#me shamelessly self-promoing my fic in the notes of my popular taz post because i want people to read it

[anistarrose]

chapter 1 is up!! with a scope that includes but is not limited to a Barry nightmare (because we have to give other characters insecurities and trauma too, and even more importantly, throw in found family cuddles for balance!)

amnesiac barry bluejeans is still one of the most existentially fucked up characters of all time to me. you wake up with a gaping hole in your memories, naked in a tank in a cave that screams "dark magic and horrific experiments." your own voice tells you you've lost more than you can imagine, and you sound like you know what you're talking about. you run away from that place, knowing you're on a death mission. wishing you didn't have to wonder what happened to you — how some nobody like you got caught up in something so terrifying and incomprehensible, something so much bigger than you.

and then, you die. and you realize it's the other way around. you are the terrifying, incomprehensible thing that the fate of the world has been caught in. and you've just failed. again.