#mine is closure btw

[youareinlove]

was chatting w/ a mutual abt this yesterday, so i was wondering: what's your guys's taylor song that reminds you of a really specific time in your life? we all have one.

[silverselfshippingchaos]

a really big chunk of my ship tags are just titles of songs that I happen to like (if you can tell what they are, you get a gold star!)

but that also means that every now and then, a certain song will come on and I'll be hit with the strongest wave of just. Feels.

(some spoilers for M.onster in the tags btw)

[real-big-man]

(ooc) friend art. go follow him NEOWW..

[mylovesstuffs]

Saying “please” while swinging a knife doesn’t make it polite. You don’t get cookies for asking before crossing a boundary—especially one you were never entitled to cross in the first place. “they even said it was for personal use” cool so is pirating, so is plagiarism—do you want a participation trophy for intent to exploit nicely?

The road to hell is paved with “but I was being respectful.” Respect means not doing the thing, not finding a softer way to justify doing the thing anyway.

Fandom is not your AI farm and writers are not raw data.

“you didn’t have to be so mad” nah we did, because apathy is how shit like this spreads. You were told no and that should have been the end, but instead you tried to gaslight. Try that shit in a courtroom and watch how fast you lose.

Your tone doesn’t erase the fact that you came here to argue your right to digital theft and you’re still crying in the corner because you got called out with words instead of coddles.

Go read terms of use. Go read an ethics journal. Go read a fucking room.

okay so i know everyone is mad at the other anon for bringing up AI, but like… isn’t it kinda fair to say that once you publish a teaser or fic, and then don’t update it for months, it’s natural for readers to want closure in their own way? idk… i feel like that anon was being really polite with you. they even said it was just for personal use and like ai exists to make life easier?? so why is it such a crime to want to see the ending if the writer isn’t giving one? isn’t that the whole point of technology? you didn’t have to be that mad at them. you could’ve just said no without cursing and yelling. i’m sorry but it just feels a bit much. and tbh if they didn’t ask and used gpt anyway, you wouldn’t even know, so what’s the point of being so aggressive?

anyway i know people are gonna lunge at me for saying this but… not everyone who disagrees with you is a villain. just something to think about

i will start with the obvious. AI models 'learn' from the content fed into it. it regurgitates and steals content from human writers, whether it's our style/voice/tone or our actual words. our work is repurposed without our permission. "not everyone who disagrees with you is a villain," yes, but anyone who enables this system is.

"they even said it was just for personal use and like ai exists to make life easier??" at whose expense? mine? i write for enjoyment and community. i do not HAVE to make fanfiction. no one does. no writer owes you ANYTHING, even if they publish it online.

i am not about to apologize for "being so aggressive," or "screaming," or "yelling." this will be the last i say on this, so let me make my stance as crystal clear as possible. anon, and to anyone else who agrees with this anon: get off my fucking blog. shit, get off fandom spaces. do not interact with any of my work, or any fanfic writer's work, ever again.

[azaharinflames]

From the authors of “they should tell him to cal”, “they should tell him not to call” how about we accept whatever decision and be here for him if it’s a bad one?

I get not wanting to your friend to get hurt and both advise are solid btw.

But I guess it’s just a me thing where I hate when even my closest friends meddle with my personal life.

And I repeat it’s a ME thing, and not true for everyone and everything.

Oh, I agree!

It's a pet peeve of mine how they usually don't trust Buck's decisions or actions. I understood at the beginning of the series, but after 8 seasons it's tiring and frustrating.

The thing for me here is that Buck was left with more questions than answers. I don't know if the writers want a bigger pay-off, or if they want things to keep escalating until they explode. Or, even, if they want to show Buck doing what he wants, and not what he's told, for once.

But the matter of fact is Buck was left with tons of questions, and even if it was for his peace of mind... wouldn't it be natural for him to talk to Tommy about it? Get closure if they cannot grow back together? And it's like you said - if it goes bad, they can be there for him.

I do understand it's a take on the whole: not letting your friend call his ex. And, funnily enough, it's a very popular rom-com take!

But it did frustrate me a bit. Because Tommy was their friend as well, not someone they just met five minutes ago, so... huh?

