#maybe im doing it wrong. Cuz i have no motivation ofc

[ko-glitch-101]

vent [TW:MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION AND LOTS OF SWEARING]

idk what the fuck is wrong with me. I literally dont want to do anything i just want to lay down do nothing and play dandys world. I jist want to stay on my phone because it distracts me from my shitty ass life. I feel unmotivated to study and im starting to get bad grades. I just want to be happy again. I want to be happy goddamit I FUCKING HATE THIS LIFE I HATE SCHOOL I HATE MY PARENTS I HATE EVERYTHING. and no one even cares. Good. Not like theyll understand me anyways. Im just so fucking tired. Im starting to think I have some sort of seasonal depression cuz why the FUCK do i feel like this from january to the first days of february. Its been happening since middleschool and now its hitting me. Idk what to do.

[jakowskis]

ok i just finished batman the caped crusader and i thought i'd dump my thoughts here cuz why not

big fan of the 1940s noir vibes, batman ofc originated in the 40s and i love that its been able to evolve w modern times but the 40s will always be its home yanno, so it's always good when it goes back to it. was one of the appeals of btas too. it esp pairs well w all the mob stuff going on within gotham theres just smth so classic abt batman beating up gangsters w tommy guns. batman n noir pair soo infinitely well. its a key component to the universe rlly

loveddd barbara and renee. i love barbara's diversity as a character, she works well n thrives in so many roles. she was essentially the main character of this tbh n she kicked ass. loved her

was cool to see characters u dont see often - i whooped when onomatopoeia showed up. too bad they underutilized him. what we did see was cool tho

toby stephens was srsly channeling tim curry oml

CARRIE!!! STEPHANIE!! there might of been more but i only clocked it when i immediately recognized carrie fsdhk (update i just checked the other two were dick n jason refs??? ok!!!!)

dude some shit was creepyyy like. idk if this was for kids per se but if i watched as a kid several things in this woulda creeped me tf out. ig it's sort of on par w btas / 90s cartoons in general which were a bit more... Intense but ya i was like woah at parts

i forgot how much fun it is to hav a villain of the week / semi unrelated story every ep like. idk if its just the shows ive been watching or a streaming thing but i feel like that genre of show n esp cartoon is a lot less common than it used to be, at least in media that's not exclusively for kids. altho again i rlly dunno what the age range for this was. maybe an intense pg idk

the elephant in the room... harley... sigh. it was rlly cool to see a harley who exists independently of joker, who created herself, but it was... an odd take for her that i wanted to like, but couldn't. it was mostly a matter of her temperament when she was doing her crimes, like i just.. couldn't reconcile it. out-of-costume harley was good, i loved her, and her x renee 👀but once that jester's costume was on it felt all wrong. i liked her motives, but the execution... you can do the off-on switch with certain characters - harley isn't one of them. a calm calculated cold harley who doesnt have any fun in her villainy just doesn't work. so that was a bummer

the bruce in this felt like a midpoint between the batman 2022's weird little freak + then, like, ur standard bruce. gd and he was fucking RUDE. it kind of drove me nuts a little tbh like his callousness with alfred (not calling him by his name???) was an odd choice imo

soo many recognizable voices in this. im a voice acting nerd so i was having fun consulting the wikipedia and going 'OHHH'

i hav more thoughts but im sleepy so im jus gonna wrap up by saying ive been following this since day one like i read a news article abt it wayyy back in 2021 when it was in development n i followed news on it for ages n its so cool to see the final product, like i havent had tht w many things i usually forget abt stuff fshkdj. also i cant believe max passed on it like this had all the ingredients of a winner n it turned out even better than you'd expect. baffling

all n all p damn good except for some odd character choices but i very much liked it

[boyfhee]

i woke up, went on tumblr.com like one does, and the first thing i see is “to you, with love” reblogged for me. 

so i closed the app. screamed a bit into a pillow. and came back to write this.

