#more studies yayyyyyyyy

[mitathemita]

we lost the case

[lucky-clover-gazette]

prince's gambit highlights & annotations

chapter 12

indented text is from the book. some quotes have commentary, some do not. some comments are serious, and some are definitely not. most of them will only make sense to people who have read the series. and, like, there are spoilers. so please read the books first if you're interested!

also: part of the reason i'm doing such a close reading is to study cs pacat's style, especially in terms of how she does romance and erotica. there are "craft notes" that might seem weird, like i'm being redundant or restating something rather than analyzing, but those are more things that i want to remember/take away from the writing!

i'm going to tag these longer posts with "sam reads capri" in case anyone wants to read them all at once.

this is a google doc i wrote with overall content warnings for the captive prince series. it's not perfect, but i do think it's important to include.

Laurent gave Damen a long, pensive look and said, eventually, ‘Yes, the trap is closing and there is nothing else to be done.’

context: sarcasm. he would never admit this if it was true

An hour put several miles between them and the rest of Laurent’s men, and that was when Laurent pulled on a rein and circled his horse around Damen’s briefly; he was watching Damen as though he was waiting for something. ‘Think I’m going to sell you to the nearest Akielon troop?�� said Damen. Laurent said, ‘I’m quite a good rider.’ Damen looked at the distance that separated his horse from Laurent’s—about three lengths. It was not much of a head start. They were now circling each other.

i can’t tell if they’re genuinely questioning each other, or playfully proposing a race. honestly with them it’s probably both

also, do you think their horses are tired of their bullshit? do you think they’re falling in love too?

Relaxed in the sunlight, Laurent watched him approach, as one expecting an arrival welcome and familiar.

this is such a sweet moment. i hope nothing happens to interrupt it

It would feel so right to rejoin them, to emerge from the grey maze of Veretian politics, and return to something that he understood: the simplicity of knowing his enemy, and facing a fight. He turned. Laurent was watching him. He remembered Laurent sizing up the distance between two balconies and saying, ‘Probably,’ which, once appraised, had been enough for him to jump. He was looking at Damen with the same expression.

moment of truth damen!

He could take Laurent down the hill and deliver him into Akielon captivity. The desire to do that thrummed in his blood. Nothing was standing in his way. Damen pressed his eyes closed briefly. ‘You need to take cover,’ Damen said. ‘We’re inside their scouting lines. I can ride as lookout until they’ve moved on.’ ‘Very well,’ Laurent said, after a heartbeat passed with his eyes watching Damen steadily.

YAYYYYYYYY

He had to be cautious—not only for Laurent’s sake, but also his own. He was wearing Veretian clothing. Under normal circumstances, an encounter with an Akielon outrider would not be a threat to a Veretian. At worst, there would be some unpleasant posturing. But this was Makedon, and among his forces were the men who had destroyed Breteau. To men like that, Laurent would be a prize beyond measure.

wait damen i thought we were talking about your safety, not laurent’s. oh well

Damen returned to his horse, mounted, and picked his way carefully along the wide, rocky stream bank to the shallow cave that, to his searching eyes, appeared empty at first. It was a well chosen spot: the entrance was hidden from most angles, and the danger of discovery was low. An outrider’s job was simply to ensure the terrain was clear of any obstacles that might impede an army. It was not to check every crack and crevasse on the unlikely chance a prince might be squeezed in there. There was the dull rattle of hooves moving on stone; Laurent emerged from the shadows of the cave on horseback, his manner carefully casual.

he knew where to find him <3

Do you think I’d get on well with Nikandros of Delpha?

foreshadowing

The idea of Laurent let loose on the political landscape of northern Akielos did not make for appealing thoughts.

foreshadowing

‘I wouldn’t have to tell them you were a prince to sell you to that troop.’ Laurent held his ground. ‘Not really? I would have thought twenty was a little grown up for that. Is it the blond hair?’ ‘It’s the charming temperament,’ said Damen.

