#maybe just keep this one to my self

[littleeyesofpallas]

Alright well I gave up on this idea quickly enough. So i'm not about to drag myself over glass trying to scribble out even loose designs for these guys... So i guess just have a big wall of text, broken up for readability by... images of more and bigger text...

Utterly unprompted by anything apart from vacuous boredom I tried to come up with sort of demi-fusions of shinigami and arrancar? Like turning shinigami characters' core persona into arrancar, but with just a tiny dash of an existing arrancar for flavor sort of shtick(?) and vice versa. There was no reason to impose this limitation on myself but I abide by it and made things more difficult for myself anyway... I've definitely done this kind of random exercise before with, like, DC✕Marvel(Amalgam comics) characters, and pokemon, and I dunno it's just kind of how Monster Rancher and Jade Cocoon work canonically... It's kind of just a preset mode my brain operates in some times, to absolutely no benefit to anyone... anyway here's a buncha bullshit

Yamamoto Genryuusai (✕Grimmjow Jaegerjaques)

Obviously the lazy choice would've been Yamamoto and Barragan so first order of business was to dodge that entirely. With this fusion, it maintains Yamamoto's oldness, boss status --in both Yamamoto's shogun status and Grimmjow's "emperor" status among his fraccion-- and by adding Pantera's big cat to Zanka-no-Tachi's sun motif the mix landed me at the resurreccion Nahui-Ocelotl[ナウィ・オセロット]. Kind of a weird way to kick it off as it's not actually spanish at all, but nahuatl for "Four Jaguars" paired with the kanji [第一の太陽]: "(The) First Sun" which is all just a direct point to Aztec mythology and the idea that the world was made and destroyed and remade several times over as marked in ages called colloquially called "suns" in English but all prefixed with "nahui-...": "Four..." in the native tongue, not the word for "sun". Each sun is named after how it ended (Jaguars, hurricanes, a rain of fire, flood, and earthquakes) The First Sun having ended when the god Tezcatlipoca commanded jaguars to eat all the human beings.

I have no idea what that really means for powers though... Obviously it gets to retain Yamamoto's whole "burn the earth to ash" vibe but with jaguars... Does he become jaguar? jaguar warrior?(which would line up with some real world aztec iconography) summon jaguars?(almost like starrk's los lobos?) does sword become jaguar? sword that shoots jaguars? who knows.

Sui-Feng (✕Nnoitra Gilga)

Avispón Gigante[アヴィスパ・ヒガンテ]: "Giant Hornet"/[雀蜂]: "Giant Hornet" literally just the same kanji as her original zanpakutou, because the suzumebachi is the name of the Vespa mandarinia. structurally kind of mirrors how Nnoitra's Santa Teresa is just the common name for the praying mantis. I'll admit, this one wasn't very clever of me, but I liked that they both had an insect sword and I liked imagining tallgirl Sui-feng, so that was just kind of enough... Admittedly, they do both have loosely adjacent superiority complexes centered around their fixation with a woman. We all know how that ended for Nnoitra, but it would be interesting to see Sui-feng's played out as a little more consequential and toxic.

I do like the idea of Sui-feng having a similar death sting power, but also being able to sprout extra arms and "swords" to sting with.

Unohana Retsu (✕Yammy Llargo)

Belladonna[ベラドンナ]: spanish name for the "deadly nightshade" but taken from Italian lit."beautiful lady"/[必殺美人]: "CertainKill(i.e. "Deadly") Beautiful Woman". I intended to name it something to the effect of "violent flower" but then I realized I could just name her after a literally deadly flower, and the Deadly Nightshade even has the same kind of bell flower shape as the 4th division flower insignia, so it just seemed like a good fit. Although I sorta lost any trace of Yammy's wrath gimmick in all of it.

