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girlsnsleep · 7 years ago

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For the anon who wanted everything started with 7...

7: My best friend: Daimbarage, Wsup 8: Sexual orientation: Gayy af 9: My best first date: Regular diner and afterwards we went to the movies 10: How tall am I: 165cm 11: What do I miss: You don’t wanna know lol 12: What time were I born: Idk actually, somewhere in the evening probably 13: Favourite color: black, grey, red, white 14: Do I have a crush: uhu (lern jergi watch out) 15: Favourite quote: grab that booty when she moody 16: Favourite place: my bed 17: Favourite food: PIZZA and chicken nuggets 18: Do I use sarcasm: yeah who doesn’t these days 19: What am I listening to right now: Sauced-up by Fifth Harmony 20: First thing I notice in new person: Their caracter and how they act when im around 21: Shoe size: 40EU 22: Eye color: Brownnn 23: Hair color: Also brownn 24: Favourite style of clothing: i like to wear black, wish i’ve had the money to buy the stuff i really wanna wear 25: Ever done a prank call?: hell yeah

27: Meaning behind my URL: i like girls and sleeping 28: Favourite movie:idk got so many, i saw The Martian and i cried and had to laugh (really watch it) 29: Favourite song: don’t askme that :(( 30: Favourite band: Pvris, Tøp, 5H 31: How I feel right now: terrible

32: Someone I love: my gf 33: My current relationship status: so taken 34: My relationship with my parents: good lately 35: Favourite holiday: all 36: Tattoos and piercing i have: none :(( 37: Tattoos and piercing i want: tattoos so many omg 38: The reason I joined Tumblr: cz i was in my phase from bi to gay and here you can do whatever you wanna do 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: nope 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: nah 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? nope 42: When did I last hold hands? a while ago 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? depends on my mood 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? nope haha 45: Where am I right now? in my bed 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? probably one of my friends but never had that situation so im good with alcohol 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? depends on the song 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? mom and stepdad 49: Am I excited for anything? uhuu 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? nope 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? often lately 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? few days ago, need a hug rn 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? oh hell no, you don’t wanna see that honey 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? nope 55: What is something I disliked about today? myself

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? FIFTH FUCKING HARMONYYYYYYY 57: What do I think about most? a lot of things i dont wanna think about 58: What’s my strangest talent? crying when i dont have a reason to cry 59: Do I have any strange phobias? not really 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind bc imma photographerrrr 61: What was the last lie I told? that the restaurant i didn’t wanted to go to was closed while they werent lol 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? phone 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? nope and nope

64: Do I believe in magic?nope 65: Do I believe in luck? maybe 66: What’s the weather like right now? clear but a bit cold 67: What was the last book I’ve read? *camren fanfic oops 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? hell yes 69: Do I have any nicknames? Ang 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? My hip was discolated 71: Do I spend money or save it? depends lol 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? nope haha 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? no 74: Favourite animal? cats dogs 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? tumblr 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? nugget 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? idk 78: How can you win my heart? not unless you buy me food 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? ‘go to hell bitches’ 80: What is my favorite word? nugget 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: well actually everyone who reblogs stuff from my blog so YEAH YOU WHO READS THIS luv for u all 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? lauren jauregui marry me 83: Do I have any relatives in jail? nope 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? to be invisible and beat the motherfuckers 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? ugh idk 86: What is my current desktop picture? something with a car 87: Had sex? yeah 88: Bought condoms? no hahah 89: Gotten pregnant? hell no 90: Failed a class? yupp 91: Kissed a boy? no 92: Kissed a girl? uhuuuuuuuuuu 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? yep 94: Had job? yep 95: Left the house without my wallet? once, never do this 96: Bullied someone on the internet? nope 97: Had sex in public? no?? 98: Played on a sports team? yes :((( 99: Smoked weed? everyday 100: Did drugs? yes 101: Smoked cigarettes?yuppp 102: Drank alcohol? only at parties 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? nooooo 104: Been overweight? no?? why is this even a question 105: Been underweight? *see 104 106: Been to a wedding? yesss 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? yeah Friends 109: Been outside my home country? many times 110: Gotten my heart broken? oh yeshhh 111: Been to a professional sports game? a few yess

