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goatsandgangsters · 2 years ago

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FUCK IT, I’M NOT WAITING, SHADOW AND BONE EPISODE 1 LIVEBLOG HAPPENING HERE AND NOW:

I was gonna wait until Friday Night because Friday Night is Special TV Night where I watch my Special Show with my Friday Night Quesadilla because I have Routines but FUCK IT! WHY DEPRIVE MYSELF. I’M DOING THIS NOW.

haven’t even opened netflix yet but the sheer adrenaline rush I have right now from Breaking Routine to do something Because I Want To, wow powerful stuff

let’s gooooo bitch I NEED TO SEE MY BOY MY SPECIAL BELOVED BOY I HAVE BEEN WAITING YEARS TO FINALLY SEE MY BOY show me MY BOY

I open netflix. it is an enormous picture of ben barnes’s face. I yell THAT’S MY MAN. I sit on my couch buzzing with adrenaline. I still have not hit play.

oh good I’m glad they’re re-using the ominous ben barnes voiceover from the very first season 1 teaser. but also I’m skipping the recap because DON’T WORRY I KNOW. I KNOW EVERYTHING

I love that they didn’t make me wait to see my Geriatric War Criminal :3333

THE MAP TRANSITION, YOU LOVE TO SEE IT!!!

oh damn, was NOT expecting to see the creepy 1899 boy seven minutes into the episode. I really thought they were gonna save the kaz backstory for like. deep into the season.

SKDHFGJSFDHG AAAAAND SHE’S GONE

okay I fucking love that they still managed to make the kaz flashback happen in a prisoner transport, just a totally different one, but I FUCKING LOVE THAT THEY FOUND A WAY TO KEEP THE LOCATION THE SAME. A++, VERY BRILLIANT, IT’S DIFFERENT BUT ALSO IT’S THE SAME also protective concerned jesper ;_;

I see the boy :33 trying to be all sneaky and enter this scene at the side of the frame :3333 trying to be all tricksy likE MY EYE IS NOT SO DEEPLY ATTUNED TO HIS DUMB SUNSHINEY FACE, LIKE MY GAZE WOULD NOT IMMEDIATELY SNAP TO THAT BRIEF CORNER OF THE FRAME, LIKE HE COULD FOOL MEEEEEEE you really thought if you kept out of focus I would not see bUT I SEE!! I SEE AND I SAW!! I SAW THE HIM. I SAW MY SPECIAL BABY BOY.

I’ll be honest here, I saw people theorizing way back when “oooooh what if nikolai hired them in season 1″ and I thought that was stupid and born out of this fandom’s Very Boring desire to try and Morally Justify everything the crows do because people are dumb and boring. part of me is Petty and Annoyed that there’s a win for the “noooooo the crows have to be my perfect sweet angels who’ve never done anything wroooooong” crowd

that IS some fucking Eye Contact tho, kazolai real, and THAT’s a win For Me

Petty Grievances Set Aside By How Fucking Perfect He Is, He’s So Good, He’s Immediately So Good, My Beautiful Boy He Is So Talented

I BELIEVED IN PADDY GIBSON FROM THE BEGINNING!! I HAD FAITH WHEN NO ONE DID!!!! I AM VINDICATED, AS I KNEW THAT I WOULD BE!!!!!!!!

And There Was Only One Art Nouveau Bed

shadow and bone showrunners have found the key to making me pay attention to malina scenes: include art nouveau furniture

(I do genuinely think they’re sweet, I Don’t Actually Mind, but I’m legally obligated to do a liiiiittle bit of playful ribbing :p)

wow that handcuff remark, Kazolai bondage when!!! i SAID WHAT I SAID

“this is my mommy’s fancy jewelry actually soooooo” god I love him. I love him so much. I love every second he is on my screen. I Knew It Was Going To Be Big Unhinged For Nikolai Lantsov Hours, But Somehow Even I Underestimated

genuinely, I’ve never understood why Kazper wasn’t The Behemoth Noncanon Ship Of This Fandom. but then again I’ve also never understood why this fandom HAS no popular noncanon ships. their one-on-one scenes this episode were fantastic

I am also no longer kidding about the Kazolai, this is already so much More than I was expecting, why the fuck do they have so much chemistry, this is unfair

The Ravkan Polycule Is No Longer Strictly Ravkan

“that line doesn’t work on me anymore,” Alina dearest it’s never been said on the show before

ANYWAY, THEY SAID MY DARKLINA SHIP TAG, LEONARDO DICAPRIO POINTING MEME

is it time for me to get on my soapbox about how I think that actually the Darkling is the most self-sacrificing character in all of the books (yes I have already written meta about that). dedicating 800 consecutive years to the same never-ending fight, waging the same battle on behalf of your people to the point that you lose your entire humanity and everything that once made you you? literal sacrifice of the self. who else in this series would fight a losing battle for 800 years. MAN IS MADE OF SELF-SACRIFICE AND THAT WAS BEFORE HE GOT IN THE TREE, anyway I should post that spicy meta on this some day

I’m on his side in Darklina Argument #1, you haven’t been in this fight very long girl. come talk to me in a couple centuries

PEOPLE TURNING ON ALINA AND VILIFYING HER IS A PLOTLINE I ALWAYS WANTED TBH, GIRL YOU ARE ABOUT TO LEARN THAT MORALITY IS JUST A MATTER OF PERSPECTIVE AND WHO GETS TO TELL THE STORY

SKJDHFGKJSDFHG MAL PAID THE GUY FOR THE BROKEN POT oh he is such a sweetpea

oh the music when the twins are introduced is SUCH a fucking bop!!!

not gonna lie, I like Pekka’s vest. he’s being threatening and menacing and I’m just like mmmm nice vest. #priorities

OH RIGHT. WYLAN. I was so absorbed in everything Happening that I completely forgot about him, Something I Was Also Excited About

Wylan, honey, he’s wearing gloves, I think he can touch whatever bottles he wants (I am feelings about Concerned Kaz ;_;)

WHAT an entrance Nina!!

I laugh every single time they speak one of the fantasy languages and then switch back and the subtitles say [in English] TECHNICALLY NO, THEY ARE NOT

TWINS GOT A GOOD FUCKING MUSICAL SCORE!!!!!!! it’s no parson’s farewell bUT IT’S JAUNTY AND NAUTICAL AS FUCK

can’t wait for this bigoted otkazat’sya agitator with the fucking audacity to wear someone’s kefta get ripped to fucking shreds by nichevo’ya in approximately 20 seconds

YOU LOVE TO SEE HIM DO SOME VERY JUSTIFIED MURDERS!!!! BITE AND CHOMP AND KILLLLLLLLL

THEY PLEDGED TO FOLLOW ME WHEN I WAS ALIVE THEY TURNED WHEN THEY THOUGHT I WAS DEAD NOW I WILL COME BACK FROM THE DEAD AND LAY CLAIM TO WHAT I AM OWED!!!!!!!!! is what aleks meant to say in the universe where he gets written by black sails writers like he deserves

aaaaauugghhhhh the “this again” I JUST FUCKING THINK. THAT IF YOU HAVE LIVED. THROUGH MULTIPLE CENTURIES OF GENOCIDE. YOU’RE ALLOWED TO SAY FUCK IT, DO SOME WAR CRIMES, AND OVERTHROW SOME SHITASS FUCKIN MONARCHIES. I SIMPLY THINK YOU HAVE EARNED THE RIGHT TO DO THAT!!!!

cook up some dinner ???????????? oh darkling stans, we are memeing the fuck out of that one. aleks. honey. did you think that sounded cool. did you really.

like I said in the tags of the gifset the other day, their perception of nina must be so fucking funny. THE SPY YOU ALMOST MET IN ANOTHER COUNTRY, BUT DIDN’T BECAUSE SHE GOT KIDNAPPED BY MILITARIZED RELIGIOUS EXTREMISTS, JUST WALKS INTO YOUR SUPER SECRET MEETING SPOT IN A CUTE OUTFIT. WHAT DO YOU DO WITH THAT.

nina honey he’s not the love of your life, you’ve known him for like a week and he wanted to kill you for at least a third of it, slow down

BRICK! BY! BRICK!!!!!!

IT BELONGS TO BASTARDS!!!!

