#maybe falkor will save me when my strength fails -- he always has before

[breakingbobcat]

Decision

If I don't discipline myself and focus on me, rather than Chris

I will not have the energy or time to make the changes I need to make to manifest my true self from the inside to the outside.

I will remain stagnant and dependent in every way.

That's just the way it is. There's no coldness in it but there is massive self-sacrifice and a need for faith. I'm going to trust that The Mystery will continue its work on him and on all things. I'm going to relinquish any delusion of control I may cling to and allow The Good to shine through my personal transformation.

The best I can do for him or anybody else right now is to grow and be a witness, give testimony. THIS IS SO HARD FOR ME. My instinct is to remain fixed and fastened to my attachments.

Take heart O my soul! Be brave Atreyu!