#maybe dont reblahg Im not sure if I will keep this up

[ast-heljar]

Personal Astral Spaces

Personal Astral places that I dont have a problem sharing because I dont get the metaphors or significance of them.

The church and the Tower.

About 50% of the time I interact with these places seperately, but theyre actually right next to each other on the same plane. Theyre both sit on top of a high and steep hill. The church is stone and in ruins, parts of which are strewn down about the hill sides. It is always night, there are always clouds and a fullmoon; at least, I assume its full because I can see. There is one massive crumbling wall holding a stained glass window that is primarily red and blue. A bright bleak light with no source shines thru the window with dramatic purpose and illuminates the area. There may be figures on it, but I never recall them. There are smaller partial walls standing taller than I and I can just barely make out different rooms.

The Tower may have been a part of the church. I get a sense of it while standing in the church without actually seeing it. It is very tall. There may or may not have a door. I may or may not have been inside once. it was a very long time ago.

The blocks

Surounding the hill of the Church and the Tower are the blocks. They are very eerie, a liminal space that feels incomplete like an area that just wasnt developed. if I stand on top of them there is light, but between them it is dark. You can get lost in that darkness. the blocks are if varying sizes, some are stacked, between them is like a maze. they make me uncomfortable.

The Empy City

After crossing the blocks I enter the Empy City. I am usually there at night, at which point it is very eerie because its... empty. it doesnt feel dangerous just... empty. There are things there, altho Ive never seen them. There are people too. Once I met a man just as I felt... something. He led us to a hotel room and instructed us to stay there because it was too dangerous to leave just then. When I woke I considered that the something might have been him, but they felt like two seperate things... Ive not seen him again so I suppose it doesnt matter.

Ive been in the city during the day and it is not creepy at all then. There are no strange feelings and thats the best time for exploring. Ive meet a number of other explorers, tho we all mind our own business, so I wouldnt sat its an uncommon activity at all. The whole city is sort of brown and industrial and all the buildings are very very tall. The insides of the rooms are clean, but theres lots if stuff in them. Theres even food and drinks.

The City

The reason there is stuff in the empty city, including food and drink thay hasnt decayed is because it is probably the hollow version of The City-- the full one, I mean, which occupies the same space on a different level or plane. Its... well its a city. Its bustling, its got construction, its got traffic and people...

Other Places

Those are the most interesting places. Other places are consistent from dream to dream and... I am very familiar with them, but theyre harder to explain?

There is a sort of astral version of my home town, the city I half grew up in. Its much much less crowded, for one, perhaps partially because its part of or based on a town that actually exists? The City over laps on a different plane with parts of this one. They seem? several planes seperated tho, unlike the City and the Empty City which feel like theyre only seperated by one in most places.

One thing thats significant is that there are no interstates and there may be local high ways, but theyre mostly that; local. Most long distance travel is done by train, and I personal just sit ontop of non-passanger trains.

This place is soo big tho? Ive seen the world map of this plane and it is ??? bizzaar. it looks nothing like our planet, but its got all the places? and then some. Part of it is that the oceans are different. Africa has so many more countries.. Its also possible to travel all the way around by car, except that youd have to travel thru the arctic and while there are roads? theyre not interstates or even really highways and there are long long stretches for which youd have to carry your own gas.

Being that the.oceans are different the location of all the waste is different too, and in the americas its located in an area south of mexico but also not in a place that actually exists? its pretty awful. There are lots of fires there.

There is also the Under City, which is... somewhere and also hard to explain. There are people down there. they have places they live. Ive never really been there, just... on my way? Couldnt tell you much, except that "underground" in these places isnt actually underground like in a cave. these are hallways and such.

oh theres so much going on, its super interesting. However, i still feel reasonably comfortable sharing it. While things come and go because it seems semi-permeable due to some of existing beyond me... ?? Im also reasonably sure most of it is mine and it would take a lot to invade it. Im pretty aggressive about keeping things out and avoiding the dangerous things that I dont quite have the skill to banish (and may never have, some of those fuckers are scary...) I dont have a lot of fine control over lucid dreaming but Im hell bent on keeping myself safe...