#messed up my tempo i’m so fucking sorry exo

[popgirlchic]

just watched whiplash. the mental fortitude of neiman wow……… bitch i’d kill myself on the first day as a core the fuck! i remember doing a clapping tempo test in jazz band and my prof graded me a FOUR out of ten. said my grade out loud for the whole band to hear then acted like he didn’t absolutely decimate me and moved on to testing the next student like it was nothing

[cosmiclatte28]

TEMPO (Racer!reader x sehun, nct, exo) #5 end

yay you made it to the last chapter 

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Sehun furiously left her with big question mark. Well the man he saw over her shoulder was Luhan. And Sehun knows this whole drama was of course Luhan’s plan. Only Luhan in his family who knows about (y/n) and he clearly warns Sehun to not fall in love with her. But love is a burst of emotion we can’t control right?

Sehun reaches his apartment and sits down on the big sofa. He waits for Luhan to enter the room too. They need to talk.

After a good ten minutes, Luhan enters the room with his innocent angelic face.

“You’re back early! Usually you come back late.. how’s the lesson?” Luhan drops the groceries in the kitchen table and begins stacking them in the fridge.

“What is your plan? You play dirty behind me.” Sehun scowls.

“What do you mean? I’m only back from grocery shopping.” Luhan calmly replies while stacking the oranges.

“(Y/n)! You.. you told dad right to send her to the riding school?! I clearly saw the company’s name..” Sehun frustratedly yells.

“Isn’t it nice of me? That poor girl really wants to enroll in that nice school!”

“No Luhan. Your true intention is not helping her reach her dreams.” Sehun glares into his brother. He stood up from the sofa already and faces Luhan

“Don’t care what my intention was… it’s a mutualistic symbiosis! I get to save you from doing a big mistake, and that girl.. will pursue her dream!” Luhan fixes the shopping bag and walks with a can of cold beer.

“You really hate me don’t you?” Sehun balls his fist.

“Me? I love you so much that I am keeping you on the right track. Wake up Sehun you know she’s way out of your league.” The older man calmly chugs on his beer.

“Bold of you to assume I love her,” Sehun stutters.

“You clearly have hearts on your eyes whenever you talk about her or come back from a walk with her. And you’re stuttering honey. Trust me this is for the best. One day you’ll thank me.” Luhan brushes Sehun’s shoulder and opens his door. “Oh! Right she’s leaving soon .. in two days? You better send her off for the last time.” He winks and closes his door.

Furious, Sehun grabs his car keys and speeds up to the place where he can find her.

Sehun reaches her small apartment after 30 minutes drive. He parks his car and jogs to her floor. Well he gained her apartment address when she scored A in logarithm. The tall man reads the number in each door along the hallway. It’s his first visit and come to think of it he did not bring anything! He mumbles her room number and stops when he finds the room.

He presses the bell and waits. Now what should he say? He waits nervously on the front door and when he’s about to press the button again the door unlocks.

Sehun freezes in his spot and blood clearly drowns from his face. He looks white as a ghost!

“Kai?” Sehun finally found his soul back.

“Um.. (y/n) is inside.. I’ll call her..” Kai awkwardly greets him.

“Well.. I’m sorry if I bother the two of you..” Sehun is at the moment confused, surprised, mad, and heart broken.

“Who’s it?” (y/n) pops beside Kai, “Ah Sehun-ah! You’re here?” she sounds confused.

“I can leave..” Kai knows Sehun did not expect him here.

“Well, I can wait until you two are finished. (Y/n), I need to talk just two of us.. I’ll wait in the minimarket across the street.” Sehun brings his hand to his neck and walks away.

“Okay give me a moment.” She disappears behind the door, and Sehun slowly leave.

Just as Sehun has finished picking his drink and paying a box of cigarette, he sees (y/n) crossing the road from the distance. She looks okay despite Sehun’s sudden decision that afternoon to leave her alone and suddenly appears in front of her door.

The two teenagers take a sit on the place provided in the terrace. Sehun offers her a stick, which she gladly receive. They share the fire and sit in silent with blowing smokes.

“So.. what makes you drive all the way here?” She begins.

“I.. feel like it’s not good of me to leave you alone this afternoon. I just have a lot in my head.”

“Well you can share, I’m all ears.” She looks into his eyes.

