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poisonouswritings · 2 years ago

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Sage and MC living on Earth and taking Sage to therapy cuz babyboy my kitten man my joy❤️ you need it :3

I like how this implies that there's no therapists on Astraea

GN!Reader, I've thought about this a lot actually, not me with my stoner agenda, pretty vague drug/alcohol addiction mention, depression symptoms/depictions, mental health stuff in general ig, i had to add a readmore because i have many thoughts, I think Sage internalized the effects of his trauma a lot in the final few chapters of the story but once he actually has time to breathe and feel safe with you the months and years of it all build up and explode on him

Okay so like,, *pats Sage's head* this bad boy can fit so much trauma in him

This is post-game so it's the first time in months that Sage has had the chance to just breathe. And once he's adjusted to Earth (which takes a little bit. Initially he's afraid of basically everything because it's all so unfamiliar and he's been in fight-mode for half a year) some of the anxieties start to settle. But some of them don't. Like you thought he'd stop following you around everywhere once he realizes that No Just Because A Car Honks Doesn't Mean It's Gonna Eat You but apparently not.

No I make jokes but he thought Gramme killed you before and then you nearly died during the fight with LoS so like he is terrified of losing you again. And I think he always kinda followed you around before anyways (because he's an attention whore of a cat and just really loves being around you) but now he gets legitimately anxious if you're out of his sight for too long. His cat instincts don't help. Like you have to leave for work once and you're gone for six hours or so and you come back and the apartment is completely trashed (anxious zoomies) and he's huddled in the corner having a massive panic attack.

That's what finally gets him to agree to therapy.

You gotta like,, because you're on Earth so you have to translate all the Astraean stuff into Earth stuff. The stuff about Sage growing up on the street and taking care of Tulsi and being in a gang and whatever, change a few little details here and there and it's fine. But when it comes to the magic stuff,, 'corruption' becomes 'drug use' (and I think that's decently suitable because it's a weird substance (the potions) that makes you have a severe emotional and physical reaction that's usually destructive and Sage has admitted to feeling addicted to the feeling before and wanting to give in to it. also just,, with his background in general drug addiction would be kinda expected so it's easy to get the therapist to roll with it so), your six-month disappearance became a six-month coma caused by Gramme (I think Gramme was kind of a father figure to all the Starsworn and honestly no matter which theory you believe (Gramme was always LoS from the very beginning vs Gramme really did die in the battle and LoS basically just stole his body/appearance) it's gonna fuck Sage up a lil) and that at the same time Sage was incapacitated and disfigured and he couldn't do anything to protect you, and the LoS fight a drug-fueled confrontation where Gramme nearly killed you again. Lucan and Balsam both OD'ed and tried to kill Sage/you (respectively) and Sage had to kill them as a result. Etc etc.

He just has,, such a laundry list of trauma and unhealthy coping mechanisms,,,, this is gonna take a while. Honestly the therapist wants to refer him to a psychiatrist because he desperately needs some form of anxiety medication but like,, Sage doesn't have medical records,,,, so she just suggests weed. And I say this with some authority because my sister's therapist just flat-out told her to take some THC when the anxiety got too bad, so. You have to make sure he doesn't overdo it but I think as long as he (meaning you) are responsible he should be just fine.

You have to sit in the first couple of sessions. Gradually the therapist asks you to sit outside a little bit at a time. The first time Sage only makes it seven minutes before coming out to check on you (it doesn't help the therapist was asking him about the first fight with Gramme (what you know was the sewers) to see how he responded and the answer was Not Well). As time goes by he's able to gradually increase that until he can get through a full session of discussing traumatic things without you in sight. He's always a little weak afterwards though, but you're there to support him and that means everything to him.

He also gets better at spending time alone and being okay with you being alone. It's not his favorite thing in the world but he no longer destroys property so it's progress

There are a lot of days where he backslides. Especially in the beginning. He can't get out of bed, he can't speak, he can't even let you use the bathroom by yourself because he's that afraid. You do your best to take care of him but it's hard. There's no denying that. And the day after he's always so hard on himself. Frustrated for feeling weak, upset that he worried you, just really overwhelmed.

It's the first time in the last half-a-year that he hasn't been fighting for his life so he just,, sleeps,,, constantly in the beginning. He'll spend all day in bed if you don't wake him up and coax him into taking care of himself. I also think that he doesn't eat a lot for the same reason and you have to gently remind him about that too. And showering. Everything just drains him. And then he gets angry at himself for being so helpless and weak and it all just cycles.

But you're there for it all. And so he just focuses on you. Tells himself that he has to get better for your sake because you've already put up with so much from him that he cant take anything else from you. And eventually he'll understand and truly believe that he genuinely deserves self-love and to feel okay - daresay good - about himself.

Over time it happens less often. He learns to drink a lot of water. Does a bit of exercise (mostly walking in the parks with you and stuff. If you can't walk much then he'll carry you or push you in a wheel chair or whatever you need. He just likes spending time with you so he'll do whatever he can to accommodate you) and eats a vegetable once in a while.

I'm going to assume Sage still has some way to see Tulsi (side note I'm pre-emptively annoyed because I'm assuming the finale (if we ever get it) is gonna have either you stay on Astraea or Sage going with you to Earth because I do not think he could handle losing you to Earth and I also do not think he can or should have to lose Tulsi again because they already didn't talk for five years don't fucking do it again) and when she starts to notice the change in him,, and she's the first one to see it (aside from you but definitely before Sage does),,, she's so happy. She teases him here and there but when he's in the kitchen cooking you guys lunch or something she's crying into your shoulder because she's so proud of him

The first time he notices it is when someone shoves you in public and he's able to keep himself calm enough to carefully remove the both of you without escalating anything and it's like ten minutes later and he's like 'Holy Shit I Didn't Even Threaten That Person Babe Babe Look I Handled Myself :3' and he's so proud and happy for the rest of the day

Sage just,, finally beginning to learn that it's okay to feel safe and loved and vulnerable

Ough I love him so much I just want to punt him directly into a therapists office

#last legacy #fictif last legacy #sage lesath x reader #sage Lesath #fictif sage #last legacy sage #cw drug mention #cw alcohol mention #cw depression #cw eating mention #very vague but idk #fren asks #ozzy answers #ozzy daydreams

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foreficfandom · 5 years ago

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Mystic Messenger - Cooking For MC (Headcanons)

--- Zen ---

He spent the last decade never having to cook, and instead relying on South Korea’s amazing take-out culture to survive. One only has to pay just a liiiitle bit extra when buying meals from convenience stores, or from specific take-out eateries.

But now he has a significant other! And he’s already made a big fuss about how he believes he’d ‘make a good husband’, so now it’s time to prove it. How hard can cooking be?

Unfortunately, Zen quickly realizes that making good meals demands more than throwing rice into the cooker and boiling some sweet potato leaves. Different types of meat from different animals and different cuts needed to be cooked differently, vegetables need to be washed and paired with the right heat and oil, not to mention knowing what spices go with what.

His cooking odyssey starts when the two of you began to get more domestic with each other, and he wanted to surprise you with a home-cooked evening meal rather than going out to eat like the two of you always did up to this point.

Good thing he started early in the afternoon, because his first attempt was a disaster. The catfish fillets kept flaking and getting stuck to the pan, the rice was way too soggy from being overwatered, and he accidentally seasoned the green beans with pickled plum powder instead of white pepper.

Googling saved his ass and he instead steamed the fish with ginger and scallions, fried the beans in sesame oil and garlic, and the rice came out fluffy. By the time you came home, you were greeted with a romantic home-cooked dinner for two. (He didn’t know to remove the stems from the green beans, though)

As time goes by, Zen really steps into that supposed ‘husband’ role and learns to cook properly. His meals are almost exclusively healthy options of whole grains and lean proteins, with no excess salt or oil.

--- Yoosung ---

He can cook! He’s a pretty good one, too. At least, compared to most other students. He doesn’t burn things, or over-salt them. But he never made complicated dishes, mostly due to a lack of time or energy. Still, he did enjoy making the occasional dish of omurice in his dorm. His plating tended to look a bit sloppy, but they always tasted fine.

Once you enter the picture, he finds himself daydreaming about cooking for you, and serving delicious meals over a candlelit home dinner with a sweet dessert to top it off. He imagined being a loving husband wearing an apron, peacefully tossing vegetables in a pan while you came behind him and wrapped your hands around his waist.

And then he’d turn to his pile of dirty dishes still sitting in the sink for the past four days and realize that he’d have to step up his game if he wanted to bring that fantasy to life. He may have the ability avoid food-poisoning in his dishes, but that’s not good enough for you!

So his renewed interest in life was largely spent re-focusing on his studies (while also spending his spare time with you), and after he finally got his diploma and began getting internships, he moved out of the dorm and into a real, actual apartment with a stove that had more than one burner! And also an oven!

When he started cooking for the both of you, he began simple; store bought tteokbokki and gochujang, and into which he’d chop scallions, onions, and clams - kinda like the Korean equivalent of boiling dried pasta, and adding your own ingredients to the store-bought jar of marinara sauce.

He got older and with age came a greater patience for homesteading. His dishes became more complicated, and also better! You always looked forward to the days when he’d cook. And he couldn’t help but brag sometimes about how good of a boyfriend he was, because of his abilities in the kitchen.

--- Jaehee ---

She grew up in a household that almost exclusively dined on home-cooked meals, so it was with great internal shame that she had to resort to take-out when she began working at C&R. Take-out can be filled with preservatives, sugar, and salt, not to mention the depressing image of eating off plastic trays all the time.

Before the two of you began living together, but after beginning plans of opening a cafe, Jaehee began cooking a lot more. She’d experiment with cafe recipes of sandwiches, baked goods, desserts, and artisanal coffees. You were her favorite taste-tester.

As the cafe managers, you and Jaehee don’t cook everything sold at the cafe, and most of it is too sweet or carb-filled for Jaehee to serve it at home. So she busted out her family’s old notecards (or, like many families, nobody ever wrote down classic Korean dishes on notecards so she had to call her parents to ask how to make sundubu jjigae) to serve to the both of you.

She truly believes in the value of home cooking. It’s so much healthier and wholesome. And being able to cook something for the both of you to sit down and enjoy is so domestic and peaceful.

You two manage the cafe takes up many days of the week, but usually not the whole day, so there’s time for at least one cooked meal at home every day. Sometimes you cook, but mostly she does. She missed the freedom of this particular creative expression.

Her favorites are replicas of dishes she grew up eating - hand-made dumplings, beef noodle soups, roast dakjjim, seaweed salads. Her mood is just so much better since leaving C&R, and she’s gotta believe that’s partially due to her improved diet. You being in the picture is another big part of it!

--- Jumin ---

Surprisingly, this pampered 1% CEO-in-line can indeed cook some specific dishes. Home-ec was part of his schooling, and he’d retained the lessons he’d learned to this day. During the first few days you stayed in his penthouse, he had made a stack of strawberry pancakes that tasted perfectly fluffy and sweet, almost mathematically calculated to maximize their pancake-ness.

And technically it was in fact calculated, since that’s how Jumin approaches cooking. Measurements are precise and exact, temperatures to the perfectly right point. Which is also why Jumin knows how to cook, like, four different dishes and nothing else. He was more interested in treating you to his private chef’s gourmet meals, and only wanted to cook when he thought a personal touch would be appreciated.

Pancakes were one of the recipes he learned in junior-high home economics. The other three were; beef stroganoff, frosted cinnamon rolls, and tteokguk. He can cook them to exact perfection ... which is, they don’t taste gourmet nor mind-blowingly fantastic, but instead ‘perfect’, with perfect temperature and perfect seasonings. Nothing more, nothing less.

He’s aware that he can’t cook something that has anything particular to offer. He’s always struggled with being creative, and his cooking is no different. It’s hard for him to deviate from established tried-and-true recipes. It’s even harder for him to tackle new ones.

