#maybe I’ll post the original vers I made later

[wyztereo]

it’s Demotivational Durge time

[ec-makes-stuff]

Did some more Xen sketches, Sorry it’s so dark! The ones in the top left corner wouldn’t show.

[invincibleinck]

Gonna start posting my dumb Star Wars cats content here too.

From the Youtube vers. desc.: [Rereading the ROTS novelization gave me brain worms that can only be quelled by SW cats. Welp. Should've made proper refs for these designs since I may use them again later. Also HEY I MANAGED TO FINISHED THIS BEFORE MAY THE FOURTH. Maybe later I'll add an endscreen. Backgrounds aren't mine. I stole the trend of editing real life images for this meme and just used stills from the films. Original (by PetitPoisson): https://youtu.be/i5NGXFduA-4 Fandom: Star Wars (Ep III: Revenge of the Sith) Characters (in order of appearance): Anakin Skywalker/Darth Vader, Padme Amidala, Sheev Palpatine/Darth Sidious, Obi-Wan Kenobi Summary: Palpatine manages to turn Anakin against his wife and friends. Song by eyedress]

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Happy Birthday・Cater

Card: Birthday Attire - SSR Characters: Cater & Yuu. Mentioned: Lilia, Kalim, Trey

Chapter 1

—HEARTSLABYUL DORM - BIRTHDAY PARTY VENUE—

NRC Campus News Interview with the Birthday Student ~Cater ver.~

Yuu: Happy birthday!

Cater: Thanks, Yuu-chan~! I’m happy you’re celebrating with me ♪

Your birthday outfit looks good on you.

Cater: I know, right? Everyone’s been complimenting me on it. Cay-kun takes a liking to white clothes himself.

I get attention everywhere I go when I wear this and it feels super nice ♪ I couldn’t help myself from waltzing through the whole school!

It’s a waste that I only get to wear it today, so I think I’ll try and put it on again tomorrow~

Maybe you shouldn’t...

Cater: Ahaha, I’m just kidding. But that’s how much I love it!

Do you have any unforgettable stories about your birthday?

Cater: Hmm, I wouldn’t call it “unforgettable,” but there was this one thing with my sisters.

There’s three of us. I’m the youngest with two big sisters.

It feels like the two of them would always get way more hyped up than me on my birthday~!

When I was little, I’d get squished between them... Man, that was super annoying.

They were the ones to pick out my presents too, so I never got anything but cute things!

Stuffed animals, dolls, perfumes, soaps... The kind of stuff Cay-kun doesn’t really like...

I felt like, aren’t my sisters having more fun than me?!��I thought I was the birthday boy!

But they never meant any harm. Plus now they’ve started asking me what I want first.

You’re the star today.

Cater: That’s right! No matter what anyone says, Cay-kun is the birthday boy today ♪

I’m going to have a fun, happy, and very “me” day today! I gotta enjoy it to the fullest ☆

Chapter 2

—HEARTSLABYUL DORM - BIRTHDAY PARTY VENUE—

Do you have any stories you could share about your phone case?

Cater: This is from a super popular brand, and I had so much trouble getting it~

I ran to the store first thing in the morning the day it came out, and there was already a huge line out the door.

The store employee told us “This will be a raffle sale,”¹ and I went crazy!

I immediately made clones using my Unique Magic and got tons of raffle tickets. Genius idea, don’tcha think?

But... Cay-kun and all my other mes lost! I was so disappointed that I couldn’t buy it...

But then! A little bit later, Lilia-chan bought one for me and said it was a souvenir from his travels!

I was super happy~!

It’s just... ever since then, he’s been hounding me about what I’m going to get him in return.

Something as rare as this phone case... That’s super tough to beat~

Actually, what kind of countryside store even had these left in stock?

You two are in the same club, right?

Cater: Yup! We’re in band. Kalim-kun makes us three, and we’re good friends, we have fun, and we chill out together ☆

After school, we chat in our club room and eat snacks... TBH, it feels like playing music kind of gets pushed aside.

We don’t do anything legit like writing original songs. We’re entirely a cover band.

Sometimes we try to actually take our club activities seriously, but the three of us have super different tastes in music~

One time I brought up the idea of playing this cool, romantic pop song.

But Kalim-kun made a dancey, Scalding Sands-y arrangement of it...

And Lilia-chan started shouting out bittersweet lyrics about unrequited love in this super coarse voice...

It totally deviated from the original song. Hah... my cool, romantic pop song...

They both love to do whatever they want, so that gives me the chance to really chill out too. Our club’s lots of fun ☆

Chapter 3

—HEARTSLABYUL DORM - BIRTHDAY PARTY VENUE—

What’s your favorite food?

Cater: I love grilled lamb with diablo sauce~ It’s delicious and it sounds super cool!

Oh, I’ve been obsessed with spicy ramen lately too ☆

Spicy food gives me that perfect kick whenever I’m feeling down!

Oh, also, this might sound weird, but posting about ramen rakes in tons of likes.

There are tons of hardcore ramen fans of all genders out there. Me included.

What’s your least favorite food?

Cater: Agh... That’s a tough one to answer... Well, I’ll just say it.

...Truth is, I kiiinda don’t like sweets.

But it’s a rule to serve sweets at Heartslabyul’s traditional Unbirthday Parties!

So I’ve always kept it a secret... Trey-kun found out recently, though.

Well, it’s more like he knew from the start.

You know that side of Trey-kun~!

Is there a reason you don’t like sweets?

Cater: This probably happened when I was about ten? My mom and sisters got really into baking one time.

At first I was like, “There’s so much dessert!” and was happy to eat everything...

But this went on everyday, and I slowly started getting sick of it.

My sisters kept piling up my plate, saying “You’re still growing and need to eat!”

They’d get super disappointed if I told them no... I was the worst at dealing with those faces they gave me.

So, because I forced myself to keep eating them, I can’t stand any kind of dessert now.

I love to try out cafés, and when you hear “cafés,” you think of aesthetic sweets, right?

I want to take lots of pictures of them, but I can’t order them because I wouldn’t be able to eat them. This is a serious dilemma~

...Oh! I just got an idea!

Yuu-chan, how about you order them and then I can post them on Magicam?

Let’s go to a café together some time~! I know lots of shops that sell super Magicammable sweets!

Everything will be on me, obviously! Okay, it’s a promise~♪

I can’t wait. Once again, happy birthday!

1. This will be a raffle sale

If you’re unfamiliar with the concept of raffle sales, it’s a system where everyone looking to buy a certain product gets a raffle ticket, and only the raffle winners may purchase it. As opposed to a “first-come, first-serve” system.

[akatsuki-shin]

I... I don’t often call out anyone specifically using social media before, but... I saw this among the reblogs in my first post about MXTX novels English release announcement and I feel that this is just too much...

I’m not going to tag this with the fandom tags because this is literally just my personal rant, and I don’t want unpleasant things to appear when people are happily browsing the tags.

I also censored the person’s blog name. It’s not like I want people to mass attack them.

But I do have some things I want to say about this kind of mindset.

And this is gonna be a long post, so I’ll cut it with "Read More” later below as not to disturb anyone’s browsing experience.

Why do they have to split the books into multiple volumes?

First, you do realize that the original Chinese version and other languages versions are also in multiple volumes that don’t always be published on the same date, right?

SVSSS has 3 volumes, MDZS has 4 volumes, TGCF has 5 volumes.

With the English release, both SVSSS and MDZS get +1 volume while TGCF gets +3 volumes.

Why you ask?

Have you ever considered how long a single Chinese word would be if written in alphabets?

The word “人” in Chinese only needs 1 (one) character, while in English it would translate to “P E O P L E” = 5 (five) characters.

The word “知己” in Chinese only needs 2 (two) characters, while in English it would translate to “C O N F I D A N T E” = 10 characters, or “S O U L M A T E” = 8 characters.

Now apply this to an entire novel. FYI, TGCF has more than 1 million word count in Chinese, so you can do the math by yourself.

I mean, just go watch the donghua or live action in YouTube. One single sentence in the Chinese sub is often translated to two or more lines in the English subtitle.

And have I mentioned that the English release will have:

Glossary

Footnotes

Character Guides

And I’m going to repeat this once again: In China and other countries that already get their official releases, it is also NOT always all released on the same date as a single set/box.

So yes, (not) surprise! For the Chinese release and official releases in other countries, you also often need to purchase multiple times, pay shipping fee multiple times, and wait for certain period of times until all volumes are released.

It doesn’t only happen to MXTX novels, it happens to almost all novels, be it danmei or not.

Why don’t they just wait for translations to finish and release it all at the same time/as a box set? Why the span of two years?

On my part, I already say above that in China and other countries that already get their official release, it’s also not always published all on the same date.

Other than that, I’m not an expert at book publishing, much less when the publisher is not from my own country. But maybe consider the following:

They’re releasing 3 (three) hugely popular IPs all at the same time. Maybe the preparations take more time and effort to ensure everything is flawless?

Since it is very rare (or maybe never, cmiiw) for danmei novels to be published in English, maybe the publisher is testing the market first? Because if they already release them as a huge bundle from the start and it somehow flops, the loss would be very big. If it works well, then good! Maybe for future danmei release, they will consider making a box set or releasing them within shorter timeframe. 

In terms of marketing, if they wait another 2 years to release it all at once, will the momentum still be there? You can say “so in the end it’s all about money”, but if not sales number and money, what else should the publisher expect to receive for their work? They’re already putting a lot of effort buying all three IPs from the Chinese publishers, proofread or even translate some from scratch, pay translators, editors, illustrators, printing companies, etc. If it’s not selling well simply because they release it at the wrong time, aren’t all these efforts going to be wasted? And you can bet there will be no more danmei published in English if their first try already flops merely because of losing the momentum.

Are there any other rules or regulations they need to comply that prevents them from releasing everything in one go? But once again, even in China and other countries, it is also not always all released in one go, so this argument is already invalid from the start.

But they make it so expensive like this!

I’m sorry to break it to you, but I’ve compared the prices to MDZS Japanese release + TGCF Thai release and... The price isn’t really that much different.

Btw, I’m using Google’s currency converter, in case anyone wants to know where does my calculation comes from.

Okay, so here’s MDZS Japanese version from CD Japan:

One volume of MDZS Regular ver. cost 1760 yen. This is 15,96 USD before shipping. There’s only like $4 difference.

There’s also the Exclusive ver. that cost 3660 yen (32,92 USD) but we’re not gonna talk about that because they’re basically making you pay for the bonus, which is some acrylic panels and illustration cards.

Now here’s TGCF Thai version from Sense Book:

Translation using Google Chrome page translate:

One volume of TGCF costs 360 baht. This is 10.77 USD before shipping. So there’s about $9.22 difference.

Again, notice the difference of word/sentence length in the Thai words and English alphabet.

"But there’s still difference in price and other releases usually gets merchandise!” - Correct me if I’m wrong, but the US is probably one of the most expensive countries in the world. Do you think the materials, printings, and manpower cost is the same with other countries? Especially compared to one in Southeast Asia.

“But it’s xxxx times more expensive than the original Chinese version!” - Excuse me, the original Chinese version doesn’t need to pay for translators, proofreaders and editors with multilingual skills, and purchase the IPs? If you think it’s more worth buying the Chinese version, then by all means go ahead.

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Some last words...

I’m not looking down on those in difficult financial situation, but hey, I’m not filthy rich either? I come from a third world country and even if I’m a working adult, I’m still in working middle class + I got my parents to take care of. My country’s currency is literally just a tiny 0.000069 USD per 1 Indonesian Rupiah.

Every single fandom merchandise that you see me bought, either I’ve saved up for that or I sacrificed other things to buy that. I just don’t show the struggle to you guys because why should I? I’m just here to have fun about the fandom I love, not to flex my struggling financial condition.

These official English release of MXTX novels? All 17 books are going to cost me almost HALF of my monthly salary. But hey, I think it’s a good thing that they didn’t release it all at once, so that I can save up between months to purchase them all and plan my spending better.

If you feel the price is expensive, especially if you have to ship from outside North America, consider the following:

Book Depository provide free worldwide shipping

The books’ ISBN numbers are all available in the publisher’s website, just show it to you local bookstore and ask if they can order it for you

Plus, there are already hundreds of generous fans doing free giveaways in Twitter, even the publishers are helping to signal boost this. You can go and try your luck if you’re really desperate.

Lastly, I know how much love we all have for our favorite fandoms, but remember that fandom merchandise is NOT your primary needs.

You are NOT obliged to purchase any fandom merchandise if you can’t afford it and you should ALWAYS prioritize your primary needs.

Also, if you still want to read the fan-translations that are still available, alright go ahead. But remember that the translators themselves already said fan translations in English are now illegal. You can read it. We all consume pirated contents at one point. But don’t flex about it and diss the official release just because you can’t afford it.

I don’t know if the person who made that reblog tags are going to come at me or not, but even if they do, I literally don’t care. I’m not gonna waste my time arguing with someone with that kind of mindset and will block them right on the spot.

Also Idgaf if they call me out or talk behind my back, I literally don’t know them, so I don’t care.

End of rant.

[tarry-a-lot]

French Musical Recommendations/review (Part 2)

I should have mentioned in part 1 but I don't speak French (well a bit but not enough to understand the lyrics unless I’m reading it or something) so if the lyrics aren’t that good my bad I honestly wouldn’t know, 

Also this is in no particular order, I don't think all the shows mentioned in part 1 are better than the ones mentioned here, there will be a part 3 at some point

1789 Les amantes de la Bastille: I think this may be my second or third (ties with Mozart) favourite French musical based solely on soundtrack, it’s about the siege of the Bastille and the days leading up to it with a focus on two lovers Ronan a revolutionary and Olympe Marie Antoinette’s children’s governess (the actress who played Olympe was also Guinevere in roi Arthur musical), my favourite songs are “Sur ma peau” and “La rue nous apparent” it is available in full on YouTube, IMPORTANT: This show has two endings, I don’t want to spoil so perhaps skip what I’m about to write though I will try to be vague: the scene before the song “fixe” at the end, the two characters switch place mattering on which version your watching, one version was done towards the start of the run and late 2013 they seemed to have made the change, the full version uploaded and the dvd have the original ending (I personally prefer the original but the other is not bad as well). also in 2012 when the show was staring with the showcase costumes are really different and you’ll find Ronan is played by Matthieu Carnot who plays Lazare in the full production later on instead because he had vocal issues resulting in getting replaced and given a more minor role (I think he’s great in his new role though, “Maniaque” is a bop)

Non-music: I have yet to see it in full but from clips the lighting is great and really adds to the songs and emotions, the story is pretty straightforward but nice, and the choreography is good from what I’ve seen, also for a “historical” show the costumes aren’t that bad, I would assume not accurate but a good balance of inaccurate and historical looking enough

Japanese Toho ver. (1789 バスティーユの恋人たち) 2016 clips are available on YouTube, the costumes in this version is fun, it’s non-replica but they really went off on Olympe’s costume, I will be honest a little bit sad about Ronan’s yellow jacket being replaced with a dark blue, also one of the Ronan actors (Olympe, Ronan and Marie-Antoinette are double casted) looks too old, especially compared to other Ronan actor who really has the young energetic vibe about him (though if memory serves me correctly his sur ma peau was strangely annoying to listen to)

Takarazuka ver. 2015, clips are available on YouTube if Japanese title along with “宝塚“ is added in search

Notre-Dame de Paris: a musical based on Victor Hugo’s novel of the same name, it is different from the Disney musical, this is another popular French show, if you like Romeo et Juliette you’ll probably like this, it can found in full on YouTube along with different translations/adaptions, I won’t go to in depth on different version on here like I did for R+J but if your interested the Wikipedia page is quite detailed and can tell you about all the casts and cast recording available, I have yet to watch it in full but so far I think Belle and Le temps des cathédrales are my favourite songs (quite basic I know), it’s one of those shows you can’t go wrong with, from the parts I’ve watched and listened I think it could become one of my favourite shows

Non music: From the bits I’ve seen the wall backdrop is really cool, It has nooks and platforms that appear and disappear and it’s just really cool looking, WARNING, this is a bit of the spoiler so maybe don't read what I’m about to write but if you’ve read the book its not that much of a spoiler but there is a hanging scene at the end so if that imagery is something your sensitive to please be wary, it’s at the end (on the YouTube video of the full original show its from 2:03:42-2:03:54)

Don Juan: I love this show (I strangely found parts funny and a bit cheesy which is why I liked it), It’s pretty much about a man Don Juan who is a know heartbreaker who is only into sex drinking and having fun but no love, he then falls in love with a woman, shocker, and conflicts arise from there, honestly I don’t see a lot of content for this show but I think it’s fun, the dancing is primarily flamenco (music is heavily inspired by the dance as well) and it’s impressive, the singing is great, the full show is available on YouTube, my favourite songs are probably “Les fleurs du mal” and “Jalousie,”  It opened in Montreal originally then went to Paris, the full show is available on YouTube (I think the Paris version) and there is also a full 3 and half hour behind the scenes video of the Paris production online, from what I can tell up till the symphony version of 2019 Don Juan and his love Maria has been consistently played by Jean-François Breau and Marie-Ève Janvier (obviously there were understudies and such) the actors are also married/were dating during the show which adds to it when you see them perform together 

Non-Music: a character described with black hair in the song chorus is blonde/brunette and I thought that was hilarious, some strange choreography with Don Juan especially in Jalousie, he walks up and down stage and it’s awkward, aside from weird parts in general the costumes are ok (gets better in later productions), the set is plain but with some fun props, I think the dancing is probably one of the highlights along with the live band present on stage for certain songs (photo from Quebec 2013 production) 

Don Juan (Théâtre St-Denis) 2004 Montreal, also had Canada tour after its Montreal premier in Feb.

