#mentioned mizisua

[bluemoonscape]

We’ve all agreed that Ivan is an unreliable narrator at its finest, but I sometimes do wonder to what degree.

Obviously Till is infatuated with Mizi—Mizi represents all the hope and brightness and innocence in the world that Till, or any of the others at Anakt Garden, never got to experience for themselves. Till essentially lives vicariously through Mizi. However, I feel like post Round 6, Till’s flashbacks and present feelings during his face-off with Luka in Round 7 will show a new perspective that Till gains after Ivan’s death (or supposed death if my delusions have any truth to them, cOUGH).

I think Till truly loved Ivan. Maybe not in the way Ivan was gunning for, but imo, it’s impossible to read Till’s reactions to Ivan’s behavior as anything but love. Ivan was familiar to Till. He was a constant in his life since the first moment Till looked at him. They had a weird, fucked up friendship, but they were always with one another. Following Sua’s death, Mizi was on a trajectory to lose those rose-colored glasses she’d previously worn, which is the MAIN reason Till fell for her. To Till, Mizi is more of an idea than a person (hence why Mizi loves Sua, someone who always saw her for her). Once that idea is gone, Till was always going to be on a path to reevaluating his relationships with the other contestants. I think Round 6 was the final nail in the coffin. Like a “oh, it was always you, wasn’t it?” moment towards Ivan. Ivan was the constant. And I think Till would give just about anything to go back and let Ivan pester him again.

Ivan and Till love one another in different ways to varying degrees of weirdness, but Till let Ivan be there- was even going to run away with him at a time. A part of him craved those things and always will.

[quiescentem-puella]

Till's expressing himself through clothing – a rant

today's sad alnst thought of the day is that no matter how you view round 6, I think it's undeniable that ivan was able to give back to till a piece of himself that he lost after witnessing round 5

and i'm talking about this

I think Till outfits are important when it comes to discerning his mental state/attitude, both because of plot-related reasons (imo Till has a degree of power over deciding or at least selecting his clothes) and also character design (in a media like alnst, where most things are said by showing them, it's clear that vivimeng put lots of thought behind the visuals). We know nothing about the behind-the-scenes between r6 and r7, so we can just LOOK at Till to see if something changed

I said that Till has some power over his outfit choices because he's the only one who personalizes them, or so it looks like. It's very much in Till's rebellious nature to vandalize his outfits and I think both the r2 outfit (the spray-painted t-shirt, the patch hiding his branding, the lack of shoes) and the scene we see in the top 3 video (with graffiti all over the room and paint all over him) are proof of that. He's always shown drawing and doodling, so i think it's a fair assumption that when we see that on his clothing, it's his handiwork.

And that... disappears in round 6. Whether we look at his outfit in the actual round or when he's entertaining segyeins, he's dressed in muted, dark clothing. Very put together for his previous standards, almost elegant with his delicate, silver accessories (thin chains and tasteful earrings)

Gone is the asymmetry and the rage. Till is mourning and so he dresses for a funeral... either for Mizi (who's gone and presumed(?) dead) or for himself (without Mizi, he has no reason to keep going. he entered alien stage and stayed in anakt for her). Whether he 1) chose his outfits before and let the aliens take over in his grief or 2) fought the aliens on previous outfits to personalize them and stopped after r5, i think in both cases his clothes show how much he has given up

and then we have round 7

First of all, the color is back. Acid green and white pants. The tech gear too, in place of delicate chains. The hair is slicked back, similar to the scene out of stage in r6, but it doesn't feel as tamed

and i apologize in advance for the frame i'm about to use to prove this point (only scene we see till full figure in r7) but

THE SPRAY PAINTING CAME BACK!! on the pants!! Personally I think both the red and the two stripes are Till's addition, you could argue that the blood isn't bc it's just the pants done like this but it looks handmade to me, splotchy. Very likely to be Till's hand.

