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kerosene-saint · 4 months ago

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so many things happening in my life in the next couple months and it feels like my life is turning around compared to how I felt this time last year which was complete and utter dread and burn out in every sense of the word

#ME WHEN I GIVE MYSELF MORE SPACE AND TIME TO HEAL AND BE OKAY AFTER A SCHOOL YEAR #there are several factors as to why i don't feel like the human-ish equivalent of the swamp monster #mostly though it's because I'm going into homeschooling so the overwhelming fear of the next school year and all the expectations and #running around and will i get a good teacher and do i have to change my schedule and oh god am i gonna be able to get my 504 in check and #are my teachers even going to follow it and all of that isn't present #I'm gonna meet my teacher here soon and i she's a special ed teacher and i won't have to run between classes #or worry about my principal suddenly making a rule that we can't go to the bathrooms during class hours #and everything else that comes with going to school i did #and also the reason i don't feel like shit is i haven't done much this summer!!! literally everything was fighting for my time and attention #last summer and i felt like i barely had a moment to breathe #one moment I'm in Tennessee with my aunt and the next I'm back in Oklahoma running a convention #and then less than a week later I'm at counselor in training camp for two weeks (would've been three but i got sick due to overworking #myself while at the camp)#and then as soon as all of that was done i had only about a week before school started again #this year i only went to one convention instead of working at one and I'm going to two camps #one was at the start which was a day camp that i work at #and the second one is like next weekend (not this one but the next) and it's an overnight but again only a weekend instead of two weeks #and I'm a camper at that second camp since it's meant for lgbtq+ teens :3 #and that's it!!!!#then i have school and in October i have the dan and phil terrible influence tour in Colorado #which means i get to visit my aunt and uncle and my cousin #and i have my nurse gerard costume for halloween #and then at the end of January i have my first furry convention which I'm making a fursuit for currently!!!!!

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