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thought of what my ideal life would be today while having a shit time at work and it made me realize why i always align with the lonely
#maybe im looking into this too deep but#step 1: work and save money#step 2: complete my associates#step 3: compile my savings#step 4: buy a $40 wwoofing membership for the year#step 5: contact farms and arrange dates#step 6: pack my shit and leave#there’s farms on there you can stay at for months at a time. you get a place to sleep and usually most meals are free#or at least the ingredients are#i get a job near the current farm or find a remote job to pay insurance and gas#i travel the country and live on different farms and keep contact with no one#well maybe i’ll send letters#ideal life is 1900s ranch hand#but yeah i think that’s more why i’m lonely aligned#but it’s only an extra $20 for a two person membership#but idk who’d wanna do that with me so :/#me rambling#if one day i suddenly stop posting those reading this will know exactly what happened
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I might as well share this, here's a new design for Hades that I've been cooking up!!! I'm so happy with this one genuinely, I've been having trouble with him for so long but this truly feels like the exact vibe I wanted to convey with him
#I've got redesigns also for talas and graves but not to this degree. for graves its a recolor and talas its a recolor with some design tweak#maybe I will share those too eventually... I wanted to do proper refs for all of them#but soon.......... soon#windyart#hades#oc ref sheet#also#wip#I GUESS#idk when ill have time to do proper art for him but i wanted to share this design soooo bad im so obsessed with him hes my BLORBO!!!#and guys talas also looks so fucking good and ourple I have finally cracked it i swear. i am so so so happy with all their designs#challenger deep#AGH I CANT WAIT TO DRAW THEM PROPERLY AND SHARE AWUUUUUUUU#please enjoy my pretty as hell son in the meantime
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happiness today and tomorrow (ID in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun maximum#trigun#ruporas art#hello here's another vw dump wraughh everyday i think about them being embarrassing infatuated w each other#it's like... at some point i must stop and look away... their love is too bright too dangerous.... but i will not... and neither will the#sidenote on the first comic - i drafted it bc im annoying about vash finding wolfwood lovely in simple ways but bc he's so restrained#in his thoughts those compliments dont usually come out. and when they do - bc he thinks about it so often - i think it'd come out bluntly#like. factual in tone as opposed to his inner deep exploding feelings about ww. only when he's pried deeper - prompted to expand#On these feelings does he get shy lmfao.... and bc it's simple complimentary words ww would take it casually in stride#dip him then call him cute and Maybe he'll get shy (pondering)#as u can see all i do is think about the fluff rn. tragedy where!
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JW: Chaos Theory Spoilers






"You knew Brooklynn was alive and you didn't tell us!?"
Is this anything? Anything at all??
#How to anger Kenji 101#first withhold information from him#second... there is no second just get ready to defend yourself#okay but i think why Kenji gets really upset in these instances is because#in his mind he's being left out or cast aside#deemed not as important to know what going on#and considering how his father neglected him and left him behind#this hits on his insecurities#it's especially hurtful when it comes from friends who eventually become his only family#idk#maybe im looking too deep#jurassic world camp cretaceous#jurassic world chaos theory#jwct#jwct s2#jwct spoilers#kenji kon#iaf.post
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it's been obvious from the start of this new arc, but i see that it's all gonna be about a few of the important moments of denji's life and beliefs being recontextualized as how harmful it is when compared with someone else
his "ignorance is bliss" motto that has comforted (shielded) him from his grief turns to him telling asa that she should ignore the worst until the worst comes to greet her, and then puts her into the shoes of her abuser as he tells her to just continue shooting buildings like yoru was doing a second ago
his consistent favoritism over women's lives over men's lives returns here to show how he's willing to confront yoru just because she hurt something personal to him, and not when she's an active threat to other people (asa telling him that she's planning horrible shit for humanity, yoru killing multiple other people to which denji tried to placate her at first to then not caring at all and even enjoying it)
just a small thought i've been having for now
#can't help but wonder if denji's lines about fighting the bat devil which were that he was taking his “source of boobs” away from him#will return in a future chapter but to recontextualise how toxic he can be#or maybe im just looking too deep into this and im just on twitter and ive seen too many people dogpiling on denji and let it shape my idea#csm#chainsaw man part 2#chainsaw man#csm 201#csm spoilers#csm denji#denji#yoru mitaka#csm yoru#war devil#asa mitaka
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atp i would snort reeve tuesti fic like cocaine.
if anyone knows any fics that put reeve through the blender like “Son” by She_sees_in_the_dark or “Through Another’s Eyes” by CorsairOriginal—
i need to see that man under enough pressure to make a diamond crack. For my health.