Sehun stares back.. so.. this is the girl Kai’s dating now? Are they a thing?? Why is Kai in her room… and .. why Kai?!

“Before that.. congratulations.. I didn’t know you’re with someone already.” Sehun embarrassedly congratulates her.

She breaks into a loud laugh, “Wait.. I think you get that wrong. I’m not with Kai!”

Sehun’s face clearly shows relief and embarrassment. “Ah~ sorry.. why is he there?”

“He lost a bet.. he has to clean up my room.. promise it’s just that,” she raises two peace sign, “Anyways, what do you want to talk to me in private?”

Sehun hesitates “Don’t take the offer.”

(y/n) clearly looks flabbergasted and dejected “What do you mean Sehun?”

“I think.. it’s not suitable for you.. it’ll be too hard.” Sehun fiddles with his fingers. Bullshit, he knows she belongs in the track, and he knows if she’s trained well she may become a professional player.

There’s a silence. Clearly the air between them is thick.

“Is that what you see me as? You see me as someone weak and incompatible with the race track?” her voice shakes.

Sehun feels he made another wrong move, but he must stand to his ground.. she must not leave.

“그냥… you won’t make it.” He forces himself to speak those words. Maybe by telling the truth she will listen to him.

Sadly Sehun chose the wrong storyline.

“I won’t make it?! Yak! Oh Sehun.. who are you? You barely know me for three months and right when the golden opportunity comes to me… for me to accomplish my dream.. you out of the blue stopped me. Who do you think you are?” she clearly jumps two octaves.

“The world is cruel! They won’t choose you! You’ll probably leave the school after a month, coz you can’t stand it.. or your sponsor gave up on you.” Sehun spits out facts and probabilities. He knows he is a bastard for saying this to her, but Sehun knows the dirty game his family is willing to play.

“Sehun, I don’t know where things go wrong.. but you’re a real dick for doing this. Fine. If you don’t want me to go, you might simply leave me on my own. I don’t need your sugar coated attentions. Turns out this is the real you.” She hits the table and stares to anything other than me. Sound of hatred and annoyance is clearly recorded in my mind.

“Look.. I’m sorry.. my words are too harsh.. but.. I’m keeping you away from the danger.” Sehun tries to coax her.

“Fuck off Sehun. You made yourself clear. You don’t want me reaching my goals, but I made my decision and you made it even clear. I am leaving for my riding school. Bye Sehun, you don’t have to send me off. You’re the last thing I wanted to see.” She steps on her cigarette bud and leaves without sparing her last glance to me.

She crosses the road hurriedly and runs to her room. Sehun sits in silence watching his dream goes.

“Great Sehun.. you totally ruined it.” Sehun curses to himself. He cleans his mess and stops when a man sits beside him.

“Sehun-ah, it’s been a while..”

Sehun glances to his side, and holds his anger in. Why must this man appears in his life AGAIN.

“What?” Sehun spits short questions.

“Nothing.. just I saw you’re alone.. finished the talk quick eh?” Kai smirks.

“What do you need? I need to go home.”

“Ah right, babies should be home by ten. Right now it’s–“ kai glances to his watch –“ah I just need 5 minutes!”

“You’re pulling my nerves.” Sehun grits his teeth.

“Come back Sehun.” Kai smiles.

“Eh?”

“Come for a drink with us this Sunday. We miss you and did you know your friends are now quite close with us?” Kai raises his brow

Sunday is the day (y/n) is entering the school… Sehun ponders  well he knows that the boys are in the same group now.. and that doesn’t really matter for him at the moment.

“I’ll try to come..” Sehun answers.

“Nice-“ his phone rings and a message pops.

“I’ll leave first. (Y/n) calls me to help her pack up. Bye Sehun.” Kai sounds mocking or is it because Sehun’s touchy?

Sehun stares at the apartment one last time, and he drives himself back home.

Luhan annoyingly welcomes his entrance.

“Ooff where are you from?”

“Not your business.”

“Ah someone’s heart broken… Relax Sehun, we can send her off this Sunday.. She will be excited I heard there’s a program where they send the top three to Italy and you know..” Luhan looks really annoying right now. Sehun wants to finish him then and there.

“Let’s hope she’s not in it.”

“We’ll see!” Luhan claps his hand and shows his smile.