I love this gaudy ass fucking coat so much, it’s so perfect

the only thing I love more than that gaudy perfect coat is the gaudy perfect bastard wearing it

I know I still have Seven More Episodes, but like. I do genuinely just want to watch this one again???? that was So Fun. also it took me an hour and 45 minutes because I kept pausing to write my thoughts. if they took two years to release Just This Episode, I’d be like YEAH THANKS THAT WAS GREAT, THAT WAS WORTH TWO YEARS, SATISFYING SEASON, 10 OUT OF 10, I’M FULL AND SATISFIED

#EP 1 VERDICT: FUCKING GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!#I don't Want to put this in The Tags but I want to tag it For My Blog so. oh well.#the main tags move at the speed of light (no pun in-fucking-tended) so. it doesn't really matter #grishaverse #shadow and bone #sab liveblog

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twwpress · 1 year ago

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Weekly Press Briefing #67: October 1st - 7th

Welcome back to the Weekly Press Briefing, where we bring you highlights from The West Wing fandom each week, including new fics, ongoing challenges, and more! This briefing covers all things posted from October 1 - October 7, 2023! Did we miss something? Let us know; you can find our contact info at the bottom of this briefing!

Challenges/Prompts:

There are no open challenges/prompts that we know of this week. Do you have a challenge or event you’d like us to promote or know of one we’re missing? Be sure to get in touch with us! Contact info is at the bottom of this briefing.

This Week in Canon:

Welcome back to This Week in Canon, where we revisit moments in The West Wing that occurred on these dates during the show’s run.

Season 1, Episode 3: A Proportional Response aired on October 6, 1999.

Season 2, Episode 1: In the Shadow of Two Gunmen Part I aired on October 4, 2000.

Season 2, Episode 2: In the Shadow of Two Gunmen Part II aired on October 4, 2000.

Season 4, Episode 3: College Kids aired on October 2, 2002.

Season 5, Episode 2: The Dogs of War aired on October 1, 2003.

Season 7, Episode 2: The Mommy Problem aired on October 2, 2005.

Photos/Videos:

Here’s what was posted from October 1 - October 7:

Amy Landecker posted photos of herself, Bradley Whitford, and their former Transparent co-star Jay Duplass at the Documentary Emmys.

Amy Landecker posted photos of Brad and herself at The Broad Museum.

Janel Moloney posted a photo of her twin sister Carey along with a birthday wish.

Josh Malina posted an infographic encouraging people to donate blood for the American Red Cross, as well as a photo of himself donating.

Josh Malina posted a photo of himself celebrating Sukkot.

Josh Malina posted a photo shoot of himself in a furry coat in support of SAG-AFTRA.

Josh Malina posted a photo of Israel with the caption “Thinking of ישראל”.

Marlee Matlin posted a photo of herself with her dad along with thoughts of him on the tenth anniversary of his passing and a photo of a tattoo she has of his handwriting.

Marlee Matlin posted a video of herself in Love Sign ASL Chicago Bears gear.

Marlee Matlin posted an image that said, “Pray for Peace” along with thoughts for people in Israel.

Mary McCormack posted photos of herself and her daughter Rose at the Leelanau Uncaged festival in Newport, Michigan, along with a video of Rose performing there.

Mary McCormack posted a photo of herself on the SAG-AFTRA picket line with Allison Janney and Richard Schiff.

Peter James Smith posted a selfie from week 12 of picketing for SAG-AFTRA.

Rob Lowe posted a TBT photo of a star-studded list of cast and crew hotel assignments from filming The Outsiders on location.

@twwarchive: October 1 | October 2 | October 3 | October 4 | October 7

Edits/Artwork:

#joshdonna: i’m not moving by @hvnleia [VIDEO EDIT] [Ed. Note: There was an edit by Twitter user @carolshathways we were going to share but unfortunately their account was suspended. You can find them now at @abigailbrtlet.]

Fics:

Presenting your weekly roundup of fics posted in the tag for The West Wing on Archive of Our Own.

Josh/Donna

Change Has Gotta Come by Shonio | Rated G | Josh Lyman/Donna Moss | Complete

I Have This Friend I Call by Juliethebibliophile | Rated T | Josh Lyman & Sam Seaborn, Josh Lyman/Donna Moss | Complete

Errors and Omissions by Chinesepapercut | Rated M | Josh Lyman/Donna Moss | In Progress

i believe in you. i believe in us. by wootcanal | Rated M | Josh Lyman/Donna Moss | In Progress

Snow on the Beach by MatthewsMary | Rated E | Josh Lyman/Donna Moss | Complete [Editor’s Note: While this fic is listed on AO3 as complete, it has continued to update and appears to be a WIP]

Worst Case Scenerio by Tyrols | Not Rated | Josh Lyman/Donna Moss | Complete

Other Pairings/Gen Fic

it started off with a kiss... now it ended up like this by imawkwardlysoc | Rated G | Sam Seaborn/Original Female Character | In Progress

The First Lady by GlitteringNiffler | Rated G | Abbey Bartlet/Jed Bartlet | In Progress

A Stranger Here Myself by JediAnnieScrambler | Rated T | C. J. Cregg/Toby Ziegler | Complete

I'll Call by youvebeenlivingfictional | Rated E | Josh Lyman/Reader | Complete

Multiple Pairings

do you think there’s someplace we could go? by fleurfemme | Rated M | Abbey Bartlet/C. J. Cregg, Abbey Bartlet/Jed Bartlet, Jed Bartlet/Leo McGarry | In Progress

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Twitter: @TWWPress

Email: [email protected]

Feel free to let us know if we missed something, if you have an event you’d like us to promote, or if you have an item that you’d like included in the next briefing!

xx, What’s next?

#the west wing #tww #tww fandom #josh lyman #donna moss #tww fic #west wing #cj cregg #sam seaborn #toby ziegler #weekly press briefing

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faiirytalcs · 2 years ago

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malleficarian:

❛ my my , you’re here . ❜ she turns her wrist , briefly checking her watch , ❛ and right on time , too . well done , luis . ❜ it’s basic behaviorism : reward the subject for doing as they’re told , as is expected of them . it’s worth noting that the grub & pub wouldn’t be malina’s primary choice for important conversations ; it was too … casual , common , and lively . nevertheless , she had yet to find out if her newest project was worth a hefty bill from dining at the house of mouse . rich as she was , the woman had no interest in wasting her resources . ❛ go on , sit . have a drink . ❜ she instructs , a hand casually gesturing for the bartender to approach . ❛ did you clear your schedule ? i’ll be keeping you for a while . ❜

The moment Luis had gotten the invite from Malina, he knew there was no way in hell he was going to be late. And hell was a place he constantly was in. "Of course I'm here, where else would I be?" No where. Absolutely not. Waltzing towards her, he did a cursory glance around the place, a little surprised at the location but knowing a public place was always best for meetings like this. Taking the seat across from her, he tried to act as casual as he could but his heart was starting to race - was he nervous or aroused? It was hard to tell. "I'll grab a whiskey," Luis commented to the bartender that she waved over from where they'd been hovering, ready to run and grab whatever Malina wanted. He didn't blame them. "I'm all yours, keep me for as long as you want."

#;;i love it and i love mommy as does luis #𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃 ;; luis salgado #𝐋𝐔𝐈𝐒 ft. malina saleh

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moonlightazriel · 2 years ago

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Caught /// Azriel X F!Reader

Summary: "Hey , it's ok if you are busy but if you can write please consider my request......After returning from a long mission Azriel and his family had a lovely dinner ( reader and their 2 years old daughter) After putting their daughter to sleep in her room Azriel and reader came back to their room and just being romantic, having sweet talks , telling how much they missed each other , kissing and cuddling and they were having sex and suddenly their daughter wakes up and enters their room and seeing her parents like this she was confused 😂❤ and she started asking weird questions that they were doing and all and then Azriel and reader makes up such a cute and nonsense stories and excuses 🤣.......( smutty, fluff and funny ) ❤ "

Warnings: Just a little Smut

Word Count: 1,5K

Notes: This was a funny one to write. Thank you for your request. 😍

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I heard the sound of the front door opening, and the heavy steps approaching the living room, Aesir immediatly got up, her tiny wings making her a little unstable while she rushed to get to her father, she disappeared from sight, Azriel was holding her while she asked about his trip, he held her tightly , a smile on his face as he told her everything he saw on his mission.

