#maybe later tho. i want. a picture of Vincent

[beauzos]

i don't want to get a c0mm1ssion. i just want the art to already have been c0mm1ssioned and on my screen immediately. do you understand my struggle

[woulddieforperrytheplatypus]

Dan Povenmire, co-creator of Phineas and Ferb and the voice of Dr. Heinz Doofenshmirtz, just did a zoom call for fans, and this is a link to it on Google Drive and a link to it on YouTube.

Here’s a brief overlay brought to you by my incessant live blogging, and because I was speed typing on my phone, I can guarantee not everything made the cut. If you’re interested in hearing Dan talk about growing up an artist and becoming an animator and trying to pitch Phineas and Ferb and working on the show and movies, I would definitely suggest checking out the full 75 minute video. The highlights from the call are below the cut.

They added Doof and Perry because they liked chase scenes. They realized fairly quickly that more than not, the pair led to good comedy, and found it much more interesting to see how their relationship developed. He also says that they are "the most important person to each other” and “they’re really good friends.”

They wrote the Perry theme song in an hour between meetings with Disney

They decided during the pilot that they weren't going to try to get comedy from the characters saying mean things to each other. Even Doofenshmirtz wasn't motivated by evil, he just wanted to get the attention he didn't get at home.

Doof’s backstories were not Dan and Swampy's idea. They were from Jon Barry and Chris Hendrick, who [itched the lawn gnome backstory. It was long and compliated and Dan and Swampy couldn’t stop laughing. They also provided the "it all started on the day of my birth” one the next day.

making the 2D movie while making the movie was the busiest Dan says he has ever been, and that's not even counting the PnF Take Two and Doof's web show and all the interviews. Basically, 2010ish was a very busy time in the Dwampyverse.

They decided to give each pair of writers their own section of an outline to work on, and each pair got to make up the dialogue and jokes based on it. it works well for the show, but writers kept going on their own tangents and the movie ended up like 6 hours long. Dan and Kyle Menke had to redraw 80% of the show because they had to cut gags out and rewrite it so it was still funny. Note: in the new movie, they did the opposite — they wrote a script and told the board artists that they could put brief gags in but nothing too long

He thinks the show became one of the most beloved shows bc it was innocent and the adult humor wasn't dirty so the whole family could watch it together. He also said the songs at the closest thing you get to immortality in a show. Those combined made the show as big of a hit as it was, and hopefully those things will get older people to watch the movie.

His advice if you want to follow in his footsteps are to draw (and suggest you check out Cartoon Animation by Preston Blaire and How to Draw Comics the Marvel Way by Stan Lee) and to know that these jobs are out there

One of his favorite gags in PnF are the silent moments where something big happens and no one reacts (like something big fell in an early episode and crashed next to Phineas and co and at first they were all shocked but Dan changed it to them just kinda looking at it for a moment with no emotion)

Q: Did you ever want to quit what you were going?

A: "I don't really... do... anything else..."

He finished his new pilot today (July 2nd, 2020) and the movie is due tomorrow.

He would love to do more PnF and there's been talks of another PnF movie

He would love to do more Milo Murphy's Law, but it never got huge ratings and Disney's not too big on it but if people start watching it on Disney+ they might get to keep doing it. They did that with Family Guy, and it could happen to MML too.

The movie feels like old Phineas and Ferb and there are a lot of great songs! 

And now, the Q&A (in which he draws random characters are he talks)

How was the process of kicking the voices?

It was sometime easy but sometimes very difficult. For Phineas, they listened to maybe a thousand people. they actually recorded someone but they put it to animation and it didn't really work. He knew as soon as he heard Vincent that he loved him. They literally recasted the lead (Vincent) the day before they had to deliver the pilot.

He knew immediately that he liked Alison Stoner. She was the second Isabella he heard, and he listened to maybe 50 others afterwards, but he knew he wanted Alison Stoner

They decided on a different Candace and they sent it to the head of the channel and the guy asked if he heard Ashley Tisdale. He told Dan to have her come in and give her direction and Dan was hesitant bc he had one that he liked but he was lowkey forced to bring her in. It was his only audition that day, and after his big block of text Dan gave her like 20 notes and she wrote the notes on the big block of text and she did it again and it was perfect and obviously Candace (but he feels bad for the actress that was almost Candace bc she'll never know how close she was)

What was the most impactful episode you worked on?

Either the last (hard to watch w/o crying) or three moments that made himcey while doing them: the end of Summer Belongs To You when Phineas gives up trying to get off the island and decides to watch the sunset with Isabella which was what she always wanted and she exploded and talked him back up onto being the person he is even tho it's a sacrifice on her behalf. He later says he started crying while pitching to his wife the AYA scene of Phinabella getting together.

Do you regret any episodes?

There are some he likes more and some he likes less but he doesn't regret any of them. He was a little disappointed in an early episode without a sing but he watched it alter and decided it was actually pretty decent. None of them make him cringe or wonder why they did that.

How has social media impacted PnF?

He recently got on TikTok and found out that's where all the PnF fans are. He was thrilled to see the response everything was getting and it made him feel good about everything he accomplished. The fact that this generation knows what an aglet is is his biggest accomplishment in pop culture.

Favorite part of working on the show/movie

He likes editing, but writing the songs is the most fun bc it feels the least like work

Who is Ferb's mom?

Never established or really thought about Ferb's mom or Phineas's dad AND IT'S NOT DOOFENSHMIRTZ THEY MADE IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR THAT TO BE TRUE STOP ASKING and Phineas and Candace are full brother and sister. The bio parents aren't interesting to them bc the family already has a mom and dad and the other ones are just out of the picture and not important.

Will there be a new character in the movie?

Super Super Big Doctor (and Disney keeps telling him what he can and can't talk about)

Are there any secrets or theories that he can tell them?

The freaking creepy pasta about schitzophrenic Candace IS NOT TRUE Phineas and Ferb do exist and are alive. There's also a theory that Candace is not based on the diary of a teen girl in Russia who killed herself, and that's not true either. He genuinely thinks they are really freaking stupid theories and they make no sense at all.

Who is your favorite guest star?

Writing a song with Slash from Guns n Roses was really cool. He also liked working with Ben Stiller, Christian Slater the delivery guy (he called and said he'd do any part in MML so they wrote him a role), Jack McBrayer (Irving/Fix It Felix), Wayne Brady (co-wrote In The Empire)

What is the motivation of Candace to bust the boys?

He's not trying to hurt them. She doesn't dislike them. She gets irritated but she's really just looking for fairness. If she built a rollercoaster in the backyard, she'd get in trouble, so they should get in trouble, too.

How did you think about hot to end the show?

Disney was starting to cool off on PnF. The merch wave had plateaued. Dan and Swampy had the next two years in the show already made, but Disney wouldn't pick up another season until they finished airing that season. They'd have to restaff for a new season and they didn't like that idea, so they turned one of their hour long specials into the finale. He wanted to be able to say goodbye and thank the fans.

[risaonda]

So how many times are you going to make Salem apologize for things they did years ago before you finally take down your blog harassing them?

hi anon. i deleted ur other messages without reading them fully because i was Not going to deal with that while at work since they were all super hostile from what i did see. hope u can understand. i’ll reply 2 this one tho

they did not properly apologize to me or anyone else they’ve hurt. the apology i Did receive from them was immediately nullified by them continuing to do the things they “apologized” for, and spreading lies about me and many others they’ve hurt. which is something they have never addressed nor apologized for.

frankly though i am getting sick of them lying and claiming they HAVE apologized, because then i have to deal with instances like this. thanks for the ask by the way.

tw for abuse obviously and mentions of suicide/self harm

i want to preface this by saying i took the screenshots i have As this was all going on. so they are Old, and may look kinda weird. idk if it’s something with the messenger app or what since i don’t even have/use it anymore, but it changed their name to “facebook user” upon me blocking them. it doesn’t show up like that on desktop, however, so when i open our conversation right now it looks like this:

so before anyone tries pulling some “um why does it say that instead of their name that’s sus”: dude, i couldn’t tell u. i’d retake the screenshots on desktop but u can see right there how much text can fit in one image. i would have maybe over 100 pictures. that is way too many when i already have So Many. unless it’s like life or death, i’m not retaking these screenshots. that said also, this is going to be very long and image heavy.