France Tour 2005 Palais des Congrès à Paris performance recording and behind the scenes is available on YouTube 

Korean Tour 2006, the French cast touring, non-costume concert versions and actual performance clips are available on Youtube

Korean Cast, 2009 (March~) (뮤지컬 돈 주앙) separate from the tour which was the French cast touring this is an all Korean cast, act 1 and 2 can be found on YouTube (video called “돈쥬앙 1막“ and “돈쥬앙 2막“) though it seems to cut around so It’s like a pieced together version of the acts, other clips are also available, it is a replica production

2012 revival Montreal, from what I read it only had 10 performances? and with it released a cd with new recordings, “nous on veut de l'amour“ and “L'amour Est Plus Fort“ 

Grand Théâtre de Québec 2013 (August 9-18), you could call this a continuation to the revival in Montreal 

Takarazuka ver. 2016 (June+July) (ドン・ジュアン) the page is still up on the takarazuka website for this production, there’s a ad with clips from the show available on niconico (should come up if you search the title in jp and add takarazuka in jp) also this version Don Juan is strangely more touchy with his friend, not mad guess it adds a new tension to the plot, non replica production though it is quite similar to the French one, they don’t stray too far

Don Juan Symphonique 2019 (Feb 12-16): At the Montreal Symphony House they had a concert version with the original cast (or at least the original Don Juan and Maria), along with the OSM (Orchestre Symphonique de Montréal)

Japanese ver. 2019 (August/September + December) it’s non-replica, there’s a trailer for it online but it only features Don Juan, I found blog posts about it but currently while I write this it’s late so perhaps I’ll update with more info later, maybe not

Moscow Concert 2020 (March 17-22) (Дон Жуан or Don Juan) This is still in French with a French cast but this time the leads are no longer the original, Laurent Ban is now Don Juan, supposedly according to a Russian video it was meant to go on tour after Moscow (State Kremlin Palace) but I’m assuming the issue with the virus changed plans, I’m surprised they were going to go on world tour I honestly think it’s not true, the interview with cast can be found on YouTube with bits of songs, however the Russian concert advertisement is only a recording from the 2005 French, from what I can tell it is a replica, I believe it was cancelled before the premier due to Covid-19

The research for this show took me all day, maybe if I was fluent in French it would have been faster, if I’m wrong in parts feel free to comment and correct me and I’ll edit it

Les Trois Mousquetaires: Not to be mistaken with the Broadway/Westend show of the same name and base material from 1928 with the revival in the 80′s or the other three musketeer musical at the North Shore theatre in 2007 (the one with Aaron Tveit and Kevyn Morrow), or the other musical by George Stiles and Paul Leigh, this is an entirely separate 2016-2017 musical that follows the general plot of the literature it’s based on though simplified, it’s ok, not great but not the worst, I probably would rank it lower than roi Arthur, I will admit I haven’t listened to the full show, it’s quite catchy, my favourite song so far is probably “Je t’aime c’est tout,” there is a showcase concert in full, music videos and official soundtracks available on YouTube but I would advise checking out the live versions, the ensemble backing parts are really great and they get cut out in the recording versions which really cheapens the songs for me, In general ok show, really not the best but has its highlights (like the four lads relationship is fun to watch, dancing is great, singing is good), 

Non-Music: Athos the oldest of the 3 musketeers is actually the youngest actor though he is a few year older than the D’Artagnan actor, It’s minor I guess but I didn’t realise who Athos was until looking up the cast list and was shocked, Also Athos really doesn’t sing because Brahim Zaibat who plays him is a dancer, despite this his dancing skills really add to the fight sequences making them very impressive and fun to watch, it’s more concerty in style and a bit interactive with the audience, from what I can tell the sets seem plain and the costumes are really awful (in my opinion) like Athos’ shirt is so revealing to the point he might as well not wear a shirt, also Constance’s outfit is just a no for me

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Star Tear AU - Alt. Timeline: Todoroki ver. [Part 1]

This is an AU I wrote on the todomomo discord server eons ago. Anything posted to this blog will be transcripts of old original work and not really edited, save for formatting. I have no guarantees if I will ever finish these AUs either so these will only be kept as an archive.

Original transcript posted to tdmm discord: Aug 2020

Momo ver. Alternate timeline: Todo ver. Part 1 || Todo ver. Part 2 || Todo ver. Part 3

Star tears in which Todoroki falls for Momo first.

shortly after the exam with Aizawa he doesn’t know what he’s feeling but just admires her strength and quick thinking

and him hanging out with Deku and Iida at lunch means Todo hears all the nice and good things Momo does when she and Iida to discuss class prez stuff

which intensifies this ??admiration?? and respect more

and he just?? Holds onto those feelings unable to figure out what they are until idk maybe holidays where 1A and 1B throw that holiday hotpot party

and Momos really cute lookin’ in that Santa hat she made with the festive turtleneck

and so that feeling inside Todo grows into something more??? bc "oh shit she cute".... and Todo’s blushing while looking at her from afar. Probably.

so Todo talks to Fuyumi abt it and Fuyumi’s like: “I think you like her Shouto”

and he writes to his mom abt it and Rei's like: “she sounds like a lovely girl Shouto”

and he texts Natsuo abt it and Natsu's like: “aw little bro has a crush”

but all the while this is happening, Momo's gotten closer with Iida over class prez stuff and hero stuff and everyone in 1A (read: mina and hagakure) think iimomo might be a thing???

ofc Momo denies it and making excuses politely like "no no ofc not we're being responsible class prez and vice prez" but she’s kinda stuttery while doing so, so no one buys it

and no ones brave enough to ask Iida except Ochako but he gives some straight laced answer like "i admire her work ethic and respect her as a hero and vice prez" but he also has some tint of blush across his cheeks

so idk fast forward to graduation where Todo's been holding onto these feelings for Momo since first year and iimomo is still very very likely

so its all cherry blossom petals flying around and congratulatory celebrations

and when Todo sees Momo amongst the sakura trees smiling like he's never seen before (bc they're finally officially heroes!!) he thinks she’s beautiful

but just as he's about to approach her, Iida approaches her and Todo can see she's blushing and he knows its really not good to eavesdrop on one of his best friends and the girl he likes

But... he's curious.

or so he lies to himself.

Ofc what he hears isnt what he ever wants to,,,,

cuz Iida just confessed to her.

and she feels the same.

and a star tear slips from Todo's eye as he walks away.

he stops mid step as he touches his cheek bc he didnt even realize he was crying

but what are these tears??? What’s happening?? He's never had these before bc even though Todo is an emotional crier, he doesn’t cry that often.. only when he is completely overwhelmed with emotion

so he has this dumbfounded expression staring at his fingers as these star tears are twinkling out of his eyes catching sunlight and sakura petals

until he hears "Youre a fucking idiot" from a few steps away

Bakugou. 

(Baku really likes eavesdropping ok its not the first time lol)

Baku: theyre called star tears.

Todo: You know what these are?

Baku: it happens when you like someone and that person doesnt like you back, idiot.

Todo: ... oh.

Baku: get that shit sorted or you'll go blind

(And for those who are curious, yes maaaayyybe Bakugou has a case of the stars in this timeline too, that’s how he knows. To whom? I'll let you decide bc honestly, I just want todobaku brotp bonding over unrequited love)

so now Todo thinks he might be fucked. One of his best friends confessed to the girl he likes too and she likes him back and now Todo has this disease that might make him go blind and might get in the way of heroing (which they've all secured post graduation positions by now) and what can he do about it?

nothing, says the doctor he sees. The disease is not curable and the only way to stop it is to have your feelings returned else you'll go colour blind and then completely blind, so he's told.

ya he's really fucked.

maybe its a good thing then, that he doesnt cry often. It makes it easier to ice over these feelings, freeze them in time with the memories of U.A.; of his last congratulations to her and her smile at the end of the ceremony an hour after he overheard that confession

maybe its another good thing that right after graduation, everyone went off to their own positions as side kicks with agencies across japan, focusing on heroing

but its 3 months after graduation that Iida tells Deku and Todoroki that he is seeing Momo when they meet up every Friday to catch up

its 6 months after graduation that its publicly announced in Hero Magazine that Ingenium and Creati are dating

its 9 months after graduation that he sees Iida and Momo attending the Hero Association's rising stars gala as a couple and are seated at the same table as them

(Bakugou is scowling at him across the table.)

Todo tries. He really does. To be happy for them.

but he's angry at himself that he can't be happy for them. That it saddens him to see Momo glowing under the ballroom lights but its not himself to make her shine like that, its Iida. That he sees she is the one to make Iida genuinely happy in the way his eyes light up when he smiles at her.

and all three times Todo goes home, lies down alone in his room, an arm slung across his forehead as the star tears leak from his eyes.

he starts to lose seeing colour at 12 months.

after 24 months he needs glasses for colour correction (and ironically gets a sponsorship with the brand. The fashion magazines print headlines for weeks "Hot-Cold Hero Shouto Fall Fashion! See page 7 spread for his newest spotted specks and turtle necks")

at 36 months Iida breaks the news. Iida's gonna propose to Yaoyorozu and wants him, Deku, and his brother to be his groomsmen

she said yes.

and a part of Todo washes away with the star tears flooding him room and twinkling against the tatami.

he tries to stay out of the wedding planning as much as possible. He'll go to the tuxedo fittings as requested and still keep up hearing the updates when seeing Iida and Deku for their weekly get together on Friday nights. 

But for anything involving Momo's presence, there will always be a "sorry i have a mission that week", "sorry im visiting my mom", "sorry Endeavor needs to see me about the agency"

... all excuses Bakugou knows, but the others pay no mind. They are rising heroes near the top of the billboard by now

month 48. Wedding day.

she's stunning. Gorgeous. A near goddess walking down the aisle on her big day.

but she's not walking down for him. No its for iida.

there was the ceremony, the cheers, the congratulations, the reception. Fairy lights around the dance floor and along the walls, champagne glittering after the sound of a cork

Todoroki stands off to against the wall as the night dies down, a glass in hand, watching the newly weds grace the dance floor.

someone slides up beside him, he feels the presence. Bakugou.

"She's beautiful isnt she?"

"Yeah."

. . .

a star tear falls from Todoroki's eyes, twinkle hidden among the fairy lights and champagne glitter.

she's beautiful, but maybe its a good thing I can't see

somebody said: what if she knows everything that had happened and the reason why he couldn't continue his career is bc of her?

me: ok you’re asking for it

Momo, 3 months pregnant with iimomo baby, announces with Iida the news to their friends

the soon to be parents want to choose godparents for the baby so Iida gets to choose the baby’s godmother and Momo gets to choose the godfather

and ofc along with the announcement Momo asks Todoroki to be the kid’s godfather

he can’t say no to her.

the same week later Todo and Momo's agencies are requested to deal with this one villain case while Ingenium's agency deals with another in another town (later turns out the cases were connected)

small talk, civil, very professional between Momo and Todo when they’re in the debriefing

at this point Todo's pretty much completely blind and uses some special contact lenses from Hatsume to help "see"

but the contact lenses can only do so much as to detect light movement and shadows and it reallllllllly doesnt work well when he's using his fire 

so Todo already had tossed around the idea of running away to the mountains like Roy did in the FMA 2003 ending, "mysteriously" retiring bc really his vision cannot keep up

until this last mission with Momo

and really its been nearly a decade now since they last worked together side by side (not since U.A. he thinks).. so just let the blind man be selfish one last time

and so smth smth missiom happens, Todo and Momo fighting side by side

but Momo senses there’s something off with Todo's movements? His reflexes are slower.. it doesnt seem like he's prediciting the opponents moves like he used to.. he's more so reacting and retaliating than attacking..

she chalks it up to that they havent fought side by side in a long time and his style must’ve changed and really, she doesnt know him anymore... not like she used to

smth smth 3 months pregnant Momo gets hurt, knocked unconscious for a bit

Todo saves her

and when she comes to, while Todo's holding her, star tears fall onto her cheek from Todo's eyes. 

She's shocked. Reaches up to gently graze a finger tip at his left cheek.

"Todoroki-san, these are?"

and again its like Todo didnt realize he was crying. He jerks away from her hand and brushes her off with "its nothing”. Changes the subject with "are you ok?"

Momo: yes.. i think so

Todo: and the baby?

Momo, sitting up: we're ok I think

Todo, moving away: good

the mission concludes and they meet up with Ingenium’s group to wrap up the two ends. Todo slips away before Iida and Momo and approach him

theres no activity from Todoroki for the next month

neither Iida, Deku or anyone else in 1A know where he went except the Hero Association's vague comment on "Hot Cold Hero Shouto has taken a sudden indefinite hiatus"

(Only Todo’s family knows and Endeavor asked the Association to say "hiatus" instead of "retirement" bc Enji wants to believe in his son making a comeback. He didnt stop Shouto from taking off)

and ofc Momo upon hearing this is so confused??? Her last mission with him was the last time she saw him and he was crying. Why was he crying? Strange star tears twinkling and landing on her cheeks? What even is that phenomenon?

its too many questions and ofc Momo's gonna investigate. For the sake of her friend.

so she digs up all the texts she can find on star tears. Internet search all the possibilities. Consults the doctors at the hospital. Even asks Tenya if Todoroki has been acting strangely during their weekly catch ups.

but Tenya tells her Todoroki hasnt been the the meet ups since after their wedding

so she asks anyone in their pro hero circle of associates she can think of. Tsukiyomi, Burnin', heros from his agency, anyone she can think of that has worked with Todoroki before and could comment on his behaviour

no body knows. No body noticed anything different either. Sure there were some off days but the Hot Cold Hero Shouto was always on his game being one of the top 3 heroes on the billboard charts

she searches and searches, splitting time interviewing colleagues and researching the possible star tears phenomenon

until eventually her search takes her to...

Bakugou.

Of course.

Momo, pleading: please Bakugou, you know something about him dont you?

Bakugou, who at this point had been very careful trying not to get cornered knowing her investigation: save it pony tail, you’re about to have a baby. Go have people harass you about that brat in your oven instead of harassing other people

Momo, nearly begging: please. You and I both know he's strong and a good hero that would not suddenly retire. Whatever he is doing, he might need help.. please tell me Bakugou.

... theres something about pregnant women that you cant say no to.

Bakugou, relenting: tch. The half ass is somewhere in Yokohama

and thats all she needs nearly running waddling (as fast as a pregnant woman could) out the door

Bakugou, calling out after her, still reluctant: when find that half ass, i suggest you throw him a gift. Literally. Throw it at him. He deserves it.

she finds him along the port, watching the sunset in Yokohama (its really not that hard to find someone with heterochromia and two tone hair in a city, especially if youre a hero that knows what methods heroes will use to go incognito)

and for some inkling of a feeling, Momo takes Bakugou's advice. She has a carton of strawberry milk in hand.

Momo, a few feet away from him: Todoroki-san, it's been a while.

Todo, turning his head in her direction: Yaoyorozu...?

Momo, sadly smiling: the sunset is beautiful here isnt it?

Todo, brows furrowing: .. sure. Yaoyorozu what are you doing here--

Momo, interrupting him: --i brought some snacks. Strawberry milk, you liked this while we were in school right? Catch.

she tosses it at him.

he tries to reach out.

But he'es completely off. And misses

Momo, sad: Todoroki-san. You're blind, arent you?

Todo, guilty: ah.

Momo, tearing up: will you please tell me?

he still can say no to her and confesses his story

and when he's finished telling the tale of star tears, the stars above are twinkling too

she's crying and choking and sobbing through tears and its intensified by baby Iida with pregnancy hormones

But the last thing she manages to croak out at the very least is still wholly her

She apologizes

“Im so sorry Todoroki- san. I cant love you that way.”

“I know.”

END NOTES:

red is the last color Todoroki wanted to lose because it reminds him of Momo

during missions, as long as he could see her, “that’s ok” he thought. she is the only one he sees in color. that is okay with him

to him, Momo is his shining star. And there’s something tragically poetic of him losing his sight to the stars if its for his shining star Momo

He leaves the last stars in a tiny little jar like those paper stars as a gift for her with just the words on a note "goodbye Momo" the day after she finds him in Yokohama

Momo has the jar of stars forever on her bedside and looks at them with this melancholy expression. Baby Iida grows up and asks mom: "what is that jar of stars?" 

Momo responds: "a gift from someone that was blinded by love"

Bakugou in this timeline had a case of star tears too but I'd like to think he got his feelings requited so he never went blind to contrast Todo

So thats why Baku is (begrudgingly) sympathetic to Todo cuz he thinks: “that could’ve been me”

The ending shot of a blind Todoroki in a dark room, all alone, eyes closed, thinking back to Momo's shining smile from UA surrounded by star light with a sad smile on his face and it fades to black

> archives masterpost

[muthaz-rapapa]

Categorizing Precure by Hair Length (Civilian ver.)

Good god, I probably went over this a dozen times and more until I said “f*** it!” and wrote myself a set of rules to follow. I know everybody’s gonna have different thoughts on what counts as short or medium-length or even long hair and with appearances varying from one art to the other, it’s going to be tough to reach a consensus. 

But I needed something straightforward to go by to make this easier on myself. If you disagree, that’s fine. Again, I didn’t design these characters so I can’t make the final call on what’s accurate and what’s not. Even so, remember that at the end of the day, this was done for fun.

Here is the Cure version.

More comments below the cut.

Note: This will be continually updated as new additions come along.

**Length guidelines:

Short hair - Anywhere from above to just touching the very top of the shoulders.

Medium hair - Covers or reaches around the general shoulder area.

Long hair - Anything that extends below the shoulder area. (Regarding tied-up hair, if the ends already reach the shoulders, then I’m assuming the length goes beyond that when it’s let down)

Short:

Medium:

?? - Hikari, Love, Miyuki, Yayoi, Aoi, Hikaru (see below cut for comments)

Long:

?? - Mai, Yuni, Chiyu, Hinata (see below cut for comments)

Short - Hmmm, when I look at it this way, I don’t think I made too much of an error in judgement. At least for the short hairs, anyway.

A little note about Mana, though. The ends of her hair are curled (flared?) upwards so it’s questionable if she really belongs here or should be put in medium-length section instead. 

Going by this scan, when it’s completely down, Mana’s hair appears to just barely go a little past the top of her shoulders ...however, it’s still not enough to be counted as medium hair in my books so short-haired she stays.

Medium - Most of the girls I placed in this section are undetermined cases, largely because they always have their hair up so it’s hard to gauge the real length. In other words, a lot of guesswork was involved.