I watched the scene, she was just like him, the same hazel eyes, the same hair, dark as the shadows that rested around him, it was like i birthed a clone of my mate. Az looked at me, he looked tired, he was in a mission on the mortal lands for three weeks, i hated when he had to be away for so long, i missed him just as much as our daughter did.

“Aesir, honey, let’s give daddy some time, he needs to shower before dinner.” I said grabbing the two year old from him, he leaned in, kissing my forehead and silently thanking me. “He will be right back.” Aesir nodded happily and i took her back to the kitchen with me, to finish the dinner.

Azriel showed up again a couple minutes later, he was wearing his pajamas and his hair was wet, i could smell the scent of the soap he used, my mind could only focus on the alone time we would get after dinner, being away from my mate is always an absolutely hell.

“This smells delicious, i missed your food.” Azriel said while he served himself, i placed a plate in front of Aesir and she started to eat, her chubby hands grabbing the food and making a huge mess. “What my girls did while i was away?”

“Mommy and i went to play with Malina and Nyxie everyday.” He smiled at his daugther, every time Az was on a mission, Feyre would take Aesir to the River house to spend some time with her cousins, the trio was inseparable, Lina and Aesir were an absolutely nightmare to poor Nyx, but he loved them really much. She started to ramble about her weeks and he payed atention to every little detail, Az was an amazing father, he was perfect and always did everything he could to make her happy, i loved their unique bond, it was really beautiful.

“These three are so terrible that they even got Cassian tired.” I laughed, sipping on my wine. “I can’t imagine how it’s going to be when Maddox gets old enough to join the gang.” Azriel looked at me, his eyes wide.

“He’s going to be even worse than his father, can you imagine a kid with not only Cassian’s temper but also Nesta’s? Mother help us.” I snorted loudly, we loved our nephew but even his parents were afraid of what he will do once he start walking and talking. We talked a lot more about everything, he pulled Aesir on his lap so they could share a dessert, he played with her and her loud giggling filled the room, my heart was full of love and happiness watching them, the two people that i loved the most in the entire world.

Once we all finished eating, our daugther was almost asleep on her father’s arms, i walked over to them, kissing her forehead and whishing her a good night, Az left to get her ready to sleep while i cleaned everything in the kitchen. I stretched my muscles starting to turn all the lights off, walking to our bedroom in the end of the halloway, i removed my clothes to put on my pajamas when i heard someone behind me, Azriel was standing in the doorway looking at my half naked figure.

“I missed you, your body, your face, your scent, everything.” He said closing the door and getting closer, i could already feel the wetness growing between my legs, his scarred hands grabbed my waist, his nose running up and down my neck while he smelled me. “I was getting insane, i need you.” I kissed him, my hands desperate to grab something, the urge to get as close as possible to him, i could never get enough of him, i waited my whole life for my mate, so i just enjoyed every second we spent together.

He led us to our bed, resting on his elbows to prevent crushing me with his weight, he kissed me again, gently while one of his hands cupped my breast, his index finger moving in circles, making my breath uneven, his lips on mine muffled the noises i was making, we had to be quiet to not wake Aesir.

His other hand slided down my thight, reaching the space between my legs while he pulled my underwear aside, one of his finger sliding inside me, i closed my eyes and tried to contain any moan as his lips started to go down my neck, sucking, kissing and biting. He added another finger while my hand grabbed his clothed cock, moving my hand in the same pace he was moving his fingers, we masturbated each other, his eyes looking at me intensly as i pressed my lips together.

He stopped, he adjusted us, now laying properly on the bed, he removed his clothes and what was left of mine, he got over me again, his shadows turning the lights off, his cock sliding easily inside me, i sighed relieved, while he pushed slowly inside me, we just enjoying each others presence, i caressed the golden thread between us, sending him my love, while he tugged back. I was used to doing this, sending my love to him whenever we get intimate, this would make the moment even more magical than already was.

Maybe it was because he was away for so long, or that he simply shutted them off, but his shadows danced franticly by the door, we didn’t listen the footsteps neither the door opening, we only stopped when the lights were suddenly turned on and her sleepy voice sounded.

“What are you doing daddy? Is mommy okay?” Azriel immediately fell on top of me, his arm pressing my throat, the air getting limited as he tried to cover us, his shadows blocking her view as he looked at me in complete despair, his eyes got even wider as he saw my red face and the struggle to breath, “oh shit”, he whispered before getting off of me, i gasped for air while he rushed to get dressed, i never saw Azriel being so fast, in a second he was dressed and the covers were covering my body, his shadows dissipated and Aesir had a confused look on her face.

“Mommy wasn't feeling alright, daddy was checking her temperature?” He faltered and i had to cough, hiding my laughter as he tried to explain to her what she saw. Aesir rushed to my side, her eyes filled with worry as she climbed the bed, her hand touching my forehead, mimicking what i did to her whenever she got sick.

“Are you alright mommy?” She asked again, i also didn't know what to say to her, my face red as i tried to think of something to say.

“I'm fine honey, your father was just checking, he always wanted to be a healer.” I blurted out and i could see Azriel slapping his own forehead as the words got out. “What the fuck?” he muttered and i shrugged my shoulders, wanting the cauldron to burn me alive. “But what are you doing awake?”

“I heard a noise, i was investigating.” She rested her hands on her hips, and Azriel laughed. “Just like daddy do.”

“That’s my girl, so brave.” Az kissed her cheek, and she giggled, starting to rub her eyes, sleep taking her in it’s arms. “Do you want daddy to put you to bed again?” He asked and she nodded, when they left i got up, putting my clothes on and going after them, i stayed by the door, watching as Azriel tucked her in bed, he kissed her forehead and whispered that he loved her, he turned to me, a smile on his lips as he pulled me in for a hug and we waited for her to fall asleep again.

“Oh Mother, that was awful.” I pointed out, closing her door and going back to bed.

“Why did you tell her i wanted to be a healer?” He laughed and i rolled my eyes.

“I don’t know, i just panicked i guess?” I justified. “My mind literaly stopped working the second i heard her voice.” He laughed again and pulled me closer to his chest, i wrapped my arms around him and breathed his scent.

“I can talk to Rhys to invite her to sleep there tomorrow after the dinner, so we can have alone time.” His fingers traced invisible patterns on my back. “I know he and Feyre won’t mind taking care of her. What you think?”

“I think that i definitely will need a healer tomorrow night.” We both laughed, my whole body relaxed as i just layed in my mate’s arms and slowly the sleep consumed us.

#acotar #azriel #azriel shadowsinger #azriel x reader #moonlightazriel #a court of mist and fury #a court of thorns and roses #velaris #night court #nesta archeron #female reader #rhysand #cassian #fluff #shadowsinger #smut #sarahjmaas #feyre archeron #azriel x y/n

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mistress-alexandria · 3 years ago

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“Li-li…what happened to daddy? Why did he do those things to that man?”

Fallon had finally calmed down and slept after the horrible events in the ballroom. But when Malina returned from helping Alexandria, the little girl had awoken and peeked over at her from Serafina’s arms.

The three women had all exchanged glances before Malina sucked in breath; choosing her words very carefully. “Your daddy is sick, sweet one. The ball wasn’t good for him.” She explained as well as she could. The girl didn’t need to know all the details, nor would she likely understand if told. “There are bad people who want to see people who were at the ball hurt. They used your daddy to do that.”

“Is daddy bad man too?” The five year old looked on the verge of tears again, prompting Malina to move forward and kneel down in front of the child. “No, sweetheart. Your daddy is a good man. He would never want to hurt anyone. Mommy would never be with someone like that.”

Hands lifted to cup Fallon’s cheeks, trying to reassure her with a smile. “You know that, right?” When Fallon nodded slowly, her smile grew. “Good girl.”

“Where’s mommy, Li-li?”

“She is trying to help the man who got hurt, but she’ll be here soon. I promise.” At least, Malina hoped so. “She’s left us in very good hands. These people will keep us very safe, so don’t worry.”

Rising to her feet, her hands went to her hips as she gave Fallon a faux stern look. “Now, it’s very late young lady so you need to get some sleep. Eyes closed.”

Fallon tucked her head and squeezed her eyes shut while Malina and the girls tried to keep from laughing. Serafina ran her fingers through the little girls hair, hoping to help lull her to sleep.

