#mitski my beloved ❤️

[screams-of-the-damned84]

there’s a deal you can make

non-smokey version because I don’t know if I like it or not 🤔 otherwise I kinda like how this turned out lol, u can never go wrong with red/green lighting. always fun.

[k0kichiimagines]

CAUSE MY LOVE IS MINE ALL MINE, MY LOVE, MY MY MINE. NOTHING IN THE WORLD BELONGS TO ME, BUT MY LOVE IS MINE ALL MINE. NOTHING IN THE WORLD IS MINE FOR FREE BUT MY LOVE IS MINE ALL MINE ♥️♥️♥️♥️💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 (/lyrics)

[thedeersystem]

She looks so Angy >:)

[humongousgothskeletonfarm]

tsc thoughts while reading (beware of spoilers) starting with -

david wymack my fucking beloved

also i never rlly liked/cared for thea but her scene with jean and her nickname for him was cute

chapter 3 thoughts:

jeremy being in awe of neil and the foxes is giving me life

fanfics with alvarez in them gonna go crazy now that we actually have a first name for her (and don’t have to invent one)

oh they rich rich (in reference to jeremy’s family butler?!)

jerejean first interaction!!!!

chapter 4:

omg sunshine court mentioned

having the sudden realisation that i can never read fanfics that have jean’s perspective or anything about the how the ravens work, raven!neil/aftermath of the kings men in the same way again

my neighbours are having a party and while i’m loving the music and absolutely jealous i’m not there, it’s really distracting me from reading

ngl i rlly miss neil and andrew and the foxes please let me see my family soon

‘ what you hold onto is less important than the act of holding on itself’ nora sakavic shut the fuck up you philosophical genius i’m gonna cry this is so real to me

renee i love u

WIT WTF JEAN IS NINETEEN I DIDNT KNOW THAT OH MY GOD BABY HE JOINED THE RAVEN LINEUP AT SIXTEEN WTF

i’m drinking red wine while reading and i think that’s appropriate… also i’m listening to that jean moreau playlist someone made and it’s mega depressing https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5zlPt63Ap0AjJQ1Ff5OKrd?si=75oEzLE8SO-bfJwewM8Evw&pi=a-ge04jIlVTJGY

this is so funny to only me but i’ve been hyperfixating on one direction again and zayn just dropped new music so everytime i read about jean’s raven roomate zane i think of one direction and confused myself a bit about what fandom i’m reading rn

fuck riko u sick fucking fuck u put jean into a box with a singular hole for air and left him to die u fucking cunt

KEVIN ASKING JEAN TO PROMISE NOT TO KILL HIMSELF AFTER NORA WROTE COUNTLESS DRAFTS IN WHICH JEAN KILLED HIMSELF WHILE ON THE PHONE TO KEVIN AND THE ONLY TIME SHE DIDNT KILL JEAN OFF IS THE VERSION SHE PUBLISHED AND THE REASON WE GET TO HEAR HIS STORY TODAY IM SO BROKEN

jean’s ‘gift’ from the ravens with his broken magnets, blacked out postcards and angry letters is making me cry he deserves so much better

slowly realising that this book is gonna be super triggering lol whoops

a cool evening breeze 🥲

THAT CREEPY LITTLE GOALKEEPER IS MY FAVOURITE GUY OK

‘kevin saw nothingn but the court, but jean had stopped hoping for more than that years ago’ shut the fuckkkk uppppp i cant do this anymore kevin/jean relationship is so deeply important to me (i say this about everything)

chapter 5:

SECOND NEIL/ JEAN INTERACTION OF THE BOOK IM SO FUCKING EXCITED

‘of course it’d be you, you tedious malcontent’ ‘good morning to you too’ is so ‘morning sunshine’ ‘fuck you’ coded (neil and matt bromance confirmed)

the amount of mitski on this jean playlist is making me sick

FUCKING SCREAMING OMFG THIS IS THE JEAN/NEIL CONTENT I YEARN FOR

‘abominable cockroach’ aww jean u say the sweetest things 🥰❤️ neil loves u too babe

literally devouring every last scrap of information jean feeds us about neil - his slow, hungry, hateful smile and the madness in his eyes (neil baby i love u never change)

oh jean don’t diss aaron, do u know how many fanfics have been written about u two

tsc is confirmation that jean moreau will come into ur house and judge u based on the contents of ur fridge (and then throw out ur stash of lollies)

‘to have a real match as a palate cleanser’ jean is really trying to win my favour by borrowing neil’s sassiness huh (no wonder i love them so much together) ((and yes i know he’s BEEN sassy ok))

jean reaching for the tv screen as if he could save neil and describing andrew running for neil as if hell was on his heels is making me absolutely giddy idk whether to scream or cry i’m doing both and i’m giggling

I bet on losing dogs is so jean moreau coded omg

holy fuck nora, the moments after the raven/fox match when riko tries to kill neil is fucking amazingly written. reading from jean’s perspective as he watches the game on tv, the tension, the breathless anxiety and confusion of the scene is palpable i coukd fucking taste it, my chest is tight just reading it

JEAN SAYING ANDREW WILL BE COURT IS IMMACULATE

[asbestos-boy-68]

i am not a proshipper. i feel the need to put this here because people have been wishing death on me because of the fact that i ship phonepad. instead of sending me death wishes, please learn your ii lore. mephone and mepad aren’t related. thanks. anyways, intro post.

