#might still go walk up and get a latte in a bit tho

[just-my-type-x]

Curly Heads and Caffe Lattes

A little something from me to u bc i had this idea rotting in my drafts for months now. Hope u enjoy it ♥️

Smut, mentions of alcohol

I walk inside the coffee shop and take in the comfy vibe of the dim lit room, with several tables and chairs for upcoming visitors. I sigh in relief when I see the coffee shop almost empty, the early morning not being suitable for everyone.

I order my coffee and I sit at a table close to the window, with a cozy view of the neighbourhood, and I take out my laptop to start working on my project. Deep inside my thoughts and several opened files on my computer, my attention is captured when a man starts swearing and the sound of spilled coffee makes me check my own table to see if my cup is still intact. I sigh in relief and check the incident out.

The curly headed man shakes his hands in a manner to get all the liquid off, while checking out his jeans and the bottom of his white shirt, while the barista is trying desperately to clean the counter and the cashier's machine. The barista mumbles a lot of sorry's, but the curly head keeps on assuring him everything is fine. He picks up his new coffee while he's looking around for a pack of napkins. I look on my table to check if there's any on mine and I pick it up, waving it towards him.

"Here. You look like you need it", I smile and he approaches me, smiling back.

"Thank you, tho it won't help me much.", he chuckles as he presses the napkins onto the fabric of his jeans.

"I heard cold water might help, tho I'm not sure your shirt is going to survive the coffee attack"

He laughs out loud and I smile, his laughter being way cuter than I expected. I take a sip of my drink to hold back the huge smile on my face.

"I'd probably give it to my mom. She handles everything, especially clothing emergencies. They're her favourite.", I chuckle at his confession and I nod.

"Same, whenever I need anything, I call for help. I send an SOS emoji and she sends me a full on screenshot of her notes. They're even sorted, stained clothes, salty food, headaches. Those are the problems and each has a solving.", I laugh and he joins me, which makes my cheeks burn.

"She sounds exactly like my mom.", he throws one last tissue in the bin close to our table. "I'm Brad.", he extends his arm towards me and I shake it happily.

"Y/N, nice to meet you."

"Likewise. So, what are you doing here? Actually no, let me try to figure you out on my own.", he narrows his look and studies me, looking me up and down. I turn my head away, smiling, unable to hold his eye contact anymore.

"Be my guest"

"You seem pretty basic", he says as he sits more comfortable in the chair right in front of me, leaning back.

"I beg your pardon", i blink a few times to see if i understood his stereotyping correctly.

"You look like the type of girl who wouldn't trade her caramel macchiato for anything in this world. You might've gotten the ham and mozzarella croissant as well, got it a little bit heated in the oven.", he checks our surroundings. "You got your laptop right there, you're probably behind with a uni project. The fact that you had time to put make up on shows you're not stressed about the deadline, because you know you're gonna nail the subject and you can touch all the topics in a short amount of time." Brad scans my face for any more clues, but i relax and let my frown disappear, switching to a mischievous grin on my face.

Brad smirks and takes a sip of his latte, pointing at me. "It's not that hard to read you. I've seen you around lately, which leads me to adding that you're here from another country, based on your accent. And", he raises his finger one more time, drawing a circle up in the air, "this is a café where the same 20 people from the neighbourhood come every day. I've only seen you in here since, I'd say... October? That's Uni schedule"

He intertwines his fingers together on the table and straighten his back, waiting for my approval, his smirk never leaving his face, which makes his dimples pop out. I smile and shake my head, leaning forward on the table, sitting just the way he does. We both look like we're about to spill some call-the-police worthy secrets.

"Trying to read me was pretty hot, I'm not gonna lie.", i lean back down on my chair. "Too bad you're too far off the map, Bradley.", i take a sip of my coffee and smirk at his confusion.

"Oh, really? Then tell me where I'm wrong. Is it the coffee? Is it a pumpkin spice?", we both laugh and i take off the plastic cap. "And why didn't you say you know me?"

"Nope. It's an unsweetened latte, actually i don't even know what's it called, it's 2 shots of espresso and some milk", i pause as we chuckle at my dumb self, who all of a sudden started looking inside the cup. "And it's nicer to have a normal and actual conversation with you, other than spoiling that I might know you. I didn't want to make you uncomfortable.", I take a sip from my cup.

"Are you a coffee fortune teller now?", he laughs and i hit his arm playfully.

"Yes, it says I'm gonna beat your ass up"

"Please don't, i need my face next week for our concert. And I really appreciate it, but it's fine, don't worry. Now, tell me, what else was wrong?", he intertwines his fingers on the table, waiting for my answers.

"I am working on a project, but not for Uni, it's for an agency. I'm way ahead of my Uni duty, thank you for underestimating me tho.", i tap him on the arm and sarcastically thank him, which makes us both laugh.

I turn off my laptop and put it inside my bag, carrying on with my conversation with Brad. We talk about how I moved to Birmingham for school and work opportunities and he listens carefully to everything I tell him that happened leading up to this moment. We order another set of coffees and I pick them up carefully, not like he did earlier. He talk about touring, his bar and songwriting.

"Oh, I wanna go to your parents' bar so badly. I didn't have enough free time to get there yet", I lay my hands on top of the table like I've just made a huge realisation. His eyes widen.

"You've been here for two months, y/n, stop overworking yourself. Tonight we're going out. How does that sound?", Brad smiles proudly and picks up his phone to check the time. It's 12, how does 6PM sound?"

"Uhhh I think it's ok?", I stutter but nod, smiling. "You don't have to do this, Brad. It's fine."

"It would be my pleasure. Plus, you saved my pants.", we laugh at his statement.

"That's a way of thanking me", I chuckle and we carry on with our coffees.

Hours pass and Brad and I pull up to the back entrance of the bar and he holds the door for me.

We get a table and he instructs the waiter to bring us their specialties, which I don't say no to. We munch on a few almonds and chips and we drink a little bit of everything, while talking about our lives and getting to know each other better. Later into the night, the music and the idea of dancing the night away is becoming more and more appealing to the both of us. As if he read my mind, Brad takes me by the hand and I follow him into a back room full of supplies, where the music is still loud enough to be heard by us. We end up dancing around, stumbling upon boxes of liquor and kicking down bags of all sorts of nuts.

"I'm a sure victim tonight if we break anything", he laughs as he picks up a bag off the floor.

"If anybody asks, I've never met you", I raise my hands in defence and I jump on a free table, sitting on it. I let out a yawn. Brad looks in my direction and approaches me, the same action of eyeing me up and down present. I smile and bite my lip, looking away from him, the alcohol and the entire day adding up to my growing frustration.

Brad touches my face gently and turns my face towards his, so I could look him in the eyes, but my eyes drop on his lips. I try to look up, but I find myself looking back at his lips. He licks his lips and I feel my body warming up. As if he knew, both his hands cupped my face, forcing me to look at him.

"Wanna go out of here?", he asks, looking back and forth from my lips to my eyes.

"We live far from here", my voice comes out shaky, my breath heavy. I let out a muffled moan as he crashes his lips on mine and uses his hands to push my legs apart so he would fit between my legs, closing the distance between us. I part my lips, allowing his tongue to take full control over me and my feels. I grab him by the back of his neck, pulling him closer to me, my free hand travelling down his torso.

"Fuck", he whispers, kissing abd biting my jaw. His hands grab me by my hips and squeeze with force, making me gasp in slight pain. Brad moves his hands higher, grabbing the hem of my blouse and hiding his hands under it, rubbing the exposed skin. I do the same, but i pull his sweater up, until he takes it off by himself. He allows me to trace his torso with my finger, while my eyes expect his chest and abdomen.

"That's too much staring, love, i don't have the patience for that", he smirks and i bite my lip, pulling him back into a kiss. He takes off my top and kisses my breasts, pushing me to get lower on the table so he could have full access to my jeans. "May i?", he looks at me with a raised eyebrow and i nod. He kisses under my belly button and i chuckle.

Brad takes off my jeans and I'm quick to unzip his, letting gravity do it's thing.

Brad's hot breath falls on top of my chest as he lets out a soft laugh. His fingers run softly on my leg, drawing small circles on my skin, teasing me. His fingers find their way between my legs and he traces the outline of my pussy through the panties i wear. With my head fallen backwards, i moan frustrated when he takes his hand away, only to take off my bra.

"I just want you to know that I'm not like this usually", I say breathing heavily.

"Like this meaning so fucking horny, wet and so desperate for me to fuck you?", he smirks on the side of my neck, his lips pressing on my hot flesh. Kissing down my neck, he bites on my collar bone, his hand wrapping around my neck, only for him to drag it downwards, over my exposed chest and breasts.

"You get what i mean", i whimper almost, as his fingers start teasing me again through the fabric

"Don't worry, love, it's been enough stereotypes for one day.", he laughs and kisses me one more time before taking my panties off. He takes off his boxers and i stare respectfully at his length, feeling my cheeks heat up.

Brad grabs a condom from his wallet and rolls it on himself, positioning the tip at my entrance. We gasp when he is fully inside, the fullness feeling unbeatable all of a sudden.

"Fuck, move Bradley", i grab on his shoulders and he pulls me closer to his body, his hands on my back.

Brad moves slowly in and out of me, sighing and holding back his moans.

"You're so tight, fuck. You feel so good, y/n", he grabs my hair in his fist, giving himself enough space to bury his head in the crook of my neck. I try holding back my moans with every stroke, and i let go of Brad's shoulders and i lean back on the table. He wastes no time and grabs my hips harshly, building up the speed. "What a sight, oh my God", he groans and throws one of my legs on his shoulder. I bite my hand in order to stop a loud moan to come out and he chuckles. "Let it out, babe. I know it feels good"

"It feels amazing, keep going like this", i plead and he keeps pushing hard between my legs. The rhythm makes me lose my mind and i feel the familiar tingling feeling building inside my body. "I'm close"

Brad squeezes my hips harder, building up his pace. I throw my head back and arch my back, my body trembling from the intensity of the moment. Brad's orgasm follows soon after, his moans proving me that he enjoyed it as much as i did.

We get back to our senses and get dressed, both of us still breathing heavily and smiling.

"Thank you for that, i didn't realise how much i needed that", i say as i run my hands through my hair.

He walks next to me and kisses me quickly. "It was amazing. I'm sorry for the circumstances, i promise next time it'll be in a proper location", we both laugh

"I'm patiently waiting for that next time.", i wink at him and i start walking towards the door, him following close behind.

"Hmm, tomorrow?"

I laugh at his impatience. "I'll make it work", i shake my head,smiling

"Perfect"

[lexa-griffins]

In honor of mother's day, how do Alex, Delilah, and Clarke celebrate Mother's Day with Lexa? Does Clarke have anything special planned for her favorite milf when the kids aren't around?

There will actually be, somewhere, a mother's day chapter!

The first Mother's Day with Clarke in the picture, they aren't living together yet. Non the less, she has a nice dinner planned for Lexa and the kids at a fancier restaurant that Lexa always wanted to go but never really had the disposable money to go to, much less with the kids.

The day starts with Alex knocking on Clarke's door. He has Lexa's favorite mug in hand and is there to ask Clarke if he can use her coffee machine to make Lexa's caramel latte, something she rarely indulges on as her morning coffee is usually instant. Clarke has actually gone down to the bakery already to get some croissants for Lexa and the kids so she gives them to Alex to bring too which makes him so happy because he and Delilah were just going to trg their luck with pancakes they hoped they wouldn't burn. He very excitedly tells Clarke about the flowers he bought for his mom and how Delilah had spent an entire day working on making a bracelet with some nice beads aunt Anya secretly took her to get. He really wants to give his mom a good mother's day and Clarke loves hearing how excited he is because Lexa deserves to have her kids spoil her a little like this.

Lexa is woken up by Delilah climbing in bed with her and wishing her a happy mother's day, shyly because she might have gone to bed a little mad at her for some thing that really doesn't matter. Lexa doesnt care, she throws her arm around her little girl and thanks her with a kiss on her head. Alex shows up not long after with a tray with the coffee and the pasteries and the flowers hanging underneath his arm as he tries to walk carefully but still manages to spill a little bit of the coffee. Its too sweet for Lexa and what she assumed is a heart was actually supposed to be bear but its such a sweet gesture that she drinks it all.

The day is uneventful, they get dressed and go for a walk, not before knocking on Clarke's door to thank her for the pasteries and for Clarke to wish Lexa a happy mother's day and making sure they are still on for tonight. Lexa also shows off the bracelet Lilah made for her, with all the pride only a mother can. There is an awkward call to Jenny for the kids to wish her a happy mother's day too, one that leaves Delilah teary eyed because they wont get to see her until next month so she wont get to give her her present until then while Alex just nods and listens to his mom tell him she has a super fun day planned for them, knowing damn well all Jenny will do is be on her phone as she spends time with them. Lexa tells the kids to wish Jenny a happy mother's day for her. Jenny doesnt wish it back despite Lexa being the reason she is a mom. Lexa has long since stopped taking it personally.

Dinner is amazing. The kids behave their best and Lexa has never felt this fancy going on. Clarke gives her a massive bouquet of flowers that makes her tear up and a beautiful necklace with the kids initials on it. Other than her very first mother's day, her ex never once made an effort to give Lexa anything for the day, despite Lexa doing something for her.

Later on at the restaurant is Clarke's time to tear up when Delilah and Alex give her a little card, wishing their bonus mom a happy first mother's day too. God she loves these kids so much and Lexa and the little family she has become part of :')))))

Clarke does prepare a little romantic night. Its a very sweet and soft one, after the kids are in bed and asleep she brings Lexa across the hall to her apartment so they can have some alone time. They make love and Clarke reminds Lexa of how amazing she is, how she loves every curve and every corner of her body that carried those two amazing kids. Before they tune in for the night tho, Clarke disappears in the kitchen, telling her she has a last gift for her. When she comes back with a flat box and throws it in bed Lexa eyes it suspiciously.

When she opens it she burns out laughing at the cheesiest shirt with the most wine mom lettering on it saying "this is what a milf looks like". Its so stupid and Lexa wears it any chance she gets to sleep.

Once again the kids fucking hate it here 🤣

[leavesofolive]

Walking around a small, quiet town with a lot of trees and gardens while barefoot and everyone else is still sleeping because it's still only 5:00 AM and the sun is just rising and wild rabbits and stray cats keep coming over to say hi and the local shops uptown are just beginning their opening chores and the scent of summer dew is so pleasant before the heat and humidity kick in later on and it's just

nice.

[riverofrainbows]

Tipps for seasonal depression:

Get as much light as possible. I have fairy lights around my window to compensate for the lack of sunlight coming through it

Consider getting a daylight lamp, or a light alarm. I have an alarm, and it can also just turn on the brightest light permanently. I put it in front of my window too sometimes

Consider going on walks/outside for a minute at noon, to get maximum daylight in your eyes

Aggressively romanticise autumn. Bake apple pie, get a pumpkin spice latte, go to a pumpkin patch, make an autumn playlist, have a cozy scarf/jacket etc you look forward to wearing, buy teas and make yourself some tea, eat soups, bake and eat cookies, go on walks, collect and press some leaves, go all out for halloween if you like it, make horror movie nights if you like those, put cinnamon and vanilla in everything possible,....

I mean full on Instagram Aesthetic if you look for ideas, don't care if it's cringy. I like to change my lockscreen to autumn pictures too. I don't even really like pumkpins, but it's mandated pumkpin season now, so let's try it out. Try out things even if you don't know if you'd like them. It's about enrichment in the enclosure.

As part of the point above: decorate for autumn, and later for winter (if you celebrate also for christmas, or halloween, or any other holiday you might celebrate)

Make plans you are excited about (this can include the autumn activities™ too), at least two every month. Better if it's more. You don't even have to do all of the plans (unless that is sth that makes you frustrated and adds to your depression), just making them and doing some of them helps (you do need to do some of them tho, thats important)

The plans part is especially important for when it's still dark and cold but, if you are of the same background as me, all the fun stuff like autumn and christmas is over. So when there isn't really a holiday or any general activities, but it's still winter, whenever that may happen for you. Keep making plans for things, and try doing those plans. Start or get back into a hobby, get obsessed with a new show.

A generally helpful point: follow some hashtags, such as autumn aesthetics hashtags, cute animal hashtags, art hashtags or channels, etc. Enrichment and decoration of your enclosure. Do it even if you think its stupid, you can totally just scroll over them, that's still enough that it works

Check your vitamin D and B levels if you can. Vitamin D is often a factor in seasonal depression, and vitamin Bs can help with energy too.

