#maybe i’m misinterpreting what certain posts have been saying but that’s kinda what i’ve taken away from this

[afrenomes]

Hot take I guess but I don’t think American Jews should be preaching to Israelis, who’ve been under near-constant bombardment from Hezbollah rockets for the past year or so, about whether it’s “appropriate” or not to treat this situation with some sense of humor

[primalvessel]

Without saying with whom, list something that has pleasantly surprised you about your most recent five RPs or other interactions.

Okay I may have misinterpreted this since I wasn’t sure if it was one thing encompassing five recent interactions/rps (even though these could be with a bunch of different people) or one thing for each of five recent rps/interactions so I’m sorry if this is more than what you meant. I went with the latter which hopefully fulfills the criteria either way?

I’ve popped it under a readmore because it’s a smidge long having done it that way.

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1.) To start with, it was real nice to get those asks from Kink Rating meme and before you start in on me being a horny little gremlin (which I am, no lie), it was more the fact that I posted that meme days ago and yet someone took the time to send the asks anyway (they were formatted the same way so I'm assuming it was the same person).

Asks of any kind are always welcome, prompted or otherwise and as a small blog who generally doesn't get many asks, it was a really nice surprise to come online to see that someone had taken the time to send something.

THEY WERE VERY TARGETED ASKS TOO.

And I loved it.

2.) Getting to explore and indulge in certain topics that it’s so rare to be able to, whether it’s out of embarrassment, shyness or just a lack of interest. Whether they’re darker topics, kinkier ones or just less mainstream. Being able to talk about them with someone. I’m going to count this towards Soren’s blog too because there are things there that can or are happening that wouldn’t work on Maru’s blog and while Soren was created in no small part to invite those darker themes, it’s still a nice surprise when I actually get them.

3.) No-one’s come at me for being weird or awkward while I’ve been trying to leave more comments and send asks and things for people. I’m really not very good at talking to people and sometimes when I see that little mutual mark, I get a little excited. On more than one occasion I’ve left a comment or sent an ask and then immediately sat there and asked myself if that came out right, if maybe that wasn’t an appropriate ask to send and anxiety sweated while I wait for some kind of forcibly polite and awkward comment, or some kind of gtfo comment and block because I’ve made things weird.

So not having been attacked because I’ve accidentally said something stupid has been nice. I say this because I know how unnecessarily petty people can be in callouts and things.

4.) This kinda ties into and extends point 1 but. Getting asks related to something that’s happened on my blog somewhere has been something that hasn’t happened ever on my blogs in other fandoms so to see it happen here has been amazing. Even if the person sending the ask is the one I’m already interacting with in whatever’s being referred to. It’s like someone enjoys reading over my blog, or wants to know more or something. It’s a really nice feeling and a huge surprise whenever someone goes out of their way to send an ask like that.

5.) And finally, people just liking my posts? I don’t post much ooc at all, nor do I post much in the way of musings or pictures but it’s always a really nice surprise when someone drops a like on something I’ve posted. Again I’m comparing to other blogs I’ve had, some of which have had many more followers than here and yet far less interaction between the content people posted.

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And there you have it!

I hope I hit on what you were looking for in there somewhere!

And now I’ll sit here and hope I haven’t said something stupid in there somewhere accidentally...

[formless-monkeys]

1 So Otto being autistic is something I've accepted as canon (haha yeah sorry Ciro, no takin' that from me now) and you've made me kind of fond of Antauri being autistic too. MAY I PRESENT, HOWEVER: Mandarin being somewhere on the spectrum, too.

2 This is potentially why he considered Otto HIS "closest ally," but Otto didn't consider him to be his. Mandy could've felt Otto was the only person he didn't have to stifle himself around (since Otto clearly wouldn't have been taught to do so like I suspect Mandy and Tauri were by the Verans, and would never judge him anyway), whereas Otto just saw him as another pal.

3 ALSO, some of Skelemandarin's behavior when he was really happy in I, Chiro could almost be taken as like. Monkey-flapping. (This entire idea is 100% your fault by the way; your post describing your antics when you cosplayed Skelemandy made me THINK, the nerve of you.)

Haha. Haha.

May have thought about this during class.