This is the apology that they’re talking about. this is the only apology i’ve ever received from them personally. they came over to my house and we talked.

i knew exactly what i wanted to say to them. i know exactly what i wanted to talk about. but most if not all the things that i told them about were things that they had done to other people rather than things they’d done to hurt me, because i was afraid that if i told them about how they had hurt me they’d get mad at me for whatever i said. that’s fully on me, sure, but that was basically the conversation. the only thing i really remember bringing up was a comment they made about a friend’s recently deceased dog, and i only remember That because it was something they used as a point later to argue they weren’t abusive (something like “yeah what i said was shitty, but it wasn’t abusive” even though i didn’t say it was abusive, just that it was a shitty thing to say. but that’s besides the point).

i want to just drop these in here, since this gets brought up later. the rest of the conversation was basically just us talking about other stuff, and it’s like 25 images total, so i’m just grabbing these. the blocked out names are 1) a friend’s deadname that i do Not want to post and 2) my girlfriend

i want to also say that before salem contacted me, i’d gotten back in contact with vincent after not speaking to him for some time because of them

we talked for a while through a note on deviantart because, as u can see there, it was the only safe way for us to talk without causing any issue with them. i don’t think i really need to post the entire note since it’s basically just us talking about...that situation. i also was in the habit of using the subtext code on deviantart so the formatting on the note is super fucked up towards the end. i have this all saved as a text document somewhere on my computer, so if it really matters i have that i guess. but again, i don’t think it’s super necessary. i’m bringing this up because of this part

note the date.

when salem and i spoke at my house, vincent was not ever mentioned once. which i thought was super weird since we were both friends with him (they literally met each other through me), and his friendship with them had pretty much JUST ended when they messaged me. call me paranoid, but i’m pretty sure they were unaware i was already speaking to him again, and i feel the only reason they reached out to me in the first place was in case he had tried telling me about them after getting away from them. but that’s just my guess.

vincent and i had another conversation that i don’t? think i have saved. where basically he messaged me freaking out because salem had messaged Him saying the same thing they said to Me: that they messed up and wanted to fix things. i remember vouching for them and telling vincent that they Seemed genuine and like they really did want to fix all of this, because i did truly believe they were being sincere and i wanted everything to get better. a few days later, this happens. also i’m sorry in advance for how i used to talk, i hate it more than u do.

the blurred out name in this one is an old mutual friend of theirs and vincent’s, someone that i never knew or spoke to. the second blocked out name is the same person as 1) from before. the situation i’m referring to there is back in highschool, salem sent him a message insinuating they were going to kill themself because they were upset with him and then went offline. that’s been talked about on my blog before.

i never had the chance to message salem about this instance because after this happened, they suddenly blocked me everywhere.

they’ve never apologized for this situation. after this happened, they began posting about all of us on their twitter. i didn’t archive any of this because at the time i had no idea how to archive shit, so take it with a grain of salt if u want. not in any chronological order because i don’t have dates for literally any of these since they were sent to me by somebody else

this one specifically actually was when i made the call out, i can tell u that one for free. so that would mean the rest of these were all posted Beforehand. i wrote the call out because they made a post on their blog falsely claiming that vincent was their abuser. the posts they made on twitter about us escalated into that. pretty sure the post on my blog literally right before the call out is me being like “okay i’m done allowing this to keep going on.”

these were part of some long thread they had of Things My Abusers Did To Me. i feel i should just say we had an “argument” once because they made a rude remark about my girlfriend because she was speaking to me but hadn’t yet spoken to them that day, and i did not respond to said remark, so they started ignoring and avoiding me until i apologized for ignoring them “or else”

also to show they Were giving our urls out to people to come after us for them. plus this one i’ve posted before already

with my old inactive url, wherein they had also claimed they were never talking about me when posting about their “abusers.” also side note i’m leaving this as the one where i blocked out the urls but i just found out i DO still have the other one where i didn’t block out all of our urls, i just thought that was interesting.

one of my friends, same person from above, receiving anonymous as well as Not anonymous (which i won’t post out of the goodness of my heart. they’re a popular artist that used to be friends with salem, i don’t know if they still are. i’m convinced they sent the anon as well since the typing style is similar, and they simply forgot to hit anon the other time) hate because of salem’s posts about us and giving out urls. i want to also emphasize: this person literally did NOT talk to salem at all during the apology thing. they literally have not spoken to one another since high school yet he’s one of the people salem constantly went on about on twitter saying he was their “abuser.” salem has never apologized to him for any of this. they claim they are “afraid” of him and that’s why they haven’t apologized.

they didn’t stop talking about us until i wrote the call out post and began posting screenshots. they suddenly shut up and distanced themself from the situation and claimed they were no longer going to talk about it. for them now to be saying they’ve grown past it and apologized personally, earnestly for everything? That’s Really Bold.

so let me just say, again, very concise. They Have Not Apologized For Any Of This.

salem, if u really truly honest to god want to grow and be a better person, if u really want to actually fix any of this? u need to be real fucking honest about what happened and what is STILL happening. because i am Not going to put up with people harassing me because u said something that u KNOW is not true while ur saying ur trying to work past all of this.

[pauleonotis]

I have a question, what do you think the jobs of the harry potter character would be if it was sent in a modern time with no magic? (Pick any characters, you want :))

Thank you for the ask!! :D and that’s honestly a really good question— :0

Okay so I picked some of the characters where I almost instantly came up with something. I also wanna add that so some of them are really REALLY random (as in so random that I don’t even have an explanation why) and some are probably the most obvious and uncreative choices ever, but here we go:

I think Molly Weasley would have an Etsy shop on which she sells sweaters and other knitted clothes (especially cute stuff for babies).

Arthur I believe would be a conservator/restorer especially focusing on antique furniture and cars.

I believe Hermione would be a librarian and sometimes help out her parents as dental assistant.

Ron would probably run either a sweet shop with Fred and George or a toy store?

Since social media in this modern times is an option too I believe Luna would be a famous Instagram artist/model who shows pictures of her in the most random but still aesthetic outfits while her hands&arms (sometimes her hair and clothes too) are full of paint, the painting she just finished would be next to her or she would be holding it. In her captions she’d write poems that kinda don’t make sense but at the same time do.

I believe Fleur would be an actress and a model.

Neville would own a cannabis farm- LMAO OKAY NO I‘M SORRY—

Maybe he has a huge flower plantation? I can also image he‘d travel and document all kind of plants but I like to think that Neville doesn’t need that much adventure and enjoys simpler things and finds comfort in his every day routine.

Vincent and Gregory would probably be body guards and/or bouncers.

Colin Creevey? Paparazzi.

Rita ngl would probably be a famous reporter or author that everyone isn’t sure what to think about and who also tweets a lot of shit... *cough*

Gilderoy Lockhard would be a school sports teacher. Don’t @ me, here’s why: He‘d smile at the students pretending he doesn’t know how much everyone hates the class and then would fail to spread some motivation because he’s letting the students do everything by their own anyway, he just stands there looking good in his sporty outfit and with his pipe - tho he‘d freak some of the students out by wearing shorts. He‘d tell stories about competitions he has participated in already but make sure to never mention any names in case one of his students wants to research it. All the other teachers would talk about how fit he is and athletic.

