#momy issues

[papirszivek]

Gyűlöllek azért amit tettél velünk.

Gyűlölöm azt amit tettek veled.

Gyűlölöm, hogy nem tudlak gyűlölni.

[laaskrin]

Working on Mordred rn and i keep torturing this poor little wet sock of a man. Such a tragic backstory, he exudes sad baby girl energy.

Now to make him hot but pathetic to have the perfect little package.

[oseznoms]

Recuerda el cariño que les solían dar sus padres, yo no, tengo vagos muy vagos recuerdo de lo poco que me ofreció mi madre, le escrito mil veces extrañándola, pero le escribo a un fantasma a una ilusión de lo que yo percibo que ella fue, mi mente a creado todo un mundo donde ella me dio amor, amor que realmente no me dio, los huérfanos entenderán el dolor del desamparo nunca se va, posiblemente mueras con eso y se te recordara todos los días en todas las escenas de amor que encuentres en las calles en los cines, en las escuelas, de los padres dando amor y la soledad irrumpirá en tu momento, te sentirás tan solo, igual que cuando te sientas mal, el hecho de que el más grande amor de tu vida solo es una ilusión, mata, las parejas se van se puede vivir con esa idea, pero que tú madre nunca estuvo eso nunca se va

[hopeheartfilia]

i be giving major mo ran vibes in metro(1.0)

[ringaroundtheroses]

i jsut did a speed draw of navi and tatl for my hero au thingy for 0 reason other than i LOVEEEEE women

[snek-panini]

Happy Halloween! Have a book:

This is Siren's Song by @kedreeva (Hi! I asked to bind your fic months ago, sorry it took so long XD). It's an incredible Good Omens siren AU, which needs no introduction from me but it gets one anyway. It's one of the most in-character fics I've ever read, tackles a lot of the most resonant themes of the original (love in the context of aromanticism and asexuality, human labels in the context of non-human perspective), and has incredible world-building. Later parts of the fic always make me cry but they're good tears. You'll see. When I first learned that fanbinding was a thing and started looking into how to do it, this was one of the first fics I thought of. It just took me a while to learn the skills I needed before I could do it.

More pics and process talk under the cut!

So the cover up there is black faux leather and momi paper that I bought...about two years ago? And just kept on hand till I was ready to do this project. This is the first time I've worked with it and it was fairly nice, though harder to get a nice crease into than lokta or chiyogami. It felt very fragile when I was handling it but I didn't have any issues with tearing or glue bleed-through like I thought I might. It did bleed some color when I got it damp with the glue, and it took way longer to dry than normal, but once that was done it's been fine. Which is nice because I have a lot left over, so it'll probably be making many future appearances in my binds.

Look! It's rounded! I got a backing setup recently and this is my first time using it. It was Very Hard and I am not very good at it yet. But I think it looks pretty good for a first attempt, and there was really no other way to mitigate the spine swell on this one. I used a thick paper so I've got a thick book. I also tried something new with the case, though it isn't visible. Usually I make the text block and the case separately and then attach them as the last step, but for this one I actually built the case around the text. Like, boards attached to mull/tapes (sandwiched between thinner boards, with grooves cut for them so there are no bulges), then covered with momi, then leather corners and spine, then paste down the endpaper. It's got an oxford hollow, too! The tapes and mull actually wrap around the outside of the boards instead of the inside like I've done before. Endpapers are my favorite feather chiyogami. Combined with the marbled momi they make for a very opulent look, and I had just barely enough to do this. Like, down to the millimeter. I had to trim the edges and then glue the endpapers after to be sure they were right. I'm glad they were, because I didn't have a backup plan. Handmade endbands, colors picked to match the cover. Also, last note, I got the corner bits right for the first time. Measured properly, with no weird pointy bits that come out at funny angles. Very proud.

Title page and bookmark/interior shot. Did you know that some basic fonts in MS Word look different when you use a huge font size? Because I didn't until I made this title page. That's Parchment for the title, and it only gets those swirly bits around the capital letters if you take it to 26pt or higher (I used 72 here). Now I wonder if any of the other fonts have easter eggs in them like that. The ribbon is very fancy, to go along with the rich endpaper/cover combo. I think it's pretty appropriate for a mythological golden age of piracy story, as are the text ornaments:

Chapter header image, chapter end image, and section break image. It was a very image-heavy typeset. I was originally planning to only have a header and a section break, but I couldn't decide whether I liked the ships or the book/shell/feather better, and they both suited the story so well that I just went with both. Again, opulent, but I think it fits. All the images came from rawpixel, all I did was resize them.

