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uncanny-tranny · 9 months ago

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You know, I'm not a cheerleader for cis people who get gender-affirming care (especially if it's "gender nonconforming," such as a cis guy who gets vaginoplasty) because I think cis people are superior or that they should be coddled, but rather, because I don't want people to respect my gender-related care simply because I'm trans. I want people to respect my bodily autonomy because... I'm a human person. It sometimes feels like people want you to prove that they should respect your bodily autonomy, and that's something I fundamentally despise.

I shouldn't need to be open about my transness in order to be respected because... that's not information you're inherently privileged to, nor are you entitled to somebody's transness/gender situation in general. I prefer that we start seeing gender care as something that isn't "for" one group of people when that's not how the world will work, y'know. There will always be people who seek specific care no matter what or who they are, because they're human people who can make decisions.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #and like sometimes i personally don't 'get' when a cis person makes gender-affirming care decisions because we're different people!!!#you don't HAVE to 'get' it to respect it #and sometimes it comes across almost as... objectifying? when people only respect my gender care because im a trans male...#...like to me it comes across as 'you have now proven your trans insanoty and it would come across as wrong for me to deny your autonomy...#...so i GUESS i respect it' and maybe that's not what people mean but it does sometimes come across like that #like... i guess WHY is it that your respect for one's gender care hinges on if they're trans or not

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oceanwithouthermoon · 4 months ago

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yk when i think about it, especially when im watching the anime with people who havent read the manga, the reason a lot of people who only watch the anime and didnt read the manga misinterpreted saikis character so badly is definitely in part because of how damn fast paced the anime is 😭

like that little smile and eye shine frame is there for not even half a second in the anime, so its easier to miss it and assume that he really did only finish those workbooks to get coffee jelly ☠️ its much more clear if you get a good look at how he reacts here that hes just a silly little tsundere and a fucking liar

#this might be really obvious but im silly #LET ME YAP !!#dont read this as me making fun of anime only fans #i was literally one until like a few months ago #i just think its unfortunate how different the vibe is #obviously i love the anime though #there are still some things i straight up don't understand how people miss though #like people who watch the whole anime and still think saiki hates teruhashi or nendo specifically #like ? he has some of his most affectionate scenes with them #but i think maybe its because they missed so many of the more subtle details #that by the time they see saikis offu or him saying he and teruhashi make a great team.. it appears more sudden to them than it really is #so they either completely ignore those scenes or dismiss them as fanservice #ugh #its. literally not fan service at all and makes perfect sense if you pay attention #idk how u can watch the sweetest line ever 'we're invincible together' and deny that saiki cares about teruhashi #in general its actually just impossible to end the show thinking he hates any of his friends unless u just ignored things on purpose #even if u ended at the first season like a lot of people #but im just saying i guess i get why its a little less obvious in the show #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo #meows post

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azurlily · 11 months ago

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Dont ask just read, this is what a bored and horny mind can come up with. Yes, this woman needs a name so for now we will call her LSM. What does that stand for? Lets find out together. Completely UNEDITED.

Lesbian Sugar Mommy

You had a daily schedule, a routine. You followed this routine everyday for years. For years. So you being poor as hell at only 24, being barely able to afford food and rent. It was an all time low for you, and an embarrassing one at that. Recently your friend recommends you try a sugar dating app. At first you thought it was stupid, but mulled it over and remembered how broke you were. You made a profile and it took a couple days before you matched with a woman. At first you were incredibly awkward when texting and felt embarrassed. She seemed like the kindest woman you've ever met. She understood you and was better than any man or woman you had previously dated.