Right now I'm just hoping it was a rom-com troupe that was slightly bad executed.

[dwobbitfromtheshire]

Yep, Rueleigh's at it again. . .they're talking about the camera incident, and they briefly talk about when they got SA'd. So, TW, I guess.

No one talks about how that girl could have gone to the police and told them about the photos that Jonathan had taken of Nancy. I love Jonathan, but yeah, it could have been so much worse for him. Like in comparison, he got off free. Nancy and Steve were both within their right to press charges against him. Considering that Steve’s family comes from money. . .they could have either covered it up or gone after Jonathan. . . .you know, if they were around to give two shits. I don't know, I think the price of Jonathan's camera is nothing compared to the legal fees that they would have to pay if Jonathan had gotten in trouble with the law. And considering that Steve and Nancy were both underage, and I think even then it was considered. . . you know. . .those two words I don't like uttering together. . . BTW, do the Duffers or anyone on the show ever actually talk about the camera incident? . . .I don't know, I keep circling back to this. . .probably because I've been sexually violated myself, which is what this is, but mine was more physical. . .I don't know, there was never really any closure with the camera except Steve buying Jonathan a new one, which he should NOT have done, and to me, it says that the Duffers reward that kind of creepy ass behavior. They mostly just swept it under the rug, but I just hate when shit like that doesn't get properly addressed. I know that they were trying to make Jonathan come off as an outsider and trying to find a way to bring him into what's going but holy fucking shit did they go about it all wrong. If they were trying to make him have flaws. . .that's not being flawed. . .it just makes him look creepy. That's the one thing that I absolutely hate that they did for Jonathan's character and the fact that they never showed any kind of growth for it. I probably would have liked him a lot sooner if they hadn't done that.

[gracefullou]

I haven’t watched any clips yet. I effing hate most of the non-Louis songs and now that I know what the set list was, I’m not as likely to watch the videos. Was the gp reception to HIS music at least good?

Hi, anon! I started watching the live when he was singing face the music. Great! I enjoyed it very much and it's such a good song live. So energetic! And then waoyf came up and it was just so amazing. So sexy! Night changes came right after and i actually don't mind it. I think it's 1D's most popular song at the moment after wmyb, he has writing credits on it and i get that a 1D cover is a must on his set and i'm totally ok with that (My problem is that he has 3 of those 😵‍💫). After that, it's a bit of blur. I think it was walls (which i love but i think if he absolutely has to choose Saturdays would be a better option) and then seven 😖 and then he said he was going to perform wdbhg but it was actually ooms and then wdbhg and he finished his set with silver tongues. Larries and ot5s really hate his solo music bc how the hell do they not see it? Starting from face the music, i watched him perform 8 songs 3 of which were covers. Also, i don't really count silver tongues with the barricade and all. I feel like it's the perfect closure to his shows but it s not really a song performance, i don't know how to put it correctly but i hope you get the point. So, to me in that time, he performed 4 songs (3 fitf ones and one from walls) and 3 covers (and the covers are way longer than his own songs btw) which is so excessive and frankly stupid. I'm sorry but despite him sounding incredibly good today and the stage design looking better than the tour shows in my opinion, i couldn't enjoy his set nearly as much as his fitfwt shows. I think one of Louis' problems is that he thinks too highly of 1D and too little of his solo songs' potential. Not everyone is a 1D fan (and seeing the live today i get why it's hard for him to believe that bc everywhere he goes, 1 deaders rip their vocal chords off singing those lyrics but he needs to understand that they are only a fraction of that audience and that some people are just not his target audience 🤷‍♀️). And for those, it's a little hard to enjoy his set. And I don't get the seven thing. Literally no one was singing a single lyric. If you want to perform songs that people don't know, you might as well sing one of your own (not that i think no one knows his songs but apparently that's what he believes 💀). I could see the confidence leave his body when the crowd went dead for this one which uo but i think he needs to start working on not getting affected by whether or not the crowd knows the words he's singing especially at festivals so why Louis, why 😭. It's hard enough as it is to make people who don't know you/ your music to check it out after one set especially for someone who's had no real gp exposure for years, but Louis is not even really giving them anything to begin with. He's not giving faith in the future, his beloved album that he designed with the live show in mind (his words not mine) any exposure when he was presented with the opportunity. He needs to start believing in his songs especially fitf songs potential ASAP. Another uo, i do not think it's a good look on him to perform this many covers for people who know he has two solo albums out already. It might look a bit ambitionless and straight up lazy for someone who doesn't know him. I know i wouldn't be impressed 🤷‍♀️. As far as the gp reception, i really don't know. The camera was on him not on the crowd. They were singing along his songs ( but of course not as loudly as 1 dead songs) but i suspect those are his/ 1D fans that went there to watch him. He sounded really really good today, and he looked so hot so hopefully he stole some hearts. I think it's too early to gauge the gp reception, so let's just see how it goes but i do know that he's not using this festival run to its full potential with his setlist choices.

