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â Elena Ferrante, The Story of the Lost Child
#thinking hard and long about the relationship between perfectionism/self hate/writing/etc that this last part of the book touches#l'amica geniale#elena ferrante#the story of the lost child#on writing#*#you have to want something to survive you#the connection between writing and wanting to live#mmmh#like itâs not just about the creative process in itself itâs about something that lasts with your name with a part of yourself#for the rest of the world to see
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I apologize if this sounds like nonsense to you but I love astrology and even if the characters are fictional I like to analyze these silly things lol
I was thinking how Kell (a cancer) dislikes Alucard (a gemini) but the latter gets along super well with other water signs (both Lila and Rhy are scorpios lmao and gemini x scorpio is such a rare pairing that matches each others' freak bc they are super unhinged together. And do I need to mention cancer x scorpio? another super unhinged pairing who apparently is a best match).
I think Kell dislikes Alucard because cancers tend to be hardly forgiving if you hurt the people they love, but it got better with time because he saw that Alucard stayed next to Rhy and proved to be trustworthy (Kell roasts Alucard a lot in tftop and claims he isn't guarding Rhy properly but we know that is not true). He still finds him annoying and trusts him reluctantly but it's better compared to the past. Whereas Alucard is 100% teasing him but he doesn't hate Kell. Kell hates this behavior because he values sincerity a lot and I admit that geminis like to be super unserious to the point of seeming like we are not reliable. But it's not true because if we like someone, we stick around and we are loyal bitches. If you think about it, Alucard also teased Lila to get information out of her in agos, and she hated it but she quickly made up with him because he earned her trust, and he is still her bestie to this day. I think that Alucard can understand Lila and be there as her friend and the same is true for Rhy and Kell because he understands him so well.
Like I said, gemini x scorpio is really powerful and so is scorpio x cancer so yeah the adsom ships and the friendships are well paired?
#shades of magic#this started from a convo I (a gemini) just had with my sis (a cancer) bc she said she thought I hated her when we were kids#bc I always teased her and I really can't with her sometimes fr but I don't hate her. I just like to joke a lot lol#cancers seem to dislike me lol while I am compatible with scorpio/pisces. Would Kell hate me? </3 idk#adsom#kell maresh#alucard emery#lila bard#rhy maresh#maybe when I'm bored I could also analyze the single relationships based on astrology mmmh#my text posts
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weird silly little emotional dump
I wish we could somehow detach the idea that the higher ups and stock holders and Toto are Mercedes - I know why its used as a hateable catch all, and I say it too, I get it, but at Tims like this even if they make the choices, they aren't what makes the team win, not really
Those factory workers, The mechanics, the people lining the streets for Lewis, the workers out in the rain and in tears- they are Mercedes. they people who work overnights to create cars from ideas, that's Mercedes. The guys who loved and worked for Lewis - that's Mercedes
in that sense, Mercedes does love Lewis, and he will always be their family, regardless of what big wig idiots say or do. The people actually working for change, Lewis included, they are what made that team who it is.
#im having complicated feelings about the merc move part 1000#because when people say they hate Mercedes as in the higher ups#yeah me too I 100% agree#but when I see those videos of the team with the captions that Mercedes loves him#I identify so heavily with those#those people who had no say in what contract he got offered but still worked to make the teams fly#the people who felt like they got no say but still adore what he built because it'll never not be his team#mercedes will never be Ferrari or McLaren or red bull- to me#it will always be lewis' team#when people ask me if im a team supporter I get so stuck#because not without the right driver- not really#but at the same time- I felt happiest when lewis and val or lewis and George won#and all those people who loved him too got to be happy#it felt like a community I fitted into- where as I feel I don't really fit into driver communities#lewis or George for that matter#mmmh#weird rambling on the nature of being a fan#to be deleted later#sorry lads my free therapy sessions are up Tumblr is what ive got
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When i transitioned i had to give up my versatile singing voice and all my skirts and heels. I miss them all equally even though i dont regret a single thing about transitioning. I haven't worn a dress in five years but that doesn't mean i don't want to. My four-inch-heeled blue sequined boots still fit me and sometimes i wear them around the house even if i'm too shy to be gnc in public.
These feelings stopped me from transitioning for a long time and they didn't change when i finally did. I hope that resonates with you
bless you anon! i'm really glad that it's something you don't regret, and i'm glad you're living closer to the you that you want to be - but i also hope you can conquer any fears you have and present to the world the way you want to be seen. i think life's too short to make compromises!
me, i don't think i could go all the way - i think there's a lot about myself i just - i don't want to change. (i'll be honest, the biggest thing i'm scared about with T is what goes on between your legs. i'm terrified of that. i know it's different for everyone, but that makes it even scarier. i'm so familiar with what's down there. i don't want to wake up one morning and it's different. the horrors of one puberty was enough for me. i'm still recovering from my first puberty. i don't want to go through it again. not again. oh dear god.)
i think that's another part of why i thought "oh, i must not be a boy. because i don't want to transition. i have top dysphoria, and Dear God I'd love Top Surgery, but i like what i have between my legs. i like my voice. i like being soft. i like my girlish hobbies. if i like being feminine so much, how does it make sense to claim i'm a boy?" and i think that's a silly line of thinking i had. and i only realised how silly that sounded when other people said it to me. someone said they were worried about identifying as non-binary because they're very pink and very femme. i said - the whole point of non-binary is that it's something you define. pink and femme have nothing to do with it. it's a label you don't have to qualify for! you don't have to qualify to be trans. i know a lot of people trick you into thinking that but - it's just not true. whatever shape you are, whatever preferences you have, whatever you're comfortable wearing, whatever you're comfortable proclaiming - it's on your terms. nobody can tell you what you're meant to feel or how you want to be seen. that's you. you have to define yourself, i guess. nobody else should be able to do that on your behalf!
so i'm a boy, i guess. right now. i'm allowed to be. i declare it so! i'm allowed to be a boy. even in my pink sneakers and my little love-heart chains and all my girlish ways.
#sci speaks#i'm fortunate that i love most things about me. i love my voice and my body and everything. okay i don't like my chest. that's the one thin#i realise actually that's quite lucky. i shouldn't feel guilty about that.#it's a good thing to love most things about you. i shouldn't question it and say âmmmh. but that means you're faking huh??â#i'd never say that to anyone else. so it's stupid to say it to me.#what a silly thing to do. hate yourself for loving yourself. that's?? what kind of mental gymnastics are those.#so i know i'm lucky. i'm fortunate. i know what dysphoria feels like. i don't want to feel More of it. the amount i have is enough.#i know where my dysphoria begins and ends. it's pretty consistent. i'm in a lucky spot. all of this is so lucky.
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So apparently totk isnât getting a dlc hereâs some botw->totk things that make me go mmmmhÂ
#Ok the last one is just me coping with the fact that they got rid of elemental weapons and arrows for the fuse mechanic#they could have just gave you more power if you matched the elements correctly or some fucked up things if you don't#also this is just some of the things that make me go mmmh#like I could have added that in botw everyone was like wow link it's like you can slow down time and then they gave zelda time powers#or durians#like c'mon man#link#zelda#riju#yunobo#botw#breath of the wild#totk#tears of the kingdom#this has been in the drafts for a good while#i just found out they donât let gorons in gerudo town anymore#i hate it here#and when you talk to robbie his sick ass guitar rift isn't there anymore :(#my friend told me this one apparently riju doesn't talk in gerudo tounge not once??#I'm not going to check that shit again#really hope the no dlc isn't true cause this game's story is fucking ass#all the more reason to not take this game as canon#also they straight up just got rid of Kass#totk critical#totk salt#snix talks
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I HATE HYPOCRITE PPL!!!!! I HATE YOU I HATE YOY!!!
#âOoo proshi dni ew kysâ hey im proship why are you following me âooh ohhh noo but but you are okay hehe âşď¸âşď¸ you are good bc i like your stu#ffâ#mmmh......#go away#UGHHHHHGGGGHG#I DONT WANNA BE ONE OF THE âGOOD ONESâ JUTS BC YOU LIKE MY DRAWINGS#I HATE YOUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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"ughhhhhhh why so many people ship g.houlcy?" well, 1. because enemies to lovers/narrative foils/beauty&thebeast dynamics are universally hot, and 2. sweetheart, have you perhaps considered that you may be in the wrong fandom for being an annoying puritan? just saying.
#you don't have to like it but at least stay in your line and don't tag your hate. thanks!#'mmmh why is the sicko ship in the sicko show adapted from the sicko games so popular?' yeah who knows. it's a proper mystery đ#val speaks#txt
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Some of yall really don't know what it means to be working class in some countries. Yes maybe we can afford little "luxuries" from time to time but that doesn't make people rich or capable to completely boycott the low costs companies.
#what is middle class does it exist and working class is all poor or just can't afford certain stuff? it's more complicated now than ever#and yet yes labour should be payed right it isn't and life costs a shitton of money and people are like i rather buy this than eat bc yolo#who are you to judge tho? ik it's a vicious circle but it's also quite classist to think that we should boycott shein or McDonald's bc#they're evil but cheap and we want to pay according to what we get. do u think speculation isn't a thing even w ethical stuff#omg people don't want to pay 400 euros for vegan jeans or 8900 dollars for a painting they want free ai art shame shame#maybe people want things they can't afford and should just settle yk i can't afford a Ferrari oh well and then comes china w a fake ferrari#that costs 3 dollars and ur like mmmh and the ferrari was built by children and maybe ur evil or maybe laws can step in#and create an option in the middle#it's not always poor people greed or fomo fault if they want to have something more at a lower price#do u really think that everything expensive that says it's fair and good really is? based on what#a.i. is so hated but it's trained on what's popular in what humans value and artists are so pretentious so who's really evil#usians wouldnt understand yall pay everything will to pay demand to pay more..u dont even get the concept of bargain and that sets the tone
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I like to think that haters ARE fans, but instead of having positive feelings/love for "ABC" end up having negative feelings/hatred for "ABC"
Something that I have from the depths of my being...
#lol#just a thought#Haters#Fans#Spending a lot of time on one thing just because you âhateâ it#Mmmh#fan behavior#I just say it#That thought makes my day#Yes
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Some people really need to learn the difference between HATE and HAVING A DIFFERENT OPINION THAT IS NOT EXACTLY POSITIVE bc so many people nowadays refuse to face any criticism or diversity
#have u noticed that even diversity must be the right kind?usually the non threatening profitable ucandoit cute one?#but also that people would discourse hate fight bully but can't for shit have a normal conversation in which a and b kindly disagree?#it's like we are thought that comfortable and painless is the only way that's why when it's not people react so violently they don't know#better. i don't believe in bubbles i believe in reasonable adults talking until they say ok we disagree bye or mmmh u may have a point
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Went on twt once and once again you have people twisting idols words out of this world or taking them as gospel...God it must be exhausting there
#piss on the poor on purpose and everyone retweets like ya yes true yes mmmh. get a brain??#all bc i was looking for a fancall that someone decided to boycott đ´đŞđŞ#and i found out that the person wasn't even a fan...just rich...thank i hate it
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sarah z's new vid is about "the most hated season of buffy" and i thought it was going to be s04 because well. obviously lmao but it's THE SIXTH ??? my FAVOURITE season since forever ??????????? you see this is why democracy doesn't work people just don't know what's good for them
#btvs#look you can be furious about tara i too am furious about tara forever#but s06 fucks ?? severely ?? what are all these people on#i gotta work out but i'm defs watching this right after#maybe it says more about me than everyone who hates it idk but yeah ok it's dark and depressing but look#after season five ?? (my second favourite probably. although we do have all the yuri from s03 mmmh) how do you follow up#s06 buffy is probably my favourite she was yeeted out of HEAVEN by her FRIENDS. HELLO. of course everyone is depressed#and idk man i like seeing the characters struggle. i like them in darker spots. anyway i have things to do but i'm Annoyed
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entertainer | jjk (m)
Summary: Growing singer Jeon Jungkook is as charismatic as he is self-absored â that is, until he meets you. Caught in a web of secrets, he finds a riddle in you he urges to solve; even ready to turn the spotlight towards you until nothing remains⌠but regret.
âł pairing: Jungkook x reader âł rating: 18+ âł genre: strangers to lovers (or something); angst, bits of fluff, smut!! âł warnings: do not fall for this jk i repeat do not fâ đ¨ he's kinda hot though; (not so) silent yearning, flirting, a shit ton of sexual tension, sexual fantasies, some jealousy from his side, he is very VERY attracted to her, mystery, oc is a big question mark, full jk pov!, difficult past(s), (mention of) sexual harassment, mentioned past death of a side character, crying, fear, manipulation, confrontation and fighting, aggression, cursing, cocky and selfish kook, overthinking, secrets and revelations, explicit sexual content: kissing, fingering, teasing, drunk shenanigans, sooo much lust, big dick jk, dom jk, oc is odd, oral (f. receiving), spit stuff, handjob, manhandling, orgasm delay, lip ringâŚ, light choking, bit of hair pulling, a spank or two, coming on oc, some cum tasting mmmh, ass stuff, protected sex, rough sex, various positions, masturbation; as always THE ENDING!! lmk if i forgot something!! âł wc: 32.4k âł a/n: MHMMM, it's finally time!! i experimented with the trope a little; def not a professional when it comes to this genre, but i tried my best. both oc and jk are odd in this one, and you might be on either's side and hate either of them, i can't say :'D very curious tho, so come and drop a message to lmk what you think. let it aaaall out :P <3
âł listen to the Entertainer playlist! 𤠠Â
TAGLISTÂ | MASTERLIST | WIPsÂ
Jungkook has always wanted an audience to perceive him.
Not just to perceive him, in fact. To worship him.
Jungkook doesnât consider himself a bad person. Spoiled, a little selfish, but not necessarily bad. He enjoys attention, no matter how temporary or who the giver of it. Feasts on it like an incubus.
Whatâs wrong with that? Nothing.
Or.Â
Maybe there is. Maybe heâs coming on too strong.
Because youâre not part of his audience, sitting over there, middle row, middle spot, with your eyes lowered to the notebook. And when you do look up, thereâs nothing but indifference in your eyes.
It irks him. Maybe he is a little narcissistic, and maybe he canât quite deny it after all â but as part of his future team, you should at least fake a smile, right? Display a certain amount of enthusiasm, the joy of working with aspiring artists.
But no.
Youâre occupied, scribbling into your notebook. Jungkook, cognisant of the fact that he hasnât issued much of significance today, understands that you cannot be taking notes of his words. And he also understands that⌠if that is trueâŚ
Youâre not granting him as much fascination as heâs used to.
General admiration thrown into the same bucket as his unwavering talent â that heâs well aware of â might just be the reason he climbed up so high in no time. Sometimes, gentle livestreams and vlogs do the trick â locals have found reasons to adore him already.
At times, a good song and strong vocals arenât necessary to woo people.
Jungkook, however, is insatiable â thatâs what keeps him pondering at times. That itâs just the locals, and on an international scale, thereâs still much to achieve.
But heâs not a quitter, heâs a conqueror.
And heâll reach that mind-boggling status of a well-known, global icon, name flowing as naturally through the seam of peopleâs lips as a still-lying, tranquil lake.
Jungkook knows itâs cocky of him to praise himself to the skies and to rely on his resolute hopes so much. He knows life backfires sometimes, and that endeavours donât always pay off. He only started as an insignificant city boy, too.
Survived the cruelty of elementary and middle school; shared a room with his brother, relying on him until he grew and learned to finally rule over high school; every single soul at his beck and call. Then, trudged through college before any of where heâs standing even existed.
But heâs here now. And people acknowledge it.
Except you.
And it throws him off his balance. Which is probably why he shortens the end of his speech, close to slurring distracted syllables before he realises heâs forgotten a prepared sentence or two.
No matter; the relevant and main message should have been delivered by now.
So he leans back in a chair in the back, flashing a captivating smile and waits for the applause. Somewhat proud when the praise needs a moment to cease for his manager to reclaim the mic, freeing the metaphorical stage, much in the form of a simple pult, for the CEO of the company.
Taehyung is savvy of how to regain control over a stage; Jungkook doesnât know whether he fucked up his final remarks, but Taehyung summarises his ideas well. But the clapping does say a lot.
And between those raising their hands to appreciate Jungkookâs speech, you were, too. He knows because he looked directly at you; still is. And when your eyes drift to his, the two of you hold each otherâs gazes for at least a couple seconds longer than the others.
And your smile, while present, is somewhat tight-lipped, a bit awkward but confident, too. Odd, as well; hard to explain, but as though you know what you want. As though you have your priorities set straight and cannot be swayed by anything the world might throw at you.
He doesnât have a word for it. Poised? Self-reliant? Fearless? Can a single look even say this much or is he being delusional?
But this canât be true, honestly. Nobody is this unperturbed or passive. Heâll find out.
Your stare aligns with his a couple more times over the next minutes, staying there before continuing the journey over the crowd. Jungkookâs eyebrows twitch just a little whenever your eyes pierce into his, so tantalising and deep, big sweet ires, but so conniving at the same time.
He doesnât know your name, but heâs sure that it defines intrigue. And maybe, just perhaps, it might serve as the synonym for drop fucking dead gorgeous, too.
When Taehyung leads you to Jungkookâs stuffy studio, the latter hears your voice through the open door several seconds before you come in. Or actually, itâs not quite his studio.
More like a collective office that a couple of the newcomers use. Jungkook has been part of this crew a little longer, but he needs the additional success, more prosperity; heâs been told to yield more results to earn his very own four walls. Carrying his signature flavour.
But itâs okay. For now, this sufficesâŚ
The stench of coffee and the sound of the AC. The pot and plants that always rest in some corner of the room, courtesy of Taehyung who insists on some colour in the grey-white, small room. Jungkook has gotten used to it all.
Which is why itâs strange, seeing your splendour enter the small space, delighted by whatever Taehyung might be explaining. Your grin is the widest Jungkook has seen since yesterday.
He didnât get to meet you properly yet, so he canât say where your humour lies. Nobody introduced you, despite your new position as his very own, personal work partner. A second manager, here to guide and aid him when Taehyung canât; and apparently, youâve found some charm in Taehyung that you didnât see in Jungkook during the stupid meeting.
Not that Jungkook would ever dare to doubt his friendâs appeal, but youâve stormed into his life like a present, and so silently, too; and he wanted to be the one to open it. To reveal it.
Not Taehyung. Even if itâs his job.
Okay. Calm down. Jungkook sighs. That again.
A motherly blanket of praises and fatherly pats of pride. Thatâs whatâs gotten his head so riled up. He was coddled too much as a child. Made felt special. Thatâs over now, Jeon, youâre in an industry filled to the brim with competition.
Chill chill chill.
But now?
With that alluring smile staring up at Taehyung, only hints of it left when your eyes move to Jungkook. Fuck.
But Jungkookâs stance remains steadfast and self-assured when he greets, âHi there. Welcome at last, huh?â
Jungkook notices when your mind snaps out of the conversation with Taehyung and into the one he started; a gentle hand frees your face off your hair to enable a proper view to it. The other is still dug deep in the pocket of your leather jacket, covering parts of the white top underneath.
Semi-long, silver earrings rest right below your ear, against your neck when you tilt your head a little; your expression so respectful and inviting when you smile. Jungkook inhales you in that one split moment, details stinging into the eye without much effort.
And perhaps heâd observe more, appreciate your stunning, obvious beauty and elegance further; but time passes as it does before you finally utter your very first sentence to him, âHi. Didnât think Iâd ever be saying this, butâŚÂ thank you for having me.â
Thatâs sweet.
Your words are reminiscent of the adoration his fans grant him, but your expression is as cool as a refreshing autumn wind. The perfect balance, possibly.
Jungkook gestures to a small couch in the back, right next to the door, but you raise a rejecting hand, claiming, âBeen sitting all day observing Taehyung. Need to walk a bit.â
And you do. Deliver a last farewell nod to Taehyung who waves a little, gripping the handle and locking you in the room with the younger man nearly drooling over you.
The hand hidden in the jacket before has emerged, arms loosely folded as you take in the interior of the studio, allowing no more insight into your thoughts than, âNice.â
Jungkook hums in distracted agreement, standing at the wall, watching you roam around the humble space in small steps. Itâs odd, being in here with you; the atmosphere fizzles, a little less like electricity, just a bit more than carbonic acid.