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jaxsteamblog · 4 years ago

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Momtara and Dadko

Click here to read the entire fic on AO3

Content Warning: Suggestive Content

Zuko, as usual, woke up early in the morning. Katara recalled kissing him before he went on his run, but didn’t properly wake up until a few hours later. Normally, Zuko woke her up when he returned, so Katara was confused when her aide came knocking.

After getting dressed, Katara walked into the dining room where Sokka, Suki, and the children were firmly entrenched in their breakfast.

“Where’s Zuko?” She asked.

“He’s not with you?” Sokka asked, glancing up briefly before looking back down to continue feeding Lu Ten small pieces of bacon.

“Clearly.” Katara said dryly, taking her seat.

“Mommy, you are being mean to Uncle Sokka. You should say sorry.” Izumi said.

“It’s okay.” Sokka said quickly.

“It’s not.” Katara said and sighed. “I have been mean. I’m stressed out and taking it out on you, which isn’t fair. I’m sorry Sokka.”

“I understand Kat. I forgive you.” Sokka replied.

“And I’m sorry Mimi. I shouldn’t have yelled at you yesterday.” Katara said, putting her hand on the top of Izumi’s head.

“I forgive you mommy.” Izumi said primly. “Now Kya.”

“I’m sorry Kya. I shouldn’t have yelled at you either.” Katara said, looking at her niece while stroking Izumi’s hair.

“Thank you Auntie.” Kya murmured, looking down at her plate.

“And Lu Ten!” Izumi chirped.

“What did I do to Lu Ten?” Katara asked, tilting her head down to look at Izumi.

“You left him out.” She stated.

“You’re right. I’m sorry Lu Ten.” Katara said.

Sokka picked up Lu Ten, thrusting the toddler over the table. Katara chuckled as she leaned across the corner to kiss Lu Ten. He, with his hands covered in greasy egg, grabbed onto her face as he kissed her back.

“Ew!” Kya and Izumi shrieked together.

Katara leaned back, wiping her face off as the others started chattering once again.

“What did I miss?” Zuko asked as he walked in. Katara turned and was surprised to see him still in his running clothes.

Then Hakoda, Malina, and Bato stepped in after him.

“Lu Ten got mommy messy.” Izumi answered.

“He seems especially skilled at that.” Zuko agreed. He walked to Katara and kissed her cheek.

“Good morning beloved.” He murmured.

“Kisses!” Lu Ten yelled. Zuko smiled and made his way down the table and around, going so far as to kiss Suki and Sokka’s cheeks. As he got to Sokka, he took Lu Ten from his lap and walked back to take his seat next to Katara.

“That’s very cute.” Malina remarked.

“Thank you. It was very weird at first; physical affection wasn’t something I was used to as a kid.” Zuko said, speaking easily enough to keep things from growing awkward.

“I can understand that! South Pole custom seems to be very touchy.” Malina said, playfully nudging Hakoda with her shoulder.

“The first time I hugged Zuko, he thanked me and then shook my hand.” Sokka said. Bato sputtered out a laugh and Hakoda broke a smile.

“Was he always like that?” Zuko asked, looking side to side for verification from the other South Pole members.

“As children, they were handled a lot. It’s nearly impossible to get toddlers through the snow when left on their own two feet.” Hakoda said.

“Katara wore one of those wrap things when the kids were babies. Genius. I think I carried both of them all day sometimes.” Zuko said.

Katara snorted and everyone looked at her.

“One time, Zuko had Lu Ten in a sling during a financial meet and, in his sleep, decided to use his diaper.” She explained.

“Nothing is worse than potty training a child during the dark season in the South Pole when your bathroom is outside.” Hakoda interjected as the others were laughing.

“Paw-Paw, what was mommy like when she was my age?” Izumi asked.

The table quieted and Katara stared at her father.

“Well, I wasn’t around when your mother was five. I was fighting in the Earth Kingdom.” Hakoda said.

“You didn’t see her at all?” Izumi questioned with clear shock.

“Not for many years.” Hakoda said with a shake of his head.

“Sometimes I don’t get to see mommy for a few weeks when I live with daddy in the Fire Nation.” Izumi said softly. “It makes me sad.”

“I was very sad when I couldn’t see my mom or my dad.” Katara said, putting her arms around Izumi and kissing her hair.

“When I’m queen, I’m going to live here and I’ll be able to see Izumi every day.” Kya announced.

“What about me and mama?” Sokka asked.

“You can live here too if you want.” She conceded and Sokka scoffed in amusement.

“Oh, why thank you.” He said and smiled over Kya’s head at Suki.

“I had hoped after the war, I’d be able to live with my entire family in one place.” Hakoda grumbled and Malina patted his hand.

“Tell me about it.” Katara sighed.

“Excuse me, your majesty?” A woman called from the doorway. Katara turned and waved the aide in.

“The Matriarch is waiting for you. And we just got confirmation that the ambassador has entered the city.” She said, angling a tablet down so Katara could see the verification.

“Delightful.” Katara muttered. Then, speaking up, she tried to sound more cheerful. “Time to get dressed!”

More voices than she expected groaned in disappointment.

The first meeting would be a quick, but formal, welcome. In the throne room, Katara had Hakoda and Dong-Lee take their seats first. Then, holding up the thick fabric of her skirt, she stepped up to the platform where her own carved monstrosity awaited her. Kya knelt on a cushion at her side, still on the platform above Hakoda and Dong-Lee. Politics were in everything.

The Ambassador was escorted in and he bowed in greeting.

“Ambassador Yi, welcome to our little oasis in Republic City.” Katara said.

Yi was a stout man, but younger than she expected. He was middle aged with a receding hairline, yet his face was fairly youthful. From his file, Katara knew he was married with three children, all a few years older than Izumi.

“Thank you, Queen Katara.” He said.

“You are here at the pleasure of Chief Hakoda, leader of the Southern Water Tribes, and Matriarch Dong-Lee of the Swamp Tribe.” Katara went on, gesturing with both hands to the other leaders.

Yi bowed again.

“Thank you, Chief Hakoda and Matriarch Dong-Lee.” He said.

“And I would like to introduce you to my heir, Princess Kya.” Katara finished.

A third bow and Kya shifted uneasily.

“It is a pleasure to meet the princess.” Yi said.

“I know you have meetings with us separately, but did you have anything you would like to bring before the triumvirate?” Katara questioned.

“No, your majesty.” Yi answered.

“Then I give you your leave. I will see you at our appointed time.” Katara said. She stood and Yi bowed again, keeping his gaze lowered. The others stood and left, exiting behind the platform before Yi made his way back the way he entered.

Such rituals made Katara feel stiff and irritated; she’d be taking her lunch with the man in a few hours while wearing pants. All of the preceding pageantry struck her as unnecessary.

“He seems agreeable.” Dong-Lee said.

“Well, be careful, he’s from the Upper Ring. There’s been a lot of chatter about pruning the swamp.” Katara said.

Dong-Lee scoffed. “As if the swamp would let anyone do such a thing.”

“Are all the meetings going to be like that Auntie?” Kya asked, tugging hard at the neckline of her dress.

“Not all of them, no. But enough of them to make you grumpy.” Katara said and Kya groaned loudly.

“How does Izumi do it?” Kya whined.

“She’s a lot like her father I suppose. They were born into it.” Katara remarked lightly. Kya groaned again and Katara laughed.

“I wish Thuy was here.” She muttered.

Katara only nodded.

Ambassador Yi met with Hakoda and Dong-Lee prior to lunch, talking about his goals for his appointment and the technical aspects of the placement. The lunch was far more casual, and Yi brought his family. Dong-Lee was attended by her brother and two children, while Malina came along with Hakoda. The rest of Katara’s royal family bustled in and the large table on the veranda was bursting with activity.

Yi and his family were patient through the introductions, though Katara promptly forgot the names of everyone with him. Zuko had a better mind for names and she would have to ask him about it later.

“Ambassador, I’d like to introduce my consort, Fire Lord Zuko.” Katara said, gesturing to Zuko. Yi and his family all gave a hasty Fire Nation salute while Zuko only smiled, holding Lu Ten at his hip.

“Forgive me,” Yi’s wife said, sounding nervous. “But how should we refer to your Highness?”

