#max met daniel for the very first time before daniel got braces

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pairing - spencer reid x reader

warning - mentions of blood and other injuries, faint ptsd

summary - you go on an undercover mission after orders from strauss. two months later, you return

word count - ?

you stepped into a bau while sighing softly to yourself. it was a normal day for everyone else but for you, it would be your last day at work for a least a month.

close to three weeks ago, strauss had called you and hotch into a meeting. while leaving, you glanced at your team who all displayed nervous expressions. usually meetings with strauss were never good. one walking in, you noticed two men. one about hotch’s age and one around your age.

“strauss,” you greeted with a handshake as hotch did the same.

“agents y/l/n and hotchner, this is agent daniel cruz and section chief newman from our san francisco branch. please, take a seat,” she introduced. you and hotch glanced at eachother before taking a seat.

“i have been in contact with various section chiefs about a possible human trafficking ring out west. we aren’t sure how large of an operation is occurring but we need to put a stop to it. not before we get the proper evidence, however,” strauss informed.

“ma’am with all due respect, yes that is a very serious issue but how does this involve us?” you asked timidly.

strauss looked over at you. “well agent y/l/n, hotchner is your superior which is why we need him present. as for you, chief newmen and i have decided to put you and agent cruz as undercover agents out on one of the suspected farms in wyoming.” this hit you hard. an undercover mission? we’re you even prepared for that?

hotch opened his mouth to speak but was cut off. “ah agent hotchner, this has already been decided. y/n and daniel fit the part the best due to their young looks. we are trying to keep this as quiet as possible so try not to let it out.”

and with that, you and hotch stepped out of the room and went back into the bullpen. over the course of the three weeks, you had gotten to know daniel or danny better. he was married with a young daughter and was stationed in san francisco. you also learned your part and trained. you were a college student who was studying sciences and were taking a semester to go study out west on a farm surrounded by various forms of plants and animals. that way you could get close to the family and see what was happening.

one night you were with spencer at his apartment with the intention of spending the night. he wasn’t sure why you had been so closed off but had his suspicions. you on the other hand had wanted to spend time with him before you left.

“alright what’s going on,” spencer spoke as he shut off the tv and turned to you. you just stared at him confused. he gave you one more look and you caved.

“strauss assigned me a case. i leave in a week and a half but i can’t talk about the specific details,” you revealed. spencer nodded, suddenly understanding. you were then pulled into a tight hug. “let’s just savor the time we have together,” he mumbled.

the memory made you smile to yourself as you stepped through the glass doors and into the bullpen. “woah, new haircut? hotch isn’t going to like that,” you heard morgan’s voice coming from behind you. once turning around, to see morgan. behind him were j.j. and emily making coffee, each displaying a shocked expression.

“not by choice,” you grimaced, subconsciously going up to touch your hair. it’s true, in order to look the part, you had cut your hair to a bit above shoulder length, gave yourself a middle part, and dyed it pastel pink. strauss had told you it was ‘perfect for the part’ and dismissed you.

after that quick conversation, you made your way up to hotch’s office, not before glancing over to spencer who gave you a resuring smile. you knocked slightly on the closed door of hotch’s office. after hearing a faint “come in!” you opened the door. inside was hotch and rossi going over a case file.

“oh i’m sorry, i didn’t mean to interrupt. hotch, do you have it?” you asked.

hotch nodded before moving to reach under his desk and pull out a box. rossi’s eyes widened. “you’re going undercover?” he asked. you and hotch looked over at him after you were given the box. “how’d you know?”

“all agents who ever go undercover have to put their stuff in a box just like that one. i’ve seen quite a few,” rossi exclaimed. “i leave in an hour,” you informed him.

“good luck kiddo, see you soon,” rossi smiled before grabbing the files and stepping out of the office and into his own.

“so this is goodbye?” you asked hotch, a sad undertone to your words. hotch nodded slightly. “well it’s not a goodbye because you are coming back but technically this is the official goodbye. i will see you off to the airport though,” he informed.

you placed the box down on the seat and frowned. hotch had practically become a father figure in your life and despite your knowledge of life, as cliche as it sounded, he always taugh you more. “hug goodbye?” you whispered, tears slightly forming in your eyes. hotch stepped from around your desk and pulled you into a hug.