Living with Jumin means little opportunity for him to cook. Or for you to cook, for that matter. If Jumin’s chef isn’t booked for the day, chances are the two of you are eating at some five-star restaurant. His penthouse does have a very fancy and equipped kitchen (is that a soda gun??) so one day you decided to encourage Jumin to exercise his creative skills a bit more.

With your help, he modified his pancake recipe for the waffle maker, and customized a fruit syrup using his gut feelings and not a written recipe. It came out fantastically and lovingly delicious. He was so happy to have created something special for once, and named the dish after you.

--- Saeyoung/707 ---

He never had any reason to cook before he met you. He lived off of a trash diet that only the nastiest of gamer geeks would stoop to. But when his life turned around and you entered the picture, he realized that he needed to clean up his act sooner or later.

You’ll almost certainly cook more than he ever will, but he’ll step up to the plate once and a while. “Seven, work today was brutal and I’ll be coming home late. Can you cook up something for the both of us?”

“Ah, never fear! I’ll make sure you’ll be fed something nourishing and delicious. Trust in your god 707!”

By ‘nourishing and delicious’ he meant pulling out a box of buchimgae mix, and frying it with sliced zucchini and onions before serving it with dipping sauce. He had to cheat and quickly buy a box of barbecue chicken wings to go with it.

It’s a simple and quick meal, but it tastes perfectly decent. And simple dishes are as far as he’s willing to go, ‘cause he never wants to make something gross and force you to eat it out of gratitude.

He has a list of easy recipes stored in his brain in case he’s assigned to cooking duty - ham fried rice, oven-roasted chicken legs, Japanese curry, anything that has less than five steps to complete. And he pays little attention to things like sugar and salt levels, so its no concern of his if a meal is less ‘healthy’ than another.

If you’re a cooker, he ends up absentmindedly copying your recipes and methods for when you need him to make meals, and he’s pretty good at backwards-engineering a dish to figure out how to make it himself.

In the beginning, he kept making weird noob mistakes in his cooking, like accidentally leaving the small stickers on the ginger root he’s boiling in the broth, and not knowing you should peel daikon before stewing it.

But he’s perfectly satisfied with the fact that he eventually settles into a position of ‘decent emergency housecook’. But he’ll always prefer to eat what you prepare for him UwU

--- Saeran ---

Back during Mint Eye, Ray had tried his best to make the most beautiful and delicious meals for you. And he mostly succeeded, carefully following recipes for marinated apricot pork, butternut squash ravioli, and lemongrass scallops the best he could.

It was a steep learning curve. He hadn’t really cooked before this point, so for your sake he decided to run before he knew how to walk. But he’s a smart dude, so his dishes always turned out pretty okay at the very least. He was so happy seeing you enjoy them.

So when Saeran settled in with you, he began cooking again. He found it therapeutic after a day spent hacking. Very quickly he started getting into even more complicated dishes just for fun; roast duck, elk medallions, fluffy angel food cake from scratch. Sometimes things failed, but mostly his dinners were something to look forward to.

He doesn’t cook a whole lot, and in the beginning he even skipped the meals you’d prepare for the both of them, because he’s depressed and sickly and it’s hard to summon up the appetite for regular breakfast and lunch. And even afterwards, he keeps odd hours which meant dinnertime might overlap with his work, leaving the job to you.

But the times where the two of you can actually sit down to a meal he’s made are some of the most peaceful and happiest moments of the day. He still loves caring for you, and creating food you truly enjoy is a particular source of love for him.

Surprisingly, he’s a lot less talented when it comes to baking. His cookies come out mealy and stiff, his cakes dense and eggy. Something about dedicating so much of the process to the oven just messes up his ability in the kitchen. Even though his stovetop cooking always turn out pretty freaking amazing, he can’t be trusted with desserts.

And unfortunately, he always hates cleaning up afterwards. It’s a pet peeve of his. Why can’t dishes ever wash themselves? He and his brother purchase like, two different dishwashers, and overclock them as well, so he can avoid washing dishes as much as he can.

--- Jihyun ---

A trustworthy cook, who loves to replicate recipes he’s tasted from abroad. But he can’t backwards engineer dishes like Saeyoung can, he has to rely on a recipe for most of the cooking process.

And it can be somewhat a struggle to find the proper ingredients for dishes he wants to make, such as fresh green cardamon for Tibetan lentil soup, or anchovy syrup for authentic Italian pizza. When you began living with Jihyun, the kitchen slowly became packed with foreign spices and ingredients. “Jihyun, what the heck is this thing I found in the freezer??” “It’s a pack of frozen chorizo I’m planning to make into a mash, put it back before it defrosts!”

Grocery shopping involves 40% of buying the essentials, and 60% of Jihyun walking up and down the isles, hunting for rare and obscure ingredients. If he finds something, he likes to excitedly drag you over and show off the hidden package of blue stilton cheese he managed to find, and talk about his memories of visiting the United Kingdom, and learning about how historical and special this cheese is.

Life as an established photographer means his work schedule is pretty irregular. Sometimes, he has huge stretches of days where he has nothing to do, and sometimes he’s got entire weeks in advance where his professional skills have been hired. Not to mention his own schedule involving traveling the world and finding new subjects to photograph. So the times when he can cook for the both of you are kinda unpredictable.

When he does, he always insists on cooking from a culture different from any recent meals you two have had. If it was American potato salad yesterday, its Moroccan tangia tonight. If yesterday’s lunch date was spent in a traditional Japanese cafe, then today’s home-cooked lunch is gonna be Swedish potato pancakes.

And of course, he takes pictures of his especially successful dishes, to put on his personal instagram. If he can get your hand, or other subtle pose in the shot, it makes him 300% happier.

#mystic messenger imagines #mysme imagines #mystic messenger #mysme #zen mysme #yoosung kim #jaehee kang #jumin han #saeyong choi #saeran choi #jihyun kim

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chaeryybomb · 4 years ago

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JUNE COMEBACKS REVIEW

BLACKPINK: HOW YOU LIKE THAT

ngl I’m kinda sad bc a lot of y’all don’t like the song ;-; but I can’t do anything about it since it’s your opinion so

but I hope that people know the difference between hating and giving criticism saying the song sucks and that it’s trash music is straight up music

I can get why people are disappointed with the song since everyone wanted almost the same thing, “jennie getting a rap part”, “jisoo saying blackpink in your area” and a high note from rosé

personally I really like the song, to me it’s not the same as dddd and ktl tbh I think it’s different

plus I kinda expected it to be like that bc their songs usually follow that yg style ya know the only songs I say that don’t follow that stereotypical yg style is “love scenario”, “stay” and AKMU’s songs

i mean if you compare the song with other yg artists song, they all have the same vibe to it because of the “yg style” we always say

the song also gives me nct and skz vibes too, like specifically “punch” and “side effects” bc of the heavy edm and also bc their songs has been called noise before dhshd

but enough of that

I really like how the song starts calmly in the beginning and then it starts to be more aggressive

also I like the fact that each of the girls get a chance to say “how you like that”

lisa’s rap????? y e s

personally I feel like this time it had more of a fairer distribution, including lines and center parts

like jisoo actually gets some center parts in the dance break and chorus

i also really like the outfits this era, especially the modernized hanboks! though I have mix feelings about the pink wig dhshdh

speaking of hair, jennie!! she fucking dyed her hair!!!

and rosé is no longer blonde dhsjdj

the parts I found weird is when rosé says “look up in the sky it’s a bird it’s a plane” i have no idea how that fits in the song so

and the “dumdudurum” part at the end, it sounds out of place, like especially after it the song ends

i also think that this is their best choreography! right next to don’t know what to do

overall, I really like the song, if you don’t it’s fine! hylt has the most aesthetic mv’s I’ve seen and the outfits are so much better and it has been said that BLACKPINK’s old stylist left the company in January no not maeng

lisa’s fur coat outfit reminds me of yeji’s outfit in wannabe

would I say that hylt is their best song? no, I think playing with fire was their best song but it’s not a terrible song either

another I like is jisoo owning this era, say what you want, hylt is Jisoo’s era period.

STRAY KIDS: GOD’S MENU

what even is a concept anymore

we all thought it was going to be some street racer concept

buT NO

it’s a kung fu panda concept dhshdh

felix!!! my baby has lines !!!!

his demonic voice is bACK

hyunjin’s blond hair 😭😭

what the fUCK

the way he tied it up in a ponytail, like sir that is diSRESPECTFUL he really is jaebum’s son huh

okay okay on to the song

it honestly shocked me so much, like the rap parts were so aggressive like and the vocals are kinda angelic???

i really really like the pre-chorus, seungmin’s voice is just so !!!!! i also like seungmin+i.n’s little duet after felix’s part

spEAKING OF FELIX’S PART

“looking like a chef I’m a five star Michelin” bro that part is lowkey demonic looking in the dance

like mans pulled his knees up and put his hands through them while looking directly at you

does that not look demonic to you??? my friend said it reminded her of a spider dhshdhr

also the “dududu” part instantly reminded me of bp’s dddd dhshd like can someone edit a part of bp going “oh wait till I do when I hit you with that” and cuts to skz “DUDUDU”

the fact that no one has done it yet astounishes me

also what the fuck is that chain thing on Chan’s face, who put it there and why dhshd

bless whoever gave changbin dual contacts lens

AND WHO GAVE JEONGIN SLEEVELESS SHIRTS WHO ALLOWED THAT DHSHD

at first I found the choreography a bit funny bc they added like cooking gestures to it dhshd, like stirring the pot in the chorus but my favorite part of the dance is changbin’s part

the entire album was a bop okay, the fact that “god’s menu” wasn’t even the title track and they decided to change it, the fact that jyp has so much TRUST in bang chan also we get to see chan and sana being best friends uwu

“pacemaker” is literally “my pace” 2020 ver dhshd it even has the “nananana” part!

my favorites from the album is “TA”, “blueprint” and “haven”!!

also “easy”,,,, chan what did u do that it can’t be performed in shows

TWICE: MORE & MORE

wow girl groups are really being criticized this month huh

if y’all don’t know what happened with twice, a lot of people are criticizing twice for not singing live during their encore stages

a lot of them are especially going after momo

I’ve watched their encore stages and I don’t know why people are saying they sound bad???? maybe they need a better vocal coach but the fact that people are taking advantages of the situation just to hate on them smh

a n y w a y s

the song definitely gives a whole lot of “dtna” vibes bc of the tropical concept, its like “dtna” but the mature version

if “dance the night away” had an older sister, it would be “more & more”

also I really like the eve & adam concept, “more & more” is also another “creepy”ish song that is hidden behind a catchy tune, like “yes or yes” where ppl think it’s a cute song but the lyrics says otherwise

okay actually writing this out, it’s mv has “dtna” vibe but the song is so much like “yes or yes”

if you read the lyrics, the girls are basically saying that “no matter how hard you try to hide, you’re going to be mine again”

even in dahyun’s rap she says “I’m naturally selfish, I’m sorry if you didn’t know” and “you will fall for me, you can’t say no no”

it’s almost the same as her part in “yes or yes” where she says “there is no letters n and o” dhshdh sorry this becam a whole theory

back the real song review, I’m so glad that momo got a dance break! I think that this is their fairest line distribution yet. jeongyeon got her lines, dubchaeng got their rap parts and momo has a lot of center parts!!

and the girls look so much happier during their promotions especially tzuyu! she was smiling so much, maybe it’s because mina is with them and I’m so happy they get to perform as nine again

i really like their choreography and the part where they do the chest bounce is really satisfying idk why dhsdh

plus jeongyeon got better outfits this era cough feel special era cough

overall, I really like this comeback and it’s nice that nayeon got the high notes this time instead of jihyo

IZ*ONE: SECRET STORY OF THE SWAN

oh boy this is definitely my favorite song of this month

it’s so much different than their other songs!!!

and there’s so much to go on about!

wonyoung, minju, sakura and hyewon literally improved so much. im so proud of them !!!

