#mine is closure btw

[youareinlove]

was chatting w/ a mutual abt this yesterday, so i was wondering: what's your guys's taylor song that reminds you of a really specific time in your life? we all have one.

[real-big-man]

(ooc) friend art. go follow him NEOWW..

[dwobbitfromtheshire]

Yep, Rueleigh's at it again. . .they're talking about the camera incident, and they briefly talk about when they got SA'd. So, TW, I guess.

No one talks about how that girl could have gone to the police and told them about the photos that Jonathan had taken of Nancy. I love Jonathan, but yeah, it could have been so much worse for him. Like in comparison, he got off free. Nancy and Steve were both within their right to press charges against him. Considering that Steve’s family comes from money. . .they could have either covered it up or gone after Jonathan. . . .you know, if they were around to give two shits. I don't know, I think the price of Jonathan's camera is nothing compared to the legal fees that they would have to pay if Jonathan had gotten in trouble with the law. And considering that Steve and Nancy were both underage, and I think even then it was considered. . . you know. . .those two words I don't like uttering together. . . BTW, do the Duffers or anyone on the show ever actually talk about the camera incident? . . .I don't know, I keep circling back to this. . .probably because I've been sexually violated myself, which is what this is, but mine was more physical. . .I don't know, there was never really any closure with the camera except Steve buying Jonathan a new one, which he should NOT have done, and to me, it says that the Duffers reward that kind of creepy ass behavior. They mostly just swept it under the rug, but I just hate when shit like that doesn't get properly addressed. I know that they were trying to make Jonathan come off as an outsider and trying to find a way to bring him into what's going but holy fucking shit did they go about it all wrong. If they were trying to make him have flaws. . .that's not being flawed. . .it just makes him look creepy. That's the one thing that I absolutely hate that they did for Jonathan's character and the fact that they never showed any kind of growth for it. I probably would have liked him a lot sooner if they hadn't done that.

[gracefullou]

I haven’t watched any clips yet. I effing hate most of the non-Louis songs and now that I know what the set list was, I’m not as likely to watch the videos. Was the gp reception to HIS music at least good?

Hi, anon! I started watching the live when he was singing face the music. Great! I enjoyed it very much and it's such a good song live. So energetic! And then waoyf came up and it was just so amazing. So sexy! Night changes came right after and i actually don't mind it. I think it's 1D's most popular song at the moment after wmyb, he has writing credits on it and i get that a 1D cover is a must on his set and i'm totally ok with that (My problem is that he has 3 of those 😵‍💫). After that, it's a bit of blur. I think it was walls (which i love but i think if he absolutely has to choose Saturdays would be a better option) and then seven 😖 and then he said he was going to perform wdbhg but it was actually ooms and then wdbhg and he finished his set with silver tongues. Larries and ot5s really hate his solo music bc how the hell do they not see it? Starting from face the music, i watched him perform 8 songs 3 of which were covers. Also, i don't really count silver tongues with the barricade and all. I feel like it's the perfect closure to his shows but it s not really a song performance, i don't know how to put it correctly but i hope you get the point. So, to me in that time, he performed 4 songs (3 fitf ones and one from walls) and 3 covers (and the covers are way longer than his own songs btw) which is so excessive and frankly stupid. I'm sorry but despite him sounding incredibly good today and the stage design looking better than the tour shows in my opinion, i couldn't enjoy his set nearly as much as his fitfwt shows. I think one of Louis' problems is that he thinks too highly of 1D and too little of his solo songs' potential. Not everyone is a 1D fan (and seeing the live today i get why it's hard for him to believe that bc everywhere he goes, 1 deaders rip their vocal chords off singing those lyrics but he needs to understand that they are only a fraction of that audience and that some people are just not his target audience 🤷‍♀️). And for those, it's a little hard to enjoy his set. And I don't get the seven thing. Literally no one was singing a single lyric. If you want to perform songs that people don't know, you might as well sing one of your own (not that i think no one knows his songs but apparently that's what he believes 💀). I could see the confidence leave his body when the crowd went dead for this one which uo but i think he needs to start working on not getting affected by whether or not the crowd knows the words he's singing especially at festivals so why Louis, why 😭. It's hard enough as it is to make people who don't know you/ your music to check it out after one set especially for someone who's had no real gp exposure for years, but Louis is not even really giving them anything to begin with. He's not giving faith in the future, his beloved album that he designed with the live show in mind (his words not mine) any exposure when he was presented with the opportunity. He needs to start believing in his songs especially fitf songs potential ASAP. Another uo, i do not think it's a good look on him to perform this many covers for people who know he has two solo albums out already. It might look a bit ambitionless and straight up lazy for someone who doesn't know him. I know i wouldn't be impressed 🤷‍♀️. As far as the gp reception, i really don't know. The camera was on him not on the crowd. They were singing along his songs ( but of course not as loudly as 1 dead songs) but i suspect those are his/ 1D fans that went there to watch him. He sounded really really good today, and he looked so hot so hopefully he stole some hearts. I think it's too early to gauge the gp reception, so let's just see how it goes but i do know that he's not using this festival run to its full potential with his setlist choices.