“Zuko is fine.” He replied and the blood drained from her face.

Katara made a tsk sound and swatted his arm lightly.

“Titles are very loosely held and wielded around here. We both prefer to be on a first name basis, but since we don’t have a family name, I understand it can be awkward.” She explained.

“I do think consort is rather fun.” Zuko said, smiling at Katara, who glowered back at him.

“I was told the Earth Empire custom was a bit formal compared to the rest of the world.” Yi admitted.

“It was the same in the Fire Nation until very recently.” Zuko said.

“I’d like us to be friends.” Katara said. “So I’d love it if you’d use our given names.”

“That would make it easier to know when I’m in trouble.” Yi joked and Katara laughed. His wife looked mortified.

Lu Ten started to fuss and Zuko started bouncing him.

“I think it’s nap time.” He said.

“Thank you.” Katara replied, offering her cheek as Zuko leaned in to kiss her.

“Can we go eat mom?” Yi’s eldest son asked, tugging lightly on his mother’s sleeve.

“Please! This was meant to welcome you after all!” Katara said, shooing them away. Yi’s wife and children walked off, heading over to the serving tables.

“You have a lovely family.” Katara said.

“Thank you. Your’s is charming as well.” Yi said and rubbed his chin. “I hadn’t expected the Fire Lord to be so approachable.”

“He’s a lot like his uncle.” Katara replied.

“Your son looks just like him.”

“Oh yes.” Katara said with a laugh. “He’s a Firebender too.”

“But how lucky your daughter is just like you!” Yi said.

“Hmm?” Katara turned and faced Yi more purposefully.

“I was glad you introduced her first, because my packet was incorrect. I thought her name was Izumi.” He said.

“Izumi is my daughter.” Katara said.

“My apologies. Is that her Fire Nation name?” Yi questioned.

“Yes.” Katara said slowly. “You misunderstand, Kya is my niece.”

Yi’s eyes widened in surprise.

“Then Izumi is not the Waterbender?” He asked.

“No, Izumi is a…” Katara frowned. “She’s not a Waterbender. Kya is my brother’s daughter. She recently came into her bending and now she’s my heir.”

“So Izumi is…” Yi sounded panicked and confused.

“Fire Nation. Completely.” Katara said tersely. “She is her father’s heir.”

“I’m sorry. I am completely embarrassed.” Yi said in a hurry, bowing in apology.

“I can understand the confusion. The inheritance law changed when I was crowned.” Katara said.

“Thank you for your understanding, your Majesty.” Yi said.

“Of course. You should join your family, they seem to be waiting for you.” Katara said. Yi bowed again and walked to the table. Katara watched him for a moment before turning back toward the palace.

She saw Izumi’s face peeking from behind a wooden beam that supported the pergola. As their eyes met, Izumi darted back inside the palace. Katara sighed, a weight settling on her shoulders.

Katara’s meeting with the new ambassador was awkward, but she merely questioned him about his goals. The Earth Empire was still gunning for drilling rights in the arctic, which simply wasn’t going to happen. They also wanted to expand their fishing and research waters, which also wasn’t going to happen. Those two points came up time and again, becoming chronic sores in Katara’s life. In the Poles at least, her people had learned how to live in harmony with the seas. They were also intimately aware of what happened when they tried to tip the balance in their favor. Seas could rise, ice could crack, and hungry things could see better than they in the night.

After the business was concluded, Katara cancelled the debrief with Hakoda and Dong-Lee, pushing it back a day.

She needed to talk to Zuko.

In their bedroom, Katara sat on the bed as Zuko undid his dress shirt. He never dressed down around politicians, despite his insistence on the given name thing.

“Am I ashamed of our children?” Katara blurted as Zuko hung the shirt on the valet rack. He paused, his hands still on the hanger and slowly turned his head around to look at her.

“Excuse me?” He asked.

“Yi thought Kya was our daughter and I couldn’t just come out and correct him. It was so awkward!” Katara said.

“I don’t think that means you’re ashamed of her.” Zuko stated firmly.

“Izumi heard me and she ran off.” Katara said.

“Did you talk to her?”

“No.”

“We probably shouldn’t let that marinate.”

Katara groaned and bent over, holding her head in her hands.

“I am the worst parent.” She said.

“I think we can both agree that Ozai was the worst parent.” Zuko retorted.

Katara lifted her head, keeping her fingers splayed over her mouth.

“I’m serious.” She moaned and Zuko raised an eyebrow.

He brought both hands sharply up to his face, framing his scar.

“So am I.” He said.

“I don’t even consider him a parent.” Katara said, falling backward onto the bed. “He’s a monster.”

“Fair point, yet he still is legally my father.” Zuko said.

“I think biologically too.” Katara added.

“Did you know Toph takes Lin and Suyin to her matches?” Zuko asked.

“What?” Katara asked, shooting her confused look up to the ceiling.

“Lin caught a tooth before she even lost one of her own. It’s nuts.” Zuko said, sitting on the bed beside her.

“And?”

“And she adopted Jae-hwan, seemingly on a whim. No one knows who fathered Lin or Suyin, but Toph doesn’t care because they’d be Beifongs regardless.”

“I repeat, and?”

“And Toph is an amazing mother. Lots of people give her so much crap for simply being blind and having kids, let alone all this other stuff. None of us are perfect, but we’re doing our best. Our kids are great.”

“I know that Zuko. But I don’t act like it.” Katara muttered, covering her face with her arms.

“You’ve been really protective of Izumi about this bending stuff, but have you talked to her about it?” Zuko asked.

“No.” Katara said, her voice muffled.

“I’m telling you, Izumi and Kya love each other. And Izumi is going to be Fire Lord, so it’s not like she’s getting shoved to the side.” Zuko said.

“So what about Lu Ten?” Katara asked.

“Who knows? The Fire Nation hasn’t had a good run with siblings, but Izumi and Lu Ten seem to be fine.”

“Has there ever been a woman Fire Lord? Or a non-Bender?”

“Well. No.” Zuko admitted. “But there’s never been a Prime Minister before either.”

“Obviously I don’t need to protect her, so why am I hiding her?”

“When Kya was born, you were so relieved. I thought it was because you were worried about Suki, but you were so anxious before Sokka texted. Then suddenly everything was easier and Izumi popped out two minutes later. I think Izumi was exactly what you wanted her to be.” Zuko explained.

“What do you mean?” Katara lowered her arms and looked up at him.

“She’s not named Kya, so you didn’t have to go through that. She looks like you when you haven’t been in the sun for awhile, and her hair is just like mine. I remember you talking about how much more manageable her hair was when it started to really grow in.

“And she’s not a Waterbender, so you didn’t have to put her through what you’re going through.” Zuko added softly.

“But Kya’s going to be fine.” Katara said.

“Kya is going to have to live away from her parents more than you think. Sokka has a job in the Fire Nation now, remember? And Suki is still holding onto the flower shop for him.”

“I.” Katara cut off, not knowing what to say.

“Sokka’s really anxious about this. He’s terrified of being away from Kya, because he hated being away from your parents.” Zuko said.

Tears welled in Katara’s eyes and she threw her arms over her face again.

“So not only am I a terrible mother, but I’m the worst sister and daughter too!” She wailed.

“Katara, you know it’s not like that.” Zuko said, rubbing one of her arms.

“I hate that this happened. I hate how everyone makes these stupid choices without me and then I end up doing something terrible!”

“So it’s not your fault?”

“How is this my fault?”

“How is it anyone’s?”

Frustrated, Zuko stood up and walked back to their closet.

“We talked about kids for years because we knew this was going to be hard. And Sokka and Suki could never have expected that their kid was going to be a Bender. And your dad didn’t go off thinking he’d never see his wife again, or that his children would grow up without him.” He said.

Katara sat up, glaring at his back as Zuko picked out a new outfit.

“So it’s me then? I’m the one making everything difficult?” She shot back.

“I didn’t say that.” Zuko replied.

“Then what are you saying?”

“I’m saying this sucks!” Zuko turned around sharply, holding tight onto a t-shirt. “I hate being in Caldera without you for so long. And it’s pure misery when you have the children.”

He yanked on the shirt and rubbed his nose furiously.