But the moment was to arrive anyway; youâll be a close link to Jungkook from now on. Of course you need to familiarise yourself with his space, too. So far, you seem to have an opinion on it already.
âEasy to trigger claustrophobia, but,â you walk through the open door to the darker recording room, tapping the mic for a moment, âcosy, too. Very cool equipment.â
âYeah. I agree.â Pause, eyes dropping to your fingers grazing the stand of the mic. Then, âI wouldâve come to you today⌠or yesterday for that matter, but things were so chaotic andââ
âOh, donât worry,â you assure, waving his concerns off, âI could see people rushing around and preparing the moment I got here. Iâm probably not the main concern right now among everybody.â
âNah, thatâs not it. We have a great team here.â You step out again, hands folding behind your back until youâre leaning against the wall opposite of him, mirroring his stance. âIâm sorry you arrived at such a stressful time, though.â
âNot your fault. I decided so myself fully knowing you were in the middle of something.â
Ah. So youâve seen his interviews, read the news. You came here with sufficient knowledge about him, alright.
âReally though,â you continue, blinking slowly, âIâm just glad to be here at all.â
Ah. Yes â about that.
âWhat brought you to our company anyway?â Jungkook asks, coating his voice in sugar to decrease the risk of unintentional and prying rudeness. âI mean â itâs been a while since somebody joined the main team, is all.â
âOh. What brought me hereâŚâ You slide down the wall just a few inches, staring at your feet before you meet his eyes again. Something flashes in them for a miniscule second, albeit too brief to be caught and analysed. Then, you say, âSentiments?â
Jungkook gathers words of confusion the moment you utter yours, a question already on his tongue. Has he been here long enough to evoke sentiments in his followers? Or do you veil a whole different connection to this company than he might understand?
Who knows. It doesnât feel too deep, at least, when you speak again, elaborating when his eyes reveal his bedazzlement before he can, âI mean, I like your work.â
Okay. So much he interpreted; and he must admit â the feeling of pride is a thoroughly unique one.
âI think youâve been deserving of your growth, and I just,â you speak, shrugging your shoulders, digging one heel into the solid ground, âI could never stop thinking of what Iâd say or do if I was here or how Iâd try to help, even though Iâm not a true musical genius like you.â
This is so excitingly new.
How poised you remain as you talk about your fascination for him; how carefully you choose your words. Heâs met fans before, but he doesnât think any of them has ever practised such control over themselves.
And harbouring such emotions for a tiny little celebrity like him while simultaneously treating him like a human being is an art youâve well mastered. Despite Jungkookâs urge to feel loved and worshipped to a dependent degree, youâre an incredibly attractive change in pace.
Ugh.
Dependent degree.
Although, he does wonder what youâd be like if you fawned over him.
Jungkook contains the fantasy; suppresses his sigh.
âSo,â he starts, âyouâre here because youâre a fan.â
âMmmh. Kind of. My friends started it and then pulled me into this. Honestly, at first I couldnât imagine ever getting into your stuff.â
Your gaze moved down to your trainers a mere moment ago; whether to hide your expression or give into a habit, Jungkook canât say. But the honesty surprises him; even stings a little as he voices, âOh?â
Your head shoots up, lips forming a circle before you imitate, âOh. Wait. That was⌠pretty rude.â You seek confirmation or denial in Jungkookâs eyes, and when his slightly wrinkled forehead, tight-lipped smile reveals the answer, you immediately opt for an apology, âIâm sorry. I didnât mean it like that.â
âHow did you mean it then?â
âJust that.â You fiddle in your position, bringing your digits to waist level. Then, you laugh; a rhythmic sound. âOkay, donât hate me, but. I was one to judge a book by its cover, and you had this young adult too-confident-too-sly something about you. But your musicâs surprisingly sentimental.â
Jungkook halts for a moment, moving his head to side-eye you; producing a hoarse Uhhh before he admits, âIâm not sure whether youâre complimenting me or fully destroying me.â
Another lovely laugh. âI am complimenting you. To be fully transparent, I was probably, uh, biased? Because my friend. They have a knack for usually pulling very questionable men, so I probably just didnât entirely trust their intuition.â
âFair enough. I guess?â Jungkook matches the softness of your giggle, nodding towards you, âAnd now you do?â
âMmmh, well, weâll see.â
Jungkook must be stupid. Of course you wonât be able to deduce much from the first meeting yet; perhaps the flirting needs to slow down for just now. You seem the patient kind; much like now, letting the quick silence prevail without much struggle.
No sign of awkwardness surrounds your aura; only a hint of⌠suspicion? Flashing into your eyes when you let them move through the room again, freezing right next to Jungkookâs head. Youâre not looking at him, but at something past him; but you donât question nor voice anything.
Merely return to his stare with a smile, and he uses the moment to pour some courteous manners into the mix, asking, âDo you want something to drink? Coffee, water? A Red Bull?â
But you immediately raise a hand, shaking your head, âOh, itâs okay. Iâve already got caffeine flowing there instead of blood,â you slide a finger along your arm, indicating a vein under your layers, âI just mainly came to say hi and to introduce myself. And to ask if I can help anyhow.â
âAh⌠well, uh,â Jungkook halts mid-sentence, throwing a look around as though heâs searching for something to appear before he concludes, âdonât think so. I was in the middle of some production work, but donât think I need much.â
âI see. Okay! Then Iâll leave yoââ
âBut,â Jungkook intervenes immediately, adamant on keeping you around. Maybe he can wrap up work earlier today? Bring you home? Probably not â not on Taehyungâs watch. âMaybe you can tell me what you think once Iâm done?
âOf course. Itâd be my pleasure.â
âWould have an excuse for your company, too, then.â
The laugh that follows is so subtle that Jungkook barely hears it. It doesnât leave your throat, stuck in there, just a tiny sound reminiscent of amused bafflement.Â
Jungkook knows his way around words â understands what his utterances and implications usually apply. But somehow, not too many people have been the calmer ones in the room; aside from his superiors at work, not having the upper hand is new to him.Â
So you set a fuse loose in him; destroy a nerve in his brain, changing up his communication habits. Because he certainly did not mean to say this out loud. And not in such a sense either.
He adds quickly, âI mean, it gets lonely here.â
âRightâŚâ you concur, albeit weakly and with somewhat⌠entertained mystery in your eyes? He canât say. Itâs as though youâre wearing your face as a mask, undecipherable. âI get it. Even though your studio is cosy enough to enjoy your own company at times, right?â
âNot mine. But weâll work on that.â
He cards his fingers through his hair, aware that he is probably more than an open book right now; his usual perfect poker face does not work with you.
Why?Â
Weird.
âGot a couple things here that are mine, though. Yoongi and the others allowed me,â he adds.
âAh⌠LikeâŚâ
Surprisingly enough, you take another look through the tiny room, possibly trying to detect something you didnât see before. Regarding details. Then, you settle next to his head once again⌠and once Jungkook moves his eyes off you for the first time since you came in, he sees what you see.
Which is to say, nothing much out of the ordinary. In fact, the most trivial thing in the room.
âLike that?â you voice, pushing yourself off the wall to near his relaxed body. The scent of your perfume wafts through the room before youâre close enough; tenderly grazing his senses. âWhatâs that?â
Focus.
Your finger points to the object next to him, hanging at a nail at the wall; dark blue with white letters on it. Pretty mundane, pretty basic design.
âJust⌠a cap I bought back in college.â
You read out the name, pronouncing it perfectly, yet slowing down as if youâre learning a new foreign term. The sudden inquiry is strange, too: you donât seem as truly curious about it as your question did; perhaps youâre playing for some time with him, too?
He wouldnât hate it if you did.
âDo you know that one?â he questions.
You nod; a main hint as to why you wanted to know, yet indicating that the knowledge wasnât of much significance. You say, âIsnât it a popular one? I had a few friends who went there.â
âHm⌠yeah, I mean. I guess itâs a known one. I got a degree there in broadcasting and entertainment like⌠four years ago.â
You exhale a barely audible puff of air before you whisper-murmur the most infinitesimal, petite, âDamn,â underscored with one indecipherable tilt of your head. He canât see your eyes too well, so the reaction remains as transparent as you have been thus far.
Until he raises a thick eyebrow, confusion hidden in a somewhat relaxed yet awkward smile as he wonders, âWhat?â
âHm? Oh, nothing, just. Itâs impressive how much youâve achieved in just four years, right?â
ââŚWell. If you say it like that, it does sound pretty neat.â
The bubble of pride expands alongside his ego; right beneath his chest. Somehow, the feeling changes his posture, makes him feel bigger.Â
Perhaps you notice what your praise elicits; perhaps youâve already fathomed his persona that he usually doesnât dare to reveal this fast. But whatever he conceals with his fans, lies in front of you with an open access.
You make it easy to feel comfortable; he doesnât need to know you too long to acknowledge this much.
âI graduated not too long ago, too. Three years?â
âOh⌠then look at you,â Jungkook compliments, using the moment as an excuse to examine you further; head to toe and back. Your legs are crossed, upper body and face confident, but the position somehow delicate. Hm. âYouâre quite awesome, too, donât you think?â
âI meanâ took a while to get here.â
âRight. So what have you been doing during this time since graduation?â
Whatever distraction you have found in the cap seems to break as you silently forage your brain for a response; possibly attempting not to divulge too much. And your answer is accordingly hesitant, though never dubious.
âSaving up? Preparing for life, I guess. And waiting for a good opportunity.â
For what? Do you usually keep your statements in fragments?
He prods, âTo do what?â
âWell, to do,â you gesture to the wall in front of you, albeit clearly hinting to the situation, âthis. Hoping to change everyoneâs lives around here.â
You smile wide, the joke obvious as can be, but Jungkook canât help but think that you might not be too far off. Unique minds alter brain chemistries; thereâs something unforgettable and magnetising about them, and Jungkook steadfastly believes his intuition that you might just be one of them.
For the first time ever, he murmurs your name, delighted by how easily it melts on his tongue. It falls out breathier than he intended to, but when you tilt your head, the intrigue in your pupils inexplicably matches his tone.
He adds to your name, eyelids drooping just a bit, âSoâŚÂ youâll turn out a long awaited surprise, huh?â
And you, against all expectations, lean in for just a minimal, not too inconsequential moment, hands back in your jacket. Itâs a playful, harmless motion as you move back on your heels, then steady yourself again, bodies and faces still far away. You couldâve just as well given him a pat on his shoulder.
But thereâs something in the way you look at him, tempted and ominous at the same time. He canât say what youâre thinking because every feature in your face implies something different.
Even more so confusing what methods for success you came into this company with when you finally say, no pretext or further clarifications, âI really do hope so.â
âDo you come here a lot?â
Everywhere he goes, the lights are bright.
The white walls in the rooms of the company building reflect the sun in the summer and maintain a sense of optimism in the winter. Theyâre what Jungkook imagines waiting halls before Heaven to look like.
Then the fluorescent vibrancy in his apartment. And the sunlit sky, albeit cold in this winter, giving way to the planetary systemâs star through the floating, parting clouds.
Even this modern art museum with its complex design, winding staircases, glass walls and high ceiling. It lets through an abundance of light, unaware of the balance Jungkook usually craves.
Dark and light â a healthy mix.
Itâs why he cherishes the comfort of the recording studio so much. Its dim walls and the silence, so unlike the hallways outside of it. Or why he prefers his apartment unlit, often merely allowing the few lava lamps to illuminate his rooms.
But again⌠itâs only a balance he usually craves.
Today, he doesnât mind the brilliance.
Because youâre part of it.
Clad in a beige long-sleeved cotton top, slight turtleneck included. It doesnât fully cover your neck, still revealing a mole similar to his. Itâs tucked into your light brown skirt; your legs are covered in sheer tights, crossed. A gentle hand holds the strap of your bag. Light academia at its finest; somewhat soothing, and somewhat radiant.
You look at him with an initially neutral expression, surprised that someone spoke to you, but more relaxed when you realise itâs him.
âOh,â you voice; the faintest autumn-tinted smile tugs at your lips. âHey! I, uhâŚâ Your gaze flits to the painting in front of you, then back to him. âNot at all actually. Which⌠surprising.â
You gesture towards him before you grant him more of your silky voice, asking, âDo you? Come here much?â
Your eyes are indecipherable to him, cheeks dusted in natural make up. All the damn time, you sport this relaxed, unbreakable mask, and he canât quite guess what you might be thinking about.
Itâs so easy with anyone else. Youâre like a scene from BBCâs Sherlock, embodying Irene Adlerâs mystery.
But maybe your guard can be broken, too.
âNot really,â he admits, âonly when pretty people are around.â
A weak attempt, but it makes your eyebrow cock in amusement. He knows you are, because the hint of mischief that scurries over your face resembles his own.
âAh, and you happen to know when pretty people are around. Or did you follow me here?â you, however, ask.
Itâs an obvious inquiry, but weirdly enough, he didnât expect it. You exhibit the first sign of a proper, humane emotion. Delivering three quick blinks, voice quiet, suspicion swims in your eyes, slightly irritated.
Or even⌠scared?
You canât truly be.
So he backtracks, slightly angling his head. He sighs â hiding how much his lungs crave a breath of air. He doesnât want to scare you off just yet.
âNo,â he defends, âof course not. I was just joking.â
âSo⌠Iâm not pretty?â
Oh. Oh?
Perhaps he misinterpreted your expression. Perhaps youâre merely a good actress; messing with him as he is with you. The smirk suggests this much, at least.
Perplexed, he holds his breath before letting out a choked laugh; the head tilt and click of his tongue carry a sliver of scolding before he admits, âThatâs pretty frustrating, I wonât lie.â
âIâm just kidding, too. Itâs a big exhibition. I expected a familiar face here.â
Why is there something so devilish about you?
He canât say; maybe he doesnât need to. Maybe itâs enough to join the game, to be just as cocky and see how you react.Â
Perhaps heâs being selfish and too certain of himself, and in the worst case, he might just be imagining the tension buzzing between you like sparks off an electric fence. But does he have anything to lose, really?
Barely ever.
âThen,â he begins, âis it a good face?â
âAll the art around us and you want me to admire you, huh?â
ââŚThe art wonât be mad if you do.â
Jungkook is bold, heâll admit. He hasnât always been â he remembers a time spent in the back of classes, preferring to eat lunch alone. Did college tug him out of his shell? Was it senior year?
Then again â did that one kill the timidness in his heart or rather the last shred of humanity?
Maybe his cold matches yours, too. Is that why he feels so drawn to you?
Because youâre as bold as him; you donât sugarcoat words and thoughts. And Jungkook appreciates the honesty, the ingredient to actual success â even if itâs achingly direct.
Like now.
You uncross your legs; your hips move in an elegant curve, and Jungkook attempts his best to keep his eyes off the arcs of your body. Focuses as you say, âYou shouldnât be flirting with a coworker, Mister Jeon.â
âWait. I thought we were warming up to each other. Donât demote me from Jungkook to Mister Jeon now.â You chuckle; thatâs something, right? âBesides, I was just conversing. We need to spend all our time together now, so better get along, right?â
Right. Right; of course heâs right.
But⌠what is that?
It lingers for the faintest of moments, just a glimpse of an unspoken feeling, gone with the next blink. In this crowd of unsuspecting visitors youâre the closest to him physically, but your thoughts are miles and centuries away.
âMaybe youâre right,â you still say, as if whooshing away all unwelcome sentiments, âthen I should not⌠dodge your conversation, right?â
âSure.â
âBehave, though.â
Heâs so confused â but not deep in this enough to question it. So he merely shrugs his shoulder before he responds, âI have been. I can converse, alright.â
âRight.â
âLike⌠first of all,â he steps closer, raising a hand, gesturing for you to walk on as new admirers of the modern piece approach, âtell me, have we met before? Feels like Iâve seen you somewhere.â
You halt in your steps, but immediately resume to the stroll when a stranger nearly bumps into you. âYouâre doing it again.â
Heâs honestly not. The aura surrounding you like an ominous fog is omnipresent and eerie, yet⌠you carry a sense of familiarity. But youâre a presence too distinct to ever forget.
Which doesnât help his case.
âYeah,â he still agrees before potentially embarrassing himself, kissing his teeth, âsorry. Iâll stop.â
âWhy are you the textbook definition of a fuckboy, honestly.â
âFuckboââ
âNevermind.â
If he wasnât well acquainted with this little game, he wouldâve missed your subtle, nearly veiled intent to tease. But heâs done this a million times before â hence, catches the faint twitch of your gorgeous lips immediately.
Youâre enjoying this. So he should join⌠right?
Yet.
Youâre not being entirely insincere. In fact, he hates how he picks up on the note of truth in your velvety voice.
Trimmed nails scratch the back of his head, and he barely notices when the two of you halt in front of another piece. Distracted, he doesnât bear the art any mind, instead asking, âYou really think of me that way?â
You shrug a shoulder. Nonchalance a constant feature, but so natural, even somewhat gentle, that he canât help but feel drawn to you. âA little.â
âWell, shit.â
âDonât overthink it. Enjoy the art.â
âSure.â
Reluctantly, he glances to the canvas. Itâs a mess of hues; a random arrangement of spontaneous emotions. Resembles the masterpieces he used to create in Microsoft Paint, back when his legs would still dangle off the chair.
âThen,â he starts, nodding towards the painting, âwhat do you see in this?â
You hesitate. Or maybe itâs not hesitation â more like⌠a thinking pause. Sometimes, when Jungkook notices a whirring mind, he sees a steaming brain through a skull. Working at full blast.
But somehow, he only sees a calm ocean as he observes you gather your thoughts. Everything about you is gentle, but wrapped in dark mystery. How much mental training does it require to become this inscrutable?
When you finally speak, youâre saying similarly strange things.
âI see⌠colours.â Right. Stating the obvious. Jungkook chuckles, delivering a head tilt. âAnd am wondering how the painter got to create this at all. I mean, this looks so meaningless at first, doesnât it?â
âAnd itâs not, yeah?â
âWeâre fast to think that. Most of the time, there must have been a trigger, or a thought about something, no matter how small. Something might have been bothering him. This isââ A soft hand gestures towards the painting. âSuch a chaotic mind.â
InterestingâŚ
âIs this what you usually think about all day?â Jungkook wonders.
You scoff. âIâm just a person, too. I think about a lot of random things.â
âOhhh. Like what?â
âLikeâŚÂ seeing all the green in this exhibit made me realise how this colour makes me cry.â
Jungkook takes a haphazard look around. Now that you say it â thereâs no hint of a nature theme, but the abundance of green is striking now. Itâs as calm as you. No wonder youâd immerse yourself in a showcase such as this.
You continue, as if tracing and reading his mind like an open novel, âItâs soothing, right? And unique. These earthly things sometimes make me feel like not all of us are deserving of seeing such beauty. Like it should be reserved for those who earn it.â
Earn it? How?Â
Jungkook canât see your thoughts as clearly as youâre apparently capable of doing, but he has an inkling of what you might mean. Truly dazzling souls merit the stunning bloom of the world, right?
And thenâŚ
If thatâs what it is.
He wonders â do you think he deserves to see the colour green? Or is it already over if he has to ask? Perhaps, should he be perceiving it as grey right now? He doesnât know.
He doesnât know how you think of him â doesnât know anything about you at all. Youâre a tough nut to crack.Â
âHmm⌠thatâs a way to think about it,â he says.
âOnly because itâs the same for people. And Iâve had this thought about humans a lot⌠IâŚâ You hesitate, blink, and then grant him your stare. âI knew someone who was the colour green. Not everyone deserved them, either.â
Poetic minds carry a certain pain in their eyes.
Heâs been seeing it in yours. He just doesnât know how to handle it. So he doesnât.
Instead, he asks, âWhat else are you thinking about?â
âUhmmm,â you voice, straightening your back a little, as if waking up from a dream â nightmare? âIâve been thinking about trying that, too. Painting, I mean. It doesnât have to mean anything or be good. Just a great way to capture something that resonates with what I feel.â
Every word youâve uttered today was otherworldly. You didnât talk like that when you were in his office, or at the meeting. Your soul is somewhat free-floating here, and he doesnât understand why.
And itâs a behaviour he usually strays away from. The vulnerable ones can be dangerous.
But somehow⌠youâre too strong of a magnet.