[beevean]

Something happened that lead me to think.

Yesterday, I read a long message that was left to me on November 24 (it was on Messenger and I don't use FB anymore): an old friend of mine, that abandoned me 10 years ago, wrote me a long, long letter of apologies for her past behavior.

We were close, although long distance, friends. I was 16-18, and she was two years older than me. She was a very intelligent, studious girl, and we could relate to each other for our shyness and lack of friends among other things. But she suffered from OCD and depression, things I honestly did not know how to handle at the time, and they interfered with our relationship. She was extremely insecure, constantly doubting that I cared about her, acting up if I invited my classmates over to study together, making me feel responsible for her staying alive.

Long story short, she eventually found herself a boyfriend and decided I wasn't worth the effort anymore. I think she said something like "being together with you isn't stimulating anymore".

(btw, in her letter she offhandedly mentioned that now she has understood her sexuality better, which doesn't surprise me - I can believe she had a crush on me and it manifested in a terrible way. I myself sometimes consider her my first girlfriend :\)

She and my father "abandoning" me at the same time caused me suicidal thoughts that to this day I'm battling with. But I eventually forgave my father: I think he paid enough for what he did. With her, I honestly thought I'd never hear from her again. I tried to learn my lesson, and honestly I strived to never become like her. Which I failed to do, sadly.

And I haven't responded to her yet because I honestly don't know where to begin. It's been ten years, and while I'm in a better place than where she left me off, I'm not exactly in a good place either. But... just the thought of contacting me after a decade to apologize? Was the guilt really that strong?

And then, today my boyfriend made a surprise visit to talk face to face.

I thought he was also done with me after we spent a month essentially making each other sick. I was trying to move on, because really, I'm not going to cry again for the umpteenth person who gets tired of me (a mentality I "learned" from this old friend of mine, that eventually I'll bore everyone away), but yes, I was thinking all this time "man, five years down the drain, what a waste".

And what does he do when he showed up? He apologized to me. He realized that I was right about some of the things I told him. That he gets passive-aggressive when angry, that he's excessively proud, that sometimes his advice got too insistent. He thought about it, and he drove to my house (it's an one hour drive) to speak to me with his heart in his hand, fully knowing that I could have said that I don't love him anymore or I found someone else.

We made up. I have made my mistakes, I need to change as a person, but I honestly, honestly appreciated that he made the effort to actually examine himself and ask for closure.

So... I guess the takeaway from this is that I, too, deserve to be apologized to. I always feel like I'm a screw up and everything I do is wrong and I need to constantly apologize myself. It's what I argued with my boyfriend over. So, as self-centered as this may sound, yes I do feel better about myself now.

But also, I'm constantly afraid of reaching out to people for fear of rejection, or that it's too late to make amends or anything. And yet look at this. An apology after ten years. I really should take this to heart.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Oh em gee :,( ari :,( thank you for yapping at me…………. My brain juices started flowing…….. I knew all I needed was some of your ideas…,,, and the little hamsters in my brain started running around again!!!!!!!!!!! Ik u said don’t feel bad for sending asks but…. I feel a little guilty sending another one….. but the brain hamsters started working and I can’t deprive them of spreading their little hamster ideas 😔😔 BUT ALSO??? I NEED TO TALK ABT HOW U REPLIED TO MY PREV ASK. THEM TALKING WHEN UR SLEEPING??? AND MAYBE?? YOU SECRETLY HEARING??? IM GOING INSANEEEEEEE IM LITERALLY DISINTEGRATING AS WE SPEAK :((( satoru wanting to confess bc he doesn’t want u sad over ur ex……… sugu convincing him they shouldn’t rush u…….. :( sobs… they r so special to me. imagine what would happen if u just sat up in the middle of them talking like “🤨🤨I heard all of that btw.” but like. What do you think they’d do if your ex did try getting back together with you? Either that or just trying to get back into contact ……. Just an idea :3 giggles…. N E WAYS I HOPE UR HAVING A WONDERFUL DAY SLASH NIGHT!!! MWUA MWUA TAKE CARE AND DRINK UR WATER !!!! ^_^ — stsg anon 💐 < with bouquet. For u!!! :3

STSG ANON !!!!!! i’m telling you our brains are synced…… every time ur brain juices flow mine do too……… i’m so happy your little brain hamsters r running around 🐹🐹🐹

okok first of all ….. NEVERRRRR feel guilty for sending me asks 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫 never ever ever!!!! i love them so much!!!!! even if i’m slow at replying sometimes i promise i read them instantly and they always feed me so good!!!!!!! i should literally be paying you for these that’s how much i love them. if i catch u feeling guilty again there Will be consequences so watch out …. (ominous)…..