THE THING IS.. i read that work, im pretty sure i even left an ask but it was more shy, timid (?)in a sense - “thank u, this was beautiful ,i cried.”cuz i was overwhelmed lol <- the lol is to make is seem more causal as if my heart didnt feel like it was punched ^^

but i remember vividly going through heeseung hashtag and seeing this for the first time.. and the title was cute, i was like “oh fluff”. i had not read the genre or warnings notes before diving into it….

so u can imagine my reaction to this sentence…

“however, heeseung’s death changed that for you.” BTW  ofc the best time to read angst its dead into the night with taylor swift playing on my headphones :>

if i remember correctly, you deleted it (?) and then posted it again? i read it the very first time it was uploaded. this might have been a changing point cuz i didn't read angst.. not in it full potential like that before this and know im knees deep 

i finished reading it. and time kinda froze. the concept of hearing the voice of the love of your life. when things were good, were fine. i wept. BUT hearing them talk about what future could hold for both of u? knowing what u know now? literally curled with my phone in my hand and bawled my eyes out

promises… the forever heartbreaking factor of life.. what are they? meant to be broken or kept.. maybe neither.. i hate them… they give false hope for those who long and yearn to be reassure and make u believe that a single person could hold such a power over the universe… well, heeseung certainly couldn't.. no matter how genuinely his heart was beating while he said “forever”

wow, im in my feels again, i just loved it, truly loved it and cherished it for so long, in my own little world with spiraling thoughts about this, 

thank u thank u thank u  thank u!!!!!!!!!!! ur works mean the world to me

im sorry for making u sad with my ask, but i cant help it :] u made me feel too much !!!!!!!!!!

i loved the poem. the flashbacks from the fic hit me like a truck. whats ur favorite poem? ^^ i would love to read some if u have a recommendation

thanks for the little career stuff note, i appreciate it a lot truly

thank u in general, ure the coolest writer,  love u too 

ps. hee angst ?? i might die tho

                                               - > swift anonie ♡♡♡

ANON MAY I INTEREST YOU IN ANOTHER THOUGHT I HAD . about 'to you, my love' being set after 'if lovesick was a person' 😁😁 IT FITS SO WELL im so devastated actually . and that's why they tell u to read the warnings but who am i to say bc i straight up jump to the content ( i like surprises ) also i didn't delete it, my brother deleted my whole acc before i remade under the same user and reposted it 😭 oh but im so honoured that was the beginning of your angst reading arc, you should not be missing out on such a genre

and ur thoughts on promises, umm i can't say you're all wrong but i think they can serve as a driving force to do something? like some sort of motivation, or a reason idk . obvs, not saying that empty promises should be made. actually i dont have any opinion here, head empty. please never apologise for sending sad asks or wtv, i enjoy reading ur thought processes ure really really cool 🫵💗 as for poem recs hmm; i wandered lonely as a cloud by willian wordsworth, cadabianca by felicia dorothea hemans, la belle dame sams merci by john keats, rain before dawn, on a play twice seen and marching streets by fitzgerlad ( anything by him and emily dickinson is worth reading ) that's all i have on the top of my head

and no, thank u for taking ur time to write these asks, you're even cooler than me fr ☝️

[spooki-ghoztzz]

hiii im the anon who sent the uhh clingy s/o one, if its not too much cans i request aaa yandere william with an also yandere gn s/o or crush ? or maybe a yandere dave even

sorryyyy im just a lil bit homo today

( I’M FEELING A LIL BOTH TODAY ANON. ur getting the best outta me today cuz I'm feeling motivated- ima sick with s/o cuz i suck at writing hcs that..aren��t that </3)

As soon as i thought of this my brain went to the song “An Unhealthy Obsession” for the simple reason of that’s how it's gonna sum this up-

Even before you two got together you stalked the hell out of each other(and some killing ofc), almost every bit of information about each other. Till ended up catching him watching him through your window- he was worried you’d call the police but you just..invited him in?

Once he was invited in you just asked him to join you on the couch for cuddles,he said yes of course and that’s when you went on about how you’ve stalked him for almost a whole two years (yeah he’s surprised for fucking sure since he’s only done it for only 5 months)

He just stared at you before kissing you,saying he liked you back- and thats how y’all met. weirdos

Tbh you two are fucking terrifying when it comes to being yanderes,it depends on the type you are. Williams a good mix of murderer and stalker,you might as well be also.