Though the thought existed: If I took him with me to Akielos, he wouldn’t be given as a prisoner to Nikandros. He’d be given to me.

if you’re curious about that scenario, damen, allow me to introduce you to a little website called ao3

(is there a fic about this happening at this specific point of the story? if not, there should be. they’ve built up their relationship so much and, if in character, damen would be mostly concerned with keeping laurent safe. kind of a like a reverse book 1 situation.)

If the tactic didn’t occur to Kastor, it would certainly occur to Jokaste.

i think they should give her an official role in the government. not that i like the akielion government. i just think she deserves a seat with all the other shitty people

Laurent said, ‘To get what you want, you have to know exactly how much you are willing to give up.’ He was regarding Damen steadily. ‘You think your delightful Lady Jokaste doesn’t know that?’

so laurent has totally figured out that jokaste specifically betrayed damen and sent him to vere. this is an underhanded reference to that. also this is a pretty good hint that laurent Knows

There was only one thing he could do. As the spray of water sheared up from under his horse, he hefted his sword, changed his grip, and threw. It was, emphatically, not a throwing weapon. It was six pounds of Veretian steel, forged for a two-handed grip. And he was on a moving horse, and many feet away, and the man was moving too, towards Laurent. The sword drove through the air and took the man in the chest, ramming him into the ground and pinning him there.

not the yeet of death...

‘I saw you fall.’ Damen heard the rough sound of his own voice. ‘Are you hurt?’ ‘No,’ said Laurent. ‘No, you got to him.’ He had pushed himself up into a splayed sitting position. ‘Before.’

i love this reaction. he’s dazed and in shock. he doesn’t elaborate on the “before.” it’s like he’s giving a status report, or at least trying to deliver it as such

Concerned with the possibility of injury, he was only distantly aware of Laurent looking back at him.

laurent might have just fallen a little tiny bit in love with you, damen. also literally fallen. ouch

‘Can you stand? We need to move out. It’s not safe for you here. Too many people want to kill you.’

and that’s a wrap on damen being reluctant to protect laurent! it’s down bad 24/7 pretty much from now on :)

He was staring at Damen.

damen: are you okay?? we've gotta get out of here

laurent:

‘I’m sorry,’ said Laurent. Then he said, ‘We can’t leave him here.’ He wasn’t talking about the horse. Damen said, ‘I’ll do it.’

this is an interesting contrast to the scene in book 1 where laurent remorselessly makes damen hold a guy so he can slit his throat. here, laurent apologizes. here, he says “we.” here, he doesn’t force damen to do it. and here, damen voluntarily does what needs to be done, so the recently-attacked laurent doesn’t have to.

When it was finished, he walked out of the undergrowth and found a place to clean his sword.

craft note: i like how this is written around the central action, instead of just naming the action itself. like it’s not just “so he killed the guy.” pacat tends to do this with sex, too.

It meant sharing a horse.

and there was only one horse…

Laurent’s gelding had a limp, which Laurent, on one knee, drawing a steady hand down its lower leg until it pulled its hoof up sharply, pronounced a sprained ligament. It could follow on a lead carrying the packs, he said. It couldn’t carry a rider.

horse girl laurent! saving this horse to make up for the one his uncle poisoned and forced him to mercy-kill in book 1!

So Damen swung into the saddle. A moment later he felt Laurent’s hand on his thigh. Laurent’s toe nudged into the stirrup. Laurent pushed up behind him, shifting until he was snug in position. His hips fitted unselfconsciously to Damen’s. Once he had settled, he clasped his arms around Damen’s midsection. Damen knew this about riding pillion: closer, it was easier on the horse.

LMAOOOO have fun with that guys

He heard Laurent’s voice from behind him, a little more oddly strapped-down than usual, ‘You have me over the back of your horse.’ ‘It’s not like you to give up the reins,’ Damen couldn’t help saying. ‘Well, I can’t see the way over your shoulders.’ ‘We could try some other arrangement.’ ‘You’re right: it should be me in front and you carrying the horse.’

this is adorable because they’re both very clearly flustered and not even bothering to hide it. they’re just bantering to avoid addressing it. laughing at the absurdity of the shared circumstances and their bodily reactions. it’s cute. they’re cute.