112: Broken a bone? nope 113: Cut myself? uhu 114: Been to prom? in June :)) 115: Been in airplane? yes i luvvvv it 116: Fly by helicopter? no :((( 117: What concerts have I been to? Tøp, 5H, some belgian artists, Drake etc 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Oh hell yeah 119: Learned another language? yeah who doesn’t? 120: Wore make up? actually no 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? noooo 122: Had oral sex? pussy 123: Dyed my hair? yeaaass 124: Voted in a presidential election? nope 125: Rode in an ambulance? yes haha lol 126: Had a surgery? yup my upper leggg and head 127: Met someone famous? no :(((((( 128: Stalked someone on a social network? not really 129: Peed outside? yeah when we went on a survival trip and when we slept in school (outside yk) 130: Been fishing? i live next to water so yeah 131: Helped with charity? a fewtimes 132: Been rejected by a crush? uhuuuu 133: Broken a mirror? many times 134: What do I want for birthday? lauren jauregui 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? none bish 136: Was I named after anyone? no but after a song from the rolling stones 137: Do I like my handwriting? nope not really 138: What was my favourite toy as a child? i had a peter pan island lol 139: Favourite Tv Show? friends 140: Where do I want to live when older? far away from belgium 141: Play any musical instrument? not atm 142: One of my scars, how did I get it? surgery and stupid things 143: Favourite pizza toping? mozzarella 144: Am I afraid of the dark? no 145: Am I afraid of heights? hell yes 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? not that i know 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? many times lol 148: What I’m really bad at: being myself 149: What my greatest achievments are: going to college in a few days 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: not gonna tell here 151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: buy clothes and shoes and food and go farrrr away 152: What do I like about myself: nothing 153: My closest Tumblr friend: @wsupfuckah 154: Something I fantasise about: food 155: Any question you’d like?nope

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oddlymysteriousphoenix · 7 years ago

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#74 (#2) 1:59pm July 14

-October 22 2:56pm Eh, today had been a bit better compared to other days. I realize I’ve been lazy and haven’t been writing much on here. I will promise for now on, it has been pretty rough since last Friday since my sadness hit on of it’s lowest points again. Blegh, this year I’ve lost more than what I’ve gained so far. I don’t plan to live long if the trend continues for the rest of this year and the next. I miss all my close Xbox friends, it’s my fault I’m currently avoiding them. I think they’re happier without me and their happiness is all I care about (for the most part). On the bright side, I’ve managed to get some inspiration to continue my skills on guitar, drawing and ‘’singing’’ (I can’t sing). The motivation came from a reference from an old movie which ‘’predicted’’ October 21 2015. (Back to the Future 2, 1985) The actor who played the crazy scientist recorded a video containing these words: ‘’Great Scott! If my calculations are correct, it is now precisely October 21, 2015. The future has finally arrived. Yes, it is different than we all thought. But don’t worry. It just means your future hasn’t been written yet. No one has. Your future is whatever you make it so make it a good one.’’ His last words probably hit me more than others since I love ‘’Back to the Future’’. It’s one of my favorite movies. I recently watched ‘’Bridge of Spies’’ this past weekend. I thought it was a great movie, especially for not making the Russians the ultimate bad people during the Cold War. (Movie set during the height of it). Asides from movies, I’ve managed to gear from my gf’s voice after weeks of not hearing it. It stuck me to my heart to hear how depressed she was. Thought the call cut out, I was able to treasure the bitter sweet voice I was able to hear. Like always, she’s my everything. I just hope she can beat her illness… -3:31pm -October 27 7:32pm Today’s the day of my 33rd monthly anniversary with my gf! Plus, today is when Halo 5 is finally out after all these years. I might get it tonight or tomorrow I cant wait to play it. Aside from that I’ve been having a rough week. Ive gotten so much of tests and homework, I’m pretty sure I’m off to a bad start. My depression loves to get the best of me. Sometimes I think my life is useless and Ill never be good enough. Suicidal thoughts? Yes, plenty of them as each minute fades to the past. I’m still waiting if life really does get better, things have been pretty flat with some downs. I still feel numb from the constant bombings of my thoughts. I’m still unhappy with my life, not even improving in my hobbies. I play guitar like a child, I sing like a whale and my drawings would be great to be used as toilet paper on how crappy it is. Ugh, at least all of my friends are doing well. Sosa (basically only school friend) has been doing great since he’s been hanging out with this one girl. She sounds pretty friendly from what I’ve heard of her from him. I’m just concerned things might go wrong between them, resulting them to not to speak to each other (Im sure they wouldn’t have sex, she’s a lesbian, at least for now). I hope the best for him. He’s a great guy for certain. I don’t know how my other friends are doing, I haven’t talked to them due to my ‘’exodus’’. I hope they’re all okay. Lastly, but for best, I THINK my doing fine. Depressed, still? Yeah. Busy? Yeah. Do I still love her? Always and eternity. Happy 33rd anniversary, my love. My everything… 8:00pm P.S. = Te amo

- November 4 7:12pm Well, this week has been alright. Anyway! I got Halo 5 and beat the campaign on the same day. My opinion for the story: It was alright, I mean, some parts were just great, yet I think the story could’ve been so much better. Cortana… Ugh, I’m speechless, I can’t believe what happened to her. She didn’t seem right when she first appeared. She changed. It pains me to know after what Master Chief tried to do to get Cortana back, he couldn’t. Cortana went off her own path on what she thought was right. Master Chief asks ‘’Where’s Cortana?’’ Spartan Locke replies ‘’She’s gone. He stares at Locke with his broken visor. Then, Cortana causes havoc. More scenes passes by, then the credits. The music plays on only to leaves us guessing what’ll happen soon. (Break) -11:16pm. Well, I forgot to continue, woops. Ill write more soon. I have a lot in mind at the moment. - November 11 6:20pm

Ah, this day had been lonesome. Monday and Tuesday has been alright. Yet, Tuesday after school I realized something. I’m worth nothing. Ugh, I’m basically depressed. On Xbox, Stori has been distant. It’s like she doesn’t like my presence anymore. She’s been hanging out with ‘’Skitz’’ and ‘’G’’ (both Xbox names just shortened) so much. I don’t understand why. I understand G is online all the time and so is Stori, but I guess G has convinced Stori to get away from me. G and I haven’t talked in weeks., he’s a horrible person. If only Stori would notice, it bothers me greatly. I know G wants me dead, he told Seeker and Stori that I should commit suicide. Ugh, he disgusts me. I don’t plan to talk to him, but Ill do it if it prevents me from losing Stori. As of now, my best friends are Seeker, Dj, and Sosa, the school friend. Skitz and G can just be gone, they’re rotten apples to me. Useless and unwanted, I despise them immensely. It’s blatant that G hates me, you can feel the vibe of it. Well, sorta, I’m just exaggerating here. My gf says just to give it time. Which I will, since I can’t be against what makes my friend happy. I just miss Stori and Dj and Seeker being around. Nowadays, it’s just me all alone. Sosa is suicidal, but ‘’his’’ girl should help out a lot. Even though she’s a lesbian, things can change. As for my Erin (GF), she’s doing just fine. I still think she’s fine without me. I still love her. All the time she. She’s my universe. Yeah, she’s happy with me, but I feel I’m not good enough. I never have felt it, I’m nothing. Hell, I haven’t done anything that adds worth to me. Everyone else is just better than me no matter how little they try. I’m invisible, I’m no one and nobody. Suicide has been constant in my mind, but I live for others. Ill keep living until (Break, mom’s here, 7:01pm) 10:43pm They’re all gone from my life and gone from their thoughts. As for now, they’re here and I should enjoy their presence while I can. They’re family. MY family, the one I always wanted… 10:46Pm P.S. I had no school today.

