#min/regulus' health journey

[minaespen]

apparently i'm supposed to mask how i really feel even tho i dont express it at all

how dare i answer "how are you doing" with "not the best"

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it's true

Sirius: Abuse can feel like love.

Remus: Why?

Sirius: Starving people will eat anything.

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the terrifying thing of "did i forget my meds" when you're waiting at the bus stop to go stay at your besties

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body please i gave you more iron, what else could you want 😭😭

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i miss being able to dance and go out with my friends. just going to the mall and walking around. now if i wanna do that i have to borrow a wheelchair (i don't have my own yet) bc i can't stand up for more then 5 mins without starting to see spots. i miss the person that i could have been.

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happy holidays for those who celebrate

i am a month and a half from moving out, very close to opening my etsy, i'm probably gonna go christmas shopping tomorrow for my brother cause im the best big sibling 💅🏻

i'm absolutely exhausted and in the middle of a pots flare up but we will manage. the ED is getting better, but i started vaping again sadly

i shall update when i can and ill go full creator mode once i move 💅🏻

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happy holidays to those taht celebrate! i'm currently drunk and high and i want to make sure that everyone, mutuals or not, know that they are appreciated in this time. i've never had a good relationship with christmas as ive had to prepare everything for my family after my brother was born, and it wasn't fun. no i genuinely hope that everyone has the best holiday that they can, wether you guys celebrate it or not. i love you guys so much <3

[minaespen]

i'm so tired but i can't nap, i had 10 hours of sleep but im still so exhausted from yesterday. having seizures and ibs in one day really kills a person, yknow

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having to take medication half of the time to shit and having to hold a bowl to my mouth the other half while i'm in agonising pain is not a vibe

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got told that i might have to get a colonoscopy and im lil scared

[minaespen]

so i'm moving out soon

cause why take care of your disabled child who has seizures when you can have a girlfriend instead

can barely move rn

[minaespen]

so i can't walk again ✨

my body is too week and the 17+ seizures probably aren't helping

[minaespen]

TW talk about eating disorders

i have anorexia filled by ARFID and the fact i can't afford my safe foods and im just so hungry and i want nothing more then to eat but i legit don't have anything

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last full day in this house, been yelled at for putting my portable aircon on while i'm packing so i don't pass out lmao

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one month until my birthday and 2 and a bit weeks until i'm kicked out 💀🙃🥴

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to my friends,

zeil, grey, apollo, atomic, bray, lore, ambrose, emily, willow

thank you for always being there for me

i love you guys, even if you don't see this

(not a suicide letter just emotional)