There was a small error in the trimming process. Comes of having to calculate so closely the exact amount you can trim off, that you have to trim off so your slightly-too-small endpapers fit. I think something got misaligned when I poked the sewing holes because only the first signature is like this. The rest of the book has a more appropriately-sized margin between the page number and the edge. I got very lucky here, and I know it, and I'm never cutting it this close (lol) again. Next time we just order another sheet of chiyogami.

And that's it! I have one author's copy and one new bind in progress right now (that's taking a while because I'm learning more new stuff for it), and then I have two Christmas gift books to do, so it might be a bit before I have another book to share.

[stelartuqueque]

I JUST REMEMBERED THAT I DIDN'T SHOW MY HAZBIN HOTEL OC'S REDESIGN HERE- *Crying tuqueque*

((I want to clarify that the sin that is next to it is for the lore of how each oc ended up in hell, not the ring in which they are located-))

The first, as always, momy Eleonor

Name in life: Eleonor "Adams" Orstrang Name in hell: Eleonor Orstrang (AKA: Mother Demon)

Age of death: 28 years Year: 1868 Profession/Job: Pharmacist

The second, ironically, my greatest pride in terms of design, Adrian.

Name in life: Adrian Beaumont Name in hell: Adrian Orstrang

Age of death: 19 years Year: 1940 Profession/Job: Unisex dressmaker (In life and in hell)

The third, Eleonor's bestie from the moment she was alive, Amelia.

Name in life: Amelia Bechett Name in hell: Amelia

Age of death: 32 years Year: 1867 Profession/Job: Acompany Lady / Secretary (In hell)

The fourth, which was originally a selfinsert, Lili (Or "Lil", usually-)

Living name: Lauren Newmaker Name in hell: Lili ("Lil")

Age of death: 23 years Year: 2018 Profession/Job: Cashier/Waitress

The fifth, the main person in charge of distribution and public treatment in Eleonor's business, Braham.

Name in life: Abraham Name in hell: Braham Orstrang

Age of death: 26 years Year: 1997 Profession/Job: Public relations manager (In hell)

The sixth, a little fennec with serious anger issues, Kyles.

Name in life: Kiledar Burnham Name in hell: Kyles

Age of death: 24 years Year: 2016 Profession/Job: Assistant/Security Guard (In Life and Hell)

Another one- It's the last of the special sins, fly boy, Martin.

I have other sinners left, but that will be later :'D

Name in life: Martin Canewilk Name in hell: Martin Orstrang

Age of death: 18 years Year: 1897 Profession/Job: Asset Accountant-

I still had to re-draw other 3 sinners... and 5 imps... aaaand 2 hellhounds- But, for now, there, there!

Oh, also!

Braham plus 'cause I love this momma's boy-

[mate-de-ensalada]

Im crying because Emerie told Omega that they were sisters not because she was a clone like her but because SHE WAS ALSO RAISED BY NALA SE. It's so cute and ugly and beautiful and Aaaaaaaaa my girls have momy issues

[bibaybe]

Since I’m currently watching Big Time Rush and making some OCs for myself… tell me all about Cordy!! How did she and Carlos meet/get together? What kind of music is she into? What’s her background/family like? Tell me all the things, please!! <33

dolly,,,,, you mean everything to me for asking about her. thank you for unleashing the beast

cordelia 'cordy' love is the only daughter of tabitha o'connor and isaiah love

tabitha is the personal assistant to a bigtime modeling agency CEO (currently unnamed) and sister of gustavo rocque and isaiah is a failed musican turned club promoter

tabitha and isaiah divorced when cordy was 4 due to isaiah's alcoholism and cordy hasn't seen her father since he almost died during a visitation for her 5th birthday due to drinking too much

cordy's been modeling for the modeling agency tabitha works for since she was 5

tabitha has a Plan for cordy's life, which starts with modeling and working their way up to becoming a famous actress. cordy doesn't actually want to be a model or actress, she wants to do music, but her momis extremely against it