I feel like she'd have a cool DeathDealing type power mixing the scaling power of Ira and the medical theme, but that just got me thinking about expanding this to Sternritter as well, and then I never came back to it... I have other faction fusion ideas but beyond this first set they get less and less detailed or even complete. I separated the three factions out into separate new drafts to save space. I might try to make the Espada as Captains bit presentable but the Sternitter one is more incomplete than not, and I don't see myself revisiting the brainstorming phase for it

Kuchiki Byakuya (✕Baraggan Luisenbarn)

Combining both their regal demeanors, their arrogance, their death/dying/fading motifs, and the Senbonzakura's cherryblossom imagery I got... Zempasuchiles[ゼンパスジュレス]: an alternate spelling of cempasúchil the name for "(Aztec)Marigolds" (I liked the way the alternate spelling sort of mirrored the truncated form of Sakura being Zakura) [死に十菊]: "Death(Dying) 20 Chrysanthemums" a play on shini[死に]: "dead/dying" the pun shi-ni[四二]: "four, two" and the fact that cempasúchil means "20 flower," and Cem-chil-Giku[センジュギク] being the Japanese name for cempasúchil, abbreviating it to just the first and last syllables, and appending -giku[ギク] from kiku[菊]: "chrystanthemum" in reference to both it and the marigold's phenotypical many layered petals. The marigolds are the flowers of the dead used in day of the dead decoration and ritual.

It'd be cool if it was similar to senbonzakura in that it manifests as a countless falling flower petals, but once they land on something they wither and whatever they've touched withers with them, like arrogante's aging respira.

Komamura Sajin (✕Coyote Starrk)

Using a mix of Komamura being estranged from his people and soul society and Stark's loner shtick, and of course both their wolf motifs, I got El Lobo Estepario[エル・ロボ・エステパリオ]: "The Steppenwolf" literally taken from the Spanish translation of the book Der Steppenwolf. And the kanji [荒野の狼]: "Wolf of the Wasteland" is just the Japanese translation of Der Steppenwolf. it's a bit of a lazy one, but Kubo phoned it in more than once, so I get a few freebies.

The Herman Hesse novel is btw about a neurotic middle aged playwrite grappling with his loneliness and unsociability, and what he sees as a conflict between his dignified and civilized social status and his yearning to indulge in more base and animal desires, a struggle characterized by the "wolf of the steppes", i.e. the steppe wolf, a breed of wolf known to be somewhat easily trained as guard dogs --tamed but never domesticated. It's a great timeless exploration of a neurotic self destructive man's struggle with his self image and place in society, very proto-incel shit.

I feel like it'd be cool to have a gimmick like Findorr where he has a break away mask. but instead of just getting more powerful he starts with full wolf bone armor but fights like a man, and the more of the wolf he breaks away the more feral his fighting style gets, until he's got no wolf mask left at all but he's fully devolved into animal fighting style.

Kyoraku Shunsui (✕Szayelaporro Granz)

Kind of a superficial link between these two just between Szayel's lust and Shunsui's womanizing. La Novia y Madrina[ラ・ノヴィア・イ・マドリナ]: "The Bride & Godmother" just sort of an obvious mexicanization of the visual themes already in play with Katen and Kyokotsu as spirits. [嫁姑戦争]: "bride and mother-in-law war" a Japanese term for the kind of common/stereotypical dynamic of a wife and her mother-in-law who do not get along, especially where the wife moves into the husband's family home with said in-law.

When I found this draft there wasn't even a section for any power ideas on this one.

Hitsugaya Toshiro (✕Ulquiorra Cifer)

Un Frio que Pela[ウン・フリオ・ケ・ペラ]: lit. "A Cold that Peels(the skin)" coloquially referring to uncomfortably cold weather. I thought it would make a neat cross between Hitsguaya's ice, no nonsense cold shoulder/frigid personality, and Ulquiorra's emotionless and unfeeling demeanor to try and work numbing cold into things somehow. I was messing with words for frostbite and hypothermia for a while when I came across this phrase. In buddhist naraka the mahapadma: "great lotus" is a layer of icy punishment where the condemned are made so cold that their skin cracks and splits open like the layered petals of a lotus into gory red blossoms --and it's where the Daiguren[大紅蓮]: "great red lotus" in Hyourinmaru's bankai comes from-- so a "skin peeling cold" felt like a perfect fit. For kanji I went with [摩訶鉢特摩] which is just the kanji for aforementioned mahapadma, japanized as makahadoma[まかはどま].

I think i mentioned something similar just headcanoning junk about the sternritter in wahrwelt, but I still think a cool way to handle cold powers would be entirely passive, where the domain just gets cold and keeps getting colder, so while the user is maybe conjuring something simple like ice swords or spears/icicles the real damage being done is wearing the enemy down with the cold, making them number and slower the longer the fight drags out.