He also once self published a book, which got banned after they found out years later he actually copied the story off of a fanfiction. So it wasn’t his work at all (but none of the students need to know about that-).

Charlie probably would work with animals, maybe as part of the animal control, especially wild animals? Or maybe he‘d travel and do documentaries about wildlife. Maybe he’d also be a journalist and/or a youtuber.

Since we don’t know that much about either Pansy and Blaise from the books and movies I’ll just let myself get influenced by their fanon characters.

I believe Pansy would spend a lot of money for charity work and would support organizations etc. I feel like she’d have a lot of money because of her parents which she will inherit but she still has a small job in an office where she basically most of the time answers calls — or maybe she‘d be a wedding planner.

I believe Blaise could be a designer. Or maybe a divorce lawyer—

Ginny probably would be a famous football (as in american football) player. I feel like she’d also do kickboxing in her free time.

I like to think that Minerva would work in an orphanage and even tho she’s strict her kids would absolutely love her. Before she sends any of them away she‘d make sure the new family is a perfect match and if there’s anything fishy she would never risk sending one of her children in those parents care, apart from that she’d also keep contact to the parents because of course she wants to know how her children are doing.

I believe Draco would do amazing either as graphic designer, or as model, or as interpreter (in English, French and Latin - since I love headcanon‘s where he’s fluent in french and I picked latin too because I feel like this would’ve been a language he’s interested in? Idk).

"Training for the ballet, Potter?" - so what IF Harry’s a famous indian ballet dancer who was also already part in some movies (and that Draco happens to have an immense crush on)?

Okay I need to stop now or else I’ll come up with a new Drarry Au LMAO—

[yourfeminist]

All of the asks. If you don't want to answer some that's fine, I'd be interested in all of them ☺️

Hell yeah i’m down! Thank you a lot! Have a nice day or evening! 

zinc white; how are you really feeling today? no one-word answers please!

Well I woke up today and I thought I had to work at 8AM but I didn’t need to work so that kinda sucked. But otherwise then that I’m fine! I need to do a few things today so I look forward to do that! Thanks for asking 

lemon; what’s your comfort food?

Chocolate!

hansa yellow; what’s your guilty pleasure song?

Rich Girl by Daryl Hall & John Oates!

yellow ochre; name an artist/band whom you just discovered & can’t get enough of! 

I recently discovered Billie Eilish and she’s pretty cool. But other than her I don’t remember any new album I listened to

naples yellow; where do you feel most at home?

Well my parents are divorced so ngl at my dads I feel more home because there are a lot of other people and I enjoy that. But when I’m at my moms I really love my room and that feels like home too. So I can’t decide :)

raw sienna; with whom do you feel most at home?

My (girl)friendgroup and one friend specifically that always makes me feel like home. When we are at the same party I always feel less awkward or uncomfortable ( I have social anxiety and sometimes it’s really acting up). So I’m really glad that he has that feeling. 

golden ochre; describe the relationship you have with your closest friend.

We can talk about everything but still we don’t always do. We have a great friendship and sure do love each other but we don’t say things like that to each other. We also see each other pretty often. One of my best friends💕

golden deep; what’s your favorite season?

This anwser always changes but atm It’s spring! I really enjoy the weather where you don’t have to wear a jacket just a hoodie because of the sun! Yup really love that. OH AND everything starts to grow again :)

cadmium orange; what do you like to do on your days off?

Watch youtube video’s, watch a few episodes of a show, reading and mostly relax!

orange lake; do you have anyone you can turn to when you’re sad?

yup I do but this girl right here is kinda dumb because I never talk to anyone because I have this feeling that when I do I bother other people. And I know I don’t but still I won’t do it haha. But I’m working on it! So if anyone has the same feeling feel free to come to me or ask me how I’m dealing with that.

titans; do you prefer slow mornings or relaxing evenings?

Both! But I prefer evenings a little more. Because then I see my family and friends more ( i know cliche :p)

shakhnazaryan red; are you currently binge-watching anything?

BROOKLYN NINE-NINE!!!!!!(cool cool cool cool cool no doubt no doubt) And I’m watching Teen Wolf for the second time haha

red ochre; are you more right-brained (creative) or left-brained (analytical)?

Right brained!

burnt sienna; is there a painting that brings you peace when you look at it?

Starry Night by Vincent van Gogh! 

english red; what animal do you relate to most?

A CAT!!! LOVE SLEEPING LOVE CUDDLING AND SOMETIMES I LOVE TO BE A GRUMPY FUCK

vermilion; what’s your favorite accent?

Hard one!! I really like Irish ( @bleubelle249SO YOU BETTER HAVE ONE :PPP) and Scottish! But ngl I reaaaally love Australian accents, so hot.

cadmium red; do you have a “type” when it comes to a significant other?

Nope I don’t mind tbh. But dark hair and dark eyes are plus !

scarlet; describe your current crush/es.

Dark haired, dark eyed 6′2 and his name is Noah Centineo and he doesnt even know I exist :). But other than him I don’t have a crush!

ruby; what does your ideal first date look like?

A walk at a park and maybe picknick and a fun activity and dinner later in the afternoon and for the night a movie! But tbh everything is okay, I’m not that hard to statisfy.

carmine; what does your ideal second date look like?

Anything the other person want to do! 

madder lake red; would you ever kiss someone (or accept a kiss) on a first date?

Yes I would. I would only kiss someone if they want to (CONSENT KIDS, ITS IMPORTANT) and I also would accept one if I’m comfortable. But there needs to be a connection tho. Otherwise a quick  peck on the cheeks.

rose; what’s something really positive going on in your life right now?

That I’m working on myself to become a healthier (mentally) me.  Because it took waaaaaaaaaaaaay to long.

quinacridone rose; what’s something you’re really looking forward to?

My drivers licence! 

violet rose; what does your dream house look like?

A very cozy house. Nice, warm with a library and a lot of plants and flowers! A big garden with both sun and shadow. With a few neighbours. And I would love to live at a dead end next to meadow!

violet; is there any place in particular you’d like to settle down?

Somewhere in England, USA or Australia. Maybe somewhere else in Europe, don’t know.

blue lake; what would you like to do/accomplish before you settle down?

That I finished college. I’m financial stable and that I worked hard for the things that I have. I don’t like doing things the easy way.

cobalt blue spectral; what is the most beautiful place you have ever been to?

Český Krumlov in Czech Republic

ultramarine; when was the last time you were in a good mood? do you know/remember what sparked it?

A week ago. I just felt good. Don’t have a reason for it.

blue; what’s the most recent dream you remember?

That I was dating a collegue who is also a friend. it was a really weird dream but I didnt tell anyone because my friends ship us hahahah

bright blue; what does your dream family look like? any kids or pets? how many of each?

I don’t yet if I want kids (or that my partner does) but if I would have kids I want 3 em. And both a dog and a cat!

blue cobalt; do you like your name? would you give yourself a different name if you could? Yes I like my name (Anouk) and no I will not give myself a different name because I don’t think an other name will fit me.

prussian azure; what’s your favorite scent?

Depends on my mood what it is; like a candle or perfume or deodorant. But probably vanilla, lemongrass and citrus.

azure blue; what’s your favorite type of tea, if any?

Earl grey!

turquoise blue; if you could start a garden, what would you plant?

SUNFLOWERS!!!!!!!!!!! And a few trees and nice flowers that grow each year.

cerulean blue; if you were guaranteed to have a viewership, would you start a youtube vlog?

yes probably. I secretly would love that haha

glauconite; describe your body without using any negative adjectives.