The horse’s rolling gait pushed their bodies together in constant rhythm.

i have never before considered the inherent eroticism of riding a horse with another person.

do you think their sexual tension freaks out the horse? do you think damen’s horse, who i’ve now decided is in love with laurent’s horse, is relieved that its injured partner has been brought along? are the horses qualified to file hr complaints, if damen and laurent get too weird with this? these are important questions.

Damen was aware that Laurent was taking more time with the horses than was necessary or usual. He ignored it.

this might be a strategy thing somehow, but i also think it’s sweet if laurent just takes comfort in the company of animals and is trying to make himself feel less shaken up after his near-death experience and the most sexually tense horse ride in recorded history

He would never know what had provoked that man to attack. Maybe he’d been thinking of the safety of his troop. Maybe whatever he had lived through at Tarasis or Breteau had stirred violence in him. Maybe he had just wanted to steal the horse. A third-rate soldier from a provincial troop; he would not have expected to meet his Prince, a commander of armies, and face him in a fight.

damen really did kill one of his people. damn. and he’s trying to be empathetic, because he’s damen, and that’s what he does.

‘I thought killing was easy for you,’ said Laurent. His voice was rather quiet. ‘I thought you did it without thinking.’

translation: are you okay?

‘I’m a soldier,’ said Damen, ‘and I have been for a long time. I’ve killed on the sawdust. I’ve killed in battle. Is that what you mean by easy?’

translation: i know i should be okay

‘You know it isn’t,’ said Laurent, in that same quiet voice.

translation: but you aren't

‘I know your feelings towards Akielos,’ said Damen. ‘What happened at Breteau . . . it was barbaric. I know it must mean very little to you to hear me say that I’m sorry for it. And I don’t understand you, but I know that war will bring worse, and you are the only person I have seen working to stop it. I couldn’t let him hurt you.’ ‘In my culture, it is customary to reward for good service,’ said Laurent, after a long pause. ‘Is there something you want?’

yeah guys this fireside heart-to-heart is totally all business. 100%

‘You know what I want,’ said Damen. ‘I am not going to release you,’ said Laurent. ‘Ask for something short of that.’ ‘Take off one of the wrist-cuffs?’ said Damen, who was learning—he realised somewhat to his surprise—what Laurent liked. ‘I give you too much leeway,’ said Laurent. ‘I think you give no more or less than you want to give, with anyone,’ said Damen, because Laurent���s voice had not been at all displeased.

what the fuck is wrong with them. i love them so much

(also, laurent not releasing damen is like a safety matter right now, right? for both of them, honestly, and their men. it's not like a flex of power.)

‘There is something I want.’ ‘Go on.’ ‘Don’t try to use me against my own people,’ said Damen. ‘If it comes to—I can’t do this again.’ ‘I would never have asked that of you,’ said Laurent. Then, when Damen looked at him with flat disbelief: ‘Not out of sweetness. There is little sense in pitting a lesser sense of duty against a greater one. No leader could expect loyalty to hold under those circumstances.’

1) i love this little hint of the “laurent is sweet” theme we see later on

2) the immediate certainty of “i’d never make you do that” really shows the real laurent, in a way we’ve rarely seen before. it’s like damen and the reader are finally being let in to the truth of him

3) “There is little sense in pitting a lesser sense of duty against a greater one. No leader could expect loyalty to hold under those circumstances.”

translation: i know that if you had to choose between me (the lesser duty) and your people (the greater one), it would be insane to expect you to choose me.

this reminds me of nicaise and laurent. as much as laurent tries to convince him otherwise, nicaise believes that laurent will always choose something more important than protecting him. neither of them expects anyone to stay by their side, or advocate for what they want and need. so they push people away instead and convince themselves that they’re meant to handle things alone.