Zaraki Kenpachi (✕Tier Harribel)

I was gonna go for something about hungry sharks or hunters, but given Nozarashi's weathering theme and Tier's supposed death theme of being a sacrifice I settled on Desollado[デソッラド]: "Skinned." It felt like a fun way to go as it evokes Zaraki's fight with Unohana, but also points to the aztec god Xipe Totec's epithet, "Our Flayed Lord" as he is something of a martyr, having flayed himself alive to give food to mankind. He is also portrayed as a red skinned (i mean it seems obvious that that's, like, exposed bloody red muscle and tendons) god of war which suits Zaraki's unnamed bankai. Oh right and [皮剥我主]: "My/Our Skinned Lord" obviously just the Japanese translation of Xipe Totec's common epithet.

As a power it'd be cool if the sum total of wounds dealt by Desollado make it stronger, so that as a fun twist they can turn their sword on themselves and gain power boosts that way.

Kurotsuchi Mayuri (✕Zommari Leroux)

A little on the nose, but I was trying to dodge the most obvious fit being Szayel. El Hechicero[エル・エッチセロ]: "The Sorcerer"/. But given some of the spanish etymology, there's some play on the "artificial" buried in there. I don't know that that reads at all in actual spanish but between the options i had it felt like justification enough to pick on word over the others. I like that even though I was trying to dodge Szayel, I managed to stumble into the Japanese phonetics for H[エッチ] in there anyway, so there's still some perv energy floating around. [誤魔法使] mashing together [誤魔化す]: "to deceive/cheat/swindle" and [魔法使]: "magic user," so it reads something like "false magic user," which feels appropriate for a technician type character with a science over magic disposition.

it would be cool to have a lot of gimmicky deceptive techniques like having different kinds of body doubles, either kido-like illusions, after images, or body doubles like Urahara's balloon dummies only he uses them in random ways so that counters to one method don't work on the others, and eh just kind of plays a shell game with them all. I didn't bother brainstorming a whole repertoire of Mayuri level gadgets and gimmicks

Ukitake Juushiro (✕Aaroniero Arleri)

Los Piscis Tragón[ロス・ピッシス・トラゴン]: "The Greedy Pisces." Kanji, [殺人魚群] "School of Piranha," mashing up [殺人魚] for "Piranha," and [魚群] "school of fish." If it wasn't obvious it's a play on Aaroniero's hunger and Ukitake's multiple fish. Honestly my impulse was use Tier at first and to make shark and natural order into a food chain thing, but it felt a little redundant in terms of aquatic motifs. I feel like there's something to be done with Ukitake's chronic illness and Aaroniero being two heads in a jar, but I dunno what exactly...

It feels a little too simple but my first thought was just to have little los lobos style cero fish fly around him and the more spirit energy he absorbs the more fish he makes. he can basically swallow kidou attacks whole, and take big bites out of his enemies(or allies) sort of like Szayel with his fraccion, but then also spit up new cero fish to add to his growing school. And the fish of course can chase enemies around, do the smart missile thing and dodge around stuff rather having to just fire in a straight line, and jump in the way to take hits, or kamikaze bomb enemies.

So then I got in my head for some reason to mash together the three traitors and the privaron.(also I never did determine an actual 1-10 order for these espada, other than YamamotoGrimmjow being #1(or i guess #0?) so feel free to roll some ideas around in your head and let me know what you think their ranks should be)

Aizen Sosuke(✕Gantenbein Mosqueda)

Espejo Humeante[��スペホ・ウーミアンテ]: "Smoking Mirror" another referece to aztec mythology, the epithet of Tezcatlipoca, itself describing reflective obsidian. [誤煙魔鏡]: "Misleading Smokedemon Mirror" from the word gomakasu[誤魔化す] meaning to "decieve/cheat/swindle" and the kanji for smoke and mirror, both referencing Tezcatlipoca's epithet and the English phrase, "smoke and mirrors" referring to tools of misdirection used in stage magic.

obviously leans a lot more heavily on Aizen than on Gantenbein, but I liked the idea that the dragon thing lends the smoke aspect to Aizen's mirror. I imagine the powers aren't too different from Kyoka Suigetsu's fake power if you just replace mist with smoke.