“Honestly, sometimes I can’t wait for the children to be grown. Because then I can toss Izumi onto the throne and Kya can move in here and then you and I can finally be together, properly.” He laughed darkly and ran a hand through his hair. “But then I feel terrible because these are my children and I’m already missing out on so much.”

“Maybe we shouldn’t have gotten married.” Katara muttered.

Zuko advanced on her quickly and grabbed her arms, squeezing her hard enough to scare her.

“Don’t you ever say that.” He said, his voice low. “I would rather have died in the Agni Kai than even think you mean that for a second.”

“Zuko…” Katara protested and he shook her once, softly but with urgency.

“Tell me to step down. Ask me. Order me and I would crawl from the port to your throne to become your proper consort.” Zuko said. “But don’t you ever think things would be better had I not made you mine.”

“Stop.” Katara said brusquely, using her forearms to break his hold. Zuko grabbed her wrists, holding them up.

“You gave me your bed, you gave me children. And they are forever a part of me. But you are mine. Just as I am yours.” Zuko kissed her, loosening his grip on her wrists. Katara grabbed his shirt, pulling him onto the bed.

“Do you suppose that was a healthy and loving way to handle our fight?” Katara asked, shaking her hands off in the sink. It was easy enough to heal the minor marks and Zuko examined his chest in the mirror.

“I would definitely say it was loving.” He said and then nodded at his reflection. “But we should probably leave out some details if we bring this up at therapy.”

“What are you so angry about anyway?” Katara asked.

“I am angry, dear wife, that you are in the throes of your righteous fury while I’m also struggling but I feel like I have to hold everything together.” Zuko said.

He had an easy way of talking that made Katara relax. Had it been anyone else, she would have launched right into a fight.

“I’m sorry I’m not being more supportive.” Katara said and moved behind him, wrapping her arms around his middle and pressing her cheek into his shoulder blade.

“Like I said last night, I do understand that this is difficult for you. But I think you need to have a little faith and try letting go. Not everything has to be a battle that you win or lose.” Zuko held onto her arms and tilted his head back to bump hers.

“Fine. So, as a wife first, what can I do?” Katara asked.

“Not much. Summer will be in a few weeks and you get to be Fire Lady again. I’ll be able to breathe once you and the children are in Caldera.” Zuko answered.

“Mom time then?” Katara said meekly.

“Mom and dad time. We’re a team.” Zuko replied.

They dressed and went to Izumi’s bedroom. Apparently, she had run there during lunch and refused to come out.

Zuko knocked on the door and called gently. “Mimi?”

“Come in.” Izumi said, sounding despondent.

Opening the door, Zuko and Katara hesitated before entering. Izumi was on the floor, moving her dolls around limply.

“Izumi, it is time. For.” Zuko paused with performative austerity. “The feelings wheel.”

Izumi heaved a long sigh as she got up and shuffled to her small desk. Pulling open the center drawer, she pulled out a laminated piece of paper and went back to her spot on the floor. Zuko and Katara joined her, shutting the door behind them.

“Okay Mimi, you know the drill. How are you feeling?” Zuko asked as he and Katara sat down.

On the paper was a large circle cut into tiered segments. The wider wedges at the center of the circle were labelled with general emotions like “happy” and “scared.” Things got more specific in the thinner wedges radiating outward.

Izumi pointed with a heavy finger to “sad.”

Zuko worked with Izumi through the process, getting her to be more specific about how she was feeling. Katara stayed quiet, watching her daughter’s face. She was surprised that Izumi identified “guilty” before ending on “ashamed.”

It wasn’t what Katara expected at all.

But she knew exactly how Izumi was feeling.

“Why do you feel ashamed sweetie?” Katara asked.

“Because I’m not Water Tribe.” Izumi said quietly.

“Why do you think you’re not?” Zuko asked.

“Because mommy always says that I’m only Fire Nation. That I’m your heir and that’s it.” Izumi explained.

“Okay, that’s a valid reason.” Zuko said and Katara sighed.

“I say that because I know you’re part Tribal. I want everyone to know that you deserve to be your father’s heir regardless.” She said.

“Why would being Tribal be bad?” Izumi asked.

“Well…” Katara drifted, sharing a look with Zuko.

“During the war, the Fire Nation and the Water Tribe were enemies.” Zuko said honestly. “And a lot of people in the Fire Nation still feel angry about that.”

“So they hate me?” Izumi asked, her voice quivering.

“Oh no sweetie! No one hates you!” Katara said in a rush. “It’s just, they may think being from the Water Tribe will make you a bad Fire Lord.”

“Do you think I’ll be a bad Fire Lord?” Izumi asked Zuko.

“I think you’ll be the first good one.” He said. Izumi crawled onto Zuko, hugging him.

“You’re good, daddy.” She said.

Zuko hugged her back and kissed her hair. “I’m glad you think so, Mimi.”

“Your father is a great Fire Lord, and you’ll be even better.” Katara added, patting Izumi’s back.

Izumi still clung to Zuko but looked over at Katara.

“So it’s okay that I don’t look like you or Paw-Paw?” She asked.

“Of course sweetie! And not all Water Tribals look like me. Some of them.” Katara stopped and took in a breath. “Some of them look like your Gran-Gran remember?”

“And it’s okay that I’m not a Waterbender?” Izumi continued.

“Absolutely. Is it okay that Kya is?” Katara asked.

Izumi thought about it seriously for a moment and then nodded.

“Kya is going to rule the tribes and I’m going to be Fire Lord and then we’re going to take over the world.” She said and Katara sputtered.

“What was that?” She asked.

“Well Lu Ten has to have something and there are Waterbenders and Firebenders in the Earth Empire, so Kya and I are going to take it.” Izumi stated.

“You very much are not, young lady.” Zuko said, holding Izumi up to look at her.

“But daddy, you said I could do anything.” Izumi replied simply. “And grandfather Ozai took over Omashu, my teacher told me so.”

“Okay, we’re firing your teacher for one thing.” Zuko said and Katara gently pried their daughter from his hold.

“Izumi, we’ll have to have a chat about why world domination is not a good thing, but do you feel better now?” She asked.

“Yes mommy. Can I have lunch?” Izumi asked.

“Let’s go see what’s in the kitchen.” Katara stood up and held Izumi’s hand, pausing while Zuko stared off.

“Coming?” She prompted. Zuko shook himself and stood, looking curiously down at Izumi.

“Maybe we should hold off on introducing her to Azula.” He said.

Izumi lifted her head, her hazel eyes shifting in the overhead light.

“I already know all about her. Auntie Ty Lee told me about her when we were on Avatar Island.” She said and then looked toward the door. Zuko, bewildered, caught Katara’s eye.

Auntie Ty Lee? He mouthed over Izumi’s head. Katara only shrugged.

She had her own family problems to deal with.

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#zutara month #zutara #fanfiction #jax writes #modern au #the fic that prompts built #zutara month 2021

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malinastharlock · 2 years ago

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I don't know what to say or do anymore. She calls me by my dead name, I tell her that's not my name. She says I don't care and says it more, I ask her politely to please stop. She laughs and does it more. I tell her again that's not my name and to please stop. She says fine I'll call you "George" (yes, she means it as a slur). I asked her to please stop again. She's says no and she hates my name and will never call me that. I say okay, and stop talking to her. She keeps kicking my chair and demanding I answer her when she talks to me. I stay quiet. She becomes so upset with me she storms off to her room. I hold back my years cuz I refuse to let her see me cry. She continues to yell my dead name down the hall and I refuse to acknowledge her. This only upsets her more. Is there anything I can ever do to help her understand that she's hurting me. Not that I think she actually cares that she is. She's my mother and the only parent I have left and I refuse to give up on her. I love my mom. This isn't new either. She has always treated me like this even before I transitioned. My transition seems to have only given her new fuel for her dislike of me. Nothing I have ever done has been good enough. I did every school sport I could in high school and every after school club I could, nothing. I joined the military just like my dad and received medals and even a hometown hero award, still nothing. I have a son and loving partners who treat me wonderfully and still nothing from her. Now I'm starving myself and trying my best and she still calles me ugliest woman ever and there's nothing I can do except to ask her to please stop. I just want her to love me like a mom should love their kids. It's not just me either. She's done it to both my brothers too. Like I know she has problems, she had ADHD and some type of personality disorder but is there a way to get through to her without medication? She can't even survive without my help. After my dad died she bearly had enough money to make it on her own so I'm here helping her with food and taking care of the house while still working and it's still not enough. I mean if it wasn't for her treating me this way I wouldn't have the thick skin I do now, like there is nothing anyone could ever say to me to actually hurt me cuz none of it compares to what she says to me on a daily basis. I used to think I was depressed and hated myself cuz I was trans and was to afraid to come out. Now I realize that was only half of it. Several people have told me to give up and just walk away, that she's not worth the pain and believe me I have thought about it, but I'm also stubborn as hell and refuse give up on her. One day she will tell me she loves me and I'll tell her I love you too mom (I tell her that all the time, she just replies with umhum) . I just hope it's not the last thing we say to each other.