BUTTTT ok :3 YES . THE STSG IDEAS. i’m so happy you liked my little brainworms phdkdjj i just!!!! think it’s a tasty concept!!!!!! and PLSSS reader just sitting up and calling them out 😭😭 i KNOW they’d scream . even sugu does a little squeak bc he was so convinced you were asleep…… but goddd i think they’d actually be a little flustered <//3 our babies. once they recover satoru would be so smug tho. bc now you finally know!!! he doesn’t have to wait!!!!! and sugu is obv very happy too….

but… gahhh…… STSG ANON ………. if your ex tried getting back with you………….. ohhhh gosh. they’d be very offended . on your behalf . in a ”can you believe the audacity” way ….. but ofc they’d also be very furious and protective . like. maybe you tell them that your ex texted you wanting to meet up and they’re both INSTANTLY on guard…. ideally you’d block them ofc but if you insist on meeting them just for the sake of closure then they’re immediately convincing you to let them go with you!!!!! for scary dog priviliege . i’ll be honest i don’t think there’s much your ex could do 😭😭 bc stsg WILL be glaring at them. behind you. and if they even try to lovebomb you or blame you in any way they’re . Stopping Them . in one way or another. i think they get very very scary LMAO sugu stops smiling entirely and satoru smiles in a distinctly furious way 😭😭 ..

but ohhhh ……. if . you were the one who wanted to get back with them ….. then i think stsg would feel so helpless :’3 bc like . they can’t control you. they don’t want to. but i also think they’d rather die than have to watch you be with someone so undeserving…… so i feel like That’s when they’d confess. bc they’re so desperate . and let’s be honest who would choose a cheating ex over stsg????? no one <33333 problem solved. they’d be really terrified though…..

MWAHHHH one big kiss for you my lovely little stsg anon <33333 i’m putting the bouquet in a big beautiful vase <33333333 here r some handpicked flowers just for you :33 🌷🪻🌻🌷🪻🌻 i hope you’re taking good care of yourself too!!!! eating and drinking and sleeping lots . it’s what me and stsg want for you!!!!!! thank you as always for the food i hope u know how much i adore you <333

[aroacettorney]

"if casey was a genius detective, shouldnt she realise moriarty wasnt the true culprit of all delica incidents?"

she literally did. even though at first she briefly believed moriartys words, she soon felt something amiss as she was following his tracks. moriarty took/burnt all of physical evidence when he dealt with the actual criminals before her. he only left her enough crumbs to track down other small fries that he didnt even bother to kill. everything else led back to moriarty because he was the main suspect who even admitted that he was responsible for all crimes happening in delica. the only way casey could burst this cold case wide and open was to catch moriarty and question him, because she knew he was surely the only person with all the puzzle pieces. if she truly believed that he was the main and only perpetrator of those hideous crimes, she would have tried to kill him as soon as they fought instead of trying to make him surrender. she has always had her doubts. the fact that moriarty saved her from literal death only solidified them further. thats why she gotta chase him down to the end of the world to learn the truth. for her personal closure aside, wasnt it too the job of detectives?

"what about those slaves moriarty freed? why didnt casey question them?"

we have zero texts on whether or not she did. isnt it a bit unfair to not even give her any benefit of doubts? for all we know, moriarty might have just given them a gag order to keep his name and activities secret because it would get in the way of what he actually wanted to do. after all, he had a reputation to maintain. also, there is no guarantee the slaves would know anything relating to those incidents in delica because yknow... they were slaves who were put in the mines to work until they died. why would anyone give them info on the national top secrets? we cant even be sure that the slavers who were hired to keep them in check had a high enough clearance to know anything.

"even then, shouldnt casey have tried to solve the case using legal means instead of illegally reading moriartys memories?"

illegal according to whom? the memory reading artifact is a certified tool authorized by the states to solve criminal incidents. casey also acquired it via legal means. the captain of night crawler literally gave it to her and took all responsibilities. there might be room to argue that its illegal to use it on a good standing citizen, but moriarty is a known and internationally acknowledged criminal. if there is no physical evidence left and moriarty aint willing to tell the truth, caseys only option is either to read his memories or... torture. by this worlds standards, the latter also aint illegal, btw. and you may guess which one she picked.

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

Crazy but I saw you said Henry used to be your favorite so do you have some headcanons to share with us?

i'm glad you asked, actually! i've been writing a fic about him for 2 months (someday i'll finish it) so i have some thoughts on his character. but i haven't shared them because well, let's just say that mafia 2 is super valuable to me for honestly revealing not the best human traits (and i'm trying to make these mf even worse) and henry is like. fandom's fav boy so i just didn't really want to get burned at the stake like some kind of a witch

anyway  1) about henry’s family i've seen a lot of hc about him being the youngest + spoiled child. but for some reason it seemed to me from the beginning that he was the middle child and clearly not spoiled. and it's not about an abusive childhood full of deprivation, no. i think inside his family was quite cold (maybe not from the beginning, but if you take henry as the middle child - it had time to become so by the time he was raised). i think henry's mom wasn’t exactly tough, but strict (have you ever talked to mothers who raised multiple sons practically alone? i have and they’re some of the strongest and toughest women i know). and I think she took on the main responsibilities of parenting because her husband just didn't have time for it.