Ichimaru Gin(✕Cirucci Sanderwicci)

Destrozado(de culebra)[デストロザド]: "torn apart (Snake)" a play on the snake being torn apart by the eagle on the mexican flag. I wasn't sure if having snake in the name was too much or too obvious --a lot of these have been a little too involved on the spanish end of things compared to how many of kubo's are pretty straightforward, one word names-- and there was something kind of evocative about having just the vague subject in just "torn apart." Oh but the kanji [綻蝮]: "ripped(apart) viper" turned out is the same word for "torn apart" that BBS used in Gin's beyond bankai finisher. Funny coincidence, that. There's some stuff about the indigenous symbolism of the eagle as it related to the sun and the rattle snake in opposition that sort of suits Gin's role in opposition to Aizen, but I'll admit I wasn't ready to try too hard to make that fit any closer than that.

Didn't get around to making a power for this one.

<I guess I never decided on kanji for this one... There was nothing in the rest of the pile of notes anyhow. But as a result I also never made a little title card like the rest.>

Kaname Tousen(✕Dordoni Alessandro del Socaccio)

Veleta is a different spanish word meaning "weathercock" (as opposed to Dordoni's Giralda) but this one can apparently be used as a sland to describe someone who frequently changes their mind or sides (i.e. "a traitor") so it felt like a serendipitous fit for Tousen what with his betrayal of Komamura and SS, but also his vow to turn on Aizen if he ever thought he'd strayed, only for him to regret it all on his deathbed. There's the temptation to just give him Dordoni's dance fighting, but that feels a little eye-rollingly cliche, even though it's not like he's just Eddy Gordo.

Powers wise it would kind of neat to give him a power sort of similar to Shinji's, only instead of distorting perception of directions, just physically spinning someone around against their will. So one minute they're charging and in the blink of an eye they're suddenly facing the wrong way.

well, that's all for this block of characters. we'll see if i can mine anything postable out of the Espada as Gotei 13 captains notes I left behind, but that batch is even spottier than these were. The Sternritters I'll post never though. It was just a list of existing Sternritters where 2/3 didn't have a second half, and then bits of me not being able to figure out whether I wanted to merge them with shinigami, or espada, or a mix of fullbringers and visored, or if i wanted to go back and scrap the Espada as Shinigami one so that I could do a little musical chairs bit and make it Shinigami-Espada, Espada-Sternritter, and Sternritter-Shinigami.

[mohntilyet]

illario + lucanis growing up together means a lot for obvious reasons ofc like the fact they did not have to go through the dellamorte villa torment nexus alone really helps. immediately from the moment they are taken to that house, lucanis has had something to protect and love. the snark and jokes that they share in wigmaker job finally having a chance to shine outside of the only person lucanis is socialised with and he learns that wow, he's actually likable. because up until this point everyone around him calls him a demon and is freaked out by him but ofc the veilguard only know him as lucanis "he banished harding from the kitchen" dellamorte. sure he's a big bad crow assassin but his reputation simply does not carry that much weight with people who are just equally deranged (maybe a de riva rook but that's also a little different) . and then he's able to share and extend that love with his new friends, and able to try being something that he's not had the chance to before, and his goodness is actively encouraged rather than being an unfortunate sidequest that is tolerated. and i fondly think also of how much of that humor is copied and mirrored off illario ("shoulders....... feeling tight...... need a ..... MASSAGE!") and it's his best experiences with illario that turned him into the man he is. wish the game explored this just a little more because the betrayal would have been made a lot more intense if they had just bothered to show any of illario's redeeming qualities. he has them!!!!! nobody is just born a traitor. you have to love someone before they can become that.

[anachronismstellar]

I'm here again, this time to further the MQF/SQH agenda!

And I'm happy to help the MQF/SQH agenda fjshskdjsk :D

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Mu Qingfang had no idea how he got there, all he knew is that when he blinked he had walked all the way to An Ding Peak, hand up in the air, ready to knock on Shang Qinghua's private quarters.

In his defense, it had been one of those days... For the past weeks. And today it seemed that the Heavens decided to test all his skills, only to deem him unworthy.

