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didnt-hear-idsb-live-again · 2 months ago

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The thing is it is the literal best thing in the world driving across the country with a group of strangers who start becoming family with incredible music blasting all the way down the freeway…….. I just don’t wanna have to do work to unlock that lmao

#I was thinking about this last night and #my WHOLEEEEEEEE youth I wanted to be a musician or an actress #and my m*ther just dropped nuclear bombs on that until there was nothing left #I begged for singing lessons begged to take me to auditions #and she always told me like. ‘if god wanted you to be famous in that way someone will discover you’ and like okay someone discovering me #is not gonna fall from the sky in Massachusetts when I am not WORKING to even be good?????????#so yeah but anyway #I feel this unrelenting itch suddenly of like #what’s missing about this is I should be the center of attention lmao #but it’s just far too late in life to BEGIN to pursue a talent that would land me in that situation nvm all the work involved to get in it #anyway that’s silly af but just something I’m thinking about #I was born to be a leader not an employee and I’m just realizing that’s the problem idfk

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