So going back to my initial point: something has changed between r6 and r7. In r7, Till FIGHTS with everything he has. He doesn't let Luka speak over him, he tries his best. He falters, but he enters the stage with a spark, a determination that was notably absent in r6

I think it's significant that we get this in Mizi's pov

because Mizi RECOGNIZES Till. Not in the sense that she didn't know it was him, but in the sense that it's the Till she knew from anakt: wild, rebellious, hateful towards the system. He's raging and screaming, putting on a wild performance.

And Ivan's sacrifice is what gets him like this. It allowed him to live, of course, but if we read deeper there's also something else. In r6, it's the first time we see Ivan openly defying the segyeins. It's pretty obvious that he didn't have the love Mizi had for them and he disobeyed multiple times (running away with Till is the prime example), but he put on a façade all the time. I would say it's exactly what allows him to get away with so much: he's so well-behaved that no one suspects him. He has no leash because, in the segyeins' eyes, he never tried to escape (and he never will, bc just like Till will choose to go back to Mizi every time, Ivan will stay for Till as well).

The only times we see him rebelling is: 1) the scene on the rooftop when he was still in the slums; 2) in r6, when he defies all expectations and "cheats" so that Till wins

Ivan fell in love with Till after seeing how defiant he was. And Till regains his spark, his will to rebel, after Ivan's sacrifice, when he chooses to publicly go against the aliens for the first time since he was a child.

i've seen a lot of talk about how Ivan was Till's downfall: because Till cared much more than Ivan thought, because Luka used that moment with Ivan (and not Mizi) to bring him down. It's all true and very tragic, but I think it's really important to note something else too

Till was able to be himself again (even if just for the span of a single song) because of what Ivan did. Ivan's act of love wasn't wasted.

[shorlinesorrows]

okay, a couple things on alien stage/ivantill that I think some folks maybe need to consider and internalize.

Till does not "need" to return Ivan's feelings in the slightest if he doesn't feel that way. It's heart wrenching to see Ivan love him and have those feelings unreturned, but please remember that no one is required to return romantic feelings for someone else. You can't make yourself love someone, and you shouldn't. Especially out of guilt or obligation. That's Unhealthy 101, and would only set a relationship up for failure. (I do think Till cared about Ivan, and that he's going to have a Guilt Complex based on the fact that he didn't fully notice Ivan's feelings/care toward him until the guy died, but I've seen a couple of people tear into Till for not noticing/reciprocating Ivan's feelings??? Don't do that??? their situation is shitty, the fact that they didn't get to talk is shitty, but please don't blame Till for things he Can't Control.)

The kiss was not consensual. It wasn't meant to be portrayed as such. It wasn't even really romantic, it was a desperate, selfish act that Ivan used to get Till's attention (in more ways than one) and to give himself some sense of closure before he died. It was him saying everything that he felt at once, with no chance for Till to reciprocate or deny the affection. In a perfect world, they could have talked instead of this, maybe kissed knowing both wanted it, or given Till a chance to refuse. But they're both in the middle of an essential death tournament and one of them is going to be murdered sometime in the next few minutes. Neither of them really wants to live, but Ivan feels he has unfinished business before his sacrifice, so he finishes it. Their situation sucks. That doesn't mean the kiss was consensual. (especially considering the theory/implication that Till was/is being sexually assaulted by aliens, I wouldn't be surprised if this affects him badly in the future, for multiple reasons. Everyone should always get the chance to say "no" and have that fully respected. This also extends to the fact that Ivan died for Till without giving him a chance to stop it, which is probably going to mess with Till's head a lot. Then again, Ivan likely didn't think it would affect Till much because as far as he/we know, the feelings aren't reciprocated in this moment in canon, or are extremely repressed. Ivan might believe that Till simply hates him, or the kiss/subsequent "choking" may have been a way of trying to make Till hate him so that his death wouldn't hurt as much. Of course that thinking is flawed, because it would hurt Till no matter what, but still, it makes me sad)