Tall, nice skin, long arms and long legs and my stomach kinda has a sixpack.

yellow green; picture yourself walking in a field. what do you see & hear in this scenario?

Probably something like this. But with more high grass. And I soflty hear the wind and a few birds chirping.

green light; are you in a comfortable place in life? if not, what do you think might make it better?

80% of my life is! What do I think might make it better? Me. But don’t know how yet.

green; name three countries you want to visit; do you have any actual plans in place to visit any of them?

1. Italy2. Australia3. New zealand

Yes! They are all three on my bucket list so I will for sure visit them!

emerald green; do you speak any languages besides english? are there any additional languages you want to learn?

Yes I speak: Dutch, Frisian and a tiny bit of German. And I really want to learn Spanish!

oxide of chromium; what’s your favorite book?

That’s way to hard for me to choose. So i am not going to give you an anwser :p

olive green; are you currently reading anything? how do you like it so far?

I am reading the Game of Thrones books. Currently reading A Clash of Kings (second one) 

mars brown; what’s a movie that always puts a smile on your face/makes you laugh?

Coco!! And all the Harry Potter movies!

burnt umber; what’s something you plan to do before the day is over to take care of yourself?

Nothing haha

umber; have you drank enough water today?

Not yet! But it’s still morning so don’t worry!

voronezhskaya black; what or who is your go-to outlet for when you need to vent? 

I don’t vent a lot. And if I do it’s not a go to person. Probably my dad or anyone else from my family or friends

sepia; name five things that always make you happy.

1. Animals2. When people are happy3. When people are smiling 4. Music!5. Kian and Jc (shout out to them, they are youtubers)

indigo; what’s the best/sweetest compliment you have ever received?

That I’m a very relaxed person to be with. My friends told me that when we had a test I’m made them less nervous. And I really like that.

payne’s gray; describe your aesthetic?

Art

black; post a selfie because you are so beautiful!

I would rather not post one but I’ll guess I will post one

There ya go!

Thanks again!

[radioactive-synth]

odd numbers for the oc ask!!

1. Your first OC ever?

its my boy, Vaughn Zander!! he was made on 13 feb 2016 and is my most treasured oc i have

3. Have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else?

yea! Vincent Hudson that belongs to @theartofblossoming , we both adopted our ocs and they are cousins.

also got from @lilyblue-bubbles a happy package: Deborah “Debbie” Gaines (RR tourist, later heavy, also Minuteman sniper and close friend to Vaughn in both canons); Ellie Connor (Sole version, General of Minutemen in her canon story, and Companion version, ex caravan guard, (ex) Operator, later becomes too a Minuteman in Vaughn’s canon), Rosaline Dupart (tinkerer and mechanic, part time Minuteman, both canons), Anika (caravan guard, in Ellie’s canon story, she is a close friend to her since pre war; in Vaughn’s canon, also caravan guard, befriends Ellie and Rosaline), Charlie (vault 81 dweller, joins up the Minutemen when they want to leave the Vault for better treatment and life)

Note: both me and @lilyblue-bubbles got 2 perfect canon stories, as for me, its Sole Vaughn’s canon and Ellie is Companion,and Sole Ellie’s canon and Vaughn is Companion (different story, vault 81 doctor, part time scavenger, becomes a Minuteman as he no longer returns to the Vault for good), with Debbie and the others keeping their roles

5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be?

i mean…..Vaughn was known in the fandom a while, but i guess they got tired of my doctor with a kind heart :/

7. Are your OCs part of any story or stories?

yea! they all come from games, its Noné the Vault Dwellwe from FO 1, the unamed Chosen One, unnamed Lone from FO 3, Tamir from F NV, Vaughn, Oliver, Olivia, unnamed ex gunner and unnamed ghoul ocs from FO 4, Kahurangi from S/kyrim….

9. Would you ever be willing to give any of your OCs to someone else?

already had! i gave Vaughn to @theartofblossoming . and to @lilyblue-bubbles, i gave Vaughn, Tamir, Oliver and Olivia (the last 2 are different in both canons)

i can give my ocs to my friends anytime ;)

11. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a “sunshine”?

Vaughn! or Olivia!

13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs?

Tamir!!! she is the wild card of the squad

15. Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people?

YESSSS I LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!

17. Any OC OTPs?

Vaughn with H/ancock and Nick, Tamir with Cait, unnamed ex gunner with Piper

19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)

oh my god…..

so….Vaughn is the most important for me….as he is my first oc, i gave him my entire person, with obvious differences between us, but basically….he functions just like me, personality, fears, illness, he got them from me…

but also… he helps me alot to cope with my own issues, and he is the person i am, and the one i want to be, if that makes sense….its a lot to explain tho

21. Your most artistic OC

Olivia! she loves to knit, to sing and she even know how to dance

23. Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like?

i think that would be Tamir….her original design was to be complete opposite of Vaughn, someone to be mean and evil, but i couldnt, so i changed her in being chaotic good

25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?)

Vaughn!!! he is ltierally 70% me

27. Any OCs that were inspired by a certain song?

nope?

29. Which one of your OCs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone they’re going?

Tamir for sure

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

i think i take Oliver, as he would post pics of vehicles, mechanical stuff, jokes, news, pics of animals, sometimes post pics of Dogmeat…

33. Your shyest OC?

could be my unnamed Lone

35. Any sibling characters?

not by blood, but by bond, Vaughn and Debbie are close to each other, can consider each other brother and sister

37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human

ummm Olivia, as she is a ghoul? or Oliver, as being a synth? or Kahurangi as being Khajiit? does Tamir and Vaughn (6 years after main event) as cyborgs counts?

41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)

yea! here is made by @lliviadoodles , this commission of my friend for Vaughn and Debbie made by @anafigreen , this, this and this by @nokikissa  and this made by @her0ismsart !!!

43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It’s time to confess

tragic past i mean i want to give them kindness and good heart

45. A character you no longer use?

*sigh* it was my Lone, Sammie, but i scrapped her cause i didnt felt any connection to her, so i will need other Lone

47. Has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your OCs as their child?

yea! and i dont mind tbh ;)

49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes

Vaughn maybe, he would laugh with Debbie at memes

THANKS @enclave

[sylvrain]

Tag game

Rules: answer the questions in a new post and then tag some people of your choice. Don’t be shy! Spread the love.

Thanks for the tag @supposedtobedoinghomework! Like two weeks ago... finally got around to it lol

Nickname: Vincent lol

Star sign: Capricorn *peace sign emoji*

Height: uh 5′ 8″ I think? It’s been a while since I measured. That’s 173 cm, rounded up, for my followers who use the system that actually makes sense.

Last thing googled: “mmorpgs”... lol. and before that, one-act plays. there, that’s much more sophisticated

Favorite music artist: Oh boy. Uhhh probably LIGHTS... or Oh Wonder... or Made In Heights... or Bethel Music... lol

Last movie I watched: hmm... I think it was Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.

Last TV show I watched: 20/20 with my mom earlier. Sad, sad stories D:

What are you wearing right now? Pajama pants... and a t-shirt of a giraffe wearing sunglasses.