Btw, this is not meant to convey some toxic positivity agenda. You don't need to suppress negative emotions or pretend to not be depressed. This is mostly measures to help against the seasonal depression part of what you might feel, and to help make it less. Because having seasonal depression on top of everything else is frankly just rude, and these tipps helped me in the past, so i hope they can help other people too.

The main points are enrichment in your enclosure, compensating for the lack of sunlight, and trying to associate positive emotions with this time too, at least a little bit, to balance the negative ones out some.

You can treat my list as some sort of experiment, or like me try to gaslight the seasonal depression by going "I can't hear you over my apple pie bitch". All up to you. This is also meant as a toolkit. Do as little or much as you want, see what ideas work for you or what you have the energy for.

Best wishes and good luck to all my fellow seasonal depression people

[iwavibes]

first off i’d like to say i rlly love your writing🥺🥺 and i want to thank you for sharing your work with us!!! ive read ur whole masterlist and it’s all so so good! i’m obsessed w pretty setters 🥰 i was mayhaps .... wondering if you could write something maid cafe related w either suga, kageyama or kenma? 😳 u don’t have to obviously KDNDKNDKS anyways hope you have a good day today!!!

AAAAA IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE PRETTY SETTERS SO FAR!! you're so sweet omg lemme give u a kith this made my whole day ���💞 it's 11PM rn so this might be a bit of a mess 😭 fingers crossed that my tired brain won't fuck this up 🤞 finished this at around 12AM NSKSJSKM i hope you like this anon 💕💗

hq reacting to y/n working at a maid cafe

---sugawara, kageyama & kenma

sugawara koushi

sugawara is very adventurous like he'd be all out on trying new stuff

may it be food, hobbies, anything.

man is a knitting legend and he only went to one (1) lesson 😩

king shit 👑✊

so when noya suddenly dragged him to a maid cafe, he didn't think much of it

he was already used to his friend's pervy tendencies

why he was hanging out with him on his own was a mystery

he would quickly scan the menu, eyeing the pictures of cute food along with whatever dish sounds appetizing enough

his concentration was cut off, however, when he heard a familiar voice

even tho you purposefully raise your voice up a notch this man would still know that it's you

he'd blush furiously as soon as his eyes meet yours and seeing you in a cute maid outfit really did not help his case

you'd freeze as soon as you processed the identities of the customers in front of you mostly at suga

noya would eye the two of you knowingly, a somewhat proud smirk on his face

"NOYA I TOLD YOU NOT TO TELL ANYBODY"

"really??? must have slipped my mind."

you wanted to kill him

you would try to get back into character very awkwardly if i might add and suga would just stare at you in disbelief

was this why you always rejected him whenever he asked you out?

my boy would be having a whole ass epiphany and now he's seeing you in a whole new light

"and you, senpai?"

still, even with all these new information, he can keep his cool and tell you what he wanted smoothly.

after that, everything would be going smoothly

but then, as time passes you notice that sugawara hasn't left yet and noya is nowhere to be seen.

by the time your shift ends, he'd stand up from his seat and jog towards you with a smile

"since your shift is over, is it okay for me to take you out? or atleast walk you home?"

and tbh how could you say no to that

"you know, you could've told me that you were working during the weekends. now i feel bad for trying to keep you away from your job." he said as he walked you home.

"well... working outside school campus is strictly prohibited and i didn't want to take any chances. only one of my friends know about it and noya only found out by accident." you explained. "i'm sorry if i made you feel like i didn't trust you."

"it's okay! i totally understand why you didn't tell me. at least now i know when you get off work, this way i can walk you home everyday." he beamed.

you feel your heart pound in your chest at his words, heat slowly spreading across your cheeks as you look at him in shock.

"that is, if it's okay with you?" he stopped walking before turning his body to you. politely awaiting your answer. you nodded your head slowly and sugawara can't help but smile wider.

"you're very admirable, y/n."

kageyama tobio

unlike sugawara, kageyama is a very awkward dude

he lost a bet against hinata and now it was time for his punishment

kageyama may be the king of the court and he may look like the coolest man alive whenever he's on the court but thats about it

everything else, this poor boy is really clueless and awkward someone save him

so while they were walking around town, hinata trying to figure out what to make kageyama do, they passed by the maid cafe you work out

believe me when i tell you a light bulb suddenly sprouted from the tangerine's head

all he needed to do was go inside the cafe and buy some milk

simple stuff

but you should remember that this guy is so awkward and unaware that it can be painful just to look at him try to fit in

and soon kageyama finds himself walking to the cafe, money in hand, as he tried psyching himself out as he steps nearer to the entrance

'i can do this'

'i defeated oikawa so this will just be a piece of cake'

'boke hinata boke'

when he does enter the cafe, he opened the door too hard, making all the customers and employees turn to the sound

this boy would be glaring as he walked to the nearest empty seat

i kid you not everyone is terrified of this boy rn

and he's embarrassed enough as is because of how loud he opened the door and now everyone was looking at him 😭

baby just wants some milk 😩

it gets worse once he sees the person that will be serving him

bc wow have you seen yourself???? you're fucking hot bRO

stutters. A LOT.

and you can't help but to smirk at his flustered state.

"uhhh... m-milk please?" this was the guy everyone is scared of? you wanted to ask your co workers. it's just kageyama. the boy in your class who failed that one exam and practically begged you to tutor him. this?? this is who you're scared of?

you raised a brow teasingly at his state. "of course! would that be all, master?"

this guy literally chokes on his own spit while shaking his head frantically. you chuckled before walking away to get his drink.

"here you are, sir." you say as you settled the glass on his table. taking the money from his outstretched hand. no words. he just wants you to take the money and save him from further embarrassment.

"you know, you may be scary on the court but you're actually very adorable, tobio-chan."

ERROR kageyama.exe has stopped working

kozume kenma

if you guys thought kageyama was bad then... you right kenma is just behind him by a scratch

unlike his fellow setter, kenma can still form words when he saw you

why was he in a maid cafe in the first place? simple;; kuroo

it was one of the rare instances where his best friend actually managed to get him out of the house

and now he's salty

has a permanent frown etched on his face the whole walk to the cafe >:(

and kuroo would be talking away, unbothered by his friend's attitude and now here they were

"you know i've always wanted to come here. i heard they serve really tasty milkshakes."

"kuroo."

"yeah?"

"shut up."

he'd start playing on his phone while kuroo scolds him about how unhealthy it was to play games this much

but kenma remains unbothered

however, the moment he sees you, boi is already lost

he'd stare at you for a long time until you hear the small sfx indicating that he died.

he couldn't care less tho as he pocketed his phone inside his hoodie

kuroo quirked a brow at his friend before turning to you

"y/n! i didn't know you worked here."

"im trying to buy the latest installment of [insert random game here] so i need the money."

wow,, can you be any more perfect?

rn kenma's brain is already whirring with thoughts as he pictured this as one of his roleplay games

y/n says: so what will you be having?

choices: [banana] [latte] [ps4]

he picks the latte

"coming right up!"

and for the first time that day, kenma smiles

"oya?" kuroo spoke up the moment he sees his friend's upturned lips. "what's this?"

his face turned into a scowl again as he glared at his friend. "none of your business."

kuroo smirked, already scheming before standing up. "i'm gonna go to the restroom. watch our food while i'm gone."

"it's not like it's going anywhere." kenma huffed but his raven haired friend was already walking away.

"here are your orders, kenma." you announce, setting the food down on the table. "let me know if you need anything else."

you were just about to walk back to the counter when you suddenly felt a hand stop you by your wrist. you turned around towards a sheepish looking kenma. his eyes landing on every where but you.

"i have that game you're saving up. if you want, we can play it together. it's a multiplayer game right? i haven't started on it because kuroo sucks at shooting games." kenma's voice has always been soft and very quiet. some would've found it hard to understand what he just said but to you, you could hear him as clear as day.

"sure, we can play it this friday if you want?"

kenma nodded, finally lifting his head up to look at you.

"see you on friday then."

[write-orflight]

Trouble: Chapter 2

*Gif not mine*

Pairings: HotchxReader

Prologue  Chapter 1

Rating: M

Words: 3K

Warnings: Basic witch stuff, angst, mentions of child birth, mentions of near death

Request: OPEN/CLOSED

Summary: After Haley’s passing, Aaron Hotchner has lost the light in his eyes. He seems to find it it the most unlikely of places, an occult themed coffee shop ran by a witch.

A.N: Tarot, wicca, and crystal information is very secondhand if you see any inaccuracies, no you don’t. If you are a witch tho and want to help and be nice to me enter my ask box please, I’m annoying my friend too much.

Chapter 2: God, don't let me lose my mind

The deeper into autumn you got the more busy the shop was. 

Halloween was a big money grabber for your shop. People loved to come to the shop around that time because your shop offered such ‘spooky’ feel, as the hipster who came in that morning would say. You hated that. Halloween was one of your favorite holidays simply because the veil between the natural and supernatural was so thin it was the best time for spells and charms but what you didn’t like was people and baby witches asking you about certain spells or how to commune with spirits just so they can do something “extra spooky” for whatever parties they were having for the season. Consultations were such easy money though so you’d never turn them away but your answer was always the same, that Spirits are not toys and that if they are going to invite them it better be serious and for the right intentions otherwise they might not leave. 

Despite it being your favorite season, It didn’t make you less annoyed. 

“If I have to make another Pumpkin flavored whatever and tell a sorority girl not to invoke a demon in her house, I’m going to scream.” Silena says to you as you enter the shop, Artemis in tow. Your sitter had to take an exam so you had to watch her for the first 2 hours of your shift. Artie, knowing the drill by now, tries to crawl up to the bar stool. You watch her for a second, smiling her little legs before taking pity on her and hoisting her up. She immediately pulls a coloring book and crayons out her bag, before working diligently in silence. You kiss her temple before walking behind the counter, tying your apron on. 

“You had another consultation today?” You asked.  

“Pfft, it wasn’t even that. She asked me while ordering her coffee, though I should’ve charged her for that dumbass question.” You look at her pointed, nodding your head towards your child who repeats everything. Silly winces “Sorry, but still. If this is how halloween is going to be, you’re probably going to have to do some balancing spells.” 

You rolled your eyes. “Exactly what I need, more work.” 

“What’s a dumbass?” Artie pipes up from her perch on the stool. 

“Something you are not and shouldn’t repeat unless you want your mom mad at me.” Silly says, reaching across the counter to ruffle her hair. 

The doorbell of the shop rings and the very man who’s occupied your mind these past couple of months steps in. Aaron Hotchner was one of your favorite customers despite not talking very much, he’d make small talk while you made his order which you found yourself doing slower than it would normally take you, just to get a little bit more of his time, he’d leave a tip in the jar and be on his way always leaving you with a small smile that you always immediately returned with a wide one. You tried to stop yourself from getting attached but here you were, an adult woman who had a crush on a customer who probably didn’t think about you when he left the shop. 

You’d never seen him on a weekend though and frankly you didn’t know if you could handle seeing him like this again, he wore dark blue jeans, a black belt and a black t-shirt that fit a little too well over his broad chest you couldn’t help but staring at his arms that you’d never seen on display like this. You knew for a fact(well you hoped at least) he’d have no issue picking you up or pinning you down. 

Now’s not the time, y/n… you think. 

“Hey, you.” You greet, flirtatiously. You’ve been trying not to flirt with him, you really were but sometimes you couldn’t help it. It was your personality. “Didn’t think I’d see you in here. On a weekend, no less.” 

“Yea, decided to stop for coffee before heading to my sister in law’s. Can I have my usual and an Americano for her?” He asks 

“You got it.” You wink before starting to work. Silly gives you a knowing look which you brush off. Hotch takes a seat at the bar a few seats away from your daughter who looks up at him. 

“Hi!” She says excitedly. “I’m Artie.” 

“Hi Artie, I’m Aaron.” He looks around. “Are your parents around?” You look up. You’d forgotten to mention you had a kid to Hotch, which would probably explain his confusion of a random child sitting alone. 

“My mama’s right there, silly.” She laughs. “Mama?” She says you look up automatically from the milk you’re frothing. 

“Yes, bean?” You say. 

“Can I have a brownie?”  

“Well, I don’t know. Did you finish the addition tables I asked you to do?” She shakes her head at you. “Well, how about you do that then we’ll see if it’s brownie time, deal?” She nods, fast while pulling her math homework out of her bag. Hotch watches the interaction confused but with a slight smile. 

“I didn’t know you had a kid.” He says 

“There’s a lot you don’t know about me, Gus.” You say, calling him by the nickname you affectionately gave him your first meeting. “But yes I do, that’s Artemis.” 

He nods, knowingly. “How old?” 

“Well, I don’t know. How old are you, bean?” You say. 

“I’m six!” She says, holding up 5 fingers, you grab her other hand to extend her other index finger too so the number was actually 6. 

“Really? You’re not 16 yet?” Silly asks, ruffling her hair. “I thought you were driving us home tonight?” 

Artie shakes her head. “Mama says I can’t drive yet.” 

“Between you and me kid, your mama shouldn’t be on the road either.” You swat at her. 

Aaron gives a small chuckle at the display in front of him. But he has to ask the burning question in his head. “Her dad��“ 

“Not in the picture.” You cut off. “Like not even in the same gallery.” 

Hotch nods understandably as you put his drinks in the carrier for him. He looks at you confused when you add a 3rd cup. 

“Hot chocolate.” You say. “For your son. I imagine that’s where you’re going. To pick him up from your sister?”  

“How did you know I had a son?” He asks. 

“Oh, I just used one of my witchy spells to find out information on you.” You say jokingly, but he looks at you with mild horror. “I’m kidding, Spencer told me.” 

He nods. “Thank you, y/n.” 

“No problem, come back to see me?” 

“Always.” He says, offering you a small secret smile before leaving. You can’t help the dreamy look you give his retreating back. 

“Are you coming back to earth anytime soon?” Sil says, shaking her head. “You got it bad, kid.” 

“Pfft, no I don’t.” You say turning to clean up the mess you just made. 

“I don’t understand why you just won’t ask him out.” 

“He’s healing, Sil.” You say, shrugging. “And I don’t want to push him into something he’s obviously not ready for.” 

Not to mention you also didn’t think you were ready for it. 

———————————————

On Halloween day, you get a visit from one of your favorite customers 

“Pennywise!” You say to chipper blonde women who strolled in she was wearing a orange and black dress with little jack-O-lantern earrings that you had gotten her the beginning of month. You move your hair back to show her the Ouija board pointer earrings she had gotten you in return. Penelope Garcia couldn’t just accept a gift without giving one in return. 

“Hey Y/N, how are you this ole hallow’s eve?”

“It’s Halloween and a full moon tonight.” You say excitedly. “It’s like witch Christmas.” 

“I don’t know about that but I am happy for you. Can I have a pumpkin spice latte and since I’m such a good friend an Americano with extra sugar for the good doctor?” She asks. 

“You got it, Pen.” You say before starting her order. “Heading into work now?” 

“Sure am! Hopefully there’s not a gruesome murder so I’ll be able to spend my Halloween having fun.” Penelope says. “You got any plans?” 

“Other than taking Artie Trick or Treating and charging some crystals in the full moon, no.” 

“Come on, no wild parties? no hexing beautiful men into falling in love with you?” Penny asks. You laugh loudly, shaking your head. “Man, maybe the life of a witch was more exciting in my head.” 

“Yea, you did.” You laugh. “I’m basically just a cool rock collector plus love spells, so not my thing.” 

“So there’s such a thing?” 

“Yea there’s love spells. I don’t believe in using them. I think love itself is it’s own powerful being. It shouldn’t be manipulated with, if someone was meant to love me they would.” 

“Speaking of love and love spells…” Silena pipes up from the display case she was loading pastries she just made into. “Penelope, how’s your boss?” You glare over at her. 

“Hotch?” Penny asks looking between the two of you before smirking at you. “Why do you want to know?” 

“I don’t.” You say at the same time as Silena says. “She has a Texas sized crush on him.” 

Garcia practically squeals at that. “Let me set you up please.” 

“No, Penny.” You say, immediately 

“Why not?” Her and Silly say at the same time. 

“Because… I don’t know didn’t his wife just die months ago, it’s hardly appropriate for me to try swoop in.” 

“Ex-wife. They were already long divorced before she died.” Penelope adds 

“Still! It’s not appropriate.” You say. 

“So what? You’re just going to keep making him free coffee until he realizes you're into him?” 

“Yup” you say adding the 3rd cup to Garcia’s carrier. “Give that to Grumpy for me please.” Garcia opens her mouth to say something but you just hold up your hand cutting her off 

“Fine.” She says, grabbing the carrier. “Only because I have to go to work though, this conversation isn’t over.”  