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Sehun cannot bring himself to send her off that Sunday. He locks himself home and in the end he sent a text message. Lying to (y/n) that he has to attend an important party he can’t miss, Sehun sent his warm regards through the text and (y/n) is not surprised. She expected it already; after all she knows Sehun and her are not meant to be. Their status are not the same.

Just like that, the friendship between them faded. Sehun forces himself to let her go and (y/n) is busy adjusting to the new school. She shares the struggles of training, socializing, and surviving to her team during the free nights where she can race. Her living area is only an hour drive to the track, that explains why she can still earn money from the wild racing. She tells them how the students who come from a rich family are using money powers, not real talents. She tells them how she survived the orientation week. Jaehyun knows his sister is a strong woman, she’ll overcome all hurdles in life. She seems to enjoy her program and has made her own goal. She looks happy as one can be, but her heart cannot lie about the missing part of her heart. Yes she misses Sehun so bad.

THE END 😭😭😭🎉🎉🎉🎉💖 THANKS FOR READING TIL THE END I LOVE YOU ALL !!

[cosmiclatte28]

TEMPO (Racer! reader x sehun, nct, exo) #4 (just one more!)

Previous chapters 1 / 2 / 3 

HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND? (3/5)

“Taeyong hyung.. can you find me a promoter? I need a new bike. The old one is starting to not cooperate.” I said one afternoon.

It’s only the two of us in my apartment. I call him over to talk about this. He is my manager after all.

“Hmm.. you need a new bike? Can’t we modify or fix the old one?”

I bite my lips.. well we can.. but I want a new bike.

“I’ll work on it… be patient okay. I’ll tell you when I found one.” Taeyong pats my back and glances to my table.

“Didn’t know you smoked Pall Mall.. I’ve always thought you liked Eve.” Taeyong naturally grabs a bar and lights it up.

My eyes widens. Hey that’s not mine. Shit it must be Kai’s. He left it here..

“Oh that’s not mine. Bring it with you.. it’s too strong for me. Maybe my friend left it accidentally.”

“Woah great. Thanks to whoever left it here. Why would someone leave a good cigarette.”

“You take the cigarette… and don’t forget to find me a new promotor.”

“Done princess.”

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My study meet ups with Sehun  still happen regularly and after that Kai will be in my apartment cleaning my mess and be my chat buddy. Got to say Kai is an amazing listener and advisor. It is easier to talk with Kai than with Sehun. Sehun is a from a noble family, sometimes I feel not in the right place to speak with him.. or even be with him.

Sehun never returns to the hellish place. He doesn’t come and see me race. Instead we meet elsewhere like the library, café , or Jaehyun’s apartment.

And that is the reason why Sehun doesn’t know what happens with the racing team. Apparently Kai told his group about Taeyong, and their manager Kris appears to like the way Taeyong works. He offers him a deal to join forces and with the huge amount of money they can win when putting Kai (y/n) and Yuta in one group, Taeyong signed the deal. Now the Aces are in one team, and that made it easier for us to win every night. We made schedules Kai and I will least likely meet each other.. when we do, whoever wins.. the team will still earn something right? And that’s how unknowingly.. we fall into the demons trap.

One night Sehun secretly comes to the race and he is more than surprised to see his friends hanging out with EXO. Not that he has the right to ban them befriend EXO, it’s just that.. Sehun can’t blend in comfortably with them. That night he keeps himself under cover. He actually wanted to place a big bet on (y/n), but Sehun is a smart and quick man. He knows his money will eventually goes into Kai’s pocket too.. and he doesn’t like that.

His last patient burst when (y/n) passes the finish line with lots of bruises and Kai welcomes her to a warm hug. Sehun wonders why Jaehyun hasn’t thrown his punches yet… but who is he to judge.

Sehun goes back home with a heavy feeling in his heart. Why must Kai interferes with his life again. Why Kai out of all people. And why (y/n).

Luhan knows every updates about Sehun from his spies. Luhan knows Sehun is secretly interested in that low class wild racer. Luhan knows Sehun always leave to learn in the library.. just to meet her. And Luhan knows how Kai is playing along with her. In order to keep his brother from falling too deep in love, and to keep their dignity… Luhan needs to find  a way to separate the two of them. Kai doesn’t seem to succeed. He’s clearly interested to the point of friends. Luhan sees no lust between them. Kai really sees her as a sister. While Sehun.. Luhan knows Sehun is in love.

“Yes appa? Is the deal going smooth?” Luhan talks over the phone alone in the balcony.