When did you make this blog? March 2013. I didn’t use it often until July of that year though

What kind of stuff do you post? I post pictures of nature, posts that bring glory to God, and memes :)

What kind of stuff do you do? I sing, dance, praise God, do plays often, play piano, ukelele sometimes, read novels, do A LOT of homework, and play video games :)

Do you get asks regularly? Certainly not. haha

Why did choose your url? edit: whoops i forgot this one. I used to change my url pretty often, I’ve had breakfastattwelve or something like that, s-m-o-t-e, aeter-nal, themasked-merchant (wait was that even me? i can’t remember), etc. but I’ve had this one for a long time. I saw a blog and i glimpsed like half of the title of the blog or maybe it was the url- graveyard bota something (i checked later, it was graveyard botany) and i thought of “graveyard botanist” and i was like i really hope that wasn’t that blog’s whole url cause I really want it. So yeah. I thought it was cool and poetic and I like nature a lot so uh... yeah. Also I’ve been trying to get the url “boy” for like eight months; since tumblr enacted their dormancy policy, that url should have been open, as it hasn’t been used in six years... but now when you search it, nothing comes up. But I can’t switch to that url. I sent customer support an email in the summer but they never replied. I should bother them again.

How many blankets do you sleep with? This time of year, 2.

Gender: Male

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw! Represent!

Fav colors: Green and brown... earth tones *heart eyes*

Average hours of sleep: seven to eight, probably.

Lucky number: uhm 12? i like that number idk about lucky tho

Unlucky number: let’s say 4. why not

Fav characters: ENDER WIGGIN.

Follower count: 323. 

c: i shall tag @obsidianbetta @nyaeko @pathognn @practicallypidge @um-vvhat @kupogames @trainzelda @healingrain24

[virginia-werewoolf]

Hello to all!!! It’s been a crazy few months and I haven’t had the time to really go on Tumblr much less post about everything going on in my life but i am going to today!!

I’m currently finishing up my senior year of high school and lemme tell u - it’s been wild!!! But so fun. This last Relay for Life was probably my favorite one yet & I wish I could just have one more. When I went my freshman & sophomore year I was still so, so shy and only talked to people I already knew. This year, though, I talked to the new speech & debate kids and they were some of the sweetest people I have met in high school!! I always get so nostalgic for speech and debate when I am around the newer kids in the club. I can’t lie - being in that club was the only time throughout my whole high school experience that I felt as though I was a part of something good. I quit because it did stress me out a bit and I wanted to join photography my sophomore year and just always kind of found an excuse not to go back after that (even though I always knew I should’ve). Prom was nice - we ate at the Venetian and danced our lil hearts out at Panis Hall. I felt moderately pretty. I got into an argument with my best friend, Vincent, that night - he’s been a real dick lately & I couldn’t put up w it anymore that night in the Red Rock parking lot!!! I have been holding a few grudges against him since then but this weekend I have gotten some time to think it over for the first time & I think I’ve made my peace with him!! After prom was the Disney trip - which has been a WILD ride for a few months now. There was a lot of fishy business going on w the stuco advisor but finally - LITERALLY 10 MINUTES BEFORE THE BUS LEFT - I got a seat on the bus!!!! I wasn’t ready at all because I didn’t want to pack a bunch & get excited just to end up having to go to math that day - but I had such a good time in my bummy school clothes & 2 best friends!!! Even if I didn’t get to take pictures and we didn’t get to finish exploring California adventure because we were all grumpy and tired. The bus ride with Vincent was so fun and I didn’t really think about all the things I was upset at him for. On the 24th, then, we had grad walk AND senior awards!! I did the travel grad walk with Ni-Ni and we got to go to our elementary and middle schools + pat diskin in our caps and gowns with all the current students lining the halls cheering us on!! It was so pure. The elementary schoolers were so so so cute n proud of us & it was the first time it rly set in that this is happening!!! Plus I saw my 4th grade teacher and she remembered me BY NAME. I foreal cried on the way back to the bus bc of it. Awards night was nice too - I sat next to a kid I hadn’t talked to since middle school but it wasn’t awkward and we made jokes to each other all night!! It was kinda cute. Like it really felt like we were all in this together. I luvvvved cheering on my friends & just other kids in my classes who I may not talk to much but it still feels like we’re on the same boat supporting each other!! I got my Ronald Mcdonald award that night + my hispanic educator award (two scholarships totaling $1500!!!!) I also have to go to a HUGE district wide ceremony & read part of the speech that won me the hispanic educator award the day after graduation!! Yikes but I’m excited. I think that’s basically all the senior events left except maybe the senior bbq??? But that’s not a big deal. I’m not sure if there’s a senior sunset and I know I posted about being upset that I didn’t go to senior sunrise but on the bus ride home from Disney, I woke up for a split second and saw the sunrise over the California desert with my best friend sleepin next to me, his arm latched onto mine & maybe that’s enough.

BUT YEAH. IM FUCKING GRADUATING. My checkout card is signed !! My 7th grade english teacher who i am super close to has her flight booked !!! Can u believe it!!

Work-wise, I was having a really hard time for a while. I was desperately looking for another job & was about to transfer because the theatre made me want to kill myself!!! My exs friends and my managers were talking so so so much shit abt me. They said some of the worst things they couldve possibly said about me - and were so condescending at a time where i was extremely insecure because i was hung up over a boy that treated me like shit & had just lost so many friends. I couldnt even imagine staying until summer - but the universe helped me out and made it so that 2 of my most condescending managers transferred & i stopped getting scheduled so much with my exs friends and things just got… better. I stopped crying everyday - or any day - at work and actually turned down an interview because i figured id just wait until july to look for another job (thats how long im required to stay at my current to qualify for a 10k dollar scholarship i think i have a good shot at getting!!). I dont feel trapped and dread going to work anymore anymore and its so so so relieving. For a second there, it really had such a strong hold on my life and im so glad thats over. It was not healthy at ALL

Driving wise - ive been driving a lil bit a few days a week now and im really enjoying it !! It is not as scary as i thought itd be. I still have a lot to learn but i think im doin pretty good + i have 3k saved up for a car & im so excited !!!

This summer is also gna be super fun - im gna throw so many parties bc all of my bffs are leavin im august for college + spend a week explorin LA w my sister which im so excited abt !!! Im super broke atm bc i had to borrow a bunch of money from my mom for grade nite & am trying to pay it back asap but hopefully any grad money will be enough to cover it so i can buy books n cute knick knacks freely while im on vacay!! Especially since my body decided to hit a second fuckin puberty this winter & none of my summer clothes fit me anymore :( ive been dressing so bummy lately bc of it but ive been too busy to care. I gotta get clothes b4 going to LA tho!!! Other than that though i really just want this summer to be abt me. I feel like even tho i KNOW i need time to myself, i always try to get the most out of literally ANY possible relationship in my life :( its such a bad thing but i hate passing up opportunities like that bc what if, u know? To love and be loved in return is what I always thought i wanted most in this world!!! But i think i just need to consider where situations like this are really going before i compromise the time i set aside to work on myself for it. SO unless i can really see something going somewhere, this summer is goin to be about reading, writing, filming, and taking care of myself !!! I want to eat better (vegetarian & vegan whenever possible!!) and exercise and take care of my skin and just get shit done in general (maybe learn to knit finally???) Im even gonna start a bullet journal!!! I think it will help keep me feelin like myself as well as stay productive & organized in college + its just such a cute hobby Not to mention my sister is ENGAGED?????? My BEST FRIEND IN THE ENTIRE WORLD!!! I will save the sappy stuff for later posts/my maid of honor speech but she really deserves this more than anyone. It hurts to see her movin out after 18 years of sleepin 10 feet away from her - if it were any earlier than this i wouldnt have been able to handle it - but im excited to be independent & im sure we’ll be sendin each other funny memes and visiting each other 24/7!! She is my best friend after all, and im just so happy to see her happy that i cant even be that sad abt losing our early morning laughs and late night talks - at least not yet!! Maybe it just hasnt set in yet

[sixthousandninehundredmiles]

 9/8/2017

Starting the day off with a bad night of sleep isn’t exactly a good start. But I’m super glad we booked all of our flights. Just need to book our hotels now and then do some research on what we should do. I think HK we should be good? Cause I know a few places and you can also take me around. I’ll probably look for a few places in case we are interested. Taiwan I think is the one we need to look up. But for sure we should go to Din Tai Fung and Taipei 101

Today was super fun because I got to do 3 of my favorite activities: pool, badminton, and bowling. I met up with Van at Hue because we didn’t get any banh beo last time. I think we have satisfied his craving. We had a lot more food than what is in the picture. Hue is definitely one of my favorite Viet restaurants. After lunch, we were supposed to meet Peter Nguyen and Mindy for some pool at the Student Union. They came late so I didn’t get to see Peter play. I had to leave for club by the time they came because I was worried about how they would start club. Kinda disappointed with pool tho; I wanted to see Peter play cause apparently he’s really good and better than Van? Maybe another time.

