#might add more here unless i forgor

[berrybeaks]

greetings chilfuckers

this is a blog to satisfy my chilaios brain (may reblog the occasional non-chilaios dunmeshi content as well) prolly wont tag my posts because lazy not spoiler free and everything here will be unhinged, proceed at your own risk

[carmenized-onions]

Howdy! I’m here to do the thing. Gotta be honest I was nervous that it would be too much but I trust that you will tell me to go away if it does. I have a Monday deadline!!

- We’re at the diner! Oh the callbacks.

- “You stopped being an EMT to take up the handyman shit, then?”

- Oh man, I didn’t realize that this was an assumption that was made by Syd that Tony corroborated. Could that mean it��s not true???? Ring the alarm I have a conspiracy. In my reread I realize this might not be true. Ahh unless??? Nah..UNLESS

- Hasn’t even poked at you for vanishing. Though you have a feeling it’s coming. If not from him, from someone.

- The foreshadowing is delicious. You’re so smart!!

- Richie and you both know that his hotfix handiwork has absolutely contributed to this penultimate mess you’re in now, but you’re both letting that go quietly for now. “You charge by hour or service?”

- I’ve been coming back to this a lot. This feels like such a management/owner question and it shows that although Richie isn’t a partial owner of the restaurant, he is 1000% fully locked in. He cares that his previous mistakes could cost The Bear more money when they are already in the hole with Uncle Jimmy. I dunno, it’s very special to me.

- The Tina/Tony beat is also so special to me!! I can’t even pick out a stand out line because it’s all stellar. Tony is shown that she is cared for and missed, like a “I missed you when you were gone” message anxiety brain dismisses all the nice things to hyper-fixate on the “you were gone” and enters in more self hate. Oh my heart.

- “Is Carmy fine?””I feel better””no the nickname” had me rolling! Top tier comedy gold.

- You nod down at the dish. “Do the thing.” I have to give you so much credit for the way you write food, I know you’ve mentioned that it is something you work really hard on, and it totally pays off. Go little rockstar.

- The care and attention that is put into the individual coffee orders. Ahhh there is so much love there!!

- “I know you’re a Michelin star fuckin’ big deal but like, me personally, I can’t name a thing I got perfect the first time I did it.” This is so special to me. I have tears in my eyes.

- “Your opening night was definitely a bummer from being in a freezer— But be honest with yourself, would you have let yourself have a good night if you weren’t in there?” READ HIM FOR FILTH TONY.

- “Ah, don’t worry ‘bout that, your brother already covered it.” VERY SNEAKY.

- Ah. There it is. For a Bear, she sure knows how to poke one. FANTASTIC WRITING.

- “You’re a real lifesaver.” It’s not Tony’s job to save everyone!!!! Grown people make their grown choices. I will die on this hill. Oh but it’s such a hard message to internalize. My poor heart.

HERE TO DO THE THING HAAAA GOT MEEE. You're never doing too much!! Holy shit that's another chapter!! we're both geniuses!! Anyways, let's JUMP IN doin a keep reading i forgor last time

I won't confirm or deny anything, but I will say, Tony does what she can to not lie. Sometimes she's sneaky. but she's genuinely in my opinion a canonically bad liar, so the only way she can do it is by omission. BUT WHOS TO SAAYYY, UNLESSSSS

Yes to everything abt Richie!! That mf is big on fixing his mistakes, it's absolutely one of my favourite traits about him. That bitch RIGHTS HIS WRONGS!! I wish so desperately he was given a portion of the ownership. Maybe season 4.... maybe.

I wish there were more times I could fit Tina/Tony in. I have in my own brain what their relationship was/is, and I think it's displayed very well in the small moments that they have together, but this one from chapter 2 where they really get to sit in it--- God I love em. I think it also in comparison to future chapters displays the way it takes Tony a second to find her groove again, not knowing how she slots in yet.

SO I HAVE TO ADD-- I don't know if you've read something to do, yet-- If you haven't, close your eyes. so I wrote that break the ice moment to directly mimic the is carmy fine misunderstanding, i really-- i loved so dearly mimicking their first interactions in that

OPEN YOUR EYES AGAIN. I'm so thankful the food writing is worth it. This brisket was based off of the pork brisket a friend made me, basically just like this-- fucking incredible, marone, my GOD. but every time i do michelin shit? I'm in hell. i'm sticking with le pavillion from now on, I can't handle thomas keller's bullshit.

It was fun for me as the writer to consider everyone's coffee orders, a lot of love from me for these characters!! I feel like they all fit p well. if they ever do a coffee run in the show and my orders aren't accurate bro. it's so OVER for me.

Tony fuckin' took Carmen to task, this chapter-- Which is so funny in retrospect. It makes perfect sense why she did-- but it just makes me think of like, if Tony watched someone else get fucking BLASTED in her place in Just Dropped--- BROO,,,, SHE WOULD'VE BEAT HIS ASSSS

I'M A LITTLE SNEAKKKYYY, I'M A LITTLE SNEAKY LITTLE BEAR POKING SNEAK!!!

And 100% very much so it aint Tony's fuckin responsibility, and I hope one day this saviour complex bitch will get that lesson. fingers crossed on the keyboard, truly.