“i’ll inform the team of your whereabouts after you leave. but know that this isn’t goodbye y/n, i fully expect to see you back in that conference room sometime soon,” hotch spoke after stepping away. you grabbed the box, smiled once more, and moved out of the office and over to your desk.

after sitting across from spencer, you ignored the stairs from your team members and focused on your boyfriend across from you. “hey,” you said, starting a conversation. “hey,” spencer replied. he knew you were leaving today and would need to pack up.

you looked away and began placing the essential items in the box. your desk was to stay the way it was but certain items would need to remain in hotch’s office.

first was your cellphone. on the farm you would have no contact via phone but would be able to send at max, two letters. second was your main gun that rested on your hip and your secondary gun that was for emergencies. those went into the box with extra care. finally was your badge. obviously this host family would have to believe that you and danny were only college students and not undercover fbi agents. after bringing the box to hotch, who met you halfway, you sat back at your desk and started a conversation with spencer, trying to calm your nerves.

time flew by and it was time to leave. hotch stepped into the bullpen and looked in your direction. “ready to go?” he asked. you nodded, glancing around at your teammates, smiling slightly at each of them. before following hotch to the car, you walked over to spencer and kissed him gently on the lips, ignoring morgan’s whistles in the background.

“i love you,” you whispered in his ear.

“i love you more,” he replied.

you stepped away and began to follow hotch, not looking back. your suitcase of clothes and backpack filled with various textbooks and other notebooks was already in the car. stepping into the cool d.c. air, you glanced around one more time at the bau building. you were ready.

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the mission was a success. you and danny had spent your time in wyoming, mainly couped up in your shared room but also doing ‘work’ on the farm.

while the expected time was only supposed to be a month, towards the end the family got suspicious. this resulted in you both being cut off from sending letters and forced to stay another month. a month away from home turned into two which killed you.

the family was arrested and the ring was put to a stop. you and danny had packed up and went to the airport. he would be flying back to california to be checked out and see his family while you were going back to d.c. the two of you hugged goodbye before boarding your separate flights. you two promised to stay in constant contact.

landing home at 2am didn’t help your exhaustion both physically and mentally. immediately after landing, you were taken to a hospital. the various cuts and bruises on your body were treated as well as your broken ribs and injured knee. an iv with nutrients was placed in your arm to repair your  malnourished state. you had also passed out for 10 hours. once waking up, you were cleared to go. an agent who worked with strauss came to pick you up and bring you to the bau where you could finally see your team.

in order to go in, you had to be finger printed as a result of not having your badge. it didn’t help that you didn’t look like yourself at all. however, you went through security and into an elevator which would take you to the sixth floor.

the first one you encountered was hotch. he had been walking down the hallway outside of the bullpen looking at a case file. after glancing up, he did a double take and took in your appearance.

you were a lot skinnier. the family had greatly reduced the amount of food you were given. however, the nutrients you were given were helping with that. second, your hair was a lot longer. it was past your shoulders, with the pink fading and your natural hair color coming in at the roots. finally was your injuries. you had a knee brace on, bandages on cuts, and you were clutching your ribs.

hotch closed the files and walked over to you. you accepted the hug and placed your head on his shoulder. “it’s good to have you back,” he told you. the next was rossi who also hugged you, calling you a sweet name in italian and expressing his happiness for having you back. garcia was after that. she had gasped when she saw you before gushing over anything and everything.

j.j. and emily saw you after garcia. both had hugged you. you were silent through the whole thing but accepted the hug from your practically sisters.

“where’s spencer?” you asked j.j.

“he’s out at lunch with morgan, should be back soon,” emily piped in.

“bau team? a word in the conference room,” hotch called into the bullpen causing everyone’s heads to turn. j.j. wrapped an arm around your waist and helped you up the stairs with your injured knee.