[beevean]

Something happened that lead me to think.

Yesterday, I read a long message that was left to me on November 24 (it was on Messenger and I don't use FB anymore): an old friend of mine, that abandoned me 10 years ago, wrote me a long, long letter of apologies for her past behavior.

We were close, although long distance, friends. I was 16-18, and she was two years older than me. She was a very intelligent, studious girl, and we could relate to each other for our shyness and lack of friends among other things. But she suffered from OCD and depression, things I honestly did not know how to handle at the time, and they interfered with our relationship. She was extremely insecure, constantly doubting that I cared about her, acting up if I invited my classmates over to study together, making me feel responsible for her staying alive.

Long story short, she eventually found herself a boyfriend and decided I wasn't worth the effort anymore. I think she said something like "being together with you isn't stimulating anymore".

(btw, in her letter she offhandedly mentioned that now she has understood her sexuality better, which doesn't surprise me - I can believe she had a crush on me and it manifested in a terrible way. I myself sometimes consider her my first girlfriend :\)

She and my father "abandoning" me at the same time caused me suicidal thoughts that to this day I'm battling with. But I eventually forgave my father: I think he paid enough for what he did. With her, I honestly thought I'd never hear from her again. I tried to learn my lesson, and honestly I strived to never become like her. Which I failed to do, sadly.

And I haven't responded to her yet because I honestly don't know where to begin. It's been ten years, and while I'm in a better place than where she left me off, I'm not exactly in a good place either. But... just the thought of contacting me after a decade to apologize? Was the guilt really that strong?

And then, today my boyfriend made a surprise visit to talk face to face.

I thought he was also done with me after we spent a month essentially making each other sick. I was trying to move on, because really, I'm not going to cry again for the umpteenth person who gets tired of me (a mentality I "learned" from this old friend of mine, that eventually I'll bore everyone away), but yes, I was thinking all this time "man, five years down the drain, what a waste".

And what does he do when he showed up? He apologized to me. He realized that I was right about some of the things I told him. That he gets passive-aggressive when angry, that he's excessively proud, that sometimes his advice got too insistent. He thought about it, and he drove to my house (it's an one hour drive) to speak to me with his heart in his hand, fully knowing that I could have said that I don't love him anymore or I found someone else.

We made up. I have made my mistakes, I need to change as a person, but I honestly, honestly appreciated that he made the effort to actually examine himself and ask for closure.

So... I guess the takeaway from this is that I, too, deserve to be apologized to. I always feel like I'm a screw up and everything I do is wrong and I need to constantly apologize myself. It's what I argued with my boyfriend over. So, as self-centered as this may sound, yes I do feel better about myself now.

But also, I'm constantly afraid of reaching out to people for fear of rejection, or that it's too late to make amends or anything. And yet look at this. An apology after ten years. I really should take this to heart.

[aroacettorney]

"if casey was a genius detective, shouldnt she realise moriarty wasnt the true culprit of all delica incidents?"

she literally did. even though at first she briefly believed moriartys words, she soon felt something amiss as she was following his tracks. moriarty took/burnt all of physical evidence when he dealt with the actual criminals before her. he only left her enough crumbs to track down other small fries that he didnt even bother to kill. everything else led back to moriarty because he was the main suspect who even admitted that he was responsible for all crimes happening in delica. the only way casey could burst this cold case wide and open was to catch moriarty and question him, because she knew he was surely the only person with all the puzzle pieces. if she truly believed that he was the main and only perpetrator of those hideous crimes, she would have tried to kill him as soon as they fought instead of trying to make him surrender. she has always had her doubts. the fact that moriarty saved her from literal death only solidified them further. thats why she gotta chase him down to the end of the world to learn the truth. for her personal closure aside, wasnt it too the job of detectives?