He considered leaving, now that he had woken up from his haze, but the Heavens intervined once more, apparently. The door opened slowly, and a sleepy Shang Qinghua blinked at him looking like a dream, his outer robe open, revealing the silk of his inner shirt and pants.

"Mu-shidi?" He asked as he opened the door fully for the other get inside. Mu Qingfang hesitaded, considering his options, an excuse ready on his lips. But the final blow came in the form of a hug, strong arms picking him up, their bodies melting as two soft candles burned out by long nights.

"I head about the attack," Shang Qinghua said he walked them towards his room, gently laying the doctor on the unmade bed, kneeling next to him to help with his boots. "Here's what we are going to do. Are you with me?"

Mu Qingfang nodded, even though he might not being entirely truthful, focusing on Shang Qinghua's voice to ground himself.

"Good. I'm going to make us some tea, the good lavender blend you like," Shang Qinghua said as he got rid of the first two layers of Mu Qingfang clothing, pulling a heavy blanket over him, the weight making Mu Qingfang sigh with relief. "Then you're going to eat and sleep. Sounds like a good plan?"

Again Mu Qingfang nodded, blinking as his glasses were carefully taken from his face and left on the small table next to the low bed. After that came off the pins in his hair, Shang Qinghua's hands combing it until all the knots were gone, scratching Mu Qingfang's scalp here and there.

"Good. Take a nap, I won't be long," Shang Qinghua whispered and Mu Qingfang didn't need to hear it twice. He didn't actually sleep, body too wired to let go without anyone there to wake him in case of trouble, but he was able to lull himself into a meditation state, focusing on his breathing and heart beat.

His mind wandered, eyes closed, the smell of ink permeating the bed mixed with the scent of Shang Qinghua’s bitter tea. He made a mental note to pull his ear for drinking it too much, chuckling when the memory of his first time he had to scold Shang Qinghua came to his mind.

It had been just another afternoon, and technically it was supposed to be just another mission. But as a Head Disciple, Mu Qingfang was starting to learn that nothing was "just a" or "normal" when certain disciples were involved.

"So explain to me again," He held back a sigh, because sighing in front of a patient was unprofessional and made things harder for him in the long run. "You were responsible for a delivery of-"

"Two, one for Zui Xian Peak and-"

"Two deliveries, right." And this time was impossible for him to hold back his sigh. Honestly, this guy had his brain scattered all over the place, how he didn't end up in his office before was a miracle. "Two deliveries, one of Jasmine tea and another of- What's the name again?"

The An Ding disciple shuffled his feet as he looked everywhere but Mu Qingfang's face, a drop of sweat running down his cheek even though outside the winds of Autumn were already strong enough for him to force a ban on sword flying for the next weeks.

"Uh. Tiger Lilies?" the other said with a weak laugh, picking on his nails as he finally had the courage to look Mu Qingfang in the eye, warm brown almost vanishing under the size of his dilated pupils. "But then I ran into Qi Qingqi-shiji and she had to have tea delivered immediately because of a party and-"

"And between one delivery and the other you mixed the parcels and-"

"And I kinda gave the Jasmine tea to Qi Qingqi-shiji, the other tea to Zui Xian Peak and-"

"And you brew some Tiger Lilies tea for yourself."

It was Shang Qinghua's time to sigh as he pressed both hands against his eyes, his shoulders sagging under the embarrassment he must be feeling.

It happened to all of them at some point, no need to shame. But to be hit with an aphrodisiac for the first time because you mixed up the delivery order?

Yea it was a bit embarrassing.

"Here's what we are going to do," Mu Qingfang got up from his low chair to check his cabinet for all the things they would need, picking up some bottles. "I'm going to prepare the room, and I'm going to help you out. Then you're going to drink proper tea and eat, and rest for at least two days, got it?"

The fever must be picking up, because all that Shang Qinghua could do was nod, licking his dry lips as he stared at the bottles on Mu Qingfang table. For a second he seemed terrified, and it crossed Mu Qingfang's mind that- this might be his first time.

He felt bad, scratching his head as the considered if it was a good idea to ask. The poor guy already looked so stressed, Heavens, should he offer to call someone else?

"This one- This one appreciates Mu-shixiong offer, but I know you must be tired, you don't-!"