“Yes it is.” You call after her. 

——————————————

You were back in the shop. Artie was tuckered out after a long night of trick or treating and crashing from her sugar high so you decided to charge some of your crystals and do some balancing spells, knowing for a fact a lot of teenagers did stupid shit to upset the balance. 

As you were lighting the candles and incense, you heard a knock at the door. You were long closed so who could possibly need something right now? You look out the window and Aaron is standing there. You’re confused but you let him in anyway. 

“Hey Grumpy, what’re you doing here?” 

“I’m sorry I didn’t know you were closed, I guess I’ve never been here at night. I’ll go. I'm sorry for bothering you.” He says turns to go but you grab his arm to stop him. 

“Gus… it’s almost midnight, no business is open. You’re here because there’s obviously something upsetting you so I’m not just going to let you leave.” You all but push him into barstool. “Now like I said it’s almost midnight so there is something important I need to do so if you’ll sit tight for like 2 minutes, I’ll make us coffee.” 

Hotch obliges, sitting silently watching you as you lit some candles on the altar you kept in the shop. You placed the honey cake you had made earlier in the day on the altar before whispering. 

“Thank you to the patron, Artemis, Great goddess of Moon and Magic. Mistress of deer and owl. Be thou my guide and Inspiration. Teach me Thy mysteries and lead me in thy ways.” You stand and turn back to Hotch who is watching you intensely. “Sorry about that, midnight is her favorite time. Coffee?” You ask, He nods as you move behind the counter. 

“Can I ask what it is you just did?” Hotch ask. 

“That?” He nods. “It’s a full moon so since Artemis is my patron goddess, it’s best to leave a sacrifice to stay in her favor.” You shrug. He looks at you like you're crazy but you're used to that look. “Don’t look at me like that, it’s no different then some catholic practices. In fact, Christians often stole from pagan practices, and only one is just considered ‘taboo’ now.” 

“Is that why you named your child Artemis, because she’s your Patron?” He asks. 

“Actually, Artemis is my Patron because of Artie.” You say, he looks at you as if asking you to continue. “I wasn’t always like this.” You say gesturing to yourself and the shop. “My parents are pastors and for a long time I was this faith devout christian girl. But I got pregnant out of wedlock, my parents disowned me and I was looking for something to turn to. I met Silena and she introduced me to Wicca, and said whoever my Patron was through meditation and study, They’ll reveal themselves to me. So I went months, meditating daily, and still nothing was working. Then I went into labor, and everything was going wrong. I thought, this was my punishment from god for not only getting pregnant without marriage but turning to witchcraft. I had to have an emergency C-section. And when I was on the operating table, I almost died, Artie almost died. I started to see these images of deer and boar running through the forest. And finally when I came back to, and I could hear my baby crying, the first thing I saw when my eyes opened was the full moon out the window.” You sigh, sliding a cup to Hotch before moving from behind the counter to take a seat next to him. “That’s when I realized the goddess had saved me and my child. And while Artemis prefers virgin patronage, and that ship had long sailed past back then. I figured naming my child after her was the next best thing.”  

“That’s a beautiful story, Y/N.” He says, looking at you sincerely.   

“Thank you, and since you’re not running for the hills, why don’t you tell me why you really knocked at my door at midnight.” 

“It’s just…” He starts, clearing his throat. “Tonight was the first ‘major’ holiday without Haley. And I tried to take Jack’s mind off it, make it fun but it was like this looming weight above us. That it wasn’t the same without her and that it never would be. And I was upset and just wanted to take a walk but I guess my feet carried me here.” He shrugged. 

“Well I’m glad you’re here grumpy. And you’re healing you need to give yourself time--” 

“I don’t have time!” He snaps. You flinch back a bit, having never heard his raised voice. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to yell. It’s just-I don’t have time to heal. I have to be there for Jack.”

“Who’s there for you, Aaron?” You ask. He looks at you confused. You hardly ever call him by his name. It's either grumpy or gus or a combination of the two. Never by his actual name, he hated how much he liked how it sounded coming from your lips. “Do you know what a rock tumbler is?” you ask, he shakes his head confused where you’re going with this. You run behind the counter to retrieve the box you had dug through the very first night you met.

“Well a rock tumbler is a device you put rocks into. Rocks that have eroded, rocks that have trekked the earth, rocks that have been to hell and back. And what you do is you put them in this device with a little bit of water and you wait. Days, weeks, months all the while this device is just spinning, you don’t see what’s happening on the inside but after a while, when the time is right, you get these beautiful lustrous stones.” You say, showing him the box. “Healing is the same way, others don’t see you working. But in the end, they’ll see the result. And you’ll feel the result too. But if you don’t take that step you don’t end up with gems like these. You just end up with an eroded dingy rock.” You look up at Hotch and he’s tearing up slightly. Your heart melts. “Do you want a hug?” you say. 

“You don’t have to--” 

You cut him off. “No one on earth gives hugs because they have to. I want to give you a hug if you want one. So do you want a hug?” 

He nods, fastly. So you stand, he follows suit and allows you to pull him down into a full embrace. Your arms around his neck and shoulders, he envelopes you fully into his torso, arms tight around your waist. You sigh, content. Before shaking yourself out of it. This wasn’t about you. No matter how right it felt. 

After a minute or so you break apart. You look him in the eyes and he’s staring back at you in what feels like admiration. You clear your throat. “Can I give you something?” you ask.

“Is it another crystal?” He asked back. 

“Yes, it is.” You rummage through the box before pulling out the one you needed. “This is Aragonite, it’s good for healing old wounds and building emotional strength. Now I can gift you this but you have to activate it yourself. Even if you don’t believe it, I feel like it’s good words to hear yourself say anyway.” You grab his left hand, sliding the crystal into it. He looks into your eyes. “Now say, I release past wounds and embrace resilience.” 

Hotch sighs. “I release past wounds and embrace resilience.” He then slides the stone in his pocket. Before grabbing your hand again. “Thank you, Y/N” 

“Anytime, Grumpy.” You say.  

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[riceccakes]

Earth, Wind, and Coffee: Chapter One Analysis

helloooooooo :) welcome to my chapter analyses for my fic Earth, Wind, and Coffee. here, i’m just going to be breaking down my writing process, choices, and fun stuff, among other stuff as well. you can read this after you’ve finished the first chapter (i’ve excluded spoilers!) or you could read all 45k words and then come back to these one by one. either way, i’m v excited to be doing this so i hope you guys like it too. lets begin with chapter one, shall we :)

some fun stuff before we start!

every chapter title is modeled after the fic title!

you may have noticed that there are two center line dividers in the chapter(and every chapter after), meaning there are three sections to a chapter. going off of this, i thought it might be cool to title each chapter based on the sections, either of its main topic or my favorite part of it. so, chapter one’s first section is korrasami meeting (hence, Meetings), section two is where i introduced Artist!Korra, and i really love Artist!Korra so naturally i had to name the chapter about her (and the thing that brings korrasami closer, Sketches), and the third section is where their friendship is solidified (i think i achieved this by giving their numbers to each other, but i also just thought it was a cute scene, Phone Number Exchanges) and now we put it all together and get: Meetings (Earth), Sketches (Wind), and Phone Number Exchanges (and Coffee) (pretty cool right??? *wink wink*) the same formula is used to title every chapter afterwards. i usually suck at chapter titles but i thought this was a super cute thing to do and it ended up working fairly naturally :)

i started this fic on sept 23, 2020. chapter one didn’t get posted until oct 15, 2020

so basically, i sat with this first chapter for almost a month before posting (which actually was a good thing, i’ll tell you why later!) i really wanted this first chapter to stand out and be lowkey perfect, so i kept writing and rewriting and rewriting my rewrites. then you know, i’d start reading and then edit and then edit the edits; it’s a vicious cycle but one that i’m used to. i finally decided to post the fic when i read the first chapter through and thought “yep, this is it” 

i was inspired by the fic it’s such a gorgeous sight to see you in the middle of the night by softshocks

mostly for the idea of having a full-length fic in only three chapters. buuut, that was also one of the first korrasami fics i read after finishing lok on netflix and i remember thinking “damn, now THIS is how you do an au” character progression in the story is great and not once during the fic did i feel bored or in a lull. i really wanted to do the same with my fic and tried my best

now, lets get into the chapter itself.

sentence structure:

i used sentence structure to (hopefully) show that something is off with korra. we don’t know what yet, asami chalks it up to working through the night, but just like the summary states, there’s more going on here with our new favorite barista, it’s just a matter of what. even with this being in asami’s pov, i wanted to show a sort of disconnect between her and korra. let me show you an example

“Asami smiles warmly, excited to try the drink. She thanks Korra and watches as the girl nods lightly and walks back over to the counter. She begins cleaning the espresso machine. Asami takes a sip from the mug, lightly moaning from the taste. She feels Korra’s eyes peer up at her for a moment. Their eyes meet and Asami blushes, putting the mug and her head down. She opens the binder on the right side, pulling out the pen tucked into the inside cover. She thumbs through to the next clean page and begins squinting at her sloppy notes, rewriting them neatly once they’re deciphered.“

i’ve italicized sentences that, even while in asami’s pov, describe korra’s actions. in comparison to the sentences around it, the two italicized sentences are rather plain and simple. they’re very subject-predicate - “She (subject) begins cleaning the espresso machine (predicate)” you have your noun/subject and verb/predicate, give or take some words for proper english and action. asami’s sentences are more complex. colored in red is what i’ve donned as my classic form of writing, which basically takes two sentences - “She opens the binder on the right side. She pulls out the pen tucked into the inside cover.” and smushes them together by keeping the first sentence as is and taking away the subject of the second sentence and tacking on an -ing to its verb. i’m not sure how writing sentences like this started but i feel like i always come back to it because it gives sentences just that lil bit of edge. the sentences are not super simple but they’re also not super hard to understand. it’s a nice balance of simplicity and complexity, in my opinion.

now in bold is the combination of korra’s - “Their eyes meet and Asami blushes.” and asami’s - “Asami blushes, putting the mug and her head down” sentence forms. it’s a nice little indication that even with this disconnect from korra, these two girls are going to come together and make magic.

this play with sentence structure pretty much continues throughout the rest of the chapter, have fun finding them :))

next on my list is what i brought up earlier! i saved this lil first chapter in my back pocket for almost a month and you know what, it was a really good thing i did. for one thing, asami’s original “tormentor” we’ll call him, was going to be tahno. the same idea of this character being a soccer player was kept but i changed the character from tahno to iroh for a number of reasons:

1) iroh’s connections to the fire nation throne were a biiiig thing in me deciding to change him. 

i loved iroh ii in lok, i thought he was super cool, but we needed someone in this story to be an obstacle for asami to face. we already have her dad hiroshi, and some of you may be thinking “isn’t that already enough??” and for a while i thought so too, but we needed a vehicle to show how hiroshi is an obstacle asami is facing. and i decided to do that with iroh.

2) i really wanted said character to be a conceded jerk and who better than a well known heir to a nation’s throne? (it really went to his head)

tahno was really already a jerk and pretty ruthless character in lok, which is why he came to mind first. and i’d had him only be a soccer star but that was cause for explaining how he and hiroshi have connections. i was struggling for a bit of how to tie the two together but ultimately realized, “hey hiroshi is a business man, he’s bound to do business in the fire nation. and iroh is from the fire nation, he’s prince! he could be a key factor in pulling strings to get more business there” and so that is why i changed tahno to iroh

3) it doesn’t stop there though! at first, iroh was only son of the firelord and soccer star mvp. he was in asami’s stats class but that was it. i realized he needed a bigger role to have connections with hiroshi, which is why he’s now a business major too

this reason is why it’s great i waited!! had i been an eager beaver and posted whatever the first draft of the chapter was, i would’ve been facing some challenges later on, so thanks past me for giving future me some help! this was the perfect way for iroh to be a conceded dick who’s in asami’s life even tho she doesn’t want him to be. i added on the bit about him joining future industries in section two of the chapter and was suuuper glad i figured it out because it helped me envision the rest of the story.

honorable mentions:

korra was going to be wearing a tee shirt when korrasami met but i changed this 1) so asami could leave up ✨korra’s muscles✨ to her imagination and 2) because gloves are a regularly used trope that someone has something to hide. i couldn’t really find a way to give korra gloves but i thought the next best thing would be covering up, so now she wears a sweater.

i googled different types of coffee. The Avatar is a latte macchiato, it’s a play on an espresso macchiato. espresso is added to milk rather than milk to espresso and features more foam than hot milk. i used this one cause i’ve always enjoyed seeing foam art and thought making aang’s classic arrow in foam would be cool. Aang’s Special is a play on his favorite treat, egg tarts. this one is a vietnamese drink and is exactly as i describe in the fic.

earth, wind, and coffee is very much a pun. one so many different levels though: earth, wind, and fire, esteemed multi-genre singing group, known for songs like september and fantasy. earth, wind (air), and fire are elements that are bended in the atla universe and while this isn’t a bending au, it’s still pretty cool. and now earth, wind, and coffee, it’s a coffee shop au. i mean come on, so many layers, i love myself for creating it but hate myself for how much i love myself for creating it.

anything i would’ve wanted to change?

honestly, no. i think because i’d already did all of the changes before publishing, but also cause any time i read through the first chapter, i just feel satisfied. i achieved all of my goals in that first chapter about setting up what would happen and it’s also just a good read.

have any questions? let me know! wanna comment your favorite things from chapter one? do it !! interact with me !! i demand it.

thanks for reading, i really liked doing this :)) (even tho more than once my writing for this got deleted and it was big sad because i’d gotten a good portion done but whatever we’re still here)

[that-little-zebunny]

can you do a bucky x reader social media ay where reader is all happy go lucky and smiley and bucky is all stoic and “emo” for lack of a better word, and they’re secretly dating and the other avengers find out through social media?

Hi! I love this request 😍 thank you so much for sending it. I'm so sorry for the wait and hope you'll like this. Kisses, Zephy.

Warning: Emotional mess (Bucky hating himself) T.T, Cursing, Angst and some fluff.

Not a Secret anymore (Bucky x Reader Social media AU)

You had been working at the Stark tower for years now. A lot had happened, you've witness lots of fighting and almost end of the world stuff but what you're not prepared for was getting promoted as Tony's Tech Apprentice. He had seen your potential and took you in to teach you the ups and down in his company.

You also started working closely with the team and you got to know all of them nicely and being an energy ball that you are they accepted you with open arms.

But what took your interests the most is the new member, Bucky. He's a very quiet person and would always choose to be alone. You've observed him a lot and one day youve decided that you'll fill his life with life.

And that you did, after months of annoying him, he end up liking you and you started dating. (Coz who will say no to that hot stuff?), Sadly tho Bucky still have problems opening up to others and that's where you've decided that as for now you'll keep your relationship privately.

But sometimes you just want to brag about him to the world.

Hence you posting some lowkey photos with him.

You were walking at the tower to go to the lab when Nat came and walked beside you.

"So, I saw your post. I didn't know you're dating someone now, do you want me to do a background check on him?" She smirked your way. Eyes serious. You gulp nervously and scratched your nape.

"Thanks for the offer and concern Nat. But we're good." You made a thumbs up sign. "I know him very well." You laugh awkwardly walking fast waving her goodbye.

Well that was scary, you thought. Knowing Natasha and her spy-ness even Bucky won't be able to hide from her. Yaykss!! Lost in your own thought you didn't see the person in front of you bumping to his hard chest.

“Oopf-” before you fell down to the floor two strong-arm scooped you up back to a very familiar chest.

“Careful, Bab- I...I mean Y/N...I’m sorry, are you alright?” Bucky cleared his throat, eyes wide as he nervously look up at Steve. You giggled at the flushed look on Bucky’s face from almost spilling one of his tons of endearment for you. Having a weird grin in your face you nodded and step back from his hold but not before stealthily rubbing your hands on his hard abs. Those are your babies!!

“I should be asking you that Buck, are you okay? you look bothered?” Steve asked with a questioning look in his face.

“I-I...I’m-” Bucky stuttered. Not wanting your man to be in more hot seat as he is now you flexed your arms in front of the two super soldiers.

“Aw Capt, I’m very much fine, I’m strong, look! Must have startled Bucky boo a bit there. Sorry I wasn't looking where I’m walking.” you showed a peace sigh before you winked at Bucky and went on you way towards yours and Tony’s shared Lab.

----

“Y/N, is such an energetic person. You should stick with her more. She might be able to help you loosen up a bit.” Steve jokes as they continue on their walk towards the tower’s Kitchen.