‘I’ve never seen a throw like that,’ said Laurent. ‘I’ve never seen anything like it. Every time I see you fight, I wonder how it is Kastor got you in chains and onto a ship to my country.’

his big stupid heart

He had never, in those days, sought to put himself inside the mind of Kastor, of the men around him, their ambitions, their motivations; those who were not openly his enemies, he’d believed, were basically like himself.

NICE VS. GOOD THEME CENTRAL REALIZATION!! “those who were not openly his enemies, he’d believed, were basically like himself.” but here he is, having killed one of his own countrymen to protect the person who should be his worst enemy, reeling with the uncomfortable reality of his nation’s cruelty and forced to confront its victims. knowing, more and more every day, that he shares more values with laurent than he ever has with kastor or jokaste.

‘He poisoned my horse,’ said Laurent. ‘You saw her, the morning of the hunt. She was already feeling it, even before we rode out.’

something about laurent referring to the horse with “her” instead of “it” breaks my heart. he must have loved her.

‘That . . . was your uncle’s doing?’ The silence stretched out. ‘It was my doing,’ Laurent said. ‘I forced his hand when I had Torveld take the slaves to Patras. I knew when I did it . . . it was ten months to my ascension. Time was running out for him to make a definitive move against me. I knew that. I provoked him. I wanted to see what he would do. I just—’ Laurent broke off. His mouth twisted in a small smile that had no humour in it at all. ‘I didn’t think he’d really try to kill me,’ he said. ‘After everything . . . even after everything. So you see I can be surprised.’

what a huge re-contextualization of book 1. laurent hadn’t expected this consequence of his choice to honor damen’s request, but he had suffered it in silence instead of blaming damen or regretting the choice itself.

damen and laurent’s arcs both deal heavily with the idea of suffering alone—who’s doing it better, who deserves to do it, if they even need to suffer alone when they could suffer (and succeed) together instead. i’ll keep pulling at that thread as the reading goes on.

Damen said, ‘It’s not naive to trust your family.’ ‘I promise you, it is,’ said Laurent.

you guys are on opposite sides of a scale here. it’ll be good when you start balancing each other out

But I wonder, is it less naive than the moments when I find myself trusting a stranger, my barbarian enemy, whom I do not treat gently.’ He held Damen’s gaze, as the moment lengthened. ‘I know you’re planning to leave when this border fight is done,’ said Laurent. ‘I wonder if you’re still planning to use the knife.’ ‘No,’ said Damen. ‘We’ll see,’ said Laurent.

that laurent response is soooooo nicaise :’(

also, going from “whom i do not treat gently” to the eventual “i think if i gave you my heart, you would treat it gently” AHHHH

also also, laurent outright admitting that he trusts damen? and then saying that he’s still pretty sure damen is going to kill him with a knife, almost as if laurent deserves it? his brain is so mean to his heart

Damen looked away, his gaze raking the dark beyond the campsite. ‘You really think it’s still possible to stop this war from happening?’ When he looked back, Laurent nodded, a slight but steady and deliberate movement, the answer clear, unmistakable and impossible: Yes.

were you really expecting any other answer from mr. "probably"? or did you just want the reassurance of hearing/seeing him confirm it?

‘Why didn’t you call a halt to the hunt?’ said Damen. ‘Why ride and cover up your uncle’s treachery, if you knew your horse had been poisoned?’ ‘I—assumed it had been made to look as though one of the slaves had done it,’ said Laurent, a little quizzically, as though the answer was so obvious that he wondered if he had misunderstood the question.

again, laurent often seems to view his own suffering as deserved. like it’s a no-brainer. it’s a really interesting quality of his, that somehow exists at the same time as his self-assurance and strong moral conviction. maybe it’s because of that conviction that he’s so easily able to blame himself when he and/or the circumstances fall short of his moral standards.