and then there's the whole Sicilian conformity thing (this reminds me of a story of an acquaintance of mine whose mother wouldn’t let him go to the store to buy bread as a child until he put on a suit and tie. he was seven or so btw)

especially since henry's mother had to organize the emigration of the family and the Empire Bay settlement all by herself (i.e. i'm sure there was help from clemente, but the point here is to create a home(!) in a new place in a new country. emigration is often a heartbreaking situation in general, and when you flee to another country to survive, it's hard. you also have to stay strong because you’re responsible for an entire family). i based this whole story of coldness within the family on one (1) documentary about mafia families (it’s called mafia women i think??women of mafia??? i dont remember) and my hair just stood on end at how far from normal relations within the families are. i.e. if his family found out he was a rat, they wouldn't come to his funeral, and if he survived, they would consider him dead. it's wild, but interesting. the fact that even in the families slides mafia traditions  back to henry and how his upbringing affected him.

arrogance - memories of how his family was treated in sicily.

coldness - his parents' prohibition of weakness/emotionality. this is where his outbursts of aggression come from - repressed emotions always lead to a breakdown.

critical of others - rare praise from his parents.

wounded pride - he lives in the shadow of his father and perhaps more successful brothers. a sense of competition, to which he reacts not by wanting to grab his rival by the throat, but by trying to hide and run away from it, just so that these feelings don't torment him. an attempt to change his mind and pretend that he is really cool and successful (instead of actually doing something. fake it till u make it only without making it). he's trying to be lana del rey but really he's just an aggressive wounded dog. maybe a flea-bitten one

mistrust of people is probably a consequence of the fact that mafia families are closed and live in a very detached space (?)

 anyway. it's absolutely 100% henry to me:

+ henry in relation to vito and joe (at least at first? can't say i thought much about their relationship to each other)

+ closure because of the trauma of death. because of the deep understanding that in this business it’s useless to have close ties, friends, love, anything. in the end you will lose everything. and for what?

2) henry and religion i've been wanting to write about this for so long, but i thought (still think) i'd get kicked to death for it

anyway, i'm sure henry's religiosity is totally hypocritical and selfish

hypocrisy - "if they wanna kill themselves so badly i'll gladly help them out. especially for twenty grand". excuse me. suicide is considered one of the worst sins in christianity (at least in orthodox christianity). that phrase couldn’t be uttered by a man who truly believes in god. not to mention what he does for a living.

religiosity is his way of asserting himself, his way of standing above others. the way he (not directly?) chides vito and joe for not going to church. it's actually an attempt to humiliate the other person and show that "i'm better than you".

and!!!! it's funny!!!! he believes in superstition!!!!! as far as i remember it's against christianity. booo poser 🙄

it's funny that he tries to appear to be a religious man and yet he's in the most abusive family in the city

nevertheless i think he donates money to the church but it's all some kind of payoff attempt too! not sincere!!!

3) random analysis - to me he is a fatalist! hence the lack of ambition. fate is inexorable and cannot be changed. maybe it's the trauma of emigration and upbringing, reinforced by the fact that he never succeeded. the idea of henry being a fatalist is based on his "it's the 13th contract, it’s a jinx" etc. lack of ambition due to fatalism - you blame external circumstances/fate for your own failure. maybe he broke his bones a lot as a kid and stuff, maybe he's got a reputation for failure? i don't know. not because he's bad, but because all sorts of bad things keep happening to him for some inexplicable reason (maybe if he prays especially hard it will go away?)

- the further he goes, the more he moves towards a crisis and a fractured personality. frustration, big losses that he couldn't deal with and that just weren't worth it (betty's death probably had something to do with criminality; i think almost all of his brothers were criminals and some died). and i have a hc about clemente who was going to make henry a capo after luca died. but then chapter 10 happened and everything was ruined. such a crisis could be a reason to work for the feds, or it could be an attempt to make a big score with objectively very little chance of success (............. or to become a don, which is the plot of my fic). either way, all of these actions to me lie in deep despair and entrapment

 - hypocrite hypocrite hypocrite hypocrite 

 - funny how he positions himself as a professional even though in the game he fails every time (character = actions, not words). i don't know, maybe he was once good, maybe it's wounded pride and he never admits to himself that he's not good at "the one thing he's good at" and considering this dialogue:

the situation is again quite tragic. it's like "im no artist i've wasted my life". i can totally understand that feeling and it's very hard. to me he's a man trapped in a world he can't get out of. he's trapped in a cage of a life he didn't choose (i think that may be one of the reasons he started working for the feds).