hi. i’m alex , aka asbestos boy 68.

about me

i’m 16

i am a boy

i like boys

i’m ace

i’m also a cripple

i’m a scene kid

i’m he / him

i like music a lot (please talk to me about music)

i draw sometimes

i also write sometimes

i also sing and act

i also do photography

i’m cringe ❤️

fandoms i’m in

inanimate insanity

hfjone

smiling friends

superbad

zach stone is gonna be famous

scott pilgrim

garfield

non fandom interests

computer viruses

scambaiting

musicccc<3333333

eas

linguistics

graphic design

photography

ben folds

littlest pet shop

my ships

mephone 4 x mepad (inanimate insanity)!! <3

mecintosh x mephone 3gs (inanimate insanity)

silver spoon x the floor (inanimate insanity)

balloon x tissues (inanimate insanity)

trophy x knife (inanimate insanity)

fan x cheesy (inanimate insanity)

microphone x taco (inanimate insanity)

nickel x baseball (inanimate insanity)

pickle x bomb (inanimate insanity)

salt x testtube (inanimate insanity)

testtube x lightbulb (inanimate insanity)

salt x pepper (inanimate insanity)

paper x oj (inanimate insanity) (i was verbally threatened to put them here (jk i love payjay))

candle x cabby (inanimate insanity)

bow x clover (inanimate insanity)

apple x marshmallow (inanimate insanity)

suitcase x box (inanimate insanity)

toilet x mephone4s (inanimate insanity)

blueberry x lifering (inanimate insanity)

steve cobs x ballpoint pen (inanimate insanity)

soap x mephone 5c (inanimate insanity)

mephone 5 x mephone X (inanimate insanity)

goo x metag (inanimate insanity)

airy x liam (hfjone)(yeah yeah throw your tomatoes)

coiny x firey (BFDI)

pen x eraser (BFDI)

gelatin x fries (BFDI)

nickel x tennis ball (BFDI)

zach x greg (zach stone is gonna be famous)

seth x evan (superbad)

charlie x pim (smiling friends)

garfield x odie (garfield)

scott x wallace (scott pilgrim)

kim x ramona (scott pilgrim)

my fav characters

cheesy (inanimate insanity)

mephone 4 (inanimate insanity)

zach stone (take a fat guess which one this is from)

odie (garfield)

wallace wells (scott pilgrim)

dni

phonepad antis. leave me alone.

proshippers. i am not one of y’all.

basic dni criteria

true crime community

under 13

thin ice

swifties

music i like

too many to list here but i’ll list the big ones

ben folds / ben folds five / majosha / etc (my beloved !!!) <333

vocaloid!! fav producers are satsuki, maretu, and cosmo

WEEZERRRR

nine inch nails

they might be giants

orchestral manoeuvres in the dark

descendents (the punk band. NOT disney.)

uncle outrage

millionaires

depeche mode

babymetal

mitski

pet shop boys

joost klein

jonathan coulton

lesley gore

crochetcatpause

party cannon

i am very opinionated. this blog is mostly my opinions. if you don’t like them, just don’t read them. don’t attack me! thanks!

^^ art by @realflops ^^

[fatuismooches]

SMOOCHES!!! Hii my cutie patootie!!! ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

It’s been a while since I last sent something here and I’m so sorry about that!! I’m doing a lot better now (although I never got my test results back to see if I had that syndrome or not LOL) and I almost have the two new Fontaine regions 100% oopsies! But I have like serious brainrot (but school is so tiring I usually just nap the whole afternoon) anyways!! I listened to one of mitski’s songs called “Once More to See You” and ugh it honestly just reminded me of Dottore and fragile!reader. The beginning makes me think of how fragil!reader and Dottore (especially) having a reputation and being looked as “weird” or as students who don’t belong in the Akademiya. The rest of the song just reminds me of Dottore being alone once fragile!reader fell into their coma, and him longing to feel your hand against his. To have your warm touch, caress his cheek, kiss his lips, embrace him, and to say his name, “Zandik!” In that lovely tone of yours. ouuughh I love fragile!reader and Dottore so so much just Dottore having to wait so long for them to wake up. Like imagine having to wait hundreds of years for the only person who’s every shown you affection and love. The only person to hold you so lovingly, say your name with love and not disgust, or with horror.

And after waking up??? Oughhh I know I say this a bit frequently but Dottore would become so so protective and possessive. I mean, you’re the only thing he has left, and he almost lost you once. He won’t spare to almost lose you another time, especially after centuries went by without your warm touch, or your voice. He defff savors every moment you two have together when he’s available. And especially when he becomes so used to having you on his lap and him being able to feel your heartbeat. Sometimes he may unconsciously tighten his grip on you when he’s holding you.

okieokie I think that’s enough for today!! I hope you’ve been doing amazing smooches again I’m so sorry I’ve been away I always wanna brainrot but sometimes I think my ideas aren’t that great compared to anons (YOUR ANONS ARE SO AMAZING I LOVE READING EVERY POST, AND KAI’S WRITINGS <333 MWA MWA!!) But i hope you’re getting lots of rest and staying healthy!! A bunch of chu chus n hugs, n maybe a few cuddles ! hehe!!