“Yeah, she’s like a bright light that envelopes everyone with warmth.” Bucky said with a small smile in his lips. His mind is now full of your beautiful face. How you always makes him smile and laugh so easily. Even getting frustrated because of you seems like one of the greatest experiences he had for a long while now.

He can’t help but be worried that anytime now you’ll see how unworthy he is and leave him. Because who is he really? a broken old man with so many dead bodies behind him. Even though you would always tell him that it's not his fault, it was still him who took those people’s lives. It was his hands that pulled the trigger. his face those people pleaded their lives with. It was all him. Sighing he stood up and told Steve he doesn't feel like eating breakfast and went back to his room.

He lay on his back tears flowing from his eyes metal arm stretch towards the ceiling. It was this hand...this weapon. He doesnt deserve to touch such pure and delicate person like you. He'll just put a stain on your beautiful heart. A sob went past his lips as he thinks of you, He loves you so much and would die if he loose you.

He was almost asleep when he heards a low buzzing sound near his window. He looked up and saw your red and green drone that you used to play around with. In it is a note.

"I went back to the kitchen to ask Steve something and he told me you didn't eat breakfast. There's an address behind this note go there. NOW!" -YN

Scratching the back of his head Bucky got up and went to change into a red henley and made sure he is wearing his gloves and cap.

----

He went inside of a very cozy cafe looking for you ignoring the strange looks sent his way.

Is that the winter soldier?

Why is he here?

Is he really sane now?

I'm scared of him...

And so many words he choose to ignore and went back looking for you but you're not there? Where could you be and why did you made him go here? He let out a defeated sigh.

His phone vibrated and he pulled it out to see a text you sent.

Bucky smirked at his girl's tricks. What is she planning to do right now? Making sure that a genuine smile is plastered at his face he patiently waits for you.

That is until a server put down a slice of cake and a latte infront of him, before he got the chance to say he didn't order it he saw the note written in the cake.

For the best boyfriend ever!

It says in the most messy writing a cake ever experienced.

Tears forming in his eyes he slowly looked up at you with that silly server costume and a wide & proud grin that he loves so much.

"There's the smile." You said winking at him.

He cant believe how lucky he is that you choose to love him. Not being able to stop himself he pulled you near him and held your face.

"I'm so fucking lucky to have you, Sweet cheeks. I love you so much!" Bucky half growl shouted before he pulled your face down to give you an intense kiss. Sighing, you give in opening up your lips to taste more of him not caring about the crowds that are witnessing everything. Not even caring the flash sounds of camera. Nothing else matters but Bucky and your love for him.

This man that had been hurting for so long but still have so much love to give and offers. You can never see him as someone you should be scared off oven though you know deep inside thats what he feels because you see him, the real him and you love him so much.

----

"So...." Nat said with a strict look in her face hands on her wait.

"A...ahm..." You stutter, you can feel everyone's eyes on your direction. Your forehead sweating from nervousness. "S-surprise?" You cringe while looking specially at Nat.

"Why the hell did you guys hide from us that you're dating!?" Sam said not being able to contain his excitement. "And here we are trying to plot a plan to get the two of you to date? Damn Barnes aren't you smooth man!" He said laughing so hard.

"Well, it happens and we just thought we we're not yet ready to announce it." Bucky said looking at you with a small smile and you smiled back at him.

"yeah..." You agree.

"Well, now you have no choice. The whole world now knows that the Winter soldier that people are scared of is smitten and is not scary at all. They even made a ship name for the two of you." Nat said shaking her head as she show a IG post with the two of you. Well...all the hiding only needed one stolen picture to end.

You lovingly squished Bucky's hand and he brought yours to his lips and whispers "I love you so much doll. I will never hide you ever again."

*Images are all grabbed from google, if one is yours feel free to DM me for proper removal or credit. Thank you so much 💗

Bonus part

[brainyraccoons]

Top surgery journal (long post)

12th Jan: went to bed at 10pm, prepped an overnight bag and other stuff for the hospital

13th Jan: breakfast at 6:45am bc no food 6hrs before surgery. 13:10 SURGERY. early at the hospital, was checked by the nurses, saw my surgeon, zond out four breaths after getting anesthesia. got super nauseated after being woken up, threw up 3 times between getting to my room at around 6pm and sleep past 11pm. second anti-nausea drug kicked in around 11pm, it worked, hallelujah. other than that, had two doses of paracetamol, one straight after surgery, 2nd past 10pm. kept asking @palempath​ to give me water by saying “I can have a little water,” and her replying, “as a treat”. my baby sis is the sweetest <3 slept for like 5 hrs, not a fan of sleeping seated.

14th Jan: woken up at 6:40am, given paracetamol and breakfast, saw the nurse, saw my surgeon, everything feels fine. caught an uber home at 10am, my mom and sis came to pick me up. watched Witcher with fam, kept getting up to walk every hour or so to prevent blood clots. taking paracetamol during the day every 4hrs, took codeine for the night.

15th Jan: went out for a walk to a nearby cemetery with fam, feeling pretty ok. still on regular paracetamol throughout the day, only ibuprofen for the night though.

16th Jan: went out to get groceries with fam, doing ok. not being able to wash my hair getting irritating. paracetamol regular, one ibuprofen for the night.

17th Jan: asked mom to wash my hair for me, feeling so much more human! went to the Horniman Museum with fam, completely fine during the 30min bus journey + walking for 2 hrs. down to only paracetamol. finally saw Crimson Peak. it wasn’t as good as I hoped xD

18th Jan: went to Greenwich, walked through the park and visited Queen’s House, walked through the Greenwich tunnel under the Thames to get to Docklands, walked all the way to the Mudchute City Farm, saw sheep, my sis loves sheep and they were the main reason we went xD cutting down on paracetamol.

19th Jan: went to the Crystal Palace Park, stopped taking paracetamol. the 40min bus ride was a bit hard, felt slight chest pain, it stopped as soon as we got off the bus tho. walked for about 3hrs, felt fine. only paracetamol for the night.

20th Jan: dressings appointment, first look at my chest. got a bit lightheaded, but feeling ok. chest looking better and less bruised than expected. instructed to change nipple graft dressings every day, tape over the incisions every 2-3 days, got a second compression garment so I’ll be able to wash it every now and then. since my hospital is north from Oxford Street, we went to Lush with my sis and mom, then hit Covent Garden for Whittard and the Moomin shop c: visited the National Gallery, too. opened a bottle of red wine in the evening, had some with mom to celebrate.

21st Jan: taking it slow, my sis not feeling well bc of her period, she was the one regularly taking paracetamol this time around. we went to Lewisham for some light grocery shopping, then finished watching the Netflix Witcher.

22nd Jan: stayed home and chilled, started watching the TVP Witcher, it’s as good as I remember it being <3

23rd Jan: @rei-of-jakku​ came over after work and we had an amazing evening <3

24th Jan: went out for @haeym‘s birthday dinner, feeling decidedly more human. had some grapefruit soju bc I bloody love soju.

25th Jan: went for a plant sale, they sold out of almost everything by the time we got there ;__; ended up going to the Wellcome Collection with mom and sis, the latter had lots of fun, me and mom enjoyed ourselves but also kept sitting down every now and then as my sis ran between displays xD it was amazing to see her so excited and interested in stuff. walked for probs 4 hrs total, feeling perfectly fine.

26th Jan: saw my fam off to Victoria for their airport coach, we had to wake up at 5am since there were no trains so early on Sunday and we had to bus to the nearest working tube station D: but WE MADE IT. got myself a decaf golden honey macchiato at Starbucks on the way back home, it tasted like a turmeric latte, not a fan. but it was alright. won’t be getting it again tho. ended up cleaning my room after getting back, it was so good to reclaim my own space after having two other ppl staying with me 24/7 in there. also finished watching The Man From U.N.C.L.E., that movie is SO DAMN GOOD AAAAH

27th Jan: been drawing the whole day, went out to top up the gas meter, didn’t do much else.

28th Jan: panicking as part of the right nipple graft scab got pushed off and I could see pink skin underneath. messaged my nurse, comes out it’s fine, was told to air the graft out for an hour so it can dry up after a shower, keep changing the dressings as usual. loosened up the compression garment a bit, it felt like it was putting too much pressure on the problem nipple.

29th Jan: felt EXTREMELY nauseated in the morning, most likely bc I put on contact lenses and got vertigo from that, spent 2hrs feeling like throwing up (1hr sitting on the bathroom floor lol). put the lenses in so I could go get a haircut, decided against it when I had to take the lenses out, but since I was feeling ok by noon I thought that I might as well still go. got my haircut, felt SO MUCH BETTER afterwards.

30th Jan: nipple graft areas scabbed over well, are firm to the touch, the problem right graft doing ok, drying up nicely. found out I have a patch on my left pec that has no sensation in it, on the right from the left nipple. feels weird to poke at it with a pen and not feel it at all. hoping the sensation will come back eventually, but won’t be too bothered if it doesn’t. overall feeling pretty good with how the recovery is going so far.

31st Jan: Problem Nipple Graft™ is doing fine, healing nicely. the incision sites are very tender, but seem to have healed up for the most part. they tingle when I touch them, it’s kinda funny. looking forward to my appointment with the surgeon on the 7th. will update this post if any interesting developments happen~

[dancearoundallalone]

15, 18, 26, 27, 28, 29, 38, 43 ily

Hi Ily more :") 💌💐

15. What coffee drink would you describe yourself as? 

Hmm, probably Latte cause I don't think I have a stark personality, I'm mostly calm and I try to keep up a light mood :)

18. What’s that one TV show that you’re a little bit embarrassed to watch but you still like nonetheless? 

I can't really think of any show that made me feel like so 😬

26. You can only have one juice for the rest of your life, what is it? 

Either Orange or Watermelon juice !

27. What section do you immediately head for when you walk into a bookstore? 

Fantasy/Mystery genres !

28. What’s one thing you’re trying to learn/relearn in your downtime right now?

Getting to manage some time of the day to read books and helping with the household chores :) And, I think I might start journaling again 😳 I'm so bad in maintaining to journal often but it's always such a journey to look back on past entries !

29. Who’s your go-to musical artist when you’re feeling upbeat? 

Ms.Taylor and 1D 😳 It varies from time to time tho

38. Favorite mid-2000s song

You belong with me if that counts as mid-2000s' ?

43. Pick an old-school Disney Channel Original Movie

Beauty and the beast cause I adore Belle 💓

Send me Quarantine asks ?

[boneswriteswords]

The angsty idea about the reader over hearing how their turtle is attaracted to April is soooo sooo sooo good! If you take requests and it wouldn't be too much of a burden, could I request that for Mikey?!??

A/N: I finally got around to doing this. I’m not 100% happy with it but I’m never 100% happy with anything I write so whatever. Lol

Its also unbeta’d like all my other stuff. 

Enjoy.

Its almost 2500 words of angst tho so you might not.

You felt like you couldn’t breathe, the unexpected rush ofpain tasted like tinfoil, razorblade sharp on your tongue.

It had been a good day, the world bathed in shades of paleyellow. You were working at a job that you loved and that paid well. You had paidoff one of your student loans in full, dramatically decreasing your debt. Yoursupervisor had surprised you with donuts and an extra week of paid vacation as a thank-you for all the extra hours you put in tohelp her finish a major product. You got to pet three dogs. You were even ableto make progress in your language lesson.

It had been a good day.

‘And it’s about to get better,’ you had thought as you madeyour way down one of the tunnels the turtles used when they were going topside.You had been so excited to see your boyfriend.

Mikey is everything you could ever want. He brought youbalance, helped you find and maintain a peace in yourself that you hadn’trealized was missing until he came along. He was adventure where you werecaution. He was vibrant where you were subtle. He was affectionate where youwere reserved. He kept you secure, in yourself and in your life and never madefun of you for the way you experienced the world.

He is the golden glow that scatters over the city as the sunsets, bouncing off the high windows and reflecting off the glass. You had neverthought you’d be loved so intensely by another person before him.

At least, you had thought he loved you.

Now, you weren’t so sure.

Not after this.

Not after you had heard him say that he desired April. Thathe’d drop to her feet and serenade her on her obvious beauty, her wit, herlaugh and her smile. That his dramatic declarations of affection extended toher in a room you had thought was only for you and him.

But he wouldn’t.

Because he had you.

And he wouldn’t do that to you.

Lurking just behind the entry way, you felt your body breakdown and put itself together again. Cells combusted and reformed. Synapsesfired in all different directions, unsure of what to process and where to sendwhat. Pink turned to purple turned to grey. Shaky legs managed to keep youupright but only just.

Fuck.

It had been too good to be true.

Tears slipped out without meaning to. You quickly wiped themaway and breathed, contemplating turning around and walking away beforediscarding that idea. They were expecting you. They would come looking for youif you didn’t show up, expecting the worst.

You’d have to tell him what you heard. You’d have to hear itagain but this time, it would be to your face.

A coldness blanketed you like anill-fitting suit. A new skin molded from copper and stitched with the smell ofsulfur. A safety net to catch all the little broken pieces of yourself as youchip and crack under the pressure.  

You took another deep breath and walked into the lair,greeting everyone with a big smile stretched painfully across your cheeks. Yourstomach lurched. It felt wrong.

“Baby! You’re here!” Mikey exclaimed, leaping over furniturewith his usual brand of puppy-like excitement. Normally, you’d be flattered athis attentions, the way that he disregards obstacles in his path to get to you.No one had ever been that excited to see you before.

But you weren’t this time. It felt like an exaggeration, anovercompensation. It smelt like sickness.

When he reached you, you let him pull you close and kissyou.

It tasted like a lie, black and gritty. Bile gathered in theback of your throat and you swallowed to keep it down as he pulled away,concern written in the furrow of his brow.

“You okay angel? Something the matter?” he asked softly,stepping away to rub his hands down your arms before pulling you close again.He pressed his beak to the side of your face, leaving little pecking kisses ashe did. Despite the close proximity, his warmth felt distant, a ghost of atouch on your skin.

“I just had a rough day Mikey,” you muttered back, givinghim a small smile. You pulled his face away from yours, reaching a hand tostroke the scaled skin of his cheek, lips quirking as he nuzzled into yourtouch. He still smelt like summer and electricity and you were relieved thatsomething remained the same. “I’ll be okay.”

He never pushed when you didn’t want to talk and you weregrateful for it. He knew that you needed to process things bit by bit beforeyou could talk about them, especially if they were stressful oroverwhelming.  

“Anything we can do to help?” Leo asked, his voice silver,like moonlight that bounces off water in the dark.

You shook your head no, “It was just a bad day. Happens tous all. I’ll be fine. It wasn’t all bad. I met someone with beautiful colorstoday.”

“Is that so Angelcakes?” Mikey asked, a playful grin on hisface as he picked you up, “Were the colors prettier than mine?” He nuzzled hisface into your neck, a big smile on his face as you looped your legs around himas much as you could.

“Um…”

Raph snorted from his perch on the couch, “Don’t ask herthat. She doesn’t have the heart to tell you your colors are ugly as shit.”

Mikey gasped dramatically, clutching you further to hischest, “You take that back! My colors are beautiful. You’re just mad cuz yourtexture is puke! Isn’t that right baby? Raph is the texture of puke and smellof crusty unwashed ball sacs.”

An argument about colors and numbers and textures ensuedbetween the brothers, Leo and Donnie joining in when attempts to stop it wheremet with mean comments about their own visual representations, giving you areprieve from their concerned stares. You climbed off Mikey while he wasotherwise distracted and sat next to Splinter on his meditation mat, foldingyour legs under you.

“Are you alright my dear?” Splinter whispered, eyes focusedon his sons. His hand grasped one of yours, giving it a little squeeze and yourealized two things. Splinter had been paying attention to his sons’conversation and he knew your ‘bad day’ had everything to do with it.

“Not really Master Splinter.” Lips twitched into a sadlittle grin as you squeezed his hand back. “Not right now.”

Before he could say anything else, you were ripped off themat and back into strong green arms, pressed flat against a wide, muscledplastron. Mikey’s face beamed down at you, the tang on your tongue gettingstronger the longer you looked at him.

“Tell them angel. Tell them my colors are beautiful,” he breathed,all golden light and reflective shimmer and the breaths right before you blowon a dandelion.

You swallowed thickly, voice dropping to a whisper “Yeah.I’ve never seen anything more beautiful.”

If circumstances were different, you would have believedthat he had actually swooned, knees locking to keep you both upright. Youwould have believed the sheer force of emotion that appeared on his face wasreal and that he loved you the way you loved him. You would have believed thatnothing could ever be wrong between you and him, that you had found the love ofyour life.  

But you didn’t.