Mandarin would've spent a good chunk of his time trying to live up to neurotypical standards. Knowing him, he might have taken "I shouldn't act/think like this" down to the core. He'd have to brute force his way through training, repeating lessons not made for people who think like him until he eventually got it. He had to be perfect or else he wasn't good enough for the Verons. He'd come out of training a master of the power primate, with perfect form and perfect precision... but all that repression would lead to a lot of but up energy. He wouldn't allow himself to stim to get rid of it, he wouldn't leave stressful situations because 'normal monkeys can put up with this', so he'd attempt to bottle up the feelings, or use then during battle. It would likely manifest in lashing out at others and a need for control.

Antauri was probably already quiet, so would probably have less trouble conforming to the standards. He wouldn't need to take the conformity to heart, so he would take the lessons and reinterpret them in a way he could understand. He would still be a master of the power primate, but his form would be of his own creation. Using your hands to manipulate the power could've been seen as a sign of someone lesser skilled, but in reality, he was equally matched with Mandarin. He was still raised in an environment where his behaviors were discouraged, so he likely had shame associated with his stims, only allowing himself to do it in private. You cant be reprimanded if they dont see you doing it. Meditation would be the best way for him to recharge from all the sensory hell that he has to deal with every day. He was quiet before, and might've been encouraged to speak more, so he began using quotes from the readings of the Verons. He thinks they make him sound wise (and they do). One must show their best selves to the world, but your best self isnt what the world wants. You put together scripts and predetermined responses to make a best self to show the world what they want. (Aka how I've survived 16 years, haha fake it till you make it!)

Mandarin and Antauri could be on opposite ends of the 'empathy' part of the autism spectrum. Mandarin may need to work hard to read other people's feelings, and may make assumptions that aren't true, "I brute force my way through new sensations, Nova can do that too, by being in the elements to learn to face them!" "Surely the rest of the team thinks we should have more control over everything, right?" "Otto doesn't mind some of the things I'm incredibly shameful about, we must be BESTIES" he probably comes across as rude, when really he just has no idea the impact of what he's saying, it just sounds really cool.

Wheras Antauri seems to be good at reading people, and follows the extreme empath person trend of "I must become therapist/parent figure/support to make them feel better, even if it hurts me." Bottling up your feelings isn't healthy my dude.

Otto, on the COMPLETE other end of things, was just bound by Gibson and Sprx. He could flap his hands and climb around and use his feet for stuff and the other two monkeys would just be like "aight, sure". The worst he'd get is a bit of dismissal if they think he's being annoying... which. It kinda sounds like he's gotten from Gibson, even during the show. (Kinda blanking on if Sparx did this, and I could probably make a whole other post on just Otto). He thinks along the same logic as Mandarin and Antauri, but without the shame being drilled into him. He's a perfect engineer, finding creative solutions and quickly too!

He's probably SUPER empathetic, but not the best at showing it. He makes gadgets and gifts for his friends but really doesnt know how to help on the emotional side of things. He cares just as much but shows it a little differently.

After training with the Verons and working with the team, Mandarin would've latched onto Otto like a fly to sugar. He would've been drowning in shame and self-hatred and Otto would've been the closest thing to a life raft. (Even though antauri would understand just as much. Mandarin might not trust him to not judge because they both had the same training and Antauri doesn't display as openly as otto. Or maybe he misinterpreted something Antauri said as 'oh, he hates these tendencies too!') He was probably so starved for positive affirmation, that he latched on to every source of it he could. (Probably a reason the Chiro clones were Like That to Mandarin) Otto naturally wants to help him, but Mandarin's issues are a giant pile of dirt and Otto has a spoon. If he was more open and honest with the team, they couldve helped him, or worked with him... but he wasn't. He kept as much of it inside as he could, until it manifested in into trying to medicate the feeling of being out of crlontrol. With trying to control the entire city...

Fun thing about certain types of autism, is that being kept in one place, not allowed to move, not allowed to speak, with only your mind to occupy you. It's hell. It is actually hell. Understimulation is a special type of hell.

