#moments before T.O.P happens

[spacetyrantfreeza]

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GUESS WHO’S BACK? BACK AGAIN?

Life is unpredictable. How do you know you’ve made the right decision? Through time you judge and comment others’ life. Is that right? Obv not. But we all still do it. Even with the sign angel over your heady there is no way I am gonna believe you that you never judged or commented on someones life or action.

I am typing that feeling like an old af lady. It’s just that some variable impact on your life and I know that changes you. But would you as a friend stand by someone even if they changed and that change simply wouldn’t click in with you?

That one change? 

Would it be worth it?

Now I saw the gif and I remembered the song loser. Ever feel like a loser?

Huh, who doesn’t?

I wonder what would happen if Seungri hadn’t done the bullshit he allegedly did. He has to accept bigger conequences because “he was someone”.

Would you say you are nothing?

No.

Big bang always cheered me up. So here we go. They cheering me up bc I need them to.

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I came in walking on Daesung and T.O.P arguing about whose hair looks better. You couldn’t stand an watch/hear them argue over something that obv GD is the winner.

They both looked at you.

“Don’t. You. Dare.” they said both at a time.

“Jiyong wins my little boys.”

They knew that you would say that. Of course, since you were no. 1 fangirl and their make up artist. But mostly thruogh the work you developed a bond- making you care very much about them. Them all. Even about Seungri-with whom you were particurally close, since the recent events.

“Did those rashes fade away, Dae” you said knowing ofc you gave hime the best advice.

“NO. THEY ARE STILL HERE.” he said sttubornly, crossing his hands.

He couldn’t just admit the fact that those 3 years of cosmetics school gave you the basic knowledge to help with simple skin problems.

“Tabbi~ You ready for our daily face care? You know those fangirls are waiting for your update. I heard that they want the pink hair back.”

He looked scared at you.

“No. I agreed to do that for th album before the military. I am not doing it again”

You heard he must be in a bad mood, because let’s be honest the crazier the idea the more he liked it ofc. 

Jiyong stepped in with the fancy af look of his.

“OHHHH OUR SENPAIII IS HEREE~~”  T. O.P  had to start.

Jiyong went along with it. 

“ My students bow abowe me, your senpai has comen.” he said bowing back, while T.O.P and Dae started bowing on their knees

Sometimes you wondered how old they really are. Even tho, it was time for make up and you were ordered to make them look young ang hit for the time. They’ve been out of the kpop scene for a long time and it’s gonna be a big bang when they appear on the screens once again. New song is up on the rising and today is the first they are doing after all the years. 

Taeyang was gonna be late because of his family situation at home. Wife was busy and he had to step in and take the time to look afer his child for some time. 

You did your best ot get al those old babies on the chairs to do some magic and put some glitter on them to make them shine

They were out of shape, a little rusty let’s say for the talking shows, but since you heard all of the jokes they were particing and you laughed to all of them, they all thought they were next generation comedians. 

Sadly that was not the case.

You tried hard to catch them up with current popular shit, but sadly you were a little bit behind too. 

So they were very surprised when a cameraman with a very young man holding a microphone came up to them while in changin room/ make up room.  

T.O.P jumped from the chair and hugged Dae who started high pitched screaming. And GD  who just looked at the boy confused af.

Little did they know that that “boy” as they imagined was one of the biggest and the most famous idols at the moment. Actually for a couple of years to be honest.

That was a surprise and a half?

Who is that?

You dare to guess?

[volcanofireflame150]

I Am A Survivor

Ch5; Ch7

Chapter 6

Even though they were only strangers for any one, but for me, I call them all stepfathers, I hung up after we said everything we can about this woman. It is only a matter of time before she escapes prison to make me living in hell because I refused to listen to her. Minseok and Kris remained on both sides of myself, I tell them, "I just want to break my walls before I perform with you guys, I want to show what I am capable of doing." "We are going to help you throughout your struggles," said Kris, "Just know that you can always look for us when you need someone to talk to." I nodded, "Why do I always have a bad feeling that someone would go to Natalie and say everything so she can make fun of me even more." "Why is she like that?" Minseok asked, "Before you arrived, she was the nicest person." "Are you accusing me being at fault?" I asked, in full defense mode, "After all she has said about me, you accused me of her being that way?" "Xiumin, that is one of her triggers," said Kris. He backed up, "That is not what I was saying at all, but the CEO of our company stumbled upon your cover of Bring Me To Life by Evanescence, the moment she heard your voice her entire demeanor changed saying false rumors about you being an addict to something." "None of you believed her, right?" I said.

"Suho is trying his best to never to listen to her," said Kris. I know someone who would put a stop to this all, "I might know someone who can help me with this." "Alright, well when you are done, we will be in the living room," said Minseok. I went to my camaro, I drove to where G Dragon is right now, I know that he can help me with Natalie, after finding out on where he is, I walked in and looks like he is doing a music video of something. I decided to wait for someone so I can ask on where he is. I was looking at the scenery and I was giving bad memories of being in my uncles basement of that day, I turned around to only seeing someone crawling towards me, I backed up to the wall then the music stopped when the look on my face appeared on one of the cameras. I was hearing shouts of people telling me to remain calm and it is nothing but an act, I felt a gentle pressure on my shoulder and was immediately pulled away. I knew it was all an act but my trigger reponse was overpowering everything that was trying to get myself to calm down. I looked on who pulled me away, he greets himself, "I'm Daesung, you know G Dragon?" I nodded, "I was looking for him before that happened. I always hate it when that happens." "I'm guessing you tried to push through the trauma response, and it overpowered everything else, right?" he asked.

Here comes the man himself and some 3 other guys, but I noticed the tall guy, "Seunghyun?" "Kimberly? What brought you here?" he asked. I gulped, "I came to see on who is Natalie's sibling." His expression darkened, "Where is she and what has she done?" I told him what has been happening the last time we contacted each other, G Dragon asked, "How do you know each other?" "Remember when that woman tried to force me to date you?" I asked him. He nods, I continued, "She did the same thing with T.O.P without knowing that he is the brother of Natalie, right?" "Yes, unforunately," he said, "That woman has groomed her into being that way so she has Suho under her finger 100%. I am going to try my best to stop from being a tyrant to you." "Thank you so much," I said, "Anyways, um, since I am calm for right now. May I know the remaining 2?" So Taeyang and Seungri, I noticed that the woman was going to get me with Taeyang, thank goodness I was taken away from her before she did anything else towards me. I told T.O.P on where she is at currently, he immediately bolted out the building to get her, I guess? I don't know, I didn't want to find out on what he is going to do to her, I drove back to the dorm and as soon as I did, I immediately received a message saying, "Thank you for telling me on what she was doing to you."

I went inside hoping that it is only the Chinese members, I peeked in the living room and sure enough they were watching something. I went to go sit on my lounge chair to only meet with no one talking to me which is what I want when I come back, no one was watching anything, so I hoped on to my PS3 to play Skyrim, I was doing some quests for the Companions which I totally forgot what I was doing so I checked my quest log on what I was doing, I was doing well when Kris asked, "What kind of game is this?" Then when they saw me brutally killed someone by either arrow or the slow-motion scenes. Xiumin asked, "Is this all throughout the game?" "Yes, it is," I tell him, "But I'm not one this for that." I turned up the volume of how magical and calming the music Skyrim is without the fighting, they got the idea on how much change this game has for someone like me.

After all of that, everyone came back from doing whatever they were doing, I was focused on my game of Skyrim, I didn't know that the members were in the kitchen when I was playing Skyrim. My panic started to form up, I dropped the controller hoping that it was loud enough for someone to hear that, Xiumin came running so did Baekhyun? Xiumin asked, "What's wrong? Ah shoot we left you alone." "Wait, didn't you want to be left alone?" asked Baekhyun. Since my PS3 was connected to my phone, I was getting a called from a blocked number, I pointed at it, Xiumin sees it, "It's her isn't it?" "Her or that police officer," I said, "I don't want to answer that." "Let it go then," I hear him say, "There is no way that she would bail out of jail and call you." "Like I told you and Kris, that police officer would do anything for her because she wants me to witness that I would miss a perfect moment in life," I said to him. Baekhyun was disgusted on now noticing how much trauma that I had to deal with on a daily basis, "She wanted you to do what with whom?" "Thankfully, she tried to do that so many times with me," I tell them, "They are very protective of me, you saw on who came into your company right?" "T.O.P, why?" he asked. Xiumin answers, "His sister is Natalie, why else would she had that scared look on her face."

After 3 calls from this blocked number, I got a call from Jeremy, I answered, "Hello?" "She tried to call you, right?" he asked. I said, "Yeah, you don't think that she broke out of jail, did she?" "That's what we fear that officer did that," said Jeremy, "But, don't worry we already contacted his department telling them on how disgusting she is. They'll be in touch with you soon, not her, so that was probably them calling you, not her. But we told them on why you would never answer was because of her, they will get in contact with you soon enough with a different number." "Why me? I am not the one who through her in prison," I said. Jeremy said, "Well, we had to because we tried to call your uncle and he started to say weird stuff like I'll make sure you get what you want." "Okay, never mind, I get it now," I said, "Don't worry I'll tell my stepmother and he will listen. As he keeps saying that she is more terrifiying than his leader." "I mean, wait, you have no clue as to where your actual mother is don't you?" asked Jeremy. I shook my head saying, "I wish I could ask Stephanie but she would never be there during the day." "Which leads me to believe that she is not who she is that she is saying who she really is," said Jeremy. I tried to listen to that mumbo jumbo, Xiumin cleared it for me, "She is faking on who she is." "Thank you Xiumin," I said to him.

"Maybe she is your mother that is trying to mother you but she has other duties to be doing," I hear Jeremy say, "But let's get this out for you to realize on who she really is, you know that your Uncle Astaroth is an Incubus, right, and he said that she is more scary than anybody that is above him, and the name she is using. Stephanie, why does that ring a bell?" "It rhymes with something? I mean I ran into a very stunning woman named Avenna," I said, then noticed on who I met, "Oh my goodness, I met Athena, the Goddess of Wisdom." "So, that leaves Stephanie," said Xiumin, "It's sounds like Persephone. She's your mother?" "I don't think that's right," I said to him, "Astaroth would never do that to Hades. Wait, she is way much taller than my father and uncle. So she is a Titan." "Nyx, the Titan Goddess of the Night," said Baekhyun, "So, wait does that make you a demigod?" "I guess so," I said to them, "Which explains on why she never stays during the day, she comes back during the evenings so there is that."

[sindrafalcone]

Adventures in Babysitting pt. 3

Fandom: BIGBANG/ Choi Seung Hyun x reader

Synopsis: A babysitting job turns into something unexpected…

Warnings: Fluff for now, but it will evolve into something steamier in a later chapter. You’ve been warned!

Author’s Note: It has been entirely too long since I updated this story! My apologies... But I finally think I’m un-stuck on the storyline, so hopefully I can finish it in a reasonable amount of time. Thanks for sticking with me, and I hope you enjoy!

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. This story contains fictional representations of real people. None of the events are true. This is from an American standpoint, so some of the situations may not happen the same way they might in Korea. I make no money from the writing of this fictional work.

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You had only made it about half a block before Seunghyun stopped dead in his tracks. When he quit moving you did as well, peering at him to see if he was okay. Between the dim city lights and his face mask you couldn't make out very much, but he was still holding on to your hand so that had to count for something. Before you could ask him what was wrong, he spoke softly. “This place that you're taking me...” his deep voice trembled a little bit. “Is it going to be very busy?”

You were a little taken aback by the clear apprehension in his voice. But then you remembered how happy he'd been when you had given him his space back at the museum. Maybe he just didn't like crowds.

“Sometimes it can be.” you admitted. “Usually around lunch time, but this late at night I doubt there's very many people in there. It's just a small Mom & Pop shop.” He seemed to take a moment to think about what you said & you patiently waited  for what he was going to say next. Perhaps he was getting cold feet about having dinner with you and just wanted to go back to the hotel instead.

“I still want to go with you.” he said, as if reading your mind. “I just... um, do you know if they have a private room?”

“Yeah...” you answered him hesitantly, not really seeing where he was going with this. “There's a medium sized room in the back of the restaurant that can be reserved for parties or large groups.”

“Do you think maybe you could call ahead and ask if we could eat in there?” Seunghyun shifted his weight back and forth from foot to foot nervously. “I'll be happy to pay extra if they want. Or if that's not available, we'll need a table in the very back, preferably as far away from other people as possible.”

You looked at him closely for a bit before taking out your phone. You decided he was being completely serious and you had the fleeting thought that he might actually have a phobia about this. “Okay... give me a minute.” you relented & you could finally see the tension in his shoulders relax as you did so. He let go of your hand so you could make the call and you found that you missed his warmth more than you wanted to admit.

Luckily for him, you were very good friends with the owners. You had been eating lunch there almost every day since you'd found the place a couple years back. The food was good and relatively cheap, especially once they had started giving you the 'family discount' even though you had tried to object. In a matter of minutes, you had secured the private room for you and Seunghyun to use. You brought up his willingness to pay a fee, but the owner just laughed at you. Telling her that you'd be there soon, you hung up only to find him looking at you anxiously.

“We can use the private room.”

“Oh, good.” he sighed, relief obvious in his voice. “That usually works out much better.”

You really wanted to question him about this whole thing, but decided that it might be better to wait until you were actually in the restaurant or maybe even back at the hotel before deciding to pry into his apparent agoraphobia. This time Seunghyun held his hand out for you to take & you stared at it in shock for a few seconds before gleefully interlacing your fingers again and setting off once more towards your destination for food.

When you rounded the corner and pulled him in the direction of the restaurant, he stopped once again.

“Pho?” he said, a curious tone to his voice. “You're taking me out for Pho?”

You turned to face him, not letting go this time. “Is that a problem?”

“No...” he smiled & you could see it in his eyes, despite the face mask he still wore. “I'm pleasantly surprised. That's all.”

“Well come on then.” you told him, playfully tugging him along towards the door. “I'm starving!”

He chuckled and the two of you tumbled into the warmth of the Pho shop holding hands, laughing and pink cheeked from the cool outside air.

“You didn't tell me it was a date!” the woman who stood at the counter exclaimed loudly. “_______! You should have warned me.”

“It isn't... we're not...” you stammered, looking down at your interlocked hands. You attempted to pull away, but Seunghyun just held tighter and chuckled louder.

“Nonsense! I know a date when I see one.” she dismissed as she motioned for the two of you to follow her to the room in the back. “I wondered why you wanted to use the party room. You should have just said, dear!”

Thankfully you noticed that the restaurant was mostly empty as she walked you through it, so there weren't very many witnesses to your embarrassment and none that you recognized.

She opened the door and gestured the two of you inside. “Here, just sit at the smaller table in the middle of the room. It will be more intimate that way.”

Beside you, Seunghyun made a small choking sound as she continued fussing. “I wish you had told me it was a date when you called. I would have set up some candles or something.”

“It's fine.” you told her, voice cracking a bit. “It'll be fine just like this.” You all but ripped your hand away from Seunghyun's and started to take off your coat, but before you made it very far you felt his hands slide over yours to remove it for you. Then he draped it carefully over a nearby empty chair before he set about sliding out of his own outerwear.

“Such a  gentleman!” the old lady exclaimed, hearts practically dancing in her eyes as she backed out of the room. “I'll be back with your drinks shortly.”

As soon as the door closed behind her, you rounded on Seunghyun and hissed. “What the hell was that?”

He held his hands up innocently, face mask still dangling from one long-fingered hand. “What?” he asked, laughing slightly, his eyes lit with mirth.

You plopped down into a chair inelegantly. “I was trying to let go of your hand and explain to her that this wasn't a date...”

“Is it not?” he interrupted, setting his mask down on top of his coat. “She's right, it does look like a date. And, you have to admit, it's slightly less awkward than the truth... that you're my babysitter.” he put a special emphasis on that last word that made you squirm in your seat a little bit.

“True...” you agreed.  “I suppose when you put it like that...”you started, but Seunghyun held his hand up to you again just as he had earlier in the evening at the hotel. And, just like before, you stopped talking.

“But that isn't what's important right now.” he told you as he pulled out a chair and sat down in the seat across from you.

“It isn't?”

“No.” he said, his face utterly serious, all traces of joking gone. “It's probably best that she thinks it's a date. But I have to tell you something before she gets back.”

You leaned forward, resting your elbows on the table so you could give Seunghyun your full attention. He leaned forward as well, until your faces were mere inches apart.

“___________.” he whispered your name. “I have a confession to make. I'm not...” he took a deep breath and blew it out. “I'm not who you think I am.”

“A rich, foreign guy with impeccable fashion sense who knows his wine and appreciates contemporary art?” you quirked an eyebrow at him, spilling all the details that you'd managed to piece together over the past few hours you'd spent with Seunghyun (or at least all the observations that you were willing to admit to him, anyway).

He flashed you a dangerous smile. “Well, yes... I am those things. But that's not all of who I am and you need to know the vital details before...”

The door the room slid open again, interrupting whatever Seunghyun had been about to say & he cursed quietly under his breath. You watched as he leaned back in his seat and winced, seeming to brace himself for something he knew was inevitably coming. From the pained expression on his face, it didn't look as if he expected it to be pleasant.

“I've got your usual right here. Iced Vietnamese coffee and a glass of water. I brought the same for your gentleman, I hope that's okay.” the older lady said as she bustled over towards you. “Now, do you two love birds need menus or...” her voice trailed off as she finally made it to the table and caught a clear view of Seunghyuns face, without his mask. “Oh my...” her voice faltered, the tray immediately started shaking in her hands.

“Ma'am...” Seunghyun said tightly, pinching the bridge of his nose with his eyes still closed.

“Oh my goodness!” she practically yelled, her voice echoing slightly in the almost empty room. “Y- y- you're... T.O.P!” she whispered those last three letters as if they were some sort of secret.

You just looked between the two of them, completely lost as to what was going on. “Um, Mrs. Tran?” you placed a hand carefully on her arm to get her attention away from Seunghyun.

“Yes, dear?” she asked, still looking at him with sheer disbelief written all over her elderly face.

“You might want to set the tray down before you drop it.” you told her gently.

“Oh, yes... good idea.” she replied, voice weak.

She did finally manage to set the tray down on the table with a little help from you.

Seunghyun sighed, opened his eyes & smiled at the old woman. It was a polite smile, but tight. Something that someone who hadn't spent much time with him probably wouldn't notice as a fake smile, but you could see it nonetheless.

“Mrs. Tran...” he soothed, having picked up her name from when you'd said it. “Tonight, I'm not T.O.P. I'm just Seunghyun, trying to enjoy a normal date with the lovely ________,  here. I'm happy to sign as many autographs as you want and I'll even mention this restaurant on my Instagram if you'd like a boost in business. But I'd appreciate it if you could keep my visit here a secret for now. And please, no pictures.” Seunghyun gestured over to you. “I'd like to keep our date as private as possible.”

You were so confused right now, but Mrs. Tran seemed to understand what was going on. It was as if a light bulb immediately went off over the little woman's head and she smiled knowingly. “Oooohhhhh, I get it. Don't worry, you aren't the first celebrity we've had in here. It's just been a very long time and you caught me off guard, that's all. I know how to be discreet.”

“Thank you.” he said with a little bow towards her that made her giggle like a school girl and blush.

“Now that's settled...” she clapped her hands together excitedly. “Menus?”

“I think I'll trust __________ to order for both of us. She obviously knows this place quite well.” Seunghyun said with a wink in your direction.

“Um...” you faltered, still reeling from their entire conversation, not to mention the fact that he had just referred to you as 'lovely'. 'Celebrity?' you thought quickly to yourself. 'What the hell is going on here & what have I gotten myself into?!?' you cleared your throat awkwardly.

“Is there anything you don't want to eat?” you asked him. “Or are you allergic to anything?”

Seunghyun smiled. “I'm allergic to peaches & I don't eat intestines. Other than that, I'm fair game.” he said, already reaching for a glass of water from the tray.

You nodded at him at turned back to face Mrs Tran. “Just double my usual then.”

“So...” she pulled out an order pad and pen from her apron. “A double #4 and two medium # 45's?”

“Actually, make those #45's a large please. We're both kinda hungry tonight.” you said without thinking of the implications of that sentence.

“Oh, I bet you are.” she sassed under her breath as she walked away, causing Seunghyun to almost snort water out of his nose. Mrs. Tran merely hummed happily to herself as she walked out of the room. As soon as the door shut, you could hear her yelling in Vietnamese, presumably to her husband who was in the kitchen.

You briefly thought about immediately grilling Seunghyun about this whole “celebrity” business, but as you remembered the look on his face as he braced himself earlier, you paused. You never wanted to see that look from him directed at you. So instead, you settled for pouring the coffee that had just finished steeping over the ice & sweetened, condensed milk in the other glass.

“Are we going to talk about this or would you rather pretend that whole scene never happened?” you asked, not trusting yourself to look at him.

A few seconds ticked by before he answered quietly. “You'd be willing to do that? Just ignore everything she said about me?”

You shrugged, stirring your coffee to combine it with the milk. “I mean... I'll admit to being curious. But it obviously bothers you & I was just fine with not knowing before.”

Seunghyun sighed heavily before pouring his own coffee. “Right now, I'm just Seunghyun to you. A rich, foreign guy with impeccable fashion sense who knows his wine and appreciates contemporary art.” he smirked. “If I tell you everything, that changes.” he said, his voice melancholy.

“It doesn't have to.” you told him softly. “Let's try this... You tell me your secret, and I'll tell you mine.” you said, finally looking up and locking eyes with him.

That statement seemed to intrigue him and he arched an eyebrow up at you. “You have a secret double life too?”

“Saying it like that makes it sound like I'm a superhero or something.” you laughed & smacked him playfully on the arm. “But, yeah... there are things that you don't know about me yet. Maybe not as big of a bombshell as yours, but still... something that might change the way you see me too.”

“How about we wait until after dinner?” he asked tentatively.

“Sounds like a plan.”

Interrupting the conversation, Mrs. Tran came back into the private room, bringing two large bowls of pho over and deposited a plate with bean sprouts, sprigs of basil and quarters of limes on the table; along with four egg rolls and two bowls of dipping sauce.

Seunghyun inhaled deeply. The aroma of the broth and the slices of rare beef and shrimp wontons floating atop the long rice noodles making his stomach growl once again. “This smells amazing.”

Mrs. Tran just giggled at him again. “You know, I didn't even realize Bigbang was in town...” she started before he held up a finger to his lips.

“Technically, we're not.” he whispered. “We're just... having a bit of a vacation that's all. Very hush-hush.”

“Ohhhhhh.....” she nodded knowingly. “I guess everyone needs a break sometimes. Well, I will just leave you two alone. I'll be back later to check in on you.” and without another word, she was gone.

Seunghyun started plucking the basil leaves off one of the sprigs, rolling them up and then ripping them into little pieces and dropping them in his soup while you watched him, completely mesmerized by the movements of his fingers.

“I guess you've had Pho before then?” you asked, taking an egg roll from your plate before tearing it in half, dipping it into the sauce & taking a bite.  

Seunghyun nodded, “It's been a while though. So, thanks for bringing me here.” he told you sincerely, picking up an egg roll with his chopsticks and dipping it before taking his own crunchy bite.

“Show off...” you muttered, grumpily picking up your own chopsticks and spoon just to show him that you did, in fact, know how to use them.

Seunghyun merely laughed.

The two of you spent the next hour simply eating and discussing the art and artists from the museum exhibition. Conversation flowed between you effortlessly & before you knew it, Mrs. Tran was bringing in the check and fortune cookies.

Seunghyun pulled out his wallet and when you tried to object, reminded you that you'd paid for the taxi earlier. You caught a glimpse of the black card he held between his long, slender fingers & swallowed hard, nodding your head in acceptance.

You both made the decision to take the fortune cookies back to the hotel and, after Seunghyun spent some time signing the promised autographs for Mrs. Trang, you left the restaurant the same way you'd come in... laughing and holding hands.

Only this time, you were headed back to the hotel and a discussion that could possibly change everything between the two of you.

[purple-baby-d]

a good man.

Choi Seunghyun (T.O.P.  — BIGBANG) x female reader.

Genre: I don’t know, it’s kinda angst, but also fluff and then it gets kinda smut... I’m a mess but whatevs.

Word count: 2,994.

Content: rich!top, gambler!gdragon, heartbroken!reader, college friends, descriptions of domestic violence, top being a hella interesting and caring man, vanilla sex (love making), unprotected sex, just the fluffy smut I needed to write as soon as zyanya told me she needed a good top reading material.

Brief: as you finally run away from your years-long toxic relationship, your best friend is right there to pick you up, and some feelings might bloom all over again once you let your hearts speak.

Dedicated to @theravengoddess​ 💜

"Do whatever you want, but leave me out of it!", you yelled, shutting the door closed as you left the apartment you and your troubled ex-boyfriend lived in, rain falling over your shoulders and your luggage as you cried silently. Where did it all go wrong?, you asked yourself, trying to understand why Jiyong, your former couple, had fallen into the darkest roads, and it was his short-tempered mood and up-to-the-clouds ego that led you both to self-destruction, and you knew it was over a long time ago.

But still, you somehow wanted to blame yourself for it.

Running down the roads of that small neighborhood you lived in, you sobbed to yourself, wanting to get as far as possible from that misery you left at your apartment. The buildings slowly started looking nicer as you kept running, ending up on one of the nicest neighborhoods of your city. As you walked in front of a nice restaurant, you bumped into a tall man, who sadly you recognized as your best friend, Seunghyun.

"Y/N? Princess, you're soaked!" he told you, giving you his old, rusty leather jacket to protect you from the cold night you ran into. "Why are you crying? What happened?", he kept asking, concerned by the tears that kept streaming down your face, not really knowing what to do anymore. "Come on, tell me something, please".

You just laid your head in his hands, reuniting every last strength of yours to tell him about the worst night of your mid-length life. Jiyong had bursted into your lovenest, the one you've shared for years now, looking desperately for money to pay his debts. You walked out of your workspace after hearing his whole rendezvous, the scandal making the neighbors concerned as things kept crashing on the floor, breaking into little, tiny pieces of glass as he then repaired on you. He shook your shoulders, asking you where you'd left the money you were saving for your years-planned dream vacations with him. You knew exactly what happened: he was gambling again, even when he told you he would stop after losing his dream car to it.

You told him to stop looking, that he wouldn't find it and he was definitely not using it, but you knew you were up to no good when rage got the best of him, combined with the drinks he was having back at that illegal casino he loved. He pushed you to the floor and kicked you out of the way once you tried to stop him. Still in pain, you got up and grabbed the bags you'd packed weeks prior in case of emergency, the money he was desperately looking for safe in one of them. You left your old phone at the apartment, along with everything he could locate you with. And although he deserved it, you still cried thinking about the years of your life you wasted on him, hoping he could change somehow.

Hoping he could become the good man your mother always said you deserved.

"God... I'd kick his ass, but that would lead him to know where you are", Seunghyun sighed, looking at you as his thumb stroke your cheek, weeping your tears off. "Don't cry, princess, you're breaking me slowly", he begged you, holding you close without caring about getting his expensive designer clothes wet or damaged. In that moment, he cared solely about you, about how you were dealing with finally leaving the toxic relationship you've kept yourself in for the last few years, at some point even thinking of marrying the guy who had just hurt you phisically and emotionally. "Come on, you can stay with me for as long as you please", he offered you, looking down at you with a smile. "Are you hungry? Wanna grab some food before we go?", he asked softly, to which you couldn't say no. Even though you weren't in the mood, you were starving, and the mixture of all the time you spent running combined with the nice smell flooding your nostrills thanks to the restaurants that surrounded you made your mouth water.

He ordered takeout as you waited in his black sports car, the heat was on as he tried to keep you from freezing, his jacket still over your shoulders as you watched him through the window. You met Seunghyun years ago, in college, to be precise. He was a natural hardworker, the best in his classes, the most promising future from our generation, and he stood up to that title. He started his own business, dedicated to funding different medical researches and environmental causes, such as cleaning the oceans or preventing deforestation. That was his happy place, knowing he was doing what he could to help, and he was tremendously well-known amongst the Korean community, earning several awards and rename because of it. Still, he was sweet, kind, polite, humble... everything your mother could wish for in a husband for her daughter.

You still couldn't understand how his only friend in college was a humble girl from a working class family, let alone how he still was single at his thirty-two years of age.

He sighed as he got in the car, touching your forehead gently to check on your body temperature, his concerned expression somehow making you feel safe. "You're still quite cold, but at least you won't get sick", he told you, his deep, raspy voice making you smile with the words it pronounced. "Thank you, Seunghyun", you muttered, making him smile to you in return. He drove down the roads that lead to his apartment as the city lights made the tamished glass of your window look quite artistic, and the raindrops that stuck to it started blurring as he sped up. Some low-fi music playing in the background as he looked ahead, his hands shaking on the steering wheel until he finally turned onto the underground parking lot of the building he lived in. He parked the car and got out of it, taking your luggage out of the car and taking it upstairs as he walked next to you, not letting you move a finger.

You gasped as the elevator led you to his apartment, the penthouse of one of the fanciest buildings around the whole city. Still on the minimalist spectrum, it looked so fancy and elegant, just like its owner. "Mi casa es tu casa, princess", he told you, taking your luggage to one of the rooms. "Get yourself comfortable, you can use the library as your workspace, and I'll settle a room for you. Until then, you can sleep on mine, I sleep on the couch most of the time, anyways". Without letting you hesitate, he left your bags on the laundry room, washing them over since they gained a certain smell because of the rain.

You noticed he wasn't the average bachelor, even though he lived alone, he still managed to keep everything nice and clean. He then grabbed something from his office, handing it to you. "Use this", he told you, handing you a new phone. "It's my old phone, I also have a spare computer in case you need one. It has a new SIM card and my number's saved on it. It's yours". I nodded, taking it in my hands as I sighed. "Thank you", I muttered. He showed me a little grin, a slight chuckle coming out of his throat. "Is it all you know how to say?", he said, making you smile as he kneeled in front of you, caressing your cheek. "Mine is yours too, princess. You won't need anything as long as I'm here".

There was this tiny moment of tension, you felt like he was way too far from you. The way he made you feel suddenly reminded you of the way you felt about him years ago, that slight crush you developed in him that you immediately faded away with the fear of losing your best friend. Your only friend. But the way he looked at you made you sense something else... something new.

His phone rang, and the caller's ID made him clench his teeth at the most opportune moment. "I'll pick this up, you should take a shower. You can use my clothes for now, my sweaters will probably fit you like dresses", he smiled a little for you, and you nodded, doing as he commanded. He got up from his spot in front of you, picking up the call and walking away from you far enough for his voice not to sound as clear as if he talked in front of you, but you still could hear every word. "The fuck do you want, Jiyong?", he growled, the rage burning through his eyes. "I have no fucking idea, she doesn't pick up her phone and that means she wants to run away from you, so stay the fuck away from her!", he yelled at the phone. "I'll pay every single cent of your goddamn debts only if you promise you'll disappear", he snarled again, making you confused. "I'll find her, and when I do, I'll do what I should've done from the very start, what I didn't do because I cherished our friendship". You then entered the shower, letting the water run over your skin and the noise keep you from listening to the conversation Seunghyun kept on the phone. You washed your hair, appreciating how everything was made to your tall friend's fit, having to stretch out your hand to reach the shampoo.

You got out of the shower, wrapping a towel —a very long one— around your chest to cover you up while you looked for something to wear. You grabbed one of his oversized sweaters, the smell of his cologne making you obsessed with it. Just as you expected, it looked like you were wearing a dress, covering up to the middle of your thighs, giving you some sweater paws which you folded while combing your wet hair. You decided not to wear underwear, since you were dressed enough for it not to be obvious. But as you got out, you could tell he was still on his phone.

After one last "get lost", he hung up, sighing as he rested his back on the wall and your curiosity started shooting up like fireworks. He then got back to you, the rage you sensed in his voice not showing in the comforting smile he dedicated you. "Come on, let's have dinner", he invited you, getting two glasses and some chopsticks out of the kitchen, he then sat down with you, sighing as he served a glass of wine to the two of you from the bottle he bought, not knowing if you were in the mood for soju and deciding to go for the safe choice, your favorite wine. He served even portions of food for the two of you, again not letting you move a single finger to help him. It made you upset, but you couldn't deny how touched you were by the way he was treating you. He caressed your cheek and smiled at you. "Be my guest, princess", he told you with a smile.

You bowed politely at him, grabbing your chopsticks and having a bite of the food he'd bought for you, having you moaning in pleasure at the delicious flavors invading your tastebuds. It was so good, and he made you so happy you nearly forgot what you were about to ask him. But once he'd had his last bite, you took a deep breath and looked at him. "Seunghyun, what were you and Jiyong talking about?", you asked, after a soft "eung?" came out of his full mouth when you called his name. He then took a deep breath and a sip of his glass of wine, turning to look at you. "How much did you hear?", he asked you, concerned. "You said you would find me and do what you should've from the start".

He then sighed, his sight going down to the floor. "Princess, do you remember how you met Jiyong?", he asked softly. "I met him at a party in the dorms", you answered. "He was the host of that party, and he told me to invite you because he thought you were pretty", he told you. "Since he was my senior, I respected his order and did what he said, but the truth is I didn't want him to get anywhere near you... because I was falling in love with you".

You looked at him, shocked. Why was he saying those things? How could he ever fall in love with you? That wasn't the line he drew when you met Jiyong, not even before. But then, I got it: Seunghyun found it difficult to express his true feelings with words, if not to express them at all. He was tender and loving, but when it came to expressing his heart, he wasn't that much of an expert. "But I saw you were developing feelings for Jiyong too, so I stepped back and gave you the freedom to do your life however you decided to do it, because I knew you were strong enough to be good by yourself", he explained, breaking your heart in two as he muttered his point of view with nostalgia. "I wanted you to look at me in other way so badly, but I didn't want to force my feelings into you, nor to ruin our friendship. So I made my vows, I would stay away from you and Jiyong hyung, but I would always take care of you, and so I did".

You took his hand in yours, not really knowing what to say. Your feelings were mutual all along, but you were both so scared to lose eachother, you never thought about letting them bloom. How could you make up for the time you've lost? You were all grown up now, the age for joyful childish dates leaving you behind as soon as you started getting bills to pay. But neither of you cared about that, but about the way the other was feeling. So as Seunghyun leaned closer to you, you leaned in as well. "But I always wanted to be a good man for you, princess", he muttered.

Your lips then met, in the softest yet most special way yours had ever been kissed. His lips were soft and tender to yours, and the way they could naturally move with each other made the two of you know it was worth the wait. No matter how long it has been, you deserved this. You deserved eachother. You broke the kiss, looking for air to breathe as you didn't know how to function anymore as for doing such a simple thing. You looked at him, knowing that you wanted more, that the two of you did. He took your hand and pulled you to his lap, his lips meeting yours again as he held your waist tenderly, and your arms wrapped around him as he lifted you up, walking the two of you to his bedroom and laying you down slowly in his bed. The soft feeling of his sheets under your skin making you smile as he leaned down to kiss you again, holding up the weight of his body as he straddled over you. His lips started leaving kisses down your body as he took off his shirt, later on taking off his sweater from you, biting down on his lip as he realized you were naked, but then undressing himself completely so you were even.

You crawled up to his lap, his throbbing erection making direct contact with your dripping core, and you couldn't handle the foreplay much longer, none of you could. So he did it, right there, he guided you until you sat down on his length, taking it completely once you sat down on his lap, his lips connecting to yours as you kept a slow pace the whole while. You kept going up and down, feeling every single inch of his as he groaned, enjoying your tight, wet core more than he could ever express. You've had sex with Jiyong plenty of times before, but having sex with Seunghyun was different for one single reason: it wasn't sex, you were making love.

He kept up to your pace, respecting it as much as he could, and when the two of you reached the edge, you collapsed in his chest as he collapsed in the bed. You laid over the bed again as he got down to your core, eating out all of your arousal and the combination of his climax with yours. He didn't care, he found it so fantastic he actually could give two shits. He wanted you to feel comfortable, and the moans you let out of your mouth let him know you were enjoying it. Once you were clean, he got up and you grabbed his cheeks, kissing him for what felt like forever. But it felt good, it felt right.

It felt like that was where you needed to be.

"I'll make you fall in love with me too, princess", he told you, but you shook your head in denial. "I fell in love with you a long while ago, Choi Seunghyun", you muttered. And with a little smile of his, he covered the two of you with his bed's sheets and held you close to him, taking a deep breath as everything finally felt like it was the right path to follow, the two of you together at last. And as you were about to fall asleep in his loving arms, you muttered one last sentence.

"You're the good man I needed".

It’s short and not so smutty as I’ve been doing them lately, but I hope you like it! :)

[lovingmybaealways]

1: My First Meeting with My Bae

First chapter of a story about my bae.  Contains fluff and romance but future chapters contain smut so read at your own risk!

Looking at my watch, I realized that I was late for my bestie’s birthday party.  I take out my cell and call her as I walked towards the club.

Ji Woo answers her phone and I could hear barely hear her with all the background noise as she asks “Honey, are you coming?”

“I'm just walking in, where are you?”

As I walked through the doors, the loud music drowns out her answer.  Since I couldn't hear her, I decide to hang up and try finding her on my own.  I weave through the crowd and circle the dance floor but at just under 150 cms, I couldn't see over anyone.  See a empty chair by the speakers, I decide to climb up to see whether I could spot her from there.

Just then, I lose my balance and start falling.  I shut my eyes and shriek, thinking I was going to hit the floor.  Instead, I hit a warm surface, and feel as if I am suspended in mid-air.  A tantalizing spicy and musky smell fills my nose, and I slowly open my eyes.  The first thing I see are warm brown eyes with a furrowed brow looking at me with concern.  As I keep staring at him, I see that he has multiple ear piercings, a well-defined jawline, platinum blonde hair and was absolutely drop-dead gorgeous!  My knight in shining armour lowers his head closer to me until we are almost nose to nose and asks  “Are you okay?”

Overwhelmed with how close his face was to me, and conscious of the fact that his lips were only inches from mine, I couldn’t respond.  I could only gaze into his eyes as I felt my heart flutter and my cheeks flush.  Suddenly I realize that I am cradled against his well-defined chest, and held princess-style by his muscular arms.

He frowns slightly as he looks down at me, starting to look concerned as I wasn’t answering. Again he asks “Are you okay?  Are you hurt anywhere?”

“I...I’m okay” I finally answer.  “You can put me down”

He smiles, and his eyes crinkles, making him look even more adorable.  He let me down slowly, allowing my body to slide down his on the way to the floor.  I could feel every inch of his hard body against mine and my face turns beet red with embarrassment and excitement. When my feet finally hit the ground, I unconsciously take a stop back.  I bow to him and say “Kamsamnida.  If you didn’t catch me, I would've gotten hurt.”

“Cheonmaneyo.  I saw you climb up the stool and was worried you might fall or get hurt so I came over just in case.”

“Well, thank you again.”   I smile and turn to walk away.

“Wait...” He grabs my hand and prevents me from leaving.

I turn around, surprised by his warm grip.  He didn’t let go, but actually moves both his hands to sandwich mine in-between his.  I look up at him questioningly.  

He gazes into my eyes and says “I should properly introduce myself.  My name is Dong Young-bae. I saw you as soon as you walked into the club and would like to get to know you better.  Can we be friends?”

Being from Canada, I hear these types of pick-up lines all the time and thought he was only wanting to score tonight.  I was really attracted to him and thought he was cute, but I wasn’t looking for a one-night stand.  So I just smile and say “Thank you again for saving me but I have to go find my friend now”.   I gently disentangle my hand and walked away.

Minutes later, I finally found Ji Woo and her friends in the corner.  “Happy Birthday Ji Woo.  I am so sorry I was late.  My flight was delayed so I only just dropped off my luggage at the hotel and headed straight here.”

“That’s okay.  I’m glad you are here now.  Let’s have fun tonight and I will help you look for a place to live tomorrow.  These are my friends Sung Ji Ah, Lo, Kim Dae and Park Hyun Jae.  This is Honey, my best friend who has just moved here from Canada.  So since everyone is here, let’s party!”

We order a couple rounds of drinks, toasted Ji Woo and hit the dance floor.  After about 6 songs or so, we head back to our table, out of breath.  A few minutes later, Dae screams and starts fanning herself with her hands.

“What’s wrong Dae?”

“OMG!!  Do you see who is here?  BB!!  And Young-Bae is looking this way!!”

All the other girls including Ji Woo started fixing their hair and make-up and were shaking in excitement.  I looked at them confusedly as I had no idea what was going on.  “Who?” I asked.

“Big Bang, the kings of K-Pop.  And they are all so damn gorgeous!" explained Ji Woo.

"Eek!! They are heading this way!!” shrieked Dae.

We all turn around to look at the 5 guys approaching us.  I was surprised to see that one of them was the same man who had saved me earlier. Though all the guys were handsome in different ways, the only one I could really see was Young-bae.  He was really gorgeous with that platinum hair, brown eyes, and full lips that were currently smiling.  I continued looking at the rest of him, and noticed a tattoo peeking out of the side of his oversized white tank that showed off his broad shoulders and muscular arms...and down to his tight pants which clearly outlined every part of him.  Remembering the feel of his body from earlier, I blush and looked down.

Moments later, a pair of boots enter my vision, and I heard his sexy deep voice say “Hi again.  I was wondering if my friends and I can join you guys tonight.”

“Of course you can.  We would be so honored” my friends exclaim since I didn't say anything.

I felt someone sit beside me.  I turn my head slightly and look up into the warm gaze of Young-bae. He smiles at me and waves to a server who immediately brings over several bottles of champagne.

Everyone introduces themselves, and I meet the rest of the band:  Ji-young,  Seung-hyun (T.O.P.), Seung-hyun (Seungri) and Daesung.

"So, do you two know each other?" Dae asks as she looks between me and Young-bae curiously.

"Yes and no" explains Young-bae. "Honey had a small accident when she got here and I helped her out, but I didn't catch her name. I was worried I may have offended her so I thought I should come by and explain myself."

"Ooooohhh" cooed my friends "that is so sweet..."

I could feel my face turning red and didn't know what to say to this.

Young-bae turns to me and says “Mianhaeyo.  I didn’t mean to come on too strong earlier and scare you.  From the minute I saw you, I thought you were someone special and I wanted the chance to get to know you better.  I want to be friends long-term”

“Yes Honey.  Please forgive Youngbae.  He's never had a girlfriend and he has never shown any interest in any girls before so you must be someone special.  Plus he doesn’t know how to act around someone he likes.  Give him a chance please!" begged his band mates.

I look up at Young-bae from under my lashes, blush and smile.  “Okay.”

Young-bae blushes and smiles back at me while our friends exploded into cheers.

We spend the next few hours drinking and dancing.  A slow song comes on, and Young-bae takes my hand and pulls me onto the dance floor.  He wraps his arms tightly around me and pulls me close to his body.  I place my left cheek on his chest and melt into him.  His arms tightens, and he rests his cheek on the top of my head.

“Are you okay?” he asks softly.

“Ummm.  This feels nice.” I say as I start rubbing my cheek against his chest, and running my hands up and down his back.  I had let my inhibitions loose as I was slightly drunk and jet lagged.

Young-bae leans back slightly and looks down at me.  He lifts my chin up so that I was looking up at him.  He asks "May I kiss you?"

I hesitate and then I slowly nod.

Young-bae lowers his head towards mine.  Nervously I watch his lips get closer and closer.  I feel his breath on me, and then his lips were on mine.  He kisses me softly, just light little brushes of his soft lips.  I moan, and his kiss becomes harder and more demanding.  I feel his tongue brush against my lips, asking for permission to enter, and then plunders its way in.   My tongue touches his and he moans and deepens the kiss even more.  He grabs my hips and pull them forward and up to meet his. I could feel a hard bulge against me, so I go up on my tip toes and press harder against him.  He nips at my lips and kisses me until I am breathless.  He pulls back a bit and rests his forehead on mine, breathing heavily.

Young-bae moves his lower body away so it was no longer touching me and explains “I need to calm down before we get off this dance floor otherwise everyone is going to know how excited I am.”

I blush and nod.  After a few minutes, we leave the dance floor and meet up with our friends at the table.  Young-bae is still holding my hand when we sit down, so I try to pull it away but his grip just tightens.  He interlaces our fingers together and leans over to whisper in my ear "Now that I've caught you, I'm never letting go." and then kisses me on the cheek.

"Ooooh. Way to go Young-bae!" yells Seungri.

Our friends are now all heckling us.  My face is bright red by now.  "Stop!! You're embarrassing her.  Show some respect to your Agassi" orders Young-bae as he pulls my head down to his shoulder and wraps his arms around me.

Ji Woo stands and pulls me up "We've got to go to the little girls room" and drags me off.

Once in the washroom, Ji Woo turns to me "So what's the scoop?  Didn't you say you just met?  This seems to be happening pretty fast.  You aren't usually like this!"

"Well, Young-bae is a little assertive." I say.  "I am really attracted to him - more so than anyone I've ever met.  I didn't expect things to progress this fast.  I thought I would get to know him first and see how things go, but he..."

"He what?" demands Ji Woo.  "Did he do something to hurt you already? If he did, I 'm going to kill him no matter who he thinks he is!"

"No!  He didn't do anything bad!  It's just..." my voice then lowers "he's already kissed me when we were dancing.  And it was amazing...I have never felt this way...it was like what you read in romance novels where you kiss and there are fireworks!"

Ji Woo looks at me as if I am crazy.  Maybe I am as I've never been the one to be excited about a guy - not even with my ex-boyfriends.  Ji Woo then sighs and says "As long as you are happy.  At least I can say that the relationship thing in Korea is a bit different than Canada.  Don't get me wrong, you still have one-night stands and the such, but he's already telling his friends to call you sister-in-law which means he is at least somewhat serious about you."

Ji Woo opens up her purse, and takes something out and thrusts it into your hand.  "Here.  You might need this later!"

I look at what she gave me and immediately hold it back out to her "Ji!! I don't need this.  You know I'm still a virgin!  Nothing is going to happen!"

Ji Woo pushes it back to me and tucks it into my purse.  "I'm not saying that it will happen tonight.  But considering how assertive he is, and how you are already looking at him with stars in your eyes, I am sure it will happen at some point.  It is better to have protection around just in case."

I don't say anything but leave the 2 foil packs in my purse.  We head back out to our table and find that the group is playing a drinking game.  As I sit back down beside Young-bae, he grabs my hand in his.

As I am not 100% familiar with the Asian style of games, I lost quite a bit though Young-bae was a gentleman and helped me drink some of the shots.  The more Young-bae drank, the more affectionate he got - often brushing back my hair from my face, stroking my hand, and giving me little kisses on my hand and cheek.

After another hour of drinking, we were all fairly drunk.  Ji Woo had already passed out on the couch. so we decide to head out.

I thought I would take Ji home but her friends said that they would take care of her since I just arrived in town, and my hotel was in the opposite direction.  So I saw them off in a cab.

As I turn around, I see Young-bae and his group of friends at another cab.  Ji-young' arm was over Young-bae's shoulder and was being helped to the car when Seungri hugs Young-bae from the back and put his hands in his pockets.  I smile at the obvious affection between the group and turn around to flag a cab.

Just as the cab stops, Young-bae jogs up to me.  I look up at him and say "Oh, I thought you were leaving with your friends."

"I was just making sure the cab driver got the address right since the guys are pretty drunk.  I was going to see you back to your hotel first."

You smile at Young-bae and say "It's okay. I can get back on my own.  You should go home as it's pretty late."

Young-bae grabs my hand, opens the car door and climbs in after me. "You're my girlfriend.   I have to look after you.  I can't let you go home by yourself this late as it isn't safe.  Don't worry, I will take you back to the hotel and then head home."

Chapter 2: First Night . . . First Round

[shimmerjjang]

VIP Diaries: (Meeting Seungri!!!) The Great Seungri Show in Manila 2019

Hello 안녕 안녕 shimmers and VIPs! Wow, I’ve been wanting to publish this post for a while now because this experience I had during The Great Seungri Show in Manila is a FIRST in my whole life as a BIGBANG VIP! I met Seungri and I got the sweet sweet chance to be in a photo with him. Not a standee, not a poster but the real Seungri!! Gurlll, I could go on and on about this but let me compose myself for a bit and talk about The Great Seungri Tour which happened in MOA Arena last January 19, 2019.

So, if you know me or if you’ve been following my SNS and happened to see one of my posts from last year, you’d know how much I loathe this area. I swore I won’t even go anywhere near Mall of Asia after the trauma I had from this horrible incident. And after that, I never attended any sort of event if it’s held around this area.

THIS IS MY FIRST TIME back here in months. Only BIGBANG can bring me back! The bitter memories are now replaced, thanks my Panda Seungri!!

This VIP concert experience is made possible by K-Music Insider! I’m beyond grateful for this chance because the truth is, my budget didn’t allow me to shed 10k upfront that time for the VIP seats and photo-op opportunity. I would’ve settled for a cheaper lower box ticket but I still made sure I hop into giveaways with the goal of getting a photo-op pass in mind. And dear heavens K-Music Insider blessed me with one! 넘너무 행복해 ㅠㅠ

Gates opened at 7pm and I entered the venue at around 7:15. There weren’t crazy lines so I just went straight to the entrance. There weren’t any chaos (thank goodness) and I know it’s a good thing, but I’m kinda sad too because we weren’t able to fill the entire arena. The show was announced late so many VIPs weren’t able to prepare them fundsss (including me haha)

BUT when the show started, it didn’t feel like the arena isn’t full! It was a whole new party out there!! Just exactly as how I expect a BIGBANG concert should be. I mean, Seungri is a total charmer and I’m sure all VIPs know that he’s the best at sweeping the crowd off their feet compared to the rest of the members. Seungri has been my bias wrecker since 2012! Oh well, but yo gurl is tough and my heart for G-Dragon won’t be swayed by anything!!!! \\(^^,)//

Here are some fancams I managed to take. I know, I wasn’t able to take that much because I really want to savor the moment. Also, this is my first time to attend a concert without my sister or cousin (huhuhuhu) so I don’t have someone to take turns with recording. But then again, all throughout my life as a K-Pop fangirl, I have learned how important it is to really get into the moment instead of recording each and every part of the show. So yep, enjoy my mini fancams! 

Opening MV - Where R U From

BANG BANG BANG

Intro Talk (Some in Tagalog)

GG BE

If You

Where R U From

Fire - 2NE1 Sandara 

I am the BEST - 2NE1 Sandara

Go Away - 2NE1 Sandara

Dahil Sa’yo Tagalog Cover - Pandara (Seungri & Sandara)

Seungri calling his mom (haha!)

Tagumpay (Seungri’s self-composed Tagalog song LOL)

We Like 2 Party

셋 셀테니 (1,2,3)

In My World

I’m so proud of Seungri! This is his first ever solo world tour and I can see that he did so well in pleasing and wowing the crowd despite the absence of his hyungs. 

Did you watch the whole video? BOYYY I CHOKED WHEN HE SLAYED THAT TAGALOG SONG!! I swear that song by Inigo Pascual annoyed me for a while because I hear it everywhere. But gurllll, who would’ve thought that I’d learn how to love it. I’ve been singing it subconsciously right after the concert. I mean, I’m gonna be honest, he sounded more native than Sandara and Ryan Bang (he showed up briefly on stage too along with Anne Curtis) LOL

Dara was also a guest for Seungri’s show. Well, Sandara has always been a steady guest whenever BIGBANG would show up here for a tour! That’s OG YG Family for you, children! The 2NE1 songs she performed were immensely nostalgic. How can my eyes well up over happy songs? I’m still hoping for a 2NE1 reunion to fulfill my empty Blackjack heart! :(

Seungri has always been the life of the party and he’s so good at being in variety shows! That’s what he served us during his concert. For a short moment we all thought we mistakenly entered a comedy bar, not a concert LOL Seungri made my stomach burst out of laughter the entire night. He’s just GOLD! He even savaged his fellow BIGBANG members in front of us. haha! Ang lakas ng loob kasi everyone’s in the military haha

Seungri showed us funny photos of every BIGBANG member for him to roast... EXCEPT for T.O.P... So naturally, us VIPs will ask and look for him. When he wrapped the photos up without including TOP, all of us went “Where’s TOP?!!!” I honestly thought he’ll just brush it off, considering all the crazy controversy surrounding TOP, I won’t be surprised if he’ll just ignore us. But Seungri didn’t. He heard us and he gave us a very reassuring answer.

VIPS: “TOP!!! TOP!!! Where’s TOP?”

SEUNGRI: “Ah, TOP? He’s fine! I just wanna say he’s okay.”

ME: Wooooh!!! OMG OMG *hyperventilating*

SEUNGRI: “He’s super okay. Yeah. He will come back soon, don’t worry!”

VIPs: *crying and going wild*

SEUNGRI: “You know what, now in BIGBANG, TOP is MOST OKAY! hahaha We are all okay..”

ME: LAUGHING WHILE CRYING UGLY TEARS

Watch the full clip of that comedic/unexpectedly emotional part here..

The entire show lasted for around 3 hours, I think. Seungri gave us major K-Pop throwback as he also sang a lot of his great hits from his early solo career (Strong Baby, Gotta Talk to U, GG BE..), as well as BIGBANG’s! It was an amazing show full of nostalgia. 

Here’s my only #OOTD shot from the concert, together with my fellow mod at BIGBANG Philippines - Chi! 

We, along with the ladies of 2NE1 PH, as well as other VIP friends lined up for the photo-op right after the concert. Each photo with Seungri will be done by 10s and we’re fortunate enough to be the last ones in line so there were just 8 of us.

AND NOW! TADAAAAAA!! Here’s our official group photo courtesy of LOONG Studio, the official promoter for Seungri’s Manila leg of the tour.

I mean, let that sink in for a short moment. Gurl, MY EXISTENCE GOT PULVERIZED! I wasn’t sure of what was happening and if it really was happening at all. For the first time in my 10-year VIP fangirl life, I was able to see and interact with a BIGBANG member. INSANE!

As I was walking towards Seungri, my mind went blank. I just stretched my hand for him to shake and I told him that he did great on stage. OH DEAR I remember him just looking back at me, smiling and thanking me for coming to his show. I’m in a trance! And because I went straight to him and approached him first, I totally forgot everything I initially planned. I have my phone in hand to secretly record everything just for my personal memento but totally forgot!! Also planning to stand beside him (I was 2nd in line so I could’ve done that) but chose to just talk to him first so by the time I was done talking, everyone got settled already while I’m still lost in front of him! Also planned to stand on his right side because that’s my freakin’ angle but totally forgot!!! HAHAHAHA Basically, my mind stopped functioning LOL but I’m so happy I got to interact with the King of all Maknaes, SEUNGRI. Everything happened so fast and when we were asked to leave, I made sure I told him I love him! HAHA He’s probably tired of hearing that from everybody but at least I let it out my chest. ^^

Say hello to my very nervous smile!!!! HAHAHA My heart was about to pop out of my mouth! SEUNGRI is just super handsome and I’m not just saying this because I’m a fan. Like he’s legit handsome and his smile is so dreamy. He’s just genuinely friendly and there’s this warmth from him that makes you forget he’s a star. I guess I’m used to seeing K-Pop stars being cold in real life, but definitely not Seungri! 

Ah, seeing him so close is definitely one for the books! Ah also, I would like to thank my Moonshot x Innisfree combo for keeping my foundation on point despite going crazy the entire night. hihihi~~ (I will review these two soon, promise!)

I’m beyond happy to see Seungri’s last show before he enlists. Their OT5 comeback may take a while because of their military schedule and all these sad controversies that still stir everything up unnecessarily! But hey, we’re all waiting at the Flower Road (꽃길) so I can only hope that the kings stay healthy and happy. 

My next goal is to see all BIGBANG members in their Final world tour in Seoul - 2020, 2021, who knows! Really hoping to have the same amazing opportunity like this to meet all of them next time. IT WILL HAPPEN I CAN FEEL IT! <3

Read more of my VIP Diares here or my other K-Pop shenanigans here.

[malpabo]

[Drunk Talk 1] Shinhwa “20th debut anniversary protected together with the fans, it’s a cause for celebration”

Shinhwa welcomed their 20th birthday. It’s their 20th debut anniversary. Shinhwa debuted in 1998, and has released 13 studio albums in the past 20 years. While the mountains and rivers changed twice, and even through much complications, they have protected the name of Shinhwa, and received a lot of love as they released multiple hit tracks, starting with their debut song, ‘The Resolver’. 

Shinhwa is the longest running idol group that is ‘currently active’ and has continuously promoted for 20 years, without even one member change. There are so many groups that have dissolved or experience member changes to the extent that the ‘idol 7 year jinx’ saying exists, and that is what makes Shinhwa’s 20th year shine even more.

The drunk talk interview was arranged with great difficulty, as Shinhwa was busy with preparations so that they can celebrate their 20th anniversary in an even more meaningful manner with the fans. It so happened that this interview was conducted on ‘Shin-dependence day’ (a phrase that combines Shinhwa and Independence day that fans use to commemorate the end of the trademark lawsuit, falls on 29 May), which was even more meaningful.