“Oh come on! Of course she’s gonna say that. She loves ya!”Raph argued, hands thrown up in your direction, “I want a new judge!”

Another argument broke out but instead of letting you go,Mikey kept you close so you laid your head on his shoulder, closedyour eyes, and counted down the minutes until you could go home.

—–

You didn’t know what to do so you stayed late at your office everynight under the guise of being overloaded at work to figure it out.  You knew you were feeling insecure, lumpy andchunky and off-white, and you knew you could bring it up and actually talk toMikey about it and he would understand.

But you also couldn’t. You didn’t want to break up with him.He was the only one who didn’t think you were weird when you said musicsometimes felt like there were guitars strings tied on your spine and someone’splaying them, the melodies vibrating through every bone in your body. Or whenyou said Raph’s laughter smelt like cinnamon. Or when you baked lemon squaresbecause Donnie asked you to describe his voice.

You didn’t want to break up but you couldn’t visualize aconversation that didn’t end up in a break-up.

You didn’t want to lose him but you had to considerthat….maybe it was inevitable.

Maybe he wasn’t yours anymore.

Maybe, the deep dark purple part of you whispered, he wasn’teven yours to begin with. Who’s to say that you were the one he picked insteadof just being the one who said yes.

The razor sharp tang was heavy on your tongue.

———–

April took you out for coffee the Saturday morning afteryour week long escape. Despite the circumstances, she was one of your favoritepeople, all vanilla scented lipgloss and pink silk with flashes of lighteningbugs behind it. Incredibly beautiful to look at and be around.

You couldn’t hate her.

“So, how are things? I haven’t seen you in a week,” shesaid, smile sweet as she poked her straw through her latte. She was dressed inher signature yellow jacket and a basic tank top with her hair up in a messybun but still somehow looked put together. She was always put together.

You recalled wearing a similar outfit a few days ago.Shopping was something you and April liked to do together because your styleswere similar. You liked a lot of the same things, especially when it came tofabric textures, so the two of you often went perusing in the other’s closetwhen looking to put a new look together.

The dark purple part of you reminded you that she was theone Mikey really loved, that he asked you out because you dressed similar,walked similar, had similar interests, did similar things in your free time.Always similar. Not quite but good enough.

“Pretty good,” you responded, only a partial lie, “I love my job. The people are great. The clients are great. I’m never bored. It’sfantastic.”

“Good. I’m glad. You deserve to have a good workplace,” shetook a sip of her latte, “Mikey mentioned that you had a bad day last week butyou didn’t say what it was about. Are you ok?”

You took a sip of your own drink, a new holiday drink thecoffee shop was promoting and immediately decided it tasted too puce for yourliking.

“Yeah. I was just overwhelmed. I had met a lot of new peopleand it was bit overwhelming,” you shrugged, hoping that your lie wasbelievable. You gestured to your outfit, an old sweatpants and hoodie, “I may notlook it but I feel better.”

She nodded sympathetically, smile widening, and you couldsee how Mikey fell in love with her, “Well, I’m glad you feel better. Does thatmean you’re coming to movie night tonight?”

Fuck.

You forgot about movie night.

“Of course I am.”

Double fuck.

“Great! Mikey will be so excited. He misses you so much.”

“I miss him too.”

——-

April was already at the lair when you dropped in, some oddnumber of hours later, arriving a tad too late for it to be normal. April hadwalked you back to your apartment before heading to work after coffee, ramblingabout what had happened that week as far as Foot activity and crimes thathappened in the area while you thought about what to do about this entiresituation.

You had changed quickly into an over-sized shirt and adifferent pair of sweatpants, not really bothering to put an outfit together.There was no reason for you to put an effort into looking nice. You didn’t wantto look like April.

Distance. You needed to put a tangible, aesthetic distancebetween you and April. No wearing the same clothes. No styling the same way. Nodoing makeup like she does. No connection between you and her.

You weren’t surprised to see Mikey wrapped up inconversation with her, sitting as close as he does when he sits with you,breathing her air the same way he breathes yours but it still fucking hurt.

He looked so happy to be in her space, loud and boisterousand excited.

You knew what you had to do.

“Hey Mikey,” you whispered, trying to catch his attentionwithout seeming too rude for interrupting, “Can I talk to you for a sec?”  

“Baby! When did youget here? You’re late! Why are you late? You’re never late! Are you ok? Did youget hurt on the way here? Was it Foot ninja? Cuz I thought we cleared them outof the area but if not and they hurt you, they’re gonna pay. I swear angelcakes–“ you cut him off, the influx of questions causing your chest to tighten.

“Too much Mikey.”

His mouth snapped shut and he pulled you out of the room asyou ran through one of your breathing exercises, muttering the colors in theFibonacci sequence. He was watching you closely, his stupidly blue eyes floodedwith regret and locked on your face as you made your way through the firstfifteen numbers.

“I’m sorry honey,” he mouthed as you slowed in yourcounting, breathing a bit easier and steady.

Calmer, you met his gaze and for a moment, you thought aboutthe world you experienced with him. All the new colors and sensations andtextures. The things you had never felt before and how they explodedbeautifully inside you. You had never known that love tasted like coconut orthe sensation of looking forward to seeing someone was a splattering of rainbowcolors across a white background.

“What’s up baby? What’s wrong?”

You wondered if you’d ever experience those things again.

“Its over Mikey.”

The words tasted grey, shadows over paper.

——

There you have it. Angst. Poorly written angst. I’m sorry. 

Also let me know what you thought of the reader I used. 

[chillihansol]

barista!jeonghan (click for HD)

yoon jeonghan is part of the city barista squad

and the laziest one

he requested to work on making the coffees and less interacting to customers

bc he does not have enough energy to ask the same thing over and over lol

it’s fine with their manager bc his co-worker is luckily hoshi

so hoshi does the talking while jeonghan does the drinks

their shifts start right after seungkwan’s and seungcheol’s

jeonghan makes the best coffee out of the four workers in the city

seungcheol is the worst

and people love his coffee so they often ask if jeonghan is around

he often takes nap on the storage room when there are no customers 

which is also the reason why he smells like coffee all the freaking time

besides the fact he makes them, he also sleeps with the packages of coffee beans hahaha

since jeonghan is a multi-talented barista, his latte arts are very known in the city

people would tag him on social media for making such a beautiful latte art

seungcheol is so envious of him 

ofc, his rosette latte art is the best and the most wanted design

sometimes. he’d try to make cute animals

or a trail of mini hearts

jeonghan is pretty famous too

like junhui

one time, he encountered the same situation when the girls didnt know what to order bc they dont drink coffee 

anyways,, jeonghan loves his job

but he also loves it when his shift ends bc he goes straight to the nearest park

he will have a cup of creamy coffee in his hands while he sits on the bench and inhales some natural breeze

this is his routine

going back to the shop, jeonghan is pretty close to some customers too

tho not as much as soonyoung does

but he’s close to a few,,

and this few includes you

in fact, you are the closest to jeonghan

jeonghan enjoys your company all the time

he’d even forget about his nap hours for you :’’)

you met jeonghan through dk

bc you’re into latte arts, dk recommended jeonghan’s coffee place bc the campus cafe does not necessarily make such thing

so you met jeonghan four months ago

and tbh

you hesitated if he is the jeonghan bc damn, he’s a t t r a c t i v e

the first time you met him, the shop was really packed with ppl, and the baristas where working really fast behind the counter

you somehow stopped yourself from ordering a latte art bc they seemed really busy that time

but you stayed there for a while, waiting for the customers to lessen in a bit, until there were only a few of them when you made your way to the counter and a cute guy with small eyes smiled at you widely

you looked at his named tag, and it said ‘soonyoung’

then you looked at the other barista whose back was facing you

and you couldnt help but stare at his broad shoulders

and his lean torso

and his silky light brown hair

until ‘soonyoung’ cleared his throat and you snapped back to reality

“hyung, i think she’s one of your fans”

slafksa your eyes widen and shook your head too immediately, and you were like nononononono 

ofc, jeonghan turned around to look who this person soonyoung was pertaining about and he found you, and saw your flustered face

it was so embarrassing

and that time, you wanted to punch this soonyoung in the face for jumping to conclusions easily

luckily, jeonghan didnt ride soonyoung’s trip

“no, i think she’s dokyeom’s friend”

and you were nodding your head too quickly for agreeing on him

the sight looked so cute in jeonghan’s eyes so this brought a huge smile on his face

poor soonyoung who was so clueless

“dk told me you were coming today, i was just doing a latte for you” he said, walking closer to the counter 

as he stopped by it, he leaned down to match your height and rested both of forearm on top

who is this handsome guy and why does he smell like coffee

your head jerked away from the closeness of his figure to you,,,,,and it was so awkward so you put out a hand and introduced yourself

“im y/n”

“i know. im jeonghan”

“i know”

so jeonghan’s first latte art for you was the usual rosette 

tho it was the most common design, you still thought how talented jeonghan is

and how thoughtful he was for doing your coffee in advance

thanks to dk

the first time you met him, he actually sat in front of you as you took one of the tables,,,,basically, jeonghan ditched his job just to have your company, and his shift was ending anyways

so you continue to meet jeonghan in the next months, but not daily, since you often get your regular coffee from the campus cafe

you visit him twice or thrice a week and he’d give you a pre-made latte art :’)

how sweet

as you continue to know more about jeonghan,, one day, you found him sitting on a bench at the university park

his eyes were closed and his arms were crossed on his chest, a cup of coffee was resting beside him,, and he was also wearing a white button down shirt with the sleeves rolled up which looked so attractive on him skhfasljs

you thought that he wouldnt mind your company so you quietly sat beside him, and jeonghan wasnt bothered at all

“hi y/n”

this made you jump from your seat bc,, did he see you?? with his closed eyes??

but you tried to play it cool, “how did you know it was me?”

“no one really approaches me except for you” he chuckled, and finally opened his eyes to look straightly at you

and you swore, a bucket of butterflies was poured in your stomach

knowing jeonghan, his shift in the coffee shop was done at that time,,,but that was the only time you found out that he likes chilling on the park

and you were taken a back bc,, you never saw him there, considering that you are always at the park too

this brought the two of you to another stage of friendship,,,when you visit jeonghan, you’d wait for his shift to finish so both of you could chill on the park and talk about stuff

if the weather’s not good, he wouldnt ask for you to stay in the cafe but you’d end up still staying bc you enjoy his presence too much

there are times when jeonghan has to work overtime,

and if there are no customers, he’d bring you to the storage room and continue to hang out with you

soonyoung gets very suspicious,,, bc he thinks you and jeonghan do something pg there

but truthfully, you were just lazily talking together

the others found out about your relationship friendship with jeonghan

and seungcheol was so sure the boy is in love with you bc he forgets his nap hours just to hang out

and he thought you are going to be jeonghan’s distraction and jeonghan would not be able to make good coffees anymore

there was a moment when you somehow realized that you already have feelings for him too,,,and you were kind of scared bc your friendship with him has grown so much and you didnt want to ruin it bc of your feelings

let’s not forget about jeonghan’s fans, right???

so one day, you were chilling with him again, when a group of girls came inside the shop

with soonyoung greeting them enthusiastically, they saw you and jeonghan being all giddy and happy while talking to each other

you were not sure if jeonghan saw it but you caught this girl giving you a glare

and she whispered smth to her friends and they gave you a glare too

fite me

tbh, you didnt like ppl giving you that kind of treatment, and jeonghan seemed to notice that you became quite uncomfortable, asking if you were okay

when soonyoung finally took their order, jeonghan excused himself to make the drinks

you might or might not had been watching his figure as he make the coffees

when he came back to hand the drinks to the girls, one of them had the aUDACITY TO WALK ON YOUR DIRECTION AND ‘ACCIDENTALLY’ SPILL THE VERY HOT DRINK ON YOU

SNDJSNLKS IT WAS SO HOT

you yelped in pain, jeonghan was shocked and panicked, the girl pretended that she was sorry, and her friends were quietly enjoying the scene

jeonghan ran from behind the counter to go to you

“can you be more careful next time?” you asked bitterly

and boy oh boy, the girl was like “maybe if you weren’t blocking the way and flirting with him then this wouldnt happen to you”

jeonghan for sure was so mad from what she said,, and you were not having it

“maybe if you were actually really nice then jeonghan would have flirted with you, but you’re not.”

YOU GO GURL

jeonghan bit his proud smile from what you said, but he was still kind of mad from what the girl did to you

“pls be careful next time and try not to hurt any customer” he said, a hint of annoyance was evident in his voice

then he turned to you and whispered “come with me”

you followed him to the storage room, and the girls were left in surprise,, while soonyoung cleaned their mess

as you entered the room, you plopped down on the small seat and a pout came on your lips “they ruined my shirt” you muttered

he was getting something from his bag, then he handed you a hoodie, “change your shirt with this, i’ll be back”

then he was out of the room,,

when you replaced your ruined shirt with his hoodie, an unfamiliar manly scent lingered in your nostrils

it was jeonghan’s real scent

not the coffee scent

but his real scent that smelt so manly

when he came back, he had a cold compress on his hand, and squeezed himself beside you

the drink was spilled on your side and near your chest, so jeonghan hesitated for a second before pressing the compress

“do you want me to do it or you can do it by yourself”

you chuckled at how flustered he was, ofc, you got the compress from his hand and put it inside the hoodie

while you did that, he snaked an arm around your shoulder and pulled you closer to him

then pressed his cheek on your forehead

djaslkdjsalkdj

“i need to ask my manager to ban ppl from going here if they’re going to cause any trouble”

and as he said that lowly, you wanted to melt in his arms bc he’s so sweet and concerned to you :’(

“you don’t really have to do that, you’ll lose bunch of customers. i guess, i’ll be the one to adjust” you mumbled

“no, i want you here. if you stopped coming, i’ll resign and apply to the campus cafe then”

that time, you were so sure that the feelings are mutual

so,,,,you pulled a way to have a better view of his face, then pressed your warm lips on his cheek

“spill. are you in love with me???”

“and what if i am?”

“i dont believe you”

then in a second, his lips connected with yours,,and he didnt pull away until you kissed him back

when the two of you separated, he muttered under his breath “you taste like coffee” and earned a subtle smack on his chest from you

and you started dating on that day thanks to the girl who spilled coffee on you : )

jeonghan didnt resign on his job,, but the girls just stopped showing up in the shop and he is more than glad

you’d still visit him, and he’d still give you a latte art

esp when you’re not feeling very well, he’d make a heart design for you

jeonghan just loves you so much

when you couldnt visit him, the two of you would just meet by the nearest park and you’d have your time together there

when he’s not working, you’d go into park adventures with ofc, a cup of coffee

bc jeonghan, parks, and a cup of coffee are your love :’)

maybe you love jeonghan a lil more hehe

and he does the same to you 

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[shytiff]

Feb 2021 Wins

1 - osce study with clara almira, tryout 9 fkui, tryout review with clar, study sesh with clara that finished at about 10 pm. watched some youtube vids together til 11:15 pm. no longer sleepy, so i made my cv and finished it at about 3 in the morning lmao, bcs i saw this interning opportunity and i was like “damn i should make my cv”

2 - woke up at 7 am, didnt shower lmao, off to kiara for vaccination. Waited for a bit and i finally got it. ate mamdaging pesto rice with beef at kamkan w/ ren ness ara akisyah. talked at studied osce a bit. waited for mom to pick me up. until when do i need someone else to pick me up. i feel helpless and i hate that i cant just ride my motorbike because its too tiring. went back and dad got mad at me bcs i didnt greet him when leaving and entering the house. I truly didnt see him when i entered even though i heard sumn lmao. He said sumn along the lines of "you can always leave if u dont like me" (which is lowkey appealing). I cried bcs i felt sad and annoyed with our terrible emotional parent-daughter relationship. Hold the tears for a bit to study with clara. Darkened the room and slept still in my going-out clothes. I did not shower today lmao,,,,

3 - woke up at 10 am. Tryout and review w clara. Psych coaching. Psych practice with irun. Called lau and dajen bcs hes leving to medan. Randomly checked my email and my intern submission, which i emailed yesterday, that turns out the doctor replied at 8pm yesterday asking for interview today 11 am. And i saw it @ 6 pm. Aka super late. The stupidest thing ive ever done in FKUI. No cap. :( i panicked and it gave me a reason to talk with dad (asking how to reply) so i guess its a form of effort to banish the awkwardness between us. Studied w clara. I hope the doctor can forgive me. Its one loose end after the other lately.

4 - went to starbucks with atikah. got treated matcha latte yayy. cicil osce. called clara to learn imunisasi. went to kaleyo w atikah clara, ate bebek muda cabe ijo yumm. talked abt a lot of things in a span of 1-2 hours. we’re all pragmatist lmaoo. 