“i just wanted to speak to you all. obviously y/n has returned from her mission which had gone very well. things should be going back to normal now with our full team back together. y/n i’m not going to pressure you but is there anything you want to add?” hotch asked.

you looked up at the team. “i’m really lucky to be alive,” you started, “once the family found out that we were fbi, danny and i were almost killed. and i’m just happy that i’m here now standing with all of you. well most of you,” you revealed.

it was at that moment that you noticed the glass door of the bau bullpen open up. inside walked morgan and spencer who were laughing about something. instantly, you were up and out of the chair you were sitting in, practically hobbling out the door and down the catwalk. spencer glanced up at you, stopping in his tracks.

“y/n,” you heard him softly call.

spencer rushed over and up the steps, meeting you halfway. he pulled you into a tight but also gentle hug, careful of any injuries he was unaware of. after a kiss to the forehead, he pulled away. you moved your hands to his cheeks and smiled slightly.

“your home,” he commented.

“yeah, i’m home,” you finalized.

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Back off - chapter five

Billy Hargrove x Reader

Summary: IN THIS EPISODE OF “Back off”: Date night! First dates can ether go really great or very bad. Will the readers first date with the sex god Billy Hargrove go well? Or will the night turn sour? FIND OUT NEXT!

Warnings: fluff, light smut, swearing, and angst. Lots and lots of angst.

Word count: 3,065 (long one for y’all)

A/N: I’m baaaaaack! And hopefully not staying gone! I’m starting chapter six ASAP! This one is a gooooood one! And I’d like to give a special thanks to @dacremontgomerylover for all the help and love, she’s so amazing. Love you girl💕

Sunday came and gone, you talked to Billy for about 10 mins. And it consisted of him saying it was dinner and a movie. Which was so cliche, but you loved it. “I’ll pick you up at seven, right?” His low voice filled your ear.

“Seven sounds good to me, Hargrove.” Biting your lips as he chuckled through the phone.

“See you at school, babydoll. Dream about me.”

“You wish.” Hanging up the phone, rolling on to your back, staring at the ceiling, smiling harder than ever before. Until you heard a knock on the door.

”Hey sweetheart.” your door opens up slowly, hearing your father’s voice made your head pop up.

”Dad!” you go and hug him, his arms wrap around you. ”how was the trip?” you pulled away, not wanting to be touched for too long.

”Fun and informational. How was holding up the fort?” he smiled down at you, and you gave him a sweet smile.

”Boring, it wasn't the same without you here.” You pat his arm, walking past him. ”did you get KFC?”

”How could I forget?” he says as you both head down the stairs, you make your way to the bucket of chicken, and fixings. You almost had the balls to tell your family about your date with Billy Hargrove tomorrow. But you held your tongue. And family dinner went on as normal.

When Monday morning came, doing the daily routine. You rushed the twins, trying to get to school faster. To see Billy’s perfect face. Bouncing your leg in the back of the car, you anxiously waited. ”see you after school, guys!” you said to them, and took off towards his blue Camaro.

The twins watch closely as you are escorted into the school by Billy Hargrove. Once you two are out of view of the twins, he slaps your ass once. You chuckled but swatted his hand away. ”quit.”

”make me.” he slaps your butt again, but a little bit harder. You glare at him, then swinging your hand back to smack his perfect ass. The hallway filled with the sound of smack! Really making a scene now. Everyone was staring at Billy and you flirt. ”hey now! That hurt you little shit!” he laughs, and chases after you as run away from him. You screamed as he catches you from behind, spinning you around. Girls were getting jealous of you, getting all the attention from the famous Billy.

As he put you down, you fixed your shirt. ”get to class, Hargrove,” you say then stick your tongue out at him.

”Save that for tonight, babe.” he winked at you, then blowing a kiss at you. Rolling your eyes, heading to class. Daydreaming about Billy all day, until Gym class rolled around. Where you got to see him, you stretch your muscles out as you see Billy taking off his shirt. He was looking right at you as he did so. All the girls sigh in delight as he shows off his perfect body. But his eyes were only on you, still soaking up the attention.

You get on the court, Steve has the ball, dribbling it towards the hoop, where Billy was guarding. Steve tried to push towards the hoop, but Billy was right there to push back. You see talking going on between the two boys. Paying no mind to it, until Steve landed on his back. Try to block Billy but he was to fast, throwing it under his leg, putting it through the hoop.