So glad that after the Verons were destroyed Skelemandarin was able to stim during I, Chiro. Probably was the best moment of his life before being thrown into the OTHER type of sensory hell, overstimulation. The walls are 29394 neon colors and the floor is sticky and squishy and you're actually starving and you're alone and its loud and you keep getting attacked by sticky squirmy monsters.

I'm so glad my cosplaying shenanigans sparked this. This headcanon is... v important to me.

Also, based on this massive ramble; Otto loves mint and Antauri hates mint.

[misssophiachase]

can someone write a hs!klaroline tatbilb au maybe? I would love for you to write it! I love your work, you’re such a good romance writer

Wow, I’m SO sorry I took SO long nonnie….this is kinda a bigdeal given the awesome movie “To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before” i’ve watched way too many times to count, but nopressure right? Thank you for such a lovely compliment too. I hope you like it.

Signed,Sealed, Delivered

“I’m Yours…”

“So, do you do this often, Forbes?” He asked curiously, hisexpression incredulous with a hint of smirk and a side of unwanteddimples. 

If only Klaus Mikaelson could be ordered like a cheeseburger,life would be so much easier. Pickles were not unwanted but dimples mostcertainly were in this situation. They were underneath the bleachers post-game,a place she’d never imagined herself ever, but especially with him.

She made a mental note not to do deals with the devil in futureand agree to meet in such precarious places. He was the lacrosse captain withmultiple conquests and Caroline was the student body president and debate teamcaptain who spent her time arguing rather than familiarising herself with theopposite sex. 

After all they only got in the way.

The annoyingly, unapologetic and gorgeous blonde towering overher now, case in point. 

He smelled like a mixture of soap, mint and fresh dirt from thefield but for some reason it was an irresistible combination. She shook herhead, determined to rid herself of the unwanted shivers and pushed onpretending to care she didn’t actually care.

It made sense, at least in her head. 

“What? Converse with Neanderthals devoid of any intelligence wholure me to the bleachers? I know you usually frequent this place but I have areputation to uphold, Mikaelson.” She couldn’t miss the way his expressionchanged, wincing slightly, something she wasn’t expecting at all. 

Was the King of High School, Klaus Mikaelson, actually selfconscious? She’d seen a flash of it years ago but thought it had been well andtruly destroyed by the usual, high school, social hierarchy.

But it didn’t last long, his crimson lips curving into a slysmile as he stepped closer.

“And here I thought you were only here for some lacrosse tips,”he murmured sarcastically, his lips grazing her ear lobe before returning hisgaze to hers. 

Unflinching. 

Dark blue on light. 

“You wish.”

She could tell by the brief flash in his eyes he wasdisappointed. “Tell me, did I really misinterpret your love letter?” 

Caroline froze, his reason for meeting all too clear andconfusing at the same time.  Her mind flashed back to the night of thewinter dance in junior high when she penned an overly adjective-riddled andembarrassing letter. Years later she still blamed it on the punch which sheswore was spiked.  

4 years earlier…

Her date had dumped her unceremoniously at coat check. It took all her willpower not to cry, running into the comfort of thewarm coats provided her some brief solace. She’d organised the whole dance andit would not look good walking in alone. She just needed time to composeherself and come up with a plan. Well, that was until he spoke.

His voice wasn’t much higher than a growl until she turned toseek out the source of the noise. Sat between two dress racks, his legs crossedshe recognised him as the newest transfer student from England.

The other girls in her year eight class had been whisperingincessantly about his sudden arrival and the fact his looks could render anyoneuseless to his charms. Caroline didn’t buy into popularity or guys who couldjust flash their dimples and get what they wanted. So she’d kept her distanceon purpose. 

She wouldn’t admit it at the time but there was more than onereason why she was happy for space. He was gorgeous and her willpower seemed towane within a close radius and there was no way she ever wanted him to knowthat. After all, his ego was big enough to suffocate their class, if not thewhole of junior high.

“I’m not in charge of coat check, love.”

“Excuse me?” She huffed, not caring in the slightest about whyhe was there and the check-in status of her coat.

“Well, I was just…”

“Hanging around in coat check,” she huffed. “So classy, althoughthat’s not really surprising.”

“Wow,” he exclaimed, examining his watch before turning his gazeback towards her. “Judgment before 9pm and from the junior high student body president ofall people.”