4) henry and betty i think they had a lot of genuine love for each other (..... unlike falcone and lauretta who are much more complicated) and for some reason i like to think that he and betty met because they lived next door to each other in neighboring apartments (the first scene with them in my head was betty looking out of the window and seeing henry in the next window taking dried clothes off the ropes that run between the houses. idk i like to think that he was helping with the household). and it does somehow seem very natural and right that betty was more proactive and that their relationship started because of her (he probably pushed her away at first btw?)

 if betty was killed by one of the families, henry never had a vendetta (probably clemente didn't allow it? one of the first reasons henry has a growing disgust for alberto)

5) random hcs - he knows francesca. very fucked up story because to francesca, henry is just a low-key polite christian (which evokes simple human sympathy), but he is actually the person who put her brother in jail. a person who commits the most heinous sins on an almost daily basis. henry doesn't know francesca is vito's sister either - if henry had spent more time with vito and joe: henry projects his traumas onto joe and vito: "you're so fucking naive." but then at some point he gets a brotherly instinct toward them - when eddie came to collect some of the profits from the drug deal he greeted henry with a punch in the face 🙂 personal grudge among other things (and since henry has many addresses, eddie went to each one and only the last one was correct. man was on the verge of a mental breakdown) - vinci and henry really are distant relatives - in the short time that henry and eddie have been working together (i want to believe that they’ve been working together), they have grown attached to each other. they’re opposite personalities, but they share a deep sense of loss and loneliness (in that don henry fic, there's a gunfight scene where henry and eddie are on opposite sides of the conflict and neither of them dares to shoot the other. eddie resigns and bows his head first. in this version, he also realized that he secretly wanted carlo to fail (still canon thing to me), he was incredibly tired of him and carlo's potential death seemed like a release) - one of henry's brothers took up boxing upon arriving in empire bay and was very successful at it. i have a random hc about this random brother having a fight with eddie. one of the reasons henry vaguely remembers eddie - i haven't written about luca and clemente here but my main point is that over time he developed an aversion and the family as a whole. this is the reason henry says he doesn't care about clemente family's destruction

6) vibesssss (there was supposed to be more here, but i forgot what i wanted to add while i was writing the main text) - about emigration. very painful and realistic topic for me. these screenshots aren't mine anyway it makes me think about henry and his attitude to emigration (which in my understanding is most often a tragedy for a person, because it is the destruction of the old familiar world and loss of emotional ties):

henry after betty's death. to me (esp the last one):

sorry henry it's you:

- it's also him. to be completely honest:

7) track list"Sinnerman" by Nina Simone: makes me thing about his death & character as a whole. his main song to me "Oh, sinnerman, where you gonna run to? Sinnerman where you gonna run to? Where you gonna run to? *** So I run to the Lord Please hide me, Lord Don't you see me prayin'? Don't you see me down here prayin'? But the Lord said Go to the Devil, the Lord said Go to the Devil He said go to the Devil All on that day So I ran to the Devil He was waitin', I ran to the Devil He was waitin', all on that day *** So I ran to the Lord I said Lord, hide me Please hide me Please help me, all on that day He said, hide? Where were you? When you oughta have been prayin' I said Lord, Lord Hear me prayin', Lord, Lord Hear me prayin', all on that day Sinnerman, you oughta be prayin' Oughta be prayin', sinnerman"

"Cold Cold Cold" by Cage The Elephant "I've been breathing air, but there's no sign of life Doctor, the problem's in my chest My heart feels cold as ice, but it's anybody's guess *** Well, it's cold, cold, cold, cold inside Darker in the day than the dead of night Cold, cold, cold, cold inside Doctor, can you help me 'cause something don't feel right? *** Counselor, give me some advice Tell me how hard will I fall if I live a double life *** And as the darkness falls, it fills up both my eyes My life before me like a flash in the night With my arms open wide"

"Snakes" by Pixies about the disaster he caused "Snakes Are coming to your town In tunnels underground Some travelling overground A plague for our mistakes They'll be right next to you Snakes up against me too There'll be nothing to do When the rattle shakes"

"Christmas Kids" by Roar about him trapped in a cage of a life he didn't choose "The Christmas kids were nothing but a gift And love is a tower where all of us can live *** I'm going to escape, but you won't know how Or where to find me when I'm gone I'll drink myself to death inside this prison cell This prison cell So get me out of here Get me out of here *** You'll change your name or change your mind And leave this fucked up place behind But I'll know, I'll know"

"Little Green Bag" by George Baker Selection (not really about his character. it's about a drug deal)

i apologize for a lot of text (i could write more tbg but a) i'm too lazy for it b) i need more time for this (which i just don't have) ) all this is probably ooc but idk idk. this is the version of his character that has settled in my head (and i honestly!!!!! rewrote him a lot in october-november because at some point i realized that i was actually giving him falcone's traits. just because falcone is 100% my type of character) anyway i hope you'll have a nice day/night/etc and all this mess will be interesting to read💓

[taylortruther]