”Steve!” hearing Nancy yell his name, made you look towards the two walk out of the gym. As Billy took my whole team down. Even you couldn't keep up with him. And that was how the whole class went. Getting your ass handed to you.

”Aw, did I hurt baby's feelings?” Billy said to you as you wipe off your sweaty face, shooting him a glare.

”No, I’ll just tell coach next time that I want you on my team.” Smirking at him as he licks his teeth. He gets close to you and puts his hand on your lower back, pulling you into his chest. That was extremely sweaty. But you didn’t mind.

”I don't do shirts.” he got close to your face, looking at your lips.

”Guess I'll have to be skins then, babe,” you whispered to him, breaking away to walk towards the girl's locker room. All the girls were whispering as you walked in, looking at you. Then giggled. “Y’all got something to say or what?” You confront them, they all look down at their feet and not saying a word. “Yeah, that’s what I fucking thought.”

[billy’s pov]

(Y/n) said I had to tell the twins before we went on this date. And of course, I wait until the last hour of the day to tell them. “Jack! Daniel!” I yell for them in the hallways.

“Hey, Billy.” They say in unison, fucking twins.

“I wanted to tell you guys something,” I start with, running my fingers over my chin as I think about what to say. “Man to man, I thought you should hear from me instead of someone else.” They both drop their smiles. Giving me a serious look.

“I’m taking your sister out on a date, and before you freak out- I actually really dig her. She’s no one like I’ve ever met before.” They were quiet at first, probably talking telepathically. Jack sighs and nods.

“I’m happy you came and told us first. Would’ve been better to ask for our permission, but better to ask for forgiveness than ask for permission.” My whole body relaxes. The twins almost approve. “But you hurt our sister, you deal with all of us.”

“Loud and clear. Thanks, guys. I’ll catch ya later.” I say then walk to go give (y/n) the good news.

[your pov]

We don’t have to hide it anymore, but that doesn’t mean you’re shoving your tongue down his throat in the hallways. As the last bell rings, you rush out of class to get to Billy’s car. Seeing him leaning up against his car, smoking a cigarette. You drop your backpack where you stand. Getting a running start, he smirks and braces himself to catch you. Which he successfully does. Spinning you around. You felt so happy, happy with someone. It was a new feeling for you.

“Hello, my pretty girl.” He says as he puts you down, you raise an eyebrow at him.

“Since when am I your pretty girl, huh?” Giving him a little attitude. That was your specialty

“Since I stepped foot in this school, that’s when.” He pulls me into his arms, and you rest your head on his chest to listen to his beating heart. Seeing all the people stare, you roll your eyes. Backtracking to get your backpack, he checked you out as you bent over to take it off the ground. Then trying to think of a thought that kills his tent he had going on for you. He was about to walk over to the other side and open the door for you, but you stopped him.

“No need, Hargrove. I don’t need chivalry, I need my bad boy that smokes a pack a day.” You say as you light your cigarette, and get in the car yourself. He stood there, with a smirk on his face, then seeing Max, got a little irritated but kept his cool for you, not wanting to mess it up. She got in through your side, sitting in the back.

“Hey, you! How was school!?” You smiled at her as Billy pulled out of the parking lot. Max smiled at you.

“It was okay, but you know, school sucks either way.” She shrugged her shoulder as you laughed, Billy stayed silent. Trying to drop you as soon as possible. Pulling into your driveway, he leans over, grabbed the back of your neck and pulling you into a rough kiss. You loved it, but not in front of Max, who was completely disgusted. You pushed on his chest.

“Save that for tonight, Casanova.” You smirked and got out of the chair, letting max out to get in front.

“I’ll be here at 7:00, doll!” He yelled to you, “don’t make me wait!” He teased you, but you turned around to flip him off playfully. Walking up the steps, and sighed once you got into the door. Where the twins were waiting for you.

“When were you planning on telling us about Billy?” Dan said with his arms crossed over his chest, giving you a brother look. You roll your eyes as you took off your shoes and put down your backpack.

“I was waiting for Billy to tell you, it would've been a hard no if I asked,” you start heading up the stairs to your room, as the boys just groan. It was worrisome for them, afraid you were going to get your heart broken. Daniel shrugged, drinking his water.

