#midnight's rambles

[midnight-and-his-melodiverse]

Our family cat passed away a month ago. :(( I've been musically creative to fill the void of losing a pet but my writing fire has mysteriously just extinguished.

[midnightfire1222]

I think I wanna make Genesis AU Sonic a bit shorter than Amy, at least when he's in his normal form.

[midnighthybrid1]

Who do you thinks gonna end up abstracting?

Well this is a bit of an old question buuuuut:

Hm.... honestly, I'm not sure! There's a case that could be made for literally any of them abstracting, especially with the episodes all slowly revealing more and more canon things about each character's mental state. Surprisingly (or unsurprisingly?) I think the least likely ones to abstract would be Pomni, Zooble, and Kinger mostly. Kinger because he's just so crazy most of the time that- well- he can't exactly give into the abstraction, while Pomni and Zooble just seem to be doing the 'best' mentally, even if they do have their own mental hang ups. It does make some sense, if you consider the fact that those two have been there the least amount of time compared to everyone else.

But back to the previous question- that leavesss Ragatha, Jax, and Gangle to possibly abstract. If we're going by just the players, I would guess that Ragatha would be the first of those three to fully give into the abstraction. Gangle is obviously not doing the best, but she has more of a support system to fall back on than either Jax or Ragatha do. Jax, meanwhile, has somewhat fallen into a mindset that he doesn't necessarily care what the others think of him, and that he can do whatever he wants in the digital world without consequence. As long as nothing breaks this attitude of his- which I could see happening, but thus far has only sort of happened in this latest Spudsy's episode- I think he'd be fine. Ragatha, meanwhile, is liked in the circus. She, however, hates upsetting people, and does not have much of a real support system to fall back onto. She masks most of her opinions on things, and would probably mask when she's feeling genuinely upset about bigger things. Her rambling in the very first episode also makes me wonder how close to her 'breaking point' she really is.

Here's a bit of a plot twist, though- I actually think Caine is more likely to crash out or get close to it BEFORE any of the main cast abstract. The third episode had him slowly start bugging out as Zooble told him off about his adventures, and then right after Gangle left him in his office in the most recent episode he began to bug out as well. Goose has also hinted that there will be some 'Caine angst' during the show as well, which leads me to believe that his glitching and the breaking down of the system will only get worse with the episodes to come. Whether this is a good thing for the players- where he breaks down and their minds are maaagically taken back to their bodies at the cost of his life- or a bad thing for them- where he breaks down, the system breaks down, and then they either end up dead or forever trapped in this endless Void with nothing to distract them from the nothingness of this world- I am unsure. I could see it going either way.

TLDR: So far I could see Ragatha abstracting first of the main cast, but Caine might get close to or ACTUALLY break down before that.

I'm sure everything I've said up to this point will be proven WRONG in the future, but for now those are my thoughts! Apologies this got super long, I kind of just let myself type my stream of consciousness here haha. Thank you for the question!

[themidnightwholistic]

I love Applebee's after the closing show of a musical <3

[midnight-and-his-melodiverse]

now this. this is fucking beautiful, and a great message hidden within the greatest block game of all time <33

and the universe said i love you because you are love

[yume-fanfare]

SILENCE

the princess

is :3ing

[eira-kuso]

If anyone wants me to say my opinion on a character with this bingo

[teaboot]

Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.

This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.

You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.

For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.

White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.

Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.

Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.

The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.

There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.

The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"

You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.

Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.

Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.

Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.

If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.

If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.

When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".

[halichor]

"Who will heed your pleas to escape this nightmare, when your goddess lies in deep slumber, still lost in her dream?"

[jone-slugger]

One thing I truly appreciate about Voyager is just how long it takes them to contact Starfleet. They aren't even able to inform them they are alive until season 4, and it takes them until well into season 6 to actually be able to talk to them. I truly truly appreciate the commitment.

Like, it would have been easy enough to invent any excuse and have Voyager establish contact with Earth after the first season. But no, the crew is truly stranded in every sense of the word. And that makes it even more special when they finally make contact.

[midnight-and-his-melodiverse]

OMG I TOTALLY FORGOT. the melodiverse is 2 years old!!! YIPPEEE

[midnightfire1222]

Should I release a new chapter for Wars of the Heart tomorrow? I've been thinking about it.

[midnighthybrid1]

Hello are you doing tsams stuff??

I saw some of poppy playtime and some digital circus art and ocs, i like jingle jangle, just a silly little guy <3

I won't lie, I draw and post just about anything that I'm particularly in the mood for at the moment haha

I haven't done as much TSAMS stuff as of late, but I rly enjoy a lot of plot elements from it and have a bunch of ideas for more AUs/on how to expand upon some AUs for it that I've made. Maybe I'll post some more on it in the future? I'd just need a good idea on what to doodle for it- perhaps some tune ups on some designs I've done for the characters in it, hmmmm...

Also, thank you sm! I have SOOO many Poppy Playtime OCs that I need to post about maaaan, so many silly guys to make posts about

[bunnieswithknives]

Read a fic with Anti fairy dale.

[solar-sunnyside-up]

When I say I am not waiting for revolution, I mean Im planting things secretly at bus stops, and shoveling snow out of the way of crosswalks. I mean it in a way where neighbors are stocking community fridges and harvesting in community gardens. Little libraries and strangers giving you shoes bc they couldnt return them. I mean ppl swapping stuff or loaning it out to neighbors theyve just met. I mean it in a way where a friend who can sew asks me to mend something and a week late brings me cookies as thanks. I mean it in the way a friend makes a playlist for you and it truly brighten your day. These tiny acts of defiance against cruelty and profit are their own  revolutions. And they catch like kindling, small going at first you might not even know that flames there. Than suddenly all at once catching, burning in the darkness of the night.

[petrichor-poet]

I wasn't made for flings or situationships. I was made for falling head over heels in love with someone who loves me.