#moral rambles

[moralcandy]

what would you do if i was a scarred, morally grey man, and you were an ancient being viewing thousands of millennias from in the dirt. and i found you and took advantage of your trust, but then slowly, accidentally, i grew to care for you. maybe love you. and i taught you what it means to be human, and you taught me that what i leave behind is all people will know of me years on. that they will know me as the hurt vice president who was in love with a drunken, abusive president. that they will know me as the poor fool who just keeps falling in love, who fell in love with two forgetful men. that they will know me as icarus, flying too close to the sun, trying to kill what cannot be killed and paying the price. that i will be remembered as the man who wielded a pickaxe with a bone-white grip and grinned with a missing tooth, who was so close to revenge, and had it taken away. that i will be known as a torturer, a manipulator, a fool. that i will be remembered as someone who was so close, so close to healing, a realization.

that i will be known as the man who watched as you fell by a traitor's hand, and saw you burn. that when you come back, i'll be remembered as the man who fell the same way you did, careening hundreds of feet into demise. only this time, my doom was of my own creation, of molding what should not be molded into something malleable, agreeable, naive and accepting. and maybe, when you push me off of that tower we've talked on so many times before, maybe your hand will push me off of that ledge lovingly, apologetically. perhaps it will grasp at the buttons of my shirt for a second more, savouring it bittersweetly. maybe, instead, it'll grip the fabric harshly, with vindication. but i don't think that's you.

and maybe, after everything, you will come back again. and maybe we will rebuild the city we made together. and maybe i can learn what its like to live. and maybe you can learn that humanity is cruel, and disgusting, yet loving, and growing. and maybe we'll be remembered as the creators of a bright, thriving nation. maybe, we'll learn what it's like to love.

anyway would that be crazy or what

[secondbeatsongs]

somehow instead of saying "as a treat", I've started using the phrase "for morale", as if my body is a ship and its crew, and I (the captain) have to keep us in high spirits, lest we suffer a mutiny in the coming days.

and so I will eat this small block of fancy cheese, for morale. I will take a break and drink some tea, for morale. I will pick up that weird bug, for morale.

I'm not sure if it helps, but it does entertain me

[goodluckdetective]

Look, this is what moral OCD is like for me:

I walk past a piece of paper. I don’t pick it up because I had a long day at work and it’s very cold outside. This then becomes my internal monologue:

I didn’t pick up that piece of paper, I should have. Don’t I care about the environment? It’s not my trash, I shouldn’t have to pick it up. But also that’s how these things happen right? We place the blame on others as our environment degrades. It was just a piece of paper, it’s not like it can do that much damage. But also how do I know: I’m not an environmental expert. Maybe stray paper scraps are killing the frogs. You’re literally killing the frogs. You should look up how many frogs die a year so you know how shitty you are-No stop it.

I care about the environment, and I recycle and I joined green activism movements but is that enough? I could be doing more. I should be doing more. I should donate my entire check to charity. But isn’t it self serving to think that my one check could help that much? Do I really think I’m that important, how self entitled and-no stop it, reset! You are obsessing and if you fall for it, you will not eat dinner. Let it go.

Okay it’s just a piece of paper. It’s okay you skipped it this once: it could have had something dangerous on it. Yeah that makes sense. But also, that means I’m putting my own safety over trying to help the environment, which is very selfish of me. I’m just one shitty person: god how could I be so self absorbed. I should have picked up the piece of paper. I’m so selfish, and shitty and-no, no, stop it! This is not helpful. It’s fine.

It’s been a long day and I’m cold, that’s not a crime- no that’s being selfish again, you’re making excuses. You’re just a lazy piece of shit who doesn’t care about others, and selfish and God the fact you’re thinking this much about one piece of paper shows how selfish you are, you care more about if you’re a good person than anything else, you’re a piece of shit, you’re a piece of shit, YOU’RE A PIECE OF SHIT.

I get home and open up Tumblr. The first post I see says “if you don’t reblog this post about the environment you’re as complicit as an oil billionaire.” I close my computer and resign myself to looking up the state frog populations until I go to bed.

I don’t eat dinner.

The amount of frogs that die a year is somewhere from 200 million to over 1 billion.

[bi-gwen-stacy]

Haven't been the same before reading this comment

[doomed-era]

not "they did nothing wrong" or "they are a horrible bastard" but a secret third thing: they did things wrong and I like that about them but everyone over-exaggerates their negative impact on the story

[sunflowersand-bees]

This fucking moment okay right

because like. Miles is surrounded by people yelling and arguing and he's confused and locked in a fucking cage.