"what about those slaves moriarty freed? why didnt casey question them?"

we have zero texts on whether or not she did. isnt it a bit unfair to not even give her any benefit of doubts? for all we know, moriarty might have just given them a gag order to keep his name and activities secret because it would get in the way of what he actually wanted to do. after all, he had a reputation to maintain. also, there is no guarantee the slaves would know anything relating to those incidents in delica because yknow... they were slaves who were put in the mines to work until they died. why would anyone give them info on the national top secrets? we cant even be sure that the slavers who were hired to keep them in check had a high enough clearance to know anything.

"even then, shouldnt casey have tried to solve the case using legal means instead of illegally reading moriartys memories?"

illegal according to whom? the memory reading artifact is a certified tool authorized by the states to solve criminal incidents. casey also acquired it via legal means. the captain of night crawler literally gave it to her and took all responsibilities. there might be room to argue that its illegal to use it on a good standing citizen, but moriarty is a known and internationally acknowledged criminal. if there is no physical evidence left and moriarty aint willing to tell the truth, caseys only option is either to read his memories or... torture. by this worlds standards, the latter also aint illegal, btw. and you may guess which one she picked.

[taylortruther]

‘When she was doing better she resented our concerns about her mental health and the fact that we had been there during a very vulnerable time in her life’ this describes my dynamic with my ex-best friend who I was completely obsessed with so well. we were so close for years and often talked about mental health (tbf we were babies then) until things got really bad during covid. we were there for each other, and we would sometimes share things that most people would be ashamed to even think of. when she got better, she became a lot more cagey about her feelings towards the people we talked about a lot when we were doing really badly (mostly our dads really), and I do think that fed into her decision to slowly distance herself from me. i really do think she didn’t want to be that vulnerable with anyone at all. the thing is, i ended up getting worse after initially getting better. we had been growing apart for a year by that point but kind of promised each other to put more effort in after we went a month without texting that summer. when I came back to school in the fall, i was visibly very sick, and she suddenly hated me? i don’t think it’s just because of the way i looked (there was some jealousy with like, doing well in class or whatever, but that hadn’t been an issue in previous years at all), but I swear it played a part. she suddenly couldn’t stand to spend time with me, seemingly got mad if i made conversation, and would openly laugh and rejoice if i made a mistake in class. it was so confusing and hurtful. her resentment eventually stopped but our relationship never recovered. I wonder if seeing me like that reminded her of her lowest times (since our rough patches coincided, even though our issues were different - hers was depression and anxiety / perhaps some other stuff she never got formally diagnosed with, mine was pretty severe anorexia, which she never asked about after the first summer when it started and went ‘is that STILL a thing???’ when i said I couldn’t have something a few months before i lost a lot of weight again), and that was why she avoided me subconsciously? was she scared i would pull her in? I literally never had that issue with any other friends btw so I’m not like that at all 😭 I grieved it for so long, especially because we never had a blowup fight or anything. resentment just built up until we fizzled out. we went from arguably the closest people in each other’s lives to… acquaintances, basically. ugh it sucks. i wish I could hear her side of things and get closure because I genuinely don’t know what I did wrong (this is a pattern for her, but i digress).

ahhh bestie this hurts my heart for you. i won't act like i know for sure what was going through her mind - sometimes you form really intense bonds with friends that end up blowing up for a host of reasons. maybe she couldn't be communicative and was pissed you couldn't pick up on her impossibly subtle "hints," maybe she was too immature and insecure to admit something to you, maybe she felt threatened that you knew her vulnerabilities and felt she had to push you away and be mean to you to ensure she had power/control over the situation... but i am sorry you went through it and i hope you are doing okay.