hyewon, nako and sakua getting to sing the chorus??? y e s

chaeyena rap parts????? y e s

chaeyeon getting a dance break AND a high note???? Y E S

my favorite parts is eunbi+chaewon pre chorus wow I have a thing for pre choruses don’t I dhsh

i will say that this song vies the girls the chance to show how much they’ve improved throughout the eras, especially the j-line and visual line since a lot of people said they didn’t belong in izone

wonyoung and yujin's expressions are really on point as well

and yena's hip move dhshdhs

it's also rlly cute how eunbi throws confetti at her part dhshd

it’s refreshing to see how the girls improved

unfortunately, izone will be disbanding this year ;-; this is why I never liked the produce series

but we do have some ideas what will happen to the members though, we all know yena will be added into everglow, i having a feeling that eunbi and chaeyeon will be debuting as a soloist, they have so much potential plus the radiate chungha energy

nako, hitomi and sakura would most likely return to Japan, although I see sakura staying in korea to pursue an acting career and hitomi as a producer since she wrote some of izone’s songs

yuri might debut as a solo or debut in a new girl group as main vocalists, the same goes for chaewon

i see minju and hyewon going into acting careers and CF contracts, the same as kang mina, especially since minju is now an mc for music core

whereas for wonyoung and yujin, their both still young so I think they’ll finish school before re-debuting in groups plus yujin will be attending sopa

especially wonyoung, we all know that she’s actually really smart and is good at academics, i also think she might do modeling work, she fits the criteria

i also kinda see yujin pursuing an acting career because she will be in the theatre and film department in sopa. unless starship is going to debut a new girl group, I hope that yujin can debut as a soloist instead

WEKI MEKI: OOPSY

*inhales*

LUCY AND LUA FINALLY GETTING THE LINES THEY D E S E R V E D

I’m so happy dhshdhhs

also lua fits the short hairstyle so much, I’ve literally fallen for her help I can’t get up

as much as I love yoojung, it’s nice to see lucy rapping

the song is very catchy, I especially like rina’s part in the second verse of the song

i also love the “wolf & hunter” concept for the album

like the pictures were very beautiful, I also like how they use white for the wolves and black for the hunters, it’s like painting the hunters at the bad guys and the wolves as the good guys

I am in love with Lucy, Lua and Sei’s “nonono” part in the chorus

and the choreography for the chorus too

as much as I love elly’s blue hair, she slays in black hair dhshd I

I really love their outftis this era, i like how it’s all pants for the girls too

my favorite outfits are the black outfits from the gif

overall, this is definitely their fairest line distribution cough tika taka and dazzle dazzle cough

NATURE: GIRLS

this is my second favorite song of the month

I love the whole horror concept and I also like the fact that they released the uncensored version of the mv

it’s give the song much more of the horror vibe

I’m new to Nature and as far as I know, a member is stuck in China and another member sat out due to an injury. please correct me if I’m wrong

the outfits might be simple, but it fits so right with the song, I prefer the white dresses over the black ones

it kinda gives out the feeling that the girls are like asylum patients ya know, whereas the black dresses gives out that the girls are rich daughters that were sent away

I really like LU and Haru’s parts

the dance is also kinda a simple but it looks great!

overall, I hope that Nature will do this concept again, actually I hope to see more groups do this kind of concepts more

WAYV: TURN BACK TIME

did this comeback scare me? yes yes it did

bro the teasers were so scARY

yangyang was literally laughing like a mANIAC

MANS WAS IN AN ASYLUM OKAY

their teasers gave me so much suicide squad vibes

also, why the fuck were 4/7 members not wearing shiRTS

sm do you have a shirt shortage??? I’m sure nctzens are more than happy to donate some shirts to you

okay anyways, I’ve always liked wayv’s sci-fi concept, I don’t know if the mv’s are connected or not but I think they are

“take off” is them basically flying away from earth and they landed in space in “moonwalk” and it seems they have been captured in “turn back time”

very inch resting dhshd

listen, I may be chinese but I can’t understand 70% of the song because of how fast it goES

so with that saying, yANGYANG DID NOT COME TO PLAY

his rap was amazing !!!! he is definitely one of sm’s best rappers along with taeyong and mark

my favorite part is lucas and hendery’s rap parts and then it switches to xiaojun and yangyang + kun, ten and xiaojun getting highnotes

the dance break is so satisfying to watch too

“stop, rewind, turn back time” and “5432” part is so satisfying

also I’m really impressed with how fast LabelV responded when fans pointed out that some of the outfits had offensive phrases in them, they took the time to edit it out of the teasers and the mv, cheers to them

also! i find it funny that wayv released the Korean version of “turn back time” but all of us were much more shocked at the fact that Ten got another cat dhshd

SEVENTEEN: LEFT & RIGHT

first of all, dokyeom looks so gOOD IN THE MV

second of all, vernon and wonwoo’s “hana dul set” will forever be iconic

third, seungcheol is back 😭😭

just like twice, they get to perform as 13 again dhsjdsn

AND THEY LOOK SO HAPPY DURING THIS ERA TOO

LIKE HAVE YOU SEEN WONWOO?? HE’S SUCH A SMILEY BABY with his orange mic dhshd

also if y’all don’t have tiktok, svt has been doing the “left & right” with so many other idols including chungha and apink’s naeun!

haha joshua hong and wen junhui being real disrespectful with those sleeveless shirts

bonus point we got svt x nct china line + mark and joshua interaction at music bank

their choreography looks so fun too dhshd

the entire comeback is so cute and colorful

my favorite parts are vernon and seungcheol’s rap parts

also vernon be rocking that greaser style

their new album is so versatile, like, “fearless”, “left & right”, “kidult” and “my my”?? who’s doing it like seventeen

i love their new songs so much especially “kidult”

overall, I really really love this comeback

WJSN: BUTTERFLY

I couldn’t find a group scene gif pls forgive me

let me say, I am absolutely in love with the concept, the outfit concept for this is so creative, I don’t know if any other groups have done it before but !!

their outfits evovle like a butterfly!!

at first, the outfits were plain pastel colours but they slowly become more detailed and colourful throughout the stages, like a caterpillar to a butterfly!

center yeoreum!!!

and dayoung looks so pretty in short hair 🥺

and again, as far as I know, the Chinese members are in China, two of them are apart of the Chinese group Rocket Girl and I think Chengxiao recently returned to Korea

I really like their ending pose where their hands are in the butterfly gesture and the “wings” are slowly flapping

and how their arms represent their wings during the chorus

by far one of the moor creative comebacks in my opinion

also, it’s nice to hear soobin doing the high note instead of yeonjung, let yeonjung rest her voice once in a while ya know

SUNMI: PPORAPPIPAM

THE QUEEN IS BACKKK

also wonder girls reunion uwu

the teaser gave me so much "barbie: island princess" vibes so the entire mv was not what I expected

at all

the mv literally describes sunmi a lot, she basically does whatever the fuck she wants like when she posted that pic of jyp on instagram dhshdhs

it’s so funny especially the scene where sunmi is wearing the teletubbies head

and at the end when she wakes up and goes back to sleep is just a mood lmao

something about the song really gives me a lot of “siren” vibes but happier???

i really like the way she pronounces “pporappipam” it took me one week to finally pronounced it dhshd

idk why but I really like the instrumental, especially the intro, it’s very melancholic

also she wears converse while performing the song bc she has to step on the dancers at one part !!

speaking of that part, it’s so cool!!! the way she climbs up the dancers like stairs and then she just trust-falls into their arms

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sysba · 4 years ago

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@lookatmychoices replied to your post “so uhh i started playing LITG........”

But what ARE your many thoughts? Inquiring minds want to know.

LOL okay I didn’t think anyone would care but sure! keep in mind that I’m playing season 1 and i’m only at the end of day 2, alright?

first of all: I’m one of those people who hate reality tv and I don’t watch it AT ALL so I thought I would delete the app after like, 5 minutes? but it’s so trashy... like SO SO trashy... to the point of being enjoyable?

it’s bringing out this new side of me I didn’t know I had and idk if I like it LMFAO... i’m getting really competitive and just enjoying the drama????? which is,,,, not me at all????? it’s weird asdfghj

i’ve had my eyes on Mason since the mf beginning, we spent time together, I chose all of the diamond options, we even kissed! but oh, Allegra decided that he was a piece of meat and he was her property???? like, I don’t like this kind of setting because they always put women in competition but excuse you I was kind and friendly to everyone from the start and she was a bitch from the beginning asdfghjk

Mason and my mc clearly likes each other and she acts like I’m tryna steal him lmfao bitch he was never yours to begin with and he gave no signs of liking you, he’s the one who winks at my mc everytime he has the chance!!!!!!!!!!! i’m not the ‘other woman’ for god’s sake we’ve been here a day!!!!

i had to send home the first guy and the choice was between Miles and one of the boring guys. I didn’t like either of them but I thought, hey, Miles seems friendly enough! oh boy. HUGE mistake. where do I begin?

so, I was the last one to choose and clearly Miles wasn’t my first choice but once he and mc were together I figured I’d at least give him a chance? he looked like a fuck boy for sure and he bragged about his sexual exploits (unprompted) during never have i ever but idk, first impressions can be deceiving. so okay, we were there and he basically says, and I am not exaggerating: since we’re not each other first choice, it would be a waste of time to get to know each other so I’mma go flirt with other girls if you don’t mind! like, WHAT????!!!!!!! let me be clear, I was okay with keeping the options open since my mc had been honest about choosing him as a last resort, but at least for the first 5 minutes together he could've made an effort sdfghjk so yeah she was friendly and he was TRASH and now i’m stuck with this sexist cishet ugly motherfucker who doesn’t think male-female friendships exist LMFAO if he’s found dead in the pool do not prosecute my mc, he had it coming!

and after being so shitty, my mc clearly didn’t wanna sleep in the same bad as him, right? (which for the record, she had agreed to previously!) and he has the NERVE to complain about how he had to sleep on the sofa and wants her to apologize???????? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Jesus christ dumb fucker you should just say thank you because she hasn’t made you sleep among the sharks omg asdfghjk

on top of this now Allegra is trash-talking my very friendly and very honest mc behind her back and turning blondie what’s her name against me holy shit Allegra get a hold of yourself, i haven’t even approached Mason he’s the one who keeps coming back for more 😌 which well, i don’t blame him because my mc is great and a trainee surgeon and Allegra is a snake.

so yeah i’m kinda digging hating people and it’s so weird for me i don’t recognize myself sigh, I just wanna kiss Mason and let him play my mc like he plays his drums okay? ditch Miles and Allegra in the ocean

#lookatmychoices #answered #litg #myreactions

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notalwaysthevillian · 6 years ago

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Brewing Love

Warnings: Kissing, allusions to nsfw, swearing, mention of a controlling boyfriend

Pairings: Remile; background Logicality & eventual Prinxiety

Word Count: ~1.2k

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Chapter 6

A gentle kiss had Remy’s eyes fluttering open the next morning. The gorgeous face of his partner filled his vision, making him smile. “Good morning.”

“A good morning indeed.” Emile slid onto his lap. The pink shirt they’d borrowed from Remy hung a bit loose, showing off their collarbone. “Thanks for letting me sleep over. Even if we didn’t...you know.”

The second Remy unlocked the door, their lips were back together. They stumbled over a few cat toys, making their way to the bedroom.

Emile backed through the doorway, moving until they hit the bed.

And then they froze.

Remy stopped immediately, pulling back. “Em?”

“I’m sorry.” Tears filled their eyes. “I - I can’t, I don’t want to -”

“Em, we don’t have to do anything.”

“But -”

“If you’re not comfortable, we’ll wait.”

“Hey, it’s okay. We don’t have to do anything until you’re ready, alright?” Remy eyed the bracelet, noticing there weren’t any charms. “Babe? What kind of day is it for you?”

There was a flicker of desire in Emile’s eyes, which was quickly accompanied by a blush. “He/him today.”

Time to test a theory. “Good to know, babe.”

The blush deepened, letting Remy know that he was absolutely correct.

