#moms pain was so bad she couldnt do the dishwasher today ha. dad doesnt really do much of anything anymore. which. fair.
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Venting. Yay. You guys want to go out for ice cream?
What's the point of all this, man. I am in Semi Constant Pain, I'm exhausted, and when I'm not exhausted I'm manic, and sometimes I'm both at the same time. Music is my favorite thing in the world and yet I don't want to touch my schoolwork. Family's grumpy because I can't tell them what job I'll get with my degree and how much money it'll make. I can't take care of my parents, or my sister, or my beloved like this; I can barely take care of myself.
I feel fucking terrible being envious of the little block gamers, but. They have money. They own their houses. They get to play a game I love with their friends. They get to talk to people as a chat or on a zoom instead of feeling terror from being surrounded.
I don't want a mansion or a bazillion dollars. I just want to be safe. I want everyone I care about to be safe.
#suds soaps#this vent barely feels coherent but whatever its not like im winning prizes for Best Thought Out Complaints#moms pain was so bad she couldnt do the dishwasher today ha. dad doesnt really do much of anything anymore. which. fair.#dads been in a constant state of dying since i was 12 and we barely had money to eat before that#being cheery is hard. moving is hard.#i want to pay for every single person who post those I Need Money funders. i want to help people escape their bad home lives#i want to fund every passion project and plant flowers in the garden. i want our community festival back.#i want to spend the rest of my life writing and playing minecraft and keeping mom from ever having to work again#..no point in ending it. who will take care of everyone? cant screw them over like that. blah. what a waste of a thought#just wish i had something more to look forward to than 'maybe itll get better'#it will. it will it will it will it will it will it will#inhale exhale. put on a smile. love everyone as best you can. walk another mile.
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