William loves you of course but you gotta chill with killing every man or woman who gives him any sort of attention- he does the same for sure but it’s mostly men. (he hates fucking men for some reason,don’t mind it-)

He also kinda expects you to reward him after he hurt someone for you,even if he’s all bloody he’d ask for kisses and cuddles-

Meanwhile he’d make sure to at least do the same for you,saying “You did great luv.how about we go home and watch somefin’ on the telly,yeah?”

Tbh y’all are just a creepy ass power couple-

Despite Dave and Will being the same as i’ve said before,he’s somewhat different plus how you met was somewhat similar.

You two met by seeing each other take pictures of one another while you two were working- yeah that’s how the hell you two ended up dating and getting all crazy over each other more than you were.

Dave isn’t a killer for the most part but will threaten people and stalk them till they feel like they’re going insane. He’d do anything for you even if it was to poison someone-

If you kill for him,he’d lowkey feel special and happy- like he’d cuddle up on you even if you’re covered head to toe in blood and start kissing you “Awhh shucks y/n you didn’t have to kill all them bastard for lil ol’ me!” “..They looked at you the wrong way,Dave..” “Honeybun it’s alright,promise ya!”

Dave legit praises you like you’re damn royalty after you kill for him,all on you and kissing you all over since you deserve it! You got your hands bloody for him and only him <3

Now,this might be the Will side showing but he has a good reason he doesn’t kill,he’s done it enough and he can just let someone else get their hands bloody instead of him.

 honestly love to watch you get jealous for a simple thing,for example a random man or woman look at him or try to talk to him. Yeah he understands their throats are gonna be ripped out-

If you’d rather not kill kids for remnant cause hey,i hope you aren’t that low but he’d gaslight you into doing it. He’d make you feel bad and just give it.

After all,you two can be together forever if you do!

[moons-and-stars-and-shit]

Hiii i saw your matchups/cakes and I LOVE THEM. English is not my first language so i am sorry for any wrong spelings and grammar use lol. Can a Get a boy from Hq?????? I am a capricorn, with a lot of fire sign in my chart. ISTP. Tall girl, 175cm. Dark blond hair to under my shoulders, blue eyes. Lean bulid, but mby a little broad shoulders and waist. Enything else is normal ig. I indeed have cheek bones and jawline, a caps face traits a think. Stretch marked on my ass and things. Im just gonna keep my personality short cuz i dont know how to talk about myself. Im Shy and intro and first, then i will open up and become a messy and late-coming person. Im never on time to anything. Once you know me and logical thinking, feisty, dark humor type of funny, sly, stubborn, determind, strong minded, oberetiv and a daredevil. I will do enything for somthing in return. Nobody can hold me back. I am also a Clumsy person, a will let a word og two slip and offend somone, will break or forget somthing. Im always there my friends, help them out with everthing and my door is always open for them. Street smart all the way, i Can talk about enything and give tips and trix on enything. Im not the Life of the party, in a party im either outside or taking care of Ppl or i am sipping for other ppls drinks. I listen to pop/rock but i Can vibe to anything. I also love pasta. And cats, but im allergic): I overthink a lot, tend to bottle up on my emotions and then just let it burst when im alone. I got bullied as a kid, thats why i keep to myself and have Some close friends and then friends i dont trust that much. I like long lasting realtionships and friendships. I wont settle for somthing that i dont belive will work. I just want to feel safe and loved and held, lol. Am i rly ugly cryer btw so i wont look into another persons eyes. I train a lot, do sport shooting, wresle a lot with my friends and dad in a safe way ofc. I love to have a friendly and funny wtesle. I lough a lot. I said i do sport shooting, and i hate it when ppl take it the wrong way and starts to compare it to illegal activity. That my biggest pet peeve, and loud chewers. I LOVE CHEES AND CARD GAMES. Also late night means and snacks. My favorite time is like late at night, after sundown. Late night walks. Laser tag or paint ball is a must, Water and pillow fights AGH my dreams. Also, just to chill in a bathtub👌🏻✨Pfffff Idk what more. I would like a boy form Haikyuu, whos taller than me. Would be up to my randome and mby dangerous ideas, but also calm and relaxing when it fits the mood. Dosent need to know how to comfort a crying person, just like do the basics and ill be fine. THANK YOU SO MUCH😘

@sussebassen

Romantic Matchup

Tendou Satori

How Y’all Met

Ahhhh

Y’all had a class together

And EVERY SINGLE DAY you would show up late

Every. Single. Day

It doesn’t matter if you we’re 5 minutes late, or 15 minutes late

You never showed up on time

This peeked Tendous interest...