“You don’t even know…” 

“Who you are?” He countered. “I always thought you had a bigstick up your ass and tonight is no different but I did vote for you.”

“Oh really?” She asked, her interest now piqued. “Why?”

“You looked hot in your poster,” Klaus shrugged by way ofexplanation.

“You are unbelievable,” she hissed. “Can you just go and hook upwith your latest conquest and leave me be?”

“More judgment, surprised you didn’t get elected on thatplatform,” he quipped. Caroline rolled her eyes, knowing she’d given too muchattention to someone who didn’t deserve it, even if he was annoyinglyattractive.

“You’ll have to excuse me if hiding in the closet doesn’t evokecertain judgments,” she growled.

“But yet here you are,” he mused.

“I have no intention ofmaking out with you of all people.”

“Me of all people?” He asked, his left eyebrow kinkedcuriously. “I’m devastated, Forbes.” 

“God knows where those lips have been,” she shuddered withoutmissing a beat or his sarcasm. “Seriously, you voted for me?” 

“I wondered how long that would take to really absorb,” hechuckled. “You promised to extend the art program.”

“Well, of course I did,” she replied. “It’s a no-brainer.Although, I don’t think I’ve ever seen any of your work.” 

“Maybe because you were too busy judging me,” he smirked. 

“So, judgment aside, what exactly are you doing in the coatcloset? I heard that half of our class asked you to the dance.” 

“If you believe that, but I just don’t like dances,” heexplained. “Also, my family are, uh kind of intense, so it was easierto come and keep them happy while hiding out in the closet.”  

“If it makes you feel any better, I just got dumped by my dateand this closet is looking like a better option every moment.”

“What an ass, who is he?”

“Why? Are you going to bash him over the head with your lacrossestick?” She smiled, thinking it was her first in a while. 

“Unfortunately I left it at home but there’s something else wecould do to mess with him.”

“And what is that exactly?”

“Would you like to be my date, Caroline Forbes?”

“I thought you didn’t like dances?” She askedincredulously. 

“Only ones without any real purpose,” he shared. “Now I have mymission, I’m going in. Care to join me?” He held out his hand and shecouldn’t resist taking it while trying to ignore the shivers she feltreverberating through her body.    

It was then that the guy who seemed like a chauvinistic enemybecame someone who maybe had a heart but hid it behind a whole lot ofbravado. And it scared her. 

To death.  

Well, until he practically ignored her after that night, almost like itnever happened, and suddenly he was the guy she first thought he was. 

And it hurt.

Al least she wouldn’t see him at high school she’d thought,until he sat next to her in English class first day.

She was doomed to spend the rest of her schooling life with Klaus Mikaelson.  

“What letter?” She asked, pretending to play dumb but madlytrying to work out how her letter had found its way into his smug possession.

“This one,” he pulled from his pocket. “I especially like thered love heart stickers on the front, Forbes. Really reinforces the point afterthat adjective-riddled composition.” Damn it, she knew there were too many describing words.

“Give that back to me,” she growled, trying to ignore the heatthat was creeping up from her neck and to her cheeks.

“Oh, so it is your letter?” He smiled, holding it above his headso she couldn’t snatch it from his grasp.  

“You’re an ass, Mikaelson,” she bit out, still reeling from thesituation and how it even happened. They were in a box at the top of her closetsafely stowed away from prying eyes and arrogant jerks like Klaus Mikaelson.

“Well, that’s not what this letter says,” he offered, attemptingto open it and no doubt read a passage from her embarrassing thirteen year-oldmusings. She took the opportunity to steal it and she couldn’t miss his disappointment that she had. 

“I didn’t send this,” she bit out. “But when I find out who did, I’m going to kill them.”

“So, you did write this?” He implored, suddenly his joking had taken a more serious tone.

“When I was a young and naive thirteen year-old and thought you were actually a decent person. But obviously I was stupidly mistaken, you are nothing but an arrogant, selfish jock who only cares about his latest hook-up.”

“Wow, you really think that badly of me?”

“Yes.” Caroline refused to look into those blue eyes which had secured him more conquests than she could count. “Just leave me alone.”

“What if I don’t want to?” 