One who shrugs all the mystery away â and he sighs in despair. Maybe itâs not time to find out what you feel just yet. What resonates with you â even though heâs dying to hear it.
He inquires, âAre you always this open?â
âNo. Not at all.â Of course not. Rhetoric question â he knows this much. âBut I like thinking out loud sometimes.â
âIâm glad to be a sounding board then.â
âYeah. I was also thinking how I appreciate that I met you here.â Pause. Oh? What a surprise. Out of the blue, too. Strokes his ego, though. And then, unexpectedly again, âYou wanna go to the museum restaurant?â
Jungkook has barely seen half of the exhibition yet. But just for today, he couldnât care less.
Perhaps itâs enough for now, sitting in this overpriced restaurant, watching you from afar as you inspect your nails calmly. Youâre not busy on your phone like the rest of the crowd â entertained by the same media that heâs part of.
Maybe he can be a bigger part of their lives one day â be the one flitting over their screens, the one they adore. The one they worship.
But you donât seem to indulge in those mind-numbing devices for now. You might be an addition to his team, but privately, you float in your own world. Distracted by the thoughts you wonât disclose.
Your hands retreat, arms crossing on the table and lips curling into a smile once he strolls back to you. Satisfied, he informs you, âOne cake with the coffee. As the lady suggested.â
âOh,â you make, âdonât you want one?â
âI do.â
âSoâŚâ You stall, and he waits until it clicks, your head tilting in understanding. âAre we sharing?â
Jungkook lifts a thumb, pointing over his shoulder, back to the register, âThose chocolate cakes are sweet as heck. Iâve got a sweet tooth, but believe that itâll be enough for the two of us.â
You laugh â a sweet, disarming chuckle before you breathe an, âAlright.â
Jungkook doesnât know you well enough to feel any skip in his heart; yet, you stir something else in his mind. Itâs always people like you who intrigue him the most â those who veil themselves in a coat of secrets.
He sighs.
âThat was fast,â you note, eyes at a point behind him.
And he understands when the waitress arrives a couple moments later, two perfectly prepared lattes and a mouth-watering chocolate fudge slice. You thank her with a gentle smile, tuck a hair behind your ear, fingertips grazing the dangling earring.
And he watches.
Watches as you nod towards him, urging him, âStart then.â
Observes your smile as he signals you to start instead. And he gazes at you as your delicate digits reach for the fork, tearing off a piece, wrapping your lips around the utensil.
And then⌠God.
He feels his guts twist; hears all background noise fade; blood rushing away from his head, through his body as you slowly relish the sweetness and then drag your tongue over the fork. Licking away the leftover chocolate.
Jungkook swears it happens in slow motion. And witnessing your elegance at snail's pace⌠makes him sick.
When your eyelashes flutter, gape lifting to meet his, the sounds around him come alive again â as does he. He averts his stare from your mouth, covered in the same colour as the coffee, but you notice.
You see him looking. And it makes you⌠smile? Shit.
But you donât boast your effect; only digress as you say, âWell⌠tastes as fancy as it looks. Try it.â
Youâre as relaxed with him as you can be. But you always are; with everyone. He craves that bit thatâs only reserved for him â then again, maybe heâs too zealous too fast. He hasnât known you for long.
But making you smile must be an achievement. If only⌠you didnât think of him likeâŚ
He nods, and then leans over the table ever-so-slightly. His knees brush against yours, a soft but deliberate move. He places an elbow on the table, grasping the fork, close to you. If he lifted his hand, he could touch your cheek.
He wishes he could.
His eyes meet yours through his bangs, the cakeâs taste irrelevant to your presence. And when his ego doesnât let him relax, he finally asks, almost as if insulted, âDo you actually perceive me as a fuckboy?â
The question catches you off guard. You hesitate, furrowing your eyebrows, and then giggle before questioning back, âJungkook⌠itâs bothering you this much? Mmmh. How would you like to be perceived?â
âJust. As a decent guy who wants to get to know you. And I know you know.â You blink, but he doesnât buy it. So he elaborates, âIâve been trying to make clear that I find you lovely. And somewhat attractive.â
People usually display a flicker of glimmer in their eyes upon hearing such praise. But you donât quite budge; in fact, your eyes remain the same, if not a little darker. Why?
Yet, you cock an eyebrow, sporting a teasing, playful tone, âSomewhat, hm?â
He shakes his head, clicks his tongue. âYouâre pretty and I think you know,â he blurts, âand I donât want to screw up right away.â
Is it the habit of never failing? The urge to solve an enigma? The chance to dive into you until youâre bared to him? Why are you so interesting to him?
Youâre just a person.
Maybe itâs just the unsettling need to discover what youâre hiding â it wonât let him rest in peace. Thereâs something about you that screams to him to unravel. Makes him want you more.
He doesnât know what it is. Doesnât know if youâre even from the same world as him â even though you seem to have crossed his realm before. No matter what it is; Jungkook merely understands for now that he wants to take off your layers.
Wants to be the colour green for you.Â
âAhââ you voice.
âIn fact, Iâm not supposed to hang out here with you.â
ââŚHow come?â
âI should be with Tae,â he admits. Maybe heâs revealing more to you than he should â maybe he should adjust to your level of secrecy and wait. But this is frustrating him. âHe dragged me here, so I could get inspiration from all sides.â
You listen; perhaps not quite loving the idea of seeing him in such a way?
Fuck. Maybe it really was a mistake. No turning back now, though.
âHe said artists find motivation in art, too, and I do like to paint, soâŚâ He looks at his cup, still left to be tried from, and then stares up from the cream leaf that the barista formed in his coffee. âI didnât wanna come here, though. I already have an idea of what I want to do.â
âAndâŚâ you start, still not addressing the issue on hand; choosing to talk about something else for now, âhe doesnât like what youâve come up with?â
âI donât know. He doesnât know about it yet.â
You take a sip of your coffee, softly smacking your lips once to relish the taste. Youâre living proof that subtle gestures can make a mind race. Then you say, âMaybe you should introduce it to him then.â
âI will. Just⌠mmh, need a better grasp on it.â He throws a nod towards you. âI canât wait to show you either.â
Another sip of the seething liquid.
If the gentle hint of him being bent on your presence flatters you anyhow â stirs anything in you at all â you donât let it show. Are you, by chance, used to being swarmed from all sides?
Are his advances kindergarten to you?
You donât budge as he waits for you to respond, setting the cup back on your saucer before you inquire, âWhere is Taehyung, anyway then?â
âUh, Iâm sure heâs going around admiring the art?â Jungkook guesses, head reflexively moving to the side, as if his friend and co-worker could materialise out of thin air. âHe enjoys it even more than I do.â
âAnd you separated from him becauseâŚâ
Because Jungkook ascended a spiral staircase. Because he turned right and halted in front of the second instead of the first room. Because he recognised the familiar curves and edges, as intriguing as ever, from this far distance.
And told Taehyung to continue without him; that Jungkook was going to explore a different corner of the museum.
He tilts his head; his left eyebrow raises just a twitch, fingertips tapping the hot surface of the coffee cup. And then, charisma gathered in the middle of his pupils, he tells youâ
âBecause I found you.â
There it is.
The slightest of reactions.
Your eyes widen barely an inch, but he sees it. How your lips part a bit, even though you shouldâve expected his answer after the conversations hitherto shared. HmâŚ
âSo you did follow me,â you say.
He canât say if youâre joking or not. But all of a sudden, he wonders if heâs creeped you out. He opted for flirting so clearly, but⌠maybe you interpreted it vastly differently.
But he keeps himself relaxed; not faltering now when you arenât either. Answers, âIf you want to call it that. I call it finding you and then sticking with you. Youâre interesting, Miss Manager.â
You smile.
Genuinely, thoroughly, wholeheartedly.
The beam reveals more than any word couldâve today â that humanity slumbers somewhere in the crevices of your heart. Your eyes suggest it as much as your stance on art did.
Whatever might have scarred you in life, behind all that ache, you hide a delicate soul.
Green, green, green.
And your cryptic worry, uttered a moment later, doesnât bring him down from his sense of victory. No. Not now.
âYeah?â You cross your legs, letting out a breathy sigh. âThen I sincerely hope that doesnât change.â
[6:43PM] Jeon Jungkook: iâve been thinking about something. and of you
For a bedroom as sparsely decorated and light-coloured as Jungkookâs, he should be surrounded by a brilliant glow. And usually, he is.
The windows occupy half of the wall, the bedsheets a perfect white; had he texted you a couple hours prior, he wouldâve found himself in the gleam of a pale blue late winter sky. But if heâd tapped your name on his device earlier, he wouldâve indulged in a whole different mood, too.
Wouldnât have given into fatigued, delirious fantasies. Daydreaming about the curves of your lips and about the single strands of hair kissing your cheeks. Or the way you love exposing your neck, as if to taunt him.
Itâs right there, but you canât touch it, Jeon.
AndâŚ
And the mounds of your chest, slivers of it visible whenever you put on those heaven sent dresses. Their cuts are almost as deep as the ones damaging Jungkookâs brain. And not much for the sake of his sanity, the thirst isnât quenched just yet.
Crossed legs badly hidden under your see-through tights. The movement of your hips when you walk into his studio, placing yet another gruesome schedule onto his desk. Your scent when you lean into him, pointing to another meeting he barely recalls.
You⌠youâŚ
If Jungkook hadnât already cleaned up the sloppy mess previously covering his knuckles, trickling down his thighs, heâd possibly give into the urge to sneak his fingers back to where he craves them to linger.
No, you made that mess.
Of his sheets, of him. And you never needed to be here in the first place.
Jungkook is no fool â unlike many of his friends, he doesnât deny the way his body winds. He knows what he wants; and right now, he hungers for you. Wants you to eliminate the drought on his tongue; wants you to replace it with some taste instead.
âFuuuuck.â
The word drags into the emptiness of the room, filling the silence that someone else should be lifting. But youâre not here, and youâre not answering. Not yet, at least. Has it been seconds or minutes?
Too long, is all he knows.
His digits are cleaned thoroughly, but he canât shake the persisting feeling of sheer, dirty lust as they reach his phone again. Lighting up the screen, then curling inwards in frustration.
He repeats the desperate attempt of manifestation a couple times until he throws the device aside, nearly missing the mid-air vibrations, indicating the long-awaited message. Jungkookâs heart falls out of his ribcage and squeezes his guts; your name elicits far more than it should.
And he feels just a little guilty.
Because he doesnât deny himself any pleasure â so he knows this isnât love. This isnât starving for emotionality. Not for sentiments. What you pull out might be his ugliest, beastliest side; his mind is filled with images of you that he shouldnât be having.
Youâre so respected. So tender and kind. Intriguing, a riddle, but inhabiting secrets probably far darker than his thoughts. So he feels odd about the wanton desire; feels guilty.
But just for a bit. Just a little.
The message you sent back is too humble, too innocent. Sometimes he reckons youâre aware of your power, and sometimes he assumes you think of yourself as⌠ordinary.
But youâre not. And he wants to show you.
Just one touch, please.
âFuck, shut up, you creep,â Jungkook whispers to himself, scolding his treacherous mind before he reads again.
[6:52PM] You: Oh? Why would you be thinking about me? Of all people?
Should he wait? You did, too.
Or should he make as crystal clear as he can muster that heâs been waiting for you?
Screw it.
[6:53PM] Jeon Jungkook: what else should I be thinking of?
Your next response is immediate â youâre online. Waiting for him to answer.
Good.
[6:53PM] You: Your music?
[6:53PM] Jeon Jungkook: my music doesnât talk to me as much as you do these days
He smirks. Keeps the beam plastered to his face until the waiting becomes a little too long. Message on read, you leave the chat room empty of you and full of a nervy Jungkook. He opts out of it the same second, keen on patience before it fades again, bit by bit.
Because then, the thoughts flood in.
Are you rolling your eyes? Throwing the phone into a corner of your couch? Has he fucked up before anything could start?
But itâs been going so well. You talk to him every single day. Ever since the museum, the two of you have been orbiting each other; partly due to work, partly because heâs caught you smiling, too.
Your words are too sickeningly often accompanied by a soft touch of yours against his shoulders; against his arms. Sometimes, you brush his back, his eyes wide awake, the smile timid yet crushingly losing against your confident gaze.
All this must mean something.
âNah. Fuck it,â he mutters again, sighing over his own constant use of curses. âCome back.â
[6:55PM] Jeon Jungkook: actually⌠I did come up with one tune. Itâs just a skeleton of a song tbh, but I need a sounding board.
It takes another one minute for you to come back, and Jungkook angles his legs, relying on the movements of his body to ease the impatience. But thenâ
[6:56PM] You: Oh, and? [6:56PM] You: Sorry, I had to step away for a sec
Sigh of relief. Even though embarrassment annoyingly adds itself to the mix, an uninvited guest.
[6:57PM] Jeon Jungkook: âŚdo you wanna come to the studio?
[6:57PM] You: Right now? Itâs like⌠[6:57PM] You: 7pm
Unconsciously, Jungkook shrugs his shoulders, unbothered to the bone, just craving, craving, cravingâŚ
[6:57PM] Jeon Jungkook: a true artist never rests. [6:57PM] Jeon Jungkook: and Iâd rather die than stop hustling for my passion
As the next message appears at the bottom of the screen, Jungkook canât help but bite into his lower lip with a certain pride. He nods as if he caught his prey, trapping it between his fangs.
[6:58PM] You: đLOL. now that, I admire, mister Jeon :) [6:58PM] You: Iâll finish my wine and be on my way
Oh.
Are you tipsy? Maybe heâs reading too much into it, but the emoji seems so unlike you; yet, you somehow manage to capture the core of what and who you are in the rest of the message. Six coherent words. Thatâs all it takes.
Goddamn.
Youâre so thoroughly you.
[6:59PM] Jeon Jungkook: wait. really?
And thatâs it. You disappear.
Perhaps youâre joking; perhaps youâre messing with him. The sun has already set; and he doesnât think heâs ever stayed with you much longer than dusk before.
If he met you in the evening, or on other nights, would you make more sense than you usually do? Are you the type to unravel when the world quiets down? Or the one to blend with the darkness more, drawing back further?
If thereâs pure truth in what you just said, devoid of all mockery you could revert to⌠he might find out. And it seems youâre in the right mood today, earnest with your intentions when he feels his phone vibrate against his thick thigh again, making him flinch.
[7:11PM] You: Yes? Iâm already dressed. Get your ass up
Oh shit.
Despite your order, his limbs still shut down. His muscles and bones melt into the bed, a fleeting image of your sly smirk crossing his mind and an assured voice surrounding his eardrums.
And if he didnât overthink each of your movements; didnât fantasise about the possible rise and fall of your voice, he wouldâve discarded his phone and gotten dressed a lot earlier.
How embarrassing.
The fact that his mind doesnât want to categorise this as a crush, no matter how much he asks. That his body responds to you like that, superficial and intrigued.
Embarrassing. He should focus on more important things.
Yet, he canât be bothered with the intruding sentiment, shame shoved aside and trampled under his feet as his car turns into a parking lot, perfectly in front of the buildingâs entrance. Your form is crystal clear in the dark; not even the shadows and lack of light can hide your silhouette.
The radar sensor beeps when he creeps too close to the hood of the car behind him, and he mumbles a curse, averting his eyes from your unmoving self to focus on proper parking. Letting the roaring engine die.
Your shoulders are slightly raised when he approaches you at the door. One hand is stuffed in the pocket of your thin, baby pink coat, the other curled into a fist, possibly resisting the urge to enter the building and combat the cold.
You couldâve waited inside, too. UnlessâŚ
Maybe youâre excited to see him, too.
You smile, lips reaching far up; he tries his hardest to believe heâs right. Takes the gesture as a good omen, and the hair pulled up in a loose bun as a sign of hurry. You look domestic, comfortable in your skin, no matter whoâs around.
But somewhere between the comfort and the softness, thereâs that everlingering intrigue, too. And⌠some timidness. Showing in the crossed legs his eyes drift over, up to the short skirt barely visible underneath the coat.
And your face⌠so natural. More than usual. Mascara only? He doesnât know.
All he knows is that he needs to say something.
âHey.â
âHi,â you throw back, tilting your head in tease, âwhere were you? Took you long enough to get here.â
He steps closer; fiddling with his jacketâs pocket, fishing for the keys. And his proximity changes something about you so subtly, a miniscule movement. Hand digging deeper into your coat.
Youâre on guard for some reason. And he canât help but admit heâs on guard with you, too, albeit in a less physical and more mental way. The unfathomable, dichotomous sensation of wanting you near, wanting you far is killing him.
What are you hiding?
If he could, heâd speak it out loud.
âI had to freshen up,â he finally responds, âI honestly didnât expect you to say yes.â
Your body might be in protection mode, but your voice is as composed, even somewhat amused, as always, âWell.â You shrug your shoulders. âI donât see why. But Iâm here now, and honestly⌠a little cold?â Nodding towards the door, âShould we go inside?â
âYeah. Sorry.â
He sniffles, fishing for the chip to unlock the door. For an ephemeral second right before walking inside, your breath lingers incredibly close to his own, grazing his lip ring. âDonât forget to dress warm this season.â
Near enough for his fingers to succumb to the impulse and sidle to you, skimming your thigh so featherlightly. He thinks he hears the sharp inhale you suck in. His skin tickles, the shiver icy on his body. He watches you smirk, lowering your head; his fingertips insist on the vicinity just for the tiniest seconds before he says,
âOkay. Let's go inside before you catch a cold, silly.â
But the bitter frost permeates the hallways of the company in the same ruthless manner. Perhaps somebodyâs still lingering around in the daunting dark. Revising steps in the mirrored practice rooms or hovering above lyrics and tunes, neck bent and back tired.
But the building isnât heated; and it shows in your rather quick steps, an arm wrapped around your chest to rub the layers above your arm. The guarded demeanour doesnât match your usual confidence; aside from the hollow hallways, it seems that youâre scared of more than just the cold.
He doesnât point it out. And he doesnât stare for too long.
If he did, you might realise.
Instead, he saunters to the elevator with you in tow, delighted about the light that never changes in the small rectangular space. You let your hand drop to your purse, lazily toying with its zip, and turn your head to observe the closing doors.
And Jungkook observes you.Â
The glow of your cheeks in the bright beam, half of your face devoid of the hair tucked behind your ear. As you breathe in, your lips split a fraction, and their gentle, soft curves mesmerise him for a moment too long.
Itâs difficult and cruel, being around you. Haunting, agonising, aggravating.
And when your eyes align with his again, sparkling a little in line with your tender smile, Jungkook realises that heâs been holding his breath. Because it escapes between the seam of his mouth in a sudden push, his knees nearly buckling.
He resists the urge to bite into his fist, instead disguising his thoughts when he covers his mouth, teeth digging into his plump, lower lips.
âSo,â he quickly adds, leaving no space for you to question his eccentricity, but you initiate another convo in the same tiny second, âItâsâŚâ
You pause, withholding your statement in order to listen to his. But he shakes his head, lifting a hand to sign for you to continue. So you say, âItâs a little scary here at night.â
Okay. Not that tough of a topic.
âRight?â he confirms. âI always imagine getting here and hearing a hum thatâs not really there.â
âUhâŚâ You blink in disbelief, lifting your eyebrows, but when he shrugs your confusion away, your hesitation marker turns into a chuckle. âWhy the hell would you say that?â
âItâs just something I imagine. Itâs terrifying, but my mind goes places, and I never ask it to.â
âWell, itâs a mean thing of your mind to do.â The ding of the elevator distracts you, and when you step out, your thoughts remain at an afar spot. Kept inside your pretty little head until you whisper, âAnd? Have you ever heard it, then?â
âHm? The hum?â You nod, and he suppresses the snicker your curious, cocked eyebrow nearly elicits. âNo. Only myself. Humming helps me control my breathing, so I do it to practise.â
âWeird. Itâs so different from how Iâd imagine you.â
Huh. Seems heâs not the only one sketching your entire being to keep himself awake at night.
âHow would you?â he asks.
âAs a rockstar?â
âOh?â Thatâs new. âAs a future RnB slash pop sensation I find this officially peculiar. Why a rockstar?â
You cock an eyebrow; either digesting the confident prophecy or pondering his question. The crooked smile matches his own signature smirk a little, and you puff out a breath before your sombre yet sparkling eyes wander an inch further down, right to his mouth.