I'm sorry everyone I'm not in a great mood and I won't be posting anything for a while. I love you all and thank you so much for the love you all show me. Cthulhu knows I have never felt it from my own mother. I'll be back next week. I wish you all the best and hope everyone stays safe.

#rant #transgender #mommy issues #malina #sad

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vickchan2 · 4 years ago

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Alina, the Last (actually the First) Sun Summoner

Corporalki. Etherealki. Materialki.

Long ago, the three Grisha orders lived together in harmony. Then everything changed when the Black Heretic created the Shadow Fold. Only the Sun Summoner, summoner of the light, can destroy the Fold and the Volcra. But when Ravka prayed for a Saint the most, that type of Grisha never appeared.

Some people believe that a Sun Summoner is a legend and can’t be real, but I haven’t lost hope. I still believe that somehow a Sun Summoner will appear to save the world.

- Tamar Kir Baatar

Alina Stakorv / Aang

Both of them...

- Have a unique power that can turn the tide of the war and change the world

- Were chased by dark haired, extremely good looking emos (who happen to have mommy issues)

- Received help from a incredible pair of siblings in their journey

- Were helped by a good looking, charming Prince

- Orphans

- Get a lot of hate (We all love Aang, but the fandom seems to sleep on him sometimes. I really like Alina but she seems to be despised only because of her Malina ending. And before you ask, no, I’m not a Malina shipper)

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degenderates · 4 years ago

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The darkling and alina for the character asks!

LET’s DO THIS-- (also i’m so mad i accidentally already did this but then clicked away and it was gone so this is the second time i’m doing this :sob:)

alina

1: sexuality headcanon BI BI BI (like the song...i think I'm hilarious)

2: otp darklina!!! *heart eyes* as y’all know, this is my brand:)

3: brotp alina + genya & alina + zoya! (though i also ship zoyalina & sometimes genyalina too lol). i also love the tgt gang with harshaw, zoya, genya, david, & mal! (and oncat, we can’t forget our legend<3)

4: notp malina:/ i do like them as friends though! in a fanon universe where he isn’t so clingy.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head though alina loses her sun summoning powers in the fold, she still retains the wisps of shadow control she took from the darkling in s&s! and though she only uses it to entertain the children (not around mal, of course, it scares him), it makes her happy. it makes her remember. what alina doesn’t know though, is by her using this power, like calls to like, and she ends up being a reason the darkling was able to rise again.

6: favorite line from this character either when she says. “and you might make me a monster”, “yes you are infinitely wiser and more experienced...but i am an apt pupil” (i know i prolly misquoted that one lol” or “sure, he was ancient, but could he swim?”

7: one way in which I relate to this character oh a lot... alina’s like my spirit animal. we’re the same age, we’re the same race in the show (wasian) - at least in the show, we’re both in love with the darkling, we’re both self-deprecating and sarcastic...yeah!

8: thing that gives me second-hand embarrassment about this character ugh, when she’s shading zoya and doing the whole “i’m not like other girls” thing in s&b. i’m like, girl! please just grow out of that phase (it’s SO satisfying when she comes into her power<3)

9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? mmm according to fanon, a complete cinnamon roll, but realistically, she’s like 50-50. alina kills people, manipulates people, she’s not innocent haha.

aleksander

1: sexuality headcanon definitely bi or pan!

2: otp also darklina<3

3: brotp is it weird that i want nikolai and him to be friends? (again, i ship them in some aus, but whatever:P)

4: notp i can’t ship him with anyone but alina or nikolai!

5: first headcanon that pops into my head i definitely think he had mental health issues in his youth. and mommy issues. and the two fed each other. one of the reasons that being in a relationship with him is really toxic & hard to navigate!

6: favorite line from this character “the problem with wanting is that it makes us weak” & “don’t let me be alone” 100000% no cap. in those two moments he shows the alina his vulnerability and it’s just...aAAH.

7: one way in which I relate to this character i, too, am in love with jessie mei li<3 no, but in all seriousness, i think there’s an awesome nobility and sense of purpose in the darkling, and i also really value honor & loyalty.

8: thing that gives me secondhand embarrassment about this character i always cringe when he destroys Karamzin. NO boy that is NOT how you get a girl to com back to you:/ get better soon:/

9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? 10000% problematic fave. it’s been established i think XD

thanks for the ask frey!! ask me about a character:)

#darklina #grishaverse #sankta alina #starless saint #frey tag #ask game #wyrmsandrocs #letters

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achy-boo · 1 year ago

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Contact names on each girl’s phone plus moots’s ocs:

Isolabella Tsukii

Leona: Sleepy Kitty

Jack: Epel and Mina's boo

Ruggie: This Fcking Thief..

Malleus: Thorn Prince

Ace: Shitty Asshole

Deuce: Baby Chick

Riddle: Short Tyrant

Cater: Selfie Bestie

Trey: Chef of Heartslabyul

Azul: DNI

Jade: Mushroom

Floyd: Worse Menace than Jeanne

Kalim: Sunshine

Jamil: Dawn's Snake

Vil: Night's Queen

Rook: No

Epel: Jack and Mina's Boo

Silver: Sleeping Beauty

Sebek: Stop YELLING

Lilia: Grampa

Jeanne Keket

Riddle: Tryant

Ace: 2nd Boo(He is mine :3)

Deuce: 1st Boo(He is also mine :3)

Cater: Cay-Cay~!

Trey: Trey the Chef

Leona: Kitty(How did Tsukii bagged him?)

Jack: Jackie(Mina and Epel's boo)

Ruggie: Menace like me :3

Azul: Stay Away

Jade: Mushroom Freak

Floyd: Riddle's thorn on the side

Kalim: Baby Sun

Jamil: Dawn's jelly Snake

Vil: Night's Queen/boyfriend

Rook: GO AWAY :D

Epel: Poison Apple (Mina and Jackie's bf)

Malleus: Tsukii's 2nd Prince(How did Tsukii BAGGED him too?!)

Silver: Sleepy boy

Sebek: STFU Sebek :)

Lilia: Old Man but wholesome

Nightshade Libya

Riddle: Mommy Issues

Ace: Jeanne's blunt bf

Deuce: Jeanne's baby bf

Cater: Social Media Pal

Trey: Chef Trey of Heartslabyul

Leona: Tsukii's lazy kitty

Jack: Mina and Epel's Strong Wolf

Ruggie: Thief of Savanclaw

Azul: DNI(Do not like him)

Jade: Avoid at all costs

Floyd: MENACE #1

Kalim: Pure one in Scarabia

Jamil: Dawn's possessive bf(seen him fight a few times..)

Vil: My Queen/My love

Rook: Stop watching me Rook

Epel: Mina and Jack's deadly apple

Malleus: Tsukii's dragon

Silver: Tired Knight

Sebek: PLEASE use inside voice!

Lilia: Wise man plus menace

Dawn Libya

Riddle: Mama's Boy(I hate that song..)

ADeuce: Jeanne's idiot 1 & 2

Cater: Selfie partner

Leona: Tsukii's Second Prince

Jack: The bf of Mina and Epel

Ruggie: Ruggie the Hyena

Azul: Shady mfer

Jade: No pt1

Floyd: NOPE pt2

Kalim: Jami's king

Jamil: The love of my life

Vil: Night's beauty plus her lover

Rook: STOP WATCHING MY SISTER YOU CREEP

Epel: The bf of Mina and Jack

Malleus: Tsukii's clingy dragon

Silver: Baby...

Sebek: I want to mute him so bad..