Fortunately, this is where their full body profiles come in very handy (check the wiki image galleries) so let’s go through them one by one:

Hikari - Originally was supposed to be in the long section but as I kept checking back to the screencaps on the wiki, I really can’t grasp the length of her braid. Ultimately I went with her Dress Up Collection Puzzlun card, the only official picture I could find with her hair down, and ruled it as medium. Oh so very close to being long but since I’m still not positively sure, she’ll stay here for now.

Komachi - Looks can be deceiving but don’t forget that Komachi’s hiding a short ponytail behind her back. Yea, her hair is weird but it’s actually an application of the short hair with tail trope.

Kurumi - She may look like she belongs among the long-hairs and I thought that, too, at first but it’s actually because Kurumi has very voluminous hair that’d make you think so. From the back, the ends of her hair is probably just a few cm short from being “long” but it’s so evenly cut out that I can tell it’s still within the shoulder area. Just my opinion, though.

Love - Ok, you cannot give me Love’s ziggy twintails and say that her pajama profile is the same person. Of course, maybe that art just isn’t drawn in consistence with how Love usually looks. Either way, she’s definitely not a short hair, that I have no doubt. But whether she’s a long hair or not, I’ll leave it up in the air for now.

Setsuna - My hair’s about the same length as hers so it was easy to make this call.

Erika - Hard to tell cuz Erika’s bending over here but definitely not a very long haired girl.

Miyuki - Googled it, didn’t help. Rewatched the ep where they went on a school trip (ep 13, btw), didn’t help much either. It’s difficult to determine because Miyuki is either moving around too much or slouching too much that you can’t really see where her shoulders are. I mean, you’d have to have a fair amount of hair to put it into twin buns like hers but as I’m not an expert on just how much hair is needed for that to be possible, I can’t really say anything besides “I dunno”.

Yayoi - Honestly, I’m not sure if she’s got short hair or a short neck. The fact that her hair is very poofy doesn’t help. But something tells me that if it were straight, it’ll probably reach a little further down her shoulders.

Nao - Also referenced the school field trip ep like I did with Miyuki. Couldn’t find a good angle to decide with certainty either but by the looks of it, Nao’s hair probably isn’t long enough to be considered long long.

Megumi - Ep 44 has Megumi wear her hair down in a low, loose sidetail. As you can see, it only goes a certain way past the top of her shoulder.

Towa - She has it styled in Ojou ringlets all the time and wears a headband on top of that. So maybe if she straightened them, they’d be longer? Even so, this is her usual look so we’re gonna stick with that.

Ha-chan - The ends of her hair is slightly curled in but in general, not extensively long.

Aoi - Another hard one. Like Nao, Aoi rarely lets her hair down from her high ponytail and the only pic I could find that showed most of it down (it’s being held back by a headband? Tiara?) is from ep 14 when she was forced to dress up formally. But still, doesn’t seem like her hair is in it’s natural state with how prim and proper she looks (yep, somebody definitely used hairspray on her). I dunno, what do you think? :/

Hana - Quite obvious, no further comments.

Hikaru - If Hikaru had ever let her hair down, then I must have missed it or something because I swear, even in her flashbacks, I’ve never seen her without her twin tails ever. That leaves her another mystery.

Long - After so much trouble with the medium-hairs, thankfully most of the girls in this section were no-brainers. The ones I’m having trouble with are:

Mai - Starting to have doubts after rechecking the wiki again cuz the length of her hair varies between the official profile pics and the anime screenshots. I also don’t think Mai letting all her hair down makes much of difference in length but exactly how long it really is still leaves me stumped.

Yuni - Those braids make it hard to tell but since this isn’t even her real form, I’m gonna go by how Yuni looks as a Rainbownian, which obviously shows she’s got enough hair to reach past her waist at least.

Chiyu & Hinata - So far at this point in the season, the only moments we got to see them with their hair down are in the transformation sequences. But not only are they moving really fast, their hair is also constantly flailing about that I really can’t measure how long they actually are. I even went frame by frame and I suppose these are the two best screencaps I got without the camera messing with the perception too much.

Not that it’s any better as we all know how animation can exaggerate things for aesthetic effects so yea...

Anyways, I’m sure we’ll get an episode later on where the Heal girls will have their hair down one way or another. In the meantime, I’ll leave them in this section for now.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Update log:

4/8/20 - Post published.

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

My stance on P5 (cause apparently I need to explain myself :/)

So someone just told me someone was vagueing about me on the confessions blog (can’t say my name cause it’s against the rules but they’ll try to get as specific as they can 🙃 if you have issues just be a real anon hater and send to my inbox directly you coward). And I’m not going to do a reblog to that post, because I’m pretty sure that person must be on my blog. Because the post they were vagueing me about was......not tagged.....in the P5 tagged (I did not tag it as P5 nor Persona 5), it was just a post that was on my blog (now if it showed up in the tag or search I dunno why but I didn’t tag it for P5 for a gd reason cause I keep it to my blog). The post was me pointing out how P5 when they first enter Futaba’s dungeon they didn’t have shoes on, but after the cutscene they DID. The post was more comical (with me getting salty in the tags, but then you’d have to go out of your way to read my tags). And tbh, I’m half and half, yeah I know it’s a nitpick, and I’d just chalk it up to an animation error and let it go usually, but it’s P5 and that game is already inconsistent with it’s plot/world building/characters/anything important that I’m like “nah I’mma rag on it cause it’s just one more thing they screwed up” so I’m like half let it go and half rag on it (fun fact, when I saw they didn’t have shoes on I was gonna make a post saying “hey look this is cool, nice attention to detail” and then they messed it up literally 2 seconds later so dklsjf;afa yeah). (oh and btw, it wasn’t just “one” character, it was the whole PT cast at the time 8U” at least get it right 8U)

But the thing is......that was just a post on my blog, I’m not me berating the P5 tag. So that means you, person who vagued me, tend to go on my PERSONAL BLOG. So like....why are you on here? No, don’t ask me about me and P5, I will answer that, but you answer why are you bothering looking at my personal blog? Is it cause of certain content I post? Then just blacklist certain tags (like my “silly plays” tag cause nothing really interesting happens in that tag, or my more negative “persona problems” type tags), I know I need to be better at tagging my asks, but if you like my original content then just.....go to the OG content tags (aka videos/pictures/edits/coloring)? That way you avoid anything not made by me? Or if you don’t have a reason and you’re just here to be mad cause someone doesn’t like your game, then block me. You don’t seem to like me, so just....why are you here? You seem to want to ask why I’m here with P5, and I have my reasons, but if you don’t have a reason to be on my blog then why are you on it?

I’m not saying this to be mean, but I don’t want to be policed, esp if someone is going to be hypocritical about it. And it’s annoying to see vaguing (cause imo you are as bad as someone who sends anon hate, but you don’t have the balls to just send it to me directly XP)

Ok now where’s my stance on P5? I don’t like it, but it’s a part of a larger series and lore which I do LOVE! Which means, considering I’m a LORE WHORE, it doesn’t feel right to just skip a game esp if it could contain info about the MegaTen/Persona lore (or even Character lore) I want to know. In fact, I really hate it when I’m talking lore with someone and if expanded info is brought up from a side game they are like “Oh I didn’t play that game so it’s not canon” No Bethany, just because YOU didn’t play a game doesn’t mean it’s not canon. And no, no one is bullying you over the fact you didn’t play it, you just don’t like being wrong and the person was like “Ok well it IS canon and it’s in the game, you don’t have to play it but you.....can’t ignore this fact, also why are you arguing this part of the lore when it’s heavily established in said game you ignored???? I mean you do you but don’t get mad when someone corrects you. No one’s forcing you to do anything.” Ahhhhrrrrgggh so many convos I’ve seen happen, I’m not going to be on the end that I hate. DX<

Also, P5 is not the entire Persona fandom, so while I put up with it and indulge in it by association, it doesn’t have the ownership of the fandom (like with all the original games+ spinoffs+all remakes/ports and P5S/P5R included, but not mobile games, it’s only 23% of all of Persona in terms of game entries, and that’s overlapping with crossover games, and if we included other stuff P5 is def a minor aspect in terms of entries). It’s not that hard, I’m just a bigger all around Persona fan than I am a Persona 5 critic (I don’t want to say hater, because it feels like it sounds like I’m hating it just to hate it, when really it was a game I was excited for and loved and then it just burned me bad and I’m just dealing with the scorn). Always keep in mind, I loved P5 before I hated it, it’s probably why I’m as salty about it as I am, because I love P5′s potential and....I was just let down (it wasn’t unrealistic expectations, like I said earlier, P5 contradicts itself.....all over the place, it’s hard to ignore and it’s not something that was as big of an issue, or even an issue at all, in other games). 

Why do I still post P5 stuff when I don’t like P5 (by which I mean...posting about the OG manga raws, or wanting to do a partial game to anime dub or even would be willing to help with editing a fandub for the anime)? Because I remember being a newbie Persona/Megaten fan, getting into the series, and wanting to know more about it and it’s side materials but then not being able to have access it any of it (because it was still prettty niche when I first joined and I had no money at the time). I want to give people access to it! Sure it’s harder for me to now to devote time to it (than it was a few years ago), but I want to help with giving access to this Persona/Megaten stuff now that I have some ability! And it also means P5 as well gets some of that love. 8U

As for why I was replaying P5, so this is one thing that’s making me wonder if you are a regular on my blog or not because I’ve been talking about playing the Korean version (but in my one post I forgot to type “silly plays P5/Persona 5 KOREAN” so yeah I forgot to specify Korean at the end). So tbh....I’m actually ignoring P5′s writing while I play (cause I’m just going through the gameplay motions), cause I don’t know korean. 8U And I’m mostly using that tag as a means to point out different things in the korean ver (no that much, but yes Ryu’s shoes ARE censored 8U). But why? Well.....I talk about it here and there but anon/person....1) I’m a trophy whore, I love plat trophies and P5′s is super easy I can get it (and I’m not above playing bad games, oh yeah burn, I’ve played a lot of bad games for plats, and I’ve also played the same games multiple times for plats, I do this to myself but really I don’t mind replaying P5 4+ times for 4+ plats esp since I don’t really have to pay attention). 2) I’m a big MegaTen/Persona collector, I want all the plats I can have (I plan on platting the other versions of the all the dancing games on Vita and PS4, P4G, and the versions of Catherine I don’t have, like I legit have a gd excel sheet keeping track of the versions of Megaten games I don’t have yet....I’m just doing P5 cause it’s 1) one of the easiest to do and 2) it was easier to get my hands on them atm). I don’t talk about my trophy hunting on here that much tbh, but that’s.....really a big reason why I’m doing it (plus with the Korean/CHinese ver I don’t have to pay attention to any story so it’s all good! :D) Yeah I do it to myself, but I don’t really mind. 8U And I mean I tend to keep most of my P5 issue on my blog too. I think the only two posts that I put in the P5 tag were 1) a few consistency issues I wanted to meme about (aka the I’m about to head out post, which was actually the 2nd post I made on that topic but I decided to just meme that one, so I thought it was better than me just bitching, at least I tried to make it a bit funny yet informational 8U), and 2) something that I tbh had an issue since I back when I liked P5 (aka wishing they worked on speeding up the loading times and the fast forward feature), so since I was playing the game I was like “That reminds me, man I hope they fix this in the re-release!”. As for english P5, the only reason I’ll be playing P5 OG in english is for either archiving reasons or research reasons (probably both at once so I don’t have to play through it more than once again).

As for P5R, uhhhhh I’m excited for Kasumi (Jose is cool too, and the new dungeon has me interested too, and all the P2 demons coming back to it makes me wonder what else is/if anything is coming back), she’s my main draw. Yeah it’s connected to P5R, but she looks so much like Hamuko I JUST HAVE TO KNOW WHAT’S UP WITH HER! Hamuko’s my girl, and I need to know if Atlus is going to do something with that, or if I need to be pissed for them literally lifting Hamu’s face! Am I gonna get pissy about P5R’s new add-ons (aka, I’m aware that P5R is probably going to keep the issues from OG P5, so I’mma just judge P5R based on it’s new content)? Yeah, if they kept up the same writing P5 OG had. So yeah, I’m probably going to get pissy if they eff it up, but I’m not going in pissy, going in with really low expectations tbh, but I’m giving it a chance. But if they don’t eff up the new stuff then......that’s good! It means they did something right. So far Kasumi is not Marie so we’re off to a good start. I’m hoping the keep that momentum. 8U

So yeah, I think I have valid reasons for staying, maybe you don’t like it anon/person, but they are there. 

tldr; someone feels like the need to police me despite the fact they could just ignore me (even tho it seems like they specifically came to my blog to get mad, rather than me clogging up the tag, like I post there maybe once or twice every 2 months). My stance on P5 is that I deal with it cause it’s part of a bigger fandom I’m a part of and the fact I love the lore of that bigger fandom so it’s not like I can ignore it. I also have a Playstation trophy problem. 8U And I’m excited for Kasumi is that so bad???? (also I didn’t mention it, but Anne/Haru are enough to keep me around 8U)

[chloes-yellow-cup]

Getting Even

Rating: Explicit. Ver. Ver. Explicit.

Words: 11367

A/N: One shot set in my own universe with an established Bechloe. It started out as pure smut, and then I put some fancy window dressing on it to make it all respectable like. Please let me know what you think, love it or hate it. I’m relatively new-again to writing and I’d love to know if I’m going in the right direction. I may have a multi-chap going if there’s enough interest – though that’s smut free at the moment.

Disclaimer: I own nothing, Pitch Perfect and all wherein belong to Universal. I’m just borrowing them.

AO3 and FFN Tumblr Master Post

A Shared Lifetime

When Beca realized that Chloe was going to stay at Barden after failing Russian Lit – unintentionally, per Chloe – they had originally just made plans to share a room. But then Chloe spent the last week of the school year convincing and bribing the rest of the Bellas to come back two weeks early and help clean out the attic of the house.

Aubrey even came back and helped sort what was trash and what was tradition. “I don’t trust the hobbit to not throw away an important Bella memory.” But since Aubrey had brought beer, Beca decided to let that one slide.

Once they were done, the room was big enough for their queen sized bed and matching nightstands - Beca’s idea - and still have space for Beca’s mixing setup along the banister - Chloe’s idea. A small built out walk in closet sat in one corner and their dresser fit perfectly along the wall. The rest of the room was filled with Chloe’s vanity and small sitting area in front of the stairs, consisting of a couch, low table and a large chair that were already in the attic and no one had wanted to haul downstairs.

Aubrey had brought up the table and two chairs that she had brought home one day when she and Chloe had shared a dorm in their freshman year. The two of them had spent several weekends sanding down and refinishing them. It had served for studying, late night meals and an uncomfortable pillow on more than one occasion.

Beca put on an overly sweet smile and said, “Aw, thanks for the housewarming gift, Aubs.”

Aubrey had refused to look at her and instead opened another beer. “It’s not a housewarming gift when it’s been here the entire time. It also belongs to Chloe and I couldn’t fit it in the van.”

Chloe watched as Aubrey wordlessly held the bottle out to Beca, who took it with a less-sarcastic-than- normal salute of thanks. She loved watching the two of them banter, finding their way to a friendship that both had once deemed impossible.

~*~

It was Spring Break of Beca’s sophomore year and Chloe’s first as a Super Senior.

On that first Saturday, Chloe and Beca stirred slowly, limbs tangling as they stretched. What had started out as soft good morning kisses started to turn into something heavier, both still warm with sleep and rising desire, when there were several loud knocks at the door at the bottom of the stairs.

“Get out of each other’s pants and come down to breakfast.” Stacie’s voice carried up to them. “Everyone but you is leaving today. Come say goodbye, you can scissor later.”

Chloe groaned while Beca yelled back, “Dude!” Beca could hear Stacie’s laugh outside the door and let her head thump back down to the mattress. “Fuck. OFF!” A quiet voice in her ear pulled her attention firmly back to the bed.

“No...” Chloe’s hands snaked back under her shirt, nails scraping and fingers pulling Beca’s hips closer. “Fuck. Me.” Chloe’s thigh slipped between Beca’s and pressed upward.

Beca breathed out and ground helplessly down. “Oh. Fuck.” It may have been louder than she intended as Stacie’s voice drifted up to them.

“Actually, you guys sound really fucking hot. Maybe I’ll just pick your lock again and join you this time.”

Beca jumped as the doorknob rattled.  She squeaked out “Breakfast?” as she tried a last ditch effort to control her libido.

Chloe hummed in disappointment as Beca flipped the covers back and jumped out of bed. Stacie was probably (mostly) joking, but Beca was not going to take any chances. Besides, she was right. The rest of the girls were leaving for Spring Break to visit their families. Or, in Fat Amy’s case, “I could tell you my plans, but then I’d have to put you down like a dingo gone wrong.” Beca was almost intrigued, but then realized that if those plans included Bumper and nudity, she was better off not asking.

Beca was taking a shift at the radio station again this year, this time during the day, and Chloe opted to stay at Barden with her. They would have the house to themselves for almost a week. The least they could do was see the rest of them off.

Chloe stretched leisurely before she sat up and swung her legs over the side, watching as Beca pulled on a pair of sweats and a hoodie, then ran a brush through her hair. Chloe waited until Beca turned around and then pulled her sleep shirt off. She stood slowly and made her way to the dresser behind Beca, making sure to slide against her.

Chloe loved watching Beca’s eyes darken with need, the way her fingers would twitch at her side. But what she loved most was when Beca finally couldn’t stop herself from reaching out, her hands skimming up Chloe’s ribs. Chloe arched her back, anticipating the touch over her breasts when they heard the door creak open and the unmistakable groan of the first step.

“DUDE!” Beca threw herself in front of Chloe and spread her arms, thankful there was no direct view from the doorway below. “WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FUCK?” She felt Chloe snicker behind her. “This isn’t funny, Chlo! What if we’d been in the middle of…” Her voice dropped to a whisper. “You know.”

“You should be able to say ‘sex’, Becs.” Chloe leaned forward to whisper in her ear. “Especially when you’re so good at it.”

Beca just groaned, face turning scarlet, and let her arms drop when she realized that Stacie hadn’t started up.  She heard Chloe opening drawers and hoped she was getting dressed and not diving into their ‘special’ drawer. Beca was only human and it was physically impossible for her to deny Chloe anything if she had her heart set on morning sex.