[aurora-ze-aquarius]

Something I thought about while cleaning up. So we all know Kingdom is introducing the dragons into the game through Odyssey-esque chapters. That makes me wonder, will the other ancients go in search for the other dragons in their own chapters?

We all know Pitaya and Hollyberry were obviously going to get their own story arc after the reveal of their petty/friendly rivalry, but I'm curious as to if the other ancients are going to play a part in the other dragon stories.

I came up with this one on the spot.

Though, bare in mind I am not familiar with Ovenbreak (and have no desire to play it, so unfortunately my knowledge of the dragons are limited to the wiki entries.)

(btw, this post might be a long, unhinged rambling of mine, buckle up.)

Here's my hypothetical dragon chapter ft. Lotus Dragon and The Dark Cacao Cookies.

Edit: Apparently, Lotus dragon is more so a backdrop in this rambling. H mm. I did not foresee that.

This chapter will focus on Lotus Dragon Cookie, mainly because I really like their aesthetic, also because I think wish granting seems like it could be a great story to tell, especially with Dark Choco and Dark Cacao.

Speaking of which, I believe this chapter would benefit well if we sorta switched perspectives from Cacao to Choco every once in a while. Idk, somewhat like oddessy, except without Gingerbrave.

So anyway-

We begin our story with Dark Cacao and Crunchy Chip travelling to the lands where Lotus Dragon resides, hoping to find an allyship with them. Pitaya Dragon (now allies with them thanks to Hollyberry) informed the other ancients about the other dragons, and so have agreed to split up in search for them.

The two of them then stumble upon a collector/hunter cookie (i haven't decided), who was also in search for the Lotus Dragon to ask for a wish, and so the three of them decided to travel together. However, both Crunchy and Cacao seem pretty suspicious towards the cookie.

I don't know if the cookie will be a twist villain or not, but basically, they're not trusting them just yet. (Let's call them Collector Cookie for now)

Then we turn our attention to Dark Choco, who's currently living out his best life when he stumbles across a cookie in danger. He helps them out, and the cookie tells him that they wish to seek out Lotus Cookie (let's call this one Wanderer Cookie.) so Choco decides to go with him, perhaps to make a wish too.

Wanderer Cookie explains he wishes to seek vengeance against someone who hurt him, and Dark Choco (having gone through his character arc) tries to tell them it's not a good idea, leaving Wanderer Cookie to question whether or not they even want revenge or just closure for what happened to them.

By the middle of the story, the two parties accidentally meet up with one another. Wanderer Cookie seems to recognize Collector Cookie and accuses them of being the one who harmed them in the past.

(Like I said, I'm not sure if I want Collector Cookie to be the main "bad guy" of the story or not, but when the two parties meet, Collector and Wanderer do not like each other for whatever reason.)

I don't know where to go from here, but in the end, they save the day from a disaster or something, and they all get to make a wish.

Wanderer Cookie wishes for closure for what happened to them.

Crunchy gets a wish too.

Dark Choco and Dark Cacao? Dark Cacao wishes he could make things right with Dark Choco, and the latter wishes he could do something to right the wrongs he did when he spiraled down that path of bloodshed.

Oh yeah, Lotus is also convinced to join them.

Tldr: if ever Lotus Cookie is introduced, I want the Dark Cacao Kingdom Cookies to find them, and I want Dark Choco and Dark Cacao to be happy again. Why? Because I am very biased towards them.

(also Wanderer Cookie is definitely not a stand in for my oc haha- what are you talking abou—)

[insufferable-talkstuck]

Redoing this here [sorry for doing it on the main blog] [basically copying and pasting the one I already did but this time im taking it more lightly and also adding stuff 🔥🔥🔥