You were honestly pretty enamored with her, she has dark green eyes. Like a forest green, god they're beautiful, and you swear they change color depending on what she's wearing. Her hair is long and dark, contrasting her lightly tan skin. Her hair is slightly curly, definitely not straight. In the many pictures she's sent you, you notice all her nails are perfect manicured, but two on each finger have been cut down completely. You didn't bother asking, weren't a virgin or stupid, simply poor. You two began talking a bit more about finances after a couple weeks. She listened to you talk about your financial situation, how you could barely keep a roof over your head. By the end of your two and a half hour conversation, you found yourself being wired $10,000. It wasn't as if it was out of nowhere considering what the conversation was, but it was surprising. LSM had said she wanted to give you a bit of money to keep you going for the month. She had not said she was give 10,000 fucking dollars! You didn't know what to do with the money. Other than pay your bills and let the rest sit.

For a couple days you were worried she'd want it all back, but no, instead she asked if you wanted more.

"Well I didn't give you that much...so I'm just making sure it's enough. I can give you plenty more, sugar."

You had reassured her it was enough, much more than enough. In the following days you were finding her flirting with you more, being more straightforward. You blushed everytime she made a crude joke, but you almost wished it was a statement.

When LSM had asked if you wanted to have dinner at her place you agreed. You wondered how the night would go, if you would fuck up and she'd be mad. You hoped the night went as well as possible, and if not, that she'd at least tell you.

The night went a lot of different ways. At first she was playing the kind and gracious host, then she was flirting with you. Finally you had both drank a little too much of her expensive red wine, and she fucked you against her king size bed.

You dont remember the first little bit, but you certainly remember how your night ended. Well not all of it, that woman has the sex drive of a beast. She continued until she couldn't, until you couldn't walk and she couldn't see straight. If nothing else; your legs will remember this until you die.

"Good morning sugar, how are you feeling? I hope I wasn't too rough on you, although I can't say it was entirely my fault. You kept begging me to keep going, and who am I to deny you?"

You whined, talking hurt, and you couldn't move without some part of your body below your waist hurting. You sit up just a enough and look at yourself in your phone mirror. Oh she knew exactly what she was doing, theres a massive bite mark on your shoulder. Everywhere else there's hickeys, like they're changing color.

"Before you get mad- please look at my back!"

She turned and you saw large scratch marks running down her back. From her shoulders to her ass, you can also see quite the array of bites on her shoulder. One looks like it was actually bleeding. Your reaction must be funny because she's laughing like crazy. She gently cups your face and kisses your lips.

"So pretty. My girl is so pretty arent you? Mommy's little girl."

You just laid in her arms for a while, letting her talk about whatever she wanted. You were tired and her touch made you weak. You began thinking about your job, did you have to call in to work today? Were you working today? You asked LSM, but she just smiled and shook her head.

"You wont need your job anymore, at least not this one. I've already sent your monthly allowance over to you. You can quit that job anytime, it'll give you more time for me."

Monthly allowance? You pulled away to check your bank account. Sure enough she had transferred over $40,000.

You stared at the number for a moment a then looked back at her. You assumed she was some sort of big millionaire, but now that you're looking around. Really looking. You dont want to know what this woman does for a living.

"Pay no mind sugar, now come here. I'll have someone bring breakfast and we can stay in bed all day!"

#wlw #lesbian #im bad at this #women are hot #i cant write #sugar mommy #lesbian sugar mommy #lesbian sugar mommy x reader #rich #unedited #i tried #she might be in the mafia but i am not confirming nor denying that #maybe shes a mafia boss #maybe she is just really really rich #i dont see this as smut

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bacchuschucklefuck · 6 months ago

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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest

#not art #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit #kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it #until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it #until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her #but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs #she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying #probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone #lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear #Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked #but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now #yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc #man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet #and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out #lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help #it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around #but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever #its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous #its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot #yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry #doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it #ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking

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leenfiend · 1 year ago

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i would trust my instincts but they lie to me like i lie to you

#this song works for both of them i think but im envisioning it as one for keith #denying himself the option to admit he likes lance bc he doesn't know how to love someone like lance who is so full of love #anyway i hope u all like the colored in version of the comics maybe i will do more !! who's to say who's to know #my art #voltron #klance #vld kalnce #vld #also once again just ripping off heynhay's link to song with additional lyrics in the description what can i say u inspire me <3