“Just be careful, sister. I don’t want have to use my wrestling moves on him,” you laughed a little, he sets the cup back down on the counter.

“I can take care of myself, thank you very much! Now, I have to get ready for my date,” you say as you make your way towards the stairs.

“Don’t give it up on the first date!” Jack calls out to you, making you roll your eyes on instinct.

“It’ll be none of your business!” You yell back, closing your door. Trying to look perfect for him. Just for him.

Seven rolled around quickly, and you finished your little black dress off with his brown leather jacket that he lends you. It felt right to wear, with the whole outfit. Then you hear a loud roar of a certain Camaro out in the driveway, peaking your head up, you race down the stairs and answer the door before he even has time to knock. “You’re early, I have five minutes,” you raise your eyebrows at him.

“I thought it’d be nice to meet the folks-“ he tries to say but is cut off by the sight of my dad, still in uniform, and gun in tacked.

“One folk, her mother is no longer with us, she would’ve loved to meet you.” Billy stuck his hand out for him to shake, thank the lord, he shook it. “Nice grip,” letting go of his hand. “Now time for ground rules, she’s back by 10:00, on the dot. Not a minute later, or you’re in for a wild ride. No drinking and driving, no drugs, no fast driving, and be very sure I’ll have people watching-“

“Dad, please. I think I know the run down by now. Can I go now?” You pout a little, not really wanting to deal with the whole dad explaining rules.

“I suppose, have fun, be safe, don’t do anything your mother wouldn’t do,” he kissed your forehead and you walked out of the house hand in hand with Billy. He opened the door for you even though you had already told him he didn’t have to. It made you blush the whole way to the restaurant.

After the dinner and the movie, you sat in his car with his hand on your thigh as he drove. “Can you please tell me where we’re going? For all, I know you could be taking me out to my grave that you dug before our date. I noticed you were sweaty-“ billy shot you a look, shutting you up immediately.

“Patience, babe,” he says as he squeezed your thigh. “You’re going to love it.” He brought his hand to the back of your neck to pull you close to his face so he could kiss your cheek.

“Watch the road,” you warned as you returned the kiss. His hand found your thigh again, just a little high this time. Your hand rests on top of his as the ten-minute drive went on. When you got there, it was an open field, you frowned at him. “Okay, really are you going to kill me or-“

“(Y/n), shut your trap about me killing you. You’re watching too many scary movies.” He pulled a soft blanket from the back. “Come on, ya serial killer.” You both got out and he laid the blanket over the hood of the car, lifting you up by your hips onto the car, he followed after. Cuddling close to you, both of you look up at the stars. It was perfect. “I brought you up here because this is the place I come when I need to get away from my house, and I wanted to share it with you.” You peek your head up to look at him as he told you this, smiling a little.

“Does Billy Hargrove have a soft side?” He rolled his eyes, then looking up at you. Brushing your hair behind your ear, his face was serious.

“For you? Definitely.” He leans up to kiss your lips, holding your cheek in his hand. You were right, he was a great kisser. He pushed up more, putting you on your back. You look up at him as he hovered over you, his eyes scan your body. “You look hot in my jacket and on your back, just for me,” his lips were on yours again, rougher this time. Your lips moved with his in perfect harmony, as he laid his body more between your legs, pushing your dress up. His hands find your thighs, pulling the end over your hips, showing off your pink lace underwear. You wanted this, so so badly. You could feel it building up in the pit of your stomach. The want for him.

He pushed his crotch up against your heat, it made you open your mouth more, which gave him the opportunity to slide his cigarette flavored tongue into your mouth, moved it to touch yours in all the right ways. His hard-on made you even more turned on for him, he pulled away and putting his hand between yous, his thumb found your clit over your panties, rubbing it in slow little circles. Your mouth opened a little and small moans came out, “oh shit-“ closing your eyes and tilting your head back as his went faster.

“Look at me, (y/n), or I’ll stop,” he looked down at you with such intensity, he was dead serious. He loved the way you looked while he touched you, he could cum in his pants by just the sight. But he held it back, not wanting to deal with the mess and be embarrassed in front of you.