"Shang-shidi," he interruped the other with a wave of his hand, cutting off that nonsense by the root. "You don't need to worry about me, I'm here to help you, I won't stand here and watch you suffer-"

"No! No, I know, Mu-shixiong is a good person, and I know you care about us all, even when we make dumb mistakes I- Uh. I just-"

The compliment made Mu Qingfang pause, surprised that the other had such high esteem for him. He thought they had met just a few times?

"- so, I think, maybe I could take care of it by taking care of you?!"

The hushed sentence made no senses for a long while, Mu Qingfang trying to process what in the all realms was the other talking about. And his confusion as plain to see, because Shang Qinghua took a deep breath and started explaining again, blushing all the way up to his hair, picking on his nails again.

"I mean, Mu-shixiong is kind and I've seen how you treat everyone and- I also know this is your third night shift so you must be tired, so I was thinking, maybe, since I have all this energy and Shixiong- Not that you won't be able to handle your duties! I know you are a strong cultivator, I just thought-"

"Yes," Mu Qingfang answered half to spare them the embarrassment of the situation, half because-

Holy shit when was the last time someone wanted to take care of him? And what a sad truth, but a truth one nonetheless.

"I mean, if makes you more comfortable, o-of course." he quickly corrected himself, trying to ignore his own sweaty palms and the heat climbing up his neck.

Memory mixed up with reality as Shang Qinghua kissed him on the forehead like he did for the first time so many years ago, making Mu Qingfang smile as he forced himself to stay in the moment, humming as Shang Qinghua kisses went all the way down his face until he got a peck on the lips.

"Feeling better?" Qinghua asked, to which Mu Qingfang nodded, still not entirely ready to speak. "Good, come on, I've stolen some cake from Shen-shixiong, they're really good."

It took him a moment to be able to stand, but slowly and surely he walked, Shang Qinghua's arm a comforting presence on his waist, his blabling a soothing white noise.

And just like that Mu Qingfang let himself go, allowing someone to be there for him for some time.

[solarpunkani]

"Oh no, someone's attracted to the aesthetics of my -punk movement but doesn't know the praxis and history behind it like I do--"

OK. Tell them. Make it a teaching moment. Everyone who's in your movement learned the background from somewhere at some point, maybe this is that point for that person. Give them a jumping off point that they can dive into later.

"Oh but I shouldn't be responsible for teaching baby -punks about the history and the how-tos and--"

OK. Then don't tell them. You don't have to be responsible for teaching people with a budding interest in your group the ins and outs and how-tos. That's fair and valid! It can be a lot of work. Someone else will handle it

"But I'm annoyed that they would try to claim to be part of/be interested in my community without knowing all the details that I know after being in it for months/years/decades, they're dumb, they're posers, they're--"

OK. Then don't engage with them, if it's that bad. Maybe someone else will come around and tell them the history, maybe they'll pick it up on their own, maybe they'll just enjoy the fashion elements for awhile.

"But they shouldn't claim to be part of the -punk community if they don't know the--"

I feel like we have a few options here. People can either talk to them, share the history, share the values, share the praxis. Or they can just chase off anyone who even thinks about dipping a toe in their community, and then wonder why it's dying off later down the line.

I dunno, maybe I'm too naive and patient or whatever. But if people are entering your -punk spaces without knowing The Rundown of what you feel they need to know, maybe being nice about it and informing people instead of immediately assuming stupidity and malicious intent could help you make a new friend. Even the loudest voices in a space had to learn from somewhere, and not everyone has the luxury of being in the space as the History was Happening--whether it's an age thing or a not being aware of the space thing. Or maybe I just don't see what the big deal is behind people hating people who like the aesthetic of something and don't know the behind the scenes history about it yet.

Because I believe in the word 'yet.' No one comes into this world knowing everything about everything, and we're all constantly learning new things. I'm not gonna degrade someone and call them a poser for not knowing what I know. Because if it were me, interested in a scene but getting chased out and called a poser? I wouldn't hit the books and study up, I'd go 'that fuckin sucks, those people sucked' and then avoid anyone and anything having to do with it.

So chase people off and call them posers if you want. But if your community starts dwindling, don't be fucking shocked.