I am a very stubborn person , one who basically just goes "fuck it we ball" , "do whatever the fuck you want" , is pretty much an hater , and i get really close to people. I also get angry easily , but still somehow manage to keep an "happy go lucky" persona online. Also , I always feel like the world sucks. More specifically, like there are too much bad things to hate , and hating them all and knowing they are happening makes me even more mad. I also have always want to know everything about everyone , and i am almost always seeking out knowladge , even right now. Im also mostly a lurker , due to having a thing about having to keep a "good reputation". I've always wanted to be famous , but just so i could not be forgotten after my death. And I've always thought myself as some sort of attention seeker , which is why [unless present with an anonimous identity] i basically never vent , becouse i know that people have problems worse than mine. Also , due to [as i mentioned earlier] getting really close to people , I've gotten in a lot of toxic friendships , and have only like 5 or 6 true friends. Lately , I've been going through a phase of self reflection. Especially about how I used to act or think in the past. And even about current me. Im very impulsive and uhhh yea i guess thats it 🔥🔥 [btw i am sorry for asking on the main blog but i am not sorry for basically spam liking your posts 🔥] [holy shit i just realized how much of an edgelord i sound]

Prince of Hope

you share a classpect with Eridan ampora.

im not sure how to excuse this assumption of you properly, but as soon as i read your submission the exact thoughts that went through my head were "mind.. rage! HOPE." * so you'll just have to believe me as much as you can muster

Hope revolves around belief, religion, courage, and a black and white view of the world. as a prince of hope you are more afflicted with rage, a powerful aspect that can bring down an entire session

* i thought you'd be a mind player because your wording makes it look like you're concerned with justice, or at least have a strong sense of what you believe is the right thing—but that can better be assigned as hope, the way your beliefs may not seem correct to those around you but you're stubborn in your way

you talk about getting angry easily, don't think i have to break down why that's rage pilled as fuck, but specifically rages description of ‘ a rage player may tear down an entire system if they deem it wrong, and rebuilt it themselves ’ ( highly referenced but not exact quote, cant look it up rn ) really reminded me of you.

If you'd like more closure i suggest looking at Eridan as our prince of hope, this is not my finest most detailed work but I do believe it suits you best, and when a classpect assigner gets a gut feeling you don't question it

[church-of-lilith]

right like I fully get the importance in the redemption arc for nate to be offered to come back, because it shows that forgiveness and healing, but I don't think he actually needs to come back

and also even just for the fact that I think roy can now fill the manager roll and I think nate's also capable of managing somewhere

right! you get me! (this is the post of mine anon is referencing btw)

Symbolically Richmond needed to be the team to invite Nate back & remind him of his love of the game. but now that he has that closure and forgiveness he should be able to move on and find another team who needs a good coach.

Richmond will be just fine with Beard and Roy, they don’t need a third coach. However, the League as a whole needs to start embracing the Lasso Way, and the best way to have Ted’s legacy continue on is to have Nate carry what he’s learned on to another team.

[flowerslut]

i just saw an update by someone on ao3 saying they hated when ppl asked for an update or said stuff like where’s the update and it made them lose their passion for writing the fic and i literally do that to u all the time and have probs done it consistently for three years and i am so sorry LOL i never considered it could be annoying

LMFAOOOOO no don't worry at all!!! I don't mind it!!! plus, I feel like it all depends on how people are asking for updates and on the specific author, too. I know that a LOT of fanfiction writers get stressed out when people leave comments asking for updates, (or even comments that aren't 100% complimentary, tbh) because it makes them anxious and rubs them the wrong way. I am absolutely not one of those authors lmfao. I, for one, only get annoyed at people asking for updates if they phrase it in a real asshole-ish way, like:

"please continue this story" <- this would could be fine, but there's no sense of whimsy or joy in this demand. at least add an exclamation mark, ya fool

"another great story left unfinished" <- yeah! and it'll stay that way too unless you want to give me Unlimited Writing Money 🖕

"well, it has almost been 4 years, when are you going to post a new chapter?" <- ah yes another entitled bratty asshole who will ensure for everyone else that I never want to post a new chapter again

"I guess [story name] is dead. it is always sad to when someone dies without closure" <- literally what are you on????? hello? there are REAL people dying out there, kim

these are real comments left on some of my old WIPs btw^^ 💀 usually as long as people are nice and don't sound like entitled dickheads I have no problem with people asking for updates, or asking when I'll update a WIP!!!! a simple "I love this story I hope you update soon!" is so sweet! I love getting messages like that!! it shows that they like it and they want to see where the story goes! which is such a universally relatable experience for any fic reader out there!! more real-life examples of ways people can ask for updates and not sound like bratty jackasses (also from old WIPs of mine):

"This is great! Will you continue this?" <- short, sweet, to the point

"Any chance that you will come back to this story?" <- great! I love some curiosity with that little nudge where they're clearly hoping your answer will be 'yes!'

