nd and a legal holiday. I am feeling better this eve. and I am going to bed now at 10.
Fri. Feb. 22
Ma went up with Mrs. Eeler to Mrs. Tomli’s to dinner and then came directly home for she’d then received word that Grandma D, Mrs. Moore, and little Phoebe Govellhurt (age 5) were coming here. They got here about two. I went uptown to mail some letters and also stopped to B. church. Had a good time. 11:00!
Sat. Feb. 23
Cold. Fair. They went up town a while this p.m. and this evening. We (Ma, Grandma, Mrs. Morse, Mrs. Eelar, and I went up to play “Lamentations in the Court of Fame.” Had a fine time. The real thing was last night but it was repeated to-night. It was fine. Got home at 10:30. Have studied just a bit and now 11:45! Good night.
Sun. Feb. 24
Mr. A. Doloph was down --- us and with his Graphia phone. Cold with some --- --- this evening. I went to church and S.S. this morning. Mrs. Morris and Phoebe G. went on the 3:48 this p.m. and they took ------ up to the depot in time ---- “490” First auto ride I’ve had in ’07!! I wrote a letter to Myrtle Cole this eve. Have not seen her for more than a week. She’s at Kennington. Retired 10:15
Mon. Feb. 25
Cold. Cold. Went to L.H.S. Stayed to Gym and test on Geo. Water froze up and we had one awful time trying to start it back but didn’t succeed. Will have to use Precinct I guess. An awfully cold night. Ma went up to Mrs. E’s and found out about the water when she got back. Bed 12
Tue. Feb. 26
Cold and. Had the precinct water fixed so we can draw some ---- ----. Arrived at school in the morning. (I have not been late to school this year that I know of) and came directly home. Got a brief note from Myrtle. She is not very well she notes. No other news or mail except Ma’s been working on the white dress she has cut. Retired 10:20
Wed. Feb. 27
Cold. Went to H.S. and stayed to Gym as usual. Got my report card. Eng S, Latin V, Geo “S”? Pa came home this noon and he and his men have been thawing the pipes and now we have precinct water fully installed. Seems good to have some kind. Retire 10:00
Thurs. Feb. 28
Cold ----. Went to H.S., stayed to Gym. My gym suit came today. Just what I wanted at last. Grandma and Ma went up town after I came home. Pa has gone up to Pomfret to press now. (Retire 10:30)
Fri. Mar. 1
Somewhat warmer. Wore my gym suit and shoes for the first time in gym. Like them fairly well. Miss Isa Emerson and Emma Emerson came over today to call on Grandma. I did not go to the church this eve. I payed my board bill this noon. [she keeps a tab at the school cafeteria].
Sat. Mar. 2
Sunny but cold with a cold mist in evening. Ma & Grandma went up to Mrs. E and spent the pm and stayed to supper. Pa came home from N. Pomfret about 5. I swept my room and changed the ---- of all the ---- Lilla & Nellie called up on their way back from Jennie down to Nellie’s Mrs. Davis’s. Ret. 10:45
Sun. Mar. 3
Warmer. Snow seems to be most gone. Went to Baptist Church & Meth. S.S. Pa, Harold, Irene up ---- old home to Tatro’s to see some logs which Eastman wants sawed. Pa is thro baling hay and is going at wood. I wrote to Jennie P this evening. Everyone’s asleep but me so good night. 9:30
Mon. Mar. 4
Warm. Some snow fell last night. Papa has been thawing ---- “catch basins” today. Mama & Harold & Mrs. E. went up to her dressmaker’s Mrs. Broo’s. I didn't feel able to attend S. this morning think I ate too much supper for one thing but not this pm. Don’t feel very well yet. Retire 9:30.
Tue. Mar. 5
Warm. Went to S. Came directly home. Grandma spent the pm and stayed to tea at Mrs. Pike’s. Pa has been thawing out catch-basins. His men sawing wood. I feel better tonight. Retire 9:45.