“Oh please. It’s not like I’m a Peeping Tom,” Stacie said from the bottom of the stairs. “And it’s not like I’d not know if you guys were having sex. The whole house knows when you guys are having sex.”

Beca flushed deeper, jumping again when Chloe pushed past her in a pair of shorts and one of Beca’s hoodies that Chloe had stolen last year. She followed Chloe down the stairs and backhanded Stacie in the stomach as they went by. “Shut up. Dick.” As threats go, it was one of her weaker efforts and Stacie only smirked at her as they made their way downstairs to the kitchen.

“That didn’t take as long as I thought it would,” Cynthia Rose said from the table at the back of the room. “Were they done?”

Stacie shook her head and took a seat on the bench next to Flo. “Nah, I think they hadn’t gotten started. Then I threatened to join them and picked the lock again.”  She leaned over for Cynthia Rose’s impressed high five.

“I’m installing a chain this week,” Beca muttered as she poured coffee in the oversized “Kiss the DJ” mug Chloe had given her. As the room erupted with whistles – Amy slapped Beca’s shoulder as she walked by, “Damn, Shawshank. I didn’t know you were into that.” And a barely heard yet terrifying whisper from Lilly, “I have some in my room if you want.” – she realized what she said. “For our DOOR, you pervs! Stacie will just keep picking any lock I throw at it.” She resolutely refused to acknowledge her renewed blush as Stacie nodded at her.

Chloe pouted from where she leaned against the counter then sighed. “Oh well.” She tipped a wink at Beca when the brunette shot her a look.  

Jessica waved her spatula. “Alright, sit your butts down, people. Breakfast is ready.” She and Ashley began stacking French toast, bacon for those who wanted it, and scrambled eggs on plates as Chloe distributed them out.

Beca settled down on one of the stools around the island, smiling as Chloe set a plate in front of her. “Thanks, babe.” She dug in as Chloe sat next to her, Jessica and Ashley across the way. “Tastes amazing as usual, Jess.”

The rest of the morning went smoothly, the girls devoured breakfast while discussing what they were going to do over the holiday. When they were done, Beca and Chloe cleaned up the kitchen while the rest of them finished packing, fighting over the two bathrooms in the house. Once the kitchen was spotless, they went up and dressed for the day; Beca in black skinny jeans, tank, open flannel and her boots; Chloe in the sundress she had worn when they first met and wedge sandals. They snuck in to brush their teeth between the other girls showering.

After piling into the Bella bus, Beca and Chloe dropped the girls and their luggage off at the airport and train station; each goodbye was a little (lot) teary on all sides. While Beca was looking forward to some alone time with Chloe, she was going to miss her new family. But just a little bit, she lied to herself as she swiped at her eyes.

By the time they got back home it was almost time for Beca’s shift. She headed upstairs to grab her laptop case. As she turned around, she bumped into Chloe, not realizing she’d followed Beca in.

“Oh!” She stepped back. “Sorry, Chlo.” Her eyes narrowed. “You have that look on your face.”

“What look?” Chloe asked innocently, eyes on Beca’s lips, her fingers trailing up the edge of Beca’s flannel.

“The one that says you’re going to throw me down on the bed and do things that would make Stacie jealous.” Beca smirked. “I love that look.”

Chloe nodded absently. “Me too.” She leaned forward and placed a kiss on Beca’s exposed collarbone. “We got interrupted this morning.” Another open mouthed kiss to her throat caused Beca to inhale sharply.

“Chlo… Chloe…?” Beca’s voice was higher than normal. “I gotta…” She broke off into a moan as Chloe’s teeth nipped her pulse point. She slid her bag from her shoulder and let it rest on the ground. “I need…” Her eyes rolled back in her head while her other hand tangled in fiery locks as Chloe kissed up the column of her throat. “Oh shit… I really need you to keep doing that.” She pushed her body closer as Chloe’s hands slid under the flannel and around her back.

“But Becs…” Chloe had reached her ear and let her tongue trace the Beca’s ear spike. She pulled back slightly and caught Beca’s mouth, immediately slipping her tongue through already parted lips. They spent several moments languidly kissing, Beca content to let Chloe lick slowly into her mouth.

Chloe pulled back, eyes hooded and leaned into Beca’s ear. “You’re gonna be late.” She went to step away but Beca’s fingers in her hair tightened and held her in place. Chloe let out a soft whimper, her body tingling from the slight sting. “Oh. You can’t do that right now. We don’t have time.”

Beca leaned forward and nipped Chloe’s lower lip. “I know.” She gave one more firm tug of her fingers before relaxing them to slip against Chloe’s scalp. “But I can’t be the only one frustrated until tonight.”

Both women stepped back, breathing ragged and quick. Beca reached back down for her bag, unnecessarily ghosting her hand along Chloe’s leg from hip to ankle. She smiled as Chloe spun on her heel and walked into their closet.

“See you downstairs in a second, Becs.”

Beca made a detour into the bathroom to splash some cold water on her face before heading down to the kitchen. She was making a turkey sandwich when Chloe finally came in. “You want one, love?”

“No, that’s ok. I’ll stop and eat something while I’m running errands.”

“Oh? What’s on the agenda for today?” Beca finished the sandwich and placed it in a Ziplock.

Chloe leaned against the center island as Beca started to put away the ingredients. “The store, because I can finally buy all my favorite things without worrying about the other girls eating them before I can.”

Beca pouted. “I thought I was your favorite thing.”

“You are. And they’re never going to eat you before I can.”

Beca’s mouth snapped shut when Chloe actually purred. “I walked right into that. Both eyes. Wide open.” She grabbed an apple from the fruit bowl on the counter, placing it and the sandwich in her laptop case.

“Totes.” Chloe laughed. “Sorry. I’ll try and be good.” She ticked items off on her fingers. “Pick up our uniforms from the dry cleaner, they should be ready. Maybe finally buy those closet organizers I’ve been complaining about. Some window shopping after lunch. Then I’ll go to the store and be home before your shift ends. Anything you need?”

Beca slid the strap over her shoulder and willed herself to behave. “Not that I can think of, but I’ll text you if I think of something.” She gave a melodramatic sigh. “I’ll just be playing music and thinking of you today.”

“Mitchell, you sweet talker.” Chloe followed Beca to the door, grabbing her purse on the way out.

“Only for you, Beale.” Beca let Chloe walk out the door ahead of her, closing it behind them and ensuring it was locked. “Don’t tell anyone. I have a badass rep to protect.”

They held hands as they walked to Chloe’s car. When Chloe unlocked it, Beca opened the door for her, waiting until Chloe was settled and had fastened her seatbelt before closing it. Chloe started the car and rolled down the window, smiling when Beca leaned in and gave her a soft kiss.

“Thinking about me, huh?”

Beca smiled in at her. “I mean, maybe.”

Chloe’s voice dropped several octaves. “What if I told you that I’m not wearing any underwear?”

Beca felt her jaw drop as she stared down at Chloe’s lap and the dress that had ridden high up on her thighs. “Wha…?”

“Love you. Watch your toes!” Chloe called happily and waited until Beca had automatically stepped back before driving off.

Beca stared after her, still half bent. “Love… you?” She took a deep breath and shook her head to clear it of the image it had gleefully formed before short circuiting.

As she finally started walking to the radio station, an idea slowly started taking shape in her mind. It would require that Chloe be running a little late, but if she was going to window shop it was possible.

Checking the time, Beca quickened her pace and plotted on how to get even.

~C~

As she stumbled through the door weighed down by dry cleaning, Chloe realized she probably could have made two trips and saved herself some aggravation. She finally dumped all nine bagged uniforms on the couch, relieved to be free of their awkward weight. She’d take them up later; there was something else she had to do first.

Getting the flashlight out of one of the kitchen drawers, Chloe walked over to the basement door and stared at it.

“This is stupid. There are no such things as ghosts.” She paced back and forth a bit. “All the organizers I could need might be down there, it’s not like we’ve ever really explored.” She reached out and gripped the knob for a minute before letting her hand slide back off.  

All the girls had, at one time or another, had to go into the basement; the old house popped breakers far too frequently for their liking. Each had run back out swearing that they’d seen or heard something and would never go back. A few months after the girls moved in Beca had finally laughed at them.

 “Come on, you guys. This is all in your heads. There is no such thing as the supernatural.” And she’d waved her hands and made an ‘OooOoooOO’ sound that had earned her a punch to the arm from Cynthia Rose.

“Don’t even joke about that, Beca! This shit is real and I don’t want it all up in my business because you pissed it off.” When Beca stared at her, Cynthia Rose widened her eyes. “I seen some shit down there.”

“Like what?”

“I don’t know what it was, but it was in the corner, it was black and it moved.”

“Sure it wasn’t just your imagination?” Beca smirked.

Amy whispered under her breath. “Or a mirror.”

“Yes I’m sure it wasn’t my imagination.” CR mocked Beca’s tone. “And it weren’t no damn mirror. The room got colder too.” She rubbed her arms at the memory.

Beca rolled her eyes. “This is why I hate it when you guys make me watch those horror movies. You all jump at literally shadows for the next week and make me check under your beds.”

“Cause you’re closest to the floor, short stack.” Amy slapped Beca on the ass, laughing as she dodged the arm Beca swung at her side.

Jessica and Ashley stood with their sides pressed together as Ashley said, “Last month, when we popped the breaker, I did hear some thumping when I went down to flip it back on.”

“That was probably just Stacie and her latest,” Beca countered.

“Hey! It could just have easily been you and Chloe.” Stacie never looked up from filing her nails.

Beca nodded, conceding the point to herself, but not giving Stacie the courtesy of a glare. “Whatever, there is no way that it is haunted.”

Fat Amy waved toward the door. “Then by all means, Mon Capitan. Show us poor peasants how we’re just being silly.”

Behind them, Flo crossed herself and mumbled what Beca was pretty sure was a prayer, but her own Spanish was limited to “uno mas” “cerveza” “margarita” and “baño” so she couldn’t be sure.

Beca stepped forward and put her hand on the knob. “Pussies.” As she opened the door, cold air rushed upward, blowing her hair back like a fucking Beyoncé video. She noticed how the stairs were swallowed by darkness. “Uh… Where’s the light switch?” Her voice had gotten higher and she hoped the rest didn’t notice.

Chloe’s voice was overly sweet. “At the bottom.”

Beca paused for a minute, willing her legs to move. “Yeah, fuck that. That’s how horror movies start.” She slammed the door and stepped back. “Why the fuck do we not have this shit boarded over and a fucking guard?”

 Chloe smiled at the memory as she reached out and turned the knob. She pulled the door open gently, braced for anything. But there was no mysterious cold breeze, no wails of the damned. She turned on the flashlight and aimed it down the stairs. There was nothing waiting for her at the bottom. She took a few steps down.

“See, there’s nothing here. Beca was right. This is all in our minds.” The sound of her voice made her feel less alone as she continued down. Reaching the bottom she flipped on the light switch. Nothing happened.

“Um…” She licked her lips nervously and flipped the switch a few times. “Maybe… I’ll…” Something rattled in the far wall and she broke, running up the stairs faster than she thought possible in wedges. She slammed the door and rested against it until she caught her breath.

“Dollar Store for organizers it is.” She replaced the flashlight and bustled out to her car.

Chloe spent the rest of the afternoon avoiding the house, though she’d never admit it.

~C~

While she was picking out what she needed from the Dollar Store, her phone vibrated. She fished her phone out of her purse and smiled as she opened it.

 Beca: Seriously, Chlo? No underwear?

 Chloe giggled. Beca had lasted longer than Chloe had thought she would before saying anything.

 Chloe: What can I say. They started to feel constricting.

Beca: Where are you right now?

Chloe: The Dollar Store. Need anything?

Beca: Just thinking about how easy it would be to slip up behind you and slide my hand between your legs.

 A wave of heat passed over Chloe, but before she could respond, Beca sent her another text.

 Beca: I know you’re already wet, thinking about me.

 Chloe had to lean on her cart for support, her legs going a little weak as she pictured it, almost able to feel Beca behind her. In her. As her legs shifted, she could feel that maybe Beca was right and that made it worse.

 Chloe: How could I not be? You’re gorgeous and know just how to touch me. I’d let you, you know.

 Beca’s response took a bit longer and Chloe forced herself to concentrate, putting the last item in the cart as she went up to pay. She waited until she had loaded everything in the car and was safely sitting down before reading Beca’s text. She laughed, almost able to hear the squeak in Beca’s voice.

 Beca: You’d let me… in public?

Chloe: Becs, I want you everywhere. If you decided you wanted to fuck me in the middle of Thanksgiving dinner, I’d ask someone to move the gravy boat.

Beca: Oh sweet baby Jesus.

Chloe: No, that’s Christmas, but that works too. I do love unwrapping my favorite present.

Chloe: Time for lunch. See you later. Don’t forget about me.

 Beca texted back a picture and Chloe burst out laughing. Beca had taken an awkward selfie where she’d collapsed on her desk, eyes closed and tongue lolling out. The letters ‘D E D’ were scrawled across the bottom.

At lunch, Chloe tried not to think about Beca and failed miserably. She dug out her phone and breathlessly tapped out a message while she shifted in her chair.

 Chloe: Sitting here at lunch and wishing your hand was on my thigh.

Chloe: They’ve got some pretty long tablecloths here.

Chloe: I don’t know if anyone would notice if I spread my legs under the table.

Beca: I almost just moaned in the middle of announcing the next set.

Beca: I would, you know.

Chloe: What? Moan into the mic?

Beca: Put my hand on your thigh.

Beca: Slide it upward.

Beca: Tease you for a minute. Watch your eyes close until I remind you that we’re in public and you can’t let anyone know what we’re doing.

 Chloe realized she was gripping the edge of the table and forced herself to let go and take a drink of her water. Beca almost never played along with Chloe’s sexting, much less initiated it on her own. She looked down at her phone as it vibrated and gasped.

 Beca: I’d slide my middle finger down and slowly slip into you. Watch your eyes flutter as you tried to keep them open.

It took every bit of willpower to keep her hands from drifting under the table to put Beca’s words into action.

 Chloe: Fuck, Bec.

Beca: That’s the point, isn’t it? To have me move inside you where we could be caught at any moment?

Chloe: I’m going to get kicked out of here if we keep this up. I won’t be able to stop myself. And I’d really like to wait until it’s you touching me.

Beca: Love you, make good choices.

 Chloe ran her glass over her forehead and smiled when the waitress came over with the bill. She needed to cool down and decided to do some window shopping after all. After she paid and strolled up the street, she began to realize this was a bad idea. Every step reminded her how wet she had gotten over lunch. She spared a minute to think that it was a good thing she wasn’t wearing underwear, she’d have destroyed it by now.

Spotting a top she liked, she went in and browsed. Selecting a handful of shirts, she made her way into one of the fitting rooms. She tried on a couple, lowering only the top of her dress, and finally brought out her phone again.

 Chloe: Trying on a few tops and am kind of wishing you were in this room with me.

Beca: Oh yeah?

Chloe: Mmhmm. It’s a fully enclosed room. I can picture you on your knees in front of me.

Chloe: Lifting my skirt.

Beca: Holy fuck, Chlo.

Chloe: Feeling your mouth on me.

Beca: I’m so fucking turned on right now. Why did I agree to work again?

Chloe: Because you’re amazing and people need to hear how amazing your music is.

Chloe: Jesus, I’m soaked.

Beca: Show me.

Chloe gasped and her thighs tensed. Beca couldn’t be asking what she thought, could she? Chloe looked around the room nervously, half expecting someone to open the door and ask her to leave.

But she hiked her dress up, barely keeping her bits covered, the glistening on her thighs obvious in the light. Swallowing thickly she snapped a picture and sent it to Beca. She quickly rearranged her clothing, afraid she’d give in to temptation otherwise. Her phone buzzed and she opened Beca’s message.

It was another picture, a close-up of Beca’s jeans. Her unbuttoned jeans. Pulled open so Chloe could see the lacy black underwear she had worn today. And Beca’s left hand starting to dip below the black waistband, fingers hidden from view.

Chloe had to sit down on the bench in the room, all strength gone from her legs. A whimper slid free and she found herself unable to pull her gaze away. Until she realized what Beca might be doing at this moment. Without her.

Chloe: BECA MITCHELL GET YOUR HAND OUT OF YOUR PANTS RIGHT NOW!!!

Chloe: If I, of all people, can control myself, you should have no problem!

Chloe: Beca? Baby? Please?

Beca: Sorry. Forgot to queue up the commercials before I got sidetracked and almost ended up with five minutes of silence.

Beca: I promise, Chlo. I’ll be good. For now.

Beca: Though sitting in these jeans is now uncomfortable.

Chloe: Sorry, babe. I’ll make it up to you tonight.

Beca: Looking forward to it. Love you.

Chloe: Love you.

 Chloe started to plan how she could get even with Beca for that last picture.

 ~C~

 Chloe was putting bags of groceries in her car, when she felt her phone vibrate for the first time in a few hours. She was maybe a bit less than careful as she tossed in the last bag, hoping it wasn’t the one with eggs as she slammed the trunk.

Dropping into the driver’s seat she pulled her phone out, only then realizing that she was late. Beca would already be done with her shift and likely waiting at home for her already.

 Beca: Come to our room. Don’t look over until you’ve reached the top step.

 Chloe sucked in a breath, desire running like lightning down her back and straight to the heat between her legs. Shakily she texted that she was on the way back from the store and dropped her phone into her purse. She heard the soft clink of the keys in her hand as another tremor went through her body when she tried to put them in the ignition. It took a few tries and she had to close her eyes and force herself to focus before she could do it. She hoped she could make the short drive home without driving off the road.

Once she parked, she got the four bags of groceries out of the trunk, determined to bring them all in one trip. She tried very hard not to think about what might be waiting for inside as she unlocked the door. She failed.

Detouring to the kitchen, she put away everything that required the fridge or freezer and left everything else still bagged on the counter. She slowly made her way, body humming in anticipation as she stopped at the foot of the stairs to their room. She forced herself to pace slowly up the stairs and bit her lower lip to keep herself focused on not looking through the railing. Once at the top, she drew a deep breath and looked at the room that was lit by the soft white Christmas lights that Chloe had insisted be strung around the room.