"Thank you for taking the time to write this, I wish you would continue it." <- the compliment combined with this encouragement is soooo sweet and I adore messages like this even though they make me feel a little bad LOL

"Please consider picking this up again. Even if just for a few chapters, to wrap it up. It’s so, so good, it’s be a shame to leave it without a continuation. Also, this chapter was phenomenal." <- this was one of my most recent reviews to a fic on an 'indefinite hiatus', and it made me actually go back and re-read the fic (a dangerous thing for me to do, because then I always want to keep writing, even if I don't have the time/energy/ideas/inspo) and long story short I sure did put it back on the bottom of the 'to finish' list 😅 i'll go back to my naruto fics one day. but not yet

anyways this got long but just know this: I am an author whose feelings you cannot hurt. nothing you could comment would make me anxious. enthusiastically asking for updates does not bother me. no amount of rude comments/reviews ever affect me outside of 1) great amusement or 2) mild-to-moderate annoyance that won't survive a full day. and don't worry. when it comes to people who are rude assholes I have no problem telling readers to go fuck themselves. lmfao ANYWAYSSS love u bestie gonna post a bonus roots chapter this week just for funsies now. you've invigorated me.

[gh0stcupp]

ok ik i sent the original ask forever ago but HEY ITS ME!! THE PERSON WHO MISTOOK U FOR SOMEBODY ELSE!!! I FOUND THE PERSON I WAS THINKING OF!! THE PERSON WHOSE ARTSTYLE REMINDS ME OF URS!!!

https://www.tumblr.com/nikoco11/741545965232766976/hello-i-made-charm-real-btw-up-for-sale-ideally if ur curious :P

on closer inspection ur guys’ artstyles are both unique and awesome in different ways but i think smth abt how u color is so similar in a way.. ur both so cool omg <33 💖💖✨

i just thought u would want to know who ur SECRET TWIN IS 🫵🫵 if it gave u some closure teehee :>

Hi!! I guessed it was probably this artist! I take a lot of inspo from his artwork but I’m slowly trying to develop mine into something more personal to me! ^^

[sereignity]

i have never thought this would be possible but fortunately, coincidence or not, you will never knew what's coming because the guy that i had liked, really really liked during my middle school, is now at the same school as mine after 8 years of not meeting him. and that guy, whom i've dedicated a song many times on repeat just for him, because that song conveyed the feelings i had for him back then—and now, ironically, the band that would be having a concert in our school will be the one that wrote that song that i have ever wanted for him to hear for years. it was like the moment where in those seamless crowd, you will know that he's there and i feel my heart sighing and the years of unrequited feelings of mine to rest peacefully as they ever play that one song that i know he'll be hearing it. even though it was in the past and i barely even care now, there's a deep subconscious part of me that can't still fully let go those feelings and memories of him. my missed opportunity of not confessing to him because it terrified me. all those years im pining for him, those countless love letters, those visits of him in our house—all those jealousy that i can't express when my bff and him became a couple. no one knew my feelings for him. he was a bully but he has a heart. i truly liked him, i believe there's also a thin line of me falling in love with him. all those build ups for this day to come, that this song will be my missed confession that i've alway regretted not saying. in a way a closure, a chapter closed of my middle school.

to that guy, i liked you so much i never thought i can feel that way for a person. you were my first love even if it's unrequited—i hated you, i hate how you always tease me. i don't know how it came to this—me liking you that started with hate. i was so jealous of my bestfriend, that you became a couple and how you express those lovely things for her that i can only wish for me. that time was so difficult for me because i can't express my feelings and it hurts so much suppressing it. you were my first love and my first heartbreak. you taught me what it feels like to like someone. i had dreamt of you for years even if we already separated ways. that's how hard for me to move on from you. you're such a bittersweet memory that i can't help to remember. this will be the last time that i'll remember those feelings again, i want to fully let you go. that concert will be the closure of my feelings, and i hope someday—the first unrequited love of mine would be reciprocated by someone.

this is the song btw:)