#reeve tuesti#ff7#ffvii#txt#nah if anyone’s got fic recs PLEASE slide them my way#even if you’re like ehhhhh it’s not exactly what OP was thinking#because i WAS NOT JOKING ABOUT SNORTING REEVE FIC LIKE COCAINE. ITS GOTTEN TO THE POINT WHERE IM CONSIDERING SYNTHESIZING MY OWN REEVE FIC#LIKE WISH DOT COM CRACK. ALIEXPRESS CRACK. THE KIND OF CRACK THAT MAKES YOU RECONSIDER YOUR LIFE CHOICES.#fluff is great and all mad respect to our confectioners in fandom#but i think i’d actually suck dick to feed the part of my brain that needs to see Reeve pushed to his limits#comedy is great too love me some comedy. but yeah i’m fiending for reeve fics and i don’t think that’s even an exaggeration.#*deep breath* SO IF ANY REEVE TUESTI FIC WRITERS ARE OUT THERE LISTENING#IVE GOT 50 BUCKS AN ENGINEERING DEGREE AND I WORK AS A FIRST RESPONDER.#hit me UP#stg ill answer any question you have abt those topics.#idk if i’ve made it clear how desperate i am for reeve fic#I’m writing some reeve fic myself but i’m not a particularly fast writer when it comes to fiction#OH#i can also draw! the pfp is my work but that was like a rly short thing#not exactly representative of my full abilities.#so if you want to see what some of my high effort work looks like hmu i do digital and traditional.#i’m dead serious abt all of the above. i’m kind of broke so i got maybe 50 $ a month to drop on this at most.#but everything else is a free resource baby.#hi you’ve made it to the end! thanks for reading my deranged tags#i’m clinically unwell about reeve tuesti.#anyways live laugh reeve!
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ruan mei and her nonchalant attitude making things between her and reader seem one sided on the reader and it goes on until reader got tired of it. ruan mei doesnt care about it at first but when they see reader being a cute puppy running around the station and being all sweet and mushy with march or himeko or even kafka (you choose), suddenly shes bothered with the change of reader's behavior and keeps getting distracted in her work cause why isnt reader like that to her anymore??? has she been taking advantage of reader's kindness????
hhhh just ruan mei being somewhat possessive or jealous or both is already making my knees weak
THIS IS SO CUTE, i'm pretty sure ruan mei might be autistic because its confirmed that the genius society is filled with scientists and researchers with autistic tendencies, not knowing how to express feelings is apart of autism as i have a younger cousin with autism so im familiar with some autistic tendencies! so because of this, she might not know how to express her feelings well, and shes not just purposely nonchalant. since she also doesnt understand the concept of love like said in that critter event, i like to think that reader is able to teach her and show her what love is like after ruan mei comes after reader (im sure reader would be jumping and running around in circles), and when she ends up getting the gist of it, she'll understand why she felt bothered seeing you being close and laughing with other women and gets embarrassed... that would be the first time reader sees her flustered and they wish they could have taken a photo of it. shes definitely the "you know other women?" kind of jealous LMFAOO but i love jealous ruan mei, shes so girlboss but also girlfailure at the same time 🤭🤭
#⋆ ˚。⋆౨ৎ˚ an talks#ruan mei#ruan mei x reader#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr headcanons#hsr hcs#did i talk too much omg im sorry anon i look too deep into lore#MAYBE I WENT OFF THE TRACK AT SOME POINT TOO..