Her eyes immediately focused on Beca and Chloe knew… *knew* … if she’d seen Beca before she’d reached the top, she’d have tripped and sprawled on the floor. She whimpered loudly, clenching her thighs to try and quell the quaking of her legs. She almost whimpered again as she realized that her thighs were wet again and she was already aching.

Beca stood in front of the table, naked except a pair of underwear that sported a realistic, though jet black, strap-on. Her left hand was wrapped around it, her left leg slightly cocked outward; and while it should look... ridiculous... Chloe’s mouth dropped open and went dry as all moisture in her body headed lower. She could feel herself grow even more excited, though she’s not sure how, and her still bare center began to throb so hard she thought she’d pass out. Beca’s right arm hung down along her side, and Chloe could see the hand slowly flexing, forming a half fist before relaxing.

“Strip and drop to your knees.” Beca’s voice was raspy, and Chloe could hear the desire and the almost hidden thread of nerves woven throughout. The brunette’s right hand briefly pointed in front of her and that’s when Chloe noticed the pillow lying thoughtfully at Beca’s feet.

Without taking her eyes from Beca’s, Chloe reached behind her to unzip her dress, the sound loud in their silence, until it slipped from her and pooled at her feet. Chloe was trying to ignore how far down her thighs she was wet now, though she was sure it was clear even in the dim lighting. A fact confirmed as Beca’s eyes dropped briefly and she licked her lips.

Beca whispered. “Oh my god, you really weren’t wearing underwear all day. I mean, the picture… but seeing… it’s different…”

Chloe just shook her head as she unhooked her bra and dropped it to her side. She stepped out of her heels, over the dress and made her way slowly to Beca before sinking gracefully to her knees on the pillow. She’d never stopped taking even breaths through her nose since she walked through the door. Beyond that first whimper when she entered the room, Chloe had been silent. Beca’s eyes were dark with lust, a grin hovering over her lips.

As Beca’s left hand started to lift from the toy, Chloe reached up and stopped it, wrapping the fingers of her right hand around Beca’s left, holding it in place.  Chloe felt the tremor in those fingers as she slowly, carefully, squeezed both their hands around it in the same rhythm as Beca’s right hand, which hadn’t stopped flexing. Tense. Relax. Tense. Relax.

She held Beca’s gaze as her tongue came out and touched the tip of the toy lightly. Beca swallowed thickly, her breath hitching as Chloe’s left hand rested on Beca’s flank, underneath her curling hand. Beca gently wrapped her fingers around the side of Chloe’s hand, fingernails lightly scraping the redhead’s palm. The flexing though, that never stopped. It was like Beca was channeling her nervous energy in that one motion, remaining still and in control otherwise.

Chloe’s tongue circled the head once, twice, before her mouth opened and she took it in. Her lips stretched – she wasn’t accustomed to this anymore, really - but eventually her muscle memory kicked in and it was more comfortable.

She noticed a tremor had started throughout Beca’s body. Chloe could feel it in Beca’s muscles, her skin almost twitching. She thought it may have started about the time she began to treat the toy as an extension of Beca – her tongue working around the head, pulling back and licking up the bottom from the base, over their tangled fingers – all while looking directly into Beca’s eyes. She watched as the navy blue slowly disappeared as her pupils became blown with desire.

The room was silent except Beca’s rapid breathing and the sounds Chloe was making as she knelt before her. Chloe didn’t think she had been so turned on in her entire life.

Closing her eyes, Chloe took both pairs of their joined hands and brought them to her head, not letting go until Beca threaded quivering fingers through red locks on either side. She put her left hand back on Beca’s hip, her fingers gliding up and coming to a rest along the hem of the underwear before sliding the tips under. Her right hand went back to the shaft and stroked it lightly as she leaned forward again and relaxed her jaw.

As she slowly slid her mouth over the length and took it in, her left hand travelled back along smooth, warm skin; pushing further under the fabric, until she was palming one firm cheek. Her right hand moved to mirror the movement, but in reverse – the back of her fingers sliding around across the front of Beca’s thigh, feeling the heat increasing the further inward she went.

Her left hand squeezed gently as she felt Beca’s breath hitch when the redhead’s nose touched Beca’s stomach. At the same time, her right hand traced the outside of Beca’s core. As the touch registered, Beca did three things simultaneously:

Stopped breathing.

Clenched Chloe’s hair tighter, causing a sharp, but pleasurable, jolt of pain.

Jerked her hips forward but stopped almost as soon as it had begun.

Chloe slowly moved her hands again, nails scraping gently, until both rested once more on Beca’s hips, gripping lightly.  She heard Beca finally start breathing again as, eyes still closed, Chloe pulled backward, the sound impossibly indecent, until she only had the head still on her tongue. She looked back up at Beca and waited, noticing the brunette’s eyes had closed.

After a few motionless seconds, they opened again, a small furrow between her brows. Chloe waited patiently, knowing it wouldn’t take the other girl long to get the idea. She wasn’t sure why she’s going to these lengths, how she’s ignoring the heat that’s borderline agony between her legs. While this was not the kinkiest thing she’d ever done, she was pretty sure it’s in the top ten.

After several heartbeats the furrow vanished and Beca’s jaw dropped open for half a second. Her fingers gently moved through Chloe’s hair until Beca cupped the back of her head. And then she slowly moved her hips forward, watching the length slide through Chloe’s lips, glistening from her earlier attentions. Beca couldn’t seem to take her eyes off it until Chloe’s nose once again touched her stomach. Beca inhaled deeply through her nose, unable to control a groan as she felt movement through her fingers, knowing it was Chloe working her tongue against the shaft in her mouth.

Beca held steady for a moment before withdrawing just as slowly, pulling back slightly on the soft hair wrapped around her fingers to move Chloe back until the toy dropped from her lips. With the grip she had, Beca tugged Chloe gently upward.

“Chlo...” Her voice had deepened though it was unsteady, her eyes desperate with need.

As Chloe slowly stood, Beca slid her hands out of Chloe’s hair and down over her shoulders and arms, gripping lightly under each elbow to steady her. Chloe lightly brushed her hands along Beca’s sides as she rose, tracing the side of the smaller woman’s breasts, watching the goosebumps that trailed in her wake.

They stood facing each other for only a few seconds, when Beca half turned away. “Lean over the table.”

Chloe bit her bottom lip, fighting the moan that wanted to come out and only partially succeeding. She also saw a small bottle of lube on the table and looked back at Beca’s eyes, smirking.

“We’re not going to need that.” With slow movements, she grasped Beca’s left hand. “Trust me.” She didn’t comment on the tremors she could still feel as she brought their once again joined hands between her legs.

Chloe allowed herself one groan as their fingertips brushed through her, instantly coating them. Her eyes closed briefly, shooting open when she heard Beca’s mirroring groan. Beca’s eyes fluttered closed and her head fell slightly backward before she brought it forward again, until they rested forehead to forehead.

“Fuck, Chloe. You’re so wet.” Beca’s whisper was almost reverent.

Chloe closed her eyes again, trying to tighten her mental hold over her body; trying to will herself to be able to do this; exert some control to keep from falling into her lover.

She slipped her hand under Beca’s, putting the brunette’s palm directly against her heat, sliding it back and forth. Almost on instinct, two of Beca’s fingers curled and entered Chloe as their hands slipped forward.

The redhead’s body jerked twice, a high pitched whine escaping before she clamped her hand down on Beca’s wrist, holding her motionless. When she opened her eyes, Beca’s were watching her and at the edge of her vision she saw that Beca’s smirk was back.

“You might be right about that, Chlo.” The self-congratulatory tone in her voice (as well as a third finger slipping in) spurred Chloe’s next actions.

“Let’s just make sure, shall we?” And she started to move her hips slowly, rolling them against Beca’s hand. Each motion was deliberate and as she sped up, she noticed the smirk dropping away. Beca’s eyes dropped down to stare at Chloe’s moving body and their hands.

If Chloe had thought the sounds her mouth made earlier were indecent, their hands moving against her now were positively vulgar. She wasn’t sure she’d ever been so wet in her life and didn’t know how she could still get more turned on, but she was. ‘Isn’t there a limit before your body gives out?’

Chloe couldn’t hold back and be silent anymore. Each time she pushed herself onto those wonderfully talented fingers, she let a quiet grunt slip through her lips. Their foreheads still touching, she watched as Beca licked her lips slowly, still staring between their bodies.

She felt the urge to give in and just fuck herself to orgasm against Beca’s hand, anything to end the fire she felt from head to toe. But even as her body started to make its own choice, preparing to fall, and with a willpower she didn’t know she had, she forced herself to push their hands back, leaving herself aching and empty. Her muscles continued to clench involuntarily as she looked up at Beca.

~B~

Beca could only stand there and stare back as Chloe brought their hands to the toy between them, wrapping Beca’s hand around it once more, gliding back and forth effortlessly, and coating it from tip to base.  Those clear blue eyes snared her easily, lust darkened and pupils blown. She was a little surprised her skin wasn’t seared off her fingers from how hot Chloe had felt. Beca’s own body had stepped up its throbbing when she felt how positively soaked the redhead was.

Beca could only watch when Chloe let her hand drop, as she crouched down and grabbed the pillow from the floor.

She could only swallow when Chloe stepped around her and placed it on the table, tossing the small bottle aside.

She could only turn to follow with her eyes as Chloe made herself comfortable.

She could not in any way control her breath as it began to rasp in and out, somehow both deeper and shallower as her chest heaved when Chloe leaned over the table, elbows resting just past the pillow that protected her stomach from the table edge.

She could only stare at the image before her, sacred and sinful, and memorize how Chloe looked in this moment.

Only when Chloe turned and looked over her shoulder, one eyebrow arched, Beca found she finally could move. She stepped forward, her hands rising to slowly skim over Chloe’s back, fingers tracing the muscles hidden underneath the soft skin, goosebumps rippling outward. She realized that they both already had a light sheen of sweat over their bodies.

She placed herself between Chloe’s tensed and parted legs, feeling the toy jutting out from her pelvis coming to rest against, but not in, the other woman. Beca felt the jolt as the tip must have brushed against the redhead’s sensitive bundle of nerves as she moved forward, the insert that pressed against Beca’s own center heightening the movement.

Beca let her eyes close as she gathered herself, strangely hesitant for all that she’d been thinking about this on and off for weeks and pretty much nonstop today. They had never had the chance to use it before now.

She let her hands trace once more over Chloe’s back before settling on her hips.

“Beca.” There was command and so much need in Chloe’s voice that Beca snapped her head up and met her eyes. “Fuck. Me.” Chloe slid her right arm down, underneath her body and between her legs, fingers reaching out to grasp and guide.

Beca’s hips moved back, not confident yet in their movements, and allowed Chloe to move her where they both desperately wanted her. She watched Chloe lower her head slightly and heard a small slip of breath escape in an almost ‘at last’ sigh and Beca’s hips jerked forward without permission.

Beca swore and almost came when the most deep, guttural and primal sound she had ever heard came out of Chloe. She tried so hard to slow her motion but she was past all but the most tenuous threads of control. She didn’t quite slam all the way in, but it certainly wasn’t the steady push she had envisioned. Her pelvis met Chloe’s ass and she paused, hands clenching Chloe’s hips reflexively.

Her mind was screaming two very different things at her.

One begging to give Chloe time to adjust.

One begging to make Chloe scream her name.

 ~C~

Chloe took a deep breath, her fingers still between her legs and felt Beca’s body come to rest against her. Within her.  Her hand twitched once at the feel of Beca’s heat so close, almost involuntarily reaching backward with her fingertips, but the angle wasn’t right.

She wasn’t accustomed to being this full either… and even then this felt… so different. This was Beca who was inside her and that made everything so much more.

She felt Beca lean forward a little, causing things to shift and press deeper within her. Chloe let out a quiet moan as she felt the warmth of Beca’s breath ghost over her back.

“Chloe..?”  This time Beca’s voice was hesitant. Concerned. The need was still there, dripping off every word, but it seemed to have taken a back seat for a second. “Are you…” Beca’s hand lightly stroked up her side. “Did I...”

After a second of taking stock, the redhead rolled her hips slightly before pushing herself back into the other woman. Grinding.

“Beca.” It hissed out between gritted teeth. “Fucking.” A push. “Fuck.” A roll of her hips. “Me.” A moan.

And she let her head drop slowly, bringing her right arm back up and crossing her forearms together, letting her forehead rest against them.

She felt Beca go rigid for a second, her breath hitching in her chest as Chloe continued to move against her, needing some relief for that throbbing that was so close to edging into pain.

And then Beca’s grip firmed - Chloe could almost see the determined look in her eye. And when Beca’s hips finally, finally, began to move, Chloe almost sobbed from the relief. They weren’t quite soft and gentle but they did start slow until Beca found a rhythm – and her confidence.

As the table creaked beneath her, an errant thought floated through Chloe’s mind. ‘Bree would be so scandalized to know what we’re doing on her table.’ She started to chuckle but then Beca’s hips tilted and she slid into Chloe at a new angle, erasing all thoughts from her mind that weren’t Beca.

The push, pull and fullness inside her were driving Chloe crazy; this was hotter than anything she had envisioned before this began. If she was being honest, it was hotter than anything she’d ever had in her entire life. Then again... everything was so much more with Beca.

It wasn’t long before the room was filled with the sounds of flesh smacking into flesh, Beca’s pants and grunts and Chloe’s keening cries. Her mind clung to the fantasy that it was Beca fucking her, not some toy, and she was only partially aware of the words spilling from her mouth.

“Jesus... Bec... ugh.. Just... oh GOD... Fuck… Love, please... faster…. Fu..don..stop..”

 ~B~

Beca rolled her hips, trying different angles, changing speeds and force. Each drew a new sound from Chloe’s mouth, each more wanton than the last.  She wanted – craved – more. So much more.

All of it – the sight of Chloe’s body bouncing back and forth on her small table with each motion of their bodies. The sounds their bodies made between them. The feeling of pushing into Chloe, knowing she was deeper than she had ever been before – was intoxicating

When she saw Chloe this way, it reminded her all over again how muscular she was. You never really saw it unless Chloe flexed, like she was now, spread out in front of Beca like a Goddess as the muscles in her back bunched smoothly. But once you saw them you wondered how you could have missed them in the first place.

Beca pulled back slightly, changing to slow, long thrusts and looked down briefly and yes, Chloe’s legs were braced, the muscles standing out in strong definition. Beca spared a minute to remember the time she traced them with her tongue, Chloe laughing at how it tickled her, but shyly pleased by Beca’s fascination with them.

When Beca leaned forward again and lowered her front to Chloe’s back, her nipples were so hard that rubbing against even Chloe’s soft skin almost caused physical pain. But Beca didn’t stop, their bodies immediately sticking together from heat and sweat. She watched as Chloe’s right arm shot out and her hand seized the edge of the table, fingers white from the strain.

Gripping tightly with what felt like her entire body, not just the arms clenched around Chloe’s waist, Beca started thrusting in short but oh-so-fucking-hard strokes.

Red curls bouncing with every push, Chloe’s head turned, her left arm supporting her forehead and keeping her face from scraping against the table. Beca lifted her head slightly and saw white teeth gripping skin. She could still hear the (not really at all) muffled screaming from the woman writhing beneath her.

“God… Chlo...” Beca panted for breath. “You’re so fucking beautiful baby. Fuck…” She groaned, her head coming down and her own mouth finding any available inch of skin and sucking hungrily. Beca was frantic, her body on full auto pilot, teeth scraping and nipping – part of her mind hoped that Chloe didn’t mind looking like a Cheetah. But she couldn’t stop. Her back, her sides – anything Beca could reach, she licked and sucked, her hands beginning to slide across Chloe’s stomach. “You sound... unh... So. Fucking. Good.”

Chloe pushed herself upward with both arms, her body bowed as Beca thrust harder.

There was a small squeaking noise and the table moved forward an inch from the harder motion, letting out another, louder, creak.

Chloe pushed back against her, head dropping briefly as she tried to form coherent words. “Becs. We can’t... Shit… fuck yes… break this table… ohfuckrightthereBeca… or Aubrey will kill us.”

Beca panted and whined. “Do not mention Aubrey to me right now. That’s a horrible thing to do to your amazing girlfriend while she’s fucking you.”

“Then don’t break the table.” But Chloe wasn’t stopping, still meeting Beca thrust for thrust.

Beca bit Chloe’s shoulder and spoke around it. “Well, we are literally attached at the hips right now. …Oh fuck, Chlo…  And I don’t think I could stop anyway -” She was interrupted by a moaning “don’t you dare” and smiled. “So if this breaks, we’re gonna ride it all the way down to the floor and I’ll go buy some wood glue later.”

She slipped her left hand around and up Chloe’s back to hook over her shoulder. Using it as an anchor she leaned back and changed her angle, throwing her hips up into Chloe.

“Oh GOD.” Chloe moaned. “Fuck the table. Just keep doing that forever.”

Beca slid her hands back around Chloe’s slick body, feeling her stomach muscles spasm and jump. Her fingers skimmed up and over Chloe’s breasts, palming them roughly, squeezing just this side of painful. Suddenly Chloe was slamming her hips backward, meeting Beca stroke for stroke. “Jesus... Bec... I’m... oh god...”  Her head dropped as she pushed hard against the brunette. “Oh…Sh... fuck fuck fuckfuckfuck”

Beca felt the pressure as Chloe tightened and thrust harder. “Jesus... I love you. Come for me, Chlo...”

Suddenly Beca slammed her hips home, grinding tightly into Chloe’s ass, her hands gripping Chloe’s breasts. “Oh fuck… Chl-” Beca couldn’t talk anymore, couldn’t find the air as sweat dripped off both their bodies, and still, nothing was enough and she never wanted this to end.

Chloe’s moans were constant, her breath heaving in and out of her lungs. She was pushing herself back into Beca, her body bowed and seeking.

Beca found taut peaks and squeezed, pulling them away from Chloe’s body.

~C~

Chloe felt like she was dying. Her breath rasped in her chest, desperate for air. She couldn’t get enough of the body slamming into her. She wanted to pull Beca into her even further and never let her leave.