‘When she was doing better she resented our concerns about her mental health and the fact that we had been there during a very vulnerable time in her life’ this describes my dynamic with my ex-best friend who I was completely obsessed with so well. we were so close for years and often talked about mental health (tbf we were babies then) until things got really bad during covid. we were there for each other, and we would sometimes share things that most people would be ashamed to even think of. when she got better, she became a lot more cagey about her feelings towards the people we talked about a lot when we were doing really badly (mostly our dads really), and I do think that fed into her decision to slowly distance herself from me. i really do think she didn’t want to be that vulnerable with anyone at all. the thing is, i ended up getting worse after initially getting better. we had been growing apart for a year by that point but kind of promised each other to put more effort in after we went a month without texting that summer. when I came back to school in the fall, i was visibly very sick, and she suddenly hated me? i don’t think it’s just because of the way i looked (there was some jealousy with like, doing well in class or whatever, but that hadn’t been an issue in previous years at all), but I swear it played a part. she suddenly couldn’t stand to spend time with me, seemingly got mad if i made conversation, and would openly laugh and rejoice if i made a mistake in class. it was so confusing and hurtful. her resentment eventually stopped but our relationship never recovered. I wonder if seeing me like that reminded her of her lowest times (since our rough patches coincided, even though our issues were different - hers was depression and anxiety / perhaps some other stuff she never got formally diagnosed with, mine was pretty severe anorexia, which she never asked about after the first summer when it started and went ‘is that STILL a thing???’ when i said I couldn’t have something a few months before i lost a lot of weight again), and that was why she avoided me subconsciously? was she scared i would pull her in? I literally never had that issue with any other friends btw so I’m not like that at all 😭 I grieved it for so long, especially because we never had a blowup fight or anything. resentment just built up until we fizzled out. we went from arguably the closest people in each other’s lives to… acquaintances, basically. ugh it sucks. i wish I could hear her side of things and get closure because I genuinely don’t know what I did wrong (this is a pattern for her, but i digress).

ahhh bestie this hurts my heart for you. i won't act like i know for sure what was going through her mind - sometimes you form really intense bonds with friends that end up blowing up for a host of reasons. maybe she couldn't be communicative and was pissed you couldn't pick up on her impossibly subtle "hints," maybe she was too immature and insecure to admit something to you, maybe she felt threatened that you knew her vulnerabilities and felt she had to push you away and be mean to you to ensure she had power/control over the situation... but i am sorry you went through it and i hope you are doing okay.

[aurora-ze-aquarius]

Something I thought about while cleaning up. So we all know Kingdom is introducing the dragons into the game through Odyssey-esque chapters. That makes me wonder, will the other ancients go in search for the other dragons in their own chapters?

We all know Pitaya and Hollyberry were obviously going to get their own story arc after the reveal of their petty/friendly rivalry, but I'm curious as to if the other ancients are going to play a part in the other dragon stories.

I came up with this one on the spot.

Though, bare in mind I am not familiar with Ovenbreak (and have no desire to play it, so unfortunately my knowledge of the dragons are limited to the wiki entries.)

(btw, this post might be a long, unhinged rambling of mine, buckle up.)

Here's my hypothetical dragon chapter ft. Lotus Dragon and The Dark Cacao Cookies.

Edit: Apparently, Lotus dragon is more so a backdrop in this rambling. H mm. I did not foresee that.

This chapter will focus on Lotus Dragon Cookie, mainly because I really like their aesthetic, also because I think wish granting seems like it could be a great story to tell, especially with Dark Choco and Dark Cacao.

Speaking of which, I believe this chapter would benefit well if we sorta switched perspectives from Cacao to Choco every once in a while. Idk, somewhat like oddessy, except without Gingerbrave.

So anyway-

We begin our story with Dark Cacao and Crunchy Chip travelling to the lands where Lotus Dragon resides, hoping to find an allyship with them. Pitaya Dragon (now allies with them thanks to Hollyberry) informed the other ancients about the other dragons, and so have agreed to split up in search for them.

The two of them then stumble upon a collector/hunter cookie (i haven't decided), who was also in search for the Lotus Dragon to ask for a wish, and so the three of them decided to travel together. However, both Crunchy and Cacao seem pretty suspicious towards the cookie.

I don't know if the cookie will be a twist villain or not, but basically, they're not trusting them just yet. (Let's call them Collector Cookie for now)

Then we turn our attention to Dark Choco, who's currently living out his best life when he stumbles across a cookie in danger. He helps them out, and the cookie tells him that they wish to seek out Lotus Cookie (let's call this one Wanderer Cookie.) so Choco decides to go with him, perhaps to make a wish too.

Wanderer Cookie explains he wishes to seek vengeance against someone who hurt him, and Dark Choco (having gone through his character arc) tries to tell them it's not a good idea, leaving Wanderer Cookie to question whether or not they even want revenge or just closure for what happened to them.

By the middle of the story, the two parties accidentally meet up with one another. Wanderer Cookie seems to recognize Collector Cookie and accuses them of being the one who harmed them in the past.

