#mebe i continue later

[madumagia]

I woke up this morning and noticed something new in the mirror. My eyebags, puffy and prominent, had grown a life of their own. It wasn’t clear how long they had been alive. It was as if they had their own nine to five, dinner at six, at least six hundred you owe this year. I was beginning to suspect I did not know myself, because I had no recollection of what they had been through. Have I at last reached the conclusion of what it means to “grow up”? 

Interior: in my bed. In my mind, in the abstract, it is summer. The mourning dove and cicada drone coordinate a song that keeps me wide awake. In my body, in the concrete, it is winter. The temperature is harsh and there is little life to be found here. I wrap my blanket tighter around me. Fortunately, the season makes no difference to me; it is in my nature to bargain and plead for one more hour, no matter where the sun makes the throne in the sky. That damned thing, always smugly watching.

If I could send off my limbs to do the dirty work, I would have one hand grab the coffee, and the other my daily multi-vitamins. The feet can go off wherever they please purely because they tend to bother me. But the factory prefers us to come as we are: whole. So I don’t.

[thiah-2]

Why’m I up until 4:45 am?

10/24 Eta: Well I’m a dunce... Last night after I made this post as I was going to bathroom I realized that I didn’t write 7,500 words.. I was looking at the character count, not the word count. 

When I usually go to bed before midnight? 

Finally getting around to creating a new Tumblr. I deleted the email account associated with t-hiah(1.0) and understandably Tumblr can’t just let me back into my old account for Safety reasons. 

Really though, I wanted it on record that I’d written 17 pages yesterday/this morning, 5,650 words. I nearly doubled my pages since I picked this story back up after ten fucking years. Started this continuance on September 28. 41.5 pages/13,850 words later in 22 days. Damn. I don’t have a retail job this year so mebe doing Nano and might actually accomplish something. Let’s see how far I can ride this inspiration. I mean I just wrote 11 pages/4,170 words for the quaternary couple (D/OFC). Bc like I couldn’t get through the beginning of the relationship fast enough and I needed to get to the sexytimes. Which I didn't even. 

Damn thing doesn’t even have a title, which bothers me.

Icon and header image to come later.