Ivan... is kinda messed up. I adore him, but we've got to acknowledge that he has little to no emotional and relationship maturity due to the fact that he was quite literally raised as a pet and learned at a young age to do whatever his masters said to keep himself safe and pain-free. His fascination with Till appears to largely stem from Till's sense of rebellion. Ivan's examples of relationship dynamics and what constitutes as "love" is dangerously unbalanced, and he does not know how to build a healthy relationship. (Neither of them do.) This is also built onto the fact that the person he became dependent on only paid attention to him when they were fighting or Ivan was annoying him. Ivan cares about Till desperately, but he is also dangerously reliant on him to the point of self-detriment. Again, in an ideal world, they would be able to get out of this situation and gradually make a healthy relationship/friendship (depending on Till's feelings) over time while starting to undo the dangerous relationship patterns that they fell into when they didn't have any way to know better. But they're in a terrible situation, and Ivan really just doesn't get the chance to grow as a person and realize that his sense of possessiveness and reliance on Till's attention isn't healthy.

Basically, their situation makes me want to sob and its heart wrenching. Their circumstances have set them up for failure. Both of them are in the midst of attempting to survive an abusive situation and massive amounts of dehumanization. I beg, please try not to sanitize their complicated relationship or blame either of them for the pain the other is going through. I've seen some of that going around, and it's making me sad :(

[wodimewoahtime]

i know some people think that mizisua didnt get beyond innocent stuff in anakt garden but i totally think that mizisua fucked actually

the one initiating it would be sua tho!!! not mizi

i actually saw an ivantill fic with this premise actually!! where ivan wanted to have his first time with till no matter what cause his master brought him to watch the "private shows" to "learn" for when its his time and i definitely think sua would have a similar mindset since shes someone who knows things

sua very much has this "this system cant be changed but i want at least one good thing, please let this be mizis memory of us" sort of mindset

ivans "i want my first time to be with till" is an extension of him wishing to leave at least one mark on the world, on selfishly having at least a single part of till to himself

suas "i want my first time to be with mizi" on the other hand, is so she can have a single glittering memory for when the worst inevitably comes to pass

that kind of "at least they cant take that first time away from us" sorta mindset?

i think its also an extension of ivansua parallels actually

ivan was born in this world where he fought to survive and sua was born in this world where she struggled to die

i think since the moment she met mizi, sua knew she was going to die for her

[starrywangxian]

my clematis: mizisua ver vs. ivantill ver

i've noticed a lot of people comparing ivan and sua so i thought i'd take a look at the difference of their versions of my clematis to see who sings which part - over the cut!!

i also ramble about the parallels/similarities/differences between the four characters after.

(i'll be looking at the english translation because i can't speak korean T^T)

(if i get anything wrong, please let me know!!)

till / sua: oh my clematis

till / sua: hope bloomed from the abyss

ivan / mizi: oh my clematis

ivan / mizi: always be by my side

till / sua: you bloomed from

till / sua: the huge black wall

ivan / mizi: the galactic starlight

ivan / mizi: in your eyes spreads out

ivan / mizi: in the endless darkness

ivan / mizi: i find you with your scent

till / mizi: even if i sleep in infinity

till / sua: don't leave my universe

ivan & till / mizi & sua: oh my clematis

ivan & till / mizi & sua: hope bloomed from the abyss

ivan & till / mizi & sua: oh my clematis

ivan & till / mizi & sua: always be by my side

ivan / mizi: do you believe in god?

till: no! stop talking

ivan / mizi: once upon a time, mankind believed in god and had religion

till: sigh...

ivan / mizi: they believe that things that cannot be solved by human strength

ivan/ mizi: are the will of god

ivan / mizi: believed that the entire universe revolved around the earth

ivan / mizi: thought that the place that connected with the sky, which they could not dare to reach

ivan / mizi: was the place where the gods lived

till: that's just ridiculous.

ivan / mizi: from the moment humanity left the universe, we all forgot god

ivan / mizi: but if belief in god is human

ivan / mizi: if all i can do as a human is to believe

till: why are you staring at me?

ivan / mizi: my god

till: hey, hey! wait!

ivan / mizi: my universe

till: ah, go away!! ahhhhh

till / mizi: oh my clematis

till / mizi: hope withered in the abyss

ivan / mizi: oh my clematis

ivan / mizi: please stay by my side

ivan: my clematis / mizi: oh my clematis

alrightyyy so i decided to do this because i feel like it's the best way to see how mizisua and ivantill compare. these particular characters covered these songs for a reason, right?