(Like I said, I'm not sure if I want Collector Cookie to be the main "bad guy" of the story or not, but when the two parties meet, Collector and Wanderer do not like each other for whatever reason.)

I don't know where to go from here, but in the end, they save the day from a disaster or something, and they all get to make a wish.

Wanderer Cookie wishes for closure for what happened to them.

Crunchy gets a wish too.

Dark Choco and Dark Cacao? Dark Cacao wishes he could make things right with Dark Choco, and the latter wishes he could do something to right the wrongs he did when he spiraled down that path of bloodshed.

Oh yeah, Lotus is also convinced to join them.

Tldr: if ever Lotus Cookie is introduced, I want the Dark Cacao Kingdom Cookies to find them, and I want Dark Choco and Dark Cacao to be happy again. Why? Because I am very biased towards them.

(also Wanderer Cookie is definitely not a stand in for my oc haha- what are you talking abou—)

[ogzieoggleton]

I thought I would share what I was theorising/expecting for ninjago crystallised.

so....

This is mainly Garmadon centric as I don't really tend to think about anyone more than him (ik it's weird but hang with me). So of course I saw the set images for the Crystallised and I went wild for the Samuri set because GARMADON

Of course in that set he has his new oni face and two arms and outfit but for a while I was thinking: It looks abit like an oni mask, could it be he is now human?

In all honesty I didn't truly like that idea as it would be too sudden..

Another was (because the overlord/crystal king had four arms in his set) that the overlord took his arms, like absorbed his heritage and made himself capable of using the four weapons of cration to corrupt the balance.

I actually belive I saw someone post something about that theory so it isn't mine, I'm not that smart but I did like to image how that would've played out.

I can image a situation (not taking place in any final battle type shit btw) where the overlord kinda attack the huge billboards of ninjago (Kinda how harumi did in s8 to showcase Lloyd vs Garm) and he was threatening the ninja about the will find them while they watched.

The crystal king then comments on how he "wants one last thing" before he somehow drains Garmadon, his form now unable to sustain itself and so changes so he onlys has 2 arms (I want to add how before all this he still had 4 arms and was still in Two Moon Village from the comics beacse thats what i expected) and so he collapses and blah blah.

And yes, Lloyd had his closure with his oni form, finding peace on his form and understanding there was nothing wrong with it.

And No, I would have kept all his previous developments in his character, he and Garmadon would of had one argumen but the rest of the time he was willing to give his father one last chance with fair warning.

I would like to add that I love how Vinny and Garm were roommates so when I think about this au I created from all previous assumptions I do make it so he only visited Two Moon Village often :]

[insufferable-talkstuck]

Redoing this here [sorry for doing it on the main blog] [basically copying and pasting the one I already did but this time im taking it more lightly and also adding stuff 🔥🔥🔥

I am a very stubborn person , one who basically just goes "fuck it we ball" , "do whatever the fuck you want" , is pretty much an hater , and i get really close to people. I also get angry easily , but still somehow manage to keep an "happy go lucky" persona online. Also , I always feel like the world sucks. More specifically, like there are too much bad things to hate , and hating them all and knowing they are happening makes me even more mad. I also have always want to know everything about everyone , and i am almost always seeking out knowladge , even right now. Im also mostly a lurker , due to having a thing about having to keep a "good reputation". I've always wanted to be famous , but just so i could not be forgotten after my death. And I've always thought myself as some sort of attention seeker , which is why [unless present with an anonimous identity] i basically never vent , becouse i know that people have problems worse than mine. Also , due to [as i mentioned earlier] getting really close to people , I've gotten in a lot of toxic friendships , and have only like 5 or 6 true friends. Lately , I've been going through a phase of self reflection. Especially about how I used to act or think in the past. And even about current me. Im very impulsive and uhhh yea i guess thats it 🔥🔥 [btw i am sorry for asking on the main blog but i am not sorry for basically spam liking your posts 🔥] [holy shit i just realized how much of an edgelord i sound]

Prince of Hope

you share a classpect with Eridan ampora.

im not sure how to excuse this assumption of you properly, but as soon as i read your submission the exact thoughts that went through my head were "mind.. rage! HOPE." * so you'll just have to believe me as much as you can muster

Hope revolves around belief, religion, courage, and a black and white view of the world. as a prince of hope you are more afflicted with rage, a powerful aspect that can bring down an entire session

* i thought you'd be a mind player because your wording makes it look like you're concerned with justice, or at least have a strong sense of what you believe is the right thing—but that can better be assigned as hope, the way your beliefs may not seem correct to those around you but you're stubborn in your way

you talk about getting angry easily, don't think i have to break down why that's rage pilled as fuck, but specifically rages description of ‘ a rage player may tear down an entire system if they deem it wrong, and rebuilt it themselves ’ ( highly referenced but not exact quote, cant look it up rn ) really reminded me of you.