cordy's entire life as revolved around The Plan and influences everything she does, from who she dates to what she eats to what she wears

she goes by delia due to her mother thinking it sounds more professional

when the boys come to the palm woods, cordy's currently dating brett griffin, arthur griffin's son and an up-and-coming actor

she doesn't live at the palm woods, but she does attend school there due to influence from her mother's employer

brett is immdiately a dick to them bc he doesn't think they'll make it in hollywood and think they're just a waste of space in the palm woods, and well, cordy's dating the dick, so the guys don't really like her

well, except for james and carlos, who are like 'she's so hot and mean. please step on me'

carlos is the first one to call her cordy and she immediately loves it more than delia, but she pretends she doesn't bc her mom thinks it sounds childish

she's kinda frenemies with the boys for most of the first season, but carlos is always sweet to her anyway

brett cheats on her with either an oc or one of the jennifers, i'm not sure yet, but cordy freaks and dumps him

but then brett and the AP starts being dicks to her too and trying to bring her down, so carlos starts leaving notes for cordy to cheer her up

cordy figures out pretty quickly that he's leaving the notes and knows he likes her, but she feels like she's A) not ready to date after brett and B) not good enough for carlos

he leaves a note telling her that she looks pretty in yellow and she starts wearing it constantly

she keeps the first note he left her in her phone case and at some point jo and camille ask about it and she mentions that she knows who it is, but she doesn't want to tell him

jo and camille feel like she's leading mystery guy on and complain about it to the boys, which makes carlos sad 'cause they're girls, they have to know what cordy's thinking, right? so he stops leaving notes and tries to move on

around this time she starts to be dealing with more issues involving her parents and carlos moving on just makes everything worse and she just kinda starts unravelling bc she's been attempting to take control of her life from her mom but everything falls apart and long story short, ends up having a meltdown in front of the guys due to seeing her father for the first time in 11 years

he starts leaving the notes for her again bc he knows she needs them

after this she starts actually becoming friends with the guys and starts really falling for carlos bc he's just so different than anyone else she's ever known and makes her feel like she's worth the affection he gives her

they start dating after she leaves a note for him saying 'you make me brave. i want you <3' and he's practically vibrating until they're alone and it's just really cute

when she starts posting music on youtube, carlos is the only one she tells and swears him to secrecy. does it stay a secret? no, but man's tried his best

she loves pop music! very much olivia rodrigo and sabrina carpenter vibes for her own music, but her listening taste is very much katy perry, kesha, avril lavigne girlie

also likes alternative and r&b, but pop is her main beloved

the way i could go on for days about her and specifically her relationship w her parents, but i'll leave that for another time since this is already p long lmao. but thank you sm for asking about her!!

[berdlyappreciation]

During the Sayaka fight:

Red Bitch: "why the fuck aren't you on the grind."

Sayaka: "I guess you could say I have... Momi issues."

Madoka trying to be supportive: "BA DUM TISSSS!"

[dollivication]

and and and,,, mommy issues v

like that one scene where trish tells him she’s not his mommy!!&$&&&!!!!!!))&&!! im going crayzayyyy ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১

to me hes a lil more insane than dante,,, maybe he makes u start dressing like his mom,, maybe having her hair cut and color,, her personality n mannerisms too,, till he js turns u into a little replica of her:3333 crazy

—🍓

100% ON MOMMY ISSUES V BEING CRAZIER THAN DANTE!!! THIS WAN IS ACTUALLY ICKY!

the moment you express the SLIGHTEST amount of motherly love, or have a SUBTLY SIMILAR trait to her… v is convinced youre his mommy :3 and if you are her, then you’ve got to look like her!! IM GIGGLING IM SICK

he will alwaaaays “correct” u on how yu should act.. no slouching! mother always had straight posture. oh ur making dinner? stop that and follow this recipe instead, mother would make it this way! hair tied up?? get rid of the style, mother’s was always loose! don’t cuss, mother always used proper language!!… hes just so controlling (◞‸◟)…

and laik.. he isn’t afraid to fuck with yur mind through some less than sane tactics! sure, you may be a shell of your former self after the shit he puts you through, but at least you’ll be more pliant and actually start doing what he tells yew to !!! mommy just needs a bit of help, is what he tells himself! (^人^)

icky momy issues v…,.; ouhhh…:

[momoanddirt]

Momi says I need to sit still for pictures but I say skill issue

[the-ninja-legacy-whip]

wait if the bizzaro's are somwhat shaped by context from the other genrations of the elemental alliance does tha mean Bjesse is partially made out of gamradons momy issues also why no bizzaro nya

does that mean Bess is partially made out of gamradons mommy issues <- soooooomewhat

also why no bizzaro nya <- same reason as no bizarro lloyd: Garmadon's main priority is to get rid of the Core Four only, and still believes Lloyd and Nya can be convinced "back over to his side". The only reason we get B!Jesse is because of a poor phrasing of words snksnksnk

[justneedtofocus]

Okay. I’m not spiraling right now but I am processing. Amanda is coming to visit from 13 to 21. This is happening, her tickets are bought no refunds. In reality I should’ve told her no or to at least leave in the 18th but I didn’t and now I’m in this situation. I guess the plan today was summer planning but I didn’t realize it was gonna be Amanda planning and crying but here we are.

Here’s what else is happening:

13, we land at 11:15, come to my place, chill out (hopefully), maybe go to space needle.

14, pick up mom from airport go to celebrate nanas bday. Right now mom is making me feel guilty for asking Momi if Amanda can come over and telling me that I shouldn’t have let her visit this week knowing it was nana bday. So that feels super. On top of me needing to find places to stay the 14/15/16 so that Alex is okay. If Momi says I can’t bring Amanda then idfk what to do. Maybe leave her somewhere for the day then stay at Dylan’s? But is he okay with that?? I’m asking him then to host my friend for 3 freaking days that aren’t even on the weekend. He was totally fine with just the Friday night bless him but if I ask for three days I don’t think he’ll be the same?? I don’t wanna be in conflict with him too while I’m already in conflict with mom and Alex. I can’t stay at the ranch cuz they have a class and I need to stay at my place cuz of work.

Anyway, I think this is my breaking point of I’m going to move. Future Kala - either you find a new roommate who is less socially anxious than you/enjoys to decorate like you or something that means less compromising on both parties ends. OR you live alone. OR you live with Dylan.

15, I have no clue this day. Woodinville can’t do. Graham can’t do. Kianas on a weekday? Doesn’t make sense and there’s no space. Dylan’s? Would he be okay with that? Otherwise I have no clue unless we rent somewhere

On the 15&16 idk day plans. I’d like to do movie marathon but Alex doesn’t want Amanda at our place and I don’t have any other places so it’s an issue.

16, Dylan said yes to us staying the night there. I love him (do I? Different essay there) he’s awesome.

17, ren faire day then Alex said it’s okay for us back at my place

18, idk but last free day before working, apartment

19-20 I’m at work, Amanda is out, at my place

21 drive Amanda to airport for 6am flight

Anyway, I guess I’m waiting to hear from momi about the 14th. But idk what to do the 15th. Let’s wait.

So option 1:

13 (14,15,16) 17,18,19,20

Option 2, need to check in if works:

13 (14) 15 (16, 17) 18, 19, 20

If I can’t do momis, then maybe Dylan 14/15/16 or 15/16/17 if he’s okay with it?

So option 1 or Option 3:

13,14, (15,16,17) 18,19,20

[shojizbae]

Min Ho's Madness Party

MinHo x Fem!Reader

masterlist

♨︎☤♨︎✄

From the bubbles birthed a vindictive person. I got out of the bubble bath a different person. I spent the night pampering myself. In more ways than one. Too many sex dreams left my body wired and I didn't need to worry about my volume.

The next day came and didn't pay attention to other people. I spent the day hanging out with Florian. He was actually lovely to hang out with. He admired my paintings until Q rolled up and stole him. I broke out the rest of my supplies and started painting. It was so much more comforting to let my brain turn off for the holiday. I got some lunch with Q, Kitty, and Florian after a few hours of painting. I actually studied a little for the impending exams. I got back in the bubble bath at the end of the day. Tomorrow night two of my roommates would come home.