Wed. Mar 6
Rather cold. fair. Stopped to see Myrtle Cole on my way home today. She is OK except for a cold but Mrs. Guy’s baby is quite sick. Mama & Grandma went down to the Greenhouse after I got home and bought some flowers. Ret. 9:45
Thur. Mar. 7
Came directly home today. Ma & Mrs. E & Grandma called up at Mrs. Towle’s this p.m. It was a fine day tho’ some colder. Pa was around home today. The men are sawing wood at the Shakers. Retire 11.
Fri. Mar. 8
Cold & fair. Stopped to Nellie’s and --- --- stopped at Myrtle’s. Nellie went down to her father’s. Have studied some. Played “Donkey” with Flinch cards this evening. The men came home to stay tonight from E. Leb. Pa has them running the timber engine to run Cole’s shop today. 10
Sat. Mar. 9
Cold. pleasant. Myrtle, Nellie, Eva & I went out sliding this evening and had a fine time until Myrtle’s knee cap came off. We drew her down to Dowses on the sled and then N & I came home with M--. Have not done anything today. The electric light fixtures were put in today. They are pretty. Retire 11.
Sun. Mar. 10
Cold, mostly fair. I (& Ma) went to church & S.S. Ma & Pa went to E. Leb. to fix his sawing machine. Had to walk part of the way as there was too much snow for the last two miles for the auto to traverse. Studied Lat. & Geometry this eve. Roy Hazen, wife, 4-year-old boy, 3 wk old baby stopped to get warm on way from --------- to ------- Vt. Retire 10:30.
Mon. Mar. 11
Not very cold. fair weather. Stayed to Gym. No more work there for 3 wks. Pa attended the Republican Caucus & Citizens’ meeting. He also worked half a day thawing out catch-basins. I stopped to see Myrtle tonight. She is well and Mrs. Guy’s baby is almost well. We are now using a new program at school making one recitation course differently. Retire 10:30
Tue. Mar. 12
Town Meeting Day. [list of names of selectmen, etc.] Pa feels rather relieved at not getting the agency. Grandma is about the ------ not feeling very well. Ma called on Mrs. E this eve. My eyes ache. Ret. 10—
Wed. Mar. 13
Stopped at Myrtle’s a few minutes. Went back uptown after I got home. My eyes ache. I tried to study tonight two hours but didn’t get my lessons. Don’t see what ails me lately. Grandma went on the 1 o’clock coach to Caterbury to her sister’s. Ret. 10
Thur. Mar. 14
Warm with rain. Ma had one session today and I came home to dinner. Did some studying and in the evening went to one of the Lecture Courses. “Laurant, the Magician.” Not so fayr not so good as “Mayro” last year. I’m sleepy. 10:45. I fell down in some ice and got soaked.
Fri. Mar. 15
Went to L.H.S. ‘Twas the last day — a vacation now ‘til April 2. There’s a play this evening for the L.H.S. Dart. senior dramatic society “Bachelor’s Hall”. I should like to have gone but it’s too icy and sloppy. Ret 9:30
Sat. Mar. 16
A very pleasant day very much like spring. Pa is sawing wood. Ma went uptown. I worked on a composition --- --- ---- ---- ---- not less than 500 words in it. --- --- not home yet. Myrtle has gone out to Kinnningston. Haven’t seen her since then. 10:35
Sun. Mar. 17
A very warm pleasant day. Ma and I drove up to church and I stayed to S.S. Ma went with Mrs. E. up to Tind’s and stayed to dinner. I finished my composition and when copied it found I had 600 words. Don’t know what I should do. My eyes ache. I wanted to do some letter writing but couldn’t find time. 10:00
Mon. Mar. 18
Warm and pleasant. Worked on Irene‘s dress. Ma went uptown this p.m. I copied my composition and --- --- --- 500 words out of it. Wrote a little post to Myrtle this afternoon. Pa paid ---- ---- --- --- Retire 9:30.
Tue. Mar. 19
Cloudy followed by snow. Cold. Ma & I finished Irene’s dress and got a new red checked one for me nearly done. Went uptown this p.m.
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