He thought of Naos, who had been so certain. He wanted to lay the blame for what he felt on Laurent, but what he felt had no easy name, and in the end he said nothing at all, but banked the fire in silence, and when the time came he lay down on his roll to sleep.

he’s rounding a corner with the nice vs. good theme! i wouldn’t say it’s pleasant for damen to develop this kind of mistrust, but at least it makes him less delusional. and a certain amount of skepticism is important to keep yourself safe (said by someone like laurent, who has way more skepticism than a normal well-adjusted person)

He woke with a crossbow bolt in his face.

not a great way to wake up after a mini-crisis about trust issues

Damen now knew the precise number of arrows Laurent needed to have trained on him in order to shut him up. It was six.

He didn’t resist the gag either, though it came as a surprise; Damen saw his head jerk back a little, reflexively, as a cloth was shoved into his mouth.

gagging laurent is worse than taking his sword. his voice is his #1 weapon!

[sneefsnorf]

i have life series and mcr AND study macbeth tomorrow. and then i have my english exam and more mcr on monday. and then nothing for a week and then my drama exam and then halloween. and then nothing no school or anything. just a couple 2 hour exams and then i graduate school. and i dont leave my home for months. yayyyyyyyy.

[delicris]

wtf is up with that teacher!!!!! i'm so sorry i hope the CAE isn't too bad on you and that you get to have a little break cause it's very important (that reminds me I'll need to take the CAE soon oh god i just hope it's just CAE and not CPE)

omg i'm glad the driving lesson was fun!!!!! i'm so proud of you for it!!!!!!!

awwww that's so cuteeeeeeee!!!!! this person sounds honestly amazing because this is so niceeee!!!!

yes the rest of my classes went alright!!!! tho I still have english course tonight ugh

hope the chem studying doesn't go too bad!!!!! and that you manage to sort out the tickets and that you have a brilliant time with your friends on Saturday!!!!!!!

OMG YAYYYYYYYY I'M GLAD FOR YOU!!!!!!!

I usually don't mind the rain but it's actually too much. like last week they cancelled three days of school cause of it and tomorrow morning I won't have classes again cause of it and some people are loosing their homes and are having a really hard time which is very shitty. hope it goes away soon

also I just realized!!!!! we now both have kitty cats on our pfps!!!! we're pfp cat buddies!!!!!!!

my teacher asked me if i wanted to give CPE a try and i just gave her this incredulous look... like, dear, i don't need to traumatise myself even more, i think the CAE is more than enough, but i hope you'll do well!! i did a mock test and i passed it with quite a lot of points to spare, so i'm not that worried about it, but it's still something on top of everything else and school has been a proper bitch lately... BUT WE'LL DO GREAT, I'M SURE OF IT

the person is the best, they've been a lovely little beam of light, keeping me warm <33

ENGLISH COURSE SOUNDS INTERESTING, i just hate that you still have classes, i'd be dead by now if i were you

chem is kicking my ass... as always... but i'm kicking it back twice as hard (or at least i'm trying to)

oh fuck, that's terrible and so terrifying to hear!! i hope you are and your family is all doing okay, i'm sending all the strength your way, darling <3 there hasn't been much raining happening lately, so it was rather welcomed since it's been a dry couple of weeks at this point

MATCHING CAT PFPS!! I LOVE THAT SO MUCH!! THE KITTY PFPS ROCK!!

[theriverbeyond]

DAY 2 PROGRESS (aka: autism win! local creature spends several hours making a cardboard replica of their torso. and also more bones)

Clavicle time!! doing the same method as beforr, aka wire armature under paper clay. I sculpted them flat, and then shaped them on to my body to get their proper 3D curve

this led me to be like, huh, having a dress form/dummy would be really helpful, too bad I don't have one and they are SO expensive. anyway, look at all these moving boxes from like 2 years ago that i never threw away.

oh

OHH?????

now we are cooking with gas.

onto scapula time! I printed one out because my drawings were NOT working out. the average scapula is about 9.5 cm across acording to a study I found, I made them a bit bigger at around 10-11cm across. for the vibes.