Club was pretty smooth. Randy is trying to see if we can get off work earlier so that he can make it to club. Aliza, CJ, and I basically did the normal routines: introductions, policies, registration, setup, and getting everyone on the court. Just like always, the beginning of the semester is always crowded. Hopefully the numbers don’t drop too early. A lot of potential from the freshmen this year. They might not be good enough for the 1 and 2 spots, but they’ll put up a fight. I’m settled on playing doubles with Van this year (as if that was surprising) and I think I’m only going to play 1 event just like before. Apparently there’s a really good looking guy on our team? Aliza, Gloria, and Van agreed. His name is Jeffrey, a transfer from Canada. He’s probably the best out of the new people. Eric Lui (Ivy’s bf) is also here.

Went to Gongcha after club. We did announce it with 1 hour left of club but only 4 people joined us and I don’t even remember their names except Vincent Thach. 2 of them are from Logan and American. Idk about this one girl. It was super chill because there were about 12 of us and we were all playing games and laughing. We had chess, cards against humanity, and card games like BS/thirteen going. Played until 8 and I asked him anyone wanted to go eat before I leave for bowling. That’s always the problem in group hangouts. No one wants to suggest anything but will always say no to what people say. Especially Aliza. 2nd time Randy mentioned something convenient (this time Iguanas) and she said no cause she wants Asian food. In the end, everyone dipped cause we settled on Sweet Tomatoes next week. I ended up going to Burger King by myself before bowling.

At bowling, it was super nice of the guy at the desk. So I remembered last time when we got to Bowlero, the lanes were all packed cause they changed the starting time to 8? But I may have mistaken for another day other than Friday cause although I was late, Kevin told me the guy said it doesn’t start till 10. But since Kevin and his group were there already, he just gave them a free game with my name included. He also said later when it hits 10, just come straight to him so that we can skip the line and we can keep the lane we were playing on. NICE! Saved about 30-45 minutes of waiting. And Kevin/Dylan taught me how to bowl while playing poker. Gets pretty intense and really gives you an incentive to play well. Basically, each strike you get 2 cards, each spare you get 1 card, and each gutter (missing doesn’t count) you lose one card. You can’t look at your cards till the end of 10 frames and each time you lose a card, you add it to the bottom of the deck. The more cards you have, the better chance you can make a good 5 card hand. Really interesting and fun. We also played teams: me/ Kevin vs. Dylan/Alyssa/their friend Josh. Kevin and I kept pushing for a higher handicap and obviously the other team was trying to push it down. What really sucked was we kept losing so the handicap kept going up....and when it goes up Dylan/Alyssa score higher and higher...damn that couple....

That’s was my day! I’m still pretty upset I forgot to take a picture of club and gongcha. I will definitely try to focus more on taking more pictures and include some selfies here and there. AND try to keep Tumblr updated on time so that you can post yours immediately with no stalls. Sorry bb!

I love you so much! Can’t wait to see you!

[pristinepastel]

5 Things About Me Meme!

Tagged by @awakaru ! This time i’ll tag the last few people in my activity- @robtari , @tavros-tardis , and @boundtoanandroid ! 5 Things You’ll Find In My Bag: -My sketchbooks(two of them. same kind but one is vertical and the other is horizontal) -My art supply box, which is pink and glittery and used to be a makeup box that i got for christmas one year -This probly counts as two things, but my plusle and minun plushies! i also have a plusle keychain. -I have a calligraphy pen w/ multiple nibs that I haven’t used very much yet. I’ll hopefully start using it and improving when i start college this fall! -And finally, my tablet with bluetooth keyboard. No mouse or pen for it but that’s fine for now. One day though… 5 Things You’ll Find in My Bedroom: Too many things;; -I have a book bag that I only use when I travel. When I’m at home though, it holds most of my plushies! Including a pachirisu that lost an ear. Which I. Kiiind of fixed? I tore off a scrap piece of a purple scarf and sewed it over the hole with yarn. Maybe I’ll take a pic later, lollo -I keep a cat cube on my bed near my feet. It’s purple and pink, with a leopard print. The outside is a kind of messy texture, while the inside has a soft carpet on the bottom. The cats don’t normally use it but when they do i try to take pictures! -My favorite blanket! I use it to stim. When I was at high school I’d usually take it with me in my bag, as well as my scarves. It was helpful for taking naps during commons, especially after a bad insomnia bout. Also helpful during my depressive episodes- even if I’d still end up going home early sometimes. -I have various posters put up in my room- including some prints from juicyink on youtube, a kingdom hearts 2 poster i got from when borders was still around, a print of Vincent Valentine that I got in the Artist Alley at colossalcon last year, a print i got from a caricature artist i got on my birthday as well as the caricature he made of me, and some old fashioned prints made on corkbord which kind of remind me of lowbrow fantasy art. I don’t know how old they are, I think my mom got them for me at a flea market? -I also have some old drawings of mine on my walls. I used to have a lot more of my older older pics, but i took them down because I wanted to start fresh. These were from my senior year i think? So far it’s just drawings of Osiria and Dahteste so far lollo -I lastly have my desktop computer! It’s a p big screen. My dad got me a new screen, keyboard, and pc box for my birthday, after I told him I wanted mass effect andromeda once it came out. For the specs he said. He’s very enthusiastic about that sort of thing;; 5 Things I’ve always wanted to do in life: -Become a concept artist/character designer -Write a story/Draw a comic about my characters(sadly my imagination is more abstract and my minds not v suited for concrete scripting lollo) -Somehow meet and help my characters in real life. I know that’s impossible, shoosh -Become a side character in someone else’s story/video game. Not physically of course- I mean I want to play as the sort of character that supports the protagonist and helps them get a good ending. -Become a voice actor! I really enjoy the thought of my voice bringing a character to life. I’ve tried auditioning before, but I’m not very confident in online auditions like that cus my mics not the best;; 5 Things That make me Happy: -Philadelphia roll with smoked salmon, avocado, and cream cheese! My fav sushi yums;; -My cat Molly! her purrs sound like a pigeon or a dove coping and she’s so soft -Comforting and emotional characters!! Like Cole, Sandal, and Dog from Dragon Age, Jaal from me:a, Legion from Mass Effect, Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter, Lee from Naruto, Dogmeat from Fallout, etc. -My Mom gives really good hugs and she’s really good at emotional support! She understands what I go through cus she has depression and anxiety too. We even take some of the same prescription! I like her more than Dad cus he gets angry sometimes and I can’t really predict when that happens. He’s not hurting me or anything, he just gets loud and that makes me a lil nervous is all! -Conventions! I’m not really equipped for big social events usually, but these are usually the exception. You don’t really talk to people one on one, and you don’t have to be afraid of being the center of attention. Even buying stuff is easier cus no ones judging you for how much you’re buying or how long you’re at one booth! 5 Things I’m Currently Into: -My mutuals/followers may or may not have noticed the posts about witchcraft ehe;; It started with me researching stuff that one of my brain friends, Elisa, is into. She started out with just general tarot reading, which then developed into her actually being a witch, which led to me discovering i really enjoyed the subject lollo -Dungeons and Dragons podcasts like The Adventure Zone and Godsfall. that is too many capital letters;;; -Modern Girl In Thedas fanfics. I especially enjoy the ones where the protag discovers no one in thedas speaks english. Sometimes people write it so english is qunlaat, but my fav is that the protag has to work at learning common on their own. -I’ve gotten into playing more mobile games again, now that i have a phone that can support them;; I now have Love Live SIF, Fallen London, and the new ver of Kingdom Hearts X(fyi the x is pronounced cross in english- in japan its pronounce chi!) -I’ve been watching doodle videos lately. They’re vids where the artist just doodles random lines and patterns and shapes to fill an entire page. Sometimes there are mandalas too! Sometimes the artist talks quietly and motivationally during it like Bob Ross. if you’re curious one of the artists i’ve been watching recently is called Peter Draws on youtube! 5 Things on My To-Do List: -Finish prepping all the paperwork for starting college. I’ve been accepted, but there’s still financial paperwork to fill out lollo -Make a grimoire/book of shadows/book of mirrors. Atm, all my witchy notes are in my phone. I plan to make a cutesy decoden grimoire once i’m actually in school! -Start doing physical stuff like yoga and walking. School has a public yoga class available, and the campus has a lot of places where i can take breaks if i start feeling light headed due to the scoliosis. I’ve downloaded pokémon go preemptively to help w that -Prepare for june’s various activities! This year i’m not just going to colossalcon- I’m also going to volunteer at a convention in DC! ooo I’m so excited and i wanna pack immediately even tho i know it’s not for a month yet lollo;; my mom is also in this mood - Mmmaybe get a spirit companion? Dunno for sure yet. Not sure if my social anxiety also applies to the ethereal. A bit nervous about the constant-ness of the interaction. Need to research the subject a bit more lollo 5 Things People May Not Know About Me: -I’m really disorganized. So much so that i can’t close my closet door due to the clutter in front of it;;; -Physically speaking, I am only 5'6", I have a lazy eye, and mild scoliosis. My right canine tooth is broken as well.Im kind of self conscious about my teeth so my smiles are usually closed mouth. I also have problems with hygiene, for various reasons- for general cleanliness i just forget to shower sometimes/don’t have the motivation for it. As for the teeth, my sensory issues make it so i very much hate toothpaste. That’s why my teeth are so bad;; speaking of- -I have various mental issues. I have depression and anxiety, which has been clinically diagnosed. My psychiatrist also suspects i have mild autism or aspergers, but the test people never got back to us so heck if we know for sure. My mom, a couple of my friends, as well as me all agree i seem to have it. I also believe i have maladaptive daydreaming. This is a condition that makes it so I have very detailed imaginary worlds in my head- so detailed in fact that I get very attached to the characters in them, who I call brain friends. The daydreams get so detailed and involved that it’s sometimes hard for me to focus on stuff like reading or sleeping. Which exacerbates the insomnia i already have lollo. It’s easier for me to read fanfics than published stuff as a result, cus fanfics are basically written dreams in that sense? i’m also p bad at explaining myself with words lo l l,o;; -Despite most of my posts being happy ones, i tend to have p bad depressive episodes. I try not to vent on here though cus i’m self conscious about how others interpret that. It makes me feel manipulative. I also have trouble with asking my parents for stuff for the same reason;; -I started the positivity tag on election night. I was really shaky and anxious, but all of that was trapped inside and i couldn’t cry, so i just felt stuck there(i now suspect i was disasociating at the time?). I started reblogging all these happy posts to cheer myself up, and thanking all the people who were putting them on my dash. That’s why my positivity tag is ‘thank you’! :^)