[spagheddiesquash]

jawfizz doodles… actually maybe ill work on that ship name idk if i like the name i said.. anyway i mentioned before that my plan was to ship fizz with jawbone and so thats what i did!! never drawn anything like this before but im really liking how it turned out :^DDD

liked this? maybe u want to see more?? i dunno. but anyway if you liked it feel free to reblog!!

tracked time + kinda crappy bonus doodle under the cut

tracked time:

(do keep in mind this is elapsed. it really took me the past 3 days, on and off)

bonus doodle:

(i used up all my good art juices coloring the doodle sheet so unfortunately this one is noticeably not as good of quality. i at least got the idea down tho!!)

[mblue-art]

out w these tall clowns 🌲🌸

[kamabokobun]

I’m gonna be honest. I’ve been thinking so hard about the zonai I've kind of forgotten about everything else that happens/is in botw/totk😭😭

[midnight-mismanagement]

I think it would be funny if in season 2 it becomes a running gag of Vox sending spies to the hotel who just end up captured into the net of found family and friendship and become part of the clientele and Vox doesn’t get why he keeps losing contact with them (and assumes Alastor probably killed them) until one day Charlie comes to personally thank him for bringing her so many souls for rehabilitation and for believing in her cause and Vox just. Doesn’t know what is happening. And short circuits.

[skunkes]

i loooove when ocs unrealized development makes them feel like real people like no i dont know whether talon is genuinely attracted to women after years of both clinging to them for safety and years of putting them onto that untouchable idealized Perfect Protector Pedestal that must remain untainted by any bad experiences, so he doesn't even try to Be With any. He doesn't know either

[pizzadatez]

listen idk how many people can relate to this but i can't stop thinking abt. f/os that are touchy without even realizing it.

like !!! they always have an arm slung around your shoulder , or a hand placed on your back , or sometimes their fingers will barely graze over you because your presence is just so magnetizing to them. whenever you sit next to them there's a slow shift as they lean into you, gradually, maybe snaking a hand over yours or settling their head against your arm ...

... but then the moment anyone calls attention to it they're confused. maybe they'll be hanging out with a colleague or you'll just bring it up in random conversation , but when someone points it out they have to pause and self-reflect. me ? touchy ?? what are you talking about. when did this happen. (as if they haven't been non-stop holding your hand for the past 30 minutes)

[nyatbinary-81]

@vulpixisananimal sifstem art jumpscare!! more specifically i got bored and decided to mess around with sif and mal's outfits.

[deus-ex-mona]

oh mona ft. lxl shikishi how i miss you so…

[volivolition]

wiggles my fingers at you ouuuu… you want to tell me about solace so bad…

HKJGG wiggles my fingers back lovingly!!! i really do, i fuckin LOVE solace :3 hey did you know i really like making fake skill descriptions?

SOLACE

Follow the north star. Find light in even the darkest places. Cool for: Optimists, Recovering lost souls, Sweet summer children

Solace is the skill you tucked away long ago, at the bottom of Pandora's box. The little one that tells you: despite it all, there is still hope. It needs a lot of nurturing -- and it's far from being the most helpful for police work -- but taking care of it is basically self-care. It enables you to find the glow in yourself that you often ascribe to gold lungs or brilliant halos in others. It encourages you to wake up and watch the sunrise, to play board games with someone you love, to forgive yourself and let yourself be a gentler kind of animal. Constantly looking forward to a brighter future, it also helps shield your morale from damage.

At high levels, Solace gives you a heightened sense of childlike optimism - which isn't always the sense to lead with in this precariously harsh world. Always looking for the bright side will blindside you with naivety. At low levels, however, you may just extinguish whatever keeps your soul alight. You've already lost her once. You may not survive the desolation if you let her disappear again.

[soup-is-here]

Mouthwashing Spoilers

TW: Addiction and Self Harm

I wanna go on about Swansea's final monologue but it's hard to put into words, but I'm gonna try anyways cause it's a short, but strong story about autonomy again. This post ended up significantly longer than I wanted though

It's the autonomy to choose the "less healthy" option because it's appealing to you. It's the moral assignment to normality and stability. An alcoholic is an alcoholic by choice, technically, but do they owe us otherwise? Is it morally reprehensible to enjoy taking LSD at a party? Should we see someone as less than because they relax with a xanax instead of a hot shower? It's not healthy. We know that. We've seen anti-drug ad after ad after ad. But is that the part that's morally wrong, in and of itself? Does enjoying the drugs and chaos make Swansea a worse person?