just to mention, i find it very interesting how till thinks the speech is ridiculous. does he say that because it's ivan that's saying it? or does he genuinely think it's ridiculous. because these words were originally mizi's. would he still think it's ridiulous if mizi was the one saying them? hmmmmm

but anyways to conclude. most of mizi's lyrics are covered by ivan and most of sua's lyrics are covered by till showing that, at least for this song, mizi and ivan are more similar than sua and till are, and if you think about it, it makes sense.

mizi saw sua as her god ("my god, my universe") and i think from how ivan only allowed himself to touch or show his feelings for till when he wasn't looking/unconscious has that same feeling, that ivan saw till as a god who was unattainable, untouchable in all circumstances except for when till was unaware. much like when you pray to god, you don't necessarily get a response back, you pray and hope that god hears it.

i know that most people compare sua and ivan because they have similar appearances and they both sacrifice themselves for their loves but i don't think that's quite the case.

for one, mizi and sua sang together and mizi only won by one point. their round was on equal footing as they both sang, complying with the rules of the game. they both accepted their fates, i feel like both were prepared to die for the other but mizi was unaware that sua was planning to sacrifice herself to make sure that mizi won. whereas, ivan and till sang separately and till won by 19 points. ivan could not bare the thought of till dying and manipulated the score which till was completely unaware of, even thinking that ivan was going to kill him right until the moment where he opened his eyes (which is AHHHHH). ivan and sua are opposites here and mizi and till were both unaware what the other was planning.

and i can see why people compare mizi and till together (i mean i judt did it ksdjksjd). mizi and till both win due to the others' sacrifice but if you think about it, these songs are about being left behind, right? we haven't seen how till feels about ivan's sacrifice yet but we know that ivan feels unseen by till. like he's been left behind. and he quite literally was left behind by till when they tried to escape on that night with the meteor shower. mizi was left behind by sua because she died but ivan was left behind by till because he cared about someone else more.

and, i mean, mizi is the one who covers black sorrow, not sua. and black sorrow is a song about not being able to reach someone (ï can't reach you"), about standing next to someone who shines (ÿou who shine, i stand next to you" <- this also adds to the idea that ivan/mizi see the other as a god), about waiting for someone (ivan waiting for till to notice him and mizi waiting for sua to return to her). so are sua and ivan really that similar?

and i mean mizi dyes the ends of her hair blue, which is ivan's colour, not green (till's colour)...

anyway i'm rambling at this point but hopefully you can make sense of what i'm trying to get at lmao

(feel free to add your own thoughts!!)

[vesper-leroy]

IDEALIZATION

Golden eyes, sublime with warm sunshine

Like stars she glows through the lonely nights

Hope so bright it shines as endless as time

Love so alive, soft as petals of flower

Leaving scars like meteor shower

Breathing life that ripples with power

Music sheets, words of heartfelt confessions

Stolen pencils sing somber self-deceptions

A soul to follow without doubtful accusations

The union between two, unmoving and true

Dancing together with eyes only for each other

Eyes watching afar, forever a spectator.

[redrandomposts]

For Posthumous Kid AU - this actually implies that segyeins have the DNA of *all* contestants...can we have a MiziSua kid in the neighboring lab? Double the pain! (Also, Till&Mizi rolling through the same/very similar experience and bonding over it is always good.) ((Chartreuse eyes under elegant inky locks is also quite an image -u-.))

Ah, the pain and the bittersweet contentedness of living on...

mizisua kid, where mizi is raising them... and tillivan's kid too...

===

"Slow down!" Mizi yelled, shoulder-length hair fluttering in the wind as she ran for her kid. Compared to her twenties, her joints just didn't move the same. A decade or so of aging really wore her body down.

"Hurry up, ma, I see Sara!" Her precious little boy yelled, a bright smile lighting his face. Mizi could remember the day she found him - an infant curled up, short black hair and wide eyes curiously looking at everyone passing by. He was sucking on his thumb, chartreuse (as Ivan called it) eyes peering into her soul. It was the nose, or the lips, or even the ears that told her all she needed to know; this was her and Sua's child. Looking at him now, with wide brim glasses and thin summer clothes, she could see how they both mixed to create someone wonderful.