“Seriously, Mikaelson? Is this how you get girls? Pretend to care about their feelings then lure them to your bed? I’m way too smart to be seduced by you.”

“And that’s why I like you, love,” he hit back immediately. “I have since that night in the coat room.”

“Well, you had a funny way of showing it.” 

“I’m not very good at feelings or emotions four years ago and still today, blame my messed up family, but I felt it too. I might not have written it down but it happened.”

“Excuse me if I don’t believe you,” she huffed. 

“Fine, I completely understand,” he murmured. “But I seem to recall you ignoring me when I came up to you in the library after the dance.”

“I didn’t…”

“You rolled your eyes at your academic entourage like I wasn’t worthy of your time,” he murmured. “You accuse me of being judgmental Caroline but I’m not the only one.”

Caroline stilled wanting it not to be true but flashing back to their previous encounters he was probably right. She’d believed every rumour she’d heard about Klaus without a second thought. 

“I rolled my eyes because I was trying to be cool so you would like me more,” she admitted, albeit sheepishly. 

“And to think I already liked you, Forbes. We could have saved a lot of time.”

“So, now what?” She squeaked, suddenly feeling very stupid and not just about her embarrassing letter. “It seems like we’re at an extremely awkward impasse.”

“Well, you see there’s this dance coming up and I don’t have a date…”

“You mean prom?” She uttered. “And last time I checked Hayley Marshall is talking up your impending royal ascension as a couple.”

“There’s that judgmental side rearing its ugly head,” he chided. “Do you really believe everything you’re told in the school halls because between you and me only twenty percent is true I’ve found.”   

“So you did really eat that duck?” She joked.

“Everything but the beak and the feet,” he recited from Ten Things I Hate About You. 

“You like teen, romantic comedies too?” 

“There’s a whole lot you don’t know about me, Forbes,” he teased. “So about this dance, want to go with me?”

“I thought you didn’t like dances?” 

“Only when I don’t have a purpose, Forbes,” he reiterated, like their night four years ago. 

“And what exactly is this purpose, Mikaelson?”

“How about I tell you when we’re done?” 

Caroline wasn’t one to take a leap of faith, she preferred to play things safe and her experiences from dances hadn’t been the best but for some reason she was willing to take a chance on Klaus.

But whomever sent that letter was going to pay.

Big time.   

On FF HERE

[twdmusicboxmystery]

AK’s Script Notes and Why I Love Them!

Okay, I’ve gotten some questions about this the past week and people asking me to post about it. This actually came out before last Sunday’s episode, so I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to address it. (Life is crazy and all that jive.)

So some of Angela Kang’s notes came out from episode 1. Unfortunately, they’ve lit a fire under a certain dark ship who are now on a mission, and I know people are a little disturbed by it.

So, for anyone who hasn’t seen it, what surfaced were AK’s notes on the scene they released as a sneak peek for episode 1. The one where Daryl and Carol are talking and he says Ezekiel is corny, but he’s happy for her, etc.

I want to start by saying that my FB group actually talked about this scene and reached several conclusions long before AK’s notes came out. Because it was a sneak peek for the premiere, we had this scene broken down, analyzed to death and had practically written dissertations on it before it even aired. (Hehe.)

And I remember us specifically talking about whether there was a jealous factor involved. We decided that there was, but not in the way most people would think. We thought Daryl WAS jealous of Carol and Ezekiel, but not because he’s in love with Carol and wants her to be with him. Obviously. It’s because he’s jealous of what they have. He’s lonely and has never found happiness with a romantic partner.

I think some of his bitterness about Ezekiel’s “corniness” comes from the fact that Daryl never got to have this with Beth. I can see his thought process being a little bit spiteful like, “How come THIS guy who’s so corny gets this happiness and I don’t?”

So again, my group figured all this out before episode 1 aired. In it’s purest form, his jealousy is really more about Beth than Carol. And, perhaps even more to the point, about himself and his own loneliness. At this point, he’s seen SO many couples around him in the people he cares about: Glaggie, Richonne, Rosita/Abraham, Sashraham, Tara/Denise, Aaron/Eric, and now Carzekiel. I’m sure it’s on his mind a lot.

