#music in druck

[kimberlylex]

Big boy

[firstluvlatespring]

was listening to my top 100 playlist from 2020 and who is she...

[evakuality]

Pros of using DEB in real time mode: the sheer joy of getting things in real time and re-experiencing 2019 life.  The wonderful overwhelm of the social media still coming 3 hours later after the first party clip... just being in the moment with it all

Cons of using DEB in real time mode: I have very little willpower so forcing myself not to ‘watch ahead’ is VERY HARD

[deklo]

i am not normal

[ijzermansdriesen]

I suddenly miss davenzi 😭😭😭😭

[uh-velkommen]

Yall I feel like I just made the PERFECT playlist

I made it for a friend and took extra care to make sure it sounded good UNSHUFFLED like it feels like an album. Not to mention, it's the perfect encapsulation of the kind of music I like.

I always told people I like emo rock, but that was what 16 year old me liked, and I've been struggling to figure out what I'm into now, but this playlist has it all.

It's music that makes you feel good with funky little rhythms and songs that make you laugh. I think I've discovered the joy of playlist making.

[forbescaroline]

hi everyone. so today i got let go of my job that i've had for almost 2 years with no warning. i have no backup or any clue where to start and am absolutely terrified.

i will be opening up requests and accepting commissions for any gifsets you may request. i will include the list of shows i have downloaded below as well as my paypal and kofi accounts. anything is greatly appreciated as i am grasping for straws here. thank you and i love you.

paypal.me/mges7

ko-fi.com/mges7

shows i have downloaded:

abbott elementary

a league of their own

all american

all american homecoming

arrow

atypical

black lightning

bridgerton

brooklyn nine nine

dare me

degrassi

dickinson

druck

elite

euphoria

faking it

first kill

friday night lights

friends

ginny & georgia

girl meets world

good trouble

gossip girl hbo

grey's anatomy

high school musical: the musical: the series

how to get away with murder

julie and the phantoms

killing eve

legacies

legends of tomorrow

lucifer

one day at a time

one tree hill

orphan black

outer banks

pretty little liars

reign

riverdale

roswell new mexico

runaways

schitt's creek

scream

sex education

shadowhunters

sharp objects

skam

skam espana

skam france

skins (generation 2)

stranger things

supergirl

superstore

teen wolf

the 100

the bold type

the flash

the fosters

the good place

the oc

the originals

the rookie

the secret circle

the sex lives of college girls

the society

the summer i turned pretty

the vampire diaries

the wilds

wynonna earp

yellowjackets

[theluigianapurchase]

Hi!!

heyyy, my name is Tyler and this is my blog ig lol. I love talking about me interests so if we share any interests or hobbies message me or spam my asks cause i love yapping about them

(edit: please stop sending me requests for donations, I’m a child and i can’t help you and i feel really bad and i also can’t tell if some are bots or scams)

Fandoms: Newsies, Ted Lasso, Heartstopper, Red White and Royal Blue, Young Royals, Care Bears, Dead Poet Society, Simon v The Homosapians Adgenda, The MCU, The Hunger Games, Stranger Things, Spiderverse, Skam, Skam France, WtFock, Druck, Rykyer 

Ships: Sprace, Colin/Micheal, Narlie, FirstPrince, Simon/Willie, Anderperry, Pitts/Meeks, Spierfeld, Parkner, Peeta/Katniss, Byler (mostly for the bit I’m not a die hard fan or anything), Miles/Gwen, Isak/Even, Eva/Jonas, Noora/William, Lucas/Elliot, Robbe/Sander, Matteo/David, Matias/Erik

Music: Noahfinnce, Bears in Trees, Taylor Swift, TX2, Chase Petra, The Avett Brothers, The Lumineers, Cavetown, Sabrina Carpenter, Chappell Roan, Thomas Headon, etc.

Hobbies: Cooking, Baking, Pottery, Reading, Sleeping, Walking my dog, D&D

my username is based off my favorite meme shown below :)

[deadmea-t]

INTRO cus raahhhh

Hi!! I'm Rot or Mla0,, my pronouns are they/he and I also use some neos

I'm 15 years old, Achillean + Quoiromatic!!