If you'd like more closure i suggest looking at Eridan as our prince of hope, this is not my finest most detailed work but I do believe it suits you best, and when a classpect assigner gets a gut feeling you don't question it

[church-of-lilith]

right like I fully get the importance in the redemption arc for nate to be offered to come back, because it shows that forgiveness and healing, but I don't think he actually needs to come back

and also even just for the fact that I think roy can now fill the manager roll and I think nate's also capable of managing somewhere

right! you get me! (this is the post of mine anon is referencing btw)

Symbolically Richmond needed to be the team to invite Nate back & remind him of his love of the game. but now that he has that closure and forgiveness he should be able to move on and find another team who needs a good coach.

Richmond will be just fine with Beard and Roy, they don’t need a third coach. However, the League as a whole needs to start embracing the Lasso Way, and the best way to have Ted’s legacy continue on is to have Nate carry what he’s learned on to another team.

[wulfums]

thank you so much for answering, i understand its a bit of a personal thing. how do you take care of it? O:

I change the bag around every 3 days! Under it is what's called a Stoma, which is where Output goes out now since I have No Butthole Or Colon (When they get your whole colon removed, they do a proctectomy as well, which is the removal and closure of the rectum. Also called Barbie Butt.) so when I change my bag, I wash the area around the stoma where the bag was. Once that's dry I just...put a new one on.

The way doctors talked about it made it sound like it'd be some horrible debilitating thing which is why they waited until I had a huge cancer risk in my colon to finally remove it(Which makes me mad. If I had it removed in high school I could have had a normal childhood but no. They were convinced having a disability device would be harder than my colon bleeding 24/7 and passing out when I shit. I had ulcerative colitis btw!) but like...it was easy to get used to. I'm in and out of the bathroom very fast.

One thing I do get embarrassed about is that I cannot control farts. Like, there is no muscle in the small intestine, which is what the stoma is. So I do fart and people do make comments about it and it sucks. Nothing I can do about it though.

There's different types of Ileostomy bags! Mine is called a one-piece inverted. For people with my body shape, flat devices don't stay on well and often leak, so the convex ones create a better seal around the stoma!

LMK if you have any more questions!!! I genuinely love to teach people about my Ileostomy because most people don't know what it is or think only elderly people have ostomy bags.

[slimy-vore-bog]

I had a dream that gave me a weird hope that I would get a message from a friend of mine who I haven't had frequent with contact since nearly a year ago...

I still kinda keep thinking that maybe this 13th of the month will be the day? Idk, it's an odd thing, but for some reason it stuck with me

It kinda sucks that we lost contact so suddenly, because I never got the closure that would help me stop thinking so much about her...

I can't really do much about it, but I have been thinking about her so long I just needed to share the thoughts on my mind

This is a friend who I met through this blog btw, which is why I thought it was relevant to post here... I'm kinda hoping she still remembers my blog, so that we might be able to get in contact again

[she-references]

HUH? what happened with tippen??? I don't mean to sound accusatory it's just that we've been moots for a while and I've never heard about this before

There was drama between me (@mimdecisive) and Tippen like 2 years ago, namely bc the way she wrote Castaspella in some of her fics was misogynistic. (Described her voice as shrill, portrayed her as over-emotional and irrational, the only thing she and Angella could agree on was that they like Bow, a boy, etc. all of these are like, classically sexist things to write female characters as.)

anyway, some time later, I posted some Crew-Ra art on this blog because I saved it for references and wanted to clear out my camera roll. Only thing is, my internet was terrible at the time— I couldn’t check the sources, so I couldn’t provide credit at the time because they weren’t like, watermarked.

As soon as my internet was better, I did obviously go through all the Crew-Ra’s websites to assign names to pictures, of course, but people made a really big deal out of it. I wasn’t claiming they were mine or anything, obviously— just wanted to post them so artists could have easy access, especially because some of the Crew-Ra’s websites are sooooo slow.

Mountain out of a molehill, anyway. Tippen included— but the weird part, is, Tippen accused me of stealing edits.

additionally, I saw some tags from the blog then named Alysurr who I think has a different name now? Which implied I stole from them, I think??? They didn’t cite any sources for these accusations, btw. No screenshots or nothing. I @‘d Tippen to ask wtf that meant, but I think she had me blocked at the time and, anyway, didn’t seem to want to explain her accusations. I’m 100% positive I didn’t steal shit, though, and Tippen didn’t provide any receipts to justify the accusation.

2 years later, I happened to see my old post talking about it and I’m reminded that hey, I literally never got closure to that baseless claim. Like, Tippen has a pretty big following, I’m pretty sure— so making a claim about a smaller blog without any evidence of edit theft?

it’s kind of like just trusting your audience (and I was legit harassed by Tippen’s fans for calling out how her portrayal of Casta made me uncomfortable) won’t look into it and just believe the claim.

I’m not looking to start drama or anything, obviously, I just think that it’s insane and I’m still like ??? lotta audacity to just lie.