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ocdisgusting · 2 years ago

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im just so numb im vibrating beneath the surface ive got so much so much but its just getting smothered out by something else and i dont know how to explain it its all centralized in my heart and chest which makes me think its a heart attack and im dying of course but you gotta recognize anxiety does that too so i calm down after that but man

#you being me i really talk tomyself like elmo LOL #i tone it the fuck down online but i just refer to myself all the time as like idk shes not me #shes me but we are not the same #ESPECIALLY LIKE WHEN IM CRYING IN THE BATH LOOLO i so imagine like the other me #imagine being used so obviously i know its fake whatever *eyeroll emoji* IM FINE #but like a real moment i can remember thats not so frosted glass is like a week or so ago i was just LOSING it in the bath and sobbing w/e #and i opened my eyes and like not a person but a person was there they were not nothing was there but i could so imagine like a caretaker #type deal like i dont know is that weird maybe but shes been a comfort and my conversation buddy #like just calms me down im not trying to be dramatic but i DO visualize it as that caretaker/tiger kinda mentality #mines moreso a parent calming down a raging suicidal child 24/7

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