The wire armature looks very fun IMO. Also, I forgot to take a pic of this part but I basically lined up vertebra 2-7 in order to get the spacing of the hooks correct. The vertebrae are gonna attach to ribs that will attach to the scapula.

Fun anatomy fact! generally, the spine of the scapula aligns with the T3 vertebrae

sculpting process ft. art assistant reminding me to take breaks.

TA DA! here they are, and as symmetrical as they are going to get. in my opinion it fucks and i'm extremely pleased. i also DEFINITELY did not expect any of this to turn out looking this good but turns out Studying The Bone has its perks.

I'm glad I made the torso (theriverbeyond 2, if you will) because I want the scapulae to dry on a curve and i do not know how I would do that symmetrically without it. Paper clay takes about (?) 3 days to fully dry and so I definitely want to wait before I start connecting things

Next steps: ribs! rib 1 is going to be sort of like a collar (load bearing ribs, basically--i habe a plan) and the rest are just there to hang out. YAYYYYYYYY

just made some BONES :3 (aka I'm finally starting a Harrow cosplay and obviously the rigcage is first. day 1 progress pics and process under the cut)

I have a PLAN for the ribcage, and we shall see if it can come to fruition. if all else fails, I will still have some sick wall art 👍

Pt. 1 is making the sternum, I'm embedding a wire armature for support and also to integrate secure rings-i-can-attach-other-bones-to directly into the bone, to hopefully minimize future cosplay emergencies and malfunctions. I AM making the sternum 3 different articulating bones, because they are important #TO ME

I'm using paper clay (which i have never used before) because I have a very contentious relationship with foam clay and I dislike baking things in my oven (its a very bad oven. and very small). Trying lots of new things so let's see what happens!

Pt 2 is the vertebrae. I want to make a spine that goes down the back over MY spine, so I'm making basically the entire thoracic section, posterior part only as it is like, on my body. Cutting it at the pedicles if you catch my drift. Using wire again for both structural and rings-to-attach-other-bones reasons.

Fun fact, a good way to remember if you are looking at thoracic vertebrae is "does it look like a giraffe?". (lumbar vertebrae look like moose. meese?)

I'm basically making the connection between vertebrae happen at the junction of the articular facets, aka not sculpting those and keeping that part as wire only. I also has a really fun time making vertebrae that *progressed* from T1 to T12, aka from "looks kimda like cervical" to "looks kinda like lumbar". Definitely not perfect but good enough IMO. Yippee!

definitely should have like, considered rib attachment and such when I was making the armature for the vertebrae BUT i forgot. so we ball. I think I will attach them to the main articulating chain and just like... attempt to space it out with jump rings. we shall see if it works.

Next steps are scapulae, clavicles, and ribs. Still sorta unsure how ribs 1-4 ish are going to work due to my arms being in the way but I will figure that out when I get there 👍

[thewatchau]

OOC: Queue Changes for May

Hey guys! 

Sorry to interrupt the lore, but instead of another post about the world of The Watch, I’ve got some regular-old boring news about blog logistics. :P

This next month (May 2020) is going to be extremely hectic for me. After completely reworking my academic plans thanks to COVID-19, I have to take two Maymester courses simultaneously in order to graduate on schedule.

If you don’t know what a Maymester is, imagine taking a full college course in just three measly weeks. Sitting in the same classroom for over 3 hours each day. Plus the same amount of homework, projects, papers, or tests required by the department for full course credit.

Yeah I’m taking two of those. 

The good news is that they’re both Spanish courses (my major) and I’ve already taken a class with one of these professors, so I know he’s an chill grader. 

The bad news is that the Romance Studies department requires each class to assign a total of ten pages of written assignments. Normally those are divided up into smaller assignments over the course of the semester, but in this case...

Hehehehehe I’m gonna be writing the equivalent of a twenty-page paper in my second language after spending 6 hours a day on Zoom. YAYYYYYYYY. 

