#maybe im not denying it

[menlove]

HOWARD STERN: Here's what the book claimed- your sexuality was so powerful over him, he was so enamored of you, so attracted to you, almost- PAUL: Wow. STERN: -that you could have your way with him. Not sexually- ROBIN QUIVERS: Did you feel a power over him? PAUL: [rapidly shaking his head] No. STERN: -but in business. That you had a- that he was sort of at your mercy because he was so in love with you. That was the theory in the book. PAUL: Well, you know, I mean- I like that theory. [laughs] STERN: Wish that could've been true. PAUL: No, man.

(x- translation from portuguese by @todayesterday here) (x) (x)

[uncanny-tranny]

You know, I'm not a cheerleader for cis people who get gender-affirming care (especially if it's "gender nonconforming," such as a cis guy who gets vaginoplasty) because I think cis people are superior or that they should be coddled, but rather, because I don't want people to respect my gender-related care simply because I'm trans. I want people to respect my bodily autonomy because... I'm a human person. It sometimes feels like people want you to prove that they should respect your bodily autonomy, and that's something I fundamentally despise.

I shouldn't need to be open about my transness in order to be respected because... that's not information you're inherently privileged to, nor are you entitled to somebody's transness/gender situation in general. I prefer that we start seeing gender care as something that isn't "for" one group of people when that's not how the world will work, y'know. There will always be people who seek specific care no matter what or who they are, because they're human people who can make decisions.

[oceanwithouthermoon]

yk when i think about it, especially when im watching the anime with people who havent read the manga, the reason a lot of people who only watch the anime and didnt read the manga misinterpreted saikis character so badly is definitely in part because of how damn fast paced the anime is 😭

like that little smile and eye shine frame is there for not even half a second in the anime, so its easier to miss it and assume that he really did only finish those workbooks to get coffee jelly ☠️ its much more clear if you get a good look at how he reacts here that hes just a silly little tsundere and a fucking liar

[5a-alf]

I fear Kevin Day is the type of person whose struggle always came second. He funcioned enough that while everyone knew he wasn't alright, it was also nobody's problem, as someone else was actively having a harder time and they took precedence. He internalises all his problems and keeps going and going but he is fueled by alchool and sheer desperation a 100% of the time. If he were to stop for even a second he wouldn't know how to start again.

Did he ever, at somepoint in his life -away from the ex foxes, a pro player, married to Thea- wish he had it worse, just so that maybe it would have been his turn being saved? Being first? How badly would he feel, just one second after thinking it, because he knows damn well he has enough trauma to fill a stadium and he isn't actually jealous of his friends that had it worse, he isn't . That's a fucked up thing to think, stop it, stop it.

Would he still drink himself into a stupor to shoote the ache, to banish the thought? That's the help he got, when he was at his worst, a drink, and then two, and then a thousand. And it worked, it made him go, it picked him up when he was down, and now he can't get down without crashing.

Did he wish to be saved? Did he hope somebody, anybody, took the time and put in the effort to help him, just because they saw him down, not because he begged, but because they noticed he could use a hand. Or two, actually. Was it torment, to always be under the spotlight, yet never been seen? Did he run toward fame hoping the more eyes on him meant it would be easier to be noticed?

[awsugar]

i can't sleep my brain and body have been all fucked up this week and i'm laying here at 430 being so PLAGUED by the fact that my life's 3 main hyper fixations have been mcr spn and dnp and not only that but the fact that fiction as a whole will never have anything like destiel again, the internet will never reproduce something like phan. celebrities will NEVER be able to do frerard again. i'm not insane. these are the big 3 and not just because these are my favorite things. there are endless amounts of ships and pairings and fics and lore but literally. the specific experience of living through all of these in one lifetime. no one else will ever have that...except us

[azurlily]

Dont ask just read, this is what a bored and horny mind can come up with. Yes, this woman needs a name so for now we will call her LSM. What does that stand for? Lets find out together. Completely UNEDITED.

Lesbian Sugar Mommy

You had a daily schedule, a routine. You followed this routine everyday for years. For years. So you being poor as hell at only 24, being barely able to afford food and rent. It was an all time low for you, and an embarrassing one at that. Recently your friend recommends you try a sugar dating app. At first you thought it was stupid, but mulled it over and remembered how broke you were. You made a profile and it took a couple days before you matched with a woman. At first you were incredibly awkward when texting and felt embarrassed. She seemed like the kindest woman you've ever met. She understood you and was better than any man or woman you had previously dated.

You were honestly pretty enamored with her, she has dark green eyes. Like a forest green, god they're beautiful, and you swear they change color depending on what she's wearing. Her hair is long and dark, contrasting her lightly tan skin. Her hair is slightly curly, definitely not straight. In the many pictures she's sent you, you notice all her nails are perfect manicured, but two on each finger have been cut down completely. You didn't bother asking, weren't a virgin or stupid, simply poor. You two began talking a bit more about finances after a couple weeks. She listened to you talk about your financial situation, how you could barely keep a roof over your head. By the end of your two and a half hour conversation, you found yourself being wired $10,000. It wasn't as if it was out of nowhere considering what the conversation was, but it was surprising. LSM had said she wanted to give you a bit of money to keep you going for the month. She had not said she was give 10,000 fucking dollars! You didn't know what to do with the money. Other than pay your bills and let the rest sit.

For a couple days you were worried she'd want it all back, but no, instead she asked if you wanted more.

"Well I didn't give you that much...so I'm just making sure it's enough. I can give you plenty more, sugar."

You had reassured her it was enough, much more than enough. In the following days you were finding her flirting with you more, being more straightforward. You blushed everytime she made a crude joke, but you almost wished it was a statement.