So these notes of AK’s surfaced and one word that people are zeroing in on is “Jealousy.” Naturally, it has a certain shipping fandom screaming from the rooftops that “C@ryl is endgame.” You just have to understand that they’re misinterpreting her notes

While it doesn’t define what she means by jealousy, that didn’t bother any of us because we already knew that and what it meant. If you break down the scene in conjunction with both Daryl’s and Carol’s long-term arcs, its very apparent what the jealousy refers to.

But if you want more proof, check out the word next to jealous that those shippers are completely ignoring and just pretending isn’t there:

Saudade. 

Saudade is a word that exists in Portuguese and Galicican, but doesn’t have a direct translation into English. As you can see from Angela’s notes, it means “a feeling of nostalgia or melancholy; longing for someone or something you love that’s gone.

THIS is what Daryl is feeling in this scene. And he’s never lost Carol. She’s never been gone (although she has tried to abandon him a few times). I know the shippers are trying to say it means he’s lost his chance to be with her or some such nonsense, but think about what’s been said in the show.

Then @bluesandbeth sent me THIS LINK, which describes what saudade means. Look at what is written here, guys. Everything about it screams Beth and nothing in here sounds remotely like Carol’s arc or character:

“…a deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for an absent something or someone that one loves…the object of longing might never return…”

“Stronger forms of saudade might be felt toward people and things whose whereabouts are unknown, such as a lost lover, or a family member who has gone missing, moved away, separated, or died.”

Beth anyone? Missing girl theme, anyone? Carol has never fit ANY of these descriptions. But it goes on:

“Saudade was once described as ‘the love that remains’ after someone is gone.” 

“…the recollection of feelings, experiences, places or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, well-being, which now triggers the senses and makes one live again. (emphasis mine). It can be described as emptiness, like someone…that should be there in a particular moment is missing, and the individual feels this absence.”

See what I mean? For me, this is absolute confirmation from AK that Daryl is still thinking about Beth and it’s her loss still making him sad. (Thank you, Angela!)

Furthermore, in terms of basic logic, they would not send something like this out to fans (apparently it was part of the TWD drop box) that would have spoilers in it. So that ship saying this came out to hint that Caryl is about to go canon is kinda ridiculous. They wouldn’t be that obvious or put spoilers in the drop box.

I believe they included this to give us insight into Daryl’s loneliness. They wanted us to understand how Daryl is feeling during this scene. (Naturally some people are twisting it around to fit their own theories.) With that in mind, let’s look at some of these other notes because they really are fascinating.

Starting at the top, Angela’s notes say, (next to the line where Carol puts out his cigarette and says, “These things’ll kill you.”

“Want the sense of shared history between them, honest in a way they can’t be with anyone else; it’s 2 a.m. after the bar closed down, sitting on the hood of a car.”

So establishing their history and the fact that they’re BFFs. We already know all that, but AK was noting that she really wanted it to come through in the scene, which I think it did.

Below that from “snore fancy” through “corny” it says:

“Daryl – buried jealousy of Zeke but knows he’s not a bad guy. – King persona so counter to Daryl’s personality.”

It’s that last part that’s super-interesting to me. I already addressed the jealousy, but it specifically says that Daryl has the opposite of a king’s persona. Yeah, I could go off on volumes of tangents about this. I won’t, but here’s a few things to consider:

1. Daryl doesn’t consider himself a king. He considers himself something between humble subject and not-deserving-of-anything.

2. Maybe some of his jealousy/bitterness stems from the fact that he IS so opposite of Zeke. Like he thinks he’s undeserving BECAUSE he’s not at all like that.

3. It also goes to show that he and Carol both need someone as a romantic partner that is utterly unlike them. We’ve said it a million times: these two are ridiculously similar. That’s why they’r besties. But also why they wouldn’t make good romantic partners. They both have way too much of a predilection toward falling into darkness. Beth may not have a “king persona” (though we all know she’s the Queen of Diamonds) but her personality is VERY similar to Zeke’s, which is why she’s good for Daryl and Ezekiel is good for Carol.

Okay, you get the idea. Let’s move on.

Next, Carol’s line about how after what she went through with Ed, corny is really nice, is circled. Angela’s note says, “the heart of the deal for Carol – she’s probably never said this to anyone else.”