From the horizon, a taller child ran into view. Long black hair that shone gray in the sunlight, with a black and white dress that billowed in the wind marked her silhouette. Most of all, eyes that were as blue as the sky and pupils red as a sunset told Mizi and Till all they needed to know; this was Ivan's flesh and blood mixed with Till's. Only a year older than her own, Sara managed to show everything that Ivan could have - hope, joy, and love that she knew was returned unconditionally.

Mizi wondered if Ivan would have shone so bright had he been alive.

"Clematis!" Sara yelled, tackling her best friend. Behind her, Till was watching forlornly, and Mizi could relate. It reminded her of her and Sua when they were little; the way they fell into the grass, grins big and bright and so so so full of love.

"Ma showed me how to make flower crowns!" Clematis said, turning to his mom who held a basket of flowers they've grown in the gardens. "Ma, ma, I wanna make one for Sara!"

Mizi laughed, a bell-like sound that has rung for both eternal happiness and mourning. "Of course, Clematis. You can show Sara how to make one too, right?"

"Uh huh!" Clematis nodded, and soon both of the children's attention were engrossed in each other and their flowers.

After a moment, Mizi turned to Till. "Till," she breathed. His eyes were red and puffy, yet the small uplift of his lips spoke volumes. "What nightmare did you have last night...?"

"I was... dreaming that Ivan was here, too, joining in the activities as if he were a child also," Till said, chuckling at the thought. "It's almost his anniversary, y'know?"

She did know. Mizi also knew Sua's, could hear the gunshot every morning she awoke the day they performed their stage together and never finished it. She could feel the cold sweat and warm blood as Hyuna was injured, delaying their rescue and leaving Ivan's corpse behind; she could feel the guilt as though it were bugs crawling up her skin and spine and muscles and flesh and blood.

Till turned to Mizi. "I wrote him a song, and painted something with all of us... Sua, too. I made a copy for you, too, Mizi. It's just that..." he hesitated, taking out the rolled up print to display it. "...I can't really remember their faces. I'm so grateful that I have Sara, or else I'd forget his eyes and the way his hair fell, the smirk that he'd always have when taking something..."

Mizi had the same problem, too. When she imagined Sua, she'd imagine her face before she died. She forgot the way she smiled before, when she didn't look so tense, forgot her embrace and touch and everything else. It's been eight years, and the way she remembers best is through archived videos of her only performance and her son, Clematis.

"I know Ivan would love Sara," Till breathed, looking at the sky wistfully. The clouds peacefully floated by, an image so unreal when before all Mizi saw were a fake hologram of it. "He'd love Clematis, too. He'd sneak candy and sing lullabies and read bedtime stories, cook breakfast and lunch and dinner, learn to bake their favorite treats..."

Tears welled up in both their eyes, dazzling in the sun. The laughter of the children seemed so far yet so close too, and if she listened closely, she could hear Sua and Ivan, too. Sua would adore the children, she knew. Sua... maybe she wouldn't be as good as Ivan at children, but she'd teach them the magical way she always solved math equations so easily, teach them faith and hope and that there is always someone for you, too.

===

i came up with sara when thinking of what till would name her. it comes from black sorrow, because sara sounds kind of like sorrow; he hazily listened to it as ivan performed, trying his best to grasp consciousness for... something. he didn't know then, but he knew now.

clematis, although sounding kind of like a girl's name because it refers to a flower, feels like the most obvious choice.

idk if i was really in character for them, but... it's been eight years since the events. they've had time to grow and reflect.