“Great! I can’t wait to inform her. I know.. thanks appa! You’re the best!” Luhan cuts the call off.

He checks his email and feels on cloud 9 when he finds the mail he’s been waiting for.

Meticulously Luhan sends the email to Taeyong and (y/n). Inside is a small present for (y/n). Luhan pretends he is a scouter for young racers to be trained and compete professionally. He lies that he happens to watch her perfect performance and he is interested to offer her a full scholarship to the known racing school.

Upon receiving the email… (y/n) could not be more delighted! She practically made her own decision that she will say yes. And Taeyong cannot hold her back he will have to look for another racer. Jaehyun is happy that she is finally reaching her dream. She mindlessly replies the email agreeing to attend the class as soon as possible.

That Thursday afternoon (y/n) has her usual meet up with Sehun in the library. Sehun is less chatty than usual. Ever since he saw Kai and (y/n) close to each other.. he is keeping his mouth close most of the time.

“What are we learning today?” Sehun asks after sitting down across her.

She pulls out a folded paper and without a word shows it to Sehun. Sehun grabs the letter and reads it carefully. His brow frowns and his face stiffens when he reach the last page.

“what is this?” Sehun asks keeping his emotion down.

“Don’t you read it? It’s an offer for me to attend the racing school of my dream!”

“What? You sure this isn’t a scam?”

“Definitely! I sent them my agreement and they explain me that someone is funding my tuition. I have a promoter!”

“What’s the name of the promoter?” Sehun rechecks the paper.

She points to a name and Sehun’s face goes white..

There it’s clearly stamped his father’s company. He re reads the paper and after reading it three times. His mind goes blank. It’s written there (y/n) is under full scholarship from his father’s company to attend the prominent riding school.

Sehun knows this must be his family’s dirty ways of making Sehun away from her. How can he know? Well first none of their family watches or knows a racer from the wild racing thing… second.. they are usually not this generous.. third.. they don’t even know (y/n). Only Luhan knows.. and damn Luhan.. he did not expect his brother to be such a cockblock. Luhan has always been supportive and this is for the first time Sehun feels disappointed.

“Sehun??” I wave my hand in front of his blank face. I snap my finger and he goes back to his consciousness.

“ah! Sorry I got lost.. I still think this is a scam.” Sehun holds the paper tightly, he low-key wants to burn it here.

“No Sehun! Taeyong and I checked the company’s name and it’s verified. Like it or not I’m leaving! Oh come on it’s still in the same country. Just different region.. you are always welcome to come and see me!” I pack my belongings and stand up from my chair.

“Come on let’s go.. I need to smoke..” I pull Sehun’s hand and he reluctantly follows my steps.

We got to the park near the public library and I light a bar there, sticking it between my lips as I put the lighters on.

I inhale a huff and lets out a puff “Why Sehun? You don’t seem happy? Isn’t this a nice opportunity for me? This is my dream!” I tap on my cigarette as I wait for Sehun to reply.

He looks really different. Since he saw the letter he seems annoyed and mad.

“i.. I can’t explain what’s in my mind… of course I’m happy you can finally reach your dream.. but..”

“But what Sehun? Tell me..”

“It’s just that.. I might not be able to see you anymore..”

“what do you mean? You can join the others when they see me for the race. Or meet me around the area.”

“No. It’s not that simple. I can’t bring myself to that place again (y/n)..”

“Why? Just because you don’t like wild racing?? Fine. We can still see each other outside that place.” I try to see the bright side. Hey there’s so many place in the world. Why is he so confused.

“No it’s not like that.. fine let me be honest. I am not allowed to meet you frequently. And it’s not because of Jaehyun.” Sehun closes his eyes.

“I’m sorry.. I should have never met you in first place.”

“What are you talking about Sehun?” I bite my stick between my lips. Totally confused and not understanding a single thing about Sehun. Why is he lately so secretive and quiet. He doesn’t act like the same Sehun I met at day one! No. He’s totally off.

“Today’s not the right time to tell. Just put in mind I never wanted this to happen.” Sehun looks into the distance, he freezes when he sees someone (I don’t know who.. he looks far away over my shoulder) and suddenly he taps my shoulder and say goodbye.

I finish my cigarette and turn it down while looking confused as hell

“the fuck Sehun? Was he on his right mind? I don’t understand a single thing.”

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