When she had felt Beca’s hands on her breasts, it started a chain reaction. Her muscles clenched, causing Beca’s thrusts to start to slow until she had to put more strength into each push. Her back bent, pushing her chest into Beca’s hands. Her mouth opened and a wail started to build in her throat.

When her nipples were pulled she flew over the edge. Her orgasm was so intense that everything locked into a silent scream. She threw her head back, eyes clenched shut, freezing as shudders started at her core and rippled outward. She heard Beca panting behind her, hands still holding her breasts, though she’d stopped pulling. Instead, the Beca’s fingers gently, so gently, smoothed over Chloe’s aching nipples; her hips almost languidly still moved against Chloe, still fucking her – helping her through it to come down slowly.

Finally, finally, Chloe felt her body begin to relax. First her mouth finally unlocked from its rigid “O” of pleasure, only able to partially close it as she still could not get enough air. Her body lowered itself to the table, cheek resting on the surface as her arms curled around her head.

She felt Beca come to rest on her back again, feeling her breath puff across Chloe’s skin. She could feel Beca’s heart beating against her as they both took a minute. She also thought she felt a kiss pressed to her shoulder, but it was so light and her skin was literally twitching so she wasn’t sure.

Chloe whimpered when Beca lifted herself off her back. She cried out when Beca slowly pulled out of her. She almost wanted to cry from feeling so... empty. She willingly turned with the hands urging her, eyes blinking open to lock with Beca’s, jolted by the need in those navy blue depths.

She opened her mouth, her heart full and needing to let some of it out. “I love-” but Beca’s lips crushed her own, tongue immediately snaking out and licking in. She swallowed the moan Beca let out as Chloe sucked on her tongue – hinting at the things she’d performed earlier before Beca fucked her into the table.

The redhead reached for the underwear that harnessed the strap-on, not sure if she wanted to waste time with pulling them down or just shove her hand under it – and Beca’s hands stopped her.

~B~

“Not yet.” Beca was surprised her words were clear – she felt like her heart was in her mouth, pounding with all the force of her need. She took Chloe’s hand and led her to their bed - though gently, as she could see Chloe’s legs still trembling.

She urged the taller woman down onto the bed and wasted no time straddling one thigh, ignoring the toy for now. Beca hissed out a breath as she felt Chloe’s center against her skin, her own clenching tightly as the insert pressed against her. She needed to come – soon – but she’d been thinking of this for too long and there was one more thing she really wanted to do.

She leaned down and kissed Chloe, trying to say without words how much she loved her. Her tongue darted in and out of Chloe’s mouth until they were both writhing together. Beca moved further down, soothing nipples that were still somewhat tender; traced Chloe’s ribs; dipped into the hollow where hip met thigh. She settled between Chloe’s legs, pushing her thighs apart and heard her name moaned from the throat above her. As she felt hands settle in her hair, her eyes fluttered closed for a second, before looking up and meeting those gorgeous bluer than blue eyes.

Not looking away, Beca licked Chloe’s clit, untouched until now, with a hard push from the flat of her tongue. She wound her right arm under Chloe’s thigh and pressed into her hip as it bucked. Chloe let out a high keening wail, but kept her eyes on Beca.

“FUCK! Be…c...” Chloe’s voice broke off into a groan as Beca sucked the bundle of nerves into her mouth. Her fingers clenched in brunette locks and pulled Beca against her. “I don’t know if I can…” But her hips rolled, Beca’s arm only partially keeping her in place.

For an answer, Beca brought up her left hand, slipping three fingers deeply within the other woman. Chloe’s eyes slammed shut as her fingers clenched, digging her nails into the Beca’s scalp – but Beca barely felt it. Without hesitation she began curling her fingers inside Chloe while her tongue went to work. She licked with strong strokes along Chloe’s length, worshipping every inch; she sucked lightly where Chloe’s breath hitched, flicked rapidly over her clit and far too quickly she felt Chloe’s walls start to clamp around her, a second orgasm approaching fast.

~C~

Chloe couldn’t believe this was happening. She was pretty sure her body was one giant instrument that only Beca knew how to play to perfection. She had never come that hard, much less be ready for a second climax so close to the first. Her hips were in constant motion and her mouth was just chanting Beca’s name with a string of profanity after it with a few “Oh God” thrown in.

As she felt herself seconds away from coming undone she felt Beca’s mouth and hand leave her. Her eyes flashed open, looking down as she felt Beca move quickly up her body. “Are you fucking KIDDING ME –” And then her legs were wrapped around Beca’s hips, heels crossed over her back, and the goddamned strap-on slid into her body again.  One hand let go of Beca’s hair to fist in her own, her body overloaded and all she could do was hold on as she writhed against the bed.

This time she could feel Beca’s entire body moving - all soft curves and flexing muscles - as she fucked Chloe into another mind bending orgasm. She forced her eyes open to see Beca’s face – a mixture of desperate need, love, desire and concentration – over her own. Felt lips take hers in a searing kiss that tasted of herself until Chloe was forced to break away and gasp desperately for air as the wave crashed over her. “Beca! Oh… I lov… GOD... FUCK.”

The room rang with the echoes of her cries for several minutes, holding Beca to her, in her, body shuddering through aftershocks, legs still locked and unable to move.

Eventually her hands started stroking Beca’s hair and any spot of skin she can reach, feeling Beca’s heart hammering in her chest. She had thought the moment before was perfection. She was wrong, this was it and she felt like her heart shouldn’t fit in her chest because it was so full.

Chloe felt tears slipping down from her eyes but was unable wipe them away before Beca noticed.

“Chloe, oh god did I hurt you?” She braced on her left arm and gently wiped the tears away with her free hand.

Chloe shook her head, smiling though it trembled. “No. I’m ok, I promise. Just a bit of sensory and emotional overload.” She pulled Beca down into another kiss. “And I love you. So much.”

Beca pulled back and searched her eyes. Reassured, she dipped back down and whispered “I love you too” against Chloe’s lips and they traded lazy kisses filled with quiet passion.

Gradually though, things were finally becoming uncomfortable – Beca in her, not on her. She never got tired of feeling Beca’s body on top of her own. Chloe slowly unlocked her legs and let them fall flat. The tears stopped as her emotions slowly settled.  It took a bit longer before she reined in her wandering hands and Beca started to withdraw. Chloe hissed softly until Beca was fully out and kneeling upright between her legs.

Chloe still thought she should find this thing jutting out at Beca’s hips ridiculous looking, but with her orgasm(s) still rolling through her, knowing she was going to be sore for all the right reasons in the morning… It was still hot. She couldn’t help but bite her lip until Beca’s laugh drew her attention upward.

~B~

“You can’t seriously be able...”  Beca laughed again as the redhead interrupted her. “No, god no!” Chloe bit her lip again. “At least... not now.” But she was leaning forward, and Beca’s muscles jumped as Chloe sat up and pressed against her. She tried very hard not to notice how the strap-on looked pressed between Chloe’s breasts. “But I think we need to take this off now.” Beca nodded rapidly as she hopped off the bed.

Her hands were pushed aside as Chloe followed her and slowly slid the tight underwear down her body, letting her nails scratch lightly the entire length of Beca’s legs. Beca shuddered as the insert on her side slid down against her entire core.  At a tap, she lifted first one foot, then the other, stepping free. Chloe let it all fall to the floor as she laid back down, her gaze heavy on Beca while her hands pulled her fiery locks into a loose bun.

Beca’s skin felt like it was too small, which would make sense because she felt like her lungs had to be compressed because she just can’t get any air. She was pretty sure she had a small orgasm just from watching Chloe come the first time but her need hadn’t diminished in the slightest. And now that the cool air has hit her heated center, it grew exponentially. She was dreadfully afraid that Chloe was going to tease her in payback and was sure that would kill her.

As she started to slide back into bed, Chloe’s hands pulled her over until she straddled Chloe’s hips – then urged her higher. Beca’s mouth went dry as she realized where Chloe wanted her. Eagerly she moved forward, settling her knees on either side of Chloe’s head, hands reaching for the headboard for balance. Chloe’s arms shifted behind Beca, hands resting on Beca’s hips to move Beca slightly forward and then held her in place.

Beca felt a warm exhale over her center as Chloe let out a soft sigh. At the first touch of her tongue on Beca, Chloe let out a small hum, pulling firmly downward with her hands. Beca’s body twitched as the hum vibrated through her body, starting ripples in an already storm tossed lake. “Jesu... Chlo... Oh... fuck... right... ther… Oh... shiiiiit..”

Beca leaned back and braced herself with her hands on Chloe’s ribcage. She looked down the line of her body and, just past the rise of her hipbones, she saw Chloe’s face. Chloe’s eyes were closed, brow and forehead furrowed as she sucked lightly at Beca’s clit, her chin brushing firmly against Beca with every suck.

And then those beautiful eyes opened and snared Beca’s effortlessly. She watched, breathless as Chloe tucked her head slightly and slid her tongue down to tease Beca’s entrance. And then Beca felt Chloe push into her, and thanks to their current positioning, so much deeper than Chloe had ever been before.

“Oh. Chlo.” It came out a sigh and a prayer. Beca so badly wanted to reach out and tangle her fingers in Chloe’s pinned up locks, but she was afraid it would upset their current balance and positioning. And Beca would rather cut off her left arm than do anything that could stop Chloe’s curling tongue from slowly thrusting into her. So she tried to put all the love and desire chasing through her through her gaze and hope the shining eyes under her could feel it all.

She felt Chloe speed up, her tongue’s thrusts becoming more rapid, and as ‘Holy fuck, Chloe’s mouth is fucking amazing’ slammed through her mind, Beca couldn’t hold back anymore. She felt her eyes trying to close, until she had to throw her head back as her hips rolled like the endless tide against the shore that was Chloe’s sinfully talented mouth and tongue.

As Beca’s moans grew louder, higher and breathier, she knew she was getting close to the edge. Unsure she could maintain her position and keep Chloe’s against her – inside her – Beca pushed herself upright again and held onto the headboard once more.

She clutched tighter, desperate to keep her balance and unable to keep still while chasing down the release she’d needed after thinking of this for so long. Her need had been tripled by the reality being so much better than the daydream. With every moan, every gasp, every keen she let slip between her lips – Chloe hummed in response. They sounded every bit as desperate as Beca’s cries, growing louder as Beca raced closer to the edge.

And it was building, finally building and she couldn’t stop it. “Please... Chlo... ohhhhfuuuu-“ Her words were cut off as her body hurtled into space, her only tether the mouth still working frantically between her legs. She couldn’t stop her hips from moving – actually stopping the ocean tide would be easier – her mouth opened as she screamed Chloe’s name.

She wasn’t sure when it happened - though likely when her legs started to give out - but she found herself on her back, with a still very turned on Chloe planting a thigh against Beca’s still twitching core.

~C~

“Oh fuck, you’re going to kill me, Chloe.” Beca’s hands fisted the sheets under them while her hips continued to roll against Chloe’s thigh, still coming down from her climax.

Chloe smiled wickedly. “But what a way to go.” And she pushed her right hand between them, slipping down through Beca’s folds, immediately slipping inside with two fingers. Straddling Beca’s right thigh Chloe pushed her own thigh against her hand, holding it tightly against Beca as she began to curl and rub from the inside. Her palm pressed against Beca’s clit, the pressure firm against her moving hips.

She leaned up and kissed Beca, biting her lips and tugging at them. “I love you, Becs.”

Beca’s eyes were closed, unable to stop her hips from rolling against Chloe’s hand. “Fuck… Chlo…” Her breath hissed out as a third finger was added, Chloe’s pressing thigh pushing them deeper. “I don’t, I can’t…” Her hands clenched helplessly at Chloe’s shoulders.

Chloe leaned down next to Beca’s ear. “It felt so good to have you fucking me, Beca.” She smiled at the whimper that escaped. “You felt so good inside me. So deep.” Beca’s whole body twitched and her muscles squeezed Chloe’s fingers. “I can’t wait until I return the favor and fuck you in this bed.”

Chloe watched Beca come undone beneath her and eased her leg back, allowing her hand more movement as she eased Beca through her second orgasm. She let her body rest against Beca’s, nuzzling gently at her temple.

After a few moments, Chloe spoke up. “I may have… one more idea.”

~B~

Beca’s eyes shot open. “Seriously Chloe? I thought you said you…” She blinked rapidly and tried to get the sweat out of her eyes and her brain to focus.

Chloe smirked. “I said not then. This is now.”

Still straddling Beca’s right leg, Chloe sat up and lifted Beca’s left leg, allowing Chloe to slide over a bit and press their centers together.

Beca’s eyes rolled back in her head, her body was almost too sensitive at this point. But Chloe felt amazing against her, all liquid heat and soft skin. She hooked her leg around Chloe’s side and ground her hips upward. Both women let out a moan.

“We need to do this more often.” Chloe panted softly as she rocked her hips. “How do I always forget how amazing you feel this way?”

Beca could only nod, rendered almost mute by the sight and feeling of Chloe grinding down on her. Almost. “Faster, Chlo.” Beca’s hand gripped Chloe’s thigh and she pushed herself up, finding Chloe’s rhythm. “I’m almost…”

“Wait for me, Becs.” Chloe pressed harder and Beca knew she wanted them to reach that third peak together. Beca grit her teeth and tried to hold on, but she was so close she didn’t think she could do it.

Beca slid her hand between their gyrating bodies, touching both their clits at the same time. Simultaneously they screamed out each other’s names, bodies bucking uncontrollably.

This time the pressure was too much and Chloe slid to the bed half lying on Beca, legs still entangled as they came down from their high.

~*~~*~

“Holy fuck, Chloe.” Beca tried to lift her arms. “I can’t move.”

Chloe snickered. “Then I’d say we did all that correctly.”

“I dunno.” Beca hummed thoughtfully. “We may need to try all that again. Just to be sure.” She was finally able to stretch languidly. “And, you know, maybe reverse roles, just to, you know, be super thorough and scientific about things.” She began to run her fingers up and down Chloe’s back.

“Just to be sure, yeah. For science.” Chloe nodded. “That’s some good thinkin’, Becs.” She let her hand brush against Beca’s stomach where muscles still twitched in aftershock. “Remind me to thank Stacie.”

“What? Why?” Beca forced her eyes open.

“She gave me the idea for the finale when she interrupted us this morning.”

Beca snorted, nodding. “Oh. Right.” Then, more thoughtfully, “Do they make fruit baskets for that kinda thing?”

Chloe giggled against her neck. “I’ll have to check. But I’m sure we can come up with something if they don’t.”

A few minutes passed as their breathing slowed.

“Hey, Bec?” Chloe’s voice was a bit slurred.

“Yeah?” Beca’s eyes refused to open.

“I think I need a nap.” Somehow Chloe got the energy to hook her foot under the blanket folded at the end of the bed. Slowly she drew it up until she could grab it with her hand. Using a mixture of the two, Chloe – because Beca still couldn’t really move more than her hand on Chloe’s back – spread it over them.

“Mmmhmm. M’too.”

Chloe nestled back down onto Beca’s side, burying her face in Beca’s neck. She whispered softly, sure that Beca was already asleep. “I love you so much.”

Before she dropped into sleep, she felt a kiss on her head and Beca’s arms tightened around her. “Love you too, Chlo.”

[grimelords]

My May playlist is finished and it’s got everything from Rachmaninoff to Peaches across 3 and a half hours, I hope you enjoy it.

If The Car Beside You Moves Ahead - James Blake: James Blake has got such a big brain and this song is unbelievable. He has such a way of taking things that could be gimmicky like this vocal stuttering, or looping vocals and making them totally heartrending.

The Boxer - The Chemical Brothers: The central melody of this song is constantly stuck in my head and complete proof that you can make an incredibly catchy hook with just three notes if you need to.

known(1) - Autechre: I think this is maybe Autechre's most straightforward song but it still sounds like a harpsichord concerto getting sucked into a black hole. The way the violin-ish part swoops around throughout the whole thing, disintegrating and reforming before your eyes is hypnotising.

Sundown - Boards Of Canada: Guess who started crying this month listening to an ambient Boards Of Canada song thinking about how the end of soil is within my lifetime and we have destroyed our only home the earth!!

Do I Wanna Know? - Arctic Monkeys: With their new album coming out I went back and listened to AM for the first time in a while and it's still really astonishing what they pulled off. This and R U Mine? completely blew me away when they came out. Having the audacity to completely change your sound and style and have it work perfectly is amazing, and then disappearing for five years and trying to do it again? Bold.

FML - Kanye West: I was listening to this a lot when Kanye was off his lexapro and fucking his whole life up. And now there's a sequel to this on the new album where Kim's begging him not to fuck the money up, which I think is a very good kind of storytelling.

United P92 - Venetian Snares & Daniel Lanois: I love the idea of ambient Venetian Snares and this is the song on the album where their two ideas meet in the middle the best I think. Also the way this builds and builds into total chaos I always forget that it's coming and get surprised when it says 'the machine can cum', what a funny song.

Turnstile Blues - Autolux: I saw Autolux's drummer in Jack White's band when he played on SNL a couple of weeks ago and suddenly remembered how perfect this song is. A true testament to the power of a simple groove that sounds like it was recorded in a concrete garage.

Young For Eternity - The Subways: Yet another great song about being a vampire and all the benefits that vampirism can bring to your life! Thank god for Dracula! He sucked the shit out of me, now I can leave my work for nights and leave my days for sleeping! Young for eternity!

Oh Yeah - The Subways: I bought a 7" of this song a couple of weeks ago in honour of the time it inexplicably caused me a mental breakdown and made me sprint out of my house to drive around town crying and listening to it on repeat for some hours about 5 years ago. Not sure what that was about!

The Blues - Defeater: As far as songs that go for less than a minute go, I really can't fault this one. Pure power, it does absolutely everything it sets out to do and still manages to get two choruses in under the wire.