[yonix-0]

ALNST rant(spoilers)

round six utterly destroyed my entire being and i need to rant about it.

tills face during the song was heartbreaking, especially since the aliens had previously forced him to sing my clematis and shoved a mizi paper in his face, then bro has to deal with a near-yandere emo boy who he doesnt even want to be near. i hate how much i cried just because of tills voice during the first verse, the vocals were insane

then theres ivan, my favorite character btw, who just FUCKING DIES. and you know the art that qmeng made- the "observation" and "decision" ones? that was huge foreshadowing bcs that was when ivan decided to sacrifice himself(im pretty sure)

its even more depressing when you realize that ivan has no one that cares for him. mizi had sua and now hyuna, till has ivan and mizi, both onesided, but ivan himself doesnt have anyone

there werent any marks on tills neck AND ivan wasnt even putting pressure on his windpipe. and to make it worse, the first thing that till sees when he opens his eyes is a dead ivan with no explaination, till thought he would be dead and that he was losing up until that point

and then theres hyuna who might be dead, sua who had like 3 mins of screen time in total(still sad abt that), and luka vs till in round 7

i hate that i love luka sm bcs his character is just so interesting. i would go on a tangent about him but i dont feel like diving into that rabbit hole rn lol

anyways, thanks for coming to my tedtalk about how alnst single handedly ruined my mental stability /hj

[canigetawaho]

2 boys kissing did in fact bring me to ALNST. I saw the trending gif and I just HAD to find out wtf this was. Tumblr tags only made me more confused. Reading Ivan-Sua meta with no other context. Manipulative king Luka posts. Finally checking out the series by link. Nothing is what I expected. This is AMAZING. ITS ALSO INSANE.

I have so many WIPS now thanks to this series and I might actually post some within a month. I'm so close to finishing so much work. Alien Stage has done something to me. Not even orv hit me this fast.

First of all, I'm glad I'm not the only one into ORV, I think it's quite adorable the fact that this fandoms seem to overlap, like it's so natural to go from one to the other ^_^ and to be honest, I feel you in the sense that ORV felt like something that I savored slowly while alnst just hit me like a train and I love it (hope it makes sense lol)

Second of all, I also got into this fandom because of Ivantill :) . Round 3 had just dropped at that time and I thought it was some BL anime about them and that it might have a sad ending but I finally decided to check it out because I loved the art style (and also the scene with the meteors was just gorgeous) and I was pleasantly surprised to see how wrong I was

What I was trying to say in my post was that just because more people joined because of them then those that came because of Mizisua doesn't mean that "people are obsessed with yaoi and yuri is getting ignored" and that "it's unfair to the creator" and that "it's weird or toxic"(those are just the things I have seen said) and I didn't think it was true. I felt hatred and fear from them and that made me sad especially because I knew there is more to the story and how the fandom interacts with it than that

I am not good at putting my thoughts into words but I hope you understand what I am trying to say

I am happy you sent me this even if it might not be obvious :) thank you

I am also so happy that you are having fun with experiencing this series and I hope that everything you're working on is going to turn out just the way you want them to and I'm sure it's gonna be amazing

I wish you a good day/night :) and thank you again

[flowermeowffin]

lanshi my beloved. (just anything lanshi coded tbh. lovers stick in an eternal cycle doomed by the narrative balancing each other but also they kiss then backstab SO COOL. I may be coming from a different fandom but like... lanshi my beloved)

I LOVE LANSHI SO MUCH *explodes* literally no pairing evaur was hitting THAT hard to codepended doomed lesbians with hunter-prey and circle of life symbolism like the best hsr yuri was hiding among unpopular npcs all along 🤧🤧🤧🤧 i may not even playing hsr anymore but they still stuck in my head 24/7. i totally get you anon.....

[till-alnst-official]

regarding the previous ask, dyk that mizi was in a romantic relationship with sua or were you indenial

I suspected it, but I didn’t want to accept it. I would say I’m happy for them but because of recent events…

[astranauticus]

ok this is kind of driving my insane ive had these ideas for like alien stage drawings spinning around in my brain for fucking months but i seem to be physically incapable of drawing anything that isn't orv recently for some reason. ??????????

[mirrology]

I wanted to request Platonic Boothill and child reader!