Emile had a thing for pet names.

“You’re adorable when you blush.” Remy said as he sat up, hands moving to Emile’s hips. He was ready to let go at a moment’s notice. When there was no protesting, he leaned forward. “May I kiss you?”

Emile nodded, closing the gap.

While their first kiss had been short and sweet, this one held a touch of passion. It had Remy whining as Emile pulled away.

“We’re together now, there’s plenty of time for kissing.” Emile mumbled, pressing their lips together one more time. Before Remy could deepen it, Emile climbed off his lap and pointed at the clock. “Besides, don’t you have to work today?”

“SHIT!”

Scrambling out of bed, Remy grabbed some clothes. He hovered in the doorway of the bathroom. “I’ll be quick.”

“Rem, it’s okay.” Emile slid out of bed. “I was going to find your cat! She’s so cute.”

Without another word, Emile left the bedroom. A second later, Remy could hear him making cooing noises. He trusted Chai to keep Emile busy and hopped in the shower.

After halfway styling his hair, he opened the door. Emile was sitting on his bed, gently petting Chai.

“Babe?” He held back a smirk as Emile flushed.

“Yeah?”

“If you wanna borrow some clothes, my closet is at your disposal.” Remy moved around the bed, leaning over to whisper in Emile’s ear. “And you look hot as hell wearing my stuff, if this shirt is any indication.”

He pressed a few kisses down Emile’s jaw before pulling away. His partner looked adorably flustered.

The haze cleared from Emile’s eyes rather quickly. “Did you have an outfit in mind?”

A few...choice images flashed through Remy’s mind. He could feel his cheeks burning. “Um...why don’t you pick?”

“Okay!”

Emile slid off the bed. He opened the closet door, running a hand along the shirts. He pulled out a gold and black striped button up and paired it with some ripped skinny jeans. Remy saw him hesitate.

“What are you thinking?”

Emile’s eyes darted to the jackets. “Nothing.”

An image of Emile in his leather jacket flickered in Remy’s mind. He reached over and grabbed the article of clothing, holding it out. “Try it on at least?”

“If I change here are you just going to stare at me?” Emile questioned, a teasing grin on his face.

Remy looked him up and down. “Maybe.”

Shaking his head, Emile headed into the bathroom. Chai curled up on the bed, laying on Emile’s clothes from the previous day.

“You like him too, huh?” Sitting on the bed, Remy bopped her nose. She responded by biting his fingers. “He’s definitely a keeper.”

“I’m not a seeker anymore, that’s for sure.”

As he looked up, Remy’s breath caught in his throat. “Wow.”

“I kinda like it.” Emile spun in a circle. “I look edgy.”

Once his brain had rebooted, Remy glanced at the clock. “I gotta head to work, but Logan won’t care if you come with me.”

“Are you sure?” Emile bit his lip. “I don’t want to impose.”

“He’s made out with Patton there more times than I’d like to know. I promise, it’ll be fine.” Sliding to his feet, Remy headed to the kitchen. He heard two sets of footsteps following him.

He let Emile think about it as he fed Chai.

“You’re sure Logan’s okay with it?”

“He will be.” Remy offered his hand. Once Emile took it, he laced their fingers together. Lifting their joined hands, he pressed a kiss against Emile’s knuckles.

“You - you’re gonna be late.”

“A queen is never late. Everyone else is simply early.” Remy quoted as he opened the door. Emile’s laughter echoed in the hall as they headed out of the building.

They walked in just on time. Logan came out of the kitchen, his eyes landing on Emile before sliding to Remy. He grinned at his cousin. “Congratulations.”

“I’d say the same, if there was something to congratulate.”

Logan’s face turned red. “There might be something...soon.”

“Atta boy.”

The two worked through their usual morning routine. Emile asked a few questions, sitting in his usual spot. Remy answered them with ease, proving that he actually did know what he was doing behind the counter.

Once they opened, the morning disappeared in a snap. Emile was content to sip on his hot chocolate and watch Remy work. Every once in a while Patton would bring out ‘samples’ and let Emile try them out.

As they neared the slow hour, Remy heard a customer gasp.

“Dr. Picani?”

Emile turned, seeing one of his patients. He flashed them a smile. “Hello, Elliot. Do you how do?”

“I’m good. It’s weird seeing you outside of the office. And not in your usual clothes.”

“Oh, these are my boyfriend’s. He’s letting me try them out.” Emile waved in Remy’s direction.

Remy’s eyes landed on Elliot’s necklace, seeing ‘they/them’ engraved in the dog tag. “Have you been here before?”

“Once, when you opened.” Their shoulders began to droop. “But, um, my boyfriend at the time didn’t really like this place. And he didn’t like me coming here, so I stopped.”

“Sounds like a shitty boyfriend.”

Emile didn’t say anything, but it was clear that he agreed.

“Yeah, he was. We broke up a month ago.”

The poor kid looked devastated. Remy cleared his throat. “The best cure for a breakup is always chocolate. And according to the good doctor here, we serve the best hot chocolate in the world.”

“One hot chocolate then. Let me grab a mug.”

As soon as Elliot was out of earshot, Emile whispered, “Thank you. They’ve seemed down ever since they broke up.”

“I know how bad heartbreak can be.” Remy started on the drink, nearly missing Emile’s next words.

“Good thing you won’t have to deal with that ever again.”

Emotions buzzed under Remy’s skin. He finished the drink, cashed out Elliot, and then leaned over the counter to plant a kiss on his partner.

“Remy!”

“Oh, so you get to kiss Patton on the clock?”

There was a beat of silence.

“Just...keep it to a minimum please.”

After Logan vanished back into the kitchen, Emile tapped Remy’s hand. “What was that for?”

“I -” It’s too early for that, Remy. “I’m glad we’re together.”

A sunny smile crossed Emile’s face.

“So am I.”

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holidaywishes · 5 years ago

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the song part 1

Part I: The Girl with Mystery in her Eyes

Summary: Lydia fears that her cousin may be in danger so she convinces everyone to go to her in New York.

Fandom: Teen Wolf

Warning: Angst, talk of assault possibly, some language but other than that, not a lot

Author’s Note: Series alert? I just finished watching the entire Teen Wolf series and I cried like a baby. But one thing I always thought could’ve been an interesting story line was if there was a Siren -- especially since Lydia is a Banshee. I figured they’re similar mythologies and if they were related it would totally make sense. So that’s what this is. Hope you enjoy!

P.S.: If you couldn’t tell, I’m going to try and make this a Theo x Calli fic. Let me know if you like that and if you would rather have it be (Y/N) or if you are okay with having a Character name in there.

P.P.S.: If you’re wondering, the name came from this quiz I took -- yes I actually took a quiz to find a siren name -- and the full name was Calliope so that’s why I used that.

Song Credit: Moon and Back -- Alice Kristiansen

masterlist

Lydia’s P.O.V

After months of relative quiet, you woke up in a cold sweat. You were breathless for a second before a name left your lips

“Calli.” You hadn’t seen your cousin in years, not since she moved to New York, so when her face popped up in a vision you weren’t sure what to think.

“She looked terrified, Scott,” you said, standing in front of your friend trying to get him to take the trip out with you, “and like she was being cornered.”

“Maybe that’s just her face?” Peter stated sarcastically, leading you to roll your eyes

“Lydia, you said you haven’t seen her in years right?” Stiles asked

“Right…”

“So, maybe it’s nothing. Maybe she was getting yelled at by a teacher or her boss or something? Not everything has to be a warning”

“It does when you’re a Banshee.” The group collectively raised their eyebrows and considered your option

“You really think she’s in trouble?” Scott leaded

“I do.” He took a second to look around the group and agreed to go to New York before Theo chimed in

“Is she like you?” You hesitated for a second before answering

“Honestly I don’t know…”

“Well that’s comforting..” Theo remarked and you rolled your eyes again. You weren’t feeling like arguing anymore, and definitely not with Theo, so you turned away and continued toward the car.

“You’re not thinking of taking your Jeep are you?” You heard Malia call to Stiles

“Uhm.. obviously.” he snarked

“Stiles, that thing is going to break down within the first half hour”

“It’s my Jeep”

“It’s a piece of trash”

“It’s my Jeep” he repeated

“Stiles, just get in my car”

“But… my Jeep…?”

“Stiles, let’s go!” With a loud whine, he slumped into your front seat and you began the long haul out to New York City. It was a mistake to think you could get there easily or quickly with how many of you that were travelling there and you ended up getting into the city three days later.

“We really should’ve just flown” Liam said as he stepped out of the car and began stretching.

“Well we’re here now. Come on, she’s staying with my Uncle.” You directed the group to the old familiar building where you remembered spending a few Christmases with your cousin, walking up the stairs and knocked on the door; soon met by the warm smile of your Uncle Ron.

“Little Lydia, is that you?” he chimed

“It’s me..” you returned, uncomfortably before asking about Calli.

“She’s at work. I was actually just on my way there. It’s not far, we can walk together.” He led you through the busy sidewalks and you finally ended up at a bar that seemed to double as a lounge -- people were signing up to perform and cycling through like they were in revolving doors. You looked for your cousin in the crowd, telling Scott and the others what she looked like so they could do the same when you heard a laugh from across the room.

“Calli” you said under your breath but apparently Theo was close enough to hear and he followed your eye line to her

“That’s her?” he asked and you nodded, “well that was easy!”

“I wouldn’t start celebrating yet” Peter said from behind the two of you, making you turn to face him

“What does that mean?” You asked

“You don’t feel it?” He seemed to say it more to Theo than to you, even so, both you and Theo shook your heads, “that’s not just a girl. She’s not like us but she’s not really human either…”

“What is she then?” Theo asked, shifting his eyes from Peter to Calli

“Let’s find out, shall we?” Peter grinned just as a girl approached Calli and you watched as your cousin’s face contorted with sympathy, making you wonder what was happening; and what Peter knew.

Calli’s P.O.V

“Come on! Everyone loved it last time” Shannon, a regular at open mic night, said; trying to convince you to sing for her again

“It’s cheating. You have such a great voice, you don’t need mine” you tried, leaning in to try and comfort her by resting your hand on her shoulder

“But I do! My stage fright is terrible. Knowing that I have your voice to fall back on helps me stay calm up there”

“I think that’s a problem” your friend, Matty, said and Shannon rolled her eyes

“Whatever Matty. Please, Calli. This will be the last time, I promise.” She gave you a knowing look and you sighed, agreeing reluctantly as the MC called her up on stage

“I have to get behind the curtain,” you said, getting up before Matty grabbed your wrist, “HEY!”

“No, you’re not going anywhere,” he said forcefully, “if she’s gonna ask you to do this then she should live with the consequences”

“The consequences?” you scoffed

“Let the people see, appreciate, whose voice they’re actually listening to.” You were about to counter his argument when the MC gestured for you and Matty to control the sound; Matty handed you a microphone as Shannon sat down at the piano. This was always a tricky position because you couldn’t see her lips, and you never really practiced this, it was just something you’d done from time to time but it was going well so far. The first verse flowed into the chorus and you could feel the stillness in the room and, against your better judgement, you began to let the song take over.

“When you go quiet, and won’t let your guard down, I hear through the silence that you’re trying to figure it out, You’re trying to make me proud. Believe me now. Baby, to the moon and back. I still love you more than that…”

You noticed a group begin to form around you and Matty but the rest of the audience was still facing Shannon so you kept singing

“We may fall but we’ll keep on going, we may break but we won’t stay broken. Through the cracks in the road, the flowers grow ooh ooh. Before you see our storm clouds forming and the sun won’t rise in the morning, you should know…”

You finally noticed Lydia as the song came slowly to its end and your face scrunched, pulling her aside when the music stopped.

“What are you doing here?”

“You were in trouble?” she said, almost as a question but more of a statement so you shook your head, “No I mean I thought you were in trouble. Aren’t you?”

“No, Lyd’s I’m fine. I’m a little confused why you brought an entire… gang with you to ask if I was okay. How did you even know where to find me?”