[minsquare-blog1]

Chapter 4

Twlight Moon sky

It wasn't like i felt anything. Sitting in jail. Looking out the window. You might ask yourself. Why am i here? I guess i killed someone.. My two best friends.. Shyriu..And leen. On their 18th birtday I guess..I kinda owed Shyriu my life. Where to start? I guess when i was born. You know there are other worlds out there. So i was born on a world called 'Darkite'. There were the poor and the weathly the poor weren't alowed to talk to the weathly. But my mom and dad talked. They even made me. My world went to war once they found out i was born. So my mom sent me to this world. Where i could have a life without war. I crashed here. On this world. Terra. A young woman found me. She was working on a haunted house looking for ghosts. She was inlove with a man named Vincent. He was...So hansom A year later those two moved into the house. Since she liked the house so much. Vincent and her adopted me. They didn't want spria to find me. Spira was basicly the FBI for this world. I was from another world..And they knew that. I looked more like Vincent. Red eyes..Black hair. I mean..Red eyes aren't normal for this world. But whatever. I was maybe 7 when my adopted mom and Vincent got into a big fight. She did have a son with some else.. And she ran off with the father of that son. Leaving me and Vincent. I grew up..Without really knowing her. I knew Vincent really loved her. More then anything. After 10 years i knew he still missed her. She saved his life. He would always tell me that story. How they always went on date..And he wanted to marry her. Luci...Was her name. The same year she left i met shyriu.. And leen. They became my best friends within a week. When we were 10. Leen make us all necklaces. Mine was a dark red flower. Shyriu's was yellow. And leen's was pink. We all shared everything. By age 13 i started falling inlove with Shyriu. He was just so perfect for me. A year later Leen asked him out. He said sure. I felt so broken. I wanted him to be with me. I hid in my room for a week. Not even a month later Shyriu saw how hurt i was and broke up with leen..You didn't have to do that Shyriu..I'd be with you in heaven so..All 3 of us..Together again..To bad i can't die. I tried so many times. Suicude...Getting killed by the cops. nothing.

I guess i should start my story. Quit my mindless talks. Like i use to do with Shyriu... i was about 17 when this happend. My birthday was in Octotber. This was in the summer. Well the begining of summer. Around may. Finals were comming up. Not like i cared. School is just a place to baby sit you till your 18. Anyway. Shyriu always walked me home from school. Today he was walking me home. We had just dropped Leen off. My house was far into the woods. Right before i walked inside he grabbed my arm. "Twlight.." I looked at him. "Be my girlfriend" He looked into my red eyes. I blinked. "Okay.." He hugged me. "Thank you.." He whispered in my ear. He ran back to his house. I walked into the kitchen. If i could i would use this place as a haunted house. I laughed as i walked to get a drink. Vincent stood in the door way. "I hear you.." I said as i poured myself some wine. "You shouldn't be drinking that" "You shouldn't be telling my what to do..Your not my real dad.." I said as i took a sip. He grabbed the glass from my hand. "Room..Now" Uhg why does he always tell me what to do? "No..You can't tell me what to do..Dick" His eyes flashed a bright red. I knew that meant he was pissed. I grabbed my bag and ran up the stairs. I sat on the floor of my room for a hour. I looked out the window. I went to lock my door. I ran to the window and unlocked it. Vincent can't tell me what to do. I jumped out the window and ran to Shyriu's house. By the time i got there it was dark. I knocked on the door. His little sister Aria opened the door. "Is..Shyriu here?" I asked. She closed the door. I stood there waiting for him. i heard a window open. "What you doing here sweet stuff?" He said as he sat on his window smoking something. I smiled. "Looking for a little fun" He got away from the window. I climbed up on the side of the house. I rolled into his room. It was your normal emo room. Posters everywhere. I loved him for that. My best friend...And boyfriend. "Leen should be here soon.." He said as he poured me some drink. I smiled at him. "You think we have some time for fun?" He looked at me. "What kind of fun?" I shrugged. He picked up a ligher. "Wanna smoke?" I shook my head. We heard a knock on the door. "Shyriu? you in there?" It was leen. He grabbed my hand. "Come with me.." He opened his window again and we jumped out in and ran. We ran to the beach. He slid down in the sand. Making me fall with him. He looked at the night sky with all the stars out. "It's nice..Isn't it?" I looked up at the sky too. "Nice..Like you" He said as he looked at me. I looked at him. He Kissed me. My phone rang. I looked at it. 'leen' I just threw my phone and kept kissing Shyriu. We just made out on the beach for awhile. His phone rang. It was leen. He sighed. "Ey Leen? Oh Twilight? She's with me..Her..Dad wants her? Ugh..She just ran off..Maybe to go home" He hung up on leen. "Your dad wants you.." He looked at the sand. "Maybe you should go.." I also looked at the sand. "Or stay here with me.." He looked at me. I got up and grabbed my phone. "I should go.."