After finding out about what happened to Boothill’s daughter wanted to request him finding child reading and taking them in as his own kid and caring for them, taking them to little events or fairs 😭

FEEL SO BAD FOR BOOTHILL ☹️ HE LOST HIS HOME, HIS DAUGHTER AND HIS BODY 😭 IM BALLING MY EYES OUT

— Wunderkind .ᐟ ʚɞ

୨୧ Wunderkind: (noun) a wonder child or child prodigy

Ft. Boothill, gender-neutral reader, platonic. wc: 972

Content: child reader, reader is a sort of 'prize' for an unknown person, the first scene is inspired by mizisua meeting but its platonic, got a little lazy so the rest is headcanons, reader gets surprise adopted, boothill is the best dad ever, he spoils the reader, they both go to fairs and parks often. / a strange man took you in when you were at your lowest. You never knew that you would be at your highest when with him. slight angst but then fluff

Notes: thank you for the request!! i tried my best to incorporate everything that you mentioned. boothill's backstory is so sad and it truly made by tear up, also the IPC sucks.

Fate hadn't been kind to you, you don't remember how you ended up being a so-called prize for a person you barely knew. You don't remember your parent's face nor remember if you even had any. They dressed you up in the fanciest clothes, ones laced with ruffles and the softest cloth, made sure your hair was always neat and tidy. Yet they never actually cared for you, they only wished to show you off as a trophy as they called you.

When out of all the eyes that watched you, they treated you roughly. Grabbing your head and pushing you down to the ground when you didn't meet their expectations, gripping every inch of your arms and leaving blooming bruises in their wake. All while showing you off to everyone in their premise.

You stared blankly at the street, watching people walk by and cars pass. You sat down in an alley way, leaning against the wall of a shop, just, waiting. You had escaped from that manor, from that wretched place. Although you had no hope that you would be free, sooner or later they would find you and bring you back all to restart that agonizing cycle. Just the thought made you squeamish, it made you disgusted.

Your eyes drooped as you looked at people living normal lives, you oh so desperately wished from someone to take you away from this world. As you were lost in your thoughts a pair of boots stopped in front of you, you snapped out of your daydreaming and slowly tilted your head up. Your eyes met with grey ones, you stared blankly at the man in front of you. He had white and black hair, the two colors clashing like yin and yang, it was pretty. He... looked concerned? The man crouched down on one knee to be at your level, you watched him as he did, not once did you take your eyes off of him.

"Hey, uh, ya' okay, kid?" he questioned, his tone was soft and barely above a whisper as if you would run away at the slightest noise. You blinked in surprise, you hadn't expected to be asked such a thing. Your eyes darted somewhere else that wasn't his face, did he want to help you? You considered saying that you didn't want help, but what would that mean for you?

You would be stuck living a life full of emptiness, unfulfilled by your wrongful choice. You looked back at him. He was still there, patiently awaiting your response. "I'm..." You momentarily stopped, your throat felt dry, you swallowed. "I'm lost and... alone, " you squeaked out. Although this wasn't the entire truth, yet it wasn't a complete lie either.

"Hm.." He hummed as his eyebrows furrowed, a conflicted expression on his face. He then perked up or rather tensed. He noticed a bruise, one which is black and dark purple at the moment, looks like a darker spot beneath your sleeve. He slowly reached out towards your arm, and he looked back at you. "May i?" He asked, his robotic fingertips gracing the edge of your long sleeve. Your eyes widened slightly, but you nodded. You suppose that this man really does want to help you.

He gently grasped your smaller hand in his, it was cold and stiff. Yet it didn't feel like theirs, this one was careful, considerate. The cool material felt nice against your sweaty palms.

The bruise spread from halfway up your arm down to almost your wrist, a deep purple-black bruise that stood out from the lighter colors of your clothes. It looks like it was recently made and very painful. The man looked stunned, as if this wasn't a normal occurrence. Well, you guess it wasn't for anyone else other than you. "Yer gonna need medical care, bud." He swiftly picked you up in his arms, holding you softly as if you would break in an instant.

You jumped slightly; you weren't used to being picked up nor touched in a way that wasn't aggressive for that matter. He led your arms to wrap around his neck, "Hold on, bud." He grinned at you, showing off his shark-like teeth. You stared in awe at your savior, being helped felt... nice. No one had ever been at your Beck and call, only ever "helped" when they wanted.