“Why me, of course!” Uncle Ron said, sliding one hand onto your lower back and you froze in place, all the while hoping it wasn’t obvious.

“Uncle Ron, you never got the chance to meet my friends. This is Stiles, Scott, Malia, Liam, Theo, Peter, Derek, Jordan and Mason.” She introduced her friends by pointing at them as she said their names and you smiled awkwardly in response, “Everyone this is my Uncle Ron and my cousin, Calli”

“It’s nice to meet you all. And, please, stay with us. I’m betting you never figured out a hotel room before you came here, am I right?” Uncle Ron joked, his hand still on your back

“You are” Stiles answered and you tried to manage a few words but nothing was coming out, just another awkward smile and all of you stood there in silence, waiting for someone to break the tension

“You have a captivating voice, by the way,” Peter said, bringing a blush to your cheeks.

“Doesn’t she though? We’ve told her not to do that though, sing for her friends, it’s a lie and she knows better than to lie…” He said, practically whispering in your ear, “don’t you Calli?”

“We agreed it would be the last time, she was just nervous” you finally said and finally managed to escape your Uncle’s touch and you briefly caught Theo’s stare; thinking you’d look away just as quickly but you found yourself lost in his features and you couldn’t help but notice that he wasn’t looking away either. When Matty finally spoke, your eyes tore away from Theo’s and whipped to Matty

“Anyone hungry? The food is pretty good here, so feel free to tell someone you know Calli and they’ll get to you before anyone else”

“We wouldn’t want to get in anyone’s way..” Lydia said, confusion in her tone

“You wouldn’t have to. Seriously, it happens every time. You say her name at the bar and they rush to take care of you,” Matty scrunched his eyebrows as he spoke, “it’s kinda weird actually…”

“My shift is almost over, but I can probably get Sam to let me go early and then we can talk about what you’re doing here”

“You don’t have t--”

“You came all the way from California and I’m supposed to just think that everything’s okay?” you questioned

“I told you, I thought you were in trouble”

“If that were it, you would’ve called. Just let me clock out.” You said and walked off, telling Sam that you were taking an early night and he let you go without any issues, just like you’d expected, and you grabbed Lydia and her friends and took off. You wandered to your room to change while the group sat down and waited for you to come out and talk to you. And as you turned around, you caught Theo’s eyes again and you swore you felt a literal spark in your chest.

Theo’s P.O.V

You kept finding her stare, and you couldn’t tell if it was on purpose or not but every time you did, you seemed to forget everything. You were snapped back to the group when Calli’s door closed

“Figure it out yet?” Peter whispered over your shoulder

“What?” you asked, turning to face him

“What she is. Did you figure it out yet?”

“No. I honestly think she’s just a girl”

“Think about the night. Think about the events. Think about how you feel when she’s around. Think about Lydia and what she is”

“She’s not a banshee”

“But what do banshees do?”

“Predict death? Scream loud enough to make your ears bleed?”

“Right. So, what is something similar but also the opposite of that?” When it finally hit you, you were even more unsure if you were feeling something for her or if you were being hypnotized

“Siren” you whispered

“What?” Lydia asked, clearly overhearing your conversation

“Your cousin’s a Siren. I’ve never met one,” Peter stated, “but I’ve heard they’re around. And it makes sense that she’s your cousin. You both get your power from your voice”

“So.. what does this mean for her? Is she in danger?” Scott asked, standing up

“Not her,” Peter said, as Calli opened her door and began walking toward the group, “those around her might be though.” You could feel Peter looking at you, a grin appearing on his lips as he spoke, but you couldn’t look away.

And you didn’t want to.

#Teen Wolf #the other masterlist #masterlist #Teen Wolf Fic #Sirens #Banshee #Siren #Werewolves #Teen Wolf Imagine #non-hockey masterlist

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the-voice-of-hell · 3 years ago

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Rent is Theft, part 21

Read from the beginning here, read the previous chapter here. Note: My MC is a Filipina trans woman and I am not. If you have notes on that or anything else, hit me up.

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When I woke the next day, head aching as bad as I expected, but there was a sort of pulling sensation I didn’t quite get. I pawed at my temples. There was a fresh wrap on my head that I did not remember putting there. Leimomi must have done it in my sleep, and maybe a bit tightly. I adjusted it.

Then I realized that meant she would have had at least a few moments alone with that fucking bitch Reverse Courtney. I was very alarmed by that. What if she made it seem like that was my inner thoughts, that her hateful trash was my real feelings? I couldn’t stand that.

Leimomi was nowhere to be seen. I stood up too quick, grabbed my head, and staggered around a moment. She appeared in the doorway, all clean and wrapped up herself, the daylight lining her body. She looked at me in concern, and I searched her face for a hint of Reverse Courtney trauma.

“Did my stupid-ass head mouth say anything mean to you when I was asleep?”

“I think so, but I don’t remember. I only had it out for a moment, and I covered it. I was real tired.” She came into the darkness with me and held me in her arms. “Are you OK?”

I closed my eyes. “Real hungover, but really good too.” I lolled my head at unpleasant memories. “I’m gonna try to forget my apartment exists for a few more hours, heh.”

She kissed me and it turned into a little makeout session, right there. I loved wrapping her in my scrawny arms, rubbing her all over. I hoped it didn’t feel too much like being flogged with skeleton bones.

Leimomi got me a bottle of water and then joined me on her bed. I was still in the bathrobe from the other night, she was in capri leggings and a t-shirt. We stayed on top of the blankets.

“Thanks for helping me clean up, baby. We gotta figure out a cleaner way to do all that. Or just set my apartment on fire when we’re done with everybody, heh.”

“It’s OK, Courtney.” She ran a palm from my chest down to my belly, parting the robe. “We’re both nice and clean. You wanna fool around?”

“Maybe just a little. I dunno if I can go all the way with this headache.”

“Aww.” She pulled her hand back.

“In for a penny, in for a pound?”

“What?”

“You don’t wanna fool around a little, gotta have a big climax or it isn’t worth your time?”

“I dunno. Why just do sex stuff a little? That would be frustrating.”

“Sometimes it can feel nice.” I rolled onto my side to better look her in the face. “Like, I’d love to kiss your *redacted* but I don’t think I’ve got the stamina to finish what I start. But you might still kinda like it, even if it’s frustrating? I know I’d like it.” I made a grabby hand gesture in the air to underscore my point. Give me those things, please.

“Mm, OK, but if I get lady blue balls, I’m gonna be mad at you.” She whipped off her shirt.

*sex scene redacted for tumblr*

Maybe we both fell asleep after that, or she just let me sleep for a bit, until we were roused by a knock at the door.

I wrapped myself up to answer it, because Leimomi still had to wrestle her bra back on.

“Marcie, hey. Sorry I can’t invite you in just now. You wanted to see Momi?”

“I just wanted to see you, thank you for helping Mikey!”

“Hey,” he said. The daylight in the apartment had me a bit blind for looking into the hall, with its weak electric lights. I hadn’t noticed him lurking behind her.

“Mike, hey. Feeling better? Or worse?”

“I’ll be alright. Being green was kinda like being high, so I’m not too hot right now, but Marce is takin’ care of me. She’s a saint.”

“Well great. I love you guys. Have a nice one,” I said.

“Love you too, girl!”

I came back in, feeling nice, despite the low thunder in my head, and lay down on the bed again. “Mike seems great. It’ll be good to get done with this shit, but I just can’t do it again tonight.” I laid a paw on her arm.

“I figured. That was rough.”

“I know we can’t afford to wait for the next full moon. Maybe we’ll just take one night off and go back to it. I can try to come up with different spells for all our problems.”

“Would you kick me in the stomach like Mike?”

“Never. Might have to shave your pretty hair, though. I hope not.”

She had a moment of alarm at the prospect but then shook it off. “That’s silly. I’ll be glad to go bald for a while to get rid of this problem.” Then she looked sharply at me. “But will you love me if I’m bald?”

I grinned. “Hell yes.”

“But why? That would be so ugly.”

“No way, baby. You’re real cute. I love your hair but I haven’t seen it in a while, y’know? I’m still coming around.”

“If you say so.”

“I do.” I was about to say it would make her look more gay, and I’d love that too, but I knew that conversation would tread into territory where I’d find out whether she really thinks of me as a woman, and it killed my mood.

“What do you like about me? Is it just my big *******?” She was looking coy, which is great, because I couldn’t handle her self esteem problems right then - not as well as she deserved.

“Yes, hahaha.” I squeezed * ***** maniacally and she pushed me back until my head squished into the pillow, threatening to lose the headwrap. We settled down and I grabbed her hand. “Seriously, I love everything about you.”

“You don’t know everything about me.”

“You aren’t who you used to be. You’re who you are right now, and I know who that is. You’re my girlfriend.”

“I guess that’s true.” She put an arm behind my head and I snuggled into place.

“I was thinking about it. I don’t know if I ever dated an Islander before.”

She smiled. “Just how many people did you date, Courtney?”

I gripped her around the waist and shook her around. “Grrr!” I flopped back down beside her. It was too much effort. “You win, I’m a huge slut. Huge hungover slutty slut.”

“I love you, slut.”

“I love you too, honey.” I relaxed again. “Anyway, I just mention that Islander thing, because it feels significant. Like, I’ve never dated anybody that looks like my people. You don’t look like the average Pinay, but if you flipped the islands probably a few Leimomi lookalikes would fall out.”

“That’s weird. Why you say that?”

“I can imagine a different life, where we were from the same place. Same neighborhood. Where we grew up together.”

“Oh no, you don’t wanna be in Pearl City with my family.”

“That’s not what I mean.” I touched her face. “Get with me on this. Just hear me out.”

“OK...”

“We’re in some kinda place that never existed. Pilipwaii. It’s a nice island, low key people working hard and not so many hustlers and problems.”

“Pilipwaii? What’s it look like?”

“There’s a mountain but it isn’t an active volcano, pretty worn down. The reefs around the island got so big they shelter it from storms. The city is on a little plane, growing stuff like cane, bamboo, coconuts, bananas, mangos. The only school is a catholic school, so we grew up being chased around by nuns with rulers.”

“Why mean nuns? You want the story to be nice.”

“I want it to be believable. So trouble in paradise, baby. Anyway, you and me are schoolgirls together, best friends.”

“How could I be friends with you? You’re smart and--”

“There aren’t so many kids in a small town. Everybody knows everybody, and we just like each other, right? I hope you can find that believable, because you’re my girlfriend.”

“I’m your girlfriend in the story?”

“Not yet. Listen.”

“Hmm.”

“We’re just friends. Best friends. It can happen all kinds of ways. You know, I’ve always had friends that are different from me. Maybe I got hurt and you helped me out, or I helped you with your homework, or you were sad and I was nice to you one time. And it stuck, we stuck together. Best friends, in Pilipwaii.”

“At the school with the mean nuns.”

“That’s right. So one day, I’m in love with this boy, and he’s mean to me. He tricks me and then says he doesn’t like me in front of some other girls and everybody laughs and stuff.”

“This is too sad. Did the nuns laugh too?”

“They did.”

“I’ll kill ’em.”

“It’s OK. So I run home, I’m all sad and it’s terrible. You find me and help me feel better, hug me and say nice things.”

“I love you,” she said, and gave me a little squeeze.

“That’s right. Something like that. We’re there, say, in a gazebo. Big blue dragonflies are flying by. It’s hot but there’s a cold breeze blowing off the ocean. We’re schoolgirls, best friends, and you hold me and say, Hugo is a stupid ugly boy and I deserve better, and you love me and stuff.”

“I hope the nuns don’t hear that.”

“Well, you just mean, you love me like a friend, right? We say that stuff, like friends. But this time I’m looking you in the eye and I realize, maybe we could be more than friends. But it’s a little island, so nobody ever told us that being gay is an option, right?”

“This story is weird, Courtney.”