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i cant lie, im also beating myself up about not being able to get excited for the new game, or anything anymore it seems, while it can be fun to criticise things, some things you just dont like so badly that the frustration knowing it could be so much better but isnt and you not able to change it outweighs any fun- i dont like being a 'hater', i hate totk, but not bc i hate zelda but bc i LOVE it and want it to be better (though im starting to doubt my ability to do anything good with it too..)
and with the new game trailer (like, i still hope its better than im fearing rn) i feel similarly as when the next totk trailers dropped after the first one (which DID excite me), all of them gave me a sense of dread bc it seemed to go into a direction i wouldnt like, i tried to tone that voice down to enjoy the game, but then .. i was right
i dont want to be an annoying complainer about everything new, but maybe i am and i dont like that thought, i dont want to spoil anyones fun, i want to partake in it :(
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#either way#i know im in a bit of a swamp of bad feelings rn so i dont trust myself and what i say fully#but i have been thinking about trying to only work on destiny in terms of fanart#and look at my original stuff and perhaps gamedev a bit more seriously#dont get me wrong im not 'leaving' the fandom#but the things i like are so few and tiny parts of old games that are pretty much irrelevant to the modern fandom#like trying to keep driving on tires even when they lost all their rubber#after botw and the first botw2 trailer i was so deep into the theories of it all- and now i dont even want to look at the thumbnails#(even if those were largely boring or kinda weird- i felt like i was taking part in a fun group about stuff i like? in a way?)#what scares me about doing more original stuff though is ...#even my fanart was niche and largely not “popular” so doing oc stuff might be even worse and idk if my frail self worth can handle that dro#and to the last point of the post itself................. maybe a fear of losing community too#like how in school you where at first a part of the class#and as you got older your classmates started to notice how different and weird you were#and then you were alone
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i gotta say it i gotta
i don't understand the predilection of bkdk fics to put Izuku in a crop top/other effeminate clothing when the guy in canon practically lives in stupid tshirts and jeans or cargo shorts
#bkdk#i cant tell if it's heteronormativity (making him femme when hes Designated Bottom)or mistaking his emotional personality for not being mas#or maybe it's people just projecting their own fashion taste onto him not Rly caring how ic it is and im looking too deep into it LMAOOOOO#when i read one and it invents an outfit for him hed totally wear I get excited. i love when ppl give him new stupid tshirts
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it's looking like a restless night for me once again and i can't lie at least half of that is the fault of me thinking too hard about how memory worlds work
#larry time#since starting to write FTBC ive been GRIPPED by the idea of like#an au where yana goes into a memory world to try and resolve his regrets wrt how kiru was treated when they were younger#but in the end he realizes that like. its just a memory he can't Fix it so all he can do is come to terms with what happened#because for how much i like to write them as being at each other's throats they do love each other very much. there's a lot that only they >#know and understand about each other.#and yana i think retroactively has a lot of regrets about like 'i would've helped her then' but he was a kid himself! and he didn't know!!!#and he doesn't quite understand that kiru doesn't blame him for that or for anything#shes just happy that he doesn't turn his nose up at her like the others on that side of the family#sorry guys they make me wanna chew batteries. maybe I'll draw some stuff for this au i dunno#BUT PAST THAT i wonder how different memory worlds Look for each person#like do they all glitch like karamatsus? or do they have different looks based on each persons sensibilities#so much to wonder about and it literally doesn't matter at all my god. im in too deep
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why dont we talk about how agatha restrained herself from taking all of billys power??
she hadnt had power in so long, it clearly felt so good to finally get her purple back. maybe it was because she has a soft spot for him because of nicky, maybe it's because he's one of the only few to use their power on her willingly, even after knowing what he does about her powers, to help her. even after alice tried to save her, and agatha just couldnt let go, he trusted her, and she stopped herself, with hardly a second thought 😭😭
#maybe im just looking too deep into it but shes just such a good girl sometimes#agatha all along spoilers#agatha all along#agatha harkness#billy maximoff
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Hey so for anyone in the failboat tag who's unaware i have this funny little oc world called Gang's Bay, it's an adult sitcom and boat's a character in it and it even has some wild story arcs. i figure yall might enjoy it, you can look at the characters' pages here and i have an entire tag dedicated to it on my blog. follow me if you wanna keep up w it :)
(there is no actual story to read or anything yet it's all just concepts and shitposts. but what i do have is pretty juicy if i do say so myself)
#failboat#this has been my obsession for the past couple of years im sorry i just really want people to know about it#just don't look too deep into the tag old stuff is embarrassing </3#it's a good thing i keep boat and shipwreck separate after making ahaha mhm That canon (well still technically a maybe for obvious reasons)#dan TO MY KNOWLEDGE does not know about this. i would LIKE him to. and to be on the project. EVENTUALLY#just depends on when i actually work up the courage to Confront him. sigh