And he turns to Hobie and Hobie is helpful. Hobie frees him from that damn cage. Hobie is the fucking eye of the storm. He's the rock.

(edit: i am so sorry but its not a video, just a ss)

[oneweek]

modern media literacy is so cooked like what do you mean you gave saltburn a .5 star rating because it wasn’t the class consciousness film you wanted that’s not what the fucking movie is about… ‘they made it hard to keep rooting for him and identifying with him’ idk maybe don’t project onto every character in media you come across & then get scared when they act in a way you wouldn’t

[gophergal]

Guilt tripping people does nothing but cause vulnerable folks to spiral and make folks who dont live with moral OCD feel negatively toward your cause

[mayhemmies]

hi. hello. friendly reminder, since mouthwashing is more popular and it has a lot of deep, complex characters and what not. I feel this has to be said.

YOU ARE FULLY ALLOWED TO ENJOY MORALLY WRONG CHARACTERS. YOU ARE ALLOWED TO LIKE CHARACTERS WHO HAVE DONE HORRIBLE THINGS.

I see people going "oh!!!! oh that's not!!" over posts about Jimmy all the time but IT'S OKAY TO LIKE "BAD" CHARACTERS.

Jimmy is very well written in my opinion. I love how delusional and how sick of a man he is. I fucking love his character. Does that mean I support his actions? FUCK NO!!!!! Does that mean he's free from criticism? FUCK NO!!!! Do I still love other characters like Anya for example? HELL YES!!!!

liking a character for any reason, even if it IS in a gooner sort of way, does not automatically make you support their actions. it doesn't mean you're ignoring what they've done, or you're watering them down, or you hate their victims. I love the Jimmy hate posts but please do not attack people for actually enjoying him. please this is common sense.

[goblins-riddles-or-frocks]

forever obsessed with dynamics between vampires, specifically that of a maker and fledgling, as a way to explore abuse. the creation of a vampire itself can so easily be a literalization of the lasting impacts of trauma and also much more simply the ways a perpetrator might shape their victim’s very identity. the extremes of isolation in the way that the new vampire, in most narratives, must cut all ties to their mortal life, or else go through an elaborate charade to maintain the facade of humanity, while forever still being removed from it. and the sheer dependence and vulnerability of being in an entirely new state of being, wholly uncertain of what it entails, and relying on another person to define… everything.

[kittydragondraws]

Having autism and ocd be like:

"I'm ableist by glancing at a person in a wheelchair for five seconds but I'm also ableist by going out of my way to avoid looking at them"

[moralcandy]

i just think it's really funny that these two are right next to eachother in the list of q!slime's nicknames on the qsmp wiki

[hexxedcore]

18+ MDNI

caitlyn, who is shameless in pampering you and spoiling you. you deserve only the best, of course, and with her family luxury it isn’t as though the expenses will be missed by her parents.

caitlyn, who makes sure her purchases are going to good use by making you test out each pair of lacy navy panties she buys with her.

caitlyn, who indulges in a well-deserved form of stress relief in the shape of you after coming home from her new demanding position beside ambessa. who essentially gets pussy drunk after driving you past your fragile limits.

caitlyn, who takes advantage of her family’s spacious mansion to take you just about anywhere and everywhere should the desire arise. tobias still refuses to sit on the common room lounge.

caitlyn, who apologises for each hour she was away by punctuating them in kisses up your thighs before she eats you out. who takes you with the hunger of a starving woman.

[welcomebacktohoimicraf]

pvp evbo is THE SWEETEST BABY BOY who did absolutely nothing wrong except yearn for an emotional connection with someone that isn't rooted in physical violence and exploitation, and all he got out of it was repeated torture and emotional manipulation by the ones close to him. I feel sick. SICK!! NOTHING CAN MAKE ME HATE YOU PVP!EVBO YOU DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER

[goodluckdetective]

Things Moral OCD doesn’t make you better at: mostly everything

Things moral OCD makes you better at: Replicating the experience of seeing wild takes on Twitter without having to log onto Twitter

[tyblackthornsheadphones]

why does no one care? all the non jews i follow are posting like today is a normal day. i want to scream. i want to break down. THEY DIED BECAUSE OF YOU and you can’t even put the effort into reposting a “sorry there’s six more jews dead now oops” post