-from your dear boo boo bear 🎐 anon! ౨ৎ

🎐 ANON MY BELOVED!!! Oh my gosh I'm so happy you're back and alright, I missed you, and I'm so happy to hear your health has gotten better ❤️ Congrats on your Fontaine exploration and omg i totally understand, take those naps if you need to 😭 I'm not much of a napping person but those few times that i do nap, feel so good lmao. Okay brainrot time~

WAH THANK YOU FOR INTRODUCING ME TO ANOTHER MITSKI SONG... omg i love this so much. Dottore was definitely ostracized and excluded in the Akademiya, everyone thought that he nor his crazy ideas belonged there. And you, I imagine your reputation start to get dragged through the mud the more you hang out with Dottore. They just don't understand. Why would you ever want to even sit in the same room as him, much less befriend him? You started to be labeled as the same things as him. You don't mind (most of the time, sometimes it still gets to you) because you think those people are just shallow compared to your friend. But Zandik himself doesn't understand you either? There's no way that his "friendship" (your words, not his) is worth the stress of all this. He doesn't understand, it's not like you're using him, if anything he's the one using you instead. Zandik doesn't understand... but he's not going to admit that the fact that you chose him over everyone else makes him feel a certain way. And that tingly feeling only grows and grows. And he refuses to acknowledge it... until you leave him and suddenly everything he's chosen to ignore hits him at once. Everything that Zandik's been trying so hard to deny, he admits to now. He misses you... he longs for your touch, your kindness, the way you treat him with such love, your voice... as horrible as this is, it really did open his eyes. Made him realize that living by himself again in the dorms is slowly making him even crazier without you. Made him realize that he's willing to do anything, and i mean anything, to get you back.

OH YEAH Dottore is extremely protective over you when you finally wake up. See, Dottore isn't really scared of someone else hurting you. He knows that he and his segments would never let that happen. Rather, he's scared of other things. Like your illness. Things he can't control. Dottore is a man who's used to being in control now, so when he can't predict things? When he can't see them coming? He doesn't like that. Not one bit, especially when it comes to you. He needs to know everything, otherwise, he won't be satisfied. He can't risk you being hurt again, not under his watch. You're very confused in the beginning because hello? This is the same guy who used to let you go out and do all these crazy tasks on his behalf? But yeah, he can't help but be very possessive. It's very Dottore like of him.

Thank you for the delicious brain rot 🎐 anon!! I enjoyed it tremendously :3 AND SHUSH YOUR BRAINROTS ARE AMAZING AND I LOVE THEM. But yuppp my anons and Kai have such yummy writing!! I am doing well, thank you :) just busy but I'm fine! Giving you lots of my hugs and kisses to you toooo <33

[hellokiki1717]

*.•. Marissa .•.*

🩷Currently playing🩷:

💫✨📺Anthems for a seventeen year-old girl📺✨💫

💖Hi! I’m Marissa!!!💖

•.* 18/yrs

•.* she/her

•.* bisexual-sapphic, cisgender

•.* autism, ADHD, OCD, and MDS

•.* Artist!

•.* Furry

•.* I HAVE A GF HISSSS GET AWAY👁️👅👁️🫀

*.•. Fandoms .•.* *.•.(SFW).•.*

*.• MLP

*.• FiveNightsOfFlirting (I STILL LOVE FRITZ)

*.• GAVRIL

*.• Rebornica! (Don’t support creator) /I LOVE FRITZ)

*.• METAL FAMILY!!!🎶 (17+)

*.• Mushroom Oasis!🍄

*.• The Phobia Project (Mortisfox)

*.• FNAF

*.• PURPLE «Director’s Cut» (17+)

*.• Vocaloid

*.• LPS!!!

*.• Undertale (horrortale too)

*.• PINKY AND PEPPER FOREVER!!! (18+)

*.• Marble Hornets!!!💞

*.• MouthWashing!💊

*.• MHA

*.• Foxes!!!🦊

*.• Creepypasta

*.• Eddsworld

*.• TMNT! (2012/Rise)

*.• Visual Novels

*.• Cinnamoroll!

*.• The Sims 4!

*.• John Doe (Mortisfox)

*.• panty and stocking🫢🌸 (18+)

*.• Cosplay!

*.• Gorillaz!

*.• ANIMATION MEMES

*.• TINR💧❤️‍🩹 (sigh…Sid🤤)

*.•. Fandoms .•.* *.•.(NSFW).•.*

DNI WITH THESE FANDOMS IF YOU ARE UNDER 18 (that goes for things I repost/post from those fandoms)

°.~Main Hyperfixations:

*.• BTD-BTD2-TPOF-YKMET (REN HANA MY BBG»»»)

*.• TheKidAtTheBack (UGHHH I LOVE JERICHO ICHABOD HELPPP🌙✨💜)

*.• BROKEN COLORS>> (DG AND GUNTHER ARE YUMMY)

*.• The Groom Of Gallagher Mansion (TAYLOR POTTS🌻😃)

*.• SunnyDayJack!!! (SHAUNNNN DURAND COFER AHHHH🦇🐈‍⬛)

°.~Other Fandoms I’m in:

*.• Monster x Mediator

*.• Frostbite❤️

*.• Enough Pie For Us (Szarlotka my beloved)

*.• LittleFox (UNDERATED CHECK IT OUT IN ICHI.IO)

*.• DatchaBoPet

*.• Yandere Simulator(I DONT SUPPORT YANDERE DEV YUCKY)

*.• LurkingForLove

*.• MyDearHatchetMan

*.• YourBoyfriend (I don’t support fuboo/pirate the game y’all)

*.•The Loverman Killer!!!