So, he asked you about it

You then explained how you never try to be late, it just always happened

Then one day

Satori was walking to class

The bell was going to ring soon so he was trying to hurry

Then he saw you

You were also just trying to get to class ON TIME for once

But you tripped...

And you fell...

And ALL of your papers went everywhere 🥲

You silently cursed to yourself before rushing to pick up your things

And you we’re startled when a certain redhead began to help you

You guys had gathered all of your things before RUNNING to get to class

And you guys were still able to make it on time 😃

The teacher made a remark that maybe you should hang around Tendou more often if it gets you to class on time

Little did he know that you would do just that

Apparently you both had similar interests

So you guys became really good friends

And feeling began to bloom over time

Poor bb was to scared to confess to you tho :(

He didn’t want to scare off one of the only friends he had

Of course he told all of this to Ushijima

And of course Ushijimas LOUD MOUTH

spilled the beans

Unintentionally of course

But still

He just didn’t get the gist that all of this was supposed to be a secret

So one day when he and Tendou were walking together

They saw you

And Ushijima was just like “ah your that person that Tendou likes correct?”

You:���

Him:🙂

Tendou: 🥲

Tendou then took you aside and properly confessed his feelings

He was 100% sure you were gonna reject him

“I like you too Tendou”

I’m sorry what????

He was SHOCKED

Baffled

Beguiled

But SUPER DUPER HAPPY

he pulled you in for a bone crushing hug

And promised to be the best bf ever

Awww my boy luvs ya

What They Love About You

Ight I’m just gonna say it...

Mans ADORES your stretch marks

He thinks they’re so cool!!!

He often compares you to a tiger because of them

Oof

He LOVES your sense of humor

He also has a darker sense of humor

So you guys mesh very well when it comes to that

Loves that you have the combo of being sly and a daredevil

If there’s one thing satori loves...

It’s pranks

So those traits of yours make pranks so much easier to pull off 😩

He loves how he can talk to you about ANYTHING

He knows that if he’s ever distressed about something he can go to you

So he’s vv grateful for that 🙏

Favorite Things To Do Together

Oh he LOVES to play card games

His favorites is slap Jack

WARNING: he gets REALLY into that game

So he hits HARD

So be prepared...

He 100% swoops you away to stores in the middle of the night

Have you guys been caught sneaking out?

Yes

Was that the last time you did it?

Absolutely not

LASER TAGGGGGG

YOU WILL GET DESTROYED

MANS IS THE KING OF LASER TAG

So just take that L

Also paintball

He’s not that good at paintball

Mans aim is booty

But he still likes to play!

Random Hc

You’d actually be quite shocked on how chill he could be

Like sometimes he just reads his manga sin silence

If you want to talk then sure

But those are the moments he prefers to be quiet

The reason he’s so good at laser tag...

Is because kids used to target him 🥲

So he had to adapt...

And now he’s a pro!

If you ever want to talk to him about your bullyed past

ON GOD mans is always there for you

He knows what it feels like

So his goal is to comfort you when it comes to that

Honestly

Mf chews loud...

So that’s something you’d have to work on 😃

But he’ll try his best to stop if it bothers you THAT much

Astrology

Capricorn + Taurus

When Taurus and Capricorn come together in a love match, it’s a practical, sensible partnership.

These two Signs share a certain down-to-earth logic and interest in efficiency.

Taurus is not interested in risking more than is necessary in terms of emotional connection and involvement, and Capricorn is similarly disinterested in risk, but more in terms of money and career.

Capricorn’s career is one of the great focuses of their lives; they’re interested in scaling the heights and tend to set very high standards for themselves to adhere to.

Taurus has high standards as well, but regarding love, relationships and possessions.

These two signs admire ones dedication and strength, but, while they have this in common as well as a dependable, realistic, somewhat conservative approach to life (Capricorn more than Taurus), a love relationship between them can go stale fast.

