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my brain is not treating me right lmfao??????????????????

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Im surrounded by people who are annoying and stupid and also people who are so much smarter and more hardworking than me and basically im going to die

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omg the kill myself thoughts .....crazy tonight its not even nine

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Fuckin roomies always on their fucking phones while in the bathroom like... theres OTHER people that live here asshole

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no matter how hard i try i will always be that little girl wondering why everyone is better friends with eachother than her and begging to be loved

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real yearners miss people BEFORE they're gone

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one of the best ways i’ve found to combat that inherent depressive pessimism without veering into toxic positivity territory is simply the phrase “i’m open to the possibility”

this particularly works with anything negative i’ve forecasted. “i woke up feeling like shit today, so my day is gonna suck” isn’t a particularly helpful thought, but “it’s a great day to be alive!!!!!” feels hollow and insincere when i have a pounding headache & am running on three hours of sleep

instead i’ll tell myself, “i really don’t feel good right now, but i’m open to the possibility that coffee and breakfast might perk me up a bit.” or “i’m in a lot of pain today, but i’m open to the possibility that my workday might still have fun parts despite that”

sometimes, when your impulse is to slam the door on anything good, but you’re not exactly up to going out & hunting it down yourself, leaving the door open just a crack makes all the difference

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Work so frustrating i could cry

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i also should not have shopped probably this is not a funny money week

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this truly is a tragedy

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Lowkey glad she was busy today holyy

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thinking abt coming out in the early 2010s like.. it was an interesting time i was driving to jack n the box with my mom and we saw a hummer limo drove by she turned to me and said "you need to marry a rich man so momma can ride around in one of those, a nice rich man with a lot a money" or something to that extent and i chimed in "or a girl!" And rhe car got soooo fuckinf silent lfmslfksjfjs after a beat she turned fo me and "full name please dont be gay" i just remember staring out the front window like haha okay!!! ^_^..

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Fuck i love pulling a good hair

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I love clearin out in the morning shoo wee

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There’s a pain inside that’ll never go away but it’s whatever

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sometimes i have a thought so mentally ill i can feel it fizzle in my skull

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hm