*.•. Music .•.*

*•. Mitski

*•. MARETU!!!🖖👁️🪽

*•. Jazmin Bean

*•. Anrianne Lenkar

*•. Alex G

*•. Asteria

*•. Baby Bugs

*•. Chappell Roan

*•. Get Scared

*•. Girlfriends Mourning💞🌸

*•. Gorillaz

*•. Rebzyyx

*•. Lumi Athena

*•. MARINA

*•. Måneskin

*•. Mother Mother

*•. Odetari

*•. SUICIDAL-IDOL💖

*•. The Living Tombstone

*•. The weeknd

*•. Toby Fox

*•. ThxSoMch

*•. Vylet Pony

*•. Wowaka

*•. Yaelokre

*•. LADY GAGA🙀🫶

*.•. YouTubers .•.*

•*. ESPOIS DU VIDE MY BELOVED!!!

•*. Danny Gonzalez

•*. Jay From TheKubzScouts!!!

•*. Memeulous

•*. Cam Kirkham

•*. KURTIS CONNER

•*. Drew gooden!!!

•*. Jarvis Johnson!!!

•*. MINDPULP🗣️🗣️

•*. Daz Games

•*. Vanoss

•*. UhYeah

•*. GenerationDefenders!!!

(UNDERRATED QUEEN)

*.•. Interests .•.*

.•* Figurine collector!!! (vocaloid mainly but some funko pops! And blind boxes!)

.•* LPS Collector!!! (New and old>)

.•* Pin/Button collector!!!

.•* Bracelet making!!! (Pony beads/Kandi)

.•* Art Print Collector!!!

.•* PLUSHIE collector!!!

.•* ART (ALL FORMS OF ART>>>)

.•* Keychain collector/maker!!!

.•* Guys…I might be a bit of a Collector girlie…🪽🪽

.•* CRAFTING!!! (Making cosplay props and making all my cosplay:3)

.•* keyboard and ukulele🎹 (don’t know how to play professional)

.•* OC Making

.•* playing project sekai (I don’t know any of the story, I just play on expert/master at 10.7😔)

.•* Mincraft

.•* ROBLOX🙂‍↕️😏

.•* ANIMAL JAM (I own a corsac fox🤩)

.•* Writing!

.•* singing:3 (I’m not the best but who gives a shit huh???😝����)

.•* PLAYING MY DS AND 3DS>>>

I think that’s it lol, sorry to yap HAHAHWJEHD

I’ll post my stuff one day when I’m not busy🙂‍↕️

Anyways that’s it

•*. BYE LOVIES .*•

•.°»«*•.°.:💫🎶💬 🤍 💬🎶💫:.°.•*»«°.•

[catgirlizzyhands]

Tagged by @snake-snack-stede to post five songs I listen to and then tag 10 people!

🩷 My Love Mine All Mine by Mitski

❤️ Goodbye Stranger by Supertramp

💚 Real Love Baby by Father John Misty

💙 You Make Loving Fun by Fleetwood Mac

💜 Piece of my Heart by Janis Joplin

Tagging: @raishe @bashir-my-beloved-my-beloved @as-a-creww @marlinspirkhall @cel-likes-bread @functional-dumbass @ooh-daddy @underwaterporcupines @djungleskogs @startrekin-it

[stemms]

Hello, and welcome to my blog! You can call me Stemms, Muse, Reverie, Jesse, Echo, Tommy/Toms, or Hunter. I go by he/they/it, phan/toms, axe/axes, fae/faer, h:)/h:)m, and ix/ixs. I’m Genderfluid & Sapphic.

My main fandoms are DSMP (c!Primeboys) and TOH (Hunter & Belos). I post art, headcanons, analysis, and fanfiction of their dynamics. I post a lot, but I reblog even more, so I have some tags to find my stuff easier. I have ADHD, Autism, OCD, and BPD, which sometimes makes it harder for me to respond to the asks quickly, and interact with people in general easily, so please be patient.

We’re a system, you can find our system-related stuff under Willingly Pinned❤️ and Eternal Entanglement :)

BYF

Despite posting about c!Prime, I do not support cc!Dream in any way. My portrayal of c!Prime / Hunter & Belos’ relationship is exclusively platonic, and I enjoy their /p affection and nicknames.

DNI

Basic DNI criteria, cc!Dream or cc!Wilbur stans, c!Dream apologists, those who support victim blaming, send harassment, support cancel culture, are weird about c!Prime.

LIKES

MEDIA: DSMP (c!Primeboys and c!Alliumduo), HLVRAI, DSAF, Black Christmas (1974).

INTERESTS: Art, French Revolution, flower language, horror.

FAVOURITE BANDS / ARTISTS: DK, Will Wood, The Crane Wives, Jhariah, Mitski, Batbox, Pornofilmy, Chappell Roan, and Hozier.

DISLIKES:

Discourse, mischaracterisation, cancel culture, bowspam, drama, victim blaming, gore, explicit sexual jokes/content, c!Dream's torture, and jokes about people's deaths.

FEATURED TAGS

My c!Prime Thoughts

My Art

My Writing

My Stimboards

Willingly Pinned ❤️

Eternal Entanglement :)

{c!Ranboo} Midnight's Writing

☀️⭐️ Daffodilduo <3333

🌙☀️ Smileduo :)

☀️⭐️ Alliumsmile :) :) :) 🌙🐉

LINKS

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My AO3

My Pinterest

My Spotify

My Attraction Layer Cake

Please check out Midnight, my beloved partner <3333

Please check out Moondra, my beloved QPP <3333

USERBOXES

[thesunsethour]

tagged by @vettelwdc2023 my beloved (❤️) to list my top 10 songs with a name in it (this was harder than i thought it would be!!)