So once again, she can talk to Daryl about things she doesn’t talk to anyone else about. But I like that AK calls this the “heart” of the scene for Carol. This tells us a lot about the relationship from Carol’s side. She’s telling us why she’s with Zeke, why she wants to be with him, why she values his love so much. And Daryl understands not only because he knows her first husband abused her, but because he’s been the object of abuse himself. So he gets it. (Which is what it says one line down in the script: Daryl nods. He gets it.)

Finally, the part where Daryl says he’s glad and happy for her and she deserves it, AK’s note says:

“Vulnerable; heart of Daryl’s problem…wants things to be…they were but they’re not and he’s struggling with that.”

This is something Daryl’s says later to Rick in episode 1: he wants things to go back to how they were in the beginning with just their small group. He’s nostalgic for the prison and the fulfillment he felt there, but obviously, “you can’t go back.”

So yeah. That’s about all I have to say about this. Don’t let other shippers freak you out. They’re gonna say what they’re gonna say, and believe what they’re gonna believe and that’s their right. Keep in mind, they said the same thing about 5x06, because it was about Daryl and Carol running around Atlanta together. Nothing. They said it about their cabin scenes in 7x10. Nope. It won’t be any more true now than at any other time they’ve said it. The show, the show runners, and the actors have told us again and again that Carol and Daryl’s relationship is platonic.

In fact…okay this is a different ship and I’m sorry to mix them, but I was glancing back through Asks that I answered prior to 9x01 airing, and I received and answered a LOT of worried Anons about the Darsita ship. The Darsita shippers were really laying it on thick at that time about how that ship would go canon this season. 

Again, I’m a ship and let ship sort of person, but all their theories have already been pretty much disproved. We don’t know what will happen the rest of the season, of course, but we already know Rosita is with FG and spoilers tell us she’ll cheat on him…but not with Daryl. So please don’t let the shippers freak you out.

Yes, we’re shippers too and I’m sure they say similar things to this about us, but we’re also the only ones I know of that pay attention to actual symbolism in the show and listen closely to what tptb and others involved in the production actually tell us.

And then there’s that shot of Beth lying beside Daryl in Rick’s hallucination in 9x05. Just saying. ;D

[p-weezy1]

The internet is the place for you if you don’t have anything nice to say

It’s pretty upsetting to see how many people spread hate and negative words/emotions on the internet every day. Sure, there are many different topics that are occupying our minds during these times with bad dudes having too much power and others being too blind to see that we’re headed down a road that eventually leads towards a dead end, do not enter. But I think there’s a limit to everything, even if your opinion is the most relatable and targeting the problems this generation is facing it shouldn’t be facing in the 21st century. You can’t just step out there and trash everyone and everything in your way in the comfortable shelter of the internet’s anonymity because you’re convinced your words carry any significant meaning when they really do not. I wish some people would simply wake up in the morning and realize all the negativity they’re spreading is fueled by nothing other than the plain desire to have an opinion and use it against others in the same extreme way the guys they’re pointing their middle fingers towards do - it doesn’t make you any better, no matter what kind of opinion you’re sharing.  Extremism will always be extremism and you’re not going to be an exception, no matter the side you stand on. Just because you’re right about the fact that discrimination of all sorts is an issue we have. Your words can be equally as hurtful, just like your actions. So maybe think twice before you attack someone out of the blue and stomp on them like a spoiled little kid that didn’t get the toy they wanted out of their Happy Meal. It’s easy to point fingers online but it’s also easy to point them into the wrong direction.

Racism, sexism, all that is downright a terrible thing and I hate seeing nazi punks kicking it off just as much as any of us do. But really, are you going to play the “oh my god this is sexism” or “oh my god this is racism/white washing” card everytime something pops up on your social media feed that is even just potentially linked to any of these hot topics? Don’t waste your breath on Hollywood supposedly white washing shit or some comment some celebrity dropped that is per usual taken out of context. It’s just fueling the fire, not trying to extinguish it. We live in a time where everything offends someone. Even me breathing right now probably offends half the planet. I’m sure there are some people out there who are offended because the McDonald’s sign is yellow or because they put pickles on burgers. If you don’t like them, guess what. Yes you can remove them and still enjoy your burger.