Tears sprung up into your eyes. You closed them tightly, not wanting to be seen in such a vulnerable state. "Thank you..." You whispered as you burried you head into the junction of his neck. He smiled and stroked the back of your head.

"Uhm.." You hummed out "What's your name mister?" Your head turned to look at him as your cheek was pressed against his shoulder blade. "Boothill, don't forget it." He chuckled and started walking to the nearest hospital.

You nodded, taking his words into account.

You wouldn't forget your savior.

Boothill is the best dad confirmed, he gets you whatever you want, whether it be food, toys, clothes or accessories. He gets it for you.

He's always patting your head or ruffling your hair; you don't mind thought. It's actually very comforting.

CONSTANTLY tells dad jokes and it makes it funnier when he tries cursing but it gets covered up by his synthesia beacon.

The both of you go out often to parks to play. He definitely pushes you on the swings, and helping you go as high as you can. And when he sees your big smile as you reach the bar, he knows he did a good job.

He brought you penacony once (when he was actually let in) and you had the time of your life.

It was very bright but new and exciting.

You got to eat new things that you've never seen before, such as cotton candy

[wowzie-zowzii]

Mizisua modern au where Mizi loves her gf so much it gets her kicked out of social events

[Id: Various drawings of Mizi and Sua. Mizi is wearing a pink turtleneck while Sua is wearing a white tee with a star design on it. is In the biggest drawing, Mizi has her hands on Sua as she says “This is my girlfriend, Sua.” The next drawing has a chibified version of the girls. Mizi says: “did I mention she’s my girlfriend by the way? Sua’s just so cool and” then the text trails off. The last image shows Mizi looking bewildered and Sua looking nonchalant. Mizi says: huh? You’re leaving because I’m talking too much? /end Id]

[cool-island-songs]

Mizisua & Ivantill Photocards

[crosspost from twitter; pics were from Mercari originally so no link.. evil prices smh]

Really is remarkable that Mizisua's cards look like a perfectly normal romance if you ignore the crack in Sua's neck that she tries to conceal (just as she knew one of them would have to die and kept that reality from the far more innocent Mizi), Mizi's tears, and her breaking apart.

Then Ivantill look deathly ill, eyes rolling back, Till stripped of color and blood while Ivan is full of it. Ivan tries to hold himself together and Till clutches his head as if in pain. My first thought is the mental unwellness of Urak's charges. It's mentioned that they always go far in Alien Stage, but have never won due to instability from his abuse.

Many have already pointed out that the crack in Till's face is in the same spot where Ivan once touched his cut, but he doesn't just touch it—he licks it up. Unable to connect to him normally, Ivan consumes him, wishes to be consumed by him in return, but he never divulges his true feelings to till, not 'til the very end. Here, he's bottled it all up to the point of bursting. He has to focus all his remaining energy on holding himself in one piece while Till is fully drained, left empty, pallid like a porcelain doll.

Both left-behind parties are crying with their faces cracked, visibly broken by their loss. The deceased parties sweat and try to keep it together but it's only a matter of time. Their fates are already sealed.

Genuinely love these cards so much, the love and the pain and the failures to communicate in both dynamics on full display. I want a set badly and am wondering if they'll drop the merch online after R7 for hype purposes, though it seemed like the NYCC thing was last minute and merch stock was limited so it may be difficult to get.

[vesper-leroy]

ETERNALLY YOURS

Tell me,

Do you believe in infinity?

The fake blue sky full of animosity

Staring down with it's endless eyes

Swallowing us up with blind desire

Our love is eternal

The bounds of reality

Hold no ties to me

With you by my side

These unforgiving nights

Flaring up with unwavering light

Believe me,

We are two bodies but share one soul,

Existence tied to a pretence of hope

Even under their loathsome eyes

Ones foreseeing our faithful demise

Under their blinding lights

My angel in black with pride

With me by your side

In our matching beats

Your life is guaranteed

For our love is eternal

Our love is eternal

Our love is eternal

Our love is-

Our love was eternal.