Scott Street - Phoebe Bridgers

Francis Forever - Mitski

Arabella - Arctic Monkeys

Jenny Was A Friend Of Mine - The Killers

Movin’ Out (Anthony’s Song) - Billy Joel

Hey Jude - The Beatles

Grace Kelly - MIKA

Brutus - The Buttress

Romeo and Juliet - The Killers version

Sam’s Town (Acoustic) - The Killers

no pressure tags! @arcmonkeys @disappearordie @transfagholmes @stolenbythewestwind @gneasach

[cinnamongay]

tagged by beloved @tisthedamnseasns 💕

shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and post the first ten tracks:

1. francis forever - mitski

2. misery loves company - rebecca black

3. running out of time - paramore

4. welcome to my island - caroline polachek

5. easier than lying - halsey

6. mean it - lauv, lany

7. it’s not living (if it’s not with you) - the 1975

8. die for you - joji

9. stay soft - mitski

10. look at you - rebecca black

tagging my sexy moots 😚❤️: @holi-holy @funky-birb @gidguard @kuminemo @kochana-lulu @thenelse @marc-here @mrokat @niehaused @femmme

[shittygaypornmagazine]

Jsyk I was shaking while writing this

Oh my god, I’m back boo, disclaimer tho. Anything and most definitely everything will not make any sense, BUT THINK THATS THE POINT. Honestly this might just be a rant. I honestly don’t know any way that I could interpret Casey’s segment other than the way it’s already written, because the out of all the things that got to me from Casey’s segment, was that none of what he was feeling made any sense. He could define his jealousy and despair but yes, he could not explain why he felt that way in any form that would make sense. THAT IS GRIEF, BUT YOU VALIDATED IT SO PERFECTLY, like I thought I was the only one. Because for some reason it does feel like your missing out on something, and it gets so frustrating.

There is something so unique about this kid that just makes be want to stop existing so that he can take my spot (in a very positive way).

I think what separates Casey from Nardo even if they have the same time displaced experience, is that Nardo knows that he is (was) the future. Of course Jr comes from the same year he does, but he spent his entire life being told that his surroundings weren’t what they were supposed to be, and he wasn’t meant to grow up the way he did. I feel like It’s best and it makes so much of the sense it’s not supposed to if Casey is not defined, and only acknowledged for what he is. Because his life transcends time and space, his heart and mind break the barrier meant to keep both aspects of his life separate. People can say that he comes from one and now living in the other, but he is a unity of both, and I can completely get how he feels like isn’t bound to anything but himself.

Omg, the way you explained it was so real, despite his isolation he finds a way to coexist with the circumstances and acknowledges his displacement even in the simple things he does. Learns to live with and become aware of his emotions. That little segment really got to me and every time I read it I wish that I could gift you my heart and mind so that we could somehow find a way to discuss it or just feel it further. Like a ninja mind meld but with emotions as well. I CAN’T EXPLAIN IT, I REALLY WISH I KNEW HOW THO.

Just know that if you read Casey’s segment again, everything conveyed in those letters I cried over because yes, you get it, I get it, and our poor beloved Jr gets it (even the stuff he doesn’t get because, yes) That’s all I can say and I have no idea if this will give the same weight as all of the other things I’ve flooded your inbox for. Just know I have a tissue box near at all times because of you, YOU’VE ROTTED MY BRAIN, Idk if there’s anything left to rot boo ╥﹏╥

THIS KID IS SO ME CORE. I will never forgive the universe for not giving me a chance to cry the ugliest tears with him and share them together. HE DESERVES COMFORT AND HAPPINESS, he is my beloved.

THANK YOU for the insight on the daddy with a shotgun situation btw, it makes me love the fact that the trope is switched between father and son so much more like- (ಥ﹏ಥ) YES JR, GET THAT BITCH (I swear, I love Yuichi too)

I love and appreciate you so much boo (´Д⊂ヽ

-If you can, listen or read “Glide- Mitski” the cover, I think- it just- KBADGHIGKNVFD

(Jr with a shotgun real)

OMG I MISSED YOU MY BOO I'M SO GLAD TO SEE YOU (⁠┛⁠✧⁠Д⁠✧⁠)⁠)⁠┛❤️

I guess there's two of us shakers now cuz I am literally unable to read any ask abt Full Lair without having to take a moment to walk around the room in excitement or flap my hands at a compliment but YOUR asks are a whole lot different case and I have to clear out my schedule for at least the next three business days to recover

anywizzle!

I am feeling so many feelings about you getting the feelings that Casey is getting to feeling because we're all feeling the same thing, and just like you said, you get it.

especially the thing about knowing the feeling and acknowledging it but still not being able to understand why is it still there because honestly that's one of the first things that fucked me up when I first encountered grief.

cuz like grief it misinterpreted a lot but what is it if not loose thread of someone's lifeline, sticking out of your life like out of a corner of a completely new t-shirt? it's not supposed to be there. you're not supposed to feel it. it's out of place. and yet here you are, staring at it, unable to shift your focus to anything else because it touches your skin and ruins your look, even if no one else is aware of it.

sorry, got into rambling again.

so, Casey! baby boy Casey, oh how I love him! honestly the whole "shovel talk" being switched is just so funny to me because imagine this 16 year old in his battle gear appearing out nowhere Just To Talk 😇 (the dude can literally terrifying when he wants to be, just look at his mask). especially considering he grew up listening to Nardo tell him stories about his exes. I mean Usagi REALLY should check where are his swords cuz Jr is not playing games.

only hokey.

anyway, I had something else to say, but I don'ts remember what exactly, so just. THANK YOU FOR EXISTING, BOO 💕

AND LISTEN I HAD A MITSKI MARATHON A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO AND I DIDN'T GET TO THIS SONG BUT NOW I DID AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH?????

[megah3rz]

i'll never miss a chance to share the songs that i like so thank u ❤️ lol

tagging @sai-my-beloved @pierre-menard @trashcan-train and anyone who wants to!

Challenging you all!

Put your music library on shuffle, then list the first five songs that come up in a poll to let people vote for which one they like the most!

Then tag Tumblr friends to keep the game going!

[billiewena]

BILLIEWENA CREATOR BOOST BASH // MASTERPOST

thank you to everyone who participated in my combination content boost bash/birthday weekend/follower celebration! for a last-minute idea, I’m so glad I did it and discovered so much cool content (and new blogs) through it that would’ve been lost to the tumblr algorithm forever. here’s to spn content creators 🥂

last notes:

I’ve decided to start a permanent tracking tag: #usertabitha for sharing content! feel free to also just, like, tag me or add me to any tag lists you already tbh (if you’re unsure it’s something I’ll be interested in, feel free to message or check my about)

if you have older content to share for this bash that couldn’t get included in time, let me know and I’ll still reblog it & add to this pinned post

** means I submitted your content, so if you want it removed please let me know!

if you submitted content that is missing, message me!

now that all that’s out of the way...

all 50+ posts that were submitted are linked & categorized below (and tagged as #bwboostbash on my blog.) enjoy!

FANART/GIFS

5x02 Sympathy for the Devil-inspired fanart poster by @rambleoncas​​

Castiel, broken but beautiful by @lila-tom​​

Castiel with a floral halo by @imspookyorsomething​​

Dean/Cas wedding (no one here is straight) ft. details such as a John Winchester dart board by @solarcas​​

Dean/Cas x Wandavision’s “What is love if not grief persevering?” by @poohkeepsee​​ **

Mother Mary (Winchester) by @solarcas​​

Pages from Dean’s sketchbook, 1995 by @justcastiel​​

Sam Winchester over the years x Hollywood Undead’s “Believe” by @dualityofcastiel​​

Young Demon!Dean x 30 Seconds to Mars’ From Yesterday (ft. bloodonhisfacenatural) by @justcastiel​​

and this bonus billiewena gifset (thanks @saileen-away​​ ❤️)

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FANVIDS/AMVS

FANVIDS (GEN)

14x20 Moriah x calvin harris’s “under control” by @castop13bdaytraxx​: freedom is a lonely road

castiel telling lies for 3+ minutes straight to fleetwood mac’s sweet little lies by @14x06​​

tfw 2.0 action & fight scenes x ajr’s “the click” album overture by @sam-bloodfreak-lawboy-winchester​

FANVIDS (GEN) - CHARACTERS

bela talbot x tove lo’s “b*tches” (aka Lesbian Bela Rights) by  @lesbianjoannaharvelle​: all these girls stare at me, drop lip

billie x billie eilish’s “bury a friend” (billie my beloved) by @solarcas​: when we all fall asleep, where do we go?

castiel x ayesha erotica’s “literal legend” (yes THEE literal legend) by @caspig420halloweenurl​: I'm popping, bitch, like TNT

castiel x fka twig’s “fallen alien” by @ontheheadofapinmp4​: I'm searching for a light to take me home and guide me out

godstiel x gloria trevi’s “todos me miran (redux)” (aka latinenatural baby) by @angeldeljueves​: pero tus cadenas ya no pueden pararme / But your chains can no longer stop me

sam x kid cudi’s “MANIAC!” by @jeeperscreepersnatural​: I am the maniac, I am the fool

VIDEOS (GEN) - FAMILY

castiel & jack x regina spektor’s “baobabs” by @relihiyoso​: how am I supposed to be? I don’t have my thorns now **

dean & mary x mitski’s “class of 2013” by @slasherclairenovak​: can I dream for a few months more? (note: may be getting re-uploaded, gotta love them tumblr glitches)

jack & dean but bitter x orla gartland’s “more like you” by @crystal-doesnt-watch-spn​: all this feeling second-best, it’s got me by the throat

VIDEOS (SHIPS) - DEAN/CAS

dean/cas x led zeppelin’s “bron-y-aur stomp” by @hauntedhousesoftheholy​: will our love go on and on and on and on and on and on?

