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mutalune · 11 months ago

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Happy Fanfic Writer Friday! What is a fic you've posted that you think deserves more attention? What is it about?

thank you for this ask and sorry for taking literal years to respond!!!! ✨✨✨

pick a direction and walk - this was my 2019 GOBB big bang fic and it was so so so meaningful to me, it really reflected a lot of my “I’m in my early 20’s, I’m lost, I don’t know what I’m doing and I don’t know what to do about not knowing, I don’t know what my purpose is, I don’t know how to find that purpose, everything feels big and overwhelming and I’m so so so lost 😞” problems at the time, and yet the story ended happily and hopefully and with a “it’s okay to just be you” kinda vibe. I was so proud of this and I’m still so proud of it even almost exactly 4 years later, and it continues to be my least-liked fic 🤷��

basically: Crowley and aziraphale gotta figure out wtf they’re gonna do post-apocalypse while also dealing with 1) Aziraphale’s acting WEIRD he’s wearing MODERN CLOTHES 2) Crowley’s miracles aren’t working but he’s in denial it’s fine and 3) Dagon and Michael showing up and Asking Questions that they don’t know how to answer. And they’re all gay of course

#starlight personal #starlight fandom #starlight asks #good omens #good omens fic #the go big bang 2019 was a different era ngl I was not my best self at that time #but is that not what early 20s are about? figuring yourself out and being a bit messy and insecure about it?#honestly this is still one of the fics I wrote that I strongly believe is my best writing #and for me to feel that way even years down the line??? that’s so rare for me #and this is my fic with the least kudos! the least amount of attention! it goes to show that you never know what folks will like #tmagr was arguably some of my laziest writing; I barely edited ever and I had no Deeper Meaning outside of Aizawa Traumatized and Must Ask #for Help and We Will Force Him To Stop Being Independent to the Point of Self Destruction #and yet that blew up and has so many ppl who loved it #meanwhile I put my heart and soul into a blender and used it to paint for padaw and I remember being so devastated in 2020 when it #didn’t get much praise/attention; now that I’ve grown some I get it and I’m not mad-upset; mostly just bemused lol #kind of a nice growing moment for me to be here rn and just be proud of this fic even without it getting a ton of attention #I like it a lot and that’s what’s important - writing it was good for me and that’s enough :)

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