5 - osce briefing, DV osce practice w irun, watched run bts again lmaoo since knowing my osce schedule is thursday. read buku osce biru. 

6 - slept and lazed around til 1 pm. went to flavola since the construction was so noisy. osce simulation with UKMPPD Wibu. turns out flavola’s siomay is very fulfilling.

7 - todays construction noise escape is jco. Bought jcool double with almonds and chocolate crunchy. A bit of psych practice w aisyah. After maghrib practiced neuro w irun

8 - had no mood to study in the morning. Went to flavola, kopsusss coklat as usual. Reviewed osce materials (theres some tea about what might come out). Reviewed again at home (even tho i procrastinated from 6-9pm). Asked my bro for some ovo bcs i bought a mini keyboard in tokped lmaoooooo so random

9 - went to merra (ara and nessa’s place) but mom drove dad to the airport first. stome osce study, group consolidation for osce, tried mad bagel (the garlic cream cheese and tuna salad). the bagel was quite dense and fulfilling. the garlic cream cheese is quite heavy. arrived at home by 9 pm, went straight to sleep

10 - omg dr eva contacted me again :”) and i got the chance to be ecmocard research assistant. osce study. line call with ara. matcha latte. studied in juan’s room bcs it was so noisy. the keyboard i ordered arrived lolll cant wait to try. i dont know if its the anxiety or fear but i cant sleep and forced myself to sleep 11pm-ish

11 - osce. Went early to learn sumn more w ara tri. Osce (i forgot opv for the 5 mo old baby in peds station 😭 there was dr yogi omg) prayed zuhur and ashar in merra while waiting for pick up (i rly wish i could just bring my own vehicle but motorbike is rly tiring). Finally tried the mini keyboard, with earphones on. Practiced the song aku bukan untukmu by rossa lmao bu sihar taught us that in 33. I felt rly excited and not sleepy afterwards (that "normal" feeling with nothing looming). Its been a while since i tried something new, voluntarily. I guess its kind of what i felt when i tried the korean duolingo. That lasted for a couple months. Lets see how this keyboard thingy goes

12 - finally finished reviewing to oneshot (took ages lmao). Lazed around

13 - inten ukmppd w ness ren ara @ merraaa always. Went through 5 pdfs. Tried fastfit chicken burger and sweet potato fries. Quite fulfilling. Went back home and straight to bed (didnt eat anymore)

14 - started my day late as usual on weekdays lmaoo. flavola kopsus coklat as usual at my usual seat facing the window. did padi final tryout, score: 69. booty call with fianti, did mindset tryout, got 76,5.

15 - lazed tilll i start my day as usual @ 11-ish. Reviewed to padi final answers. Wow it sure took some damn time. My attention span is rly horrible when im alone in my room

16 - second dose of vaccine today. the rain was POURING. mom and emir waited in mcd. read half of aipki citation. 

17 - finished aipki citation, read CBT 2020 batch I and 2019 batch III questions. read a fantastic slow burn dramione fic. reviewed the last to solid.

18 - accompanied clara for swab antigen near airport train station (we came with motorbike since clara’s car was used). got called over by the police bcs we were in the car-only road lmaooo. went over optima tryout 2021. 

19 - cicil ukmppd at flavola with the usual menu, read some more afterwards

20 - ended up going to tamel bcs the flood in tb simatupang toll. Stayed w nessa and henny. Ate garlic carbonara spaghetti by bittersweet najla. Quite good for the price. Went over mediko questions with nessa and first session citation. Atikah sent some krispy kreme donuts 🥺🥺

21 - woke up at 4 bcs henny and nessa already did. Ate cold kanayam for bfast. Did ukmppd. I flagged quite a lot of questions huaa. I hope i can pass, aamiin. Went to tamel to get stuff (nebeng oca uye), climbed jembor to get to akis et al. Went to aeon (super crowded tffff), followed by ikea (parked at decathlon). Ate at both places (shared portion w kris lmaoo we get full quick). Aeon sushi and ikea meatball. So fulll. Went out of ikea to be briefed by dr Debby (ecmocard) and put my stuff to mom's car. Went in ikea again. And finally we went back. such a good sleep yall

22 - relaxed and i mean RELAXXXED. woke up and slept again. showered to prepare to go to harkit for intern briefing. i was late (thanks daan mogot road) and had to grabbike from untar. put on some sheet mask (natrep rose) bcs im realizing i need to fix my face and look decent for this new environment lmaoo.

23 - left home at 7 am, went through highway (i aint repeating daan mogot tragedy again). walked a bit backwards bcs the hightway exit was infront of dharmais. super slow progress on entering medical datas. took half a day to get one. and another half for the other. ate marugame udon, somay, chicken katsu and otak otak. we finished after maghrib and im writing this while waiting for mom

24 -  tried salted egg dori rice from salt inc. its quite salty and eneg inducing (a bit more than eatlah), but for the price (19k after cashback) i wont complain. Went back home before maghrib but there was still some medical record stuff i did in my room.

25 - magang as usual. Tried chicken egg salad from salad hut. Bought ice french hazelnut coffee from lawson coz i just cant take it anymore (the slump and sleepyness). I feel like the moment that sugary beverage enters my system i rise like a freshly watered plant. First meeting with dr eva and the others

26 - felt so tired even in the morning. Its 9 am and im already ordering janjiw coffee (with hazelnut and milo, quite sweet. Like a mix of kopiko and milo). Slow progress today i dunno why. Lunch is nayam rica2 and egg for 21k. Went back home by tj and mom picked me at gajah 2

27 - i hate to say this but bcs for 5 days now ive been fighting sleeping instincts, i snap out of sleepiness easier in the morning. Nasi uduk for brekkie. Moved some stuff up bcs the noise, played keyboard. Learned the (difficult) chords to tyler's see you again and im feeling satisfied. Went to racheel's place. Got fed chicken noodle. And then off to silvi's with devi also. Got fed chicken rice and dimsum. Thanks to friends im eating superwell today🥺

28 - relaxed at home. Skipped breakfast bcs i fell asleep and ate heartily in the afternoon. Evening run w racheel at citra 6

[jmpoojablog-blog]

Something about him and MEN...

...while there was Tahiya writing about me and my fascination about love which was expressed through my writing, I was still unsure about what love actually felt like. I just started writing “Latte and Love” and I was not allowed fall in love with Meow. Yeah, that was another name of Mr. Kinky Fuckery with a Good smile.

I was struggling since the last 6 months, focusing on my new writings, listening to music, dating a few men- which I thought would help me to forget him. Every night I wished to sleep and when I wake up next morning I don’t remember him anymore. All of me reminded me of him his presence. 

When I was unknown tho the actual meaning of love but i was slowly falling for him a bit more everyday, when those over-dramatic things started to happen, and I was going insane, when he made me feel him without even touching me, I wanted to know what it really meant. And when a wise one said that it was the kind of love that happens only once, and it either stays, or goes away forever giving enough for you to live with, my whole world changed.

The definition of love changed for me, it was no more the romance shows in movies and read in books. It was more like a punch through my chest when I was just gawking at him from a distance. 

Watch the sunrise now checking my phone again and again- just for a beep, but it stays silent. Every cup of tea reminds me of him. Last year, at this times, we were so near, and now, we are so apart. Well, we were apart since always, never together it was just me, and I am glad that it will always remain just mine. 

But, the heart aches, and it feels vulnerable and out of my league, out of my control and sometimes unbearable.

Its been 6 months since we stopped talking, and every time I see him now, even though I badly gawk at him, I just try my best not to face him. The heart ache never goes away.

...been talking to a lot of my male-friends, and each time the conversation was about love, I talked about him, Meow, and how hopelessly I was writing this book “Latte and Love” about him.

while some of them said-

he was never a good one, 

you deserve to have a better one, 

you need to find love in someone else,

you need to widen your eyes to judge men like him.

But, then this popped up-

 by Tajrian Tathoy-"LOVE?"

For everyone "love" comes only once and for only one person. But for me it came more than once and with different means. 

1st it came in a form of the most popular person in school who dumped others but whom I dumped. Love was for me popularity.

2nd it came in the form of most damaged person who did everything I said. Love was for me authority.

3rd it came in the form someone who lied to me and lied about me. Love was for me deception.

4th it came in the form someone with whom I always felt not good enough. Love was for me insecurity.

5th it came in the form of someone who was always there for me. Love was for me friendship.

6th it came in form of someone who wanted nothing to do with me. Love was for me invisibility.

But now that I'm sitting here all alone. 

Love now for me is me.

and everything started coming in front of me, those men I knew and been with in the journey of getting Meow out of my mind. But the first man that came up in my mind one more time was my Mr.Ex-boyfriend, the one who always pushed me to be the real me, no matter whatever the world says. “You are unique and best within yourself. There is no other person in the world who can match you up and fit in the puzzle you are made for.” He pushed me to work on my words and introduced me to the real me, where I learned to love myself for me and all whose lives were connected to mine in someways. 

I realized there were men who still felt vulnerable and happy both at the same time after being cheated in a 7 years long relationship. Not all men cheated. Their thoughts about love and life was different, because those efforts were made from the heart and were so soulful that for walking on the same path was something painful to think of.

I realized- there were men, who were never satisfied being with just one because their popularity in a very meaningless ways meant everything to them. They were more into “Sometimes I need to open my nothing box and spend time with myself” while they further added that- “I can not stick to the relationship thingy all the time, you should go and find someone to talk to you, while i do the same.” Well, my reply to that was- I am not a f*ckin’ slave of your mood swings, and I don’t like sharing my man, this is a relationship not a part-time job on 0-hours contract. Either stay or leave, because all I would say is- F*ck that Shit! Which was easy to talk away, because I never really moved on from the Meow-Thoughts.

There were men committed to any kind of relationship they were in. Love, friendship, Marriage anything...and there were men who would act like a complete jerk, you might have known them since years, hasn’t changed a bit, but are pure gentleman towards woman they are mad about. 

And then, this kind of man comes- someone who see potentials, someone who knew you are off-limits, and had to get out of this cage and go on and on and on and reach your goals. Someone who would be there on your cheat-days, someone who would not give a damn to the world when it comes to showing love, tears and share smiles. Someone who is proud to have you, someone who says “The more you try to forget him, the more you make ways to remember him, when you stop trying you realize there was nothing for you on the other side, or maybe there was too much for you to take care of but the time was not yours.” Someone who laughs with you but never laughs at you, someone who would love sunflowers as much as you love them, someone who cherishes freckles more that the powdered blushed on your pink and blue cheeks, Someone who loves your scars, someone who looks for reasons to stay rather than looking for reasons to leave.

So, there cannot be just one man for a woman for the entire life, neither just one for a man. There can not also be many at once. One after another comes, and goes, like picking up the right chair which does not hurt your ass. Somewhere you feel like staying at last- comes the one you would settle for, and all other options seems inexpensive. 

But, this becomes hard all the time, even when i have stopped trying to forget him and everything else- its much harder every time...all the cup of tea and sleepless nights still reminds me of him, and maybe always will.

[palmettofoxesthings]

I’m worried about your coffee dependency...

Um this is unedited and I wrote it a while ago I’m not 100% sure what happens anymore. Opps? Sorry for inactivity, I’ve been having feelings and yeah led to a life off social media for a while. Anyway, happier things.

So Matt is super nice and takes shifts from coworkers who have essays etc due if they have a night shift so they can do them

And it just works out that a lot of people wanna switch their shifts with him cos they all have assignments due

And Matt really regrets his choice

Like he wants to sleep. And see his girlfriend. And the morning.

He’d really fucking love to see morning again

(It’s for the greater good, he tells himself, but what greater good? Certainly not his grades)

But alas he has about ten nights shifts over the next two weeks and an abundance of assignments due that he’s just not gonna get done

He already vaguely recognises Neil from other shifts as he does a lot of the students cos you learn what people look like working at the 24 hours campus coffee shop

There are a few other regulars he sort of knows but there are honestly so many people he doesn’t really keep that many of them in his mind

But then Neil comes in and it’s 1 am and it’s pretty standard for students pulling all nighters to come for coffee at that time or sum long home after a night out

And he looks a bit off. He’s slightly pale and shaking a little and in a huge ass hoodie but it’s cold out so Matt puts it down to that

And Neil orders a double espresso. And then he hesitates when Matt asks him if he wants anything else and goes ‘actually make that two’ and Matt just nods like uh huh fine probably had an assignment due and needs to get it done

And Neil takes his coffee over to one of the corner tables and pulls out a laptop

And it’s ten minutes later Neil orders another two and matts just like okay must be a super important assignment

After an hour or so Neil gets a phone call and packs up and leaves without ordering another coffee

Matt sees a short blond waiting outside the entrance to the shop who seems to be really annoyed at the kid in the ginormous hoodie and they leave together

And Matt just shrugs cos it’s not the strangest thing he’s ever seen a student do

But what is strange is when Neil comes back at 3am seemingly looking over his shoulder all the time. Matt vaguely wonders if he’s looking for the blond who came by earlier but actually just asks neil what he wants. Which this time is a triple shot latte cos why not coffee is coffee and Andrew only said no more espressos

Neil stays sat there till long after the athletes have stared rolling in and the early lectures have begun

(Cos Andrew knows his boy and also Kevin is a night owl and told him)

(They’re all minorly concerned about him)

Matt had finished his shift around 5am and gone back to see Dan before classes started

When they go to get coffee together at lunch time Matt gets concerned when he sees Neil still hunched in his corner surrounded by scraps of paper and screwed up balls and Matt really wants to know what the hell this kid is working on

But he also needs his time with dan so they order and go sit down

Neil gets a text and looks really super alarmed by it and packs up super quickly with fleeting glances to the door every few seconds

And when everything has been hastily shoved into the bag and almost sprints out of the door

Boy forgot his class was about to start. Also Nicky was warning him Andrew was looking for him

Matt’s not on a shift again that night so he doesn’t know if Neil turned up again or not. He’s curious but he brushes it off cos he really needs to get this assignment done

(Neil is there again. In the same hoodie. Looking slightly paler than last night)

And drinking double espressos till Andrew comes to drag him home to sleep

Neil does not, in fact, sleep

The next two shifts Matt has Neil isn’t there. He hopes this is a good thing because last time he saw the kid walking around campus he was looking a little like a zombie to be honest

Matt also hopes this doesn’t mean he’s just been going at more normal hours of the day cos that would also be bad

It’s Friday night that Matt next sees neil

It’s 2:53 and Matt has had nothing to do for the past hour or so save for one English student who was getting really tired of Shakespeare and needed caffeine to finish Othello for the millionth time

He ordered a double espresso. Then a double latte. Matt felt bad for the girl

So Neil turns up. And this time he’s in a new hoodie. But it’s black and again it’s too big for him. He accidentally picked up Kevin’s on his way out so this time to like wayyyyy too big for him

And Neil looks like absolute death. 💀 like this

The other one is actually andrew’s tho

He has huge dark bags under his eyes

And Matt is like ok this is not good

But Neil only orders one double espresso this time and actually gets a cup of water to drink as well

So Matt feels slightly less bad about giving this small child (cos he is v small) coffee when he’s also having water

What he does not realise is that the water is to clean a cut on his knucles

So Neil squirrels himself away in a corner out of sight with a wad of tissue and cleans the cut

And then drinks the coffee

Matt doesn’t see Neil again for another half hour. Which is definitely an improvement on the last time he was in the shop

He gets a latte this time and gets us to go

And then another espresso and downs that before leaving

Hush child all in good time

Matt is beginning to get concerned

Especially when he goes to clear the table and sees the water not drunk and a bloody tissue on the floor

Neil thought he’d cleared it all

Ok it was an accident

So when Neil comes in the next night and Matt is working he finally says something more than what can I get you

‘Y'know, man cannot live on coffee alone’

'Man can damn well live on coffee’ is Neil’s response

And Matt can’t decide if that grey hoodie he wears is getting baggier or if it’s his imagination

'You look like death, man, what’s your name?’ Matt

'Thanks. I definitely come to the coffee shop for beauty tips’ neil replies monotonously

Matt is not perturbed tho cos it’s Matt and he’s amazing

Seriously though what’s your name. You’re in here so much I feel like I ought to be able to call you something

'Ok, something it is’

Matt frowns at this ball of grumpy in front of him

And thus I sleep

Sorry kid

So Matt is frowning at the smile ball of grumpy in front of him

And wondering what on earth he has done to piss the kid off so much

But he makes the coffee and watches Neil squirrel away in the same corner he always does. Just out of sight but not quite fully this time

And he can just see a bandage poking out of Neil’s left sleeve

And he frowns even more cos his ball of grumpy (no he is not going to call this kid something when he has his own much more accurate description of his own)

His ball of grumpy is hurt and he doesn’t know why and he wasn’t hurt when he came in yesterday so what on earth happened

Except he was and Matt just didn’t see as we know

The next time Neil comes in Matt opens with 'I’m worried about your coffee dependency’

And Neil just stares at him levelly.

