#maybe its bc im getting out of an episode but im bouncing off the walls w the amt of ppl i wna write

[tailorbirds]

ooc: toying w the idea of making a multimuse blog..

[usertoxicyaoi]

Hey Faiza, what were your thoughts about the Enchanté finale? For most of the episode, my heart was hurting and I cried a few times, but omg, there were so many beautiful and touching moments. The way I sobbed when I finished the episode because despite all they went through, Akk and Theo came out stronger in the end. Goes to show that when two people are made for each other, nothing can stop them from going back to each other (omg I started tearing up while typing this WHATS WRONG WITH ME) UGHHHH the way I don’t think I’ve ever felt this much fondness over a show — I’m gonna miss it and them so much!

hiiii anon!!!

see. i livewatched the finale and then i gave it a few hours and then i watched it again. and ive realised that livewatching ..... is a very emotionally heightening experience (my emotions were BOUNCING off the walls i was all over the place) and that after i gave it a few hours and rewatched it at my own pace, it just felt .... a little less intense and i understood it a lot more.

i already Knew we'd get theo going back to france and a timelapse. i'd called that even before the finale aired, so i was 100000% ready and expecting that.

the scene that HIT me was theo looking out of the car window and akk standing there and that paralleling back to their childhood. i DID NOT need that, lmaooo. i was just as much of a wreck when i rewatched the finale as to how much i was when i livewatched it.

another scene i LOVED that huuuuurt was akk on the stairs tryna blink away his tears whilst just a wall away from him theo was in his room doing the same too. i think that just. really. epitomised them in a nutshell. how they're both so hungry and so in love with one another and thats their selfish desire bc they would rather be together anywhere in the world but they both will be just as selfless about that same love too.

and. god. theo ACKNOWLEDGING how he was scared to tell akk the reason why he went back to france. bc he didnt want akk to wait on him again, despite knowing akk will. i always say how akk knows theo so so well, but theo? knows akk just as well too. and i think theo realised just how much emotional baggage he really carries and how emotionally damaged and scarred he really is in that scene and how itd be so selfish of him to ask akk for anymore. and that was his moment of growth!!! i think people dont realise that when you're an only child and your entire home just ..... breaks down .... (and theo even said that his house was gonna get sold too) ... the psychological impact that has. apart from akk, he has NOTHING else left in thailand anymore. not even his house he was born in made of bricks and cement, in the physical sense.

would that make akk feel guilty? would that play on akk's mind? that the only reason theo is here is bc of me?? of course it would. and thats where im comes in.

as a Big Asian Sister myself, i GOT where she came from. she used reverse psychology, something that i do with my little siblings alllll the time to try and get them to do and think the opposite of what they are doing or thinking. if my sister has an exam tomorrow and she isnt studying, instead of telling her to go and study, i just tell her "yeah you keep playing genshin impact and then wonder why you failed your exam tomorrow". its. i GOT it when she was tryna tell akk that maybe its about how its time now that you need to take that step to overcome your fears for yourself. you Know you want theo, so go and get him and make a better life for yourself. if theo has been selfish (in the sense of his desires in he just wanting akk) and akk has been selfless (in the sense that he's always made sure that theo was happy) throughout the entire show, then it was so nice to see theo being selfless (by not making akk wait anymore or dragging him into this will he/when will he come back??) and akk being selfish (doing what he had to bc he wanted theo and taking those steps and measures to realise he wasnt confident in who he was before but he is a little more bc of his hard work to get to where he is now). the subtle nod we got into them self-introspecting and self-developing was so nice!! given the show was only 10 eps!!! so i cant even imagine if it did have 12 eps as per usual, we would have seen a little more too! but even then, i'm satisfied, bc i can do a bit of brain work and realise what they were implying.

and to just. KNOW. that they're together! and they can go back to thailand whenever for however long and then go back to france whenever for however long or go anywhere!!! whenever!! for however long!!! and through all of space and time its only ever been them two for each other!!! there's just so so so much love there. soooooo much love. and even time after when they kiss its still the same. its still desperate and they hold each other so ... close, still so desperately and when they hug its so warm and comforting and tight and searing, just like how they cuddled in theo's bed.

and they're 2 grown adults now that are working towards their own dreams so diligently for themselves at the same time too! how realistic! i'm so pleased we got to see the emphasis on that!!