Lilia: Father figure to Mina

Moot ocs plus others:

Minako: Bad Witch bitch(In GC), the gf of Epel and Jack(all four girls)

Rosalind: Bitchy cousin of Riddle(In GC), If I dont see her, she never existed(Dawn and Tsukii)

Morana: Dumb bitch(In GC of the girls)

Dimtri: Redacted(In GC), Get away from Night's plush, bitch!(Tsukii, Jeanne and Dawn)

Malina: Jealous bitch(In GC mostly used by Dawn), Can Tsukii eat her already?! SHE IS ANNOYING!(Jeanne, Night and Dawn)

Yui: Mina's sister, Yu-Yu(all four)

Minako, Rosalind, Morana, Dimtri and Malina belongs to @anxious-twisted-vampire

#TWST ocs #Sapphire Lake Dorm #Isolabella Tsukii #Jeanne Keket #Nightshade Libya #Dawn Libya

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lilisouless · 4 years ago

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My mommy ships Malina

I was sure she was not gonna do it but she does.

So proud❤

#malina #shadow and bone #Netlix shadow and bone #Mal x alina

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bluebeardsbride-archive · 5 years ago

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watchlist for 2020 2020 reading list last updated 8.1.2020

I know there aren’t a lot of films directed by women or non-Western directors on this list, so if any of you have any recommendations I would love to hear them! I’m going to do some of my own research, but if you guys know any lesser known ones I’d love to add them to my list!

Faust (1926) dir. F. W. Murnau Rebecca (1940) dir. Alfred Hitchcock Rope (1948) dir. Alfred Hitchcock Secret beyond the Door (1948) dir. Fritz Lang Noita palaa elämään / The Witch (1952) dir. by Roland af Hällström North by Northwest (1959) dir. Alfred Hitchcock 1960s Et mourir de plaisir (1960) dir. Roger Vadim Persona (1960) dir. Ingmar Bergman The Pit and the Pendulum (1961) dir. Roger Corman Cleo from 5 to 7 (1962) dir. Agnès Varda I tre volti della paura / Black Sabbath (1963) dir. Mario Bava Lilith (1964) dir. Robert Rossen Vampirisme (1967) dir. Bernard Chaouat; Patrice Duvic The Satanist (1968) dir. Zoltan G. Spencer Le viol du vampire (1968) dir. Jean Rollin

1970s Le frisson des vampires (1970) dir. Jean Rollin The Vampire Doll (1970) dir. Michio Yamamoto La rose écorchée / The Blood Rose (1970) dir. Claude Mulot Ovoce stromu rajských jíme / Full of Paradise (1970) dir. Vera Chytilová +Trzecia część nocy / The Third Part of the Night (1971) dir. Andrzej Żuławski Les Lèvres Rouges / The Red Lips (1971) dir. Harry Kümel Una lucertola con la pelle di donna / A Lizard in a Woman’s Skin (1971) dir. Lucio Fulci Viskningar och Rop / Cries and Whispers (1972) dir. Ingmar Bergman Diabeł (1972) dir. Andrzej Żuławski La notte dei diavoli / Night of the Devils (1972) dir. Giorgio Ferroni Ángeles y querubines / Angels and Cherubs (1972) dir. Rafael Corkidi The Blood Spattered Bride (1972) dir. Vicente Aranda La morte negli occhi del gatto / Seven Deaths in a Cat’s Eye (1973) dir. Antonio Margheriti Cannibal Girls (1973) dir. Ivan Reitman +Ganja & Hess (1973) dir. Bill Gun La Rose de Fer / The Iron Rose (1973) dir. Jean Rollin Lady Snowblood (1973) dir. Toshiya Fujita +Messiah of Evil (1973) dir. Gloria Katz & Willard Huyck Female Vampire (1973) dir. Jesús Franco Thriller – en grym film / Thriller: A Cruel Picture (1973) dir. Bo Arne Vibenius Bloody Murder / …la main à couper (1974) dir. Etienne Périer +La Bête / The Beast (1975) dir. Walerian Borowczyk Dzieje grzechu / The Story of Sin (1975) dir. Walerian Borowczyk La Marge / The Stalker (1975) dir. Walerian Borowczyk +Sebastiane (1975) dir. Derek Jarman Profondo rosso / Deep Red (1975) dir. Dario Argento +Salomé (1976) dir. Téo Harnadez +Die Marquise von O… / The Maquis of O… (1976) dir. Éric Rohmer The Witch Who Came from the Sea (1976) dir. Matt Cimber The Uncanny (1977) dir. Denis Héroux Death Bed: The Bed That Eats (1977) dir. George Barry Portret (1977) dir. Stanisław Lenartowicz. Escalofrío / Satan’s Blood (1978) dir. Carlos Puerto +Nosferatu: Phantom der Nacht (1979) dir. Werner Herzog Les Sœurs Brontë / The Brontë Sisters (1979) dir. André Téchiné A Mulher Que Inventou o Amor / The Woman Who Invented Love (1979) dir. Jean Garrett +Fascination (1979) dir. Jean Rollin Les héroïnes du mal / Immoral Women (1979) dir. Walerian Borowczyk

1980s Aus dem Leben der Marionetten / From the Life of the Marionettes (1980) dir. Ingmar Bergman La Dame aux camélias / The Lady of the Camellias (1980) dir. Mauro Bolognini Inferno (1980) dir. Dario Argento La nuit des traquées / The Night of the Hunted (1980) dir. Jean Rollin +Dressed to Kill (1980) dir. Brian de Palma Docteur Jekyll et les femmes (1981) dir. Walerian Borowczyk +Possession (1981) dir. Andrzej Żuławski Blow Out (1981) dir. Brian de Palma La morte vivante / The Living Dead Girl (1982) dir. Jean Rollin Tenebre (1982) dir. Dario Argento Lovely Devil (1982) dir. Nobuhiko Obayashi Angst (1983) dir. Gerald Kargl The Gold of Love (1983) dir. Eckhart Schmidt The Legend of Suram Fortress (1984) Sergei Parajanov Body Double (1984) dir. Brian de Palma +Caravaggio (1986) dir. Derek Jarman +Der Rosenkönig (1986) dir. Werner Schroeter Sous le soleil de Satan / Under the Sun of Satan (1987) dir. Maurice Pialat Vlčí bouda / Wolf’s Hole (1987) dir. Věra Chytilová +Babette’s Feast (1987) dir.Gabriel Axel Nekromantik (1987) dir. Jörg Buttgereit

1990s Mirror Mirror (1990) dir. Marina Sargenti +Malina (1991) dir. Werner Schroeter Raising Cain (1992) dir. Brian de Palma The Piano (1993) dir. Jane Campion Little Death (1995) dir. Francois Ozon A Casa (1997) dir. Šarūnas Bartas

2000s The Cell (2000) dir. Tarsem Singh Trouble Every Day (2001) dir. Claire Denis Stages of Mourning (2004) dir. Sarah Pucill Perfume: The Story Of A Murderer (2006) dir. Tom Tykwer À l'intérieur (2007) dir. Alexandre Bustillo and Julien Maury Barbe Bleue / Bluebeard (2009) dir. Catherine Breillat Viola di Mare (2009) dir. Donatella Maiorca Le masque de la Méduse (2009) dir. Jean Rollin

2010s Phyllis (2010) dir. Zina Saro-Wiwa Crime d’amour / Love Crime (2010) dir. Alain Corneau Passion (2012) dir. Brian de Palma Goodnight Mommy (2014) dir. Veronika Franz & Severin Fiala Cosmos (2015) dir. Andrzej Żuławski The Lure (2015) dir. Agnieszka Smoczynska Evolution (2015) dir. Lucile Hadzihalilovic +Raw (2016) dir. Julia Ducournau +As Boas Maneiras / Good Manners (2017) dir. Marco Dutra & Juliana Rojas +Portrait de la jeune fille en feu (2019) dir. Céline Sciamma +Parasite (2019) dir. Bong Joon Ho Darlin’ (2019) dir. Pollyanna Mcintosh Brian De Palma’s Filmography Jean Rollin’s filmography Alfred Hitchcock’s filmography Dario Argento’s filmography

finished A Girl Walks Home Alone at Night (2014) dir. Ana Lily Amirpour Red Dragon (2002) dir. Brett Ratner Faust (2011) dir. Alexander Sokurov

#bookmark #my recommendations #sp

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