“Is it OK?” I searched her face. She nodded in approval and I resumed. “Well right, so you and me, we’re there, we’re schoolgirls, and we never heard the word lesbian in our lives, but I’m still super into you. And then I kiss you, and you start to get it.”

“Whoa.” She looked at me, then away to the ceiling, and back again, thinking about it all.

“Is that a good whoa or a bad whoa?”

“Wait. Now I know why people think schoolgirl skirts are sexy.”

“Hehehe, nooo, I’m not trying to be a pervert. I’m just saying, for all it matters, we could love each other any kinda way. Like, it doesn’t matter how we got here. Let’s just say we came from Pilipwaii.”

“OK, but tell me about our skirts. Are they kinda short?”

“No, they’re long. It’s a little island. Very conservative. But our shirts have short sleeves and we have little bow ties.”

“That’s cute. And you kissed me, and I start to get it, like, hey, we could love each other. No Hugo.”

“Yeah. So we kiss and it’s kinda sloppy and stupid because we don’t know what we’re doing or know what to do.”

“And I start to figure it out,” Leimomi said, “like what I wanna do.” She reached inside my bathrobe, *redacted*

“Oh no, I gasp! I shy away. It’s all so fast. What are we doing? Have we gone crazy?”

“Whut.”

“It’s part of the bit. Like, there’s a push and pull. Will we or won’t we?”

“Oh. But we will, right?”

“You fucking know we will, baby.” I kissed her savagely. “But right now,” I panted a little, “I’m terrified of this forbidden love.”

“I’m so sad, I can’t handle it. I guess I’ll cry.”

“Don’t cry, Leimomi. I come back to you, take your hands. What is this? What are we doing? We’re both girls. It isn’t how it’s supposed to be.”

“But why? Nobody is around, we can do whatever we want. I want to love you so much, Courtney.”

“It works, I’m like, oh shit, I can’t handle it anymore. I open my shirt up.”

“Heeheehee, yeah, now you’re talking. I open my shirt up too.”

*redacted*

“It’s time for freedom. Young ladies inventing lesbianism for the first time in the Universe, since all the other times it happened for other girls.”

She pulled off her t-shirt again. “Cool.”

I unfastened her bra and *redacted sexy / emotional content*

Were we being romantic or dirty? Both by turns, but those turns proved awkward to navigate.

We *redacted* and talked dirty and sweet until we both *redacted* She’d already worn herself out some that morning, and I was surprised she was able to go again like that. *redacted*

In the afterglow, she didn’t jump up or freak out, which was great. And I hadn’t gone down on her, so there was no question about kissing afterward. We snuggled up, just the thin material of my bathrobe between us to reduce sweat. I was tempted to *redacted* but I resisted the urge to avoid coming off like a total freak.

***

There was another knock at the door. I rolled my eyes, put my robe on, and answered it.

“Hey Patrick. Were you looking for me? Does Perry need help with something?”

“Kinda. I was wonderin’, how do we say who gets ta go next? I’d like to go, get it done.”

“My priority has been whoever is in the most danger of ratting us out, getting us in trouble. You have something like that going on?”

“Naw, it’s just somethin’ personal, bothers me a lot.”

“Well I think we all need some rest tonight so not now, but maybe tomorrow we see about some kind of plan? I don’t think anyone else seems likely to be a problem. Like if Olivia’s head pops up, she can join a circus and make some real money.”

“Thanks, Courtney, you’re a doll.” He reached out to shake hands.

My hands were both behind the door, only my head poking out. “Ah, hands are full. Thanks, Patrick.”

“See ya later!” He smiled and walked away.

I looked down the hall after him. His walk was a little awkward, but was that a clue? What was going on under his clothes? Marcie had two holes in her upper chest, I’d found, little squares that puffed out smoke. Most of the time she could keep it down, but several times a day she had to open the covers to let it out, or she’d feel a burning in her lungs and throat. Never did hear what Patrick and Perry had going on.

I pushed the door closed with the backs of my arms, avoiding getting my wet hands on everything. But that meant my hands were close to my face when she wasn’t looking. I avoided touching my face, but I took a deep inhale, and one little lick of a finger. It was awesome. Sue me.

I washed my hands and went back to her, sitting on the edge of the bed. I was going to just stay another moment, but couldn’t resist laying down again. This time I was on my belly, face propped up with one arm, the other draped over my lovin’ lady.

“I was thinking about the haircut. I think it would be real cute. You could grow it out again later, but for now, it’s fun to play with a different look.”

“Huh. That’s weird. Is it because you’re a grunger?”

“Hehe, maybe. But more than that, it’s like... I know you’re bisexual like me, but you’re in lesbian love now, baby. It might be fun to see you play the part. Girls like me have to be girled up all the time just to have a chance of people treating us like we want. But you? You could get big flannel shirts and tank tops and stuff.”

“Whaaat?” She crinkled her forehead all to Hell like I was trying to teach her quantum mechanics. “Dress like a lesbian? Like, butch?”

“I know, you aren’t really a butch. You’re a sweet lil’ girly babe. But it can be fun to play a different style, y’know? What do you think?”

“I never thought... I guess I could. But how would people look at me? What would they be like?”

“Some people might be mean. A lot of people will be pretty nice. And in this town? Ladies will be on your jock, like twenty-five deep at all times. You’ll have to keep them off you with a baseball bat. Probably some weird fellas too.”

“You’re lying. No way that’s true. Why would they?”

“Lesbians like butches, but most of them are not. It means you’d be a precious rarity. Plus you’re so cute and tall and strong, you’d kill them dead. They’d have trouble walking because their legs would go all wobbly around you. It would be hilarious.”

“Oh my goodness.” She touched her face, which was hot and pink.

I kissed her cheek to steal a little of that heat. It was mine. I put it there, after all. “My cutie.”

She shook off the embarrassment. “You just wanna make the lesbians jealous. That’s mean.”

“I know. I’m horrible. But we gotta eat. I’ll make us something.”

I sprang out of bed and put on the clothes I’d brought over the previous night. Leimomi dressed too, still lost in thought at the prospect of a makeover. She followed me out and sat down across the kitchenette island from me, on one of the tall stools. I got to work on some spam, macaroni, and cheese. I found the sauce from the packets was less gross with some milk and spices added, and randomly found part of a red pepper to mix in.

“You didn’t think much about being a lesbian before, huh. What do you think now? Gonna get those intertwined Venus symbols tattooed? Doc Martens?”

“I dunno. If you think it’s a good idea.”

“Again this power I have. I feel like an evil hypnotist from Scooby-Doo.”

“I just don’t care what I look like, I guess. Like, you know why.”

“Sorry, babe. But yeah, I think it’ll be real fun to get you dyke clothes, at least to wear ’til your hair grows back.”

“You’re a weird weirdo, but you’re my girlfriend, so I gotta do what you say.”

“Lovers are supposed to be partners, equals. If you gotta do what I say, then I gotta do what you say. Any requests?,” I said, gesturing to the food I was making.

“Naw. You do it pretty good.”

“Just ‘pretty good’? Sounds like there’s room for improvement. You don’t have to know how to cook to know how to judge food. Just think, would I like this better if we did it like that? I’ve made this for you before. Didn’t do the pepper last time, but I had green onion and cayenne for garnish. What did you think? Was that alright?”

“Green onion, is that the little green rings?”

“The way I cut it that time, yeah.”

“I didn’t mind those, but I didn’t like them either.”

“That’s OK, I don’t have any this time. How’d you like the texture? Like, how it felt in your mouth.”

“It was OK.”

“Coulda been better?”

“I dunno.”

“Don’t make me follow through on that clown thing.”

“Hehe. OK, so what do you want?”

“Was it too creamy, too thick, too sticky, too rich, too thin? Do you prefer a different kind of sauce with macaroni? If it’s really OK, then it’s OK. But if it’s not OK and you’re pretending just to be nice, I’m gonna make us have clown sex.”

“Is that a promise?”

“Alright, so now I see how it is. You really don’t care about macaroni sauce, and you might be into clown sex. These are important things to know, for our future together. I will take these mental notes and never reverse or overwrite them with contravening information. No matter how much you protest, from now on, I will know that you want to look like a clown when we fuck.”

“Don’t make it so complicated.”

“So like, a simple clown outfit, nothing too fancy. A few polka dots, big shoes, a red nose?”

“Yeah. But I thought you wanted me to dress like a butch dyke.”

“You know the ‘D’ word now? You’ll be ready for Pride in no time. Hm... I gotta figure out where to get combat boots with novelty foot length.”

“A butch clown? I don’t think the lesbians would be jealous of you anymore.”

“Damn! This is too complicated. Maybe you were better prepared to go lesbo than I was.”

“Heehee.” She got shy.

“Hey, you’re thinking about something and not telling me.” The water was up to a boil so I turned the heat down to seven and poured in the pasta.

“We both weren’t prepared. We don’t have a double dildo.”

I stood up straight in shock, though by then I should have been getting used to the idea of her knowing more about sex, in her own way. “What. What do you know about double dildos, girl?”

“Well, usually lesbians use a double dildo, right? Like one side goes in my pussy, and, uh...”

“Best place for me to put my end is the back door. But I’m sure plenty of lesbians don’t have double dildos. Where did you hear about that?”

“I just saw a porno once. Some ladies used a double dildo. Guess I thought...”

“We could use a double dildo, if you want. Sounds fun.” I stirred the macaroni, had to bust some apart as they had started to clump in the freshly released flour goo.

“Heehee.” She played with her hands.

“What else do you know about lesbian stuff?”

“Ya know, I never thought about it, but the pornos I saw are different from the lesbians I see around town. Like, in the pornos they have pretty hair and makeup, wear skirts and heels and stuff.”

“Sharp. That’s right. Most of those pornos are made for straight dudes. Might look different if ladies made ’em.”

“Why don’t ladies make ’em?”

“I dunno, but I could take a few guesses. You wanna be like a real life lesbian, like the ones on the streets, or would you rather be a porno lesbian, like in the movies?”

“We get a choice?”

“Always.”

“You are like a porno lesbian.”

“Guess I made my choice. How about you?”

“If I have short hair, I’ll hafta be like a real life lesbian.”

“Or you could mix it up. That’s what they call ‘queer’.”

“So if I have short hair, but I still wear makeup and stuff, I am queer, but if I have short hair and I wear a flannel shirt, I am butch?”

“That’s close enough to right.”

“I dunno. I don’t like to be wrong, to say the wrong thing. Maybe I won’t talk about this stuff with real life lesbians.”

“Just porno lesbians like me, right?”

“Umm, maybe just you. Not another porno lesbian.” She considered that. “Wait, are there porno lesbians in real life, aside from you?”

“Not a lot of us, and I’m sure most of us wouldn’t want to be called that. They also say ‘lipstick lesbian’ for ladies that stay lady-like, though most of them are still gonna do things their own funny way. I kinda like that porno lesbian thing for myself, because I’m not gonna dress like the singer from 4 Non Blondes.”

“I don’t get that one. You lost me again.”

“Hahahaha, you’re in for a treat. I’m gonna look that up for you when we’re done eating.” I served up the food.

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#Rent is Theft #part 21 #nanowrimo july 2021

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izanaginookami10 · 8 years ago

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Now let’s talk about Quan Zhi Gao Shou or “The King’s Avatar” (or again “Master of Skill”).

Hmmm. As someone who studies Chinese, the sounds of the title is quite… pleasant to hear. But I think every single thing about Anime that I hear in Chinese has this effect. My weird liking for Chinese voices aside (though I’ll be a deep Japanese believer for eternity), let’s discuss, or rather, let me discuss about episodes 3 and 4.

Hm? Yep. Two episodes. It’s not that my memory suddenly had a power up: it’s simply because I watched them together. As the subbing wasn’t too regular.

Now, onto the episodes.

Nice Opening. I’ve already said it, but listening to the Chinese Opening is really catchy. And look at how good the art is!

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No, seriously. The graphics are really good. Just take a look at these delicious potato chips.