and they're engaged!!!!!!! of course they are!!!! of course they plan to spend the rest of their lives together!! and i know some people said that akktheo havent communicated enough for them to be agreeing to marriage just yet. but its not like theyre gonna get married the next day. i think they just. they Know. that if they were to marry, its that they both will, to each other, someday, and that the proposal was the last act of devotion to one another for us to see. theyre gonna spend time, PROPER LENGTHY time, as boyfriends and fiances, and someday when the time feels right, they'll go from best friends > boyfriends > fiances > husbands, and commit.

and so i feel like. even though their story is complete, it just feels like. yeah. we're a special episode away from it being fully finished. and who knows, man. maybe we will get it someday.

but yeah. i just. i'm biased. i love them. i love forcebook. what can i do? i'm force here squishing book's cheeks as a an act of showing how endearing i find them. they have my whole heart and i cant WAIT to see whats next for them.

[survivekohsai]

Episode 5 - I Just Want To Go Chill On The Beach With My Friends ~ Quillynn

THIS TRIBE IS FUCKING UGLY OH MY GOD  IM GONNA SCREAM. *screams* dana Im going to kill you and yes I blame dana for everything. Anyone, putting me on a tribe IN THE MINORITY  and on a tribe with ryan of all people... well might as well just dig my grave now. Like rest in peace regan. May 28th, 1998- October 2nd 2017 rip

I'm glad this is happening. We have the comp beasts besides Regan on our side, AND we also have Akito. So it's tit for tat. Hopefully we can have some Yala tribe alliance going. However, I like Jackson. He's seems really nice. Also Jordan can go because he hates us all so bye. And why did Ry block Akito? I now love that they mutinied.

wow i mutiny'd, blocked this whole tribe, didn't use my idol and still stayed during tribal. lol 

So I talked big during the voting confessionals. AND GUESS WHO JOINS!!! Bryce... AINT THAT NICE but tbh i talk big yet i cant help myself but now I have to lie about certain people because i need to build trust and relationships.

I swear to god if they send Jordan Means to Exile im quitting because people should want him gone ASAP!!!! He's a target in everyone's radar and if he makes it to the end like god almighty it's like Drew All over again.

*clap* I hope we win!

Okay havent done one of these since the swap but here goes. I am not happy with this swap because even tho i have raf as an ally im not really liking not being with richie and regan seeing as how they actually do well in challenges. Luckily the other tribe still has a bunch of inactives but regan and richie have shown in the past that they can solo carry a chalenge so im worried. Especially since trixie wanted to go to exile and then wouldnt let us send regan. i was away at the time and it sucks because i really think we should have sent regan or richie so they couldnt compete instead of quinlynn who idk if they are really playing. Luckily the challenge is something im not bad at so maybe I'll do well. Plus we did  win reward by a landslide so maybe the other tribe will bring regan and richie down. speaking of the reward i think some people like erased their names last minute which is sus but w/e!! We still won. But im looking to make something with jackson and raf because i like them both and maybe rtp but i feel like raf and him wont work together idk?

Im going to miss kelsey and linus but fuck regan and jordan lol! I don’t even care game wise i just want to go chill on the beach with my friends~

The curse is broken!!!! Final 13 and possible Merge is coming!!

Hi I'm Jackson and this is my fifth confessional.

I'm not going to to tribal!! Thanks to a tribe swap that basically gutted old Rayong (leaving only me and Akito left), new Rayong won reward AND immunity and THEN we gained Quillynn from a mutiny! this is the best shit ever because now Ryan and Jordan (who i don't want to play with) are stuck on a losing tribe with Regan (who I've heard can be temperamental) and it's going to drive them up the wall. Hopefully Jordan's wasted idol play will come back to bite him and he'll get voted out because I would still prefer that Kelsey and Linus survive. Anyway I've gotten to know pretty much everyone on the new tribe except for Eric and Ryan T., who seem nice but haven't really been responsive to me except for in the group chat. If we lose, I'd kinda like to see one of them go but to be honest I'd be fine with riding a series of wins until the merge. Okay bye I'm procrastinating too much