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feralghxuls · 1 year ago

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dew, as a rule, does not purr on command for anyone

it was a very long time after he joined ghost that he purred in front of anyone at all

quietly, and buried under the louder rumbles of ifrit and aether. and eventually louder

and in a last ditch effort one of the first few times dew was doing everything he could think of to get rid of that thousand-yard, unresponsive stare in mountain's eyes, he started purring. loud as he could. he felt ridiculous, but it worked faster than anything else he'd tried

so when mountain crawls into his lap and buries his head against dew's chest and asks him, purr?

well. dew purrs for him.

#dorito.txt #im in my feelings again and you're all going to hear about it #dissociative mountain means everything to me btw.#but yeah Of Course dew is gonna purr when mountain asks.#maybe he's dissociating and needs some grounding. dew can't in good conscience deny him that #especially when he comes and *asks* for it #probably mountain just wants to snuggle and listen to dew rumble. but there's always a chance...

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aleclightofmylifewoodbane · 8 months ago

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GUYSSSSS

IM DOING FLIPS. WILL IS BACK. WE ARE SO BACK GUYS.

AND KIERARKTINA. I MISS THEM ALL THE TIME IM STARVED FOR POLYCULE CONTENT.

AND THOMASTAIR!!! AND CLACE!!! im going CRAZY

and LUKE AND JOCELYN IN THE PAST ??? im REALLY hoping its during the circle time because i always find stories about the early days of the circle SO interesting. oh but i bet it will be ANGSTYY. im SO intrigued about them

cover reveal tomorrow!!!!

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puppyeared · 10 months ago

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i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand

#me when im the only person on the bus wearing a mask: i should make a furry plaguesona #its hard to explain bc. most of the time i try NOT to give my characters a 'strong' theme like making their whole design around #one thing like apples or even broad stuff like baking or cottagecore.. idk if its partly for flexibility or because i cant imagine them #making it their whole personality. not bc i find it cringe or overblown but more like ive learned to associate design with character depth #i had a cutesy uwu persona for most of highschool because i thought it would make me more. likeable? easy to remember? since #memorable character designs are easy to recognize. and one way of doing that is simplifying it with a theme or symbol so you form an #association. but since im a real person its exhausting keeping up that appearance all the time and denying myself things when they dont #fit my 'aesthetic' or 'theme.' i think ive grown past that bc i just collect stuff because i think it looks cool and dont let myself dwell #on how it might 'fit' with my image. but i cant help feeling bad doing it to my own characters bc it feels like im making them too one #dimensional. despite knowing that theyre not real and design alone doesnt reflect depth i cant help feeling like its wrong #despite that i love seeing motifs because it feels like it reflects the characters soul and paradoxically gives them depth. it makes them #interesting to look at too and honestly its pretty fun combining things that fall under a similar category when designing #i struggle find a balance between those two things #actually this reminds me of noelles christmas theme.. i dont remember her saying anything abt liking christmas despite a lot of #her design and character tying back to it. it makes me wonder if she would have feelings about that or doesnt think abt it too hard #or if its like a matching family shirts situation and shes just going along with it??#maybe i should just do whatever i want with my character designs since theyre not real and im thinking abt it too hard #although. this probably has something to do with deep seated identity issues huh #yapping #oc talk #oc

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alsojnpie · 11 days ago

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it is really stupid but i think feeling sad because i don't understand why people stopped reblogging/interacting with my art really made me. not want to post anymore

