#me: *sigh...* bill bruford

[petergabrielyuri]

love it when one of my interests gets brough up at quiz bowl

[eddie-rifff]

ok sooooo

the interview thing was like not super insightful bc like ive seen other interviews of him where he essentially says the same stuff so thats . whatever. but seeing him irl was like. wooooaaaahhhfgggg. also we were in the third row which i didnt realize (i think because they took out like three rows at the very front for some reason? anyway)

n then after that he signed stuff and i had him sign my yes book w a bunch of autographs from other yes guys and also my three of a perfect pair vinyl (so ade and tony can sign it in october eehehehe) and he was like oh! vinyl! thats good stuff! and i was like. yeah :) and then i was like .. may i shake ur hand.. and he was like of course and he had a really good handshake. his hands r big. sighs dreamily

unfortunately they didnt allow photos of or with him so you'll have to take my word for all that lol. shelby oversaw. so theres that. he also signed 3oapp with my birth name which i dont care to share anymore on here but like. idk just trust me LOL

and then the band (progject). holy shit that might have been the best prog performance have ever seen. every musician was like 1000% on his game. the singer had an INSAAAANE voice like power metal kinda vocals and they played a ton of stuff i liked and the bass player actually looked a ton like john wetton, the way he held his bass and nodded his head and even his hair and facial hair. but yeah i could go on about every member, superb. even shelby, who doesnt like prog and is just a very good friend for accompanying me, was impressed.

yeah....... possibly one of the best concerts ive ever seen actually. im guessing thats what prog was like back in the day lol. so i kind of understand all the old people on fb who are like the current yes sucks blah blah because relative to progject they kinda do suck lol.

if youre a prog fan you absolutely must see progject if they come near you. they played yes, elp, bruford (like bill's band with the two albums. just called bruford. you know), king crimson, uk, genesis, jethro tull, and then one song i didnt recognize at all which i think might have been gentle giant?? and also fucking dust in the wind by kansas which they played after a medley of one of a kind (bruford) which was like . idk. i fucking hate kansas !

[herbgroom]

9 people you'd like to know better

@rat-prophetess thank you!! it's been so long since I've done one of these, they are always super fun

Last song: You Spin Me Round (Like a Record) by Dead or Alive. that I can and cannot explain. better if I don't.

Currently watching: not a fan of series tbh, the last I've watched was cunk on earth - which was great! I mostly focus on youtube, I just finished watching a 90 parts series on The Void, by someone who played it 13 years ago! my life is just sad like that

Currently reading: sigh... I really need to get on wittgenstein's Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus, but I'm also reading bill bruford's autobiography, also two other books on joy division and ian curtis (one of them by peter hook)

Current obsession: are you kidding me? pathologic, and the void. but I'm also rediscovering classic rock which is great. it's so dear to me, my heart is so full!

if you see this, feel free to do it! but I'm also tagging @erriga @underpaidandlost @marigold-cider @shoyyos-bicyycle @spoopy-moose @mariamegale @everlasting-evocation @laiken4thewin @starlightnecromancer

but no pressure :) thank you again!

[eddie-rifff]

had a dream about bryan ferry (yuck) i was in a school/college or something and i like exploded on a group of people like i went ballistic screaming at them for some reason and they all were like lol ok this person is insane we're leaving and i was like.. fuck.. i just turned everyone against me. so they all peaced out of the building and i was alone and i was walking out of the building to go home looking to see if anyone was left and lo and behold theres bryan ferry and i was like sigh ok i guess hes a shitty person too so he doesnt care that im shitty as well so we walked out of the building together and he was gonna take me home in his car which was a lot weirder and more beat up than i expected but i got in and he starts driving off and i ask for a cigarette because i knew he smoked and he gave me two and they were really weird and tasted like nothing. flash forward some weird stuff happens bryan turns into a different guy with an accent at some point blah blah blah and at this point im like jesus this dream is going on forever. n then it kept going

then we're at like a zoo or something and theres another person with us who idk but bryan is there again and hes wearing the military uniform thing he did for the siren tour and as we're walking around this really cool place he fucking disappears and im like fucking hell bryan you were the only one who liked me and you're gone!! so i was super pissed and was asking people if theyve seen a man with eyes close together and a white collared military-like shirt and a patch on the arm that says "roxy music" and they were like uh i think so and the dream kinda fizzled out from there. at the end i really caught on it was a dream and tried to summon bill bruford but it didnt work lol