dean/cas x sza’s “drew barrymore” by @crystal-doesnt-watch-spn​​: we get so lonely, we pretend that this works

dean/cas x ben platt’s “imagine” by @lettuce-seize-the-day​: you say I'm your hero but you are the one that saved me

dean/cas x spoon’s “inside out” by @jeeperscreepersnatural​: I don't make time for holy rollers, there's only you I need

dean/cas x yazoo’s “only you” by @ontheheadofapinmp4: lookng from a window above it’s like a story of love

dean/cas x the unbirthday song from alice in wonderland by @reblogging4thewin​

VIDEOS (SHIPS) - MISC

billie/rowena x billie eilish’s “all the good girls go to hell” (changed my life and URL literally) by @clairewolf​: even God herself has enemies

claire/kaia x rainbow kitten surprise’s “all that and more” by @jeeperscreepersnatural​: my baby's a saint just like an Old George / good with a dagger and skilled with a sword

sam/cas x lady lamb’s “heretic” by @crystal-doesnt-watch-spn​: if you're a heretic then so am I **

sam/ruby x death cab for cutie’s “I will possess your heart” by yours truly: how I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me

sam/ruby x elton motello’s “jet boy jet girl” (aka Bi4Bi, T4T SamRuby rights) by @werewolfcumhrt​: the sight of blood is such a high **

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FANFIC/FICLETS

FANFIC - GEN

Victor Henriksen survives Lilith’s attack and prepares to start a new life on the run from demons (gen/au ficlet by @jeeperscreepersnatural​)

Eternal Godhood Comes With Problems (gen - jack & cas, 8K words) by @ladyluscinia​: post-finale God!Jack POV and all the problems that come with it as he negotiates with the Empty to rescue Cas, strategizes how to fix Heaven and Earth, and consults with Heaven residents Jimmy & Amelia Novak. WIP that will feature eventual dean/cas, sam/eileen, michael/adam (but this chapter is very jack and cas-centric)

feels more like healing (gen - eileen, minor saileen, 1.5K words) by @crystal-doesnt-watch-spn​: a post-15x09 eileen POV fic as she reflects on chuck, bodies, fear, love and life ft. trans!eileen and nonbinary sam winchester

dean, benny & emma in purgatory (gen - emma, dean, benny, ficlets) by @jeeperscreepersnatural​: what happens when benny and dean find emma in purgatory

FANFIC - DEAN/CASTIEL

5 things dean hates about their home (dean/cas, 1k words) by @emeraldcas; the five things dean hates about the lakehouse

All of You (dean/cas, 2K Words) by @solarcas: trans!dean/established relationship fluff fic as castiel helps and takes care of him through an unexpected period

Cas makes pie for Dean (dean/cas, ficlet) by @thisisapaige: just a cute soft moment of established relationship life

Dean takes care of Human!Cas after he gets an injury (dean/cas, ficlet by emeraldcas)

Fall in Autumn (dean/cas, 40K words) by @badjoices: very cool Fantasy AU/wingfic where dean, desperate to save his brother, faces a winged sentry in the city of angels

do you also headcanon that cas was the one who bought the Hotdog Socks for dean? then THIS is the perfect ficlet for you! by @emeraldcas

Float Down Like Autumn Leaves (dean/cas, 1K words) by @spookynightdeancas​: kiss #15 from their 50 types of kisses series: “A fierce kiss that ends with a bite on the lip, soothing it with a lick.”

Heaven Sent (dean/cas, 11K words) by @reblogging4thewin: post-finale getting together fluff, recovery and pie festivals

Into the Sun (dean/cas, 2K words) by @jeeperscreepersnatural: finale fix-it, Castiel returns from The Empty and Dean drives to reunite with him. 

Lesions (dean/cas, under 1K words) by @relihiyoso: post-finale, Human!Cas develops the skin condition psoriaris a few months escaping the Empty and Dean helps him through it

Painted Whore (dean/cas, 13K words) by @fellshish: Dean attends a life drawing class for a case. The nude model turns out to be Cas (takes place during S9)

Partners, but not in the cowboy sense (dean/cas, 4K words) by @jeeperscreepersnatural: based on that tumblr post that asked what if post-15x18 dean started thinking of himself as a widower aka dean grieves castiel, sees mia vallens about his late “partner”, and tries to live on in his memory (happy ending, don’t worry)

and an extended preview of my own 10x05 rewrite and mostly dean/cas fic in which marie’s musical has a sastiel agenda (aka lil shit!sam and jealous!dean rights)

FANFIC - MISC PAIRINGS

feels more like healing (gen - eileen, minor saileen, 1.5K words) by @crystal-doesnt-watch-spn​: a post-15x09 eileen POV fic as she reflects on chuck, bodies, fear, love and life ft. trans!eileen and nonbinary sam winchester

Lost on Earth (ambriel/anna, 2K words) by @lesbianjoannaharvelle​: ambriel the cutest angel of the garrison survives but becomes human, and gets a mentor/ex-angel mentor and girlfriend

the mind is thinking of itself (how stunning) (sam/cas, 2K words) by @crystal-doesnt-watch-spn​: sam tries out home-brewed exposure therapy by having cas possess him and the two have a conversation about trauma, gender and feelings inside sam’s head (ft. bonus trans!cas and nonbinary sam)

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POEMS

A River Lost Today in my Soul, a post-15x18 Dean POV poem by @reblogging4thewin

The Book of James, a Jimmy Novak poem by rita / @horrorcas

Dean-POV poem about using the past to create a better future by @aheartbeatoftheuniverse

Mirrors of uncleanness, a poem from Sam to Jack by @aheartbeatoftheuniverse​

Twenty Seconds Old, a Jack poem by rita / @horrorcas​

and When Our Galaxies Collide my own Dean/Cas prose (unfortunately) inspired by Adam Williams’ “universes would be created” tweet