#dumb dumb really dumb #i feel really dumb for caring about that #but i can't deny that like. sometimes i just stare at something i drew that i really really like and i just.#preemptively make myself sad thinking about what it'd feel like to post it and so i just skip that part and just look at the art by myself #but that also feels bad because🥺 being alone not fun #this is something I've been feeling bad about for such a long time and i think ignoring it just made it get worse and worse and worse #;_; maybe if I'd stopped earlier it wouldntve gotten so bad but. i couldn't stop. cause im love him and i wanted everyone to see him face #thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who saw it and cared.. it means a really really lot to me #sometimes i want to dm you guys the things i drew so that i can still share it with you but i don't want to be annoying #i don't want to put you on the spot like that #that's what i love about posting is that it doesn't DEMAND a response

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hearts4pearlescentmoon · 2 months ago

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Bro is trying so hard to be Stanford Pines

#minecraft movie #minecraft #gravity falls #stanford pines #ford pines #FORD IM SORRY TO COMPARE YOU TO THIS /j #I don’t deny that thsi movie may have a big impact on many people #I’m just not sure if I will be one of those people #I just feel like we could have done better. On what. I don’t know #Maybe not make a movie on a sandbox game that has no set storyline or real plot to it so when you try and make a plot #It doesn’t feel like your pulling shit out of your ass????#That last statement goes for the games to #You could have stopped at legends. Legends was fun. Legends was good. Stop there. You have to know when to stop #I’ve gtg to bed before I rant about this for another fucking hour lol #Gn to the peeps who red this

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gjsxj0 · 3 months ago

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mindless rambling in tags don't mind me

#not art post #rambling in tags because i can and its MY BLOG #anyway its about tdp *waits* ok for the three of you that actually care #someone retweeted one of my threads from 2019 after s2 dropped (imo the BEST tdp season) and i reread it #and tbh i am still right about viren's characterization #obviously canon changed some things but TO BE REAL..... i dont care what the writers say bc i had beef since s3 #how am i supposed to believe any viren and callum parallels and callbacks when they..... havent talked since when?#and uhhh viren's demise lol i expected it but wow i am not happy with the lead up to it #more cool and eloquent people put it in better words on twitter and probably tumblr too idk i just say things and hope they make sense #anyway viren is still the very real traumatized angry severely depressed old man from s2... his life was just revealed to be so much worse #like damn. he was poor he was orphan he got divorced and then a stupid mirror started ruining his life even more #yes the mirror was the start of it why do you think aaravos revealed himself after viren's firey break down #aaravos went i can make him worse and ran with it #should viren go to prison? yeah i never once denied that lmao but god he and his family were really the ones to suffer in the show #at least viren is gone so i can just *plucks him out of the dirt and morphs him into my own oc* (im for real)#i got maybe more to say but this is long and im lazy and im not too smart so i will just move on #i will watch s7................................... i GUESS and if you find salt i will probably be there lol

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raisinushigher · 10 months ago

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fuck this show

#FUCK THIS SBOW #likeee what. a little over a week and its happening again.#ANYWAY obligatory abe is so fucking cute and im so excited to see what’s going on with him this season #like. the way hes wearing that oversized suit??? him looking all angry with an eyepatch while everyone else is happy? WHY WAS HE CRYING-#-HALF NAKED IN THE CEMETARTY😭😭😭ALSO THAT LOOKS LIKE SOME SORT OF APOCOLYPSE EPISODE WHICH. IF THATS THE CASE #HELL FUCKING UES!!!#also i can’t deny it im scared like For My Life that something bad with /kahlopatra will happen #like. just based off that one clip with frida looking at cleo bullying people. IDK MAYBE ITS POSITIVE BUT #IM SCARED!!!#sorry i hid a good chunk of my thoughts on the trailer in the tags of dumb fucking tophabe post SORRU #clone high #clone high spoilers #tophabe #abetoph #mine

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karamazovanon · 1 year ago

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i think the recurring theme of dostoevsky's that will always destroy me the most is when despite how much a character wishes and yearns for it, they continuously refuse pure and unconditional love when it's offered because they don't think they're worthy of it (and then hate themselves even more for turning it down). it will ruin me EVERY TIME

