#maybe ill give myself some dumbass goals like i used to in ninth grade again | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

butchnavi · 1 year ago

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god i hate depression and chronic pain/fatigue

i should probably reduce my screen time

like i literally do not care about anything anymore

i can't remember the last time i finished a book without it being a big deal

i can't remember the last time i was able to watch even one episode of a show without constantly wanting to stop and literally dragging through it

i can't remember the last time i didn't literally force myself to get out of bed

i can't remember the last time i was able to finish writing a chapter of anything

i can't remember the last time i had a conversation with one of my best friends that didn't feel like a chore

ive started making fucking kms jokes

i can feel it pulling me down under again but im just so tired and i dont know how to stop it before it becomes too late and i forget how to think clearly anymore

#i think im gonna go off tumblr for a while. till my exams end (they haven't started yet btw)#if im back i probably (hopefully?) feel better #let's hope today is just a shitty day and ill be okay tomorrow and this isnt indicative of a larger you know pattern #i feel like im staring at screens too much #maybe ill give myself some dumbass goals like i used to in ninth grade again #talk to a person! do a good deed! yada yada yada #thats probably whats exhausting me ive been having headaches a lot and the screen thing defo isnt helping #thats probably the root cause of all evil #i still have to study on a screen but ill try to minimise it #liveblogging.pdf #also irls please dont interact with this post i want to pretend you didnt see this thank you

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