- This is the official question. How well can you hold your liquor? Hyesung: The members who can drink really well are Junjin, Andy, and Minwoo. Junjin: I drink till I’m sleepy. How much I drink depends on my condition that day Minwoo: For Junjin, if he is with people he likes and the atmosphere is good, he’ll drink all the way till the end Junjin: I think I could hold my liquor the best in my mid - late twenties (laughs)

- How do you act when drunk? Dongwan: Hyesung becomes really pumped up when he’s drunk. The rest of us tend to fall asleep Eric: I didn’t use to be like this but when I drink, I forgot the password to my house. And also what floor I live on. I’ve been dragged away by the security when I went to press the bell of the floor below. (laughs)

- Who are the fellow celebrities you can drink with when all the Shinhwa members are around and it won’t be awkward? Dongwan: Hong Kyungmin Junjin: Kangta hyung and Jihoon hyung. I think we’re comfortable with all the members of H.O.T Minwoo: Park Kyunglim. And also Yuk Joongwan

- Who is the member that pays the most frequently? Junjin: Hyesung hyung Dongwan: I think that’s why he regrets it. If he wasn’t called to these gatherings, he’d probably have been able to buy one more house. (laughs)

- It’s your 20th debut anniversary this year. Please give us your thoughts on that. Junjin: We all feel the same so let’s have Hyeung hyung speak for all of us Hyesung: When I was young, I never imagined the six of us would be singing on stage together for 20 years. In my early or mid twenties, when someone asked me, ‘What would you be doing 10 years later’, I replied, ‘I have no idea what I’d be doing.’ But it’s already 20 years. It’s awesome because these 20 years was protected together with the fans. It’s a cause for celebration, it is. Minwoo: Is the slant steep? Ah, sorry. (Minwoo was doing a wordplay as slant and celebration are the same word in Korean) Eric: Our thoughts are ‘It’s a cause for celebration’

- You are the longest running idols without a single member change. What is your secret to your 20 years of teamwork? Hyesung: Our secret is Junjin. Junjin: We tend to resolve issues the moment they occur. Also, emotionally, different members take the lead at different times. I think that is even better. Sometimes it’ll be a certain member that takes care of the others, another time it’ll be another member who does that. Hyesung: All the members have different personalities and that is what lets us work well together, like a well-oiled machine. Minwoo: All six of us likes Shinhwa. We all like Shinhwa the same way and thats why we can keep on going. If we didn’t like Shinhwa, we would have separated long ago. Eric: I went filming for SBS’s ‘Laws of the Jungle’ with Andy and Minwoo, and (Kim) Byungman hyung asked if there were idols that have lasted as long as us. He was very amazed and kept observing us. I heard he was amazed that we took care of and understood each other, even without speaking, during and outside of filming. For example, if I’m taking a knife out from my backpack, Andy will come over and put suncream on me, and that was what he found amazing. I think we know what each other wants just by looking at each other.

- When were you the happiest in the past 20 years? Minwoo: I’m sure we all feel the same. When we first topped the charts on music shows with ‘T.O.P’. We wanted to try for first place since we’re already doing the work but we didn’t manage to do so for our first album, and only did it with our second album. That moment then is still fresh in my mind. We were living in the dormitory then and I still remember we proposed a toast when we went back to the dormitory. I think that was what made us work even harder.

- When were you the most touched, and close to tears? Junjin: During Guerrilla Concert (from MBC ‘Sunday Night’). It was during our promotions without Andy and I really cried really hard. It’s the same when we first won the Daesang (at a music awards ceremony). Minwoo: Actually, even though Shinhwa has held a lot of concerts, every concert makes me feel grateful to and touched by the fans. Junjin: Yes, that’s right. When the concert just starts. Hyesung: Every concert is touching, despite how many times we’ve held it. Minwoo: I still remember Hyesung’s tears in 2012, when we held our concert after we completed our military service and ended our 4 year break. It was the opening talk segment and Hyesung cried. Hyesung: Before going for military service, we said ‘We would come back’, then we got together 4 years later for a concert at the same place. I was grateful the fans came to fulfil their promise 4 years ago, and I also teared up because we could fulfil that promise. I’m sure the other members were crying too, they just didn’t show it. Minwoo: There are times I tear up when I look at the members. I tear up when I see the members communicating with the fans and performing at their individual positions.

sr: Ilgan Sports Translated by @malpabo Please take out with full credits.

[topconfessions]

About the whole TOP dating young girls thing, I’m completely on board with you. Reading his natal chart, I can see partly why he has that preference. He’s an Aries moon and a Libra mercury big time. Most fans seem to perceive him as this mature, experienced and thoughtful man from his appearance and stage image. But if you follow him for more than 10 years you can tell that he’s the complete opposite. Not to say that he’s a bad guy who has little to no regard to his own actions and just acts as he’s pleased. He’s just not the type to plan ahead and prefer to live in the moment. He can be very impulsive and prioritizes his own needs that often leads to confrontation isssue if he were to deal with more emotionally mature people. It’s that thinking “why deal with it if you can just avoid it”. In a way I think he just tends to act from an emotional place until when things (accidentally) crash and burn he’s just lack the socially emotional capacity to deal with them. Fuck around and find out lol. It’s nothing new with wealthy, in-power, 30s men, let alone someone who has the advantage of being one of the most good looking kpop idols. Men like him wouldn’t go for women the same age because let’s face it, they can see right through these men’s antics. I’ve seen too many stories like this play out irl that often involve infidelity so I guess I’m glad he’s still taking time to enjoy and explore himself, maybe doing some emotional maturing before putting a ring on anyone’s finger.

Regarding his childhood, I believe it’s a huge contributed factor here. I have no doubt he faced a lots of body shaming in his teenage years. When something like that happened to you it shaped your self esteem and how you view yourself for a long time. This man needs validations and guides more than people think.

EXACTLY.

as for fans, top knew what he was doing as well as YG and BB members. TOP promoted an image to protect his real self so fans would never be able to catch up with him and how he operates (he may not have did this intentionally but it worked in that favor) so we wouldnt ever think he's out doing xyz or hanging with so & so cause he swears he is ___ type of person. He literally told us for years he wants the literal opposite of what he truly leans to. I think truly his ideal types and all he ever said was him speaking of what T.O.P would want if his entire stage image was a real person or 2nd personality. like forgive me, I'm not trying to be that person to stereotype mental illness cause BPD disorder is serious and not always the way hollywood glamourizes it to be, but like if top had multiple personality disorder and TOP was a real personality, I could see him embodying everything he said and dating older sophisticated mild mannered rich women. It's either that or he was speaking ideally of what he thought would make him look good and what he could benefit from clout wise. And yeah that aries makes sense.

I won't be in over my head but I once comapred my compatibility with him on that astro theme site and it's like to accurate go to for celebrity, public figure and historian birth charts & romantic compatibility, baby....me and top were 0% bitch, I had better compatibility with fucking ted bundy, jesus and the anti christ than TOP lmfaooooo I was BLOWN back then! but I don't match well with YG artists but my scores were high with SM artists. they come off more sentimental and meaningful in their relationships and relations that YG people in my own opinion. so thats just random plug but that was enough for me to know top is total opposite like you are saying. cause a good majority of my chart leans to what he said but aries x cancer placements dont go together lol.

Only mature young fans i.e kids who maybe had a rough life and were wiser beyond their years or just naturally mature ate tops image as fact. I won't lie, a part of me believed him but I was caught in the mix of idolizing other groups aside from BB, making friends and love through bb and the fandom wars so that clouded my judgement keeping me preoccupied enough to not look deeper. But I could always tell as time went on and I got older that he was not that person. It's an image. just like how beyonce acts like she's a badass legend but keeps pushing the PR machine to ruin Michael Jackson image by having media & his own childern on PR payroll through mj estate say she's on MJ level and surpassing it. Even more so with ehr acting like she's the ultimate woman but she stayed with a cheater her sister wanted to beat up physically and she popped out 3 kids for this man plus jay z has a criminal record and dead side hoes in his past but it's ok cause he's a mogul now. terrible. but fans who are young or obsessed won't use common sense to see she's very or used to be very soft spoken and introverted she is not about the demon time baddie life she promotes in music. Its the same for top, he's not the guy he portrays in interviews, varities, reality programs and on music shows.

I'll give top credit, the image cultivated or was given was great but he himself has a lot going on so he couldn't carry that forever. I still think that before recent 3 years, top saw himself as if he was where kim woobin is but he isn't there. I think KWB has something, just something top is lacking and likes to believe he has but doesnt. but TOP has that durability to comeback in a way I don't see KWB coming back if he was under harsh conditions like top etc.

SORRY I STARTED RANTING LOL. This is why I didn't let up on those insane bts and few crazy VIP fans in the arguments here months ago. you tink you know BTS but all it takes is one top style scandal and leaks to show they are different people.

He's...I don't want to be mean or like too blunt I won't say mentally stunted or emotionally stunted, but it gives slight MJ syndrome, like he has that need for that stimulation that young people provide positive or negative plus let's cut bs: most men of all ages want YOUNG girls unless they are in that phase of their life they want family and strictly to focus on serious relationship, even then if every other male in society american or korea could have a young decently fit / attractive side piece or secret sex buddy with nobody finding out? it'd be a jungle cause everyone would do it - which I'm bot even shaming cause I can separate my morals from just the reality of how complex relationships can be and say that some relationships probably do feel like they need an escape or a vacation with someone else, but at that point - just be single.

Young people just suit him being cause like you said he's not the pragmatic type to plan ahead and really be that responsible. he operates on whims and of the moment. that matches with young people. they're concerned about the now and not making a deep literal fuss about things in life like older 20s to 30 something people are. His scorpio sun makes him come off more stable than he is and yeah, I could see all of that really. I wouldn't mind meeting top but I wouldn't rush to date him now or put responsbility on him if we were friends cause he is not that dependable friend in that manner. he's dependable long term wise in loyalty and emotions with listening but dont depend on him to pull through something planned that places weight on him LOL. just don't. Yeah he is ironically doing the right thing by just taking this time in his 30s to fuck around and have fun. if this was america he wouldn't be able to do that, like literally he'd have the freedom to but his reputation would be in the toliet and he'd have to navigate his pool of girls cause women in america are tough and like you said they see through these antics. girls would be airing his ass out like how adam levine got aired out or he'd be talked about Leo Dicaprio. In a way there is no such thing as single in american hollywood cause you'll always be pigeon hold unless you are like keanu reeves level of loved. Like I've seen people trash zac efron calling him easy cause he doesn't seem to have serious standards when he dates casually although he isn't a super easy to date guy if that makes sense, but he's a libra so LOL.

yeah. I really agree with the last you said. he does need the validation and older women will give that sparingly in ways that aren't the instant gratification or ways he may want it. GOOD TALK THOUGH!

none of this makes him a bad person but he's not the stereotypical guy like the others in dating. he's gonna mary some young woman in his late 30s or mid 40s and she'll traditional very serene etc.

[omorfos-thanatos]

New things regarding Moony

She has the same powers as Whis (just in reverse and in terms of godly) like Whis is able to bring people back from the dead with a mere touch it seems (if it is more than one we don’t know, he only brought back Frieza) and can rewind time. Moony can kill people (especially mortals) with a mere touch, when not running around in the human form. And she cannot meddle with time. Any event has to happen around her.

There are also for each universe a god of death, Moony just sometimes does more universes especially after the T.o.P arc since that kind of thing is stressfull for them. And before anyone says, yes gods of destruction can be killed, I mean they do have sucessors, so I guess the moment they are replaced they go back to being mortal. (Just my guess)

Also Moony is not powerful it terms of fighting power, she is not a fighter. The thing she likes is reading, books and such. Another running gag is her not eating anything since everything tastes of death.

[wwevampireamongkpop]

From Show-off to Hope

A/n: this is an idea I’ve had for a while and finally typing up all thanks to @empress-with-the-crown and the others of #TTC

A/n #2: It’s been forever since I’ve been able to write anything. this is a kpop/wwe fic

Taglist: @sugasfatgf @evilangel84 @ballins-princess @nerdlife0612 @littledeadrottinghood 

Pairing: Dolph Ziggler x Selene [OC] (past), Monster Woo x Selene (platonic), other kpop groups

Part 1  Part 2 Part 3

Name: Selene Rogers

Nickname: Moon

Height: 5′2

E/c: Hazel

Tattoos: 4, right ankle Captain America’s shield with Wolverine’ claws in front of it, left calf Shield logo, right side/ribs stars and notes, sternum the Deathly Hallows

Skin color: pale to lightly tan

Hair: Black and blood red later black and green

    The match was supposed to be a simple match against Naomi on SmackDown Live. Selene had gone for a sunset flip powerbomb and the moment her feet hit the mat to do the powerbomb her left knee gave out. In that moment she knew something was wrong. Pain shot through her body as she collapse to the mat. Naomi knew something was wrong and quickly got off the top turnbuckle. The ref called the match and medical came out.

    Naomi helped Selene to the back with the help of one of the trainers. Naomi and Selene both knew that it was serious. She didn’t need the trainers to tell her that she was going to be out of action for several months. She remembered Seth had the same thing happen to him at a live event. With this being on TV, she knew Seth and Roman would be calling her soon.

    She pulled her long black and blood red hair out of her face and into a messy bun. Tears running down her face has she knew she would be out for at least 8 months, maybe.

    Over the past couple months, Selene had been slowly losing who she was as a person. Training daily, being in character daily to the point she was going insane. To be honest, she was actually happy this had happened.

    “I’m so sorry about this, Selene. This shouldn’t have happened.” Concern filled Naomi’s voice.

    “Don’t feel bad, girl. Shit happens.” She tried to reassure Naomi. “Besides, this may actually be a good thing for me. I haven’t had a break in so long.”

    “I know but this shouldn’t be the way you go though.” Selene placed her hand on Naomi’s shoulder.

     “It’s all part of what we do.” She pulled Naomi into a hug without hitting herself in the knee. “Besides, it’s always fun being in the ring with you. Glow girl.” Naomi gave her a sad smile. “I’ll be fine, girl. I’ll keep you up to date on everything.” She nodded before walking away.

    Just then Dean walked into the trainers room, worry covered his face. Selene just sat there, knowing damn well he was just being worried over his non-blood sister.

    “I told you not to do that move, it’s the same shit that took Seth out for months.”