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META

anna vs. cas in season 4 by @restlesshush​

dean, benny and castiel parallels by @restlesshush​

Why Soda Stereos’s “En la ciudad de la furia (In the City of Fury)” is thee Destiel song by @zorelle​ (part of a very cool latinenatural playlist breakdown series)

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WEB WEAVES / QUOTES

Castiel x Giorgio Dante, “An Angel with a Broken Wing” by @flickerline​

Castiel x Icarus & the Sun by @slasherdreamhunter​

Dean/Cas x “Creation Myths” - I.B by @novaklesbian​

Dean/Cas x “Love is Like Acid in my Stomach” - AC-Faerie by @slasherdreamhunter​

Sam x “Thoughts on Family” by I.B by @novaklesbian​

SPN Women x Iwrestledabearonce - Karate Nipples by @lesbianjoannaharvelle​ ft. Bela, Claire, Amara, Charlie, Ruby, Meg, Kaia and Rowena

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MISC

The new podfic anthology series, Making It Up As We Go! More info on their blog: @makingitupaswegopod​

I shared their first podfic episodes as well: This is Not a Goodbye written by DarkHeartintheSky, The Dean Winchester Drying Technique by NerdyNerdenstein, and Sympathy for the Devil written by gertiecraign.

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**one of my own submissions / shares, if you’d like to be removed from this list please let me know!

[howdywrites]

🎸🎸👀

A playlist from randomized favorites for you, beloved ❤️

1. Don't Take The Money by Bleachers

2. Me & My Husband by Mitski

3. Make It Up by Shura

4. TRRST by IC3PEAK

5. Music For 18 Musicians Section I by Steve Reich

6. Ophelia by The Lumineers

7. Edge Of Seventeen by Stevie Nicks

8. Lonesome Town by Ricky Nelson

9. Video Games by Trixie Mattel

10. Trees and Flowers by Strawberry Switchblade

[wackus-bonkus-maximus]

Hi! I'm the anon who shared Pomme's songs and others<3 I'm glad that you liked them! I have a few more now :D

 À peu près - Pomme (I think it can be read as Mari wanting to "find" a way to free Adrien/Chat Noir/Cat Walker so she can get him back)

Forget - MARINA (Mari´s rage! "Oh, all the time that I have wasted chasing rabbits down a hole"!!)

The Family Jewels - MARINA (for our sentitwins, but more about Adrien)

Motion Sickness - Phoebe Bridgers (for those moments with Adrien feeling compassion for Gabriel. We know he loves his dad)

Two Slow Dancers - Mitski (Adrinette! when thet both have that nostalgic feeling about the past and how things have changed)

Six Feet Under - Billie Eilish (when Mari finds out about Cat Walker being Chat Noir being Adrien. Could things really be like before?)

Love Story - Indila (the vibes! it's a sad love story, but hope is the last thing you lose!)

Oblivion - Labrinth ft. Sia (Adrien)

Dark Paradise - Lana del Rey (Mari's so so so sad about her kitty)

Sorry if it's too much!

beloved anon there is no such thing as too much! especially not with your amazing taste in songs omg they're all so GOOD???

À peu près - Pomme

i got out the english translation for his answer bc everyone has to see this: "It was like gold our story, and if ever/ If I make it, more or less/ Don't worry one day or another/ I will find you, I will find you." this is indeed marinette to adrichatwalker the whole fic, and exactly what he wants to hear from her ❤️💔❤️

Forget - MARINA

i love that this is an anger song but it's sung kind of sadly and bitterly. this is such a good angrynette anthem! she can't forgive and forget, esp not when adrien is still in the red.

The Family Jewels - MARINA

haha this song is so salty yes!! "And when we're in the dark, it echoes in your heart/ And when you're far away, it beckons me to stay." <- somehow no matter how much felix has hurt him adrien knows they're bonded and that they're kinda stuck caring about each other even though it sucks for both of them 🤣

Motion Sickness - Phoebe Bridgers

another bittersweet song 💔 adrien isn't capable of hatred, at least not for his father. the thing that holds them back from being completely estranged is that they both know they love each other.

"And, while you're bleeding on your back in the glass I'll be glad that I made it out And sorry that it all went down like it did."

he knows he has to get out, that it's a toxic relationship. that doesn't mean he has no love for the man who raised him.

Two Slow Dancers - Mitski

this IS nostalgic and wistful!! and it kind of feels like right person, wrong time which is just such a good adrinette flavor.

"And the ground has been slowly pulling us back down You see it on both our skin We get a few years and then it wants us back"

their happiness is so limited and they just want each other :((

Six Feet Under - Billie Eilish

this is so perfect for that scene in chapter 25! omg! and the imagery 😍 rain and roses, smoke and thunderclouds. wow, how was this not playing when i was writing that scene? 👀

Love Story - Indila

omg how did you know i love indila 😍 you're right, it's the vibes. ladynoir can make it together, they will fight to be together. this is their love story. they only need each other.

Oblivion - Labrinth ft. Sia

this is kind of a fight song ooh!! i LOVE it! adrien really has a lot of fight in him and if pushed will push back! he wants lb to be his oblivion, to save him or defeat him, whatever she needs to do in order to make him his current situation stop. but it's not a morose song, it's fighting words!

Dark Paradise - Lana del Rey

pain, desolation.

"And there's no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody It won't leave my head Your soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine But I wish I was dead (dead, like you)"

this is so relentlessly sad and captures ladybug's grief in a way that punches you in the face aaahhh.