Your eyelashes are endless, on their way to brush those delicate apples of your cheeks â in reality, itâs an impossible fantasy written in novels and poems, but itâs exactly how it looks. Exactly how much your curious gaze drops.
Only, the tingling sensation in his chest soon subsides, freeing a path to the realisation that heâs yet again misunderstanding. Because youâre not drawn by his lips, but rather considering a response.
He sighs in subtle disappointment when you point to the shiny metal encircling his lower lip, telling him, âGotta be the piercing.â
âAh. Ahhh. Well. First off, this is a very stereotypical assumption.â You shrug your shoulders in amusement, watching him cram for his chip until he halts in front of his studio, keeping you in his vision. âAnd secondly.â
The lock of the door clicks as he swipes the chip across the reader, defined knuckles paling a bit when he pushes the handle down. He raises his chin by a fraction, pulling out the most-assured smile, and asks, âDo you like it?â
And you, composed as ever, respond, âIt suits you. I always wonder how comfortable these are, though.â
âWhy?â
âI donât know, like. Do they have a metal taste? Do you ever get hyper aware of them and then get annoyed and want them off? Are they⌠cold?â
He laughs. Thereâs something endearing about how your voice quietens further the more your curiosity grows. Youâre not quite looking at him, pupils focused on a random spot, hands expressive as you vocalise your thoughts.
âLetâs see,â he mutters, jacket thrown over a chair, âsometimes and, again, sometimes. It feels a bit cold right now because itâs cold outside. I meanâŚâ
He rubs the chill off his tattooed arm, fingers diving under the short sleeves of his white, oversized t-shirt. Attempts never faltering, he leans into you in intrigue, parting his lips before running his tongue over the jewellery.
âDo you just. Wanna touch it and find out for yourself?â
You blink, frozen in place.
The room isnât too spacious; Jungkook will get his very own studio, name tag and all once he reaches a clear peak. For once, heâs glad about the crowded room, girded by a guitar on the wall, chairs standing side by side, a little couch leaning against the back of the wall.
As ever, he canât decipher your mood; as ever, youâre still quick to answer, âI⌠no. Itâs okay.â
Why donât you want him?
Goddamn it.
âOkay,â he simply utters, shrugging his vexation away. âLetâs get started then.â
The excitement in his tone dips, seemingly aloof, but as he walks into the dark square of silence, reaching for the headphones he placed right here mere hours ago, wordless curses dangle off the tip of his tongue.
He makes sure you donât see the clench of his jaw or the fast and steady fall of his ego, but youâre shoving back the chair and adjusting anyway. Crossing tight-clad legs as you place your coat on your lap, throwing your mane to one side to free that damned neck.
It must be on purpose.
He waits for you to settle, the headphones on the table in front of you enveloping your head. They look way too big on you, and Jungkook canât decide whether to tut at his anguish or swoon at your stellar being.
Jungkook uses his headphones to communicate through the glass, raising a thumb to ask, âReady?â You nod, matching his gestures with your own. âBe honest, how professional do I look?â
Carding the fine hair back, he pushes a hand into the pocket of his pants, taking a stand in front of the boom microphone. He mimes a typical grimace of an immersed artist, letting out an immediate, sweet chuckle that you chime in joyfully.
You lean in, long earrings brushing your jaw, pressing down the button for the talkback mic to assure through the intercom, âYou look like a born star.â
He rolls his eyes, playfully clicking his tongue, âAhhh, thatâs a nice yet basic thing to say, but. Iâll take it.â
âWhy did you go in there anyway? Werenât you just going to show me a song?â
âAdlibs, baby. Iâm still missing those.â He adjusts the headphones again, clearing his throat, almost in position. âBut I didnât warm up my voice, so Iâll need to re-record them anyway.â
âAnd still youâre straining your voice becauseâŚ?â
âWeâre here to impress you, so let me.â
Your finger lifts off the button, but the movement of your lips suggests to him undoubtedly what your teasing self might be mumbling.
Oh damn. Sorry then, boss.
You raise your hands in defeat until you detect his beguiled smile, raising your eyebrows in a clear question that he answers with two words; a simple title of a song, not as glorious as the tune itself but hopefully as memorable.
Eyes scurrying across the now opened laptop screen, you search for the instrumental until you stumble upon it. 3:54 minutes of what Jungkook prays to be blasted everywhere in a couple weekâs time before the big concert, chiming in his ears.
The initial guitar riff drowns the room in a mixture of intriguing anticipation and uncurbed sentiments immediately. Jungkookâs eyes dart to your face, attempting to decode a reaction. And when you notice, hands on the headphones, you nod approvingly.
Most of his vocals are already recorded to perfection; a silky voice laments about a lost time with purity. Jungkook largely listens in, searching for wonky bits or moments to be re-tackled. Of course, he will need to discuss the details with Taehyung tomorrow, but whenever the passion burns the hottest, he canât help but add an adlib here and there.
As he sings, his eyes reflexively close, and for a couple dozen seconds, the melodic current pulls him towards a bigger ocean; the sense of freedom and possibility is astonishing. Thereâs a certain ardour he feels towards music that nothing will ever be able to elicit.
Do you feel the same?
As somebody spending day in, day out surrounded by musicians, does that phenomenon make your heart surge, too?
Maybe.
When he looks at you again, itâs at least something fervent he detects in your gaze. A bit like the longing he feels. Intense fondness, or perhaps, even zoning out â until youâre barely blinking anymore.
Your features relax a little more as the song proceeds, bit by bit, the calmest when the ending notes arrive. Jungkook observes you; freezes at his spot. The change from the built-up chorus to the suddenly calm ending, instruments dying, are as forgotten as the last touches⌠because you, behind the glass, are much more interesting.
Just staring. Looking at the screen, its brightness reflecting in your pupils. When you blink again, most of the preceding smile is gone, something indecipherable in your eyes.
He doesnât know whether you actually enjoyed the entire thing or became consumed by memories he doesnât know of. Some the song might have drawn out but shouldnât have. Thereâs⌠a past in your stare.
He knows because much like the vast existing humanity, heâs been tending to faraway memories for years, too.
And he wants to know about yours.
Gently, Jungkook grasps the headphones covering his ears, the mane victim to the impact before his fingers fix it again. He frees his eyes off his strands, never directing them away from you, and when he opens the door to the small room you drifted off in, you look up.
Your emerging smile is unsuspecting and polite as always, and you deliver a tilt of your head. Jungkook could sign the previous oddness off as just this, or a sinking into arts just as he does sometimes.
But whatâs enough is enough; brushing questions off his mind has become tedious.
So he rolls back the second chair next to you to take a seat, placing his arm on the one of the furniture before folding his fingers; leaning in, asking, âYou okay?â
You react with a soft nod, a tender hum, âYeah! I was listening.â
âAre you sure?â
âOf course.â
âYou zoned out.â
âWhich is a good thing, I promise.â
Jungkook looks for a moment. Waits for you to break or admit that the truth you display might not be as pure as you think; waits for his instinct to wind up correct.
But when you do nothing of that sort, eyes a resolute and solid statement, he sighs. Tongues at the lip ring for a moment before he clears his throat and questions, âGood thing, yeah? What else do you think?â
âIt⌠goes deep,â you confess, an impressed declaration in your expressions, âwhat are you talking about in that one? I mean, I know, but⌠it sounds so personal.â
âMore or less? Iâve spent most of the last few years dedicating myself to this job. The training, the late night sessions, the failure and lost time. I wanted to depict those hardships.â He nods, emphasising his points. âI want this song to help me look back one dayâŚâ
He shrugs his shoulders, thumbs slowly circling around each other, âAnd comfort my older self that despite the hectic life, things are okay.â
âI see.â
Your tone is neutral, but your chest rises and falls a little too slowly. Your sorrow is quiet. He closes the distance further, nudging your arm, âHey. Did you not like it?â
âI did,â you defend, honesty and reassurance in your voice, âI do. You have an amazing voice, come on, whatâs not to like. And the sound is incredible. Should you manage to release it, it will be celebrated a lot.â
âI will manage to release it,â he says with furrowed eyebrows, resisting the urge to touch your elbow again, but settling on simply calling your name instead, âyouâre part of my team. Letâs be optimistic.â
âI am. Teamwork makes the dream work. Etcetera.â
âRight,â Jungkook breathes, word close to a yawn. He throws his body back in the cushioned chair, manspreading as much as the space allows; stretches his arms until his muscles crack. âAhhh⌠I really want this to be good.â
His gaze falls to the darkening laptop, soon giving way to pitch darkness, potentially to some screensaver. The title of the song remains still in the opened audio file, and he smacks his lips, blinking only when you voice an approving, âMhmmm.â
His head darts to you the moment you deliver a subtle nod towards the computer, deducting, âYou really strive to be big.â
Well, yeah. Thatâs been the plan. Always, always.
âShouldnât I?â he argues. âItâs a dream.â
âItâs good to have dreams.â
âThatâs right. Mine is to⌠Stand on a bigger stage. I think Iâve reached a solid group, but I think if I keep working hard and with the right team, I can make it?â
âThis determined, yeah?â
âYeah,â he responds with a hint of obvious self-evidence, slight confusion shadowing his mind â have you never wanted something so badly? âThe audienceâs eyes glued to me. Donât you have a dream?â
Another deep inhale of air, chest working hard, as if youâre breathing out fatigue. He prepares for another vague answer that might leave him guessing; and albeit clearly seeing the usual curtain veiling your true thoughts, what you say next makes his ears perk up.
âHonestly. Iâll allow dreams again once Iâve moved on. Thatâs all I want.â
What?
Did you actually want to say that? Was it on purpose? A slip of the tongue?
Because it seems so unlike you. Reveals too much. He doesnât think youâve exposed your innermost thoughts like this before, even if still not quite transparent.
ââŚFrom what?â The previously relinquished distance dies when he inches closer again, digits sneaking close to your knee. A fingertip floats over your tights. âHey. Is something bothering you?â
âUgh,â you say; the sliver of sadness seamlessly transitions into an expression of nonchalance when you wave your concerns off so quickly. âYoung adult stuff.â
Nevertheless, you speak on. The biggest development in this friendship between the two of you yet. âI once had a friend that moved away. We were pretty close, and now sheâs far away. Which sucks.â
âIâm sorry.â
Thatâs it.
Jungkook offers to listen, but he doesnât necessarily deem himself the most expressive guy when it comes to emotions like these; even if he so deeply wishes to read your thoughts. Music is different; speaking to an audience is, too. Articulating gratitude isnât as difficult as extinguishing someone elseâs grief.
And while not quite confronted with anguish, he houses demons that still haunt his nights; he can barely obliterate them.
Maybe he doesnât need to.
Maybe he can comfort you in the only way heâs ever known. The stupid, selfish way; offering relief and distraction in the most sinful manner.
âListenâŚâ Jungkook starts, but in all honesty â there isnât much to say.
Only to crave. To look.
At the curve of your lips. The distance between them. The bare wrist needing to be held, tired eyes wanting to replace the sorrow with something else.
Is he an asshole for wanting to annihilate your heavy breaths of dejection and replace them with sighs of his name instead?
He doesnât know. He barely hears his thoughts. Only the blood rushing to his ears, and then away from his head, down his body.
Fuck.
The levitating finger drops an inch; you gasp almost inaudibly when the tip touches your knee, skin separated by the tights only. Jungkook loves fashion choices like these, but hates the hurdle right now.
His warm palm opens, placing right above your knee, approaching the meat of your thigh. He knows youâre not breathing because he canât hear the exhales; and when his eyes, hooded and possibly insane, flit up to you, he recognises the change in your pupils.
You gulp; and then finally push out some air again. Your hand moves to his inked wrist, touching lightly, unsure what to do. But when you donât resist, his other arm lifts, touch moving to your face, holding it.
The world spins, moving like an earthquake as his mouth draws nearer. You let out a miniscule sound that punches him in the guts; sweet and pure.
He wants to shatter and wreck you so bad; wants you to feel the same poison youâve fed him. Irresistible, deadly.
But just as the metal of his jewellery grazes your lips, the softness and warmth radiating towards him, your breath shakes. Your face budges enough for his upper lip to feel a brush against yours, but thatâs all he gets.
Because you retreat without giving in. And he doesnât know why.
He clenches his jaw. God fucking hell. Whatâs your problem?
The sense of failure overwhelms him. Failure. Failure.
Thatâs not the term his mind should conjure. He knows the moral compass hides somewhere in his dark heart; he knows. Yet, he can never give into it. Is he a bad person? He doesnât know.
Control was never his domain, after all.
But he keeps those intrusive thoughts inside, intending to not scare you off more than he already might have. So he accepts the dodging of the kiss, moving back, immediately leaving you safe from his touch.
And then, he says, âUhmâ Iâm sorry.â
You donât answer, still catching your breath, back to the heavy sighs that he was going to help shove back. Once again, he tries, âHonestly, I apologise, I justâŚâ
âNo, no. Please, donât be sorry,â you reassure, slightly touching his shoulder. A wave of relief washes over him. âIâm just. Not in the right mindset for it yet. But Iâm flattered, really.â
âOkay.â He nods. His eyes drop to his fingers; he still feels your heat on his skin, basks in it for a moment. But when the awkward silence lingers, he suggests, âThen. Letâs call it a night and Iâll see you tomorrow?â
âYeah. Yeah, sounds good. Iâm definitely getting tired.â
âMe too.â
Jungkook rises from his seat, still unable to wrap his head around what happens â or almost happened. Maybe another time. Grabbing your coat from behind you, he helps you into it, avoiding your eyes, trying not to showcase his frustration.
Uncertain what to say, he reverts back to small talk, stating, âThanks for still coming so late. You really do like the song, yeah?â
âJungkook⌠itâs honestly very good.â
You smile; thereâs something about your honesty. About the way you say his name. And how hopeful you truly seem for him. How much you seem to mean it when you sayâ
âIf thereâs anyone who can manage to wrap the world around their finger, itâll be you, Jungkook.â
âAlright. I think I have an answer to your question now.â
You down the sip of red wine with a delicate smack of your lips, blinking at the change in topic. The evening has followed a pleasant pace so far, conversations well balanced; even though you still carry a sense of caution that Jungkook sees no reason behind.
Perhaps itâs the fact that after weeks of subtle, flirty undertones and advancing attempts youâve taken the seat on his couch as heâs imagined for so long now. Maybe he still exudes something that screams for caution; maybe thatâs just who you are.
Jungkook, for one, is just glad to receive any kind of recognition from you. But heâd be a fool to not insert all his effort into tonight, from the food to the type of drinks and conversations. He knows where he needs to be and he wants you to want it, too.
âWhat question?â you ask.
Itâs just.
Despite the lightness with which you carry your talks, some of your movements feel off, detached from your body. Not quite matching the grace your face portrays; just that one hint. The one hiding in your fingers, tapping the dark screen of the phone resting on your thigh.
As if youâre waiting for a call or something to happen that Jungkook isnât aware of. Who knows. Nothing has happened in the last hour, so this might be an unconscious gesture reasoned in nothing but an absent or distracted mind.
Yeah.
Youâre probably not even aware of it and heâs just overthinking it.
He takes a breath, inhaling the aroma of the almost finished wine, âWhat Iâd do if I could spend a day in a virtual reality.â
âWait, does the Wembley Stadium doesnât count anymore?â
Jungkook smirks, dismissing his own prior answer with a click of his tongue. âCâmon. Does it really? You can ask literally any artist ever and thatâs what theyâll say.â
You ponder his response, pursing your lips in thought, and then shrug one shoulder. Nodding along, you acknowledge, âRight. So what is it then?â
âIâd just.â He sucks air through his teeth sharply, leaning back with a signature smack of his lips. âGet into a reality in which this damn song is already finished and mixed and ready to be released.â
This song referring to the concoction of sounds he showed you earlier, yet to be concretised and burnished to what he truly envisions. Itâs the only song left that shackles him to the studio; at the upcoming concert, heâll just sing the demo version as a sneak peak if needed. What a source of stress.
But you donât see it as much of a struggle; youâve told him a dozen times that hard work justifies a slip-up. That the progress on his album balances out the artistâs block.
Possibly why you laugh his worry off without mocking it, merely throwing back, âIâm disappointed.â
Oh?
âWhy?â
âJust because â the Wembley answer was better.â
Unexpected and sudden â much like the snicker you elicit, throwing his head back just a little. Concurring, he sighs, âOkay, okay. What about you then?â He cocks an eyebrow. âYou didnât tell me what youâd do.â
âYou didnât ask,â you remind him, already slurring your speech a bit, though still remaining a stable and solid stance, âdunno. You want the sappy or the basic answer?â
âIs the sappy one a tear-jerker? Sounds like it.â
âFor sure.â
âThen the basic one. Donât dig being sad.â
âThought so,â you answer, and Jungkook holds back from prodding again this time, despite wondering what image he gets across, âalright. Iâd do things Iâm unsure of in real life. Like bungee jumping.â
âOh? Kinda did not expect this.â
âNo?â
âJust having a hard time imagining somebody as calm as you jumping off a building. Or yelling.â
You roll your eyes. âAnyway. Iâd love to go, but Iâm too scared of the risks. Like, rope stuff. Donât want to be jumping for the last time.â
âOkay, yeah, but,â Jungkook starts, hesitating, âI mean, you could say that about anything. You leave your apartment and get hit by a car and then youâd be going out for the last time.â
You begin shaking your head mid-sentence, already drawing a breath, ready to disagree. Then, âThatâs a bad comparison. These things are a once in a lifetime experience.â
âIâm just saying! Why hold back from things that excite you.â
ââŚMaybe youâre right.â
Jungkookâs proud nod and hum are reciprocated with a soft smile, fleeting when you roll your eyes back to your phone briefly. Absent-mindedly, you drag a fingertip across the deviceâs side as Jungkook follows your movements.
Yet, unsure what you might be harbouring in this pretty head of yours, he doesnât ponder but asks, âWhat was the sappy thing?â
Itâs as if you live multiple lives, hiding them in your innermost parts; because once he finishes his question, your sparkle returns, and you smirk a little, suddenly leaning forward.
Wordlessly, you fish a tissue out of the square, wooden box, puzzling him for a second until he understands right before you clarify, âFor the upcoming tears.â
His titter is immediate, a reflex. You might be relaxed as a calm river, but your humour does shine through among your other million traits. He shakes his head in rejection, smile still plastered to his lips, and watches you lean back again, clearing your throat.
âMhh, Iâd say,â you muse, âIâd try to get into a simulation of Heaven. Try to meet those I miss.â
âOh⌠damn.â
âYeah.â
ââŚI donât know what to say.â
But despite the dumbstruck silence, his mind does conjure prompt associations. Like when the two of you sat in his studio just two weeks ago, you engrossed in his music yet somehow dissociated from reality.
You spoke about lost and faraway people back then, too. And he didnât ask then, either.
In the depths of his mind, he wants to believe that youâre trying to lead him somewhere, fishing for his hand but never quite reaching it. Drawing back right before pleading for help; or perhaps wanting to make him understand a thought he canât fathom in the way you form it.
The pattern is repetitive, loud â but he knows youâll retract the moment he does lean into you, offering his ear to your worries and thoughts.
He canât win.
âThatâs okay,â you say, making up for his lack of proper empathy, and thatâs where you leave it. Not hesitating, not indicating another hint to lead to your mind.
Yet, he clears his throat quietly, licking drying lips, and asks in attempt to grip the truth, your whatever-truth, âAnd, whoâd be there? Do you want to talk about that?â
âMmmmh,â you hum, pondering, before you treat him with the same disappointment heâs suffered throughout the last weeks, âno. I think Iâm good.â
Unbelievable, and truthfully, frustrating.
Are you playing this side of yours? Is it an act? Are two sides of you fighting within you?
âOkay,â he simply responds, clearly agitated but unsure whether you notice. Youâre looking at your phone again. He sighs. âAnd⌠Do you believe in that stuff? Heaven, Hell, stuff like that.â
You shrug a bare shoulder. âDunno. I like to think thereâs something, but then again I donât.â
âHow so?â
âThe way I see it, itâs kinda simple,â you explain matter-of-factly, âsome people are good enough to deserve a place in Heaven once theyâre gone. And some people are terrible enough to burn for eternity.â
Coming from your sweet mouth, uttered in an equally soft tone, the sentence feels jarring. Jungkook has had these thoughts before; heâd be a hypocrite to judge you for yours, recalling moments when he wondered where heâs destined to land once heâs left this realm.