Well, you’re really not credible with your behaviour. If you really want I’m quite sure you would be able to prove it. Yet, you’re just saying I’m Ye Qiu, I’m Ye Qiu… Are you really thinking people will believe you just like that? Or are you doing this on purpose?

New party. Ready to be impressed?

Such arrogance… I suppose you can do that when you’re OP, hm? Why does he reminds me of Kirito? Oh, well. Let’s ignore it. But seriously, aren’t you a little too presumptuous? You may be a veteran and thus incredible at the game, but not everyone knows this, so you are most probably going to be kicked out if you continu- see? They’re mad. Now you’ll lose your chanc- !?

They actually accepted his “suggestions”? Huh. Am I weird for finding this weird? Oh, well. Don’t mind. Don’t mind. Let’s continue.

Obviously.

Huh… how do you do that by simply pressing some buttons.

Nice animation there. B-but why cut the tree? Did it anger you? Now, that’s beautiful and all, but how the hell do you do that in a game which isn’t a VRRMMO? Also, thanks for the commentory, side characters.

What the hell!? Your spear becomes a gutling gun now!? One Wave strategy my ass.

Just follow my orders and you will win. I like that. Easy win. Obviously they beat the record. Obviously.

So, huh. why does he join and leaves parties like that? Is he doing that on purpose? I can’t rreally understand your thought process. We lack some insight of Ye Xiu here…

Second half. New character. Harem candidate? Nah. This shouldn’t be your usual clichéd, anime. I think, as it is from a Chinese Novel. Not that I dislike too much the genre if it’s done well.

Xiao Tang huh. Not playing Glory, but blessed with a high APM. Uh-oh. You stomped onto a tiger’s tail. Get ready to be wrecked by our MC.

What a gentleman we have here.

Hey, I think I already saw that.

It can transform?

Please nerf.

Kage-bunshin no jutsu!

When the heck did you learn that!?

Umbrella, sword, fucking spear, gutling gun, do you also have a tea set there? But seriously, are you doing this on purpose? What’s with all this showing off your skills. Is it really even necessary to use omni-changing-weapons, ninjutsu and summoning goblins against an amateur?

Come on, now you are just bullyinig her.. wait, do characters in games really make those kinds of espression nowadays when losing? I don’t really play MMO…

Yeah, tell him so, control your taunting. What a way to comfort her, definitely a playboy. Just loving his face while counting money. That rape face is always used. …have you really gained a heroine?

Umu. I think I’m spending more time finding pictures than actually writing.

Well, let’s continue to episode 4! And we start with… more gorgeous and not really healthy food. No, seriously. Are those real? Because that’s just too realistic. It also makes me hungry.

Ye Xiu’s treat! With money won from the bet…

Xiao Tang already being influenced by Ye Xiu. Going with classless? Why does it sounds so MC-like?

Ohh, thanks for the wonderful commentary, I seriously was wondering what the hell was that omni-weapon. Yeah, sensei. Please teach us.

I feel like I saw that before. But, seriously. Again and again. You either tell her properly or just don’t talk please. You’re kinda pissing me off now.

Hmmmmm another chance to steal a first kill! You seriously are doing this on purpose, aren’t you! Not even kirito was so evil. By the way, even though many hates Sword Art Online, I really do love it. Though i definitely agree that the second part of first season was quite bad compared to first 12-3 episodes, it was my first anime, the one who saved me. So, yeah. My opinion of SAO is 100% biased. But I would at least try the original source, the Light Novel, before trash-talking the whole series. You can say the anime adaptation was shit, but not that the whole series is bad, without even having read it. Alicization is really great (the arc after Mother’s Rosario).

But let’s return to Quan Zhi Gao Shou.

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Hou, seems an important character… lol he slapped him! Hah! And why do you have a brick in hand? Ohhh so cool, MC saves the day once again. Why? Just why? Please tell me the thought process behind you choosing to join his party? My mind must be to low-level to underestand God Ye.

LOL. Slap, sand oh his back-head and then bricks to your allies. I like you.

Listen to Ye Xiu and victory is assured (what are you, Caliburn? If you did get it, then congratulation! You’re a fellow Fate/ fanboi). “keep up the pace” yeah my friend, I’ll keep pressing button R! Don’t worry. No seriously, don’t you have a bag for that brick?

Andddd you ask THEM to fight with you? Please enlight me, just WRY? Are you choosing the best way to impression all the player-base? Because that’s the only conclusion I can get at. Ahhh, tired. The show is entertaining, that’s enough. Clear my mind. Clear my mind.

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Speed up, faster, faster, faster FASTER, holy fucking shit! STARBUST STRE- no wait, wrong anime. Err, why did you even call them.

Another victory for God Ye. Sasuga.

HERE COMES THE BRICKKKK!

Glorious anwer, you truly are doing this just to piss them off, huh.

Hou someone dared to break MC’s record?! How dare they? Next episode, we will see war?

The Ending Theme is nice too. Hoh, HOH MCDONALD! This explain the delicious good looking chips. But who cares! As long as I enjoy it.

Ok, I admit I was quite sarcastic, but don’t get me wrong. I really like the show, it’s just that I can’t really accept some facts without protesting. Like, how the hell can he be so Overpowered, when he restarted from the beginning? How does one’s skills truly impact the game? Is what happen in the game (what we actually see) really happening in your own screen? (you know, there was an anime where MCs were actually simply imagining how epic it was, while in reality it was a 8-bit game).

Oh, well. As I’ve said. I’m quite easily satisfied. And my analyzing skills aren’t exactly top-notch. I enjoy it, I like it. I like it, I give it a high score. That’s it.

So, you get my, Izanagi’s, approval!

A little more than 8 for now! First episode was actually 8.5! So, please, don’t make next episode another “steal your kill because I’m badass”.

By the way, not sure exactly where or how you were watching the anime, but it seems there is now an official translation going on, it’s on Youtube and… they changed some OSTs, the names are obviously differently translated and… the quality (of the subs) isn’t exactly the best. So, yeah. I would stick to our… previous source.

I wonder… is it fine to openly quote non-exactly-legal means to obtain Anime, Manga, Light Novels and Visual Novels? Or should I stick to the way of not mentioning them, but only the official sources?

Regarding Quan Zhi Gao Shou (The King’s Avatar) Episodes 3 – 4 “See how I eat beautiful chips, rekt a newbie and steal your boss kill” Now let's talk about Quan Zhi Gao Shou or "The King's Avatar" (or again "Master of Skill").

#Quan Zhi Gao Shou #The King&039;s Avatar

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perfectackeracy · 8 years ago

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considering what you've already written on the topic of eren's behavior during chapter 84 up until recently; what do you think of him as a character in general?

Eh, I’ll give my judgement when the story will be over. He is the main character after all and I feel like giving a judgement now would be too premature, despite us nearing the end of the manga. I’ve got the beginning but the end is absolutely necessary for me to answer your question properly.

Still, if you want something partial, but still long, follow me under the cut (too bad for mobile users because screw the interface right).

It truly depends of how Isayama writes him at the end, if he really intended him to be some normie who tried to be a hero and change things, but failed, or… something else. Indeed, the end heavily relies of what’s presented to us at the beginning:

“No… But I feel like I just had the longest dream.. What was it? Now I can’t remember…” - Ch.1

Flashback? Future vision? We all thought till chapter 89 came that future vision was bull. It took a whole chapter to suddenly invert the perspective. While there isn’t many chapters left, there’s still facts that are going to pop up that might suddenly change our perception of the characters forever.

…Just like mine with Eren in chapter 84.

I’d actually like the normie one because it would fit what Eren did at the beginning: joining the Survey Corps on a whim because he hates being confined and ended up inheriting a power considered absolute, realizing he made a huge mistake from the start.

It seems Isayama, who previously had a vague idea of what he wanted to do with him, found something more defined. If I recall correctly he felt inspired by Yuki Kaiji, the voice actor from Eren. He even told Araki to make him more pathetic than in the original manga, implying Eren was never meant to be the literal version of a hero, a character with admirable traits.

Usually, the typical shônen protagonist is a character who has a dream, since they were little and do almost anything in order to accomplish it, whether it is becoming the strongest, becoming somebody important, solving a mystery, finding somebody from your life who has gone missing, etc… Their personality vary from manga to manga, but it’s often the cheerful teenager, naive or hot-blooded, capable of being a simpleton due to his lack of experience but also the one who motivates people, is surrounded by his nakama and clashes with rivals and enemies.

The vengeful protagonist also exists, but they’re mostly present in dark shônen or shônen trying to deal with more mature themes without being labeled as a seinen. Eren registers in this category, while building the development of a typical shônen protagonist without exhibiting its qualities: he’s not full of dream and ambition, something a shônen MC should inspire in the heart of young boys. Instead, he’s described as being selfish, having a complex or no ambition at all.

As extra evidence, his highschool AU describes him as the frustrated normie who’s annoyed “in one way or another”. The fake preview from volume 22 describes him as neither belonging to the nerds or the jocks nor having any dreams or interests (it’s interesting how the formulation here ends in “もない” on the three sentences of the description, almost as if Eren meant nothing), despite the wannabe’s reputation being neutral. That’s kinda sad when you think about it actually, because at his core, he really needs to fuel his blank state.

Still, Isayama doesn’t make him wander around aimlessly in the canon storyline and managed to give him a purpose. He strangely carries themes like the Chosen One because people, specifically Grisha imposed that on him. Carla called her son special for the sole reason he was born into this world, that every human who sees the light of the day is considered special.

Because he was frustrated about “Humanity’s submission against the titans”, that’s what prompted him to step out and defy the “imposed slavery” on him. He wasn’t always like that, though. Meeting and knowing Armin triggered that complex about him lacking ambition.

Eren and Armin meeting for the first time - Ch. 83

When he first met Armin, he befriended him fairly quickly because of their status as outcasts. Eren already showed signs of not belonging to the other kids, probably because he had trouble sharing the same interests as them and also because he gets irritated quickly and gets into fights to shut them up. Funnily enough, those panels show the first signs of Eren’s prevalent traits: fighting back and beating them or else you’re a loser.

“I had never thought about what was beyond the walls until then… I’d only spent my days looking at the clouds in the sky. Not that it’s anything strange for a kid eight or nine years old to not be thinking about anything… but then you came running to me with a book. Both of us were outcasts, not able to get along with the other kids in town. That’s all we were back then. But when I heard you telling me those things… and I saw the look in your eyes. That’s when I knew for the first time. I wasn’t free. I noticed that I had been living in a birdcage for all this time. And that these freakish things had taken my freedom. The world was so big, but they’d forced me into a tiny cage. And when I realized that… I knew I could never forgive them.” - Ch.73

It wasn’t so much about the ocean or the contents of the outside world Eren was motivated for. Because he was aimlessly starting at the sky, he couldn’t believe someone like Armin could conceive something like… ambition. That’s why Eren was intrigued by the look in his eyes. And because the titans were actually obstacles to his personal space, he held a grudge against them. They were in the way, they were giant-sized bullies, they have to be removed.

Eren’s character song actually fist up nicely with his character: “男はロマンだぜ！たけだ君っ“ by Shinsei Kamattechan (lyrics and translation here) illustrates somebody talking to a certain Takeda, who prompts him to disobey his parents and do whatever they want because they’re free, despite them being children (the song talks about spending money carelessly and buying cigarettes). Eren being either one of the kids, wants his taste of freedom without having any authority telling him not to do it.

“From the day we’re born, there was something special about all of us: we’re free” - Ch. 73

Needless to say, I think that attitude and that grudge against the titans pushed him to idolize the Survey Corps and eventually join them. Because they went as far as destroying his district, making him swear extermination on every person responsible.

Then there was his meeting with Mikasa.

“You see Eren, that attitude is why you only have one friend.” - Ch. 5

Here we have yet Eren’s “normie” attitude demonstrated when it comes to Grisha asking him to get familiar with Mikasa. But then, he certainly wans’t expecting corpses.