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i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand
#me when im the only person on the bus wearing a mask: i should make a furry plaguesona#its hard to explain bc. most of the time i try NOT to give my characters a 'strong' theme like making their whole design around#one thing like apples or even broad stuff like baking or cottagecore.. idk if its partly for flexibility or because i cant imagine them#making it their whole personality. not bc i find it cringe or overblown but more like ive learned to associate design with character depth#i had a cutesy uwu persona for most of highschool because i thought it would make me more. likeable? easy to remember? since#memorable character designs are easy to recognize. and one way of doing that is simplifying it with a theme or symbol so you form an#association. but since im a real person its exhausting keeping up that appearance all the time and denying myself things when they dont#fit my 'aesthetic' or 'theme.' i think ive grown past that bc i just collect stuff because i think it looks cool and dont let myself dwell#on how it might 'fit' with my image. but i cant help feeling bad doing it to my own characters bc it feels like im making them too one#dimensional. despite knowing that theyre not real and design alone doesnt reflect depth i cant help feeling like its wrong#despite that i love seeing motifs because it feels like it reflects the characters soul and paradoxically gives them depth. it makes them#interesting to look at too and honestly its pretty fun combining things that fall under a similar category when designing#i struggle find a balance between those two things#actually this reminds me of noelles christmas theme.. i dont remember her saying anything abt liking christmas despite a lot of#her design and character tying back to it. it makes me wonder if she would have feelings about that or doesnt think abt it too hard#or if its like a matching family shirts situation and shes just going along with it??#maybe i should just do whatever i want with my character designs since theyre not real and im thinking abt it too hard#although. this probably has something to do with deep seated identity issues huh#yapping#oc talk#oc
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Random pokemon theory that I've never heard anyone talk about but I also have absolutely no reason to believe isn't true
Grass type pokemon based on plants are not plants
Like pokemon like exeggutor or litigant the ones actually based on plants not stuff like the regular animals with a plant on them
We know that all (non legandery) pokemons last common ancestor was mew which means that if pokemon based on plants were actually plants then all plants in the pokemon universe would share an ancestory with mew and somehow something evolved to lose its sentience and become a plant and that somehow anything in the pokemon world survived in a world without plants is incredibly unlikely
I think the more reasonable answer is that pokemon based on plants convergently evolved the same attributes as plants and are not literally plants like how their are non plant organisms thar produce chlorophyll
And I think a pretty good example of that is cradily, cradily is based in crinoids which are not plants but are animals that kind of look like plants, I dont think cradily is the ancestor to all plant pokemon but I do think it shares a common ancestor with the ancestor of all plant pokemon something that over time became more and more plant like resulting in the plant pokemon we have now
#maybe im just looking too deep into this#pokemon#pokemon theory#speculative evolution#speculative biology#pokemon evolution#grass type pokemon
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any time i remember that trump supporters are in any way associated with christianity i feel fcking insane
#i dont wanna vent too much on the internet#its just . like. a fucking anomaly. these things do not fit together. i dont understand#contradictory to the point of nausea#textpost tag#i dont know i feel like i should. i have so many (scattered)thoughts i want to put together#like there are. important things. and i want everyone to... like i love god. and i know that this is so important and i want everyone to#understnad and have access to that. like deep soul fulfilling stuff. and the core of beautiful love for everyone forever . etc im tired rn#but then some fcking how. the . hell world we live in and like constructed human culture and such#twists it all in a way that makes it so inaccessible to so many people#and i look around and im just horrifiei#i know this might sound like a less important topic to some but to me and my understanding its like. to be able to know christ *is* the#best thing that can happen for someone#and prioritising that comes from a place of i just care about people so much. and i want. good things . obviously.#i dont wanna come off as annoyingly preachy i just. i really mean what i say#and when that gets fcked with im like head explosion.#the love of christ compels us for we are convinced one died for all. etc#maybe ill write my thoughts coherently one day
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Lets say
hypothetically
these two have to share an office
#don't ask why#i have no reason#i love how greedy texan looks like he has a jacket 3 times his size#as if he had to borrow it from a dwarf#too wide#deep rock galactic#my art#deep rock galactic fanart#drg#mission control#greedy texan#lemme know if my MC has gotten any better im trying my hardest#well ok maybe thats not visible on this doodle but yk what i mean#if someone says greedy texan looks like jschlatt i will never post again
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