It was nice spending the day alone in the dorm. I didn't feel like the hermit I was 2 weeks ago. My phone was being blown up the whole time and we were sharing notes and tea. The weekend passed and the girls came home. I made sure to let them riffle through this new closet of everyone's dreams. I made another batch of maejakgwa for them to much on while we catch up on their breaks. I shrug off my break and tell them "nothing special" happened.

They thank me for the treats and disperse throughout the dorm. I receive a text from Kitty to come to her dorm. She insists that I arrive at her dorm in no less than twenty minutes. I don't want to go over because I know Min Ho will be getting ready for his date with Lulu.

It stung.

I did manage to pull on an outfit worthy of sitting in someone's dorm. I put on a pair of leggings and a sweater and pulled my hair up into a ponytail. I bring a batch of cookies that my roommates had yet to devour. I let my roommates know that I'm leaving and began the walk. It started to sprinkle halfway through the trip so I picked up the pace. I wave to Professor Finnerty and he smiles at me. I approach him and offer a cookie which he accepted with a shocked smile. He lets me go through the dorms to the room.

With a knock on the door, I get dragged by my arm into the room. Kitty lets go of my arm when I tell her to. She snatched the box of cookies from my hands and drags me to her room. I was put on Q's mattress across from Florian and Q who were cuddling but facing me. Kitty sat down next to them and push the container of sweets in their face.

"Why am I here?" thunder rumbles in the background

"What happened at Chuseok?" Florian started

"What do you mean?" I reposition myself

"Mon dieu, with Min Ho?"

"Nothing happened." I cross my arms and Q sighed

"Then what's the matter?" Kitty inquires

"Nothing happened." I repeat realizing my mistake "Oh my god, I wanted something to happen between Min Ho and myself."

"You like him? Why?" Kitty sounds reidiculously shocked and I get off Q's mattress and join them.

"I don't know!" I whine and join them with a flop "Hand me a cookie." someone puts food in my palm and I take a pitiful bite, "He repulses me. He's so mean and self-centered. And I like boys with freckles."

"Well, find a boy with freckles." Q states plainly

"Where? I don't go out."

"Well, Min Ho is throwing that rager on Friday."

"Why can't we talk about something else?" I divert

"Because I'm sick of hearing about Kitty's mommy issues!"

"Wait, Momy issues, what mommy issues?"

"Basically, I think my mom has a secret son and I'm like 98.99999% sure that Professor Finnerty is my half-brother. But the real drama is that I sent Dae my mom's necklace for Chuseok and he has yet to respond."

"I thought your mom was dead?"

"Yeah, and his mom died three years ago. I gifted him my mom's necklace but demanded it back when I found out he was cheating."

"So, you gave it back as a peace saying and he hasn't given you anything back?" She nods "Well that's fucking rude." Q sighs

"I'm gonna take Florian to the couch because I cannot be around this again."

"No no, I can hang this up. That's just messed up." Q sighs and get's up

"I'm gonna walk Florian home, you two can bark about this to each other." They walk out holding hands and Kitty and I both sigh and roll our eyes. The door is left open and I can spot Min Ho fixing his hair in the reflection of something in the kitchen. He throws on a pair of shoes and checks his phone before walking out of the dorm.

"Hey!" She snaps her fingers in front of my face, "Don't think about him. I know it's hard but just put him out of your mind."

"But he's everywhere."

"then don't go everywhere."

"That's not physically possible."

"you know what I mean, we'll just come over to your dorm when we want to hang out. There are ways to avoid him."

"Ok, do you want to rant about your family?"

"YES!"

♨︎☤♨︎✄

Nothing eventful happened up until Wednesday. Q, Kitty, and I were walking around during lunch with some smoothies and Kitty is whining about her family and Dae again.

"UGH Kitty all week all I've heard is 'Dae necklace Alex Yuri necklace Alexi, Yuri, Dae You're like a robot that's stuck on loop."

"Or a broken record," I suggest while biting on my straw

"Don't act like you're not a part of this! At least she's multifaceted! All day you're just Min Ho Min Ho Min HO!"

"What?" Min Ho suddenly arrived

"Nothing!" I froze up

"Please they're having a lot of girl drama you wouldn't-"

"Yeah I'm out" Min Ho stated and walked away

"I hate that you have to kind of be misogynistic to tell him off." I whine

"Well, what the hell was that reaction, nothing!" He mocks

"Yeah you really"

"Girl don't get make me get into this!"