Eren ready to begin the chase - Ch. 5

I tend to see this chapter as Eren being triggered by seeing dead bodies on the floor. Him seeing Mikasa’s parents being brutally murdered tingled his sense of justice and frustration: “How dare they kill people? This if worthy of the death penalty and I’m going to inflict that to them!”. The way he got close to these bandits is almost as scary as what they were planning to do with Mikasa: he’s approaching the first one by acting like an innocent child with clear murder intent (He’s supposed to be 9!!!). He then proceeds to pin down the second one before repeatedly stabbing himself over and over.

“I stopped dangerous beasts!! They only happened to resemble humans!! If you hadn’t come here, they would have been gone by the time the military police brigade had arrived!! The MPs wouldn’t have made it in time!!” - Ch. 5

Notice how the justification he brings to kill them is because they reduced themselves to low beasts who kill people, and as beasts, it’s “only natural” they deserve a death penalty. Besides, Eren is motivating Mikasa using the same logic he used for Armin: fight or you’re a complete loser.

Eren “teaching” Mikasa - Ch. 5

Needless to say that Eren wasn’t opposed to let Mikasa live in his house. He came to realize years later his attitude towards the bandits was pure impulse, as he gets lectured by Reiner about the meaning of being a soldier in chapter 17.

In the very first chapter of the series, every trait I’ve mentioned till there transpires into his motivation into joining the Survey Corps, so he wouldn’t live as a “caged animal” any longer. He gets upset when people are talking trash about them because he truly believed they were doing it for great justice. And that day, when the wall has been breached, it just so happens that Eren had a weird dream when he was crying and it was finally the day where Grisha showed him the basement. That day truly changed his life, for the best or the worst.

“I hate the idea of spending my whole life… inside the wall, ignorant of what’s happening in the world outside!!” - Ch. 1

But of course, this “outside” serves mostly as an excuse to give him more space. As he declared later: “They’re our lives! we can do whatever we want with them, right?”

When Shiganshina fell, Eren made his vow to kill every single titan left. During that time, he punched Hannes for preventing him from saving his mom. What was interesting is that piece of flashback before scrolling back to present.

“I’ll never be able… to go home again. Up to the end, all I could do was argue and be stubborn! Mom’s gone!! I’m never gonna see her again… Why is this happening to us? Is it because humans are weak? Is crying the only thing the weak can do?! I’m gonna destroy them!! Every last one… of those animals… that’s on this Earth!” - Ch. 2

The night when Shiganshina has fallen was the night where Grisha passed his titan power to Eren. The part where Grisha stated two contradictory statements in relation with chapter 89.

“Eren, get revenge for your mother. You can do it.” - Ch. 71

“Eren… never let this key… out of your sight. And everytime you look at it… remember… that you have to go to the basement room. The injection will cause damage to your memory… That’s why I can’t explain this to you now… but when you go to the basement room someday, you’ll learn the truth… it will be a hard and merciless road… but you have to recapture Wall Maria and get to that room. The power I’m giving you will be useful then. Their memories will teach you how to use it… if you want to save Mikasa… Armin… and everyone else… you’ll have to… control this power!” - Ch. 10

“Dad… Stop it! Dad! What are you doing?! You’ve been acting crazy since mom died!!”, “Eren!! Hold out your arm!” - Ch. 3

“You will be the one… to avenge your mother!!”, “Okay“ - Ch. 63

This moment was really hard to piece out together because what was thought as a contradiction became a succession of events where Grisha scared his son with the shifter power talk, but riled back him for a short while by settling him as one one who will avenge his mom. Earlier, Grisha made his mind and picked him as the legitimate successor of the Attack Titan. Thanks to chapter 89, it may have been inevitable. In this scene, he went from a sorrowful expression to an angry one, almost swapping memories for a brief instant like what happened with Kruger. In any case he burdened Eren with his shifter power and the Coordinate, thus making him bare probably the biggest sin going by Ymir’s curse.

Because of that, his whole life changed. So did Eldians’.

The next segment is about Eren joining the military, two years after working in a settlement. This is the time where his attitude sort of... changed.

Eren trying to let his will of dominance pushing him forward - Ch. 15

Chronologically, starting from that point, Eren uses “we” when talking about Humanity. Mostly because, as stated by his dialogue in chapter, he believes in unity against a common enemy. He settled the titans as the enemy “humanity” was supposed to defeat, despite him quickly meeting, and clashing with people who didn’t agree with that notion: it started with Hannes not taking his job seriously, then Jean who outright admitted he’d rather live a comfy life inside the walls. Even much later in chapter 72, when Eren mentions that spirit of unity, Armin internally disagrees by thinking about his bullies.

Eren’s world was mostly an ideal one, where you loop the first opening of the anime and have humanity fighting against the titans, forgetting not every single human is motivated by rage: Mikasa is fine with living with Eren in a quaint place, Levi “the hero” is mostly motivated by Erwin, Jean wanted and comfy life among the MP, people have a very negative opinion of the SC in general, Ymir doesn’t mind living her life for herself despite knowing much more about what’s happening than Eren does...

His biggest obstacle was the first step for 3DMG training, where Keith sabotaged the equipment on purpose. For the first time, Eren felt like his goal just evaporated in the air, with everybody mocking him for it, followed by an argument with Mikasa, who’s trying to dissuade him:

“You shouldn’t set your sights on that anyway. If you’re not cut for it, what can you do? Because at this rate, you’re just going to die in vain. And all your dreams and efforts will be for nothing. I’m saying you shouldn’t aim to be a soldier. You can always support the human race by being a producer. Laying down your life isn’t the only way to fight. [...] ...Your resolve has nothing to do with it. It’s not your decision whether you get to be a soldier, Eren...” - Ch. 16

Eventually, nothing worked. Eren still wants to pass the 3DMG exam. While talking to Reiner and Bertolt, he declares his will to kill the titans is a need he personally feels: becoming a soldier is a way to achieve this. I’m sure he’d find another way out if he can’t pass the exams, mostly because he has nothing left to make him move.

Parts of his personality have been shaped later by Reiner and Annie: Reiner about the solider mumbo-jumbo, Annie because of her techniques aiming to defeat people quickly. He demonstrated these two aspects during his fight with Jean (with Annie and Reiner even looking!).

“...I see... he was... just venting his feelings. Like I did before... but I’m different now... I’m... a soldier! [...] I’ll use my skills to finish this.” - Ch. 17

The most important part of his training is reserved for hand-to-hand techniques, skills proving themselves to be really useful once Eren shifts to a titan. Seems Annie was really insistent on teaching Eren these techniques as soon as he reminded her of her father, because Eren’s reality was just as misplaced as his. You can see that insistence if you connect chapter 17 and chapter 44 together.

I think I’d rather break this analysis into several parts because it’s getting way too long. Eren faced different trials in Trost, during the FT arc and so on, where he had to deal with huge losses, traitors, the hard truth and eventually, the coordinate settling in.

#eren yeager #snk meta #snk analysis #snk #attack on titan #ackerate answers #anon #eren #tl;dr it can't give a concrete answer if the story isn't finished yet #plus fishing eren from A to Z is tedious work #that requires me to read the whole manga again #meta #analysis

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milaek · 7 years ago

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2 am Stream of Conciousness

Forward:. I was asked a couple of days ago by @squiddleward if I would ever consider writing down just a stream of consciousness. This of course was after about a 30 minute discussion on the various and finer points of the ADHD brain, which I am pleased to say went rather well. And I am having trouble sleeping at the moments because my brain never shuts up and figured, hey, I might as well do that one thing.

And so begins stream of consciousness proper.

SOC. Is that weird? That's a little weird. Oh God starting things is hard. I spelled that wrong the first- car. Theres a car noise and now my airconditioner- wait I don't have one of those we only get heat- is on. The workers are actually- what time is it? I saw my clock out of the corner of my eye. I'mma check. It's 2:10. Why am I like this? Typing makes a funny sound cuz my phone is on vibrate.

Do you ever just listen to the noise of a quiet room? Like that weird buzz that you start to pick up when things are super quiet. I like to play a game called 'whats the highest buzz I can pick out?' where I choose a buzz frequency and my stomach just gurgled and oh hey heater again and why is my roommate still up she just started playing some video about America? Why is our- taco. I used to have an incader Zim tshirt that was bright blue and had for on it and I think text that went 'being normal is so taco' or something like that? True 2009 rawr XD culture right there.

She keeps pausing and playing the video in these tiny spurts? Are her headphones broken? Did she fall asleep on her phone? It is unlike her, she never plays her shit out loud and she's always the first one asleep. It paused again.

Anyways the buzz game. Once you find a tone/frequency you try to focus on the next one above it. And then the next one. Except they're all so damn high that you end up going in circles because sometimes the next one- JESUS I FORGOT MY PHONE WASNT ON SILENT. I just got an email and it scared the crap- heaters off again. Why does it do this on off on off thing? Like, just pick one?

Anyways yeah sometimes it circles to one that's actually.lower cuz you thought it was higher but it's not? Yeah. I'm doing that now. Ok now some weird truck just turned on? Or theres some goddamn vampire tireless construction worker drilling all by himself in the house apartment thing being built- the floodlites go right into my room it fucking suuuuucks. I really like having my dog sleep in my bed. I know my boyfriend doesn't but I love having her all snuggled up with me it's so sweet and very valuable I had Chinese food today. Good shit. Chow fun is so good, but it was basically I got in a fight not fight disagreement with my roommate about diets because I'm trying to watch what I eat but we like in a very big body positive house but I do want to lose weight? How do I say this and complain about having to hold myself to new food standards in a way that doesn't imply that fat is bad? My roommates are fine I just hate myself and wanna get at least a little more thin. Nothing crazy, just back into the 100's would be nice. I want eggs. 160 is like ideal Kate, but 170, 180, those are both good. I think there was a garlic potato recepit I can't spell that goddamned word fuck in the book I was reading today. Good shit. I can't spell porpoise either. The whale thing. Or purpose. The not whale thing. Why is English so hard.

Are porpoises whales? I took a class on marine biology, olivia I have failed you I'm sorry. Dig to the brain dig to the brain why does dogfish brain look like cat food tuna salad. I think some got on my mouth when we did that it was v salty. A v salty fish boi. What did you have to be salty about my dude? Oh wait yeah being killed as a baby duh lol. Eyes are weird. I squished it's eyeball and there was like, another fuckin ball inside of it? Is that how eyes work?? I still don't know??? It haunts me to this day. I don't think I ever looked at it's little shark teeth tho fuckin- glass blowing was cool. Man I wish I kept doing that. I burned myself again rpobably where that burn was from when I made a rose it was pink and pretty the rose I mean not the burn. The burn sucked. My coworker got burned and it turned into a big ol boil right under her bra hook poor girl. I ahevnt seen most of my face co-workers in weeeeeks why do none of y'all work closing TTnTT gotta turn over but I hate moving. Why does my bed eat pillows? Cookie monster. How did we all believe that he was actually eating those cookies. I watched the Muppets movie the other day. It was aight. The two humans were the most blancy mc bland straight couple tm people tho. Like, the hell? It's a wacky.story abt Kermit please give the woman an actual personality u fools I refuse to believe you spent it all on ms. Piggy. Ok Im tired I wanna shut my eyes now. Play the bu- heater just turned on again. Did it ever turn off? Those okami flag scroll things are the fucking worst that you have to run across. Rabbit. Like, just random image of.a rabbit on my brain. Though i should explain that one. 'thought you ought to know' *passes out* *thousands of children scream*. Truly iconic. Dat boi. The image in that meme was kinda trash but the meme itself was so good. Fuck man what's the opposite of missing something bc that it what I feel for that forever alone and meme face tm meme stuff. A dark, dark time. Before the age of dadaist memes, after the age of random XD. What i dub in my brain as the 'newgrounds era' of memes. My screen is yellow. I wish i could on a ferret. I wonder if a ferret would eat grass?

Ok this needs to end. Any thought pauses were denoted by line breaks. And now i must sleep.

#train of thought #stream of conciousness #adhd #night blogging

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