Like him talking about his entire life and ending it by saying between the "stable" "normal" life and him waking up every morning with a new hangover, he preferred the latter. People always talk about getting clean and fixing their lives and Swansea did it! He did the thing "good men" do! A wife and kids and a trade job and sobriety! He was doing it! He was finally "worth" something!

And he hated it! I mean I don't know if he actually hated/despised it, but he misses his previous life. He misses drugs and partying and living like you might not wake up the next day. He said the thing that changed him was seeing himself dead in a ditch under the bright beam of a streetlight. Now he's looking down the barrel of a gun. And as he looks down it, he looks back. That was his preference. It felt good to be like that. And he wouldn't be here if he stayed there

We always have a narrative about drugs or gambling or sleeping around where a person suddenly realizes that they aren't "doing anything" with their life and becomes stable and it's always played like addiction is a false pleasure. Swansea got to the stability people said would be the real pleasure of life and that just wasn't true for him. One bad paycheck could've been the difference between his stable life and falling apart anyways. His lifestyle was going to kill him someday apparently, yet he's staring down the barrel of a gun at his steady trade job to feed his wife and kids.

I don't know quite how to word it but Swansea is the poster child for rehabilitation. There's this weight to him saying his alcoholic period was the best time of his life. Like it just hits at that pang that makes people wear DARE shirts while smoking weed and post those videos of smoking 100 cigarettes at once. Anti-vaping ads tell you about the damage they do to your body but everyone knows that already. Everyone knows "this is what your brain looks like on drugs." I smoke medical marijuana and it isn't good for my lungs but it's good for my pain. Doing drugs isn't good for me and I know that and that's sorta the point sometimes.

I don't know it's just this weird pang where I know what Swansea means, just not to nearly the same extent. I don't have an addiction so I don't think I could fully understand it. Maybe a better thing I could relate it to for myself is self harm. It's not healthy sure, but who do I owe health? Myself? Other people? And what is healthy? Is it feeling better now? Is it resisting now and feeling worse for it until it stops? What if the coping skills I learn make it worse? What if they make it better? Do I want it to get better? Does Swansea want to get better? What would better feel like to either of us?

Who knows until you try. Swansea got a collared shirt, a mortgage, and a credit card. He got a job and a wife and kids. He got sober. He got healthier, depending on your definition.

But did he feel better? He's looking down a barrel of a gun and he has to decide if he feels better. It doesn't seem like he regrets his new life. He says he wants his kids to be better than him. He wants good things to happen for them. He saw himself as one bad slip away from falling again. I don't think he felt better though. I think he got healthier. He likely would've ended up in the ditch he dreamt about, but we don't know that. We also don't know if that's what he'd prefer. But, we do know he got healthier, depending on your definition.

[astrolotte]

Genuinely intrigued by the potential of Peri and Irep's dynamic but only in a platonic way so I end up not vibing with the fandom's portrayal of it 😔😔😔

(No but listen LISTEN they were kinda-almost-friends when we last saw them in FOP, yeah? Now they're enemies, with both actively fighting each other, and Irep going so far as to try and kill Peri's parents. What happened? When? What influenced it? Did they ever become friends, or did it nosedive the moment the cameras turned off? What about Sammy? How do Irep's parents factor into this? Could it ever be fixed? There's just so much we haven't seen, and romance just feels like too easy a solution to me. Let their friendship be easy to break, fragile. Let them have to work to keep the connection. Fairies and Anti-Fairies are literally made to be opposites, so what happens when two genuinely and truly become friends?)

((and yeah I guess a lot of this could factor into a romantic angle but ALAS the fandom seems to be leaning heavily into the funny toxic yaoi angle 😔 I don't mind it! By all means, please have your very harmless fun! But it ain't my jam :P Perhaps I'll have to write a oneshot myself...))

(((see tags for more rambles i guess. whoops a bitch spoke too much in there as he always does)))

[shima-draws]

Slamming my head against the wall god fucking DAMMIT I'm so in love with Sanlu I am GOING to explode.