The problem? They’re actually rather different at their cores.

Taurus may begin to find Capricorn too conservative and restrictive

Capricorn may start to think Taurus is too lazy and doesn’t care enough about career and status.

If Taurus can encourage Capricorn to relax a little and appreciate the fruits of labor, and if Capricorn can help motivate Taurus to achieve goals and make dreams a reality, their union can be smooth, happy and long-lasting.

Overall Aesthetic

Chaotic Teenage Romance

Songs

Electric Love- BØRNS

Line Without a Hook- Ricky Montgomery

Scrawny- Wallows

Hey Lover- Wabie

[infernallovewitch]

an unnecessary rant

Okay so here’s the fucking deal and I think I’m going crazy right now so if you’re reading this, bare with me. At a certain point I will actually completely give up on spelling and grammar so

and i cant just sit there and blame my past my abuser for whats going on with me now cuz its been like fuckin over two goddamn years since i freed myself from all the bullshit that was him and what he did to me but that doesnt for some reason stop the trauma and all the goddamn garbage thats still in my brain like... have i tried to get better? yes and maybe no? i have no idea why im like this but frankly im making myself sick from trying to be like someone im not but im so far down the rabbit hole of trying to better myself for my significant other but im doing it in all the wrong ways i was really hoping i could just leave all this shit behind me and move on with my life and do the things i want to do but now i just feel like i big fucking failure because im not in school anymore and like why am i even trying to move to one of the most expenisve cities in the US????!?! im going crazy because i have all these insecurities left over from the shittiest time in my life, like no one could love me for me, people love me bcause i can mold myself into any person they want me to be but why? i wasnt worried about this a couple months ago i was just healing from my breakup but its like now that someone new loves me why am i under the impression that he will just get up and leave me once he gets to know me better like???????????where did all of this even come from actually i know where but why did it stay all locked up in my brain? i just want to be sane and healthy like im not even doing the things i would have even thought to do months ago but here i am trying to fit into a mold im worried he wants me to fit into but he tells me every day that he loves me and im just so worried that its because he doesnt really know me 100%. my brain feels like its being tased and the electricity is running down my body in my nervous system but jetngksnfohnjklf i cant handle it anymore i just want to be normal but at this point what would normal me be doing right now? not sitting in my room writing this thats for fucking sure and i jsut cant even ssoiojslg fucking gather my thoughts together into something that makes sense my mind is running a goddamn marathon right now and i know if i try to meditate that i will just lose myself in the mud again and im already drowining in it im fucking drowning in mud and my crystalline brain is turning into moldy mush as im typing this and im worried im going to keep ruining my life like this and like why am i even making art now am i just trying to be good enough or am i actually motivated to create and like im just trying to relax i have fucking vaporwave on but that just reminds me of otis even more cuz like the first thing he ever said to me was “do u like vaporwave” and even with him i was tryign to be someone else but like six months after we started dating but like he hates me now anyway so i cant find any goddamn solice in him because he was my best friend for so long and now hes gone forever and i cant ever get that restored in any way and i cant tell charlie anything because im already worried he thinks im crazy and i cant afford to see a therapist ever again and even then mom and dad would be so disappointed that i havent taken care of myself im just trying to prove to everyone around me that im sane and that im taking care of myself and that im growing up and im not constantly fucking ruining my fucking life and im just worried and stressed about everything im seeing charlie in a few fucking days and im worried so much that after spending a week with him that he will be disappointed in me but what would that even matter like ofc i love him but maybe i just cant stand to be hurt again im worried im fucking worried and i shouldnt be im just a mess and i have been this whole time and under all the rubble im trying to find answers and trying to fix myself but i keep choosing to do the wrong thing all the time for what??? insecurity ??? im a mess and im lost under all the mud and i need help i fucking need help and whats stopping me from asking otis for help because i know he would just laugh at me??? like why am i like this and why do i keep thinking that he will help me he fucking hates me and i dont even know why i guess thats why people say love makes u crazy and thats where i am right now love is making me crazy and maybe i shouldnt be in a relationship because i kno theyve always been bad for me why am i doing this to myself im always totally fine and 100% myself when im single when im not worried about what my s/o thinks of me im CRAZY