My interests are;

marble hornets

gemini home entertainment

local 58

nexpo

scene/scenemo (trying to dress more scenemo but i'm poor)

everymanHYBRID

druck (the german show)

mlandersen0

My music!!:

radiohead

paramore

mccafferty

andreas rönnberg

car seat headrest

jack stauber

black hate

more but idk!!

DNI:

proshitters/comshitters

basic dni criteria

cringe culture

INT:

amylex shippers + jam shippers (I am cool with every mh ship, but those are my favourites)

marble hornets enjoyers

jay enjoyers especially

cool + cringe people

[isakyakihasmyheart]

Mind Dump 5 years on...

This is the first time I've logged into this account since 2019(ish) so I'm pretty sure there's going to be no one left here but if you are, Hi! I'm just going to dump this post here because I am a tumblr girl at heart and laying my most deepest thoughts to strangers on the internet is all I've ever known...

After the recent news of the death of Liam Payne 2 days ago I've been thinking about this website non-stop. Like many people, this news hit me so unexpectedly emotionally. Grieving someone I never knew, but also grieving a time in my life I can never ever experience again.

My life has changed so much since I last logged into this account, and yet so little at the same time. I started this account in early 2017 after I got into SKAM back in 2016, abandoning a previous Dan and Phil centred account I had from 2014. I was still in school, the last season of SKAM lining up with my own life of leaving school and starting university. I remember thinking that was so cool, watching these characters I grew to adore also experiencing their last year alongside me. I started university in late 2018, studying to become a nurse but yet never got over SKAM. Instead, I became obsessed DRUCK and connected to Matteo in a way I haven't ever experienced with another fictional character since (the only close match being Connell from Normal People in that one uni scene iykyk). However, I ultimately ended up abandoning this account in 2019.

I don't actually know why I stopped coming on this website. Because since I was 14 this website was all I could ever think about. Me and best friend in 2014 were absolutely obsessed with tubmlr. We would literally spend hours on this website reblogging the most random things, and things that at that point in our lives meant so much to us. And with this recent news, I've felt this strong tsunami of nostalgia for that period of my life.

I was never a 1D blog, but I loved 1D. Not very openly as I had older sisters who made fun of me for it. I squashed any outwardly expression of my love for them to avoid this at all costs. A major cost being turning down to go and see them in concert in 2014/2015 when my friend (mentioned above) had an extra ticket. I think about that often and regret it every time. When covid came around and we were in lockdown I was in the mid/end of my 2nd year of uni, 20 years of age. I know a lot of people talk of how they regressed back to their younger passions, and so did I. I had the full 1D experience I never let myself have, not caring about others' opinions on it (mainly my older sister). I listened to their music nonstop every single day, watching so many edits and even reading fan fics. I truly felt like I was 14 again. But there was always that voice in the back of my head saying, "you're too late, it's not the same, you've missed out on it all." I yearned with everything in me to be that teenage girl again. It was during this period in 2020 that my family relationships also became very volatile and dysfunctional, meaning 1D became an even bigger safe space for me.

I've always been a nostalgic person in the worst way possible. I can't help but let the regrets of things I never did consume me. The thoughts of how different my life could be, how different I could be, it always plagues me. I know this sounds dramatic because I'm talking about a 2010s boyband, believe me I know it does.

But I was 14 when my life started to go to shit, when my mental health first started to decline and truthfully it has never recovered. Maybe because in the back of my mind, I always felt like that 14 year old girl, scared and alone and hurting so bad with no one to help her. And the unbelievable shocking news of Liam Payne dying, it's just transporting me back to that period of my life. Even more so as I lost my dad very unexpectedly and traumaticly in March this year.

I just feel so full of grief for so many things all at once, all separate yet all so intertwined. I would truly give anything and everything I have to just relive being that teenage girl, even the unspeakable bad parts. And it makes me so angry to know I can't. And of course, I can't, because that's not how time works! Yet it feels like I can't breathe when I come to that realisation. In all its dramatic flare, it genuinely feels like it's killing me that I can't ever experience that life again.

All in all, I'll never truly forget this website. Especially not this account, I loved this account! Maybe this is just the part of growing up I'm currently struggling with. I'm 24 now, which in itself is scary because no matter what I am and always will be that 14 year old girl.

Girlhood is forever and always xx

[sillylittleflower]

sophia <333

random question time.

it's a friday evening. you're ready for a movie night and to relax.

which movie are you watching (can't be YR), which snacks do you bring and would you rather watch it alone or with company?

(bonus question: are you team movie night in bed or movie night on the couch?)

Liaaaa <333

Oh I love your random questions, I wish I was better at coming up with them myself

You got me with can't be yr lmao 😂😂😂 hmmmmmm depends on who I am watching with because with my sister I would watch something comedy because she is not into romance and maybe something with singing because I looooove to sing along lmao. So idk Beauty and the beast with Emma Watson again, the sound of music, die Känguruchroniken but the first part. And alone I would probably watch dance academy for the umpteenth time or maybe Druck again.

As for snacks some kind of vegan gummy bears but sour ones and pringles. And I honestly love both with company and alone. Just if it's with company maybe not with too many people and it has to be something that they enjoy too because I hate it when people don't like the things I like ( as in I get disappointed if I see they don't enjoy it).

Bed or couch depends on who I'm watching with, because if there are several other people then couch and if it's just me or just me with someone very close then 100 percent bed, but then maybe without or with less snacks.

Okay sorry sorry sorry for all the rambling

[indiphyr]

Every sapphic movie, show or book I like:

(* = favorites)

Movies:

Bend It Like Beckham (lesbian/trans coded)

Black Swan

*Bodies Bodies Bodies

*Booksmart

Bottoms

Braid

But I'm A Cheerleader

Dating Amber

*Death Becomes Her (sapphic coded)

D.E.B.S

Do Revenge

*Everything Everywhere All At Once

Fear Street

Fucking Åmål

*Ginger Snaps (sapphic/queer coded)

Hearts Beat Loud

Heart Shot

*Jennifer's Body

Joy Ride (I think one of the MCs is sapphic?)

Kajillionaire

May

My Days Of Mercy

*My First Summer

Nope (Sapphic sister I think?)

Pariah

Polite Society (either a lesbian or aroace mc)

Princess Cyd

Rafiki

Rye Lane (Sapphic coded MC)

Saint Maud

Saving Face

Set It Off

*Shiva Baby

*Sissy

Sweetheart

Unpregnant

The Fallout

The Half Of It

The Handmaiden

The Incredibly True Adventure of 2 Girls In Love

*The Miseducation Of Cameron Post

The Rocky Horror Picture Show

Shows:

*A League Of Their Own

Adventure Time

*A Kind Of Spark (Keedie is not hetero)

*Anne With An E (sapphic coded)

American Horror Story

*Arcane

Betty

Black Cake

Derry Girls

Degrassi

Druck (seasons 5&6)

Everything Now

Everything Sucks (problematic actor age gap)

Everything's Gonna Be Okay

Faking It

First Kill

Gap: The Series

Genera+ion

Gentleman Jack

*Good Omens

Grease: Rise Of The Pink Ladies

*Hacks

*Heartbreak High

Heartstopper

I Am Not Okay With This

Killing Eve

Little Fires Everywhere

Lucifer

Minx

Motherland Fort Salem

One Day At A Time

Our Flag Means Death

*Paper Girls

*Peacemaker

Ratched

Sex Education

She-Ra

Stranger Things

*Such Brave Girls

Swarm

Teenage Bounty Hunters

*The Boys + Gen V

The Formal (tiktok/youtube series)

*The Good Place

The Haunting Of Bly Manor

The Last Of Us

The Legend Of Korra

*The Owl House

*The Power

*The Sex Lives Of College Girls

The White Lotus

*The Wilds

Upload

Vida

Warrior Nun

We Are Lady Parts

*What We Do In The Shadows

While The Men Are Away

Wo der Egg Priority

Xo, Kitty

*Yellowjackets

Books:

Ace Of Spades

*A Dowry Of Blood

Afterlove

Black Cake

*Black Girl, Call Home

Burn Down, Rise Up

Cinderella Is Dead

Clap When You Land

Crier's War

Dear Medusa

Girls Of Paper And Fire

Hani And Ishu's Guide To Fake Dating

*Her Body And Other Parties

Honey Girl

House Of Hunger

If You Still Recognise Me

It Goes Like This

In The Dream House

In The Ravenous Dark

I Who Have Never Known Men

You're Not Supposed To Die Tonight

*Keedie + A Kind Of Spark

Last Night At The Telegraph Club

*Legendborn (Sapphic SC)

Loveless (Sapphic SCs)

Music From Another World

Nothing Burns As Bright As Her

Not My Problem

Our Wives Under The Sea

Parachutes (Sapphic SC)

Perfect On Paper

Radio Silence

Rise To The Sun

She Gets The Girl

She Drives Me Crazy

*She Who Became The Sun

Siren Queen

The Chosen And The Beautiful

The Falling In Love Montage

The Girls I've Been

The Henna Wars

The Jasmine Throne

*The Kyoshi Novels

*The Locked Tomb Series

*The Mirror Season

The Nature Of Witches

*The Priory Of The Orange Tree

The River Has Teeth

*The Unbroken

These Witches Don't Burn

Graphic Novels:

*Are You Listening

Hi-Fi Club

Jook Joint

Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up With Me

*On A Sunbeam

*Paper Girls

*Spinning

The Avant-Guards

*The Tea Dragon Society

[dandelion-roots]

[Image description: a black and white digital drawing of Sascha and Isi from druck season 7. Sascha is leaning on Isi's shoulder and looking up at them, and Isi is looking at Sascha from the corner of their eye. The two are listening to music from the phone Isi is holding, and each have an earbud in. They're holding hands and are covered by a blanket. We only see Isi's outfit- they're wearing a sleeveless shirt and a skirt. In the foreground are some leaves. End description.]

I go absolutely feral for couples that consist of just some guy (affectionate) and a literal goddess, and it didn't help that Isi is a mess and Sascha a 'I'm not mad, I'm just disappointed' sweetheart, or: I have many thoughts about these two.

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

as i did last year, this year i've been recording basically everything i did during the year so i didn't forget. anyways, here is my true 2023 experience, it is divided by categories (travels, books, music, movies, etc) and i will bold my favourites of each category. also, if you want more details especially with travelling and music, here's the twitter thread i've been using to record everything down <3

also!! just in case, dates are in dd/mm format !

TRAVELS:

02/01. calp (alacant, spain) 05/04. mojácar (almería, spain) 17-18/04. glasgow (scotland) 18/04. balloch and loch lomond (west dunbartonshire, scotland) 20/06. albacete (spain) 18-19/08. barcelona (spain) 19-23/08. milano (italy) 20/08. lake como (lombardia, italy) 22/08. verona (italy) 08-10/09. valència (spain) 15/10. bari (italy) 15-28/10. metaponto (matera, italy) 22/10. taranto (italy) 13-16/12. vera (almería, spain) 15/12. mojácar (almería, spain) 16-17/12. valència / la pobla de vallbona (valència, spain)

CONCERTS:

14/01. amaia (la riviera) 17/04. paramore (OVO hydro, glasgow) 15/05. cariño (el matadero) 16/06. valeria castro (noches del botánico) 23/09. amaia (wizink center) 12/10. ginebras (wizink center)

MOVIES:

17/01. knives out 22/01. glass onion 19/02. ¡ay, carmela! 25/03. volver 26/03. jojo rabbit 26/04. super mario bros. the movie - IN THE CINEMA 30/04. knives out (rewatch) 27/05. glass onion (rewatch) 10/06. matilda (2022) 21/06. spiderman: across the spiderverse - IN THE CINEMA 28/07. barbie - IN THE CINEMA 01/09. indiana jones and the dial of destiny 22/09. the little mermaid (2023) 24/09. bottoms 11/10. barbie (rewatch) 18/11. mean girls 02/12. marie antoinette (2006) 09/10. the hunger games: the ballad of songbirds & snakes - IN THE CINEMA

VIDEOGAMES:

03/02. simmiland (PC) 03/02. stacklands (PC) 10/02. fire emblem engage (switch) 03/03. crusader kings iii (PC) 09/03. rpg maker xp (PC) 04/05. dice kingdoms (PC) 25/06. harvestella (switch) 27/06. indoorlands (PC) 08/07. humankind (PC) 28/07. the legend of zelda: tears of the kingdom (switch) 28/07. lakeburg legacies (PC) 28/08. the yawhg (PC) 08/09. frostpunk (PC) 31/10. lakeside (PC) 24/11. hades (PC) 23/12. cities skylines ii (PC)

TV SHOWS:

