#most people are able to sleep better when they’re tired. my hypothesis of hypomania is when being tired makes you less able to rest | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

faithfromanewperspective · 1 month ago

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what’s there not to understand about hypomania? you know when you get overtired, and like a toddler, you get all hyperactive and also want to cry or do Every Fun Thing you can think of and it actually becomes harder to sleep? like as a result of too much overwhelm or being so emotionally exhausted that’s how your body makes you able to cope, the aftereffects of too much adrenaline? just imagine being stuck like that. and every day it triggers itself more, overload of emotional whiplash and energy and you’ve lost all ability to think rationally and you can do anything at this point, because why not? you’ve got nothing left in you to hold back on any idea that could be exciting and stop you from falling into the void where the wiredness you feel has nothing to latch onto to burn off that nervous energy in a positive way, emotionally. for days or weeks or months on end. you don’t need to have ever experienced this fully to extrapolate and be like. yeah. I can see how it would suck eventually to get stuck like that

#at this point I’m begging people to see the overlap with adhd too bc anecdotally it seems like everyone I know also has that #and the overlap with bpd and hpd but I think the main difference is. being stuck in that high energy state. even when the energy turns sad #and bitter and hopeless. it’s essentially just overstimulation from your own brain. gets stuck overstimulating itself to cope maybe?#like i know people say it’s not triggered by life events but they sometimes can trigger it. but imho depression is gonna trigger it too #eventually. anything where everything is Too Much can start the positive feedback loop that’s almost impossible to turn off #which if you don’t know what a positive feedback loop is. means smth triggers smth which goes back and triggers its original trigger #thus getting bigger and bigger in magnitude. it’s like the chicken and the egg. egg makes chicken and chicken makes egg. more egg more #chicken and more chicken more egg. as opposed to a negative feedback loop which by the time there gets enough of smth it stops triggering #making more of it. your body relies on negative feedback loops for smth called homeostasis which is basically keeping everything stable #so obv positive feedback loops are gonna do the opposite of stable. in this case for your energy and your mood #most people are able to sleep better when they’re tired. my hypothesis of hypomania is when being tired makes you less able to rest #and that obviously spirals in on itself. mania would just be an extension of that I guess? but in some people it does happen really fast so #I get the narrative that it’s a chemical imbalance bc it is. but the specific imbalance being the tendency to a positive feedback loop make #more sense to me too. and can be why predictability and external cycles to ground yourself to are so important #there’s also never a 0% chance of you ever having a manic episode btw. anyones brain can theoretically get into this loop it’s just that if #you’re genetically predisposed to bipolar you’re much more likely to! and that’s okay. you can manage it with meds and lifestyle #but it makes sense why lowering stress (which can trigger this cycle) is such an important part of treatment and management #anyway. hopefully I’m not like. horribly horribly wrong or smth. in the end I can only speak for my experience so lmk if I’m missing smth #bipolar awareness #bipolar 2 #hypomania #personal mental health tag #neurodivergence #would you believe I was reminiscing about a concert I went to once. and it made me think of all this

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