Bombay - El Guincho: I saw Holy Mountain this month in a double feature with El Topo, and although El Topo kind of sucked I loved The Holy Mountain a lot. There's a part where there's been a battle and a whole lot of protesters are dying on the ground bleeding, except you can see that the blood and guts are obviously special effects, you can see the hose that she's using to pretend to cry and the guts are green balloons and things like that. Hold on I found it on youtube anyway I know I've seen it before and I thought it was in the video to this song or another one of CANADA's videos but I watched them all and can't find it! If anyone can tell me the music video I'm thinking of, thankyou. This song is also, of course, good.

Swim Good - Frank Ocean: Honestly has there ever been a better song about wearing a cool suit and driving your car into the ocean?? Never. This is perhaps the best sing along song ever because you've got to do your smoothest voice ever until he does his little emo yells of 'I'm goin out!' near the end.

Batphone - Arctic Monkeys: I think this is my favourite song off the new Arctive Monkeys, it's the most '3am slamming away at a club piano' type vibe of them all, but most of all I love the little spiralling into space guitar noise that keeps happening whenever he finishes a line.

An Open Letter To NYC - Beastie Boys: I'm almost always thinking about the time Beastie Boys made a very serious song about how good New York is after 9/11 and they said 'dear New York I know a lot has changed, we're two towers down but we're still in the game'.

Black Car - Beach House: I can't get enough of the new Beach House album, and this song in particular. It's some of my favourite lyrics of theirs ever, a good song for when you're trapped in a dark labyrinth of your own creation.

Midnight Radio 1 - Bohren & Der Club Of Gore: Got quite heavily into Bohren & Der Club Of Gore again this month. This is from the album before they got rid of their guitarist and replaced him with a saxophonist, which pretty dramatically changed their sound from 'extremely brooding night music' to 'film noir soundtrack', which is still very good but really not the same. Anyway this song goes for 20 minutes and it feels illegal to listen to it any time before 2am.

House In LA - Jungle: I am so excited that Jungle are finally back and with such an amazing song too. I love how spacious this is, it feels very different to their first - a lot more grown up and I really can't wait for the album.

Lemonworld - The National: Someone had a tweet a while ago that was like 'the guy from the national sounds like he's been going through a divorce for ten years now' which is very true, but this song feels like it's from happier times when he went to see his sister in law and had an morosely horny time. This song feels like the entire experience of reading a literary novel condensed into 4 minutes: a depressed older man in New York having a sort of backwards, confusing sexual thought. This is a song I regularly listen to on repeat and sing along to, it's a very specific feeling and I think "it'll take a better war to kill a college man like me" is one of the best lines he's ever written.

Rigamortis - Zomby: I put off listening to the new Zomby album for so long because his last one was just so boring but he's completely redeemed himself on this, it's really something. It feels like one long piece, which is amazing when any sort of thematic coherence is a rarity for Zomby albums. There's a lot of recurring sounds and motifs, and almost zero drums in the traditional sense. It feels like a really mature reflection on grime that he's been building up to for years.

Indoors - Burial: Whereas this song sounds like you're waiting outside a club in hell.

Segeln Ohne Wind - Bohren & Der Club Of Gore: Another Bohren song but from much, much later. I love the way the brass sounds in this when it finally comes in, it's so rich and overpowering.

Isle Of The Dead - Segei Rachmaninoff: Wikipedia says "The piece was inspired by a black and white reproduction of Arnold Böcklin's painting, Isle of the Dead, which Rachmaninoff saw in Paris in 1907. Rachmaninoff was disappointed by the original painting when he later saw it, saying, "If I had seen first the original, I, probably, would have not written my Isle of the Dead. I like it in black and white." and it also says "Prints were very popular in central Europe in the early 20th century—Vladimir Nabokov observed in his novel Despair that they could be "found in every Berlin home". Folks what is going on with this spooky painting.

Been Caught Stealing - Jane's Addiction: For a long time this was the emergency dead air song on Triple J, which is an inspired choice in my opinion because there'd be ten seconds of eerie silence because something's gone wrong at the station and then suddenly two huge loud chords! and dogs barking! A BEEN CAUGHT STEEL IN! ONCE!

Sledgehammer - Peter Gabriel: I was sitting on the toilet when I saw a news article that said Peter Gabriel has finally made his music available on Spotify and I said 'yessssssss' loudly myself and then played Sledgehammer. Honorable mention to the best ever sample of this song in Contemporary Man by Action Bronson, which is unfortunately still unavailable on Spotify.

Reaching The Gulf - Dylan Carlson: I saw a review of this album saying Dylan Carlson is the only choice for soundtrack if they ver make a movie of Blood Meridian and they're completely right. I'm also so glad that he collaborated with Emma Ruth Rundle on this, it feels like the closest I'll get to bonus tracks to her Electric Guitar One album.

T-1000 - Swarms: I have no idea where or why I first heard this album but it's been in my rotation for a long time. It's in the general canon of post-Burial dubstep before dubstep got americanized and it's just very nice. When the vocals finally come in on this it's a very emotional moment for me.

Casino Trem - Tyondai Braxton: It's really surprising listening to Tyondai Braxton's work after Battles because he has such a distinct melodic style it's shocking to realise how much he brought to that first album. After listening to a lot of his solo stuff it becomes so recognisable it almost feels like you can go back through Mirroroed and pick out every single guitar line of his making. Anyway this song is great. Starts out sounding like what it feels like to be trapped in a pokie and ends up like you're trapped in a databent Banjo Kazooie cartridge.

Kick It - Peaches & Iggy Pop: The first time I ever heard this song, and the first time I ever heard of Peaches or Iggy Pop was on the soundtrack to Midnight Club 3 so I didn't really know what the fuck was going on. I still don't really. I love that this is supposed to be like a dangerous sexy song but the whole time Iggy Pop is just rebuffing her advances and bullying her. Then she's like 'go to berlin' and then the song ends. Still not sure what this one's about still!

If You Know You Know - Pusha T: GOD this song is good, I've been listening to it on repeat. What I love about Pusha T is where a lot of other rappers talk sort of frivolously about drug dealing and everything, he often feels like he's putting his hand on your shoulder and looking you straight in the eyes saying 'I am not fucking around. If you need drugs of any calibre or kind I can get them for you in massive quantities.' The impish way he's saying 'if you know you know', absolutely kills me, like he's a cartoon man winking at me while hiding drugs inside a tennis ball.

Hacker - Death Grips: I think I put this on my playlist last month but I'm still on it so. My new favourite part of this song is when he says "The table's flipped now we got all the coconuts bitch / Burmese babies under each arm / Screaming beautiful songs".

Cavity - Hundred Waters: Hundred Waters feel like a really underrated band to me, I've been listening to their last two album a lot this month and they're just stunning. The long build up towards the end before the two note melody comes back and kills me? What a moment.

Music For The Long Emergency - Polica: I didn't love this album when it came out but I've been listening to it more and more and it's really growing on me. I think I put this song on a playlist a month or two ago so I won't write more but let me say this: Polica rules.

On The Grid - Lime: tfw you turn the knob and you do a good job and you wind up on the grid :/

Elephants - Them Crooked Vultures: I feel like Them Crooked Vultures gets forgotten when people talk about Queens Of The Stone Age albums. People bring up Desert Sessions and Kyuss but somehow forget that this giant album happened. Anyway this is far and away the best song on it because it just keeps on giving and giving. It's just a huge jam about riding an elephant and having cool hair(?).

Particle - Hundred Waters: This song feels like it could be the EDM hit of the summer if it was structured slightly differently, but instead it's the biggest brain pop song I've heard in a long time. I love how much power the bass has in this, it really feels impactful when it comes and goes. The vocal performance is obviously incredible as always but I really love the distorted vocal line that sort of tears itself apart now and then, against how clean everything else in this song sounds it really makes it.

Me Or Us - Young Thug: Thinking hard about when Young Thug sampled First Day Of My Life by Bright Eyes and made it into a really really good song.

Because I Love You - Montaigne: God this song is good. All the time the lyric 'I ate a salad today, I ate one yesterday too' pops into my head and makes me laugh. She tweeted about this song a couple of days ago and it really made me laugh: "My ex-boyfriend & I once watched BBC Sherlock & during the ep he paused & basically soliloquised about how he’s a tortured genius just like Sherlock & I’m his Watson in as condescending a way as you’re probably imagining then poured a shot of whiskey & now you know the story"​

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[antisocial-mochi]

Fake Love Mv Analysis + Theory

HOLY SHIT I CAN’T EVEN! There’s so much to cover. I’m going to do things a bit out of order, but if you’ve watched the mv, you’ll know what order everything’s in originally. This is going to be a bit long, so please bare with me.

First off, when they’re all standing in the line formation, it’s very reminiscent of  an unraveling DNA strand. 

It’s almost like after Jin closed the curtain, it was like he closed himself off from everyone and everything. 

Then Jin’s huddled around the smeraldo flower shown in the beginning. Like he’s trying to preserve what’s left of himself. However, once it’s gone, it’s like Jin had nothing left to lose, therefore he disappeared. 

 Or the flower could be a metaphor for the secret of him hitting Jungkook and putting him in the hospital. It’s almost like his ‘fear’ is lack of control in situations. 

It’s almost like Jungkook observing Jin from a crack in the door.. (It’s seems he’s observing all the guys in some way, shape or form. I’ll list them as we go along.)

Then he’s running, trying to catch up with him. at one point, he’s running through the hallway that was used in both Awake and BST Japanese ver. and the floor is falling out behind him. It’s almost as if everything is disappearing because Jin’s gone and now Jungkook in the process of leaving.

(Which both of them have used the same room or a very similar room in recent times. Jin’s room is very similar the Jungkook’s room in Begin. Then at the end of this mv, as seen in the one teaser, the room with the hooded figure and coat racks is almost identical to Jin’s room; after it was destroyed.)

Then we see Taehyung with a phone that disintegrates to ash. It’s not real. Plus, all on the walls, there’s phones everywhere that later turn on. It’s like saying that even though you get all this love and attention, it doesn’t mean anything if it doesn’t come from yourself first. (Plus we have Save me/I’m fine written behind him.)

Towards the end of the mv, Taehyung is seen walking away from the hallway plastered with phones and looking up at “Save me” on the wall.

 Could that be him realizing he doesn’t need the love, nor the opinions of others? Is he beginning to see that he doesn’t have to stay in the box he’s been put into for so long because of who he is? Does he realize the only person that can truly keep you stigmatized, is yourself. Then in turn, he’s leaving it behind(?) 

Maybe he’s ‘fear’ was himself because, he killed his father in I Need U. Then when Namjoon didn’t come to his aid, maybe he felt like his actions weren’t as justified as he first thought. Therefore, he began to question his values/morals as a person; was he a good person? 

There’s also the possibility that the reason the phone is the center of Taehyung’s fear or darkness is because, he felt betrayed by Namjoon. If you remember they have a whole history behind them. They get in trouble together, promise to always have each other’s back, etc. Then when Taehyung needs him most and tries to call him, Namjoon doesn’t answer. Now whether the betrayal is intentional or not, is another ball of wax. At that point, it depends on what theory thread you want to follow. Namjoon could represent Taehyung’s ‘fake love.’ An unreliable friend, who knows things about you, things most others don’t.

(We also have this shot of Jungkook standing directly above Taehyung’s room.)

We also have Hoseok, who when he was first shown in the mv, he was surrounded by carnival rides/props. Not to mention, the merry go round. (Which is where his mother abandoned him as a child.)Then he’s laying in a huge pile of Snickers. His ‘fear’ is being abandoned, and his ‘fake love’ was his mother. 

It’s almost as if he’s being consumed by his truth/darkness. That or he’s acknowledging it, finally.

(Here’s Jungkook’s way of observing Hobi. Which feels very familiar to the clip of Jungkook looking into the keyhole in teaser 1.)

We have Namjoon kind of at odds with his reflection. It also seems like Namjoon’s ‘room’ is like a giant shipping container. Which, that would sort of make sense because, Namjoon’s been either in, on, or near shipping containers. Like in clips from the Run mv and the Epilogue mv.

Someone on Twitter pointed out that the handgrips behind Namjoon reminded them of the grips in buses. Much like the the bus he was on in the LY:Her highlight reels. The same bus he bumped into his girl on. Maybe because he wanted to impress her, he put on this other persona, or mask. But because he kept that mask on for so long, he began to lose or forget who he truly is and what he’s done.

Hence making his love for not only himself, but others around him, fake. Maybe his ‘fear’ is having to let go of that other persona, in order to find himself again. Or his ‘fear’ IS in fact re-finding himself, but not being happy with what he has to look at in the mirror everyday.

(And here’s Jungkook’s outlet to observe Joon.)

Now we have Yoongi. First we see him in a decrepit room, sitting in front of a brown piano. Notice the guitar beside him. Could that be the one his girl had in the LY:Her Highlight Reels? (He also throws it. )

Once Jungkook gets to the end of the hallway, it’s a dead end. However, there’s a boarded up opening in the wall. When he looks in, there’s Yoongi  all alone, sitting in a chair, staring at the boarded up fireplace. 

Then we see a flash of fire outside the room. Almost as if it were like a passing thought in his mind. Fire seems to represent Yoongi’s darkness/truth. So, it’s like he started thinking about it and the more he thought, the more aware he became. 

then he smiled, as if he were content with realizing/ acknowledging his truth.

Someone mentioned to go back into the HYYH notes and read Yoongi’s. There’s we’re told that Yoongi’s mother dies in a fire. So maybe the room he was in, was her room at one point.

Even though Yoongi was shown so much love by his girl in the reels, maybe he still felt like it wasn’t as real as his mom’s. Maybe he felt like her love was the only true love there was. What if he felt like his girl was going to try and use him. 

Maybe his ‘fear’ is being used/being depended on.

Maybe that’s why he pushes Jungkook away and even fights him. he afraid of having people need him.

In his most recent notes, they talk about him having a flashback to when he watched his house being burned to the ground. When he was asked if there was anyone else in the house, he said no. 

Maybe his mom was sick and depended on him, way more then was should be expected of from a child. Maybe he was tired of it and wanted to be free. However, then as he’s gone through life, he’s carried this guilt with him. That could explain why he attempted suicide, by setting his room ablaze. 

He wanted to go out the saem way this all started. Maybe he was hoping the fire would engulf him in the room, since it didn’t work the first time.

Moving onto Jimin. As talked about in past posts, Jimin is associated with water, much like Yoongi is with fire. 

We see he’s in the room, alone (yet again, keeping up that trend of him always being alone.) and looking around, obviously unhappy. At one point, we see him turn off the faucet of the sink behind him. Almost like he’s  had enough and stops the endless circle that is his lie, dead in its tracks. Or that could be Jimin bottling up his feelings,  (Hence with the water bursts from the walls.) 

Then, after the few scenes with Jungkook, (Which I’ll get to in a moment.) we’re shown the drains on the wall behind Jimin start to overflow and burst. Literally like the flood gates open and either side of him. Is that an indication of Jimin acknowledging the darkest parts of himself? (This is also at the same time Yoongi’s room goes up in flames.)

(There’s also a flash worth of a scene where Jimin has in hand covering his mouth. If you go back in my posts and read “Analysis of Lie Mv,” I talk about my theory as to why he does that. )

Jimin’s ‘fear’ is either death, or being left behind. We’ve seen throughout the storyline that Jimin seems to be ill. I’m thinking it’s most mental than physical, but I could be wrong.

He always seems to like living in the moment, rather than worry about the future.He doesn’t want thing to change because, if things change he could be written out of the equation.

Jimin seems to have the closest relationship with Hoseok, yet he’s replaced multiple times. First it was with the girl from the highlight reels. Then it was Taehyung in Euphoria.

It seems as though Jimin depends on Hoseok a lot throughout the universe. Hoseok keeps him grounded, keeps him from doing something stupid. The problem is, Hoseok doesn’t really know Jimin’s relying on him so much. So, while he’s looking out for others and running to other people’s aid, he’s unknowingly leaving Jimin out in the cold.

(I also want to point out that this is/could be Jungkook observing Jimin from above,not Jin like I initially said.)

Now for the scenes where Jungkook is looking at the waterfalls, it’s a little interesting. We see the wall of waterfall(s). We also see a pile of dust/ash/sand on the ground, along with the glass container that once held the Smeraldo flower. 

When Jungkook kneels down to pick up some of the ash/dust/sand and as it’s falling back down to the ground, we see the shadow of flower petals flying away. As we know, Jin’s always linked with flowers, more specifically lilies. However, the petals in the case aren’t lily petals, but still the point still stands. Then it pans out, and there’s petals floating through the air. 

Some have said that the flower could represent time. So,when we see the sand that means time’s caught up with Jin and the truth’s out. 

My question is, is Jin gone? Did he complete what he set out to do, or did something happen; like a sort of loophole that made his time run out? Because it doesn’t seem like he’s ready to leave, or ready to have things come crashing own around him. Hence why he tries to protect the flower.  

When Jin loses the Smeraldo and all that’s left is a pile of ash and the empty container, that could support the theory of him being gone. Or, maybe his spirit per say is moved to that all black room from Euphoria, where there was only a bed and the curtains. 

Maybe that’s like a limbo type of place he’s moved to, in order to save him from completely vanishing. Then maybe from there that’s when he tries to go back in time and fix things. (As discussed in a past post.)

Taehyung’s also been associated with the Smeraldo flower. In Singularity, he’s seen holding the flower in front of his mouth. Again, the truth that was untold. So, when the flower turned to sand, maybe Jin’s truth wasn’t the only truth finally brought to light. 

Somebody said when Taehyung was looking at the phone, it looked like he was looking and the Smeraldo flower.(I don’t know if I agree with that. It’s very hard to tell by the slight reflection in his eyes.)

Also doesn’t the first picture with the shadow of the petals feel familiar? This is a shot of what looks to be Jin’s shadow, releasing flower petals into the air.

[jinwoowoohoo]

@cha-eunwoow and @sanhatation hit me with that x2 tag combo (💖💕💞) I was gonna put them both in this post but it.... got very long... so I will split them up after all 😅

First up is a Kpop one from lovely Liv (hey girl I hope things are going better for you!!)