-November 13 6:43pm

Each day of each hour has its sweets and sours. Days and nights where they feel the same. Today is bittersweet. I’ve managed to speak to my Love on Skype. She’s perfect as always, I love her greatly. She’s still largely insecure about our love. She feels like one day Ill send her a breakup text, which will never occur no matter what situation. I love her. Before that, she was talking about her being pregnant with triplets, in her dream. Saying how it went and how our family was there, both friend and biological. She spoiled me with kisses as we chatted, she’s just perfection. I could never ask for more, only for us to be together soon. T took some screenshots to store the memories for the near future. Yet, as of now, I’m lonely. Erin is off doing something and I’m alone on Xbox as well. A couple of minutes ago I’ve been noticed that France is under terrorist attacks. It’s so interesting to know how everything can change so easily in just one hour. I’m afraid what will happen afterwards especially the refugees. I know most Europeans will be swayed towards anti-Islam thinking gen realizing the enemy and hurting the innocent. I’ve observed many tragedies, I hope this doesn’t lead them to chaos. If it does, time will tell. The choices of the people will determine the future of a country. As for now, I guess I’ll have another lonesome Friday. As my friends have fun, as my love carries on, I’ll be here. Hoping for the best in each of us. 7:05pm

-November 17 10:52pm

Ah, Im here doing homework Ill probably sleep at 12. Quick review of this week from last Friday/ Terrorist attack on France, soon later saw ‘’Forrest Gump’’ for the first time. I loved it. Saturday, I managed to get close to Stori on Xbox. It was just her, Seeker and me. She told me how G was still angry at me from a long ago event. She’s been trying to think otherwise. Plus, she reminded me on how Im still important to her. Oh, before that Seeker and Stori got into a small brawl over her different laughter which he wasn’t used to. Though it kinda killed the party mood, it soon recovered. I just feel bad for Seeker since I’m the only one that knows him seriously. As he said, being a jokester causes people not to take him seriously. He’s a great gut, I just wish he was valued more by people. We all stayed up to around 4 A.M. . It was great, also my GF called on Skype to 3:11-3:13 to 3:14-28 Am. She mumbled mostly through all. Sunday was all work. This week has been okay besides having a lot of work to do. My Gf and I talked again which made me very happy. She’s perfect. Well, I need to focus on my work now. I’m so sleepy… 11:10pm

-November 24 12:55am

Ah, what a pleasant week it has been Friday. Guitar playing, gaming on Xbox One, talking to my Perfect Love and best friends, as well as drawing. I, for once, feel like I’m making progress in my life. Maybe Ill start writing a song since my mom has been awfully occupied with babysitting. Yet, it leaves the place to me. I don’t mean that as a selfish way, more in a way to be able to express what I love to do. As of now, I’m listening to ‘’FoxBoro HotTubs’’ which is basically ‘’Green Day’’ under another name. As nerdy and childish it sounds, I hope to be as great as them or even more. I love their songs as most would already know. I most certainly would cherish in being in a band and becoming a songwriter along with a couple of hobbies on the side. Even though I contain no pride or self esteem, it’s still something I want to go for. If I’m not able to reach that dream, then I’m not sure what’ll become of my. I’m sure I’ll be married to the girl who I love now, Erin. Skyping her for an hour was fantastic, 11:32pm-12:33pm. She makes me feel complete and I fly with joy knowing she’s beside me at all times. She’s perfection. Aside from that, I’ll update my family. Stori has being doing great compared to her bad things. One of her best friends has come over to visit her for the week. As from latest knowledge, they went to a birthday party. Bubba has been doing just fine, nothing negative that I’ve seen. He’s still trying to get his Canadian girl named Cristina, she’s sweet and happy usually. I wish him luck, even after about one or two years chasing after her. I introduced her to Bubba way back on Xbox, first met her sister then Cristina on GTA V on the Xbox 360. Anyway, Sosa has been doing well, I think. I texted him a bit today, still with his ‘’French’’ girl. Rose is okay, I sadly haven’t talked to her much. I plan to talk to her more, I don’t want to lose her. She means too much to me, she’s part of the family. I’m doing a drawing for her to cheer her up. She’s okay, but not well. I want her to know that I’m still beside her in her hardships. We’ll that’s about it. I’m off to play some Halo 5 or Black Ops 3. I desire for days like this are soon to arrive. 1:45Am

-3:26pm

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