    “Dean, I knew what could possibly happen. Seth told me the best way to land on my feet for that powerbomb but it didn’t go the way I wanted it.” Selene felt a tear run down her face. Dean stepped closer to her and hugged her.

    “Seth called me and wanted me to tell you he’s sorry for you getting hurt, especially since it’s the same way he got hurt.” Selene hugged him tightly, like it would be the last time she ever saw him.

    “I’m going to miss ya, Lunatic.” With a sad smile from both, Dean pulled away and helped her to the women’s locker room. One of the trainers told her that they had a vehicle ready to take her to the hospital for further examination, leaving out the fact that she will be needing surgery.

   She gathered up everything that was hers, the best way she could and pulled on her Ambrose zip-up sweater. Being the sweet friend he was, Dean helped her put on her sneakers. He even helped her out to the awaiting vehicle.

    “Get healed and be back quick.” He kissed Selene on the top of her head then helped her into her seat.

    “I don’t know when I’ll be back Dean. I requested time out and I got it. Tonight was my last match for a while.” Dean looked hurt because she didn’t tell him. “Don’t look at me like that. I’ve been beginning to loose myself the past few months and I just need time to find myself again. I didn’t want this to be the way I go out but it happened.”

    “Why didn’t you say anything?” His voice low, annoyance and worry filled it.

    “You would try to get me to stay when I don’t feel like I’m myself.” She looked up at him. “You will always be an older brother to me, the same with Seth and Roman. I’ll keep you guys in the loop of what’s going on, recovery and everything after.” Her voice held sadness and reassurance.

    “You better, we know where you live and will come bug you during recovery and rehab.” A small smile curved his lips a bit.

    “After I’m done with rehab, I’m going to do a bit of traveling, so it will be hard to find me if you aren’t where I’m at.” She couldn’t help but smile. She truly loved the man before her like an annoying older brother but she wouldn’t want it any other way.

   Months later, bout 5 months, Selene was walking around on her own. Rehab had been hell but her friends kept her going. True to her word, she started traveling as soon as she was able to do things on her own she packed a suitcase and left. She went to Osaka, Japan for a couple weeks because Finn had told her about it.

    She had arrived in Seoul. She loved the view she had from the plane as it was descending. She had been wanting to visit for a number of years and Seth even poked fun at her for being a K-pop fan, which all she did was go “Shut up nerd.”

   As Selene walked around Seoul, she couldn’t help but feel like she was home. Her phone started going off in her purse, a familiar ringtone signaling her who was calling her. Her favorite lunatic, Dean.

   “Hey Dean.” She said the moment she answered his call.

    “Hey, doll. How’s everything going?”

    “Great, I arrived in Seoul late last night and just walking around right now.

    “Good. Ro wanted me to call and check up on you.”

    “How sweet of him.” She giggled a bit. “He is such the dad friend.” This comment made him laugh. She could hear Roman in the background asking what’s so funny and Dean telling him.

    “How’s the knee, Moon.” 

    “It’s good, great actually. The yoga I’ve been doing has been helping a lot.” She was off in her world  while talking to Dean and didn’t see the person walking in her path. He was talking to someone on his phone and wasn’t paying attention. They both hit damn near head on, which caused Selene to damn near fall on her ass if he didn’t catch her in time.

   The man looked intimidating but Selene was used to men who looked like that. His face relaxed a bit as he let go of her arm. She told Dean she’d call him back and put her phone in her purse.

    “Sorry I wasn’t watching where I was walking.”

    “It’s ok, you’re not hurt are you?” Concern filled his eyes.

    “No, I’ve taken bigger hits than that before. I’m all good.” She bowed to him, showing her thanks for not letting her fall.

    “You’re not from here, you’re from the states. Aren’t you?” Selene knew she stuck out a bit so she wasn’t surprised he pointed that out.

    “Yeah and you’re that guy on Instagram who his followers call um,” she snapped her fingers as she thought of it, “Daddy Woo.” He nodded showing she was right. “I’m Selene Rogers, my friends call me Moon.” She held out her hand.

    “Young Woo, friends call me Woo or Monster Woo.” He shook her hand. “You’re not scared of my appearance. Most people are.”

    “Nope, I’ve worked with men who can cause nightmares. So someone like you isn’t scary or intimidating.” She smiled at him. 

    Just then a couple of girls walked up to them with excitement on their faces.

    “Can we have your autograph and a picture please.” One of the girls sound nervous. “If that’s okay with you.”

    “Of course.” Selene smiled while she signed the magazines the girls had. She thanked what ever god out there that she decided to learn how to read, write and speak Korean.

    “I’m sorry that you got hurt. I hope you’re doing well.”

    “I am, thank you. Injuries happen sometimes.” She handed the magazines back. “Woo, do you mind helping with the pictures please.” He nodded and took the girls phones from them.

    “On three. One, two, three.” He took the pictures after they posed then handed the girls their phones. The girls bowed with a thank you and left. “What was that about?”

    “You know how I said I have worked with men who can cause nightmares.” Woo nodded his head. “Well I worked for the WWE, I am a female superstar.” She couldn’t help but smile. She knew she didn’t look like the typical female superstar but that was made her stand out.

    That was the start of Selene’s friendship with Woo started. A month after that, she had moved to Seoul. Within the first couple weeks she had met Wonho and Jooheon from Monsta X which led to her meeting the rest of the group. That also led her to meet some other groups as well and becoming great friends with everyone.

    Her world changed one day when she walked into a different gym because her normal was unusually packed. She walked towards the lockers, after asking where they were, put her bag in a locker and proceeded to the treadmills.

    She had her headphones in and her workout playlist going. She never noticed one of the guys there watching her from across the gym, completely in awe of her.

    Selene started the treadmill slow. Zutter by GD&T.O.P.  started playing in her ears and she couldn’t help but start swaying with the beat the best she could. From there she got her heart rate up and went on with her workout. It was leg day.

    Half way through her workout, she practically walked into someone and literally fell on her ass.

    “Sorry about that.” The man said as he reached out to help her up.

    “It’s okay, I should have watched where I was walking.” She allowed him to help her up. She pulls her headphones completely out of her ears. She got a good look at the man she practically ran over.

    “You’re new to this gym, aren’t you?” He looked familiar but she could place where.

    “Yeah I am. Easy to tell.” She suddenly got shy which caused him to get shy. Selene normally never really got shy around guys so this was kind of new to her.

    “Yeah, um.” He rubbed the back of his neck nervously. “I know this may be bold but would you like to grab something to eat later?” She looked a bit shocked and she bit the side of her bottom lip.

    “Yeah.”

    “That’s great. I’m Hoseok.”

    “I’m Selene.”

[angeltriestoblog]

HK Cultural Centre, Victoria Peak and Mongkok: Hong Kong 2018, Part 1

Hello friends, and welcome to my first of two posts about my recent trip to Hong Kong! I’ve been excited about this for quite a long time, because our family apparently frequented the territory when I was much younger: in fact, my first trip was when I was still in my mother’s womb. We’d go back a couple of times after that, once or a twice a year until the SARS virus eventually broke out in February of 2003. Since I was a toddler at the time, I don’t remember anything about my previous trips and was definitely not involved in planning out the itinerary. I’d simply rely on the stories my parents would share fondly over meals, or pictures hidden in our family albums or plastered on souvenir plates.

This time around, we spent three days in the area, and kickstarted our vacation by waking up ridiculously early on Saturday, December 22nd to make it to the airport three hours before our 6:30 flight. I didn’t even have time to sleep, because we only had two hours until we reached our destination so I kept myself busy with Cathay Pacific’s quality music selection. Props to them for including most of Wanna One’s discography, as well as Harry Styles’ self-titled and After Laughter, my favorite Western albums.

Upon our arrival, we caught the airport bus, took a one hour trip before getting off at Middle Road station then walked down Nathan Road to find the place that we had booked for the trip. I had mapped out the entire day ahead of us and was excited to get to it, the first order of business fortunately being located at the end of the street we were staying on. The Hong Kong Cultural Centre is known as a multipurpose performance facility, complete with auditoriums, a gallery and several rehearsal and practice rooms for all the concerts, theatre and musical productions, exhibitions, screenings and conventions being held there.

As you can see from the pictures, the architecture is also to die for, as one pink-tiled column after another leads to a majestic view of Victoria Harbour: the perfect balance of the serene blue sea and the busy city skyline. It was incredibly sunny that day, and festive too, as there was a concert happening in the plaza area.

But, it might be known to most of you (assuming that you are my age) because it has served as a shooting location for K-Pop music videos, including You Are by GOT7. This one member named Bambam, who just so happens to be my bias, had his solo parts shot in this particular area, so I had to do my duties and have pictures taken in the exact same place. And yes, I’m aware I’m facing the opposite side, but this is my angle and we just have to deal with it.

Once we had wrapped things up, we headed to Central Station and took Exit K to meet up with the guys from Klook, who were going to help us get to our next stop. I think it’s safe to say that no visit to Hong Kong would be complete without experiencing Victoria Peak: besides boasting an incredible bird’s eye view of the city below, it also houses premiere shopping and dining destinations, and tourist attractions like the Madame Tussaud’s Wax Museum and their own play on Trick Eye Museum, but with free entrance. Getting there was no easy feat, though: even with the fast passes that we had purchased online, the line for the tram took about two hours because it was not just holiday season, but also peak hours since most people would argue that the view from the top is best enjoyed from the late afternoon onwards. When it was finally our turn to get on, it was fully packed and seats ran out pretty quickly, which meant we had to stand for the entire ride up… which was 1.4km (about seven to eight minutes) long, and quite steep. Kind of felt like my soul was being sucked out of my body with a heavy-duty vacuum cleaner.

But, of course, the ordeal we had to go through to get there was well worth it. We had a great meal at this restaurant called Wildfire, and feasted our eyes on the one-of-a-kind view of the city: I don’t know how long I spent on the terrace, just admiring the sight before me, even if the temperature made me feel like a slab of meat stored in a freezer.

The next day, we set out to explore the shopping center just within walking distance: iSQUARE. Standing at 31 floors tall, the entertainment and shopping complex is home to a seemingly endless collection of fashion and lifestyle brands as well as both fine and casual dining restaurants. As expected of me, I was most excited about going to HMV, which sold albums as far as the eye could see. But, I had no idea I had missed it by just a couple of days and was met with a liquidation notice stuck to the glass doors. I also went to Logon, which was like your local Daiso but with a wider variety of more aesthetically pleasing items to choose from. Unfortunately, they were on the more pricey side: I was initially planning on buying Christmas gifts for friends here, but I realized that if I did that, I’d end up blowing all my pocket money in one go. (I took more mirror selfies than pictures of the products being sold, I know. But, my outfit was cute ok)

We then took the MTR to Mongkok with the intention of paying Sneakers Street a visit, because I was determined to find black high-cut Vans (or just any pair of black rubber shoes) at a cheaper price. But, we kept getting sidetracked by several stores around the area, turning left when we were supposed to be going right, and we eventually did not find it. Although, we did stumble upon T.O.P Shopping Centre, which had several Korean, Japanese and local lifestyle brands that catered both to the youth and young-at-heart.

I also found this other store with brands like Stylenanda, 3CE, AAPE, Nike, Adidas, Vans and Reebok but I didn’t get to take note of the name. All I have are videos of me walking around the place like I’m in a YouTube video set at 1.5x speed. In fairness to me, people in Hong Kong really do like walking fast.

Since my try at HMV was a failure, I gave my blockmate Bea’s advice a shot and looked for Sino Centre. I mistook it for another building because I’m admittedly not the best with directions, and the guard was kind enough to leave his post for a few minutes and point out the place I was looking for. Although it is more well known by the Internet for being a haven for anime and manga lovers, the second floor was practically a treasure trove of stores selling K-Pop albums and official merchandise. I went for the first one I saw though, because I honestly wasn’t in the mood to wade through a sea of people and compare prices at every single store. I ended up buying Nothing Without You for myself instead of Power of Destiny (because my album is still in transit and about to be shipped to my best friend, Solf’s place), and something else for a friend which I can’t disclose at the moment because I haven’t given it to her. In case any fellow Wannables are interested, I got a Baejin mini standee and a Woojin lenticular photo card, by the way. Also, I hope you are all coping well with disbandment.

Tune in (wow) to my next post, where I’ll be rambling about our last day in the city and giving some tips in case you’re planning on dropping by as well. Wishing you nothing but love and light!

Angel

[kleo1504]

My top 5 k-pop groups, boy group edition:

1- Super Junior. My first kpop boy group ever, I started stanning them exactly 10 years ago. I haven’t been up with their latest releases because life happens and by life I mean other groups to stan, but they’re like comfort food by this point, and their fandom also have become like old friends to me, even if I meet a new ELF it feels like we used to go to middle school together or something. It’s such a happy nostalgic sort of feeling that I have with them, that that’s why they’re still my number 1 💙

2- BTS, yo I WAS THEEEERE when they debuted, I am an early ARMY, I’ve been through a LOT with them and their whole discography just feels so integral to my life now, if I ever get to know them personally I will probably just break down and cry and thank them for growing up with me (the fact that they’re about my age only drives the point home) and making my life easier to deal with

3- Stray Kids is currently the group that I’ve been stanning for the past 6 months, and I’ll admit I like their newer releases more than all that EDM stuff they had going on before the pandemic, it just sounds so alien to me, I was introduced to SKZ with “God’s Menu”, “Back Door” and “Thunderous” and everything from before this sounds so…tame 😶

4- Big Bang - I’d like to say that their discography is impeccable and immaculate HOWEVER due to past scandals revolving the youngest I’m a bit effy when listening to certain songs… I honestly feel really sorry for the other members for everything that has happened to the group’s reputation. But alas all the members also have hella solid solo releases that we can enjoy without having to think about The Scumbag

5- SHINee - I’m going to get real emotional now, they were my teenagehood, specially Kim Jonghyun. He was my everything, my universe, my idol, my muse, I admired him a lot. And the moment I turned 20 and entered college, tragedy strikes, and he’s gone. My teenagehood was gone. It was such a hard and cold bang into adulthood, specially for me, who also suffered from depression at the time. I haven’t been able to listen to them again ever since, but SHINee will always be a band that I’ll hold dearly to my heart.

I'm so happy to meet a fan of Super Junior, Big Bang and SHINee here!

Honestly, Big Bang, SHINee, EXO and BTS were the ones dragging me kicking and screaming down the k-pop rabbit hole in the first place. The homely and family like feeling you have with Super Junior, I have with their younger brothers EXO. They have a certain place in my heart and life even when I adopted many many more groups over the years.

I sort of detached from BTS, though. I don't know. Their music somewhat changed the vibe after Blood, Sweat and Tears and I lost the initial interest. I still check upon them once in a while to stay in the loop but the fandom felt too dramatic for my taste so I simply withdrawn.

The Big Bang issues were rather hurtful as I truly loved their music and I even really liked the maknae's solo album, musically it was really appealing to me and I feel sorry for not being able to listen to it anymore. I stay in touch with what goes on with the members and I was genuinely happy for the last interview T.O.P gave to the magazine and it was a relief to read that he's doing well and has many projects he attends.

As for SHINee, it was a real unfortunate year. Only few days after Jonghyun's death, my grandfather died. However I think I was more devastated by Jonghyun, to be honest. His voice was so special. It was a real tragedy. I couldn't listen to any SHINee song for a long time but then I felt sorry for the other members, thinking it's sort of insensitive to ignore them, when they were also hurt and if they could overcome the grief and continue with their job, I could listen to their music. I started with listening to the Taemin solo albums and worked my way back to be able to listen to all SHINee songs now. Except for Jonghyun's solos. I still can't make myself to listen to those. It will take a while, I guess.

Anyway! I'm so glad you shared your TOP 5 and experience. It's pleasure to meet you here. 💖 Let me know if you had any requests regarding SuJu or Big Bang or any other group you like. My request box is full of Enhypen (which I don't even know), Ateez and Stray Kids and it's a pity when there are so many great groups and solo artists out there. 😊

Kleo

[peter-i-left-my-window-open]

Soft Bias Tag

Alright @hipstaa-pleazz tagged me like a year ago lol I guess I should probably do this! And since I always use T.O.P, well he is my ultimate bias, I think I'll chose someone else this time. Aaaand since I really only know BigBang and BTS 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 well....

I cant choose a bias in BTS. But I always think of these two first so...

1. Who’s my bias?

I am going with BTS so I'm choosing Kim Taehyung and Min Yoongi.

2. What made you notice them?

So, I didn't at first. At first I was like, well Yoongi is too serious and Taehyung seems to not pay attention enough.

But once I started watching all their shows they put out, like Run BTS or Bon Voyage, I got to know them better.

I like Taehyung's feel of innocence. He's like soft, serious, fun, oblivious, in his own world, hard working and compassionate all in the same person. I know there are lots of idols like that, I just can't dedicate my life to learning all of them.

I like Yoongi's seriousness. He's very much a worker. I feel like when he has a family, he will provide for them very well. He is serious and works to get "the prize" (he cheats in a lot of games, but he's doing what he needs to win the prize).

3. What’s your favorite thing about them?

Taehyung - I love his ability to just live life. I mean, he doesn't much worry about what people think. I mean he does, so much that it bothers him when there's arguments, and he wants to make thing right quickly so there aren't any hard feelings, at least that's what I gather. But he doesn't care about things like pimples, and makes his own decisions, like his mullet decision, without worrying about others' feelings. Like when he told Army it was his decision and to please like it. I feel like most people, myself included, worry too much about the approval of others. There is a line there and for some people the line is a country mile wide.

Yoongi - His passion. I could go on for 𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴 about his passion for what he does. If you don't know, he spends countless hours in his studio. Worrying about their music, planning their concerts, p̶r̶o̶b̶a̶b̶l̶y̶ ̶s̶t̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶l̶o̶o̶k̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶h̶i̶m̶s̶e̶l̶f̶ ̶u̶p̶ ̶o̶n̶ ̶g̶o̶o̶g̶l̶e̶. It's rare when a person finds something they're passionate about, sets a goal, and actually reaches that goal. He did it! He still tries to make himself better - to be the best. That's rare in the states now days, and I'm happy to know of a person like him. Someone who can actually achieve a dream. His music, at the end of the day, is all he will ever have and he knows it and he embraces it whole-heartedly. He loves what he does, and it shows.

4. Who would initiate skinship more?

It takes me a while to be touchy-feely. I mean, not to sound like the years worst mom award winner, but it took a while for me to attach to my kids once they were born. That being said...

Taehyung - we aaaalllll know he would be suuuch a cuddler. And since I'm horrible at telling people no, I would endure it until I became comfortable with it. But once it was comfortable and mutual. It would be all the time. We would hold hands a lot and hug a lot, hopefully I could match him for initiation points!

Yoongi - well, he seems kind of in the middle. But I think PDA would definitely not happen until later in the relationship. Like a 8 months or so down the line. W̶o̶w̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶s̶e̶e̶m̶s̶ ̶a̶ ̶b̶i̶t̶ ̶s̶p̶e̶c̶i̶f̶i̶c̶?̶?̶?̶ Probably after supper time, when we're on a walk with Holly, we would hold hands. I think it would intensify as stressful moments came about, like at work, and probably would build to a more comfortable mutual for us both.

5. Who would hog the blankets more?

ME! I sleep with like 8 pillows and a flat sheet, a light blanket, and a comforter. Even when my kids sleep in bed with me, they have their own blankets!

6. Who would be more clingy?

Taehyung - it would depend on what kind of attention I get from him to be honest. I'm kind of a chameleon when it comes to relationships. I just kinda go with the flow and try to make everyone happy. But if things are super fluffy with Taehyung, then definitely it would be a contest. But... wait. Of course they would be super fluffy, there is no but!

Yoongi - same. It would depend on what kind of attention I get from him, too. I know things probably would be awkward in the beginning-ish of things, so I'd probably have to say I'd be more clingy. But that's pushing it because the atmosphere wouldn't be a clingy one. So the "clingy" would probably be always wanting to sit together with him while watching a movie, or at a restaurant, always wanting to sit across from him, so I can see him when I want to, or at the movies, I'd want to share a popcorn, not have my own. Idk does that make since?? 🤷‍♀️

7. Who would say i love you first? who would easily be flustered?

I don't say "I love you" to anyone, right now, except my kids. Not even to my friends, even though daily they say things like "I love you Courtney. I'm so happy I worked with you today." And I'm just like "Ok, thanks." I̶'̶m̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶r̶e̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ ̶a̶w̶k̶w̶a̶r̶d̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶i̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶g̶u̶e̶s̶s̶.̶ I don't even remember the last time I said it to my ex-husband when we were married. I̶s̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶s̶a̶d̶?̶ ̶S̶o̶r̶r̶y̶.̶.̶.̶

But it would probably be me, in both situations. It wouldn't come out until it would be something small they did that just absolutely made my day, or something they did out of the blue but I could totally feel they put their heart into it.

I think Yoongi would be the most flustered. I think Taehyung would just smile a lot.

8. What cuddling position would you have?

I always always 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 sleep with a pillow behind me to lean back on. So I guess I like being the little spoon. I like being kissed on the forehead, too. So if I sleep where my head can rest on their shoulder or they hug me to sleep while my face is just close enough to their neck to smell their body wash, or sneak a kiss or two when they're sleeping, that's good, too.

9. What colors remind you of them?

Taehyung - soft colors like sunrise yellow or butter yellow, off white, soft coffee colors like caramel macchiato (hot not iced cause I hate iced coffee and that's not the color I'm going for) or cafe latte.

Yoongi - green like the greens you see after the first 3 good rains of spring, and.... actually, that's all that comes to mind right now when I think his name.

10. What season would you like to spend with them?

Of course I'm going to pick Autumn, it's my most favorite season EVER!!! I love summer and the sun, but Autumn has this feeling about it that I just can't get enough of. If you ever want to get to know me we need to go hiking in the mid to late season! Holy moly. Ok anyways, Autumn. Because Halloween and preparing for Christmas!

CHRISTMAS IS MY MOST FAVORITE HOLIDAY EVER! I can't get enough decorating and cooking and smells and SNOOOOWWW!!!

Ok back to Autumn.

I just can't think of anything better than sitting on my front porch drinking coffee and then going out to rake a huge pile of leaves and jumping in them. Maybe even, if it was big enough, we could jump from the top of my car!!! 🙆‍♀️ I'm getting all giggly thinking about it!! I feel like people just open up during the fall and people start relaxing and enjoying the weather more. I just feel like it's a stress free time. (That could just be me)

11. Who would bake cookies and who would steal the batter?

I'm definitely baking! I love to cook!! And we all know all three of us would sneak the batter, but I feel like Taehyung would say something like, "Hey! Make two batches and we'll share some with the members." And when I go to starts breaking off pieces for the 2nd batch, he'd be eating it on the couch watching football!!

12. Who would want to adopt 50 cats and dogs?

Ok so idk about 50, but I definitely want to have 2 cats and I'd hope they'd get along with Holly and Yeontan well enough.

13. Which one of you would nearly burn down the kitchen trying to microwave a pop tart and who would come to the rescue?

Wait. Who puts pop-tarts in the microwave?!?

I may have to put down some rules for the microwave. I feel like the only thing that should go in the microwave is popcorn and sometimes left overs.

14. Who likes to lean over tall railings and who pulls them back?

Taehyung would lean over, I just want to sit on the edge. Yoongi would probably sit beside me or stand behind me.

15. What would watching a horror movie be like with them?

Taehyung and I can freak out together and hold hands while making sure all the lights in the house are on before we barricade ourselves in for the night.

Yoongi would probably laugh or scoff at me for jumping and screaming. Seriously I do NOT do scary movies. The scariest I get is Corpse Bride by Tim Burton. I think he'd be making fun of me the rest of the night teasing me and trying to scare me. Which would work until I start crying. I can throw myself into an anxiety attack just by thinking about being scared, so one time and I'd probably drown in my own tears. Ugh 😖😖

16. Who would be the cheesy flirt and who would be the smooth flirt?

I bet they could both pull of both extremes. I know things would be more frequent with Taehyung and he'd probably be more cheesy. Which is fine. Whatever! Cheesy is super cute! Yoongi being more serious would be more smooth, but I know there'd be times when he's cheesy, too!

17. Who would be more competitive?

We all know Yoongi is and it would probably end in an argument because he would have cheated, and probably more than once.

Taehyung probably would be competitive, too. But I feel like he would be more of "doing it for fun". Not as serious of a competitor.

I can be pretty serious when I know what I'm doing.

18. Who sends memes and who sends cute “i miss you” texts at 3am?

Taehyung would be doing both!! He'd send cute ones probably when he'd been having a bad day and wanted attention and reassurance. And then it'd lead to let's cheer up, and we'd send memes back and forth to make us 😂

We all know Yoongi'd be too busy in the studio to pay attention, but I'd send him some. So he'd have something to look at and break his mind every once in a while.

Thanks @hipstaa-pleazz this was fun!!!

[nothing-but-kpop-dreams]

Military Leave (2/5)

Author’s note: This is a very different style of writing for me. I am more so used to more “dramatic”  and a bit more complicated and extended plots. I really do hope that you all still enjoy this series since this is the first time i attempt a more “domesticated” plot.

Genre: subtle fluff

Summary: Just when you thought you had seen him for the last time, you get a another chance. This encounter is very much not the usual interaction.

Small warning: alcohol, some slightly depressing topics, small bit of foul language

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 2.5 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Epilogue

You had just come back home from a long day of work and you threw yourself on the couch, letting your limbs sprawl as they wanted.  You were so tired that you didn’t bother to change out of your work clothes, let alone take your shoes off.

Your first moment of peace in the entire day was ruined when your phone began to ring. According to the caller ID it was your boss and you knew better than to ignore the call.

“Hello Ma’am” you said into the phone.

“Hey y/n, sorry to call you so late and after your shift, but we got a call from that favorite idol of yours and he was insistent that you go clean his place right now.”

“Seunghyun? But I just clean his place a few days ago.” Despite your tired tone, your insides were flipping in excitement to see Top for one last time.

“I know, but according to him, he just had a get together and now he wants the place cleaned before he leaves to wherever he is going. You don’t exactly have to do it since it is after hours, but I would prefer you did, plus you get extra pay!” she added

“Don’t worry I’ll go.”

“Call me if you need any help, we all know how people’s “get togethers” can be.”

-

You were greeted by a rather smiley Top. “Well hello there Y/n, come right on in!” he slurred.

“Aaaaand he is drunk.” You thought. “Why am I not surprised?” His drinking habits were never a surprised to you. You cleaned that place the mornings after his get togethers before. Although you never seen him drunk, his current state didn’t throw you off, but you couldn’t help but be a bit disappointed. A part of you hoped you would have better final encounter with him, a sober one, before he would have to be gone for two years.

You looked past him, easily seeing the mess that he wanted cleaned. He let you in, slurring a rap to himself as you found a clear path to the kitchen. As far as you knew, the mess spread from the kitchen to the living room. You had a tough job ahead of you, but it was nothing you couldn’t handle on your own.

Surprisingly there was no one else in the place and it was the only thing that kept you at ease. You didn’t have to worry about another drunk making more of a mess while you were cleaning.

As you worked the counters, which was your cleaning routine in his home, Top stumbled his way around you and grabbed a wine bottle from his fridge. “Sorry for you coming again!” He practically shouted, unaware of how loud he was.

“It’s fine, it is my job.” Sure you were annoyed by the task, but it was all worth it to see him again.

He shuffled past you towards the living room, needing furniture to keep him balanced every once and awhile. “Yeah, the guys came over.” He said with alcohol in hand and he plopped down on his usual spot on the couch.

By “the guys” he probably meant the rest of big bang. You never met them, but now it kind of made sense how all the mess came to be.

You hustled with the kitchen cleaning, answering Top’s slurred rambling with “Uh huh” “Oh really?” and “yeah sure” every so often. You eventually finished the dining room and finally you were able to clean the living room. As always, Top sat in his spot as you cleaned around him. His bottle was still unopened but he was finishing an old glass he must have left on the coffee table. For some reason, he wasn’t speaking to you like he was when you were in the other room. He was quiet as you cleaned. Every so often you would look back at him, making sure he hadn’t passed out and every time he was staring back at you. Slowly would he give you a sloppy smile along with a drunken giggle.

Once you were done with the living room, you made your way towards the door. “Um, I am going to go now…” You wanted to say a better farewell, but there wasn’t much of a point when he wasn’t in the most sound of states.

“No wait!” He threw himself over his couch, his hand reaching out for you dramatically. “Don’t go yet!” he slurred.

You stepped away from the door.

“Come- come drink with me! This is the bottle just for you and me.” He pointed at the bottle he had taken out of the fridge earlier. “It is never fun to drink alone.”