We continue to walk through the courtyard and Q instructs us to pussy up.

"Why focus on this when we could talk about what you'll be wearing to Min Ho's Madness party?"

"why would I go to his party when I'm trying to avoid him?"

"Yeah same, Yuri and Dae would definitely be there." Kitty adds

"Well, Yuri is DJing so she'll definitely be there but Dae doesn't party. And at this party you could,"

"Watch Yuri Dj?"

"No both of you guys can find new boys to complain about to me. You could find a new boy to kiss." he placates to Kitty

"Oh my god, you're right. I can't believe I was going to stay at home moping about a boy? My god, I'm turning into LJ."

"What should I wear?" Was the question that triggered a tornado

♨︎☤♨︎✄

I managed to get through Thursday but as soon as classes finished on Friday, Q and Kitty flooded my dorm. My roommate went to her boyfriend's dorm to prepare for the party. So they destroyed my closet for twenty minutes to get me ready for this party. There was clothing all over the floor before they came to a consensus. They found a 3 piece pinstripe suit they really like.

"I just know Flo is wearing something similar so I don't want you to match."

"Aw you've moved on to nicknames,"Kitty and I coo

"Yes, but you're the focus right now." He holds the suit on its hanger and waves it around

"Well if It helps, why don't you slut me up? Like you can really make me appeal to the male gaze."

"No no no, if we're going to get you a date, you need to appeal to the female gaze." He throws the suit on my bed

"I have an idea," Kitty raises her hand timidly "When I was dressing you the other day, it was kind of hard to ignore the lingerie in your closet." I immediately freeze

"What! you had lingerie this whole time and didn't tell me!" Q seems to have gone off the rails as he frantically waves a mini dress around

"Yeah," I roll off my bed and separate some jackets to find the hidden piece "My aunt bough it for me because she thought boys would be tripping over me here. It's never been worn, the tags are still on it." I present the lacy pink body suit.

"What the hell this is gorgeous!" Q throws the dress and snatches the body suit from my hands. "Ok, Here's my thoughts" He riffles through the pile of clothes on the ground to reveal my shoe collection. "We ditch the vest in that suit and put this. Then, we get some heavy punky boots to juxtapose that softness of the pink. Then hmm, I think with the undertones of your skin and the color of the suit we add just a shit ton of silver jewelry."

"Sounds good to me, there's a cool pair of boots under my pants drawer." he opened the box to find some ankle high boots,

"No, you need bigger boots." Kitty comments. She is pulling clothes off the ground and puts them back on hangers.

"If that's the case, I'm kind of scared of these," I show some shiny over the knee boots with some buckles.

"Well, you're facing your fears tonight. We're gonna steam these in your shower so they loosen up. Kitty, we have to get started on your outfit."

We run over to their dorms and start riffling through Kitty's closet. and attack it with the same rigor. We cycle through the same treatment and then we do the same for Q. While Q is getting dressed I do Kitty's makeup and we steam her shoes. She looks so gorgeous. Q helps zip her into her dress while I straighten her hair. Florian comes over to help Q with his makeup and they end up making out so I decide to go get ready.

Once back in my dorm, I am confronted by the mess they left in my room. I take ten minutes to hang everything back up and do a quick vacuuming. I take my boots out of the shower and rinse off. But I realize that I need a much softer body so I take almost twenty minutes to shave. I blow dry and curl my hair with a face mask on and apply loads of perfume. I put oils on my skin so it feels silky smooth and put on that god-forsaken body suit.

It shapes my body well but, it gives my boobs an unneeded boost. I suit then take a deep breath and look at myself in the mirror. I look hot. I look hot! I attempt to convince myself. I tug my skirt up my legs and sip myself in. It's a little short that I was prepared to wear and it was extra tight. That's fine it makes me look hot.

I start my makeup, a smoked-out wing liner that lifts my eyes. I keep the base light but apply a blush high on my cheeks. The main focus is my lips, I used a cherry-colored lip tint to make them look extra appealing. I start picking out jewelry, I'm wearing lots of rings, some silver hoops, and a dainty necklace. I decide that my legs need some love so I find a thigh chain with some stars. I put on the jacket and roll up the sleeves and add some bracelets.

I check the time and see that I'm almost late, the party starts in twenty minutes.

Shit.

I find a thick pair of fuzzy pink socks to give my feet some reprieve tonight. Then I spend ten minutes tugging my boots up. They're so fucking tight. I finally get the zipper up my legs and get thrown back at the force. I finally look in the mirror and straighten myself out. I apply another layer of deodorant and then more perfume then put my belongings in a shoulder strap purse.

I catch a taxi to Rubix and on the ride I see tons of texts I received.

'where are you?' from kitty

'why are u so damn late

'u better not be pussying out' from Q

'they're whining pls hurry' from Florian

I put us all in a group chat and share my location then say 'I'm on my goddamn way.' the driver makes small talk with me while I readjust my many rings. I wish he would leave me alone. We finally pull up to the club and I get out and he shouts something about paying. I just walk up to the bouncer and give him some goo-goo eyes. He lets me through the velvet rope with a smile. I hear the taxi driver shout one final protest before I slip into the building.

From the orange reflective hallway, I hear the music is already blaring as I step out. I hear the opening synth to Streets by Doja Cat play as I take the first step from the massive doorway. I take a deep breath and force the embarrassed smile off my face. I put on a confident bitch face and strut my shit down the stairs.

unbeknownst to me there was quite a situation happening under me. Min Ho was just finishing yelling at one of the bouncers when she walked in. She was dripping with confidence and hot. As she struts past him she smelt one of many expensive perfumes. He followed her to the bar preparing to make a move,

"Hey there pretty lady," when she spun around the pink under layer of hair was the first warning sign. But when he took in her face he yelled in shock.

"Ahh not again!" he made a mad dash as (Y/n) took a sip from her virgin spicy martini

"What the hell was that?" She asked Florian as he slid toward her.

"I don't know, he's been acting weird all night. he's like extra stuck up. I don't know." Q and Kitty approach us

"Holy shit you look hot.' Q states, Kitty merely nods with her bottom jaw slightly ajar

"Do you guys have something a little less virgin?" I hold up my drink

"Oui," Florian pulls a flask from his jacket

"Thank god," I hold the glass out to him and watch as he pours vodka into the mix "I brought some gin just in case," I pat my purse

"(Y/n)! I didn't realize you were so naughty" Q gives me a shocked expression

"Well, when you live in the UK for half a year, you learn how to hold your booze. But in Korea, underage drinking is such a huge no go so I didn't have a reason to drink." I down the margarita without a falter in my expression and place the glass on the table

"La vache!" Florian exclaims

"Alright, let's get this show on the road!" i grab them by the wrists and start to drag them onto the dance floor

"how can she say something that lame and dad-ish after downing vodka like a wellness shot?"

"I don't know mon amour, she's like an onion." I drag them into the booming music. It's deafening and a perfect catalyst for my body. The booze starts to seep into my blood giving me that extra boost. The music feels like it's caressing my skin as I twist and grind to the music. I see a few people eyeing me from the sides on the floor and motion them over. They join me in dancing to the bumping bass.

man, this Dj must have put something good in his mix.

I start to sweat after dancing in the packed crowd so I traverse to the sidelines to get a drink. I order something mango but fiery and fish through my purse so find my flask. I dump out a shot and a half and smile at the flavor profile. The booze only accentuates the sweetness of the mango juice. I decide that I'm lonely and take a lap only to discover Dae whining at Q and Flo.

"Am I interrupting something?"

"We're pretty sure Dae never got Kittie's necklace."

"Oh shit, she's so mad at you man." I snort and take another sip of my drink "You better find that necklace." I empty the glass once again and set in on the table. "Are you guys staying her for a minute?"

"Yeah, we were just making out." Q states with a smile

"Aw, that's kinda gross. can you watch my purse while I dance?" I'm already pulling it off my shoulder and putting it behind the two

"Yeah sure I guess, we'll just be here." Before I turn around they're already kissing again. I gotta find me one of those. I make a dash straight for the center again. As I move my hips to the DJ's rhythm I scan who's feeling me.

One guy is a little too pointy for my liking, and one's a little creepy but right as the chorus hits I find my goldilocks. The DJ. He's got this cool distressed orange sweater and he's playing a nice set. I make my dive. I approach with a smile.

"Heyy," my tipsiness dawns on me. He is so much taller than me right now. i look up at the booth on a platform.

"Hi, you wanna request something?" he asks in Korean

"Yeah, Maria by HWASA?"

"i like your taste,"

"(Y/n)" I tell him plainly, "What your name?"

"Myung." He turns some dials

"Cool name, Myung." I step up onto the platform. At this point, I'm basically screaming over the music. He grabs me by the hand and pulls me behind the booth. There are no speakers behind us so it's just slightly quieter than before.

"I saw you on the floor, you've got some moves."

"Oh yeah," I drop my pitch a little "You want to see real moves?" He transitions from his current song to Maria. I give him a searing kiss and bite his lip tenderly as I pull away. I take a step toward the ledge and aerial off it, those 7 years of gymnastics really came in handy when I want to show off.

The pre-chorus drops with a booming thud as I make it to the center. A circle forms around me I move to the beat. People crowd me but I feel like I'm giving a private performance. It's just me and Myung. right as the Spanish key change is about to hits I spot him from the corner of my eye,

Min Ho is standing on one of the low stairs with a drink in his hand and a clenched jaw. We lock eyes a moment but roll mine at him and find someone cute to grab onto. I find a European-looking kid as the music switches and we dance to the clapping snares. His hips snap in synch with mine. I pull my hair around and turn in circles with him.

The song comes to a close and I kiss him by pulling his tie and push him away by his pec. I make my way to the bar and get something icy. I skip the booze this time and find Q and Florian once again. They never stopped kissing but somehow manage to hand me back my purse. I pull my phone out and witness a string of texts from Min Ho.

I reply with a thumbs-down emoji and finish off my drink. I put the glass on the counter and right as I want to reenter the floor my bladder chooses otherwise. I waddle to a nearby bathroom but groan at the line. I find Myung and he directs me to the staff bathroom.

"That should take down some of the wait time." I skip into the bathroom and lock the door behind me. I feel five pounds lighter after peeing and I wash my hands and put on more deodorant. I readjust my hair and unlock the door.

when I step out Myung is still there, he looks even hotter in the stable dim light.

"Wanna make out?" I suggest and he pulls me in by my waist. I don't have a clue how long we spent just locked together. He felt like heaven against me and the strength he used kept me just barely off my feet. I felt like I was floating. Like I was weightless. Time slows when I'm wrapped in his arms, and I don't mind when his hands start to wander. It's only until we're harshly pulled apart that I return to Earth.

"Are you assaulting one of my guests?" Min Ho yells at Myung before he can protest he interjects "You're fired! Get out!" Myung runs to collect his thing leaving me alone with a raging pretty boy.

"What the hell was that for?" I slap his chest

"Why were you humping that loser?"

"Because I liked it." I drop a hip and give him a smile\

"You're disgusting you know he was trying to grope you? I saw his hand reaching fro your ass."

"I wanted it there," I grunt in frustration and stomp off. I find Kitty who seems past tipsy and talking to some guy in a green jacket. Before I can get to them Yuri shoes him away and give her snacks. They leave the table and I sit on the chair they neglected and angrily pull my flask out. I finish the rest which could only be 3 shots and put my flask back in my purse. The rush of booze burns my throat but I just move through it as Yuri starts her set.

She remixes 'Everybody Wants to Rule the World' and I jump around to the beat. I feel free once again. I shake my hair and my hips to the beat. Man Yuri knows how to mix this shit. Maybe I have a thing for DJ's.

Right as I seep into the rhythm the music is brought to an abrupt halt. Principal Han and Professor Lee stand on top of the DJ platform with the plug in their hands. Oh shit. I make a mad dash to an emergency exit by the staff bathroom. I take the side exit and find a cab two blocks from Rubix. I don't remember making it home but i woke up the next day still covered in makeup but clad in a pair of underwear and a big ass teeshirt.

My head pounds from the gentle sunlight filtering through my blinds.

Oh fuck.

[kotenokk]

frozen 2 section in fantasmic with the momy issues song specifically designed to harm me