[eddie-rifff]

idk if any of you guys watched the kurtis conner video on living like a billionaire for a week but the part where hes writing out his “to feel” list and just writes “horny” three times is how i feel right now. about..sigh.. bill bruford. like i dont want to watch funny videos i dont want to read i dont want to go to bed yet i want to objectify the old man goddamn it!!

fuck it go to this video at 9:10 and youll see what i mean (its also just really funny anyway it makes me lol every time i watch it)

[eddie-rifff]

Are you assexual? How does one know? I'm asking because sometimes I think I am, but sometimes I don't... guess I'm confused lol

ayyyy i'm in a similar position! i think im ace.... i think. it is confusing lol. ill put a read more because i ended up writing a bunch, i really hope at least some of it helps!!

(im not an expert in sexuality by any means so most of what i wrote here is through the lens of my personal experience, i dont want to seem like im being like "me me me this is about meee", i only use myself as an example because thats kinda all i have and its what i know best. my hope is that you can compare and contrast your experiences against mine and get something useful from it)

attraction is a sliding scale. i dont know many ace people who experience zero physical and sexual attraction but they exist i know, so, because of that, rather than saying only those people who experience ZERO attraction are ace, i generally call myself ace even though i'm not at that far end, if that makes sense.

my reasons for calling myself ace are this: i find very few people sexually appealing, and have limited feelings of physical attraction as well. i joke about being thirsty for peter hammill or whatever but deadass he and like... andy mackay and bill bruford are the only people that i would slam my fist on a table and say "i wanna fuck this guy". and thats it. three guys who i like for reasons wherein their physical attractiveness is secondary. i didnt find ANY of them to be sexually desirable right away-- it like, crept up on me after quite some time of finding them appealing in other ways. i dont think i have ever been able to look at someone and instantly say "i wanna have sex with that person" (but then again idk if non-ace people do that to begin with lol)

i do find a number of people physically attractive, like i can point to someone and say oh wow they're hot, but i dont want to have sex with them, and i think its that lack of sexual desire that qualifies me, in my mind, as being ace.

that said, because i have never nor will never bone any of the three dudes mentioned above (sigh), i still can enjoy being physical with someone, but surely it hits differently for other people who DO experience more sexual attraction. for me its kinda like... well, this is nice :) in my experience its like... if someone randomly offered you a back massage when you didnt really need one. you'd be like, "oh, ok, sure!" you didnt want one to begin with, but since they offered, it was nice! and THAT said, i could also go the rest of my life never having sex again and it wouldnt bother me one bit-- another point for the "probably ace" jar. i would still feel like punching a hole in the wall when i look at bill bruford because hes so goddamn hot but im not going to sit around and be sexually frustrated endlessly like i know some people would.

of course i cant say what your experience is, but if it looks anything like mine, perhaps you're ace. and if it doesnt... you totally still could be asexual, just on a different part of the spectrum. some people who don't identify as being 100% ace call themselves greysexual (a term im fine with using and probably in the technical sense fits me better, i just say asexual cuz its more widely known/ accepted), some people, one of my sisters for instance, is demisexual, meaning she doesnt find people sexually desirable until she forms a personal connection with them, which is kinda along the lines of being ace but, you know, not entirely.

now, what im about to say might be the opposite of what you were looking for, but my very best advice (advice that helps me, at the very least) is just not to fret over it. im kinda the same way about my gender. i just say im nonbinary. not a boy, not a girl, sometimes i do feel like one or the other, idfk! im just nonbinary. thats how i see my sexuality as well, only i am definitely pointed more in one direction (lack of attraction) than i am the other, so just for the sake of making my life a little less complicated i just say whatever, i guess im asexual. for some people labels are comforting, and if you're one of them then by all means keep searching for your identity, but i will just warn you it may be putting undue stress upon you. all through college i gave myself such grief about being trans or cis or whatever the fuck because i just didnt understand myself and couldnt put myself into a box... so i gave up! and there was such a sigh of relief in saying idk what i am, but if nothing else i am nonbinary. and again, for me, its similar with my sexuality. im not certain of anything, but ill just say im ace and call it a day. just something to keep in mind perhaps.

id be happy to talk off anon if you want but if you wanna stay anonymous thats totally cool! im happy to give input in any case :) i really really hoped this helped in any kind of way!!!