#and yes ofc theres a ton of theological implications there but i think its way more powerful as it stands between characters #its most obvious in raskolnikov denying the love of Literally Everyone In His Life and nastasya & prince myshkin #(<- im only like halfway thru the idiot still SORRY I HAVE NO TIME TO READDD)#you can also see it in lise smerdyakov and ivan to a certain extent #hell even ilyushas dad rejecting the money #like this recurring cycle of self loathing and self isolation that are ENTIRELY SELF IMPOSED DESPITE THEIR LONGING FOR IT. ohhhhhhhhh my god #it gets me SO BAD EVERY TIME #maybe its just the larger theme of self destruction in general bc that also always makes me lose my shit #throwing myself into the abyss head first and heels last and am even glad that ive fallen in such a degrading posture and consider it #flattering to myself etc etc #boy i die.#anontalks #the self hatred in ruslit goes fucking HARD!!!

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solargeist · 4 months ago

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have you perhaps considered you might be autistic? (< im being genuine, im autistic and ive noticed a lot of my traits in you eg the really really not wanting things to change around)

i think its somewhat likely, i've been told online and offline multiple times it seems like it, but its not something i'd want diagnosed or confidently say 100% "hey i have this !" so instead i'm just like. hey im struggling saur much with these traits halp

#ask #sometimes im like is it autism or a plethora of different mental illnesses #i used to deny it hardcore a few years ago but now im like : ( everything is so hard it just can't be like this normally #other times i'm like well maybe its just the 11-14y/o Trauma so im emotionally stuck at that age instead .#its gotten more normalized over the years tho compared to when i was a kid #why seek help when i have dolls ? easier. will look crazy but. easier.

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mamawasatesttube · 1 year ago

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saw someone being wrong about kon on the internet again (i know. shocking) and you are all so lucky i'm sick and feverish and lazy because i DID just seriously entertain the thought of writing up a small essay complete with issue and panel citations about why it's simply incorrect to say that kon never really seemed to reciprocate any sort of crush on tim before geoff/tt03. this is just not true. you dont have to actually ship them but to downplay their importance to each other even in the earliest days is simply incorrect. i'm too tired and achy to bother digging through comics to pull up all the issues that have the bits i want to point at but like... they were both very mutually important to each other from early on. it was in no way shape or form one-sided, whether you want to read that as platonic or romantic. man.

#rimi talks #id rather put my limited energy towards the tender t4t timkonisms fic but in my heart this is a longass post #kon's sb94 alice in wonderland nightmare sequence. kon's entire Everything @ tim in issue 85.#the entire concept of robin kon?????? hello?????#the way they function as a unit so easily in yj98 even While actively bickering???#graduation day and judd winick explicitly saying he wanted them to come out of the closet [together]??#kon going out of his way to not only do bits just to annoy tim but also being protective of him at the same time?? (in yj98 again)#him wanting robin's number in wf3 (and then getting it sometime before rex leech roller coaster issue)??????#what are you fucking onnnnnnnnn #you dont have to read it as romantic if you dont want to but they were undeniably close and it was undeniably mutual. bro #i just um. i just think that if youre so internet poisoned to hate a ship that you have to deny the characters have mutual importance #to each other in the canon material (but you can't deny it from one side so you have to claim it's mostly one-sided and blame a writer)#then maybe you should um log off and reread canon ?#<- that's petty sorry but im just saying.#anyways.#returning to the timkon mines now. crawls back into my word doc

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bsd-verse · 1 year ago

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All the questions I got after the season finale

Who is the man Fyodor was talking about before the helicopter crash?

Is Fyodor really dead?

What's going to happen now?

Where have been Lucy, Yosano and Kyouka all this time?

Where is Kouyou? And Mori along with PM?

Will Sigma ever wake up?

What was Fyodor's ability?

What will Nikolai do after all these events?

What was Teruko's backstory?

Where was Jouno?

How about Tecchou's past?

What's going to happen to One Order? What really it is?

Will Dazai and Chuuya come back to Japan?

And probably many more....

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