And somehow, it was never the prettier option.
Still, he utters, disguising his own past pondering, âWow. Thatâs dark.â
âItâs true. Thereâs some serious crime in the world.â
Agreed. Perhaps, compared to the extreme sins, he can be forgiven. Right? MaybeâŚ
âYeah,â Jungkook accords, âthen, why did you say that sometimes you donât like believing in it?â
âI mean, if thereâs actually something like Hell, and I happen to fuck up throughout life⌠I donât wanna end up there.â
Itâs like youâre mirroring his thoughts.
Even if he never quite thought about it to such an extent. Even though his idea of the afterlife built on what heâs already done, and not what heâs still going to do.
But your words give a subtle hope that redemption is possible. Who knows. Who really knows.
Perhaps itâs easiest to stray away from these thoughts and focus on you at this very moment. Even if itâs you triggering innermost fears; he doesnât quite have a clue how you do it.
No matter. Heâll focus on you. Altruism might be the first step to vindication. Karma points. Karma points.
âValid,â he says kindly, âcanât imagine you fucking up, though.â
âHow would you know?â
âThe company grapevine whispered a lil something about you.â
âAhhhââ
âGood things! Other than that, I just think. Donât know.â A small gap, well-hidden so far, grows in the back of his mind, tiptoeing to the very front of his mind. Before heâs thought it through, he blurts, âIâll be honest with you.â
Your ears perk up, eyes suddenly wide.
What was that?
Okay. Whatever. Canât stop his speech now, âUhm, Iâll be honest and say that Iâm not the best person I know. Like, Iâm aware of that. Itâs why sometimes, I donât really understand how people can be as genuine as you.â
âŚHas he said too much? Or not enough? Because he could swear your face deflates, expression dimming, as if you expected something else.
And all you say is, âI understand.â
A flicker of slight panic creeps into his overthinking head, not usually a trademark of his personality. But you look dispirited, even if just for a second. He tries further.
âAnd from what Iâve seen, you go through life gently. The way you do anything is how you do everything, right?â
âHmmm,â you voice again, pupils hidden until you look up. And when you do, he breathes a sigh of relief; deep and obvious, and he doesnât care if you notice. Smiling sweetly, you tell him, âYou said that really well.â
The way you say it is riddled with woe, but within a second, your eyebrows relax, mouth forming an authentic grin. Displaying real emotions suits you better than the mask of the frigid ice queen you keep plastered to your face; you look different right now.
Vulnerable.
And it makes him want you more.
Does it have something to do with the warm light he chose for this room? No. It doesnât shine brightly enough to really illuminate your face that much. With the intensity lowered beforehand, some of your features hide in the dark when you lower your head a little.
And itâs not the decent amount of alcohol the two of you slurped.
Itâs the usual, mysterious shimmer in your eyes, begging to take off more of your mental layers. The fragility behind the pretence of invincible strength. No doubt, youâre still a textbook definition of a femme fatale.
Still, thereâs some sweet urge to surrender, visible in your stance. A fragrance luring him in. Warm skin close to his; calling for his fingers.
And heâs at your beck and call, ready and motivated; giving into your wanting eyes â or is that his own desire heâs confusing? â and leaning in. A little more with each tiny moment, advancing until the tips of your noses meet.
Your warmth consumes him; your breathing quickens, resulting in fitful exhales that he takes in with vigour, much drowning in his own head until you gasp and he realisesâ
âSorry,â he mumbles, not yet retracting. His hand touches your knee, carefully but with intention. Waiting, he asks, âIs that okay for you?â
ââŚIâm not sure.â
Your answer takes a seat on his ego and weighs it down. Harsh, sudden, perhaps not unexpected but definitely breaking a string of patience within him. But consent is consent; he understands. Heâs grown now.
YetâŚ
âFuck,â he whispers under a faint sigh, dejected and confused.
And you hear it. Bambi-eyed, you ask, âWhat?â
âNothing. Nothing at all.â
Heâd lie if he suppressed the disappointment. Working towards you for weeks was supposed to end in realising his fantasies into a palpable, actual feeling, with a side achievement of a deeper connection.
You donât seem to want to provide it; he understands, but the agitation courses through him like a fire burning up a forest. The trees are his nerves; alight with different emotions. Youâre fumbling with the soft cotton of your winter dress, and he averts his eyes.
Shutting them for a moment, he ponders his options; does he continue the awkward conversation? Or perhaps, ask you for your opinion straightforwardly? Maybe, after all this while, it wouldnât be so stupid to swap a penny for your thoughts.
And his mouth opens, but it seems youâre faster. Crushing his questions and uncertainties when he hears you gulp, witness to another change of mind as your knee shifts forward. His eyes open rapidly, and when he looks at you again, youâve moved closer.
Your leg touches his thigh; your eyelids half fallen, lips an inch apart and fingers hesitating, yet advancing towards him. Hope sparks and sparkles in him anew, and he suppresses the cheeky, triumphant smile.
He feels like an asshole. Oh, he feels so selfish â but he canât be the only one. He cannot possibly be the first or last to give into deepest desires out of self-interest.
Carefully, he matches your pace, moving into your direction much like you are drawing into his. His hand lifts to your arm, and you suck in a breath as he touches your skin, your chest rising and falling deeply.
And his eyes observe. The motion drives him crazy. He wants to pilot his touch to this spot, wrap his palm around your mounds, desperate to feel your nipples perk up under his skin, your mouth fall wider.
Should he? Maybe, maybeâ
Not yet.
Instead, he draws an invisible line with his fingertips, up your arm and to your shoulders until he reaches your neck. The sound you let out is so tiny he barely hears it, and you tilt your head to the other side, giving him free reign over your skin.
A spark lights up under his finger, as if heâs touched a defective bulb. He wonders if you feel the same flame when he charges for your jawline, tracing it for a moment before he moves to your seething hot cheek.
Youâre burning up.
So he asks in a quiet, gravelly voice, somehow much lower than usual, âAre you okay?â
Your eyebrows are furrowed, and he starts to worry again; but maybe thatâs just the same tension unleashing that heâs felt, too. The temptation runs deep; he could scream it out of his lungs and it wouldnât be enough.
Relieved as you nod, he mimics the movement, whispering an, âOkay,â before he then dips forward, exhaling close to your neck hotly and⌠leaves a small kiss right there. He doesnât know about you, but if you did that to him, heâd possibly faint.
One more kiss, and suddenly, your hand is on his knee. His head spins. Must be the alcohol. Must be you.
And youâre probably in no better state, judging the hot cheeks and the slight sway of your body. Must be the wine. Must be him.
And when his lips graze your jaw, your fingers curl in, clawing onto his knee, and his inner voice celebrates, âJackpot.â
But not really. Heâs going with the flow, exploring your preferences, but this needs to be the night of your life. His mind and ego want you to perceive it that way. So what should he do? What do you like?
Are you one to push him into the bed, holding his shoulders down? Straddling him keenly, pouncing on him, eyes rolled back?
Or do you give away all the power you usually emanate; hands bound with a tie, legs struggling between a rope, screams muffled under a gag? Do you wind and go crazy when somebody has their way with you, edging and then overstimulating, refusing a touch and then slapping your ass woundâŚ
Should he let your siren eyes tempt him into submission or will you be the one drilled into his mattress with a hand around your neck and a trail of black mixed with tears under your eyes?
He doesnât know. Because youâve disguised all of you; hidden your mind behind a mask of absolute neutrality, hard to decipher. He can usually read women so easily. They lick their lower lips when they want him under them, and quiver when vice versa.
Heâd oblige to either for you. So what does it matter in the end, anyway?
No, it doesnât.
His tongue that lashes out, however, does matter. Tasting your skin as it drags over your chin and then to your mouth. Insane when he reaches your lower lip and you sigh, then back to your neck, blowing, teasing, still not kissing you⌠touching your thigh, moving inwardsâŚ
âWhat do you want me to do?â he asks.
And this time, while still a little quiet, you finally say, âMore. You can do more.â
âYeah?â
You nod as if starved, relieved when his hands leave your leg and venture further in. Itâs hidden under your dress, but somehow, not seeing your full glory just yet, but observing your reactions to his movements, stirs his thoughts. If any were left, that is.
The touch to your panties is light, tender as he reaches the hem, driving a finger underneath it in exploration. You donât say much, but he sees the zeal in your eyes, murmuring a little, âMhmâŚâ
And when he finally presses against the fabric slowly dampening, lightly as he rolls his digits right where your skin so incredibly softens⌠you moan. You moan.
It doesnât sound the way he imagined. But it kind of does. He doesnât remember what he imagined â doesnât know much at all. Just that he wanted this sound to echo within his walls. For him to be the one to drag it out. Not for anybody else, but him.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
Okay. What if he does⌠thisâŚ
Thought so.
Sometimes, human beings have a fantasy unmatched, donât they? Able to form and reform expressions on people they know that they have never seen. For example, he can imagine what you look like when you cry. Or when youâre mad. OrâŚ
He knew youâd press your lips together, along with your eyebrows, muffling your sound once he sought out your clit and pressed against it. And not because heâs seen other women contort their faces like this; no⌠itâs an entirely new sensation with you.
You donât compare to anyone. Nobody compares to you. Nobody, ever.
Sick of watching the invisible movement under your dress, he lets his eyes wander to yours, and you notice, do as he does. Eyes hooded, staring at him as if drunk â possibly, probably drunk.
Just once, he gapes down again, trying to adjust without crushing your knees with his. Comes closer. Then looks back at you. Absolutely astonished by the coloured lips drying up. Seeing your tongue peak behind your upper teeth, pushing against them.
Then youâre blinking, several times, not rapidly, but enough to indicate that youâre losing yourself, too. And then thereâs some melancholy behind your gaze; he canât say where it derives from⌠you seem to be coming out of a room that you kept dark for long enough.
He canât say whether heâs further dimming the light in that room or lightening it up â and as he advances, gauging your reactions, he inwardly hopes itâs the latter.
So inwardly. So desperately.
Patience only persists for a moment; Jungkook barely believes in it. People always break. And he does when you lean forward as he drags his finger between your pussy lips, still over the clothing. You balance your weight with your arms, holding yourself up.
And thenâŚ
You so tantalisingly, softly, quietly, whisper his name.
Okay.
The snap was expected. The sigh he lets out was expected. And the way his lips finally crash against yours, making you almost fall back onto the sofa was expected, too.
But your taste⌠Why did he know youâd be as sweet as a clichĂŠ, like a perfume made edible? Matches your mystery and your elegance.
And the mellow, yet wanting sounds fit every move he makes. Like the moan-sigh combination when his bold hand wraps around the bun youâve arranged your hair into. How you breathe into the kiss when he tilts your head a little, and then proceeds to loosen up said bun.
Releases it. Lets your hair fall. Pulls you in, pausing the make-out in the process, and then diving back in with a greed heâs never been met with before.
And as he kisses you, his index finger still dips into the uncharted territory below, ruining your panties some more as he soaks them; fucking loving how you whimper as a result.
No⌠this is ruining him just as much.
So he draws back from your body, attempting and probably failing not to look at you like an animal glaring down at his prey, ready to devour. Heâs never seen this expression himself, but one or two girls have uttered quiet, âOh-oh,â in such moments before â do you see the danger, too?
Or is he being cocky? But itâs not his fault. You make him cocky because he can never fucking say what you think! Of course heâd need the mental praise to himself â your opinion on him is too difficult to decipher.
Heâll keep the energy up. Make you shrink in his hold.
Hands under your ass, he lifts your lower body a little, amused by your wide eyes and how you wonder, âWhat are you dââ
Silencing the moment he uses his palmsâ position to grab the hem of your panties and pull them down your legs. Over them and then on the other side of the table. The two of you wonât need those tonight.
âWhat does it look like that Iâm doing?â he teases, smirk effective and permanent.
He likes that about himself. Maybe youâll do, too. If not, then you at least do like how his fingers, impatient, find their way back home again, not before lifting your dress to your hips until youâre bared to him the way heâs craved.
And he pauses.
Oh, this treasureâŚ
âYouâŚâ he starts, moving two ring-clad fingers between your folds. Testing the waters. âIâm not letting you go anywhere tonight. Youâre staying right hereâŚâ He leans forwards, body on body, whispering against your lips. âTrapped under me.â
You want to answer, he thinks. Your eyebrows relax for a second, an inebriated smile playing around your mouth. If he knows you well enough, heâd guess youâre urging to dive back into your witty remarks.
But none of it is possible just yet. Because when he caresses your pussy again, increasing the pace without being too unreasonably fast, you bite your lip. He urges you to release it with his tongue. And when you do, his finger plunges in; as deeply as it can. So easily, too.
He kisses your clavicles the moment your nails get ahold of his arms, wiggling underneath him, but still caged in. And he sees the built-up frustration; how you kept yourself at bay, but can barely do it now. How you yearn for just one or two more right touches here and there beforeâŚ
But before he can, he stops. Immediately, unexpectedly for you. Once again, mean, butâŚ
âYouâll thank me later,â he utters â and with those four measly words, something awakens in you that was hidden for just the last ten minutes.
âOh? You⌠youâre confident like this.â
âOf course I am.â
âJungkookâŚâ you say in such frustration that he thinks youâll beg some more. But you donât. Instead, you shake your head and say. âMen rarely manage toâŚâ
âThis isnât rare. Iâm not giving you rare, âkay?â
âIâŚâ
âHowâŚâ he readjusts your body, pulling you down the couch, shifting until his knee keeps your legs apart. âHow fucking insulting.â
Do you hear any of this anymore? Because your eyes are closed again. Hands still holding on; and⌠and body winding in order for your cunt to shift closer to him, suddenly rubbing against his knee.
Itâs all you can get at the moment since his hands are so far out of reach. And the satisfaction of knowing that youâll strive for anything at all is cosmic.
âYouâre ruining my jeans,â he mocks, clicking his tongue as if to reprimand.
âThenâŚâ You hook a finger into one of his jeansâ loops, pulling and then releasing again. âTake them off, coward.â
You donât have to tell him twice. They say that if you have waited for so long, whatâs ten more minutes? But no more. Not another second.
So he obliges immediately as he mutters, ââKay,â offering a helping hand when you work on his shirt. Off and to the ground. Pants off and to the back of the couch. He already knows heâll be finding them all scattered the next morning.
But thatâs the problem of just that next-morning-self.
Boxers still on, he returns to give you another initial taste of whatâs to explode. The dress moves up from your hip as he slides it over your skin, stopping right under the mounds heâs still so curious about.
He needs to keep this balanced. Rush as much as might be appropriate, but not too much to make things embarrassing. This⌠the way he leans down again, opening your legs, erection grinding against your pussy and offering the bare minimum⌠this is good enough for nowâŚ
Or maybe not. Because merely a couple seconds later, you halt mid-moan, letting out breathy words that he struggles to understand until you repeat, âIs that⌠all youâll be doing tonight?â
âHmmm, you want more?â
âIâ I donât know.â Pause, a gulp when he presses his clothed length between your cunt. âAre you going to tell me your secrets if I say yes?â
His secrets?
You must be kidding. He has been an open book to you, chasing you around; if anything, he needs to unravel your mind.
But for that, he needs to play along. So he feigns the same mystery you emanate, teasing, âWhat do you wanna know?â
And you donât hesitate. âEverything.â
âŚHmmâŚ
Youâve never seemed as interested as you are now. Never dove into his thoughts and the dim heart like now. If he agreed now, would you blurt out something specific? Questions that you formed when he wasnât paying attention?
No idea. Maybe thatâs something to worry about later. Pillowtalk. The morning after talk. Just anything⌠just not now.
He removes the obstacles currently standing between the two of you. The cushion standing against the back of the couch, constantly falling into your face. He throws it on the ground, so you donât have to keep swatting it away.
Then, the dress covering your body. He gives a sign of wanting to proceed, and you play along, lifting yourself, chasing his lips as your outfit follows the cushion. And then, the phone right underneath the small of your back, having snuck there, undetected until you yelp, âOh!â
âWhat?â
âCold. Donât know how it got there.â
He fishes out the device, watching it light up, a notification at the top that he canât decode and that he doesnât pay any mind to. Puts it on the coffee table. Then⌠last but not least⌠the uncertain atmosphere.
He says, âYou want to know everything? Then make a list. Iâll tell you if I feel like it⌠deal?â
âYouâre soâŚâ
âYou gotta make me. No other way out, baby.â
An answer lies on your tongue, ready to disrupt the moment. He knows because you look distracted all of a sudden, possibly still thinking about the same thing you did before, dissociating as he sat next to you, wine in hand.
Itâs probably about work. Or about Taehyung â God, nobody at work but Jungkook would know, but you mention that guy all the time.
But tonight is not the night to think of others. So he shakes your upcoming inquiries away, giving you no time to think about it further as he, thirsty and impatient, picks you up and off the couch.
Right into his lap. Right onto his cock.
Still a layer between the two of you, watching you grind immediately. For a moment, you put him under your spell, urging him to stay right there and not move away until heâs shot buckets of cum into his boxers.
ButâŚ
But heâd rather do it in you, with you, because of truly you.
So he wastes no second as he executes his former plan, large hands sprawling over your ass before he stands with willpower and strength. He throws you a couple inches into the air, making you adjust, and then moves.
Away from the couch, stepping onto the clothes on the floor, careful not to stumble and hurt the two of you. The way to the bedroom seems endless, and you so naked⌠so⌠so his for the night. Like what, he still needs to wait those couple square metres?
Fuck, howâŚ
No. It must be a primal instinct that hankers him to give up already, having made it halfway through the room and almost to his bedroom when he suddenly stops. Pinning you against a random free spot at the wall, right under a silent clock.
âWhat are youâŚ?â
Your voice is trembling, for some reason so incredibly small. For the first time since you lay beneath him on the couch, he sees your eyes properly, and they flit back to the couch as if youâre looking where you just departed from â and then back to him.
âWhat are you looking for?â he whispers. Tantalisingly, he brings his fingers to your chin, pinching it lightly as he raises your head. âHm? Iâm here. Do you want to go back? Missing the couch? Wall might not be as comfortable, huhâŚâ
âNo⌠thatâs not a problem. Iâm just⌠surprised by the change.â
You do look surprised. A little cheekier again as your tone rises, your head falling to the side, lips smiling as if to distract him from something bigger. As if thereâs anything bigger in existence right now than you.
âIt was just sudden,â you conclude.
âIs that bad?â
âNot at all. Iâm just curious.â
He doesnât need to ask what about. He sees it in this expecting gaze of yours that you want to read and decrypt his next steps. And you can have them.
Because he lets you go, making you fall silently on your feet, kissing you once before he falls to his knees. You groan when he grabs your leg, placing it on his shoulder, restless when his lips charge for your open folds.
He offers you, âCurious, huh? No need,â before kissing your clit, adding another, âJust indulge in it⌠no need to use your pretty brain today,â and then attaching his mouth and tongue to your dripping pussy.
Digging his large nose into you, tickling your nub, he swirls his tongue around, slurping you up like his favourite drink. Holy fuck, you taste good. He could eat you up, down you in one like a shot. Stay right here all night.
You get ahold of a patch of his hair, but donât pull â somehow, he wishes you would. Instead, you seem to focus on your body, trying not to fall, keeping it upright. Youâre winding, your leg moving, and he soon wraps an arm around your thigh to keep you from stirring too much.
And with the other, he targets your cunt, mouth moving up to make space for the digits to easily, effortlessly slide into you. You gasp, just a bit louder when the metal touches your hot sex, calling his name â and for possibly the first time, he hears you curse, âFuck. Fuck, Iâmâ Iâm going to pass out.â
Oh my God.
If he could lick you to unconsciousness, heâd feel shocked and proud at once. He wants to see you become weightless, wants to catch you in his arms, and then bring you to his bedroom, still delirious, and fuck your brain out of you.
He wants you so bad. He wants to fuck you so fucking badly. His cock aches, godfuckingdamn.
As he rolls his tongue, lips kissing yours, moving his head left and right as he makes out with your pussy, he almost pulls all the way through. Nearly gives into your body language, nose moving over your clit, fingers pumping in and out, breathing into your pussy hotly.