Hesitantly, you moved over to the loveseat across from where he sat. He then opened the bottle, cheering at the loud pop of the cork and quickly slid you your glass. “Thanks” you said awkwardly. However, you did not take a drink.

Despite his drunk state, he was quick to notice that you didn’t even take a sip. “Why aren’t you drinking?”

“Well, I drove here… So, I shouldn’t drink.” On top of your logical reason, the idea of drinking with him was so odd. It felt like you were crossing the professional line.

“Oh one drink isn’t going to kill you!”

He made a good point, plus the last thing you wanted to do was upset him more, so you took a drink.

“C’mon let’s talk, let’s get real! No holding back!” he said noticing your uneasiness.

“Well then… To get this out of the way… Why are you asking me to drink with you?” You surprised yourself. Time and time again you had day dream of this type of moment, but now that it was actually happening, and considering the type of relationship you had with him, this all felt so weird and a bit wrong.

He nonchalantly shrugged at your question. “Why not?”

“… Because I am your cleaning lady… And besides the fifteen-minute talks we have in your art room, we don’t really converse at all.”

“First of all, you are not my cleaning lady. You do have other clients and all. And second of all… Secondly? Second of all?... Whatever! Uh… Yeah! We don’t talk a lot so why not start now?”

You nodded blankly at his reasoning, having no other way to respond to his words.

He took a swig from his glass. “So what are you besides a cleaning lady? Got a boyfriend? A family? Any other jobs?” When he had said “real talk”, he really meant “real talk”.

“Uh, no boyfriend. Family lives far away and I am just a cleaning lady. This job pays well, so I don’t need to do anything else.

“Cool cool.”

As time went by, he continued to ask you deeper, more personal questions and you had begun to do the same.

“You know, you aren’t really what I expected.” you admitted as you took the last gulp from your fourth glass of wine. “I always saw your Instagram and all those videos and variety shows about you and you are always so out there!” You expressed your words by flinging your arms out in the air as you mumbled away. “And towards me, you are so reserved.”

He scoffed at you with a drunken smirk. “What do you expect? I don’t have to be like that when I am home. This is my place, this is my cave. I don’t have to be T.O.P I can like, just be myself here… But lately, that isn’t so great.” He frowned.

“Why?”

“I’m fucked up and I am getting screwed over at all angles!” Almost instantly he was in a bad mood.

You felt yourself frown. “What do you mean?”

He didn’t answer you, he just dug his face into his hands.

With much effort, you got your buzzed body off the loveseat and made your way up to him, almost falling over in the process. You sat next to him and began awkwardly patting him on the back, this being the most physical contact you ever had with him besides the rare handshake. “Don’t say things like that. I am sure that isn’t the case.”

“Yes I am!” he said as he leaned back, accidentally pinning your hand against the couch. “I am getting fucking old! My generation of idols is dying out… not like literally dying, but all these new little fuckers are taking up all the lime-light and getting international attention, the attention that my era has worked so hard for! All these kids are taking over and what’s gonna be left for me after I’m gone for two years?!? After I leave, then Jiyong leaves, then the rest of the guys have to leave! What’s gonna happen to Big Bang?!? And you know what?... But then again do i even deserve it all? I don’t think I do. When i think about it. I don’t even like the real me.” He confessed. “That is why I like acting so much… I’m not me, I am someone else… When I’m not a character or when I’m not T.O.P, I’m just a drunk, insecure fuck. I can’t even be decent enough of a human being to get my shit together. Youngbae is on the verge of marriage and I’m just… I’m just… I-“ He couldn’t even get himself to finish his words. With that, he chugged down his glass of wine.

With your free hand, you grabbed his arm and gave it a squeeze. “I don’t know why you think that about yourself. I think you are pretty amazing!” you admitted. “You’re so talented and handsome, I don’t see what you could be so insecure about. And like… like… um, all the new groups, like almost every one of them look up to you! You are a legend! Your presence and that of Big Bang isn’t going to fade away, not anytime soon!” You refilled his glass of wine and your own as well, hoping another drink would cheer him up. “And your acting, fuck, that is amazing too! Every time I saw your movie or drama, it made me obsess over you even more… Oh, yeah, I am a huge fan of yours in case you didn’t know, ha!” you took a quick sip before you started talking again. “Now, about your life, look around, I would say you are doing pretty well. Seunghyun, from what I know about you, you aren’t the most conventional person, so why try to live a conventional life?”

He looked up at you, trying his best to process your words. He put his arms up on the couch to lift his slumped form, in the process, throwing one of his arms around you. His lifted his eyebrows, creating the creases on his forehead that made his overall expression so eye catching. “I don’t know if it is the wine talking or the fact that I leave the day after tomorrow, but why don’t we do something unconventional?” He mumbled as his lips came close to yours

-Admin Boat

[betweenlifeandfiction]

Another me  (part 2)

Imagine you become someone else. That’s what happens to Kang Min Sun. After unclear circumstances she starts new life as Hana. That’s how she meets Kwon Jiyong and the rest of YG artists. At first it seems like a dream but nobody’s life perfect and soon Min Sun will learn this lesson.

Genre: melodrama/comedy/fantasty

It’s meant to be wrote in style of kdrama. Jiyong as a male lead and Seunghyun as a second lead. Reader as Min Sun/Hana- female lead.

Part 1

Kim Ha Na, more known as Hana. She debuted in 2014 as a solo artist after being the YG trainee. Her first album was sucessful and later she recorded two songs with T.O.P and G-Dragon. She also had few cameos in dramas. She’s said to have come back at the end of this year.

These were basic information about a person who was apparently you now. Or you was actually this person. In her body. Trying to figure it out was causing another panic attacks so you just decided to stay glued to computer and continue reading information about Kim Hana. You stucked in some apartment and before you left hospital, bodyguard had to deal with reporters in front of building. Until your leg was broken you had to act like you was really a person in whom body you lived. You had to act you remember things so you tried to find as much news about Hana as possible. You had to act that you’re not scared of a fact that you actually moved in time from 1998 to 2018.

Hana, you can search Internet on your phone. It’s uncomfortable to sit at the table woth plastered leg. You manager said and put this weird, flat thing on a desk. Your previous phone looked simpler but this one was colorful and had big screen without keyboard. It looked so complicated and it was locked by password that you didn’t remember.

Want me to help you to sit on bed? Manager asked you.

I.. I wanna eat ramen. you changed subject.

Ramen? You always eat greece salad at this hour.

You stopped yourself from making surprised face. Your manager came up to fridge. You would normally tell him to mind his business but you tightened your mouth to stop yourself from comments. This girl seemed polite and strict. Unlike you with your bad temper and laziness. You looked again at beautiful furnitures around you. This place looked expensive.

It’s a dream to live in so great apartment. you sighed to yourself.

That’s why it’s yours. This is one of your favourites, isn’t it? Man added and gave you your salad.

Do I have another apartments? you asked without thinking. He looked at you surprised behind his round glasses. Ah.. Right. Now I remember. Everything comes back to my mind.

You doubted it sounded reliably but it was better than nothing. Then your manager said he would leave your for a while to buy more products to your kitchen. It was so unusual to be treated this way. For the next week you literally studied from Internet about korean wave, idols and YG artists. Meantime you started private rehabilitation with doctor at your home. Even beautician came to take care of your skin and nails. You felt like a princess.

Ah.. What a beautiful life. you sighed and took another seafood from your plate. You was sitting on the folding chair in fluffy robe. Month have passed in the blink of an eye.

Hana, your mother calls you. your menager told you and he took your iphone from a table and handed it to you.

My mom? you said with enthusiasm before you realized he didn’t mean your real mom. It felt awkward at first but later you just acted like you really talked by phone with someone who was your mother. You planned to find out about her and leave this place after convalescence.

No. There’s really no need to fly from USA, mom. I’m getting better. you said at the end when Mrs.Kim suggested to visit you.

Anyway. I’ll visit you in nearer future. Call me more often.

Yes. Thanks. Bye, mom.

Few minutes later when you ened your conversation, your phone started to ring again. You saw a name on a lockscreen: Yang Hyun Suk.

Answer for me. you asked your menager.

Oh.. Ok. he mumbled. Yes, Mr. Yang? Here’s Park Dae Hyun. Yes. She’s better now. Doctor said she will be able to walk without struches soon. Meeting? Tomorrow? Yes, sir. I think we will handle it. Goodbye.

What meeting? you asked when Dae Hyun disconnected.

All artists have a meeting with CEO to sum up current projects and establish new things.

When next day your driver stopped a car in front of YG buildling, you couldn’t believe what you saw. Dozens of photoreporters and not less of fans gathered close to your car. Your manager told you to put sunglasses on and asked two bodyguards to go out first.

Hana! Hana! group of girls started to scream when you went on the sidewalk. You collides with your bodyguard’s back when he pushed away intrusive reporter. Now you knew you was said to hide behind sunglasses. Flashes of cameras were so blinding. Everybody around tried to come closer and take a photo or record you. Second bodyguard and your manager helped you to walk by crutches and enter entrance. When you finally came to elevator, you could say that you felt safe. Your manager opened a door to big conference room. All eyes turned to you.

Welcome back, Hana. Please, take a seat. you heard familiar voice. It was CEO Yang. You watched few videoclips with him during your stay at apartment. You actually got know about all of these people in room. Three man on the left were from Epik High. Then girls from Blackpink and boys from Winner. You still didn’t remember names of all of them.

Good morning. you said and you barely bowed.

Here’s free place. said a man with small eyes and prominent nose. It was Kang Daesung. Rest of members were sitting next to him on the right side. When you sat, you looked closely. You recognized that man behind dark glasses was T.O.P. You was curious if he was as handsome as on photos but you could only see his profile. The next one was a dark-haired man in weird clothes, G-Dragon. He had a face that even women could envy. Then it was maknae of Big Bang, Seungri. He looked at you and smiled at the same time with Taeyang who was next to him. You shyly bowed what was nothing like you but it was a first time when so many handsome men was looking at you at the same time. It felt so great to live like a celebrity and be a real beauty. Maybe I should live this dream a little bit longer? You thought.

Ok. If everybody’s present, let’s start. CEO annouced. He discussed with Winner about their tour and then he looked at you.

Hana-sshi, we’re glad that you’re fine. YG will take care about press but I would like you to give an interview after few months. Reporters are at the building so please, agree with Dae Hyun if you want to make a short statement. It’s the best moment when they know that you arrived here.

Yes. you answered shortly.

We will talk about that planned collaboration with GD when you fully recover. Mr. Yang continued. You stifled your moan, hearing this. So you was meant to start some project with GD? Shit..

We will talk it out when Hana will be in good shape. Meantime I will be re-writing a song. you heard Kwon Ji Yong.

That’s all right. CEO said and looked at you again. I hope it won’t take more than a month for you to be able to work again. I’m really rooting for this project but that schedule is not a problem for you.

I will work hard. You anwered just like these all idols from videos used to say. These informations helped you a lot to deal with this situation but after Mr Yang’s words you suddenly felt so helpless. Trainees worked hard for years to improve their singing and dancing skills. You had no preparation, you couldn’t sing or dance, you didn’t know how to talk with press and the most importantly you was different person with your own memories and experiences.

I’m fully responsible for someone’s sucess now. you whispered to yourself when you left a room.

What? your menager asked you.

Nothing. I need to go to bathroom. you suddenly said.

I can’t go to female..

I know. I’m able to pee on my own. Don’t worry. you interrupted him. He looked embarrased. You entered toilet and looked around. It was only you. You wanted to try again with phone call to your mom. You only wanted to hear her voice. The last time there was no answer. Maybe she changed her number? It’s been ten years. Your heart was beating so fast and then you heard someone’s voice.

Hello?

You froze. Female voice asked again. It sounded exactly like your sister’s. But she was living in Busan and you wasn’t that close.

H-Hello? you stuttered.

Who’s there?

You knew she couldn’t recognize you when your voice was different so you found a new solution.

Hello. Is it Mrs.Kang‘s phone?

Oh.. Yes. But she can’t talk. Your sister answered.

When can I call her then?

Who are you? She asked you after a while. She was always suspicious.

I’m.. Sun Min’s friend from high school. I lost her number and some of former friends wanted to meet up.

I’m sorry.. You probably didn’t know it. She said with tensed voice. My sister is dead for ten years.

Suddenly you wasn’t able to make any sound. You even couldn’t move. It felt like you was close to fainting.

I’m really sorry but I can’t help you. I thought that all of her friends knew. I’m at the hospital. Our mother had a stroke few months ago.

Then you could only hear her crying. And you was crying with her. On the other side of line. When you already disconnected and fell to the ground. Your sob mingled with a sound of falling crutches.

Mom.. I’m sorry. You sobbed loudly and touched your chest with pain. It felt like something was tearing apart inside of you. I’m dead, I’m dead..

What’s happening there? some low voice came out behind a door.

I’m dead.. I died. You kept repeating in silent voice. Tears were still falling. You saw long legs in black, laquered boots in front of you.

Hana? What happend?

You looked up. Choi Seunghyun was standing in the doorstep.

Where’s you menager? he kept asking. Some man behind him, moved closer and picked up your crutches. They both looked shocked and you slowly realized that you was sitting in the middle of the public toilet with probably blurred make-up and red eyes. This pain inside was so strong and you couldn’t do anything. And you didn’t want to move. Do anything.

Come on. Seunghyun said and grabbed your hands. You forced yourself to stand up.

Hana!

Your manager showed up. Tht other man gave you crutches and put sunglasses on your face.

That’s better when you’re leaving in front of many people. he suggested.

What’s going on? I only left to buy coffe. Your menager said.

Why did you leave her when you know she has problems with walking now? Seunghyun said with irritation. You looked into his eyes behind dark glasses. His eyes had so deep, dark shade and thick lashes.

Aish.. She always drinks coffe at this hour. I thought it won’t take that long. Your manager kept whining when four of you walked corridor.

Thank you. I’m thankful. You said to T.O.P and grabbed his hand. He shuddered with surprise.

Are you ok? You don’t seem good. Why did you cry? Men next to him- probably his manager asked.

It’s this accident.. you started and tears started falling down your cheeks again.

Aigoo.. She’s still stressed. Let’s go home, Hana. You can drink coffe in car. You manager said and took you by hand. Thank you for help. He said to T.O.P and his manager.

Hana, we’re family. You can count on us. T.O.P suddenly said. You nodded and went to elevator. It felt like this man was the one who understood what a real nervous breakdown meant. He seemed empathic. Maybe that’s why you grabbed his hand without thinking. It’s been a long time since someone sympathized with you.