#miss you dad

[strudelstein]

[egyszertalan]

tudod, utoljára látni, nem készít fel az élet

(Wellhello-Pályaudvar)

[eddiesketti]

My dad passed away unexpectedly on the 23rd of November, and it's had me contemplating how much of an impact he's had on me as a person. So many of the things I love are things we had in common, including wolves, nature, night time, and music. Lyrics are from a song by Alter Bridge, a band we'd seen live together and one of many shared favorite bands between us.

[galaxies-inside-my-head]

every day i wish i died instead of you. people would be okay without me, but without you we are all broken.

[princesspuresarahk]

I cannot and still cannot describe in words how much I miss Dad I couldn't asked for more of an amazing father like you and I will always miss you but I will always know that you're up there watching over us with our Lord and loved ones in Heaven 🙏🕊️ I love you so much dad.❣️🥹 Let your dad know how you love them🥹

[logan-w]

Shout out to dad for being one of the best dad to ever dad

Also shout out to Merrick for being a somewhat surrogate sort of

[sl33py-g4m3r]

Linix-Unix-BSD Laptop Journey~~ (and some questions again)

yet another question~~ tho up to my own musings and uncertainty at this point~~

I'm too afraid to try to install FreeBSD cause I'm worried I won't be able to dig up some needed internet info and that makes me feel dumb~~ is the Domain Name not the Hostname or name of the wifi? or would it be my ISP's website or something?

I like tech but not knowing this makes me feel stupid lol even though I'm probably not~~~ and that's just anxiety lying to me~~~

also is there any point in moving from Linux Mint Debian Edition 6 to Debian 11 disks that I have burned?

the only one with the zoom feature (unless I install something if I can find it) is the Cinnamon Desktop, and at that point I see no point on dropping Mint for pure Debian in that case....

need accessibility for my blind butt (despite also being stubborn and not using it half the time anyway lol)

ALSO none of the debian live CDs that I tried saw my WIFI and idk why~~ and they're all debian 11...

might need to download newer versions and burn them to disk I guess~~

or maybe if I installed one of them anyway, and actually hooked it to ethernet, then installed updates whether it would see my wifi then? idk

found a distro that doesn't use SystemD called PCLinuxOS and thought about giving that a try, but idk if it's good for someone like me, but I got a handle sort of on fedora back in the day.

So currently stuck on linux mint debian edition cause I'm afraid to give freebsd a try due to maybe not having the network information requited and idk where to find it~~ and cause debian just straight up wouldn't see my wifi~~ tho I've also said before in this post that idk if it's a good idea or not to go from linux mint debian, to straight debian.... cause I'm going to be stuck with the Cinnamon desktop anyway~~

like yesterday I spent all morning booting into all the debian live CDs that I had; except for the standard which I think is GNOME, and none of them could even SEE my wifi or ANY wifi

now I hate that I seem like the person that just wants things to work instead of tinker w stuff to get it to work, cause that's part of the fun and frustration of being on linux I suppose~~~ and I really hope I'm smart enough to figure stuff out~~

would be happy to eventually jump to a more unix like OS cause I believe the backbone of the internet is UNIX anyway~~ :)

I like to think I'm a nerd and a techie but at the same time think I'm stupid and don't know anything~~ if I'm being brutally honest w myself~~ but I guess you got to be feeling stupid to learn huh?

tldr; and making the questions more easily found~~ my journey through linux/bsd computer systems so far, and where I'm at....

Is it worth it to install pure debian if I'm already using linux mint debian (and the wifi actually works), should I get away from SystemD and try to install PCLinuxOS? or FreeBSD? am I smart enough to install FreeBSD? What network information do I need and where can I find it?

and yet another random question at the bottom cause I remembered a linux youtube channel where they talked about a bunch of stuff way back in the 2010s I think called "Jupiter Broadcasting" what happened to them?

wanted to go eventually to FreeBSD cause it's more unix like than linux, and i think more cohesive as a whole as opposed to bits and pieces mossaic'd together in linux.... also if it is more unix based, unix as far as I'm aware is the backbone of the internet if I'm remembering correctly~~ and I'd be happy to use it~~~

so idk what I'm doing~~ lol, stay on linux mint debian cause it works? try to get FreeBSD installed, try to find out how to fix debian not seeing my WIFI (I'd hoped that if I installed it and connected it to ethernet that updates would fix that), or install PCLinuxOS that I found? cause it looks neat~~~

more history about myself~~ as dumb as it sounds, or maybe not, my dad was into tech, he'd built his first computer and if it wasn't for him pirating some version of windows, we never would've had it, lol. but ye he was a techie, and he showed me the 1995 movie "hackers". I watched that on repeat through my teenage years for some reason~~ the music was good, and now I learnt that that's not actually bow hacking works, lol it's a cheesy film.... but that sparked an interest in technology and eventually led me to finding linux to begin with. and Unix~~ cause I thought it was something that my dad and I could do together~~~ but we never did...... but the techie interest stuck~~~~ I need to rewatch that film and find the soundtrack CDs I have~~~ been a while~~~~

second guessing it am I even smart enough to run anything other than linux mint anyway? probably yes but I doubt my own intelligence, lol. especially I think anyone irl I've shown my writing to or talked to say that I'm "smart as a whip" but I don't see it.... :(

[subtract-me-from-your-heart]

Lol had to be in the office yesterday on my dad's birthday and it was a hard day.

Now today my mom texts me like, "Remember when your dad would send flowers and candy to your school on Valentine's Day?"

Yeah !! I do. I had the best dad ever why you making me cry about it?? Hater behavior.

[jimstares]

Every US Memorial Day weekend dad and I would watch “The Longest Day”. He’d settle in with Seagram’s in his “Jim’s Private Bar” glass (pictured) and away we went. Dad’s been gone a long time, but I keep the tradition alive (though with slightly better hooch).

[strudelstein]

[egyszertalan]

Szeretnék hinni abban, hogy Odafentről vigyázol rám..💫

[safehere]

Anytime anything good happens I’m always like “thanks dad” bc I can feel him smiling down on me

[lsxgrs]

Dios, cada vez que hablas me empiezan los dolores de cabeza.

[galaxies-inside-my-head]

i’m a shell of the person i used to be. sometimes i look in the mirror and genuinely don’t recognise the girl looking back at me. who am i in this world without my dad holding my hand?

[sincerelysatanherself]

June 19th, 2024

Days before my 30th birthday. A couple weeks after five whole years without you. This year has been shit. My lows are getting bad and you’re not here to help me navigate them anymore. I’ve been so tired lately that I haven’t dreamt of you or really noticed a sign from you. Feeling lost and afraid, I asked to hear from you … and the loudest crack of thunder immediately after was the best “I am here”. And it roared for hours until I finally slept.

I don’t want to forget this. And I do recognize this may come off as incredibly strange and superstitious and crazy, but we all have our ways of coping and surviving grief.

[flame-in-the-wind]

Abbiamo una scadenza anche nei miei sogni, ogni volta mi dici che devi andare via, che abbiamo poco tempo per stare insieme. Vorrei averne di più; per stare con te, abbracciarti di nuovo e sentire il rassicurante profumo di quel tuo dopobarba che adoravo così tanto.

La prossima volta, per favore, resta un po' di più.