18/02. el ministerio del tiempo s1 06/03. druck s5 (rewatch) 08/03. druck s6 (rewatch) 13/03. el ministerio del tiempo s2 20/03. shadow and bone s2 16/05. abbott elementary s2 23/06. el ministerio del tiempo s3 21/07. derry girls s1 (rewatch) 12/11. bany compartit

TOP SONGS BY MONTH:

january: 5. la maza - priscila félix 4. la canción más hermosa del mundo - manuel carrasco 3. inteligencia emocional - belén aguilera 2. odio que te quiero - paula koops, noan 1. joker (REPUTA) - zahara, carolina durante february: 5. liar - paramore 4. you first - paramore 3. running out of time - paramore 2. big man, little dignity - paramore 1. figure 8 - paramore march: 5. si quieres - cariño 4. inteligencia emocional - belén aguilera 3. música ligera - ana mena 2. me he pillao x ti - ana mena, natalia lacunza (album version) 1. me he pillao x ti - ana mena, natalia lacunza (single version) april: 5. california friends - the regrettes 4. galgo - belén aguilera 3. costura - valeria castro 2. un clásico - ana mena 1. no me querías tanto - natalia lacunza may: 5. oh boi - shego 4. c'est comme ça - paramore 3. évidemment - la zarra 2. this is why - paramore 1. zenzenzense - RADWIMPS june: 5. yo quisiera - alice wonder 4. you first - paramore 3. antagonista - belén aguilera 2. father and son - yusuf / cat stevens 1. tonta - nathy peluso july: 5. guerrera - valeria castro 4. la vida moderna - veintiuno, love of lesbian 3. vampire - olivia rodrigo 2. i have a dream - amanda seyfried 1. fiebre - bad gyal august: 5. galgo - belén aguilera 4. nunca llega 05 - natalia lacunza 3. roméo&juliette - olympe chabert 2. discoteka - lola índigo, maría becerra 1. es albacete - rozalén september: 5. narciso - pipiolas 4. get him back! - olivia rodrigo 3. love is embarrassing - olivia rodrigo 2. vampire - olivia rodrigo 1. ballad of a homeschooled girl - olivia rodrigo october: 5. vampire - olivia rodrigo 4. hot to go! - chapell roan 3. más colao que el colacao - la la love you 2. vii. cassandra (fillas de cassandra) - fillas de cassandra 1. ateo - c. tangana, nathy peluso november: 5. novix - maría josé llergo 4. si quieres - cariño 3. maledetta primavera - loretta goggi 2. salvaje - nathy peluso 1. all too well (10 minutes version) - taylor swift december: 5. san peter - pipiolas 4. ballad of a homeschooled girl - olivia rodrigo 3. deja vu - olivia rodrigo 2. drivers license - olivia rodrigo 1. can't catch me now - olivia rodrigo

THEATRE PLAYS & MUSICAL SHOWS:

05/03. la saga (teatro lara) 07/04. tick tick... boom! (teatro la estación caixabank príncipe pío) 08/10. school of rock (teatro ibercaja delicias) 18/11. mean girls (grupo de teatro amorevo) 29/12. phantom of the opera (teatro albéniz)

BOOKS:

29/01. assembly - natasha brown (2021) 08/04. tartesso y los fenicios de occidente - sebastián celestino pérez & carolina lópez - ruiz (2020) 12/04. daddy - emma cline (2021) 23/04. a thousand splendid suns - khaled hosseini (2007) 29/05. los renglones torcidos de dios - torcuato luca de tena (1979) 03/06. the bands of mourning - brandon sanderson (2017) 24/06. kokoro - natsume soseki (1914) 10/07. miss benson's beetle - rachel joyce (2020) 08/08. the no-show - beth o'leary (2023) 18/08. tales of the alhambra - washington irving (1832) 22/09. the attack - yasmina khadra (2005) 25/09. the lightning thief - rick riordan (2005) RE-READ 30/09. the sea of monsters - rick riordan (2006) RE-READ 02/10. the titan's curse - rick riordan (2007) RE-READ 04/10. the battle of the labrynth - rick riordan (2008) RE-READ 07/10. the last olympian - rick riordan (2009) RE-READ 23/11. the kamogawa food detectives - hishashi kashiwai (2023) 21/12. a christmas carol - charles dickens (1843)

[evakuality]

4 years of Druck s3 - week 3

Things of note in this episode:

1.  I know everyone says that there’s no ‘call your girlfriend’ scene in this version, but I would argue that this part operates as this moment for Matteo.  Is it the same?  Nope - it’s definitely not as charged and heightened as the moment Isak and Even share, but in this context Matteo is convinced they’re both with their respective girlfriends as David tumbles into the room with his arm around Laura and Sara is all over him and suggesting they’re going to sleep together later.  To Isak that was cool and sexy: a private moment between the two of them when they were with their girlfriends and which suggested a clandestine bond.  To Matteo it’s about the divide between them as they each embrace their ‘girlfriends’ (as he doesn’t yet know that Laura is David’s sister).  So no they don’t operate the same, but in both moments our central character experiences something that’s connected to the two girls with each of them.

2.  I’m still not over the way this group railroaded Matteo into having this party.  Kiki is of course the ringleader but they all jump on board with her.  And the thing is, Matteo lost as soon as he started to make excuses as to why he couldn’t hold it.  ‘I don’t want to’ is a perfectly fine answer, but hey I get it.  I always try to justify why I can’t do something as well.  But it still bugs me that they didn’t take his no for an answer.  Still, at least he made use of the moment to invite David to come along.  Good work there, Matteo!

3.  As a hard core Matteo fan, I generally do try to justify his actions but honestly, this right here was an asshole moment.  Probably his biggest one.  She’s unhappy and vulnerable and she even tells him that if they’re together she wants him to be all-in, so he really could have said ‘I’m not feeling it’ and walked away but he chose to string her along and that was a shitty thing to do and imo does justify her anger later when he dumps her.  Still, her posts about this were really awkward.  Sara, honey, this is an unhealthy relationship for you and your comment about rather fighting with him than being with someone else should be a real red flag.  You’re not happy, child!!!!  Cut him loose!

4.  I do love how he keeps coming back to this post but is always embarrassed if someone catches him with it.  In this case, even himself.  He looks away from the phone just after this as if he’s doing something wrong.  It’s such a normal ‘I have a crush’ way to behave and I love that it’s this that pushes him to look up the movie David mentioned earlier.  This picture is starting to become not enough and so he starts trying to find other ways to get close to David.

5.  There’s nothing more to be said here, but I can’t let this episode go without saying how much I love this part of this scene.  Everything comes together so well: acting, lighting, music, framing etc etc and this moment where he realises that weed isn’t helping his anxiety is quite powerful.  I just really love this scene and I’ll never stop saying how great it is!!

6.  Last but not least, the almost kiss of course.  I love david here - it’s immediately after he tells Matteo that Laura is his sister and it’s such an expression of ‘can we get this into your stupid head???’ like he’s very fond (of course: David is very much into this guy) but he’s so intent on getting ‘I like YOU’ into Matteo’s head.  After this, of course, they start the slow approach to letting each other know that they very definitely do want to kiss each other, but right now David isn’t quite sure.  Of course, Matteo is about to tear up at that news, which is something of a big hint :D

[rachelchinouriris]

oh bobbie 💔💔💔

as someone who’s also very close to their dad, and who almost lost him, i understand the pain she feels. she hasn’t dealt with the grief and trauma of losing her dad in the most horrific way. i can understand why she lashes out, why she doesn’t open up, why she misbehaves in such a way. the pain, the grief, it’s too much

i really like how they emphasized the fact she loves music. iirc her dad was also a music fan, so this may be a way for her to keep that connection to her dad. i think she could benefit from turning to music as a therapeutic way. music is a great way for us to let all the feelings we can’t talk about. i’m glad we’re seeing more into bobbie’s life, it makes me sympathize with her more

i wonder now who’s going to break up with who. at first i thought it was gonna anaïs due to the pressure of wanting to confess and bobbie not wanting to, but it could also be bobbie, maybe thinking she’s not good enough for anaïs or feeling like she’s being pressured. it could go either way. i hope it’s anaïs, because she needs autonomy. be her own person and make her own decisions without being influenced by others

at the end of the day i just want them to be happy and have a healthy relationship. i’m the kind who’s into toxic relationships, but this is the skamverse, and i want all the couples to be happy. i’m thinking not everything will be solved by the end, but we’ll leave them with them beginning a journey of healing together, like josh and nora from druck, or at least that’s what i hope