i hate..... everything i was on a tribe that didnt lose a single challenge, i didnt have any 1 on 1 private conversations or relationships with anyone on the tribe but we all got along well and had worked well as a group so i was satisfied.... then yall swap and now im on a tribe of 7 where 5 of the people were from the flop tribe so not only am i in the minority but i'm in the minority where the majority was on a tribe that couldnt win a challenge to save their lives so unsurprisingly we lost this immunity and now its time for tribal with people who ive never talked to :) :) :) quillynn mutinied so thats one less person to have to worry about but still it could easily be a 4 vs 2 vote and the 1 person from my original tribe is regan who i love dearly shes truly one of the most iconic people of all time but in my list of people who are reliable game strategists i can count on to come up with plans and bounce ideas off of shes not necessarily someone i can do that with...... i did talk to Ryan a little bc we were on the same starting tribe before he mutinied so i got some light tea from him regarding the dynamics of the other tribe and he said that the alliances on the pther side were a 5 person alliance of akito, Jackson, quillynn, Kelsey and linus versus tyler, isaac and jordan.... tyler and isaac are gone so jordan stands alone from that minority group + its kinda weird that quillyn mutinied onto a tribe where original yala has the numbers especially since she was on a tribe with linus and kelsey who ryan said she was in an alliance with????  but maybe shes closer to akito and jackson + the other tribe is full of the people who kept winning challenges so idk but regardless idk whats going to go down for this vote but im annoyed that im on a tribe with a bunch of people who suck and im miserable

I AM A CHALLENGE GOD!! NO MATTER WHAT TRIBE IM ON I WILL BE INVINCIBLE BET EVERYONE WANTS TO BE ME HUH. jk omg im so glad to be on this tribe thats winning. people joining this tribe? not cool.... hope Q is nice tho. I feel like jackson is a threat tbh but like im gonna idol myself and vote him when we lose so watch out

I don't even know what to say. Tribe swap, sure, now that Akito and Jackson are both gone, I'm stuck with an angry Jordan, an unsure Linus, Quill who's just...THERE and these new people. Richie seems very close to me and I do feel confident talking with him and then there's Regan...girl. I feel very shaky around Regan. She's hit or miss, and when she misses, she misses pretty badly...but eh, I'll work with what I've got. Now, going into the tribal, it would be spectacularly easy to vote out Quill because of her absences but I'm the LAST person to judge on that area so...it's hard. Now that Jordan is rather distant from me, I could easily vote him out but I really do want to be in the end of the game with him and I want us to do as swell as possible. Out of everyone...I don't know. I'd rather vote for Ryan. But GOD. I have been to FIVE. BLOODY. ELIMINATIONS. IN A ROW. Geez LOUISE, I hate that this is happening. Girl, I'll do whatever it takes to get the crown, don't get me wrong...but WHY is this HAPPENING?!? I can't keep doing this...I really can't. My tribe has GOT to pull it together. It's testing me, I'm really ready to just go off on everyone for their lack of trying. I know that I TURNED this last immunity out so...WHAT'S the tea??? I just hope that I will just get a week to SIT and RELAX with these people. Because currently, there's no time to talk about life, we have to cut hookers WEEK after WEEK and it's...tiring. Girl, I can't even tell you where I'm going this week. Hopefully, straight back to camp. Let's give it everything we got.... *sigh* And THAT'S all there is to it~! W-We've got to win eventually...right? -Kelsey V Mikaelson

I am glad we won the challenge because honestly, I didn't really know my position in the tribe and whether or not I could be a target. Everyone seems so social and I wouldn't be surprised that most of them are in alliances without me.

I am happy Quillynn is back with us? But also I feel like I have to stick with Jackson's Alliance... despite me wanting to make moves but looking at how this game goes on forward. Trixie/Regan alliance is far more powerful then us. So if Linus and Kelsey are still here to the end, I may have to betray Quillynn and Jackson at that time. I hope I can make it through. 

hi im happy to be on a tribe with jackson and quil. boba tea + fish has arrived!!

So what the fuck do i even have to talk about...havent lost a fucking challenge yet which is awesome...and now ppl are mutinying to us...its getting interesting...im still being the old gramps and no one is even talking to me...but we will see how this goes lmfao

I hope these people vote me out because I don't like them and I threw the challenge because I don't like them.

Here's your confessional stop blowing up my inbox!!

Voting Confessionals

Meh whatever, I vote for Jordan

Kelsey was medevaced