'My name is neil’ orders his espresso and walks away

Matt if dumbfounded. Where did that come from. He is so confused

Matt isn’t sure what to say to Neil for the rest of the time he’s there. The kid is too many contradictions (well, he thinks so anyway, not that they’ve really had enough conversations for it to really be something he can say) but he just seems like the walking conundrum type to Matt

The short blond appears again that night to Matt’s surprise. He’d almost forgotten the kid existed since he hadn’t seem him since the first time, but now he’s kind of cowering behind his counter with the glare the kid is wearing and wondering what on earth Neil might have done to piss him off so much. He was now also worried for Neil’s continued life, not just his coffee dependency.

So he moves to intervene when Neil looks up like a deer caught in headlights at the other kid but then as matt approaches he sees that the glare in Andrew’s eyes has softened, only a little, and that Neil doesn’t seem to be scared of him so he kind of just lets it be but stands back close enough to be able to intervene in case something happens

So Matt is lingering behind them and he watches as Andrew reaches out his hand toward Neil’s hurt one but pause before he touches it

He doesn’t hear what he says but we all know that he’s asking for permission

and Andrew slowly unwraps the bandage and Neil’s knuckles are all bloody and Andrew just closes his eyes and leads Neil out of the shop

Matt doesn’t see Neil for a while after that

he’s spotted him around campus a couple of times but never in the right place for him to call him and say hi, they’re both always been rushing somewhere

so when he hears a story from a coworker about the kid with the weird caffeine addiction at 3am he decides it’s time to take more night shifts again

and so Neil comes in as he always does. but this time he has come in with the blond whose name Matt still doesn’t know (he learns it’s Andrew) and a tall dark haired boy who towers over them both

Honestly Matt finds it a little funny how they look together but he does not comment because he is scared of Andrew if he’s being honest with himself

Andrew orders his coffee, and Kevin gets some healthy thing that honestly Matt doesn’t really know how to make but whatever he’ll go with it, And Neil orders his two double espressos (by this point Matt knows to just put them in the same damn cup cos it won’t change how quickly the damn kid drinks them)

'I’m still concerned about your caffeine addiction’

'I thought it was a dependency’ Neil responds and Matt is kind of just like uh what how does the kid remember that I don’t understand what what how

'I think it’s both’ Matt shrugs as he makes the drinks. Neil sends Kevin and Andrew over to his usual table and leans on the counter to talk to Matt

Well, he leans on the counter to hum in response to Matt, same thing right>

Matt slides the drinks over a tray with a glass of water as well. Neil picks up the glass of water between two fingers and stares at it quizzically. Matt just sighs and says 'drink the water or I refuse to serve you’ and Neil is like the fuck man what why are you doing this what did I ever do to you ugh you’re worse than Andrew and I don’t even know you

But Neil takes the drinks and stares Matt down as he drinks the water first and then moves onto the coffee

when matt sees that neil has finished the water he is satisfied and walks back over tot he counter

he positions himself so he can still see the group but not so that it’s obvious

he watches and neil pulls out his laptop and starts typing away furiously

he is actually doing an essay this time

so are andrew and kevin

I say essay, he’s working on some super complex math revision for his exam, Andrew and Kevin are writing the essays

but they would have been happy to write them in the dorms

they just came out to make sure neil didn’t kill himself on the amount of caffeine he’s been consuming

Matt slowly worms his way into neil’s life bit by bit

andrew doesn’t glare at him any less

but he appreciates that while matt is serving the caffeine, he is at least trying to make neil drink water at the same time

then neil comes in and he looks really scared and now matt isn’t worried about his caffeine dependency as he tells neil every time he comes into the shop

he’s worried about actual neil

which to be fair he always has been but  now

neil is so much thinner than he used to be and he looks like he wants to run

and matt sees blood

everywhere

but there’s too much of it to all be neil’s and him still be standing so some of it must be someone else’s

but matt can’t put the pieces together properly in his head so instead he follows neil to his usual tables

and he follows the instructions from neil to turn off the lights

and to duck down behind the table

and then he sees someone with a flashlight walking by

ad they’re shining the light into the coffee shop

and he ca . hear neil’s breathing start to get weaker

and matt is now concerned on immeasurable levels

and there’s a concentration of blood coming from his abdomen and matt is like oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck

so he fumbles and grabs some napkins from the stand nearby while trying not to be seen by anyone outside

but when he pulls his phone out to call 911 neil knocks it out of matt’s hand

and matt is just like ok ok no phones great wonderful what the fuck

but neil pulls his own phone out

and he calls 911 himself

and he just stares matt dead in the eyes and says 'my phone is secure’

and now matt is confused beyond epic proportions

because um ok? Who the hell knows about secure lines anyway

and why does this caffeine addicted/dependent ball of grumpy need or have one

but he takes the phone anyway and talks to the person on the end of the line

but then he realises that neil didn’t actually call 911

he called andrew

who is now preparing to storm down to the coffee shop armed with someone named Abby? Matt thinks and he’s making it sound like he knows what he’s doing but honestly matt is just like

ummmmm

what is happening

so Abby gets there with Andrew but she can’t do anything properly to help

so she has to take him to the hospital

matt and andrew are there when neil wakes up

andrew doesn’t say anything

but matt does. He’s concerned

'how are you?’

but neil doesn’t answer that question

instead he just looks at the boht, and the bandage around his chest

and says

'see, my caffeine addiction saved my life

and matt is spluttering indignantly

and Andrew just says 'junkie’

and matt is in a state of disbelief

and he is still confused as to what is actually going on

but it doesn’t seem like either andrew or neil are going to be very forthcoming with answers

so for now he just settle with the idea from neil that maybe they should hang out some time

when matt isn’t serving him coffee

and from his little ball of grumpy, matt considers that a win

[bolbianddolanhouse]

BNHA self insert AU

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Chapter 10: T is for Trouble, and make it Triple

Its the next day of getting that note. So far, only Iida, Mimi and Jin are the only ones that know about the break up. Mimi, Jin and I are trying to keep this under wraps to not bring attention to myself or Amajiki. 

-Thursday, in the Hero classroom before I arrive-

“Iida-kun! I wanted to say this earlier but you look like you’re in better spirits” said Midoriya “anything happened yesterday? You were with Palma-san and her friends almost all afternoon.”

“Oh it’s just that Ita is very good company and her friend made delicious omelettes” Iida said trying not to let anything slip about the plan “They also talked about their upcoming practice exams.”

“Oh I’ve heard about them” spoke up Todoroki “those tests have higher fail rates than ours, but Ita-senpai is smart. I have faith in her to make it farther than the rest.”

“Higher fail rates?! How many people have actually passed that exam?” asked Midoriya.

“Since the establishment of the program, only 5 individuals. But they grade the test by how they adhered to the guidelines rather than how they got defeated.”

“That’s alot of factors and pressure to do well but I really want to see that so I can take some notes.” said Midoriya overthinking the possibilities.

“She told me its going to be broadcasted to the school so we’d be able to watch in real time.” Iida responded.

“We should have a viewing party!” Midoriya exclaimed as I walked in, double fisting two lattes.

“Are you ok? You’re really going hard with those lattes” asked Jiro concerned.

“Yee I’m just trying to not pass out until 8pm” I said levitating myself to my desk “I have so much preparations to do in the next 2 days.”

“Palma-san! is it true your practice exams are going to be broadcasted?” exclaimed Midoriya.

“Oh yes they are, its going to take place next week on Saturday so everyone can tune in without obligations to attend to.”

“Midoriya is proposing to have a viewing party” said Iida standing up “Who in the class would also like to have a viewing party to support Palma-san and her squadron?”

“Oooh! Us! We do! Will there be snacks?” the class erupted with excitement. 

Class starts and we have review group work, I just hope there’s no talk about Mirio because I don’t need the attention draw to me. Fast forward to Saturday when they returned from off campus training, the Big three are slinking away from me in case I got vengeful over the note. Meanwhile, in the dorms, I was doing my chores before everyone starts cooking lunch.

“Palma-san! I saw the bus come back with the 3rd years on my run” panted Uraraka “does that mean you’re going out tonight?”

Fuck, I don’t have an alibi for that, better think fast! “Not tonight! We were texting this morning and I said that I couldn’t go spend time with him because I have aquatic training with my squad.”

“Oh alright, sounds intense” said Uraraka taken back by my response as she walked to her room.

That was close I thought, I can’t hide this forever! Everyone is getting nosey about it. Later that evening, some of the boys go out to the nearby entertainment and food strip.

“Yo theres alot of upperclassmen here” said Sero “wonder what’s going on?”

“Hey! Isn’t that Mirio?” Kaminari said pointing to Mirio and the other two “do you think Palma-san is also here?”

“Can’t be, she said she had training with her team” Sato responded “lets get closer, maybe she gave us the slip and she is here!”

Sero, Sato, Kirishima, Bakugo and Kaminari all got in earshot of the Big three and it was about to get spicy.

“Mirio you have to eat something buddy” coaxed Amajiki putting a grilled meat skewer near his mouth “please? Just a bite?”

Mirio took a bite but only to please Amajiki “I really don’t want to be here guys”

“You know it had to happen Mirio” said Nejire taking a sip of her drink “Heroes and agents don’t mix well. It was either you got serious or she did with your careers.”

“But I still love her! I can’t stop thinking about her! I can only imagine how sad she is right now in her dorm! and what stupid things her friends are talking her into to feel better! I should’ve never caught feelings for Palma-san if I knew how hurt I’d feel now.”

“SHHH Mirio! what if somebody hears?!” said Amajiki shoving the meat skewer in Mirio’s mouth. But it was too late, the boys already heard everything and put 2 and 2 together. They rushed back to the dorms to find answers.

“Oh back so soon?” said Iida.

“WHERE’S PALMA-SAN?!” said Kirishima 

“She isn’t back yet from her training, why do you ask?” Iida asked suspiciously.

“We saw Mirio and he said that he broke up with her!” said Kaminari “poor thing is probably not at training but crying her eyes out and really needs comforting.”

Meanwhile, on the roof of the intelligence dorms. I was smoking some of that good good weed an upperclassman scored for us and shared with some of our classmates.

“Yo this ain’t even smells like weed” I said as I passed the joint “or it might be the 2nd joint that gave me low key brain damage hehehehehe”

“Pass the watermelon Ita! This cottonmouth is killing me!” said Mimi as she was spread out on the blanket.

“Jin aren’t you going to partake in some of this?” asked our classmate Yuka “you had one puff.”

“In a moment, theres some panic going on in the Hero dorms” said Jin holding binoculars, looking out to the hero dorms “If my lip sync skills are correct, I believe they’re looking for you Ita.”

“whaaaaa? why tho?” I said handing Mimi the container of watermelon “I didn’t say anything about this so I am confusion.”

“WAIT! oh bitch they’re talking about something about Mirio” exclaimed Jin “better go before they find out about this on the roof.”

“Dang it! I guess I gotta make it believable that I was at training.” I groaned as I poured water on my hair and sprayed a mix of cucumber water, salt and a little vodka on myself for that just out of the locker room smell. I teleported in and played it cool.

“Hi yall! How was the thing?” 

“PALMA-SAN!” said the 5 boys as they ran toward me for a hug “are you ok? we found out about you and Mirio! What a jerk! wanna talk about it? Do you need comfort?”

“Who told you?!” I said as I panned over to Iida, he mouthed that it wasn’t him.

“When we went to the strip, we saw him and his friends and Mirio said that he broke things off with you and still loves you.” said Bakugo.

“Well it didn’t feel like he did when he broke up with me via handwritten note!” I said faking my breakdown. The boys let me have my shower time and I was in my room drying off and changing into loungewear, hoping nobody would try to talk to me about it. There was a soft knock on my door. Fuck

“Who is it?”

“It’s Tokoyami”

Hmmm maybe this is fine “Ok come in”

“I heard about what happened, how are you feeling?” 

“I’m holding up but it was bound to happen so I’m not too sad.”

“Does that mean you don’t want to be...comforted?” Tokoyami said as he leaned in to my face.

“Oh see your intention” I said before whispering “lock the door and turn off my light.”

The night proceeded with us soft muzzling and kissing ourselves to sleep. In the morning I teleported him back to his room and I walked out of mine like last night didn’t happen. I go into the bathroom with the usual fuckery going on in the background while I do my skincare, the choice of music was some Drake as I emotionally sang to it.

“Um Palma-san, you ok?” asked Kaminari “you’re going a little too hard this morning.”

“This is just how I cope, I’m too dehydrated to keep crying over him.”

“Will a date with me make you feel better?” he said trying to be sly with me.

“A date with you? Please Kaminari, I’m sad, not desperate.”

The boys hollered by the roast I just served to Kaminari. He never really recovered from that roast. I finished my routine and left the bathroom to change, the moment the door closed the boys started to talk.

“Iida this is your second chance!” said Kirishima “when will this happen again?!”

“He’s right Iida-kun” responded Midoriya “she’s at the stage where she needs comforting and company.”

“I know but I can’t just take advantage of her vulnerability like that!” Iida retorted “she has her practice exams next week and I want her to focus on those rather trying to kindle another relationship.”

“Ok but what if she gets swept off her feet again?” questioned Tokoyami “you know she's the type to kiss around.”

“No matter! I will ask when she has time to focus on a relationship because I want to get serious with her” he said shutting off the water “I know her better than anyone else here, there’s no way I’m letting go of her.”

Fast forward to Monday, I set off to ‘run’ into Amajiki during my free period. Lucky for me, he was alone walking along the faculty hall.

“Hi Amajiki.”

“Oh! uhh Palma-san hello”

“Sorry to ask but has Mirio responded to any of your texts? Because I think he blocked my number.”

“Um I’m actually not sure.”

“Oh, I see, well if you see him, can you give him this?” I said as I gave him a note with Togata Mirio written in blue glitter pen.

Amajiki takes the note and starts to get anxiety on what’s on the note “You aren’t mad at Mirio are you?”

“Well, I’m a bit sad but I suppose it was bound to happen since the age gap and how serious he is to be a hero.”

“Oh ok so you’re understanding of everything” he said relieved “I’ll give this to him then.”

“Cool thank you so much- hey you have something on your...cheek there, here let me.” I said as I pretended to brush off an eyelash with my hand on his face.

“Oh uhh thanks Palma-san” he said as he trembled and blushed “take care now.”

Success! I copied the quirk to do some practice. Meanwhile, after school as the big three walked home.

“Oh here Mirio, Palma-san asked me to give you this.”

“YOU SAW HER AND DIDN’T TELL ME SOONER!?” exclaimed Mirio as he took the note and read it.

“Yeah I ran into her during my free period and she didn’t look sad.”

“She wrote that she’s understanding on why and just is asking to be my friend” Mirio said holding the note up to his face “it even smells like her! My heart doesn’t want friendship though, I want intimacy and marriage.”

“Mirio that’s so bold of you to say at a girl you’ve known for only 2 months.” said Nejire

“She also said we’ll talk it over after her exams, maybe there’s hope for us”

The days leading up to the exam, I managed to copy Amajiki’s quirk one more time  and perfected it as much as time allowed me. It’s the afternoon I leave to go take my exam at the simulated disaster zones off campus, the hero class see me off.

“BYE PALMA-SAN! We’ll be watching and rooting for you and your team!”

“Aww guys, yall too sweet!”

“Ita do your absolute best” Iida said going in with a tight hug “I have so much faith in you to pass and bring honor to our school.”

“Oh jeez you’re squeezing the soul outta me again!” struggled to say “but I’ll be safe, I have a few tricks up my sleeve.”

“Ready to board Miss Palma?” said Diya sensei from inside the bus.

“Be right there!” I yelled as Iida released me from his embrace “Bye bye yall!”

“Here before you go” Iida said grabbing my hand and gently kissing it “there, a kiss to seal in your victory and safe return.”

I board the bus with Mimi, Jin and 6 other 3rd years in our program. A 2 hour drive later and we arrive at our accommodations to rest and have our exam the next day. I lay in my cot and think, man those 3 are in for a nasty surprise if I get that far. It’s the next day and I suit up with Mimi and Jin.

“Oof yall! I can hardly contain myself!” said Mimi.