If it bothers you that much get up and stop punching your computer keyboard with your greasy ass chips fingers. Leave the comfort and shelter of your own home, go outside on the streets and try to make an actual change. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not telling anyone to swallow their opinion. Just not to waste it on minor things while worse is happening. It’s important to make your own in this world we live in. If you think I do, you’re misinterpreting this entire text. Never let an idiot get away with discriminating a person for their gender, their sexual orientation or their ethnicity. It makes my blood boil just like it does yours. Of course there’s going to be controversy about whatever I’m saying right now, like I’m not used to people ripping apart everything I write or speak about. That’s cool, I’m not here to please. I have an opinion and I know that in the spheres I’m currently floating in having an opinion is not something that is actually in style. Because it’s inconvenient. For example when I expressed how I don’t like this one song by that one artist who happens to have a homosexual background. Oh my god shocker, P. W. is homophobic because he hates him. No I do not. I simply just didn’t like the song. And that’s what it’s like with the situation we’re having here. Just because I’m voicing myself about this awesome spectacle that takes place pretty much everywhere on social media right now with people using every statement that’s ‘kinda’ racist or ‘kinda’ sexist or ‘kinda’ discriminating in any sort of aspect as an excuse to spread their useless hate and make them feel better about themselves doesn’t automatically lead to the conclusion that I’m not all for equality - because I am and I’ve shared my opinion on it more than once. All I’m saying is you’re targeting the wrong people. This is not about dissecting movie concepts or song lyrics, some line someone dropped in some interview, some headlines you read but not the entire article or someone making a stupid tweet about something. As long as we’re going to be on this planet, there will always be assholes talking shit on the internet. The root of the problem sits elsewhere and it’s firmly anchored within the ground. It’s about getting out there and fighting for what you supposedly think it is that you support. In the end it’s about equality. For everyone out there, no matter the gender or the sexual orientation. A human being is a human being. Just like the people you’re attacking despite them simply having failed to overthink their statements when they weren’t supposed to come off a certain way. Use your brain before you hate is all I’m going to say. All of us know what headlines can do, or rather what they don’t do. They don’t give you an insight into a person’s character or personality. They’re words someone typed up to catch your attention and you can’t say it doesn't work. Out here you have to watch every move you make, every word that leaves your mouth and actually becomes reality as soon as others hear or read it. I’ve been there, believe me. Never would have thought anyone would care about what I’ve got to say but whenever I manage to express myself in a way that leaves room for people to make false assumptions and take my statements out of context, I get all the hate for it. Although I’m partially Jamaican, although I’ve openly confessed not to hate the idea of being with a guy a couple of years ago (that’s another topic), although our band supports the LGBT community. It just wouldn’t make the smallest of sense for me to be racist or homophobic. But I guess you can toss and turn everything the way that is most convenient to you if you have too much free time to spend on the internet instead of being out there on the streets with the other kids waving banners and giving the victims of everything I’ve just spoken about a voice. A louder voice. The voice of millions that will eventually be heard. I really think we need to make a move instead of posting smart ass comments online. Only gets everyone riled up and ready to judge everything that’s potentially this or that. I promise I’m going to eat all the empty shells in the edamame discard bowl if someone tells me ‘you’re doing the very same thing right now’ but I think it’s fine because I’m not hurting anyone with my rant and my words, not targeting anyone in particular. I’m just talking about the way I experience social media these days. Especially online where there are only words and no expressions behind them, there’s too much room for interpretation. Status updates shouldn’t be more relevant than real conversations. Follower numbers shouldn’t equal a person’s worth or credibility. I think that the internet is a place where opinions clash and fights are being fought that are unnecessary, mostly because everyone wants to be edgy. Again, what you might be supporting is the right thing but that doesn’t mean there’s a hidden meaning behind everything. Not every word someone posts is a conspiracy theory. Stop feeling so attacked by everyone else. Of course there are countless of douchebags out there posting crap that makes me want to throw up my breakfast into their faces. But we know where the real bad dudes are and we know who they are so fucking fight them instead. Much love Peter