Obviously, the situation isn’t ideal. But I’m grateful that I can at least continue to graduate as planned, so I’m not going to complain (too much). And I firmly believe that you can do anything for three weeks. I don’t even have to do it well; As long as I pass both classes, I’m good. 

Anyway, I’m saying all of this because, shockingly, I don’t think I can keep the queue full of bi-daily posts for three weeks while also taking these classes. I’ve come up with two solutions to this problem. 

First of all, starting May 3, 2020, I’m bumping the queue down to one post per day. I’m pretty sure that means it’s going to go up at 12 pm EST, but I could be wrong. 

Secondly, I’ll reuse/revamp old content to fill those queue slots as needed. This could be anything from simply self-reblogging old content to transforming sections from the wiki into tumblr posts. The latter probably won’t hold any new information, but it would compile information previously spread over multiple posts about a single topic. 

Worst case scenario, there may be days where I don’t have time to put anything into the queue. I’m going to try to avoid this as much as I can, but if that happens, well, it’s not the end of the world. After all, it’s just three weeks. 

I’ll do my best to write Bard’s Journal posts reporting on any ego/glitchy videos, especially because, as usual, it looks like May will be an interesting month. However, depending on how much time I have to write, these reports might be more generalized, rather than addressing each video specifically. 

Finally, if you guys have any submissions you’d like to send in, please do so! Any and all help would be appreciated. Of course, no pressure. We’re just here to have a good time; this isn’t school or work for anyone, myself included. 

I hope you all are staying safe and healthy out there! Wish me luck, and Keep The Watch for whatever happens in this potential 2020 Mayhem!

With Warm Regards,

Bard Emily Keyes

Written to the Souls Beyond the Screen in the Fifth Month of the Year One Thousand Six Hundred and Fifteen

[banrions]

I definitely started D20 because of your posts and I am SO glad. I was iffy on the “adults playing HS” because...Duh. But, I forgot these are nerds playing nerds so of course it’s silly and funny and heartbreaking.

YES!!!!!!

YAYYYYYYYY. it’s so good. i love them all so much. fantasy high is utterly delightful but i also just love the other campaigns as well. unsleeping city might be one of my favorite pieces of media??? a crown of candy hit me so hard i have 8 million fic ideas for the first time in like a YEAR? (related to d20 but separate) i blasted through all of naddpod (not another d&d podcast, murph is the dm, emily is a player, 2 more old CollegeHumor ppl are the other players & brennan, siobhan, and zac are all guest players) and i LOVE THEM SO MUCH. i am just... full dnd brain all the time. and i looooove these ppl.

(i also think its like, i love critrole, and it was my introduction to dnd, but it’s by no means the be all end all, and since i’ve branched out even further [i had already listened to the adventure zone] i’ve come to appreciate a lot more abt other shows even more tbh. and i want ppl to expand what they pick too. bc there are so many good dnd shows out there rn and there are a lot on my to-watch/listen lists now).

also... i’ve fallen as in love as one can be with a person who they have never and will never and want to never, meet. who also has my name, also studied abroad the same place as me, and constantly comes up with character choices that feel catered to me, specifically.

[marlmarlin]

A NEW YEAR, more middle age actress to fill the list of my love.

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Who gonna share your list to full fill me.

My NEW Mama

I would die for u, yayyyyyyyy take me!

I watched Mind hunter bc of seeing her gif in tumblr, Why I always fell for a trap like this again and again

Damn it beautiful women!

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My present list

Yay, with you Madame. who will !

I choose studying fashion because of her, u know? Even I know that it freking horrible world. People ready to judge me all the time. My teacher even told me that I don't fit in fashion world. That i will NOT survive but here I am, Greadueted from Fashion Design.

Who make this g..if hmmm, kill me please!

Don't never forget, OUR GAY LORD!

Hmmmm.....like she look at us and think,Why are you so idiot?

Yes,I am Madame. Your idiot!

From Beetle Juice, and I never forget her..

And become OUR MAMA BEAR!

Hail Madame Satan, oh and don't forget