But he has other plans. He wants to see your damn tears; wants you to unleash all your desperation. So, just when your sounds change, less pauses between them, high-pitched, heavy breathing, he stops.
Draws back, watching you press your ass into the wall, head suddenly hanging low. You whisper, âNoâŚâ as he looks up in satisfaction, waiting for you to say more.
Youâre out of breath, exhaling through half gritted teeth, a palm on his chest as he rises again. You declare, âIâm going to blueball you, too.â
But the adrenaline has poured buckets of confidence over Jungkook already, and heâs drenched in it as much as in your scent, cocking an eyebrow as he challenges, âYou can try.â
âIâm gonna suck your dick so fucking slow.â
âDo it,â he keeps the mask up, wondering how much of the effect you saw upon gracing him with such a provocative image, âletâs see if you make it this far. Might just fuck you into space before that, you know?â
He lets out an unsteady breath, a strand of your hair swaying upon impact. His hand taps at your thigh, testing whether youâve closed your legs again; and as he realises that you havenât, much to his pleasure, he palms your pussy, heel of his hand pressing against your clit.
âYouâre trying to set me off, because you know you can, right?â he questions, for a split moment distracted by the teeth gnawing at your lower lip. âSmart of you. You are truly smart, babe⌠but youâre also mine tonight. So donât play games.â
A slap lands on your vulnerable pussy, and he understands your frustration as you open your mouth, the lower lip previously captive rolling back into place. Soft and gorgeous.
No matter the fading distance, thereâs still something inexplicable in the air, as if he canât really separate a dream from reality. As if he needs evidence that this isnât yet another figment of his imagination; the ones heâs awoken from several times, underwear threatening to burst.
The hand just torturing your cunt wanders up your body and settles around your neck, like a chain or a necklace or a motherfucking leash. He feels home here, just like this. With your fingers on his wrist, gulping under his touch.
Pinned firmly against the wall, he looks down to where youâre dripping and heâs standing tall, gripping the ever-twitching length that is begging for more. Begging for relief. Heâs doing this to himself â because his body is burning up, as if scorched by sun flares.
Heâs doing this to the both of you.
The kiss underneath your ear as he leans in. And the still harmless yet sinful touch between his tip and your folds. How he holds the shaft firmly, leading the head between your pussy lips, teasing until just an inch intrudes your awaiting hole.
He moans the moment you do, moving, fucking just the first of the tip into you; scrambling his own thoughts as he says, âGod, I could just slide in⌠youâre so, so wet.â
âWhat⌠why say this if you wonât do it?â
Guess youâve figured him out well enough. Guess thatâs the cockiness you implied when you called him a fuckboy in that stupid museum. Or how you kept a safe distance â because thinking about it, maybe Jungkook could be someone to break somebodyâs heart.
No. He knows he is. ButâŚ
He shakes the thought off his brain, returning to this very moment where youâre waiting for his answer, a heart made of steel. You wonât let him hurt you; you know better than that. You could dodge him easily.
Mentally, at least. Physically, youâre under his mercy.
So he uses this weakness, muttering under his breath, âI will, I will⌠but not here. We can do better than here.â
Wasnât this just a pit stop after all? What heâs seeking is still waiting in his bedroom, soft sheets spread over the cold mattress, waiting for a body to warm it up. Or two.
Already hot and bothered, Jungkook lets you go entirely; and the next minute happens in a blur, as though heâs struggling with recognising his own apartment. Suddenly self-conscious about everything and nothing at once.
With you in his grip, he walks along the dark, small corridor; then past the paintings, through the door, into a well-managed, tidy bedroom until heâs sat your ass down. It happens within the tiniest moment â he could narrate how you got here but he can barely recall it.
Dick at the same height as your mouth, he wraps his hand around it. You donât initiate anything of what you promised, looking into his eyes with a question; he knows you want to avenge yourself and provide the same vanity, but youâd rather skip to the best part.
He wants to, too.
So he doesnât ram his cock into your mouth, hitting the farthest spot until you gag. Instead, he relishes the image mentally and quietly, fantasising about the warmth of your spit, about the tongue swirling around.
And then⌠then he goes a step further and imagines the even extended pleasure if he dug into your pussy now, maximising whatever your mouth could make him feel.
Are his thoughts too straight-forward? If he spelled them out like this, one by one, would you find him weird? Too eager? Obsessed?
Maybe he should slow down. Just a bit.
Which is why he holds his shaft closer to you, still surprised when you donât open up, hints of the past confusion alternating with your confident, mysterious, teasing self. Itâs weird to witness. But your eyes are still hazy at least. You donât seem to want to stop.
God. He canât figure it out. Not figuring out is agitating even in this moment.
But⌠good energies. Good energies. All the pent-up frustration needs to be morphed into sheer craze. He can do that.
âSpit on it,â he orders.
You only hum. Something in your gaze changes again, eyelids fluttering, as if awoken from trance. But youâre willing. Immediately mimicking him as you bring a thumb to a mole on the protruding veins. Tracing them, all the way back to his balls until you touch them just lightly, but enough for him to nearly lose his shit.
âFuck, I said,â he reprimands, though delighted by the sudden rapture, âspit on it.â
You nod as if carrying out a task given by your manager; perhaps used to the last days and weeks when heâd command you around. Ask for another meeting, or for your opinion on a song, or just to keep him company to keep him productive.
Or, to keep you close to him. Lost in thoughts. Many thoughts. And even though none of them became a reality in that room, none of the equipment shoved aside to sit you on the desk, this⌠this right here is more than enough.
You suck in your cheeks, collecting spit, and when you lean forward⌠you make such a mess. Spitting onto the tip, a string still connecting your lips and his dick, leftover saliva dripping down your chin and then on your tits.
The view is⌠worth diamonds.
Do you even know?
âOkay,â he utters, no real direction in his mind, no real sentence to utter. âOkay.â
But youâre equipped with ideas, immediately getting onto the trail you left, spreading the spit over his cock, down to the base. The tip and the slit glisten, traces of precum mixing with your drool, but itâs not enough to cover his length all over.
So he mutters a mental, âMore,â to himself, tapping your lips until you open, sticking two of his fingers in and pressing against your tongue. Lubricating his digits, he rolls them over your tongue, far enough to nearly make you gag until he draws back.
Watching you work on him rolls a wave of satisfaction over him. Heâs proud, enduring like this. Because judging from the creature you are, as if jumped out of dark mythology, he truly expected to give up way earlier.
But he remains steadfast; eager to not explode until heâs filled you up first. Drawn out your own highs.
âSweetheart, arenât you a good one?â Jungkook praises, helping you out with whatever his fingers gathered in your mouth. Then, grabs your wrist, pushing you away, hovering above you with a, âTurn around.â
You gulp again. Then shift back on his bed, sighing as you feel the soft silk underneath your skin, kissing and hugging your body. The sight is gorgeous, with you fleeing to the back of the mattress, obliging so easily. Prey.
AndâŚ
âHoly fuck.â
Holy fuck, how you look when you finally get into position. Ass up, upper body down. And the arms over your head? What in the world.
Okay⌠okayâŚ
Wait. Youâre saying something.
His knees dig into the mattress, hand unconsciously pumping his cock â he doesnât even know when he started â as he moves closer, over your body. Kisses your shoulder, bringing his ear close to hear before, âHuh? Whatâd you say?â
âIâm already so spent.â
âAh⌠do you want to stop?â
âNo⌠you made me feel spent. But youâre not done, are you?â
Pause. Bright smirk. Then, âOf course not. Does it feel like it?â Another kiss to your shoulder, wet this time. âCondom or not?â
âOh.â Seems you hadnât even thought about this yet. Kind of nice. âIâm⌠I use an IUD. Have you⌠slept with many people lately?â
No answer yet. He thinks. Thinks back to the several weeks since he met you. Should he say it? Would you back away if he did? Years ago, thereâd be no debate about it â he wouldnât have told you. Kept it to himself.
Perhaps thereâs still a part of him thatâd dodge your question, but he somehow feels like youâd see through him. Hear the insincerity.Â
Fuck, is that selfish? Maybe. Doesnât he already know that he is? But heâs not bad; and people are selfish.
So a second later, he truthfully admits, âOnce. Two or so weeks ago. Nothing special though, just dumb, drunk shit. Some girl from a club. And I tested after.â
As soon as the sentence finishes, he wonders if you deem yourself just another one of those. But⌠in all honesty. She was a one night stand whose sounds, name, dirty talk did nothing to him.
All he could imagine was you. Perhaps not out of loyalty, but surely out of curiosity.
He canât fathom his thoughts into feelings yet; he still wouldnât describe his attitude towards you as falling in love or anything. Thatâd be too far stretched. But he thought about it â that maybe he liked you too much.
Yet, his heart remained empty; but his body never did. He feels bad; and still, he wonât deny whatever his skin and mind whisper to him.
Other than that, he could probably declare with quite a firm certainty that you donât feel any different about him. You canât be.
So maybe this is good enough for now.
âBut know what?â he says, voice lower, repeating his thoughts. âCould only imagine what itâd be like if it was you. This pussy,â strokes his cock along your cunt, âand this body,â touches the small of your back, âthese thoughts got me going. And youâre so much better in reality.â
âMmmh,â is all you utter, nearly hiding your face in the pillow before you say, âmaybe⌠maybe we can still use a condom then.â
Shit. Expected it.
But okay. Okay.
Where are the condoms again⌠bedside table? No. He used the last one ages ago, before he knew you. He gets up; walks to the closet; somewhere near his socks, there must be a new pack. A moment to think.
For a second, he looks back at you. Youâre still the same, only with the ass having dropped again, losing balance and energy. And maybe, youâre still drunk, too â probably, because even he still feels the world spin, careful not to close his eyes for too long.
Okay. One⌠no, two foils out. As he turns back to you, nearing you, his head is just a little calmer than a minute again, and he wonders⌠were all the thoughts his own? The past half an hour or however much passed, didnât he spiral more and more?
Did you notice? He shakes his head. Who cares?
Not him, not right now. He keeps telling himself that with a goddess waiting in front of him on all fours, he probably doesnât need to worry about anything unless thereâs a reason to. Youâve been cooperative and the night has been successful, minus the strange gazes you keep throwing at him periodically.
âAlright, baby. Up you come,â he mumbles, bringing your ass back to his crotch. His hands are already trained and incredibly skilled; doing work on the condom doesnât take him more than a couple seconds. âI should tell you now.â
You pause. Suck in some breath, as if expecting something in particular. You agree with an unmatched thirst for knowledge, ââŚTell me.â
âI donât tend to go easy. If you need me to be, youâll have to tell me. âKay?â
âI⌠I can take a lot more than you think.â
Fuck. Heâll wreck your shit. âPerfect. Youâre honestly a good one, huh? Such a good girl for real, noâ no, youâre the best.â
Is he just saying whatever now? Perhaps he should stop boring you and get to it. Right? Please, the goddamn, blood-filled tower down there is desperately imploring him to.
He collects spit like you did before, targeting your glinting pussy, one blob right onto it. Then, he brings his fingers back to where they love to be, distributing the filth between your folds. And then, two fingers into the tightening hole.
Right before moving north, between your ass cheeks, thumb rolling over your other clenching hole.Â
And you tense immediately, without saying a word, taking it quietly. Then⌠then he finally starts.
Brings the annoying rubber to your soaked pussy, poking for a second before he gets serious and eventually dips in. The free hand raises your ass some more, and he shifts forwards, your butt backwards, helping him get in further.
He hears the reaction. Hears the almost-screech in a second, nails biting into the pillow over your head. You hold onto it for dear life as he slowly bottoms out, your sporadic breathing and high-pitched moans mingling with his own bursts of lust.
Deep creases appear between his eyebrows, lips bitten sore, and once his waist has finally connected with your ass, he takes a deep, long inhale. Watches your face disappear deeper into the pillow, sounds muffled.
Enjoys it for a moment before he starts moving slowly. Out, in. Concentrating before he might spill too early. Beads of sweat shimmer on his forehead, dampening the hanging strands of hair. You feel good. Too fucking goodâ
He wants to go off right away. But⌠focus.
âHowâs that?â he asks.
âStop⌠stop talking.â
Oh. Bold. But a good sign, isnât it? If you wanted him to stop, youâd say it. So he keeps going⌠dares just a little more, courageous, encouraged by your cooperation. Explores your ass and what lies between the cheeks more, groaning before he says, âYou stop that.â
His hand reaches for your wrists, keeping you from tearing his pillow and leading your fingers to where his touched your ass before. You keep your touch there, unmoving until he says, âKeep them apart.â
And you seem to understand. His thumb returns to your unoccupied hole as his cock impales your pussy whole, still going at a tormenting pace. Thick and soaked, heâs splitting you in two; maybe thatâs why the slow plunges are such a plague. Because both of you know there could be more.
Pulling your ass cheeks apart, you remain with your face in the sheets, arms trembling as he circles your hole again. He doesnât know if youâre into this; doesnât know if youâll protest. So far, heâs been pretty obvious with his intentions, and heâs sure you must understand this one, too.
And youâre not fearful; if something bothered you, you wouldnât hesitate to voice your displeasure. So he spits one more time, right onto his thumb, using the lubrication to carefully, curiously dip the tip of his thumb into your ass.
You yelp immediately; as your hole tightens around the little bit of his thumb, your pussy narrows around his cock, too, and he nearly loses it. Nearly drools onto your back as his mouth drops open, blinking rapidly for a second.
God, your body reacts with such intensity. Still, he makes sure, âToo much?â
And you, candidly, reply, âI donât know. I⌠think so.â
âOkay. Then Iâll stoââ
âNo. No, wait⌠I want toâ I want to know what itâs like.â
Thought so. He knew that underneath all the chic charade, you crave just as much as he does. And if itâs him that you long for, then what even stands between him and the rocket shooting his ego to the sky?
This feels good. Really good⌠not just physically. You lift his spirits.
Ready with an exhale, he dares his thumb deeper, letting more of it disappear in you. Out of all the women heâs ever been with, not more than a handful has been willing to venture into this part of sexual desire. Most of them canât stand the discomfort, and some of them donât feel any particular way about it.
But you lay open to him in every way possible. An open book for once; easy to read, as if calculating how you wind, planning how to sound, guiding him fearlessly.
Soon, heâs adjusting his thrusts to your moans, and youâre adjusting your moans to his thrusts. Synchronised, the two of you groan and cry out together, and he makes sure to keep you filled to the brim, reducing the pauses between the shoves bit by bit.
UntilâŚ
âHey,â he whispers, waiting for you to react, but as he pumps into you, slowly yet balls-deep, you donât do anything much but scream into the pillow. So he just continues, âHow much do you think you can take, baby?â
âI⌠Iâmââ
Youâre attempting your best, but youâre tongue-tied. With each push, he catapults your body forwards, but your mind is long lost in the stratosphere. With gritted teeth and a rising, heavily breathing, golden chest, he leans in close to you, hand snaking under you and around your neck as he retries, âSo?â
âI donât know,â you blurt, and as you raise your head and look back at him, he sees a sight to behold â mascara underneath your eyes, lipstick smeared, a quivering chin. Heâs fucking you so good; he must be, because you soon add, âJust do anâand Iâll let you know.â
âGood idea. Very good idea.â
Heâs fucking you good. But itâs not all heâs got; not all heâs wanted for days and weeks.
No. If he unleashed all heâs been fabricating in his mind, heâd drench your cheeks in tears. And now that you permitted him to, he might just go ahead, right?
Right.
Which is why the next steps come easy to him, naturally, as if you pressed a button heâs been waiting to smash. A big, red one, like the ones in games urging you to not touch or youâd lose. But by God, right now, heâs not losing.
If he looked into his reflection in the dark window, heâd see a winner through and through.
A fiery rage courses through his burning veins. A face contorting when he lets you go, only to move his fingers back, wrapping them around the back of your neck. Shoving you into the mattress, ramming his cock into you, once more keeping the familiar pace and thenâ
And then he closes his eyes. Matches an expression to your yelps. Drives into your deepest core and picks up speed until, all of a sudden, it turns jarring.
Jungkook doesnât get enough. He doesnât know if he ever will; damn the approaching end of this. There shouldnât be one; he should be capable of ruining you forever. Maybe he will be.
For now, he directs his thoughts fully on how you feel and how you sound, uncaring about the jagged breathing that burns up his chest. Leaning forward, he attempts twice until he catches your ears, nibbling at your earlobe.
At first, he doesnât know if you register the touch, given that heâs occupying you with far crazier sensations. But then you reach out a hand, panting into the pillow, grabbing a patch of his hair.Â
And he, fired up and insane, leans back, gripping your wrist, removing it from his mane and pinning it to your back instead. Your face moves to the side, not muffled by the pillow anymore, and you gasp for air before you beg, âPlease, Iâm about toââ
Thatâs all you get, because he soon interrupts with a cheeky, âYou can hold on for a bit longer,â pausing on purpose. He wants to see you when you come. Wants to wipe more of your make up across your face. Wants to kiss the colour of your lipstick onto his own lips.
Letting your orgasm fade, he waits, just a couple seconds, allowing you to catch your breath until your eyebrows furrow. You blink repeatedly, then looking up into his eyes, and itâs all he needs to feel his patience dissipate again.
Jungkook gets into a new position, leaving one knee deep in the mattress while angling the other leg, planting its foot on the sheets. He keeps his cock from falling out, leading the tip and the shaft back in before he resumes to fuck you wound.
Your arm is still hostage to his grip, the nails of your other hand gripping the sheet for dear life. Itâs gorgeous, the view from where Jungkook looks down at his meal. Crazy how you purr and whine when he leans in, touching your swollen clit, electrifying you. And he keeps looking at you.
At the upper body waving a white flag, too weak to keep yourself upright anymore. And then, the ass in the air staying firmly at its place, his dick aiding you, the flesh of your cheeks wobbling with each thrust, like an ocean wave. Whenever it collides with his hips, the slaps resound temptingly, and Jungkook soon mimics it by letting his hand fall hard on your ass.
You mewl, calling out his name twice, the second cry half uttered, half of the Jungkook omitted. And when you catch the tiniest of your breaths, still working with drying lungs, you say, âL-let me come, pleaseââ
âWait,â he says again, still sadistic, still masochistic, absolutely out of his mind before an idea lights up his mind. âThis isnât it yet.â
The finger working on your nub was an evil tactic, heâs got to admit. Perhaps he led you to believe something heâs not ready to give you yet, and once you seem to realise, you let out a sob.
And heâs positively delighted once he stops. Lowers his head to look at you. Sees the dark, smeared mascara on his pillow when he digs his fingers in your hair, pulling your head back as he says, âI know. You thought we were done, right? Weâre not done, though.â
âWhaââ
He lets his body fall onto the mattress, right next to you, and pulls you in, back against his chest. Hand under your tits, pressing against them, moving them up and down before pinching your nipple once.
âI said,â he repeats, probably unnecessarily, because he doesnât think you actually demand an answer, âIâm not done. Understand?â
And as expected, you donât nod or answer. You only push your body further into his, and he reckons thatâs a mighty sufficient implication already.
As you lay sideways with a breath as heavy as his, his exhales hot against your ear, you let out sounds reminiscent of marathon runners. Youâre exhausted, sweaty, and so is he â but neither of you are finished, and heâd be damned if he permitted the night to end like this.
Diligently, he throws your quivering leg over his; your impish remarks have lessened since he took over, and in turn, his own insolent emotions are reigning supremely. He leads his submerged, rock-hard, twitching cock to your battered cunt, pushing in so easily he thinks heâs dreaming.
Itâs like putting a key into its lock.
âAhh, fuck.â Itâs hard to fully bottom out in this position, but he can touch you so much better now. He lets his hands explore your bare body, fondling with your tits, kissing your ear and jaw. âHold tight. Youâre doing so good for me, sweetheart.â
Itâs cruel, he knows; the gentle praises as he wreaks havoc down there. He crosses your wrists against your tummy, holding them tight, and you close to him. Fucks you dumb and stupid as you wail in his arms. Moves to your clit and gives it pleasant, gentle rubs, so opposite from the rest of his ministrations.
And the pressure builds. His balls, hard as steel, prepare to shoot their load into you, his cock impossibly stiff, but⌠butâŚ
You havenât come yet. And this position wonât do. Canât do, wonât do, he needs to see you.
So he echoes, âWonât do,â as he gets up again, keeping the previous position short lived. Doesnât stay away for too long before heâs on his knees, pulling your legs apart, after the briefest interruptions deep inside again before he leans into you.
And then, everything happens crazy fast.
How he keeps you from wrapping your arms around him; instead, capturing your wrists once again, raising them next to your head. How he moves to kiss you for the first time after quite a while, intertwining your tongues, moaning hard as he feels his high approach.
The fast pace changes a little as he loses his mind and focus, one of the strokes stopping as he almost pulls out, and then plunges in again. Your fingers curl in, nails sharp enough to dig into the digits that hold you, and he cries out in delight, letting a breathy chuckle fall.
He says, âAlright, yeah. Next time⌠weâre tying you up. Love how you whine.â He lets one hand go, gripping your face again and you move your touch to his shoulder immediately, gasping. âYou always p-play the mysterious girl, huh? But youâre so pathetic right now.â
The inhibitions are out the window. The overthinking, too. Whatever he thought might make you run away from him has long exited his mind, because heâs got you right here, under his control, nearing the end.
Thereâs no going back. No return to his yearning, because youâve satisfied it so thoroughly.
Time to give it all back to you. One last time before he submerges himself in all his glorious egotism.
âThere we go,â he says as he watches your expressions change. You open your mouth but donât say anything. He doesnât know what your orgasm feels like, but he knows youâre going through it. âLet it all out. Cream my cock, I fucking dare you.â
Heâs saying whatever now, he knows. But he doesnât have the capacity to think much as creases appear on your forehead and between your eyebrows, tongue mingling with his for a short moment when he goes in for another kiss, barely succeeding.
Youâre trembling, lifting your hips as much as the weight above you allows, wanting more friction, more of a touch inside your pussy, on your clit, everywhere. And then, when you do come⌠when he brings the stars from the sky into your eyesâŚ
Yours roll back into your head. Throwing it back, giving him access to your neck. Lips still apart, and he uses it to push a finger into your mouth, on top of your tongue. And fuck⌠how your pussy constricts. How it tightens so fucking much.
Heâd be lying if he said it didnât affect him.
So much so that his head spins; and as he feels himself getting dizzy, he buries his face in the pillow next to your head before moving it to kiss your shoulder. Barely looks at you anymore; doesnât care, itâs his high now, he wants to fucking come, and thatâs it.
Finally, finally heâs gotten to this point.
Will he hate himself for these thoughts later? Is this too over the top? He doesnât know and he doesnât care, doesnât care.
His thoughts are occupied, alright, donât need another string of questions to intervene. His attention remains resolutely on his movements, vigorous, rhythmic, your sounds perfectly matching each of his strokes.
And your hands, the poor little palms, unsure where to settle. This isnât new; across this broad back of his, every girlâs touch wanders like this. Your nails scratch the small of his back, then up his spine, across the muscles of his shoulder blades.
The fact that youâre a goner as much as him, giving yourself to him is probably the last of reassurances he needs â as if any more were required. Because still panting into your skin, eyes shut tight, he works towards the peak of his sanity, exhausted but eager as he relishes the wet tightness of your pussy; surrounding him just right, still clenching, unclenching from your orgasm.
And thenâ
âOhhh, fuck,â he whispers.
His voice is shaking uncontrollably; he barely recognises it. Which⌠must mean this is new, right? Experience be damned, apparently you spark off phenomena nobody has ever acquainted him with before.
And oh, how you make it worse once he finally emerges again, as if catching his breath after holding it underwater for too long. Your eyes are hooded as he gets on his knees over your body, caging your hips in between his legs. Gripping one of your tits, you nibble your lower lip for a second before letting out laboured breathing, nose flaring.
Itâs all he needs. All thatâs left when he rips off the condom and envelops his filthy cock with his veiny hand, stroking immediately and hard. Close to the end as he rushes to ask, âWhere do you want it?â
You understand what heâs asking, and nod, back to yourself when you utter mysteriously, âAnywhere but insideâŚâ Okay. No time to ask why not â but he wouldnât have anyway. He obliges, giving his all, one more second left before you tell him just in time, âHere.â
Your palm rubs across your skin, moving over your tits and your stomach. So heâs quick to opt away from your face and redirect his aim to where you pointed, moaning out a couple last, broken vocals before he finally spills.
Milky white, multiple blotches scattered over your skin, like a modern art painting. Heâd rather draw these all day than be stuck with you in a museum restaurant, staring from afar, wishing he could reach out under the goddamn public table.
Going until heâs empty, he senses a relief unknown to him thus far, mind suddenly vacant. Once again, the ocean; he feels like the ocean. Like the water as it stills and calms after a thunderous storm. You lifted the waves of his sea high above and have now turned him into a lazy, peaceful lake.
God, he should fuck you more often; you make him a poet.
Okay. Okay, where was he?
When did he unfocus? Dizzy all of a sudden. He puffs out a breath. Then takes another look at you. Watches as you spread the sticky substance over your mounds, touching your nipple, so indecently messy.
The smirk is unintentional but inevitable, reaching far as he shakes his head at you. You smile back wordlessly, and he lets his fingertip run over his cum, too, bringing it to your lips as he asks, âTaste?â
You donât answer. Thinking for the barest second before you scoff, stretching out your tongue before he puts the finger on it; closing your eyes, sucking it clean. He groans at the feeling; luckily, heâll be immobile for the foreseeable future, or heâd bend you over again.
âOkay. That should be enough for now,â he breathes, letting himself fall next to you. âI promise Iâm a lot more energised on other days. ButâŚâ He turns towards you, pinching your chin, bringing your face close. âGod, did you take me out there. Iâm beat.â
He doesnât kiss you; only drops back, still filling his lungs with new oxygen. Pity â he still wants you, but his muscles are aching. Eyes shutting.
Then opening again when he hears you laugh, right before you say, âYou donât need to prove your endurance to me. Iâve got a pretty good idea of it now. Besidesâ letâs be honest. I didnât do much.â
âOh, you did more than enough, sweetheart,â Jungkook retorts with a snicker, giving his eyes some relief. He sighs, and then adds, âYour existence did it for me already. Wouldnât have wanted it any other way.â
He shoves his arm under his head, the other untidily covering the two of you with the blanket; whatever. Heâll wash it tomorrow. For now, the two of you should probably get some rest. Althoughâ
Did you say you wanted to stay? He didnât catch it if you did. Perhaps heâs also just inattentive; suddenly remembers that he still has a long way to go socially, remembering that permission is courtesy. Selfish, selfish, selfish.
âUhm,â he starts; this is awkward. He doesnât do this often â not many stay overnight anyway. Strangely, he didnât question it with you; maybe because he wants you to. âDo you want me to bring you home?â
âIn all honesty, I⌠I donât think you can drive tonight. Weâre both not sober yet, so Iâll just leave in the morning. Need to be in the office by noon.â
âAh? Why?â
âMeeting with Tae. I forgot that he wanted to go through a few organisational things for the upcoming concert.â
Concert preparations. Organisational things. The company.
Jungkook forgot about it all. Responsibilities still exist. Of course, he needs to be in the office tomorrow afternoon, too. This is his dream, his goal, everybodyâs eyes on him, the biggest source of entertainment in the country.
Feels so stupid, forgetting youâll leave at some point. That he canât flip you over again all day tomorrow, that youâll be occupied somewhere else, with someone else. Jungkook grits his teeth.
âYou wanna come over again tomorrow night?â he asks.
And all of a sudden, despite the last hour, you seem lost in thoughts again. Probably tired, but he canât help but overthink. You donât answer immediately, keeping him on the edge, and as he thinks youâve fallen asleep, he looks over, seeing your eyes open when you say, âDonât know. Might have a couple things to tend to.â
Ah⌠okay. Sure.
Whereâs your mind right now, he wonders?
Maybe circling around work. Maybe your urge to go is as little as his? All these things, they donât sound too delightful right now, do they?
Concert preparations. Organisational things. The company. Tae.
When did you start using his nickname like this? Weird. Didnât know the two of you were so close. Then again, does it matter? No. He shakes his head.
Shakes it slowly, making sure you donât notice, sighing again before he breaks into a smile. Itâs okay. Youâre next to him. Not next to Taehyung. His friend. Youâre covered in him. So he doesnât let anotherâs name fog his brain, instead seeking peace and succeeding untilâ
âDonât worry, another time,â you say, following up with a goosebump-inducing, âIâll stick around until my feet tingle.â
Somewhere⌠at some point in his life⌠under probably not the best circumstancesâÂ
Wait.
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Hobie Brown being your boyfriend...
Hobie brown x reader
2nd part
just a few headcanons of our spider-punk <33
fluff, slight nsfw and angst?
Hobie loves to kiss you, no matter the place or who is around, he will take every opportunity to kiss you and devour your mouth.
"hey hun" he whispers while Miguel is explaining something important.
"mmmh.. " you look at him before you felt his soft lips on yours.
Hobie loves to hold your hand, he likes how his big hand wraps around yours, he also likes to wrap your waist with his hands or lean his head against your shoulder. Hobie only wants to feel you.
Hobie shows you off to everyone; with his friends from the gang and his friends from the spider society.
"Miles, my mate, you need to meet Y/n, she's so badass, coolest and most stylish girl of all the multiverse... you'll get along with her for sure, she has that charm"
"who's Y/n?"
"the love of his life, his better half.. Y/n is the girlfriend of my bro" Pav explains
" thought you hate labels"
" Y/n has that effect on him" Gwen whispers
Hobie follows you on all the missions 'cause he needs to take care of you. As long as he exists, no one can hurt you.
"Miss me luv?" your eyes widen in surprise to see your boyfriend swing next to you
"hobie, what are you doing here?"
"just taking care of my girl"
Hobie asks you to move into his canal boat, sadly that would not be possible, your universe needs his spider-woman, but sometimes hobie manages to convince you.
"Hobie my love, I can't stay" you whisper between kisses as your boyfriend slides his big hands under your shirt-it's actually his-
"shh luv, just lemme make ya feel better" he murmurs before sliding his hand under your panties .
In short, Hobie being your boyfriend is heavenly
'til the canon event happens.
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Do you ever start reading smut and then the line "she wasn't wearing any panties" hits and suddenly I'm Sahara desert.
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is it possible you make a smut about karina? where you fuck her infront of a mirror as you watch her body bounce as you rail her hard and groping every inch of her body.
P.S i really like your works and your writing is supurb, i hope you continue writing more stories.
I apologize for the long wait. I had to put these two requests together, because I can't keep up with ones I already got and the new ones that are coming in. Hope you guys enjoy it.
Mirror Mirror on the Wall...
(Karina X Hwang Yeji X Male Reader)
You look across the table. Dinner tasted delicious and you also prepared cake for the birthday girl. The older one of the two sisters stares down at the chocolate cake, carefully taking a bite.
It's hard to say you hate her. She is your friend's daughter after all. But you can't help it. You've watched her grow up for more than just a couple of years. You treat both sisters almost the same, but Karina started to become something that you were afraid of. A stuck up, self-centered bitch.
It's a shame actually. But by the way her mother behaves, it's not that big of a surprise. She and your friend are sitting at your table as well. You invited the family of four, because of Karina's birthday. Because you wanted to be polite. Not because you wanted Karina to be around you.
The complete opposite applies to Yeji. The younger one of the two sisters. She has her rebellious side, for sure, but she has always been a sweet sunshine. Even now, her smile lights up your dining room as she takes her first bite of the cake.
"Mmmh. It's so delicious. You are a really great cook."
You crack a smile at Yeji's compliment.
Unable to not compare the two sisters, you notice that Karina hasn't said a word. Not even a thank you. She does eat the cake, which already is something, but she is just as rude as her mother is.
You sigh in disappointment. Your friend should've done better. Of course every parent makes mistakes, but Karina's mother is just on another level. But Yeji still turned out well. You can't get behind it. What exactly went wrong?
"Please let me help."
Yeji smiles at you as she stands up to collect the rest of the plates. She is the only one of your three guests who offered her help. To be fair, her father is currently on a call with his client. Mother and daughter are both busy with their phones it seems.
"Thank you, Yeji."
"I should really come over more often."
Turning around, you see Yeji, who is walking after you into the kitchen.
"Please don't. You are a lot of work."
"Very funny."
She puts down the plates, looks outside the kitchen and looks back at you.
"Who is your favorite? Me or Karina?"
You roll your eyes at her question. A question you've heard more than a thousand times over the last years. From both of them.
"I don't have favourites."
"Oh come on. I know you like me more."
"What would make you think that?"
"You invite me more often than her."
Holding the towel for the dishes in your hand, you throw it at her. The white cloth covers Yeji's face.
"You always come here uninvited. When was the last time I asked you to come?"
Yeji pulls the towel off of her head, pouting at you.
"You invited me for today. Didn't you?"
You turn towards your sink, getting ready to wash the dishes. Your stupid dishwasher broke two days ago.
"I invited all of you. That doesn't count."
Yeji steps next to you.
"You can be really mean sometimes."
"Just honest."
Yeji takes the cleaned plate out of your hand.
The two of you finish washing the dishes in silence. Once you are done, you motion Yeji to sit at the kitchen table.
"Got something as a reward for helping me."
"Really?"
Yeji looks at you with excitement in her eyes.
You open the door of the fridge. The young woman tries to look around you, wanting to know what you are going to give her.
"More cake?"
She smiles brightly as you turn back around.
"Not just any cake."
Grabbing two forks on your way, you sit down in front of Yeji. The cake in the middle.
"It's the cake I got from the publisher for finishing the last book."
"Wow. So that really is the last book of your series?"
You nod.
"I will write more. But I think there is not much more to tell about this one."
Yeji nods in response as well. She puts a piece of cake into her mouth.
"That's delicious."
You shush her.
"Be quiet, or we have to share"
Yeji giggles, before eating some more.
"If it was you last book though, you must've gotten a lot of fan letters and stuff."
"I did."
"Can I check them out?"
"That's kinda private, Yeji. Those people send their letters to me not you."
The young woman pouts.
"Hey, man."
Your friend walks in.
"I have to meet a client. I'm sorry about this, but I have to leave now."
"No problem, mate. I will makes sure the girls get home safely."
"Thank you."
"By dad!"
"Bye sweetie."
He kisses Yeji on the head, before he walks out.
"Well, this makes my original plan way easier."
You raise an eyebrow.
"What plan?"
"Having some alone time with you."
The tone of her voice starts changing. The sweet, innocent girl starts to fade into the background.
"Your sister and your mom are still here."
"Oh please. As if they are going to check on us."
Yeji takes another bite. More slowly this time. And with way more eye contact.
"We shouldn't be doing this with anyone around."
She gets up, walking around the table.
"No one will go into your study without permission."
"But-"
Yeji gracefully takes her seat on your lap.
"Am I right? Daddy?"
The 24 year old kinky college girl has finally found its way to the surface.
Fuck. You just can't resist her.
It happened around three or four years ago, if you remember correctly. Spending a lot of time with you growing up, Yeji naturally started to enjoy the things you enjoy too. One of them being writing. She didn't just enjoy it, she loved it. You helped her improve and let her beta read all your new stuff, before publishing it. You went with her to small classes and even competitions for young writers. It was nice to share something like this with her.
And before you could even realize what was happening, Yeji already graduated. You felt like time flew past way too quickly. But on that day, you found yourself sitting in the school's gym, applauding as she got up to receive her diploma. An honorary mention for being the founder of the school's writing club and being part of a nation wide competition was of course a given.
After only a couple of hours on the day, which should've been one of the best of her life, she stood at your doorstep, looking up at you. Her black hair a mess, puffy red eyes and tears running down her cheeks. Her father always planned for her to work at his company and eventually take over. But she decided to take a different path. The path you took. Or at least a very similar one. After she told him, she already got a scholarship at a local college, her dad wasn't fond of the idea at all. The two of them fought hard that day. The only person Yeji wanted to get comforted by that day was you.
Only a couple of minutes after she arrived and dumped all of this on you, her father called. Your friend was worried about her, since she just ran off and he didn't know where she was. You told him that she was with you and would stay the night. The two of them should have a calm discussion the next day.
Yeji was incredibly thankful and eventually went to the room she always stays in when she sleeps over. After having talked to her for several hours, you wanted to make sure that she was alright one last time, before going to bed yourself. You walked in on her lying on the big bed, her skirt on the floor, her fingers knuckle deep inside of her. The way she moaned your name is the reason why you are here now.
"Fine."
You sigh in defeat, feeling Yeji slightly grind against you.
"Go upstairs. I will tell your mom we are going to write on your project for college."
Yeji suddenly attacks you, pressing her lips against yours. Her tongue aggressively demands entrance into your mouth. The two of you engage into a hot but quick kiss.
"I'll be waiting."
With one last wink and sway of her hips, Yeji is gone.
You clear your throat, before standing up. Everytime you do this, you feel like the greatest sinner on earth. She is your friend's daughter. She is half your age. You were there on her first day of school. It always feels wrong when you think about it. And it always feels wrong afterwards. But if you only glance at Yeji, all that doubt goes out the window.
"Yeji and I are in my study in case you are looking for us. She needs help on her project."
Your friend's wife just nods, while you can see Karina rolling her eyes. You know what she thinks of her younger sister. You wish she could be only half as good as her. From what you've heard from Yeji, Karina likes her own college life. Or rather the boys in it. The stories her younger sister told you makes you think that your friend and his wife raised a self entitled slut.
Opening the big oak doors to your study and library, you see Yeji sitting at your desk.
Her warm smile makes you walk a little faster.
"Come here."
Once you reach her, you grab Yeji's chin, tilting her head upwards to meet yours. The two of you engage in another passionate kiss. While keeping your lips locked, you start to peel Yeji off your chair. You guide her towards the edge of your desk. Yeji hops onto the wooden surface, disconnecting from your lips for only a second.
Her new position enables you to properly run your hands all over her body. She moans into your mouth as she feels you exploring every inch of her.
"(Y/n)."
Yeji sighs your name, feeling one of your hands on her ass, while the other dips underneath her top. Your reach upwards, until you find her chest. Squeezing her tits over her bra makes Yeji moan again.
She eventually brakes away due to the lack of air. She smiles back up at you, excitement sparkling in her eyes.
"Let me give you head."
Yeji slides off the edge of the desk, landing between your legs on her knees. You have to bite your lip as you watch Yeji unbuckle your belt.
"It has been so long since last time."
You chuckle at her eagerness as she pulls down your pants. Your cock springs free, landing on her beautiful face.
"Wow."
She gasps, like she does everytime.
You rub your cock all over her face. Yeji closes her eyes, enjoying the feeling of your cock.
You never met someone who was this passionate about worshipping your cock. But Yeji is one of a kind. She was more eager than skilled at first. But you've trained your friend's daughter to be your personal slut. One would never see Yeji as that, when they would meet her on the street. But she can be a naughty little devil in your ear. Especially when her family comes over, or you visit them. She always tries to sneak off with you. Just like right now.
Yeji starts to suck you off in your study. Her eyes are still closed in bliss as she savors the taste of your cock. Her blowjob becomes more messy by the second. Soon, she is almost drooling on your cock. You take a fistful of her gorgeous orange hair and you start to thrust into her mouth. Yeji moans, opening her mouth as wide as possible, relaxing her throat.
"Damn, princess."
You've always called her and her sister that. But since the two of you started having sex, this nickname has a another layer to it. A dirty one at that. Because right now, Yeji doesn't look like a princess at all. She is on her knees, drooling spit onto your cock, her thighs and the floor. Your dick starts to hit the back of her throat as you begin to thrust into her harder. Soon, only the sounds of her gags fill your study. It's a beautiful melody. One that you would love to hear every day.
Yeji takes your mouth fucking like the good girl she has been raised to be. No complaining, no dirty look, not even the hint of a struggle. She seems to be in her element.
You unfortunately don't have the stamina to keep up the pace for too long. Eventually, you have to slow down, enabling Yeji to take a proper breath through her nose. Spit is covering her chin by now. You keep thrusting into her mouth. Slow, but still with purpose. But Yeji's eyes slowly start to turn dark with lust. Signaling you that she can only hold out this long without getting touched.
After a while, you finally pull out of her completely. A tear is rolling down her cheek, which she scoops up with the back of one of her fingers. Yeji takes a moment to catch her breath properly.
"B-Bend me over."
Her voice sounds raspy and dry. Which is odd, because there is spit covering everything. Her chin, lips, shirt, thighs and the floor too.
"Your manners, Yeji."
You're reminded how often you said that years ago. When you had important visitors and the two sisters stayed at yours over the weekend.
"Sorry. Please, daddy?"
She pouts cutely. Like she always does, when she wants something.
"We still have to be quick though."
Luckily, you always keep your desk clean. Quickly putting your laptop to the side, you turn Yeji around afterwards.
"Daddy..."
She moans as she feels your hand pressing against her back, making her bend over the wooden surface. Since your desk is quite high and quite big, Yeji can barely hold onto the edge on the other side. And she has to lift her feet off the ground, if she wants to do so. Only her tiptoes stay in contact with your wooden floor.
You reach around her, quickly unbuttoning her white pants, pulling them off of her.
"You came prepared, I see."
The lack of underwear has an obvious meaning. Yeji wiggles her butt at you, tempting you to just enter her immediately.
"Just for you, daddy."
Everytime she calls you that, you can't help but think about how wrong this all is. She could be your own daughter. Buth there she is, bend over your desk, telling you what she wants you to do to her.
"Can you please fuck me now? I've waited the whole day for this. I need it..."
Yeji sighs in desperation, her cheek resting on the dark wood.
You stand behind her, aligning your cock with her wet folds. You can see them glistening, when you pull her cheeks apart a little.
"Fuck, Yeji."
You can't believe how beautiful she is. How good her body looks. You wait for just a little longer, making Yeji squirm in anticipation, before you finally push inside of her.
"Oh god!"
A deep moan echoes through your study as you part Yeji's walls. Her tight pussy is dripping wet, making it easy for you to slide into her completely. You wonder, how she is so turned on. Because of you? Because you're her dad's friend? Because she has been waiting for this all day?
You are not sure. But you can say that this makes up for all the bad attitude her sister threw in your direction today.
Soon, you find yourself indulging in the pleasure that you take from Yeji's young and tight body. Every part of her seems to be made with perfection. You can't help but let your free hand roam her body. The other one is holding her waist as you keep thrusting into her.
Reaching under her shirt, you grope her breasts. A string of moans escapes her mouth. One louder and dirtier than the previous one.
"Harder, daddy! Please!"
You finally give into her begging. You know, if you fuck her harder, you won't be able to keep your orgasm off for much longer. And you still want to enjoy more of her body.
"Get on the desk."
Yeji takes a moment to comprehend what you just said. But she eventually manages to peel herself off your desk. You turn her around and push her back on it. Now on her back, Yeji looks up at you as you start thrusting into her again.
"Yes, daddy!"
You reach forward, bunching her shirt up over her tits. You push the bra up as well, finally revealing her small perky tits. Your other hand is holding onto one of her luscious thighs. Fingers digging into her soft skin.
"Keep going..."
Yeji slowly starts to lose the ability to speak. Her words start to turn into letters loosely strung together. It tells you that she isn't far away from her own climax.
You play with her tits, kneading them and pinching a nipple occasionally.
"Oh..."
She tries to say something again, but your strong thrusts make her eyes roll back. Her head, just like her back, is rubbing against the wooden surface of the desk in the rhythm of your pounding.
Your own desire for release starts to overwhelm you. The sight of Yeji, squirming and moaning on the desk she used to sit on and watch you write a cute story for her, makes you want to ruin her completely. Both of your hands are now holding onto her full thighs, enabling you to pull her back into you way harder than before.
The sound of your skin hitting hers echo through your study, accompanied by the young girl's moans.
"Daddy! Cuming!"
Yeji cries out as the pleasure finally proves too much for her. Her body shakes atop your desk as her orgasm overwhelms her. You don't slow down, pounding her through her high as you chase your own. Yeji's body often has that affect on you. That desire to completely wreck her, leaving her a whining, dirty mess.
"Ohhh..."
Yeji's drawn out mix of moan and cry sounds like music to your ears. Her pussy contracts around you at the same time, demanding that you cum inside.
"Princess..."
You groan, realizing that you don't know if this is a safe day for her or not. You want to fill Yeji with your cum, but you don't want to knock up your friend's daughter. Yeji is too far gone to care at the moment. Her body keeps squirming on the wooden surface, moans leaving her body in irregular intervals. You try to hold on for longer, but you eventually can't stop yourself.
With the last ounce of strength you have left, you regretfully leave Yeji's snug hole. As you pull out, that last squeeze of Yeji's inner walls makes you explode. You shoot your load all over her body. Her midriff is the first thing that's covered in your cum. Her chest quickly follows as strings of your semen hit her tits.
You feel your legs weaken as you calm down yourself, taking in the view in front of you. Yeji lies on the desk, her eyes still partially closed. A light smile plays around her lips as her heavy breath makes her chest heave. Her upper body is painted with your cum as she just lies there. Like a beautiful painting. A piece of art.
You walk down the hallway, heading for the bathroom. Yeji kept you busy with her project after the two of you had some fun. She does need to finish it soon, which means you didn't lie earlier. You are really helping her.
Opening the door to the bathroom, you suddenly stop moving. You look at Karina, who is standing in the middle of the room.
You notice her phone, which is standing on the sink, leaning against the lower part of your mirror. Karina isn't just taking a normal picture. She has hooked a finger inside her cleavage and is pulling the hem of her dress down. Despite looking at her from the side, you can see her breasts, almost completely exposed, through the mirror.
"Karina. What the hell are you doing?"
You see the young girl jumping, when she hears your voice. She looks at you as she takes her hand off her dress, letting it fall back into place. You see her roll her eyes before answering.
"Nothing."
"This doesn't look like nothing to me."
"Whatever."
Despite her disgusting attitude, Karina is still your friend's daughter and Yeji's sister. You still care for her. You glance at her phone, before looking back at her.
"Were you taking pictures of yourself?"
"So what?"
She reaches for the phone.
"Are you sending them to someone?"
"Not your business."
You hold back the desire to just give her a small clap on the head. Just a really small one.
"Karina, you shouldn't send this to anyone, whom you don't trust."
"I can do what I want."
You nod.
"That's true. I'm just saying, please be aware of the consequences."
"Stop annoying me already."
Karina is obviously checking the photos she took, while you are still trying to talk to her.
"I wouldn't need to annoy you, if you wouldn't act like this."
She raises an eye brow, but keeps looking at her phone.
"You can't tell me what to do."
Karina places the phone back on the sink. She goes through her hair, looking at the mirror. She hasn't even looked at you properly yet since you came in. It makes your blood boil even more.
"Actually, I can. This is my house. Plus, I'm your godfather."
"Oh no, I'm scared."
You watch as she bites on her nail and winks at the phone. You hear it taking a picture. She probably used a timer or something.
You take a deep breath.
"Get out."
She keeps going as if she didn't hear you. When she is about to pull the top of her dress down again, you stop her by grabbing her arm.
"I. Said. Get out."
You speak through your teeth, trying to stay calm. You pull her towards the door.
"Ouch. Stop it!"
Karina uses both hands to push you away. You let go, expecting her to get her phone and walk out on her own. Your eyes widen when you see her standing in front of the mirror again, hooking a thumb underneath one of the straps on her shoulders, smiling at the phone.
"You can wait outside, you know."
You were already annoyed by her attitude during the meal earlier. Her manners are pretty much non existent. You managed to hold yourself back. And Yeji did an incredible job to make up for her older sister's behavior. But there is only so much you can take. If Karina was a couple of years younger, you would've just picked her up and carried her out. You used to do that, when she was being a brat at an younger age.
"Karina."
You realize your tone has become threatening. You reach out for her shoulder, wanting to stop her from letting the strap fall off of it. She swats your hand away. It lands in her hair. And before you can even think about it. You've already taken a fistful.
"One last time. Get. Out."
You growl into her ear.
"Let me go!"
She tries to push you away again, but this time you stay steady.
"Stop it. You know I'm stronger than you."
"I'm gonna tell dad!"
"So what? You think he is gonna like the fact you take this kind of pictures of yourself?
Karina winces as you tug at her hair a little too hard.
"Leave me alone you ass!"
She finally reached the limit. She broke the last wall of self restraint you had left.
You push her against the sink, slightly bending her over it. The both of you stare at each other in the mirror. She finally looks at you properly.
"Stop being a rude bitch first."
The words left your mouth before you could think about them. You planned on saying something different. They just came out. You almost expect Karina to cry, when you see her eyes grow wide.
"Fuck you!"
You were wrong.
Karina reaches behind her with one hand to push you away. The other holds onto the sink.
"No. Fuck you. You have no manners at all."
"So what, huh!?"
She glares at you through the mirror, slightly raising her chin.
"Apologize and behave properly. Or this will have consequences."
You used to say that line when the two sisters were younger. It always worked. You were like a fun uncle for them. Whenever you became this serious, they knew they did something wrong.
But now, Karina just scoffs.
"I'm not ten anymore. What are you gonna do? Punish me?"
"I will."
"Oh, please. I'm a grown woman. I can do what I want."
"Not under my roof."
You point at her phone.
"Delete the pictures you took and go downstairs."
"No."
"Karina..."
You growl, pushing her forward with your hand on the back of her head. She stumbles against the sink.
"Delete them."
"No."
Karina crosses her arms and glares at you, once she has regained her composure. You reach for it yourself. She tries to stop you, but you are too strong for her.
"Give it back!"
You take a step back and hold her in place. Since your arms are longer than hers, Karina can't reach for her phone.
You delete the first to pictures without even looking at them. But when you see more and more of them, you start to realize how sexy she looks in them.
What she lacks in manners and attitude, she seems to make up for with her body. You can't deny the fact that Karina's beauty rivals her sister's.
Once you are done, you look at her again.
"Did you seriously just delete all of them?"
Karina asks with disbelief in her voice.
"Yes. Now, get out."
"No. I need some content for this weekend. You just deleted like twenty pictures or something."
"What content?"
You furrow your eye brows.
"None of your business. Give me my phone back."
You ignore her outstretched hand, quickly scanning through the apps on her phone. You see a white icon with a blue O on it. You realize what she is doing.
"Are you serious?"
"What?"
You show her what you found.
"So? I need to pay my bills somehow."
"Does your father know about this?"
"Don't you dare."
Karina glares at you.
"Oh trust me. I will tell him."
"No way."
Now she finally looks a little concerned.
"Karina, you shouldn't be doing this. Just because you look nice, doesn't mean you have to sell your body for some money."
"You think I look nice?"
She mockingly raises and eyebrow.
"That's wasn't my point Karina."
"Come on, you can be honest. Do you know how much guys pay me for these pictures?"
"I don't give a fuck."
"But I do. If you are gonna tell on me, I'm gonna tell on you too."
"I'm a grown man and your dad's friend. What could you possible know about me that would be worth his time?"
"Hmm, I don't know. Maybe the fact his best friend rails his daughter on a regular basis?"
"What?"
You are too surprised to hide it. You and Yeji made sure that no one would find out. You were always careful. How...?
"See? Seems like I do have something of value."
"How do you know?"
"Me and Yeji share a dorm at college. Whenever she doesn't see you for longer than a week, she plays with herself, when she thinks I'm asleep. I can't believe she calls you daddy."
You close your eyes in disbelief. Yeji... Why does she have to be so fucking horny all the time?
"Fine. Alright. I won't tell on you. You won't tell on me."
A sly, victorious smile plays around Karina's lips.
"Deal."
"That doesn't change the fact that you are rude all the time."
"I'm not rude."
It's your turn to raise an eyebrow.
"I have my reasons."
You let go of her hair earlier. She crosses her arms in front of her, looking away.
"I don't care what your reasons are. So leave."
You gesture towards the door.
Karina doesn't move.
"You deleted all the pictures. I need new ones."
"I still don't like what you are doing. Leave."
She shakes her head.
"Help me with this."
You realize that your argument isn't flawless.
"You're my friend's daughter. No way."
"Seriously? You creampie my sister, but you don't want to fuck me?"
How are you going to get out of this?
"I'm not shooting a movie here or something. If you want someone to fuck you on camera, find a pornstar or something."
Karina rolls her eyes.
"That's where you draw the line?"
"Karina..."
She ignores you, taking the phone out of your hand.
"You don't need to do anything but fuck me. Shouldn't be that hard."
She sets the camera to record, before placing it back on the sink.
You think about it for a moment. It really isn't that hard. You are fucking Yeji already. So why not go all the way? It's not like she is gonna tell her dad.
Karina leans over the sink, looking back at you over her shoulder.
"Give it to me. Daddy."
That last word makes you jump into action.
It sounds so much different to when Yeji says it. The younger one uses more affection. Whenever she says it, you feel like she would do anything for you. Or rather your cock.
When Karina says it, it's sounds more lustful. Maybe even slightly condescending.
Yeji is the good girl, while Karina is the bad one.
You quickly unbuckle your belt and let your pants drop to the floor. Karina watches you through the mirror as you reach for the hem of her dress.
She glances at the phone, when she feels you pushing her dress up. You reveal her ass. Slightly bigger than Yeji's. You can't help but compare. Your hands wander over her skin. The same thrill you feel whenever you have sex with Yeji enters your body. The thrill of doing something forbidden. The fact that she is filming this makes it even hotter, now that you think about it.
"Don't tease me, daddy."
A knowing smile plays on Karina's lips.
You align your cock with her entrance. Her wet folds make it easy to slip inside. It seems like taking the pictures earlier turned her on.
"Damn, daddy."
Karina breaths heavily as you push inside. For some illogic reason you expected her to be not as tight as Yeji. You are proven wrong.
"Fuck you are tight."
You can't help but give her ass a rewarding spank.
"That's right daddy. Punish me for being such a slut."
You slap her again and again with every inch you push further into her. Karina moans whenever you do so. Her body is being pushed forward with every slap. Her ass cheeks jiggle deliciously.
Once you bottom out inside of her, you look at Karina in the mirror. Her half lid eyes stare back at you. She is biting her lip, trying to contain a loud moan.
You place both your hands on her waist, pushing down a little. Karina's back arches as a result, enabling you to push just a little bit further.
"Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck."
It seems like you've reached her limit. Karina hisses as she tries to get accustomed to your cock.
"If I had known you are this big..."
She isn't able to finish her sentence, when you pull out of her.
You watch Karina's eyes roll back as your cock rubs against the length of her inner walls.
"Don't give me all the credit."
You chuckle as you push back inside.
"Fuck."
Another moan escapes Karina's lips.
"Am I tighter than my sister?"
A question you've never even dreamed of hearing. One so dirty, you never thought one of them would be able to say it.
"You are."
Your honest answer makes her smirk. You wipe it off her face a moment later. Because you start fucking her properly now.
"Holy shit."
Karina watches as you thrust into her again and again. Your hips snap against hers, making the sounds echo through the bathroom. She tries to silence herself once again by biting her lip, but your thrusts prove to be too much for her. Eventually, her mouth hangs open, lewd sounds coming from the deepest parts of her throat.
Your eyes, which were focused on her face, are now slowly wandering downwards. You get captivated by the way her tits move, while you fuck her. Reaching forward with one hand, you grope Karina's boobs over her dress.
They are bigger than Yeji's. You don't have to touch her to know it. It's obvious.
"You like mine more than my sister's. Right?"
Karina manages to ask another question like this.
"I would like you more if you would just shut up."
Another grin flashes across her face.
"If I'm still talking, you are just not fucking me hard enough."
You take it as a challenge. With one hand now in her hair and the other on her waist, you start to fuck Karina harder and faster. You push her against the sink with every thrust into her. A red line where she hits the sink appears on her skin.
"Look at yourself. Getting fucked in someone else's bathroom like a whore."
You don't know where these words came from. This situation, Karina herself, makes you do things you never thought of doing. You pull at her hair, forcing her to lift her head, which dropped between her shoulders earlier.
Karina's wide eyes stare at you as you take her from behind. Her tight walls squeeze you and try to stop you from leaving, whenever you pull back.
"Mmh, yes."
Karina moans, some spit falling out of her mouth in the process. She starts to lose her composure as you hit just the right spot with every single thrust. Her and Yeji's body feel similar to you. You can tell where her sensitive spots might be and you stimulate them properly, making a squirming mess out of the young woman.
You move your hand from her waist to her shoulders, quickly pulling the straps of her dress off. The upper half slips down her body, until the whole dress is bunched up right above her waist.
Karina's tits sway from side to side as you pound her from behind. You take one of them into your hand, squeezing it and earning another deep moan.
By now, you think Karina has forgotten about her phone. She seems to let herself go, submitting to your thrusts. Your hand keeps exploring her voluptuous chest, squeezing her tits and tugging at her nipples randomly.
Your cock in her pussy keeps hitting just the right spots. The combination of your pounding and your groping has Karina moaning and shivering. She watches herself getting fucked. It's something she starts to enjoy very much. Her pussy tightens even more around you in response.
You let your hand explore more of her body, while the other one keeps her head in place by holding her hair. You admire her collarbone and shoulders for a moment, before quickly moving past her chest. You feel the toned muscles of her stomach underneath your palm. As you keep fucking her and your hand moves further down, you could swear you can feel your cock through her belly.
You press against the spot and suddenly, Karina starts to shake more, her pussy squeezing you tighter.
"Daddy, fuck!"
It's the last words she manages to force out. From that moment onwards, Karina is a mumbling mess. You can't tell what she is trying to say. Her lips quiver uncontrollably. Her pussy is almost painfully tight as you feel more and more of her fluids leaking out of her.
Eventually, your hand reaches her clit. You start rubbing it, encouraging her with your fingers to cum on your cock. Karina's closed eyes shoot open. Saliva still drips from her parted lips.
"Ohhhh!"
A loud cry is the only thing she can do to announce her orgasm. Karina watches herself climaxing. She sees how her body twitches and squirms. How her muscles on her midriff seem to flex. She feels her own pussy tightening around your cock, contracting uncontrollably. Her arms and legs grow weak.
You keep fucking Karina through her orgasm. She can't do anything but take it. She can't tell you to stop. She tries to watch herself as long as possible. But when you somehow drive yourself into the deepest depths of her vagina, Karina's eyes roll to the back of her head. She sees stars, her mind eventually breaking from the pleasure.
You feel yourself chasing your own orgasm as you watch your friend's daughter through the mirror. Her breath has left fog on the glass. Only now do you realize her hands don't rest on the sink anymore. They are pressed against the surface of the mirror.
The sight of Karina like this slowly makes you reach your high.
"Fuck, Karina. Your pussy is gonna milk me dry."
You manage to push out the words as you try to hang on as long as possible. Her tight snatch keeps squeezing your cock, making it harder for you to properly fuck her like before.
"Let me taste your cum, daddy. I need it."
Karina's eyes reflect her desire and need for your cum. She almost unconsciously licks her lips.
You count to ten, trying to stay as long as possible inside of her. You want to savor every last second of her tight pussy wrapped around your cock.
But you have to pull out eventually. You leave the snug tightness of her snatch.
"Come here."
Karina drops to the tile covered floor, kneeling in front of you.
Just like you held Yeji an hour ago, you grab Karina's chin. But not to kiss her. You make her crawl towards the glass wall of your shower.
You press her cheek against it, signaling her to stay like this. The sight quickly makes you cum.
You start to shoot your load all over Karina's face. You paint her skin with your cum. She looked almost cute a moment ago. Now, she looks like a cheap whore.
"Fuck, that tastes good."
Karina is sucking her finger clean, after having scooped up some of your cum. You can't believe you came on both of your friend's daughters within two hours.
The older of the two now looks up at you, her tongue cleaning the cum off her face around her mouth.
"Would you like to become my partner for my content? You would get a cut off the profit."
"Karina-"
"You think we can convince Yeji to join us?"
"I don't think we should-"
"I think people are gonna be willing to pay if they know the two of us are actual sisters."
It feels like you are drowning in sin. It's bad enough you had sex with one of your friend's daughters more times than you could count. You now managed to fuck the older sister as well. And now she wants you to help her make money by filming you, fucking her and her sister?
"This isn't right Karina."
You try to do the right thing. But that ship has kinda sailed already. And you can't deny that a threesome with the two sisters would be mind blowing.
"Come on, daddy. You can do with me what you want. As long as we film it. And I'm pretty sure you are already using Yeji like a sex toy anyway."
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