The next morning i woke up in shyriu's room. I sat up holding my head. I saw him getting dressed. I looked at the clock. 6am. I looked at him again. Oh man..That's a nice ass. I put my long black hair behind my ears. He put his shirt on then looked at me. "Oh..How long have you been watching?" Hehe..Enough to get turned on. "I just got up.." He pointed to his couch. "There are some clothes..Leen left them." What happened last night? "C..Could you leave the room for a second?" I asked as i got up. He nodded. He left the room. I looked at the clothes. I put them on then looked at myself. I looked like a preppy fag. I just looked at myself. He knocked on the door. "You..Okay in there" I ran over to the door and opened it. He looked at me and laughed. "You look cute" He said as he hugged me. "We gotta get tho school now.." He grabbed his backpack. We left his house and walked to school. "EEEKKK SHYRIU!!" oh i forgot..Our friend Elia..She loved shyriu more then anything. Can she could get him. Since she was the queen and she could get anyone she wanted. She ran over to him and kissed him. He looked at me as she kissed him. "Oh..Don't you love me anymore Baby?" She asked. She was a bit younger then us. Her long blue hair was like a shitty scene kid's. Good thing we didn't have any classes together. The bell rang. Me and Shyriu ran to class. After school i saw Shyriu talking to leen. I ran over to them. "Hey.." Leen looked at me and smiled. "Hey..Your dad is fine with you staying at Shyriu's place.." Oh thank god. "But you should have told him before you left" Fuck her. "Listen here leen. I needed something fun. Not some bitch to tell me what to do. If i wanted some bitch to tell me what to do i'd look for my mom" I ran home. I opened a wine bottle and took it into my room. i drank the whole thing. I just sat on the floor drinking. I walked downstairs to throw the bottle out. I saw a picture of Luci, Vincent and me..I use to be such a good kid.

"Hey! Shyriu! Look at me!" I said as i kicked a ball into a rabbit hole. He laughed. When i was 10..It was so much fun. Everyone didn't care what we did. It was cute..When did i stop being cute? I don't remember. I threw the bottle away and looked in the woods. I wonder where Vincent was...I grabbed that picture. I took it to my room. I grabbed my lighter and some weed Shyriu gave me. I rolled the picture up and put weed in it. I lit it up. Smoking made me forget everything. I passed out on the floor. I woke up later that night. I looked at my phone 20 texts from Shyriu. I looked around. Life was the same. I heard a knock on my window. It was Shyriu. I got up and opened it. He jumped inside. "I texted you like...a thousand times!!" He yelled. I started to cry. "I'm sorry.. I'm ruining my life" I looked at the half burnt picture on the floor. He hugged me. "It's okay..Shh" I just cried.

The next two weeks were the same. Smoking drinking sleeping. Finals were next week. Then summer break and Shiyriu and leen's birthday. I asked Leen for forgivness. I knew i was mean. One day me and Shyriu were smoking in his room one day after school. "Hey.. Twlight?" He looked at me. "I think we need a break" I looked at him. "Till after finals..Then i'll buy you a ring to marry you" Why would he want a break? Maybe he didn't want me to bug him. I stood up. "Okay..A break for a week?" He nodded. "Before you go.." He looked in a box under his bed. He took out a necklace. It was in a heart shape. "Here.." He put it on me. "Open it.." I unlocked it and opened it. It had a picture of me and him in it. I looked up at him. "Thank you" I whispered. Finals came and went. I passed I got tickets for me, Leen, and Shyriu to see the robot our town was buliding. I heard it was big. Me and Elia covered their eyes as we walked there. Elia could just get in for free. We got past the guy at the gate. We walked down a long hall way. Then heard people running after us. "Hey Kid! you can't be in here" Elia looked at me. "What are we going to do?" Leen looked scared and held onto Shyriu. "You two run..Go find the robot" I told Shyriu and leen. The both nodded and ran off. Me and Elia stood blocking the way. Elia was a healer. She was once since she was little. And me? Only knew how to fight with knifes. "Go with them" Elia said "I'll told them off" I nodded and ran to go find them. I heard leen yelling at Shyriu to get down from the robot. My foot slipped i fell. I held onto the platform I heard people run in and get ready to shoot them. I looked up as i pulled myself up a little. Shyriu held Leen in his arms. The people shot them. I got myself up and ran over to them. I grabbed shyriu in my arms. Blood was everywhere. He coughed. "Twlight.." I brushed his hair away from his face. "Save your tears" I knew it. I was crying. "I'll come back" He said before he finally died in my arms. I looked over at leen. She was already gone. "You there!" yelled one of the guys who shot them. I kicked the guy off the platform and grabbed his gun. I amied it at the others "You bastards" I heard a clap come from the guys. Elia walked out. "Nice work men" She laughed. "Did..You do this?" I asked. She looked at leen and Shyriu. "If i can't have him..Then no one can" I shot her point blank. "Go to hell" One of the men ran off with her in their arms. I shot most of them I ran off after some were gone. I ran  as far as i could. They caught me. Took me to jail. And as i sit here. Thinking of life. I can't help but think..It's my fault. I closed my eyes. I looked out the tiny cell window. The stars. They remind me of him. A tear fell down my face.  i closed my eyes A knock came from the window. They broke it. It was a girl. "I can get you out of here" She held her hand out. I grabbed it. "I knew who Leen was. Big fan. I found Elia's old boyfriend." Boyfriend? She had one? She dragged me off to a grave yard. A guy was sitting by a grave on a hill. "How long was i there?" I asked the girl. "Two years"  I shook my head and took the gun from her hand. "Who is that guy?" I pointed to the guy at the grave. "Her boyfriend..Fenrir" I shot him. "Go before i shoot you" The girl backed away then ran off. I walked home. I opened the door. It was unlocked. Weird. He doesn't normally keep it unlocked. I walked into the kitchen. Vincent was sitting on a chair drinking his pain away again. "Twlight?" He said. He looked shocked. "Yeah..Got stuck in jail" He shrugged. "You have mail.." He pointed to a letter on a small desk. I walked over to it. I opened it. A letter..From Shyriu... "I'll love you forever, Twlight.. Even in death i will. I know i'll die first but..Hey whatvever" I started to cry. "I didn't read that..But it must have touched you.." vincent said. I ran upstairs and packed my bags. I grabbed a box from under my bed. Blue and pink hair dye. I dyed it. It looked like cotton candy. I ran back down the stairs. "Daddy..I gotta go" "Wait.." He said as he got up. "You look like you haven't aged..at all" He sighed. "There is something i gotta tell you before you go..When luci and i were together..She gave you something..That won't let you age unless you find your soul mate..You aged... because of shyriu..He was your soul mate.." A tear fell down my face. "Now go..My daughter.." I nodded and ran off into the woods. Forgetting my life forever