When LSM had asked if you wanted to have dinner at her place you agreed. You wondered how the night would go, if you would fuck up and she'd be mad. You hoped the night went as well as possible, and if not, that she'd at least tell you.

The night went a lot of different ways. At first she was playing the kind and gracious host, then she was flirting with you. Finally you had both drank a little too much of her expensive red wine, and she fucked you against her king size bed.

You dont remember the first little bit, but you certainly remember how your night ended. Well not all of it, that woman has the sex drive of a beast. She continued until she couldn't, until you couldn't walk and she couldn't see straight. If nothing else; your legs will remember this until you die.

"Good morning sugar, how are you feeling? I hope I wasn't too rough on you, although I can't say it was entirely my fault. You kept begging me to keep going, and who am I to deny you?"

You whined, talking hurt, and you couldn't move without some part of your body below your waist hurting. You sit up just a enough and look at yourself in your phone mirror. Oh she knew exactly what she was doing, theres a massive bite mark on your shoulder. Everywhere else there's hickeys, like they're changing color.

"Before you get mad- please look at my back!"

She turned and you saw large scratch marks running down her back. From her shoulders to her ass, you can also see quite the array of bites on her shoulder. One looks like it was actually bleeding. Your reaction must be funny because she's laughing like crazy. She gently cups your face and kisses your lips.

"So pretty. My girl is so pretty arent you? Mommy's little girl."

You just laid in her arms for a while, letting her talk about whatever she wanted. You were tired and her touch made you weak. You began thinking about your job, did you have to call in to work today? Were you working today? You asked LSM, but she just smiled and shook her head.

"You wont need your job anymore, at least not this one. I've already sent your monthly allowance over to you. You can quit that job anytime, it'll give you more time for me."

Monthly allowance? You pulled away to check your bank account. Sure enough she had transferred over $40,000.

You stared at the number for a moment a then looked back at her. You assumed she was some sort of big millionaire, but now that you're looking around. Really looking. You dont want to know what this woman does for a living.

"Pay no mind sugar, now come here. I'll have someone bring breakfast and we can stay in bed all day!"

[nabaath-areng]

the mental and physical illness sure got to me the past weeks because how on EARTH could i bring myself to neglect him otherwise. im just so!!! there he is!!!!

[bacchuschucklefuck]

love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest

[wulfhalls]

NO BEST DIRECTOR NOM FOR DENIS?!?!?!?!?!???????? the academy should all kill themselves unironically. also timtom should have been nominated for chad paulie atreides not for fuckass dylan 🙄 the substance best picture nom!!!!!! everybody enjoyed that!!!!!!! as well as anora!!!!! and mikey madison and yura borisov best actress best supporting actor respectively !!!!!!!!! THE AUDIENCE IS CELEBRATING!!!!! cain and abel succession joint first time Oscar nominees that's family!! nosferatu getting a best costume design nod in there 👌better than nothing. also they couldn't pay me money to watch emilia perez. isabella rossellini feels a little silly for 3.4 mins of screen time and just about as many lines but seeing this more as a career acknowledgement than being about a specific performance

[leenfiend]

i would trust my instincts but they lie to me like i lie to you

[cheralith]

slytherin!kaiser...

[hoboblaidd]

Nanna's Nameday presents from an undisclosed source post-Trespasser:

Irving's will, lovingly modified, you guessed it, a week before he died under mysterious circumstances.

Her grandfather's will, lovingly modified a week before he died under mysterious circumstances.

Loghain's will, lovingly modified a week before he died under mysterious circumstances (sorry Anora, take it up in probate court).

Arl Eamon's skull, lovingly delivered to Amaranthine a week after he died under somewhat less mysterious circumstances.

[moonshynecybin]

your post about assen 2015 reminded me. the way current marc would NEVERRRR let that maybe slip (until like several months later at some random interview being like ‘yeah i lied i was pissed :3’) like… trulyyyyyy so much comes back to 2015/post sepang trauma. genuinely a marc marquez nexus event

it literally DID remind me of that quote i pulled yesterday from marc about the pecco alex aragon thing where he was like look ive been there ive had a mic shoved in my face while i was steamed postrace and ive said the wrong thing... like idk in assen hes TRYING to neutralize the potential quote and the perception of a feud BUT hes upset about not getting the win and he lets his mouth run away from him. while VALE knows enough (and maybe still likes marc enough) to keep his mouth SHUT. and marc i think begins to learn this lesson hereeeee

[feralghxuls]

dew, as a rule, does not purr on command for anyone

it was a very long time after he joined ghost that he purred in front of anyone at all

quietly, and buried under the louder rumbles of ifrit and aether. and eventually louder

and in a last ditch effort one of the first few times dew was doing everything he could think of to get rid of that thousand-yard, unresponsive stare in mountain's eyes, he started purring. loud as he could. he felt ridiculous, but it worked faster than anything else he'd tried

so when mountain crawls into his lap and buries his head against dew's chest and asks him, purr?

well. dew purrs for him.

[aleclightofmylifewoodbane]

GUYSSSSS

IM DOING FLIPS. WILL IS BACK. WE ARE SO BACK GUYS.

AND KIERARKTINA. I MISS THEM ALL THE TIME IM STARVED FOR POLYCULE CONTENT.

AND THOMASTAIR!!! AND CLACE!!! im going CRAZY

and LUKE AND JOCELYN IN THE PAST ??? im REALLY hoping its during the circle time because i always find stories about the early days of the circle SO interesting. oh but i bet it will be ANGSTYY. im SO intrigued about them

cover reveal tomorrow!!!!

[puppppppppy]

i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand