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[bikananjarrus]

stellan gios; the pole star, the fallen star

(the fallen star variant cover by jama jurabauv; meaning of latin root word 'stell-'; the fallen star cover title text // the fallen star by claudia gray // pole star, wikipedia // julius caesar, act iii, scene i by william shakespeare // ursa minor constellation card by sidney hall, royal museums greenwich ; the north star whispers to the blacksmith's son by vachel lindsay; in the wind by lord huron // starry night over the rhone by vincent van gogh, 1888; the fallen star // light of the jedi by charles soule // summer triangle: asterism of 3 stars from 3 constellations, space(dot)com ; the fallen star // navigation by stars 1575 #1 by granger; pole star, wikipedia; evermore by taylor swift // constellations ursa major and ursa minor; the fallen star // north star by thomas lupari // stellan gios from 'a coruscant solstice' by grant griffin in life day treasury; right now by gracie abrams; the fallen star // poem by langston hughes // the fallen star // saturn by sleeping at last // the fallen star)

[yellowcharm]

🌻☀️hi hiiii

Hi for the love of god HELLO!!!

Okay okay so I know you're a Tag System Fan (<3<3<3) so my thoughts for you, sir, are on how much I enjoy my tags that are dichotomies/two halves of the same coin. I have especially been thinking lately about my The Boy Who Loved the Sun vs Ophelia tags.

Like. Okay. To me the Ophelia myth is about gaining autonomy through the act of self destruction, about the value in freedom even if through death. Ophelia is a tragedy but her drowning is victorious because she is laying claim to her grief. Her own death is an act of removing herself from an unkind and ungentle narrative. Something something, "Ophelia in the water, finally breathing again" and "& girl running for her life, & girl swimming for her life, & girl sinking for her life" and "madly I take control of the recesses of myself".

MEANWHILE, Icarus is the opposite! Like Ophelia, he also has the sudden opportunity to make his own choices/mistakes where previously the narrative afforded him none ("bless these burnt wings"!!) but his drowning is about hopelessness and inevitability. No matter what he does he can't escape the narrative. The melting point of wax is an indisputable fact. Icarus doesn't know he's dying until his wings are already burning and in every version of the story that will remain true ("Every version of this myth ends with you slaughtered").

Like they are both doomed but in different directions and different flavors. Hopelessness kills Ophelia and it is a victory. Hope kills Icarus and it is a tragedy. They both have their own destruction as the only thing that truly belongs to them but Ophelia walks into the water and Icarus falls. ("I didn't have it in myself to go with grace"). They both die and lose everything because of love, ("Drowning isn't a love story") but they are also vivified by the act of dying ("I thought the fall would kill me but it only made me real").

At the end of the day though BOTH of them are that one Valeria Luiselli quote "Telling stories doesn’t solve anything, doesn’t reassemble broken lives. But perhaps it is a way of understanding the unthinkable."

Anyway, I could talk/write about this a LOT. I just really love complex stories about grief and hope and individualism.

[bikananjarrus]

i need to start practicing drawing again, if only to start drawing high republic content

[bikananjarrus]

it's actually so important to me that avar is a little bit (or a lot) of a mess.

she had this huge responsibility as marshal of starlight placed on her shoulders, mainly bc of her actions as the "hero of hetzal," not necessarily because she wanted to be marshal. people across the galaxy know her name, see her as a hero. even the nihil talk about her as this figurehead of the jedi, the one who thwarted them over hetzal, and has been a nuisance to them since.

she (not unlike starlight) has been elevated to be this beacon for the entire galaxy.

so when it falls, so does she.

she runs, because it's easier than confronting that failure; her failure. but i think even before this, she'd gotten good at running. when she and elzar had that moment on starlight after the dedication ceremony (where he admittedly leaned in a bit too close in such a public space), she distanced herself from him then, hardly talking to him and giving him the cold shoulder when they did see each other. she pushed stellan away, was combative with him instead of seeking his support, and their last interaction was spent that way: terse and upset.

she's been running away from this weight on her shoulders, and from the people that mean the most to her long before starlight fell. so when it fell, of course it was just easier to run from that too. instead of facing this failure, instead of facing her grief.

she's reckless and she's running and she's messy and she's alone but she's still trying so hard to find that hope again. to find that belief in herself again, and to find those connections again, that she keeps shoving away. you can feel her clawing for every little bit of ground, to push back against the nihil bit by bit until she doesn't feel like such a failure anymore.

and i just appreciate that the road to recovery for her isn't clean cut. she's a mess and she's falling apart, but she keeps trying anyway. and i can't wait for her to realize that she doesn't have to walk this road alone the way she has been for so long.

[bikananjarrus]

elzar looking up at the stars above coruscant and thinking that it should be beautiful but they just looked wrong. the stars, the very fabric of the night sky looks twisted and not quite right and wrong to him, and it’s looked and felt that way ever since starlight fell. ever since stellan. ever since his polestar, his guiding star, died, the firmament of stars in the galaxy (the same firmament that stellan viewed the force as) has looked wrong!!! BECAUSE THERES A STAR MISSING. HIS STAR. HIS POLESTAR. he has no one to guide him, he’s alone, and the galaxy keeps spinning along as always but for him it’s forever changed, and the stars look wrong and i’m—