#moving to femininity isnt always a total liberation/escape from toxic gendering nor is it safe for everyone physically/psychologically

[angel---eater]

godddd the lalondes drive me insane. roxy in candy vs meat makes me feel like im in the 5th ring of hell (/very pos). thinking about the toxic, manufactured, 'inherent bonds' between women (trans + cis) and people dfab that hinders so much, including self-discovery by way of transness. sapphics especially get hit with this hard. the urge to copy and the fear of becoming your mother in tandem. youre part of The Cisterhood whether you like it or not, whether you are actually a girl or not. what you actually do or want doesnt matter because The Game and Fate dictates that you are just a girl, so you're going to be 'treated like one'. youre playing by The Game's rules. the other crabs will never let you go and you're sooo selfish for thinking you can develop or explore yourself outside of the crab pot. dont you like it in here? isnt it fun though? you dont present right for your old crush to notice you so curl your eyelashes tighter and put on more lipstick, its the only way he'll notice you. he's not a homosexual, you better not wear that hoodie. of course no one would like you for yourself, you already tried that. you desperately want to be like your mother but your mother despises you as your daughter. she can't even LOOK at you. you are your own mother