“yee yee! I saw the ‘pro heroes’ we’re going against, and those 3 are in the mix” slid in Jin with the fact.

“Yall ready to make them eat our ass?” I said to pump them up.

“YEET! YA YEET YA!” we chanted and whipped as we left the changing room to get to out assigned corridor.

*cut to the hero class and their viewing party*

“So nice of class 1-B and some of general ed to come and support Palma-san” said Uraraka as she sat down next to Midoriya.

“Pretty sure some of them are just here for the food.” said Mina.

“EVERYONE QUIET! Our beloved classmate is about to get announced!” said Iida turning up the volume on the speaker.

“Humph! don’t see how special this classmate of theirs is if they’re taking some practice exam.” said 1-B student Monoma

“Shut it Neito!” retorted 1-B class rep Kendo “she’s in their class and also in the Intelligence program! She’s one of the most powerful students of our grade and from what they’ve been telling me, also very talented and lovely to be around.”

“Powerful huh?” scoffed general ed student Shinso “lets see about that.”

“Hello to all the folks at UA tuning in to our Practice Exam broadcast! Our selected squadrons are rolling in and looking confident!”

“That’s right! We have some 1st years in the mix too! And for the first time in UA history, all three of the 1st year squadron are international students! Let’s introduce them to the ones back home first!”

“We have Jin Matsui, Korean born with a tactful Portal quirk. Next, Milana Mikhalia Oleshin, Russian born with a killer Scope quirk. And finally Itati Palma, American born with a DOUBLE WHAMY of Mid-range Telekinesis and Copy!”

“What a unique spread of countries and quirks! According to their sensei, they have amazing chemistry between them on and off the field. Let’s see how far they can go on the Pro-Hero takedown! But first a word for our sponsors!”

“Which one is your classmate?” asked Monoma

“Palma-san! Did you see how cool she posed with her team?!” responded Midoriya.

“Huh, so she has copy too? and telekinesis? How come I’ve never seen her with your class?” questioned Monoma.

“Oh she’s in our Ethics and Law class but she also trains and dorms with us.” Shoji butted in.

“Wow! she sounds like a well rounded person!” said Kendo “wonder if she’d train with us too.”

*cut back to the exam*

We line up at the starting line, getting our nervous wiggles out. 

“Ok we’re the last ones to go and the other’s didn’t make it too far” I said to Mimi and Jin “deep breath team! I know we can make it past the mid point!”

“My motivation to get make it to the big three at the end and serve some justice!” Mimi said as she flexed “everyone remember the finishing move?”

“Yee yee!” Jin and I hollered.

“Ok and lastly, our 1st years are at the starting line! And look at them chanting! Amazing display of camaraderie!”

“Rules again for the folks back home is that the goal is to stun or detain our pro-heroes before reaching the end. Team work is crucial to take down these up and coming heroes! We have UA’s Big Three at the final stretch, if they make it that far!”

“Squadron! Are you ready to take the exam?! Take your mark, get set...GO GO GO!”

We take off and like expected, a group tried to swarm us to soon and we did the endless loop to detain them in nets and move on. A group of 3 tried to separate us with invisible walls but I flexed on them and I levitated one of them and ran them into their team mates to release the walls and we stunned them once the walls were down. A fire user thought they were clever by trapping us in a fire circle, Jin portaled us out of the circle as I did close combat to copy their quirk and get them distracted for Mimi to hit them with the stun. We get to the midpoint and it’s the water portion, I just used the fire to boil the water so all the water users jump out and get netted.

“UNBELIEVABLE! That American student is one stone cold fighter! That Russian student never misses the shot either! Oh and that Korean student using their portals for more than escaping is refreshing.”

“I don’t believe it either! Folks our 1st year squadron has now surpassed the midpoint and are beyond where our other 2 teams stopped. We might have a completion on our hands today.”

We stun another 3 that tried to rush us and I spot Amajiki in the sky, flying back and forth over an area. I call out to Mimi to toss me so I can start our Big three takedown plan. Amajiki doesn’t see me come straight for him and teleport him back a ways before the midpoint to a toppled building area. I do some quick slaps and land one on his face and hold him down in a submission knot to distract him from taking his cape and putting him in a quadruple cuff to detain him. As I’m going through his vest pockets to find the octopus, he speaks.

“You’re here?! This is you’re exam that you were training for?!”

“Yep!”

“But what will taking my cape and look through my pockets help you?”

“This” I said as I found the octopus and ate it to transform my arms into tentacles.

His eyes widen with realization “Y-y-you lied to us! You did have a second quirk! But why?”

“Oh sweet, innocent Amajiki” I said grabbing him by the collar “I knew all about you three looking through my file and trying to convert me to become a hero! And such a pity, we could’ve been good friends.”

“No! don’t hurt Mirio or Nejire! STOP!” he said trying to struggle out of the cuffs as I teleported back to the others.

Jin and Mimi detain Nejire in a net with Jin’s distraction dance. Before I get to them, Mirio starts his attack on them. I teleport in the air above Nejire and I get in Mirio’s field of vision. He sees the caped figure and calls out Amajiki’s name to help him, just as planned. I get closer and wrap him in my tentacle arms.

“Amajiki what the-” Mirio takes a closer look and sees that it’s not his friend but me “Palma-san? Love what are you doing?!”

“I know everything Mirio, the file and your plan to convert me. It’s game over sweetheart!” I say as I signal for the finisher.

We get in a tussle and I barely managed to graze my hand on his face. He uses his quirk but holds back his punches. 

“I can’t hurt you love! I still love you I never meant to hurt you or change you! Can you find it in your heart to forgive me and get back together with me?”

“No! You are no hero and no love of mine! I’ll NEVER FORGIVE YOU!” I yelled as I lured him in the formation.

“I’m not letting you win!” he said as he pinned my arms to my sides to prevent me from using my telekinesis. I took a deep breath and activated my copy of his quirk and slipped out of his grip and into my position. We T-posed and I levitated my stun rods to deploy an area shock that will stun anything in the middle of the users. Mirio gets stunned and we cross the finish line hand in hand. A very nice staff member gave me a robe to cover up before they did our close up.

“I am in shock! These 1st years completed the exam, making them the first international students to complete the exam! Double history was made for UA today folks, while we wait for the final scores, lets replay that finishing move for the folks back home!”

Cut to the viewing party, everyone had their jaws on the floor. They couldn’t believe how well executed we took down the Big Three.

“What amazing power your classmate has!” Kendo spoke up “Her tact and chemistry is something else and with those 2, I can only dream of having that type of cooperation.”

“AHHHH! PALMA-SAN HAD TO TAKE DOWN MIRIO?!” yelled Hagakure “what a twist of events that they broke up then had to fight each other!”

“I wonder if they’re alright” muttered Aoyama “lovers as themselves must’ve exchanged a dramatic dialogue!”

*Cut back to the heroes getting released and gaining conscience*

 Amajiki and Nejire hover over Mirio.

“Mirio? Are you ok buddy?” asked Amajiki.

“She lied to us and found out about everything” said Mirio “I feel like such a fool! I got blinded by my feelings for her that I didn’t even see that she was only with me to use my quirk against me.”

The other two just silently picked him up and walked to the sideline, Mirio was still holding Palma’s jumpsuit. He asked around and found his way to the their changing room to return her jumpsuit.

“Yo yo yo! watcha doin back here naked man?!” said Jin with hand motions.

“Yee yee bucko! You hungry for another ass whoopin?!” menaced Mimi pounding her fist into her hand.

“No I was just returning Palma-san’s jumpsuit and boots” he said peering over Mimi to see me laying down on a cushioned bench with a heated blanket “Is she ok? Did she get injured?!”

“No she just over-exerted herself” said Diya sensei walking in with a bowl of chopped cucumber and melon “She was on the verge of passing out when she passed the finish line but she fought well and it paid off. She deserves some rest and some fresh fruits.”

Mirio went up to the bench and sat in front of her weakened body.

“Love?”

“Don’t call me that”

“Right, sorry...good job out there!”

“Thanks” I said eating some cucumber.

“I’m sorry, about everything, I stayed with you out of love. I want to make it up to you” he said as he bowed with his hand out “Will you get back with me with the intention of being my life partner?”

“Mirio, look at me, stare deeply into my eyes” I commanded him as he looked up “Listen to me close, there is NOTHING you can do or give me that will make me want to forgive or go back with you.” I stood up and got my uniform to put away.

“But I can’t shake these feelings of love for you! Please I swear I’ll-”

“STOP! Promise me something Mirio, when you have children and they want follow a different path, don’t change them like you tried with me.” I said as I folded my suit into it’s case.

“I’ll never forget you, you’ll always be my love” he said as he walked out of the changing room.

What a weirdo I think pretty sure he’ll move on to the next one and the feeling will go away. I change into a tracksuit to see the other schools taking the exam with their pro-heroes. 3 other schools have made it to their top 3 but didn’t pass. It was the end of the exams and we all wash up and pack to leave in the morning. We board the bus and I joke with the others that I hope the bus doesn’t breakdown again. We all have a nice time and the bus doesn’t breakdown, upon arriving at the school, there was a welcome party for us.

“Looks like your classmates tuned in and saw your victory.” said Diya sensei as we pulled up to unload.

Once Mimi, Jin and I got down, we got swarmed by the intel and hero 1-A classes.

“VICTORY FOR THE FIRST YEARS!” Everyone chanted as they hoisted us up.

“Guys! yall are too much!” I said flustered “thank you so much for your support and faith in us! We couldn’t have succeeded without it!”

“She’s so short up close” said Monoma “pretty too, I see how the number 1 student took fancy of her.”

“She’s so sweet in person! Sweeter than I thought, what do you think Shinso?” asked Kendo to a dazed Shinso. He didn’t hear her, he was too busy staring at Palma in her pink tracksuit as she talked to her fawning classmates. He was enamored by her equal parts powerful and soft features, like a cat.

“Hmm? Oh yea she seems nice” he said snapping out it “Midoriya tells me her copy is stronger than Monoma’s.”

“I heard that Hitoshi!” said Monoma booty tickled “what are you trying to say huh? That some agent is surpassing me!? HA! don’t make me laugh!”

“She can copy and control double quirks for more that 5 minutes at a time” Shinso said bluntly “so in a fight against you, not only are you helpless but she could be hiding a copy of a quirk she copied earlier and use it against you. Then bam, you’re done for in less than 5 minutes.”

“You should ask her to help you train Monoma!” said Kendo “she can show you new techniques for the final exam to get into 1-A!”

We get inside the school for Recovery Girl to check for any serious injuries to our bodies since we did over exert ourselves.

“oh dear, you three have severe bruising and some burns and cuts!” Recovery Girl exclaimed to Mimi, Jin and I “I can heal you but you must rest! Come by for another check up on Wednesday but until then, ease up on the quirk training.”

“Yes ma’am” we said weakly.

I go to the dorms and go to my room and see a bunch of flowers in vases and cards from different people. I got soft and gasped at the sight! I got flowers from Midnight, All Might, The girls, Tokoyami, Iida, intel 1-A and my case worker. I laid down to read all the cards and I got a knock on my door.

“who is it?”

“it’s Tenya”

“Come in”

“Oh there’s more flowers in here than I remembered but how was your medical exam?”

“I was pretty roughed up to where I have to ease up on the quirk training” I said taking off my jacket to show my battle wounds “I got scratched up and bruised with some burns all over my body but Recovery Girl patched me up pretty well.”

“That looks terrible! Is there anything I could do to help?”

“Well if its not too much to ask” I said shyly “can I get a back massage? My back is killing me.”

“Of course! anything for you!”

 I lay on my stomach on my bed and he nervously puts his hands on me. He wasn’t doing a bad job but it did the trick and I was getting relaxed and soothed.

“Thank you Tenya” I said softly “I appreciate all you’re efforts to make me feel better. Any girl would be lucky to have you.”

“Oh funny that you say that hehe” he said nervously “I feel like Mirio didn’t deserve you, I still can’t believe you put up with him.”

“He told me when he saw me on the exam field that he can’t hurt me because he still loves me” I said rolling my eyes “he even had the nerve to go to the changing room I was in, weakened and all, and asked me to take him back with the intention of being his life partner.”

“Well, what did you say?”

“I said hell no! I don’t care if he still had feelings for me, nothing would be the same anymore plus, I don’t think I want to involve myself with anybody for a while” I said groaning as Iida rubbed a little too hard “you hero boys are a bit much for me, all yall wanna do is train and compete with each other.”

“Well that’s good that you want to ease off the dating scene” Iida said going in for the serious question “what type of boy would you want to be life partners with then?”

“Hmmm, I don’t care for looks or power but I really like the type that makes me think the real questions of life, that can make me laugh and that is after my intellect and emotions.”

“Are you going to be kissing around?”

“Nah, it stopped being fun when they started catching feelings. I got two other confessions from guys in my program that I kissed once and they suddenly want to date. I had my fun, time to get a bit more serious with myself.”

Iida felt relieved, he doesn’t have to worry about losing her anytime soon. “Wow, this whole passing your exam thing really shaped you up to change huh? But I kind of like it, it makes you more mature.”

I blush and he notices, he runs his hands up and down my back. I felt a pain in my abdomen and winced in pain. Frick, is it that time of the month already?!

“Oh sorry did I hurt you?”

“No! I got a bad stomach cramp, I’ll be fine.” I said sitting up.

“That won’t do! I make you some food and tea, it is almost dinner time” he said getting up to leave my room “just relax and I’ll come get you when it’s ready.”

As soon as he leaves I lock the door and check myself for stains, not yet but I know it’s coming soon. I check my supply of feminine hygiene products and I am running low. I guess I have to ask Midnight tomorrow for some more, ever since entering school here, she’s been helping me with those things. I change into dark colored leggings and a pad to be on the safe side. Iida is getting in the cooking zone and everyone is noticing.

“Iida-kun you’re getting very into cooking” said Midoriya “what are you making?”

“I’m just cooking some dinner for Ita, shes not feeling well and is very bruised up.”

“Soooo, did you tell her?” said Kirishima sliding in “you were in her room for a long while~”

“I just talked to her about things, I massaged her back and saw all the damaged she sustained. Poor girl really went through alot that day.”

“You didn’t tell her your feelings?! Then when will you?!”

“She said something that made me feel like she's not going to be involving herself with anyone anytime soon.”

“Alright but I’m just saying Iida-kun, she isn’t one to wait too long” warned Kirishima “also did you make enough for us?”

“No well... depends how much Ita eats” Iida said walking toward her room “Hey I finished making the food, come out.”

“Coming!” I said as I opened the door and wobbled out “curse these knees! they’re giving out on me at the ripe age of 15!”

“Please allow me” Iida said scooping me up and carried me to my usual eating spot “You have to rest your legs too!”

Everyone was staring at the display and I was embarrassed because I really don’t like being carried. He sits me down and serves my plate and tea and sits next to me. I didn’t really think much of it because I was excited to eat! I try to keep the fork still as I brought some food to my mouth but my arms were wobbling too.

“Oof, I’m more injured than I thought! can’t even feed myself normally” I sighed as I picked up another bite.

“Here let me” Iida said getting the spoon and feeding me.

“I’m not a child Tenya I can feed myself!” I said struggling to feed myself and missing my mouth completely. Defeated, I said “ok maybe just this once you can.”

He feeds me and everyone was enamored by the gesture and my faces when I get fed. When I had enough, I wanted to lay down again because I took some pain medication to help me sleep a full 8 hours without pain. Iida asked me if I would spend some time with him on the couch, watching a movie. I agree but to my surprise it was Shrek but only because he hasn’t watched it and doesn’t understand the memes. Somewhere during the traveling to Lord Farquad’s castle with Fiona, my meds kick in and I fall asleep on his shoulder. Iida misinterprets this as making a move on him so he puts his arm around me. He then proceeds to profess his feelings to me,

“Ok I’m just going to say it, just listen ok Ita. I like you, more than friends, ever since that day I asked to walk you home. Your intellect and grace captivates me and your beauty is a true rarity. I like our time together and making you happy because it makes me happy. I know it’s too soon from your relationship with Mirio but I want to let you know, I wouldn’t change a single thing about you. You’re perfect and I want to be your one and only love.... Ita?” he said passionately until he didn’t hear a response from me. He checked my breathing and saw that I fell asleep. Feeling a bit embarrassed, he turned off the TV and carried me to my room to tuck me in. As he turned to go to his room, he looked back at me and gave a gentle kiss on the forehead before heading out. Iida thinks about what’s going to happen now that I’m starting to get serious with coursework and developing as a person, when will he kindle this flame?

-End Chapter 10-

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