To anyone who genuinely reads through all of this bless your heart and ily

1) 5 favorite groups?

f(x), ASTRO, SHINee, Day6, Dreamcatcher

2) Top 5 on your bias list? (no particular order)

Lol I just did this, so: Amber, Jinjin, Onew, S.coups, Wonpil (though if we can double from groups my girl Luna would 100% be here)

3) Ult Bias group and why you love them?

f(x) - they were my first group and will forever be my ults. I just love how unique they are both as a group and each member individually! Every member shines so much in their own way and can absolutely stand as artists in their own right (and have been proving so with their solo projects the past 2+ years), and when they come together they create things that are so cool and beautiful and unique 💜 Honest to god after I sat down and listened to their whole discography on Spotify for the first time, I listened to nothing but them 8+ hrs a day, 7 days a week for almost a month I was so in love (i'm not exaggerating you can ask my roommate aldbaj) (SM please let us have f(4) again I would literally cry). That being said I also consider ASTRO and SHINee to be ults, and could write whole paragraphs for them as well 💕 

(but y’all please support my girls, Victoria put out a Chinese single and should be following with an album, Amber’s halfway through releasing videos for her mixtape & Luna is releasing 2 digital singles this coming week! Krystal has no musical projects atm but you can check out her dramas and modeling~)

4) Ult Bias and why you love them?

My kpop origin story revolves around me coming across the Electric Shock mv in 2013 and being both in love with and absolutely floored by Amber. A girl? In a girl idol group? With short hair?? Who presents in a masculine way?? I couldn’t believe it was something the companies would let happen and it was so. I don't even know. But I knew it was really meaningful and important to me. 3 years later I actually fully listen to the group (honestly thank got I needed new music to listen to at work) and I finally learned her name - Amber Liu. I'm someone who id's as nonbinary, and I've really struggled with my perceived femininity my whole life - its something I'm still working through. When I saw Amber, a person working in a very gender stereotype-heavy industry and culture, being able to present in the way she's comfortable and standing up for the rights of others to do the same, it just really touched me on a deep personal level. Even though I know she id's as cishet she still has done a lot for those of us that don't, and I'm sooo insanely proud of her for sticking to her guns and choosing to live her truth through all of the hell people have given and continue to give her for it. Not only has she stuck it to the haters by prospering, but she's taken her experiences and her talents and made them into absolutely beautiful works of art. 

She uses her music to express her feelings and talk about her struggles, and the fact that her work is so personal and has so much of her in it also means a lot to me (please listen to Borders, Need to Feel Needed, Beautiful, Heights, and this cover of One More Light NOTE: if self harm is a bad topic for you, maybe skip One More Light and the Borders mv (the song is fine and ultimately uplifting, and the mv does end happily). She has worked so. damn. hard. to pursue her dreams and passions, often having to rely on just herself and her friends to work when SM just straight up refuses to do their JOB as her MANAGEMENT COMPANY, and somehow she keeps doing it with that beautiful smile.

Aside from all the gooshy stuff, she’s just really goofy and fun (and attractive >>) AND she was born just 2 months before me so I feel there’s a connection (also my parents considered naming me Amber and she considered my name as a stage name??? #starcrossedlovers). Finally she has literally the cutest dog in the world please look at this picture and cry with me

5) Favorite Kpop Meme

lmaooo now that I’ve poured my heart out over Amber, lets look at the human meme that is Lee Taemin (i just picked one but my favorite meme is just. him.)

And a special shoutout to all of the rest of the SHINee memes, like I thought about linking just one but there are so many legendary classics how do you choose (I got to experience the burnt Gucci story in person though so a super special shoutout to that one)

6) Favorite pic of your ult? (I dare you to only pick one)

I’ll do both my ults since this is my Astro blog but I’ve only talked about f(x) so far ;;;;;

For Amber, this picture has been my phone background for well over a year now so I guess this one?? It’s from the song festival when she and Ksuke debuted Breathe Again (many months before it’s official release) and she was just feeling herself so much during the performance (credit for the pic most likely goes to her fansite Ambossing)

As for Jinwoo adljasdfs I only have like 100 pics of him just on my phone this is fine I’m gonna pick this one, bc when he posted it I loved it so much I came very close to literally printing it out and framing it...... he just looks so happy!! And he’s being his most natural self, no hair/makeup, out with his family, doing something he loves. It just Warms My Heart

7)  Favorite Kpop MVs

Ok this is a whole can of worms, so I’ll try to limit it to just 10 I quite like?? (in no specific order)

1) Astro - Baby 2) VIXX - Error 3) Seventeen - Lilili Yabbay 4) SHINee - Boys Meet U 5) EXID - DDD 6) KNK - Rain (performance ver) 7) Oh My Girl - Closer  8) f(x) - Electric Shock 9) Crayon Pop - FM 10) Taemin - Saynoara Hitori (I know it was a Japanese release but ssssh I’m counting it WAIT HECK i just realized Boys Meet U was a Japanese release too asdlfjasf welp) 

Also shoutout to this cover Dreamcatcher did of Maroon 5′s Lucky Strike

9) Favorite Kpop crack video?

I don’t have a single specific one, there are so many quality compilations (I have watched a surprising number of Seventeen as Vines videos though lmao) 

10) Favorite content creator(s) within the fandom?

All Aroha are super talented ok, If I listed everyone that came to mind we’d be here for longer than anyone needs to be....

11) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

the only fandom I’m fully in that’s  been active in Korea the past year is Astro :’) But that’s well enough, I really do love this community!

12) Take your top 3 biases- fmk

omg no why

F-Jinjin asldfjasdf

M-Amber

K- Onew..... no this is wrong :< I’m changing the k from kill to kiss ok? ok.

13) If you could be best friends with any idol, who would you choose?

Honestly probably Luna - she is one of the single most uplifting people in the world and she’s always ready for a good time! Queen of self love!

14) If you could date any idol, who?

I would never want to date an idol unless they were no longer/never an idol - trying to date around the antis and media would just be way too stressful on its own, plus the idol would be so busy all the time you’d barely get to see each other anyway

15) What’s one Kpop album you think everyone should have listened to?

SHINee - Married to the Music

16) Are you a soft or a hard stan?

yes (depends on the idol)

17) An idol that makes you go into soft mode?

Yoon Sanha, my soft noodle, my potato son

18) An idol that makes you want to smash the empire state building with one single punch?

@ Park Jaehyung meet me behind the Taco Bell at midnight

19) Favorite vocalist?

MJ/Luna/Onew

20) Favorite Rapper?

I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately and I’m honestly not sure??? Some contenders are Rocky and LE though

21) Favorite dancer?

sdflajsfadsf why must you hurt me in this way I’ll say Taemin because he really puts a lot of thought and self into his dance, and he’s actively trying to create change in the way the industry thinks about gender and dance

22) Things you have in common with your ult?

I think I pretty much touched on all that with Amber, so for Jinjin we both love dogs and like the drums, we can be quick to smile, we try to lead in an understanding/accommodating way rather than a total authoritarian way, we do That Face™ when someone is pushing our buttons lol

23) The most beautiful trait any idol can have?

Kindness and an open mind

24) Songs that will always make you jam along?

how....long do you want to be here adsflj I will say the song that gets me jamming the MOST at work is N.Flying - Hot Potato

25) Your worst wrecker?

I’m here today to talk to you about a dangerously beautiful man named Kim Myungjun

26) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

I saw SHINee in Dallas with my bff in 2017, then I went to Astro in DC all by my lonesome this past February! (so I just need to see f(x) and I’ll have gone to all 3 ult groups) Also fun fact my good friend @jinjins-freckles was also at those two concerts, but we didn’t know each other yet for the SHINee one - funny how things work out~

27) Favorite choreo?

THIS. THIS IS THE HARDEST QUESTION. I CAN’T. IMPOSSIBLE. I’m not even gonna try and list some.... theres.... too many;;;;

28) Favorite live performance?

ok look first of all, you come into MY house, and ask me to pick ONE performance adslfj I’ll say SHINee’s Woof Woof bc I was absolutely obsessed with it after I discovered it, its just so fun and goofy but also bops hard as heck??? Legends Only

29) Favorite debut mv?

Hide & Seek cleared my skin watered my crops and gave me a lil smooch on the forehead

30) Recommend a rookie group

Dreamcatcher!!! They’re having a comeback in May please support our goth goddesses

31.) A kpop song you could listen to every day for the rest of your life?

Astro - Puss n Boots

32) Tag some cute mutuals you’d like to get to know better (and to do this challenge)!

Since she’s tagged me a few times lately I’ll tag @myunghjun (and that’s it asdlj if you read all the way to the end consider yourself tagged too ok ily)

[time-to-get-a-life-oops]

I’ve been tagged by @woozi-my-murderous-little-fluff 's main blog 😊😊💙

LAST

Drink: blackcurrant squash

Phone Call: my friend, Athena

Text Message: My BoiFriend

Song you listened to: that I can remember- Lion Heart by Girls Generation

Time you cried: yesterday at CoCo (it was date and we both cried and it was adorable 🙃)

HAVE YOU EVER

Dated Someone Twice: yup

Been cheated on: not that I know of

Kissed someone and regretted it: yup, but the regret was yrs later 😂

Lost someone special: yeah

Been Depressed: yup, depression and anxiety...It's a right party

Been Drunk and Thrown Up: yes and probably- I was two at the time so...

IN THE PAST HAVE YOU

Made a new friend: Yes

Fallen out of Love: nah boi

Laughed until you cried: ALL THE DANG TIME ITS greaT

Met someone who changed you: yuppity yup

Found out who your true friends are: lmfao yah

GENERAL

How many people on Tumblr do you know in real life?: 0 👌👌

Do you have any pets?: 4/5 fish and a dog (did have a cat and a bird but they were either given up or died 😞)

Do you want to change your name?: NopE

What time did you wake up today: 6:30 am

What were you doing last night: went on a date

Name Something you can’t wait for: Tomorrow- cause friends and alcohol

Have you ever talked to someone named Tom: there are like 8 Toms in my year alone

What’s getting on your nerves right now: my weight and self

Blood type: fudge knows

Nickname: literally any food combined with the first syllable of my first name which is "Rach", or just Rach, or Ra-Shy-Elle...Dont ask, I'm not sure...

Relationship Status: 😏😏😏😏💕

Zodiac Sign: virgHOE

Pronouns: she/her

Favorite Show: Doctor Who, Merlin, Sherlock, supernatural...Ya know the basics and all that

College: the English vers yeah. Kinda. I mean it's technically just called Post 16 but else where it's college

Hair Color: Brown- although I dyed it a while ago so there's still some red/blonde/blue

Do you have a crush on somone: yh ma boi JK

What do you think of yourself: ask me when I'm drunk

FIRST

First Surgery: none

First Piercing: none but I want to get my ears done and maybe a lip piercing

First sport you joined: Ballet/swimming/football(the original)/gymnastics

First Vacation: outside Britain: Spain when I was 12/13

First pair of sneakers: idk some shitty ones from JD sports

RIGHT NOW

Eating: my teeth

Drinking: blackcurrant still 😂

I’m about to: watch Grimm while doing some work

Listening to: Grimm I guess

(there was more to this but idk what happened...)

I'll tag everyone who's ever existed cause I'm too awkward to do anything else....Sorry....

[daniellethamasa]

Hey all, Dani here.

I should probably start this post by saying that it is a great time to be a geek/nerd. There are just so many books, shows, and movies that appeal to what we like being released, and it makes me super happy.

So, today instead of talking about books, I want to talk about superhero movies. Okay, fine, I’ve read some of Marvel’s Captain Marvel graphic novels, and I’ll probably try some of DC’s Captain Marvel/Shazam! ones in the future. But I am only reviewing the films today. Let’s get started.

First of all, before I start talking about the movies themselves, I need to talk just a little bit about the history of both of these characters, because the character of Shazam! used to be called Captain Marvel when he was originally created and with his family they were the Marvel family of superheroes.

Billy Batson/Captain Marvel was created in 1939 and made his first appearance in 1940, published by Fawcett Comics. He was actually a pretty popular superhero back then, even outselling Superman, which I think is pretty cool. Fawcett stopped publishing Captain Marvel in the 50s, mostly due to some copyright infringement suits from DC on account of Captain Marvel being a “copy of Superman.” Eventually in the 70s, Fawcett sold Captain Marvel to DC.

In that time between Fawcett stopping the Captain Marvel comics and then selling the rights to DC, Marvel Comics started publishing their Captain Marvel comics in the 60s, and they trademarked the name. This led to some legal squabbling between Marvel and DC, leading to the end result of DC changing their Captain Marvel’s name to Shazam!, which is what the character says to transform from his juvenile alter ego into his adult superhero form.

Because of this interesting history, I definitely find it intriguing that both the MCU and the DCEU put out movies following Captain Marvel and Shazam! so close together.

Oh, and I should probably also say that if you have not yet seen these movies, you should probably skip the reviews below, because I cannot guarantee that they will be spoiler free. I just have too much gushing to do. So come back and read the rest of this post after you’ve seen them…or hey, read on if you don’t care about being spoiled.

All right, let’s do this.

Captain Marvel (MCU. Theater release date: March 8, 2019)

Rating: 5 stars (Dani) and 5 stars (Damian)

Firstly, I should mention that Damian and I saw this movie twice. Once on opening weekend, and then again a couple weeks later. Online I have seen so many people criticizing this film, especially Brie Larson’s lack of emotional range. I say that is utter bullshit. The whole beginning of the movie Vers was being told that she needed to fight with her head, not her heart, and that emotions could lead to deadly mistakes. With that happening, how can you criticize her for not showing all the emotions? Stop being a jerk fan.

Ahem, anyway, I thought that as she started to get more of her memories back, she did start to show more of her emotional side, but as has been seen in countless hero stories before, it is because of emotions, because of fighting for someone else, that a hero is able to overcome obstacles and win.

Oh, and it is also great that this movie takes place in the 90s, so I did get very nostalgic with some of the songs played, and the appearance of places like Blockbuster. It was also fantastic to see younger Nick Fury and younger Phil Coulson. I think they did a great job making both Samuel L Jackson and Clark Gregg look young again.

Also, can I just say that I liked getting to see Fury and Carol put in sort of a buddy cop sort of role as they tried to figure out this whole Skrull-Kree situation. We got to learn so much more about the man who created the Avengers Initiative to begin with. And the whole “buddy cop” bit added quite a bit of humor to the whole movie. Honestly, I can say this humor is probably needed with the upcoming release of “Avengers: Endgame.”

Captain Marvel is a wonderful addition to the lore of the MCU, even if they changed certain elements from the comics. Was it necessary to change Mar-Vell into a woman? No, probably not, but I don’t think it was a change that affected the actual story.

One of the best parts of this movie is Goose, a cat who was called Chewie in the comics. And okay, so Goose isn’t actually a cat, though that’s what he appears to be. He is actually an alien called a Flerken, and frankly, I want to learn a lot more about Flerkens. He has a set of tentacles that come out of his mouth and he can eat far more than you would expect. This is because his stomach is basically a pocket dimension.

I also enjoyed the plot, because you are led to believe that the Skrull are evil invaders and the Kree are these noble warriors trying to save the universe, but the longer the story progresses, the more you start to learn about all of it, not just because of encountering Skrull, but also because of Carol starting to remember more about the accident that took her memories. You start to see that the Kree are hiding their ambitions behind the guise of being valiant and noble protectors.

I think one of my absolute favorite parts is towards the end, when Carol finally starts to fully own her power. We watch several scenes from Carol’s past where she gets knocked down or falls, and it’s meant to make you (and her) think of all the times she’s failed. But the absolutely beautiful part of it is what happens after. Because it doesn’t matter how many times you fall. What matters is if you decide to stand back up. And that is exactly what young Carol does. Over and over again we watch as she stands up after a fall, looking even more determined than ever. And that was just a badass moment for me.

We also see that the Avengers Initiative was going to be called something entirely different, until Fury looked at a photo of Captain Carol “Avenger” Danvers climbing into the cockpit. The fact that her pilot name was Avenger is an awesome one. I love how each film just adds to the lore of the Marvel Cinematic Universe.

Shazam! (DCEU. Theater release date: April 5, 2019)

Rating: 5 stars (Dani) and 5 stars (Damian)

We’ve only seen this one in theaters once, but I do kinda want to go see it again. On a pure enjoyment side of things, I think both Damian and I enjoyed this movie better. I legitimately have said multiple times that this is my favorite of the DCEU movies to date–with Aquaman at a close 2nd place.

This movie was utterly hilarious! They did such a good job with casting, especially since they needed to cast a young adult and adult version of many of the cast members. Both Asher Angel and Zachary Levi did spectacular as Billy Batson/Shazam! I could totally believe that they were the same person. Speaking of, I don’t think they could have more perfectly cast Shazam! I have been a huge fan of Zachary Levi since his days of being on the show “Chuck” and I thought he was fantastic in that show, so to see him get to be a superhero was awesome.

I very much enjoyed that this movie explores family, and that sometimes family isn’t determined by blood, but instead by those you choose. Billy’s foster family was so loving and rambunctious and lively. It was so cool to watch, and I think we need to see move movies and shows and books with families like this in them.

Speaking of family, there was also Billy’s foster brother, Freddy, and all the scenes of him trying to help Shazam! figure out what his powers and capabilities are. That would also probably also be my only real complaint about this film. So so much of it was Shazam! kind of goofing off, figuring out powers, and not really doing the whole saving people and all of that. Which means that he is still woefully unprepared when the main villain of the movie drags him into the final fight. At the same time, I guess it is cool that we get more than just a training montage; it is more of a whole film of figuring things out. This is especially true since Billy Batson is only 14, so his morality and his inner fortitude aren’t on the same level as adult superheroes.

Oh, and I definitely enjoyed that we saw glimpses of merchandise for Superman, Batman, Aquaman, etc. It definitely solidifies that this movie is part of the same universe, and I look forward to possibly seeing Shazam! and the rest of his family–though I don’t know what they’re going to call them since they probably can’t be called the Marvel family–in future Shazam! films as well as maybe even big team up movies like Justice League.

All right, well I guess that’s all my commentary on these two superhero movies. If you enjoy this sort of post from me, let me know, and I’ll continue to share my geeky thoughts and opinions on future films.

I’ll be back soon with more bookish content.

Movie Reviews: Captain Marvel and Shazam! Hey all, Dani here. I should probably start this post by saying that it is a great time to be a geek/nerd.