#maybe when the whole thing is put together 😩 I plan on doing some makeup

[spiderin-space]

Can I offer you all a nice Lamb in these trying times?

(Update: here’s the finished product!!)

[fragile-wisp]

the things I do for love

haha yeah so I'm like trying to get over this dude

he's 43 and bald by choice but idk why I'm obsessed with him

Like idk he's hot for some reason, his eyes smolder in this way that makes me feel so weak.

We used to work together, and every time I walked past the front desk he would look at me in this way... this certain way that made me blush, and I always nervous around him... butterflies in my stomach, my heart skips a beat... or beats so fast my apple watch starts screaming to the world that my bpm is high... haha... thanks for that btw Apple way to call me out 😩😂

I don't know what's wrong with me. I just want another chance to prove I can be cool and casual. Sorry I catch feelings, especially when it's like we missed each other... I was away for six years... you take me on three dates, then decided to blow me off an equal amount of times? Now he won't even respond to simple short texts, when he was the one who started this whole thing hot and heavy... I just wanted to get back in touch, and he starts calling me his girl... then the next week he's IM'ing someone else... I just don't know what to think.

The painfully optimistic moron in my head keeps telling me he does really like me, but he doesn't want to get serious right now so he's just faffing about... I just don't want to feel like he's waiting for when he wants a commitment then comes crawling back to me, because I'm the one who wants him?

Naw, thank you- next.

How are we even supposed to be friends if you're basically avoiding me? Granted, I should not have spilled my guts on instagram messenger, that was a mistake... but I don't know how else to get my thoughts out there to communicate with you, if you're just gonna cancel every plan anyway...

God, maybe I'm just a try-hard. I try too hard, but like, I'm not trying to impress anyone, I just wanna feel good about myself when I leave the house. If my wearing a sexy dress and makeup makes you uncomfortable because you wanna wear shorts and a graphic tee all the time, that's on you... my makeup helps clear my acne, so I wear it for me. I want the Neutrogena foundation to clear my complexion, on top of my regular skin care routine. I wear my sexy black dress because I FEEL sexy when I wear it, plus it has protective slips inside the top so your nipples are safe! I can go bra-less, and just slip into a thong and shapewear before I put the dress on. Throw my white leather jacket on top, with my white purse, black chunky heels, and a little jewelry- maybe some black eyeshadow- and BAM! 💥

I feel like Stevon Ur-kell, Steve's sexy af alter ego who owns his shit and does what he wants!! I cannot explain how hot and mature I feel when I get a lil dolled up. It's not a crazy amount of effort either, I'm not killing myself to look good for anyone. I put a normal amount of time into my regular self-care, then when I wanna feel sexy I do a tiny bit extra- like more thorough shaving and stuff like that. I don't see why men have to be intimidated or overwhelmed by a little self-care?

Sorry if you thought my putting on makeup was just to impress you, but trust me, it wasn't. It was for me to feel good about myself, no one else. 💅💖