You looked up at him, “please don’t stop-“ he then smirked and slipped his cold hand on your nub. He was faster and knew how to touch you. Then it hit you, sex. This leads the sex. But this feels so good! Sex must even feel better. But it’s also your first date! but a little longer wouldn’t hurt… your moans got louder, then your climax was close. “Okay, okay! No, stop!” You pushed him off and slide off the car. Fixing your dress, right away. Your legs shook as he slides off the car too, you could see his boner, and it made your legs shake even more.

“Baby- what’s wrong? Did I hurt you? Was I too rough-“ he tried to ask you but your hands reached for his jacket, pulling him closer to you.

“Absolutely not, you’re so good- so so good-“ you take in his scent, looming up at him. “But,” your hand touches his cheek, looking into his beautiful blue eyes, “I’m not going to losing my v-card on the first date, you have to work for that shit.”

He looks at you, but you can’t read his face, “so you’re really going to make me wait? After all that?” He pushes your hand off his face, “why?”

“Why? Are you really asking me why?” The heat starts heading to the tip of your ears, anyone could see the smoke coming from them, “because my mom always told me, I only get this one fucking time, and then it will always be imprinted in the back of my mind. I will always remember it, and I have to trust you still,” tears ran down your cheeks, you were so mad you were crying, this never happens, ripping the blanket off the car, and throwing his jacket at him. “That’s why you fucking asshole,” you turn to him, giving him one chance to save this. Save this possibly great relationship, the great love of your life.

“You can’t trust me? Why would I go out of my way to do all of this, for just a lay? I could get any girl in that fucking school. But I chased you, and trust me, I don’t chase. I’m the one who gets chased, sweetheart-“ Billy’s tone was hurtful, and mean. He fucked it up. The chance was gone.

“Don’t. Save it. Now you don’t have to chase anymore, we’re done. Bring. Me. Fucking. Home.” Your voice was serious and very angry sounding. “Before I steal your fucking car, Billy.”

“Fine, get in the goddamn car then.” He lights up a cigarette and gets in the car. Slamming his door, as do you. The car ride was quiet and tense. You could cut the tension with a knife.

When you got into your driveway, you didn’t say anything to him, even after he calls your name. Trying to fix this, he couldn’t fix this. He fucked up.

“Hey sweetheart, you’re early-“ your dad tries talking to you, but you shoot him a death glare. Then giving Jack and Dan the same look. The twins stop what they were doing to look at you, standing up and trying to see what happened. They knew that look. But you stopped them,

“We’re not talking about it, so don’t ask me about it. We never speak of it, ever.” Kicking your shoes off, and heading upstairs. Straight to the bathroom, turning it on and sitting in the tub, the shower covered the sounds of your sobs. You couldn’t cry in front of your family about it, that would be bad. Very bad.

All you could remember was crying before you finally fell asleep.

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Get To Know Me Questions (Very long)

1. What is your first name? Justine

2. What is your nickname? Jess

3. What is your zodiac sign? Gemini

4. What is your favorite book series? I do not really have a favorite book series since I actually do prefer shows or video games to get lost in. However, I once read a "self published" ebook by an unknown author called "Human" which is actually a fanfiction but it was SO well written and it made me more emotional than any other book ever could.

5. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? Yes I do believe in such things. I often experience sleep paralysis and get visited by someone- or something. I can see a person who's not actually there and I do believe it's a lost soul or the ghost of the person which committed suicide in my apartment before I moved in. I believe in demons and posessed things, I am really scared of dolls but I think not believing in such things would make life more boring.

6. Who is your favorite author? I do not have one.

7. What is your favorite radio station? I don't listen to the radio.

8. What is your favorite flavor of anything? I like any flavor except sweet flavors like vanilla or else.

9. What word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful? Pure. It's one of my favorite words. I often like to refer to my best friends as pure.

10. What is your current favorite song? Anarchist by Yungblud is a really good song at the moment.

11. What is your favorite word? Pure in english or Bettgeflüster in German, I'm sorry but the sound of that word is just so beautiful ahhah

12. What was the last song you listened to? I write sins not tragedies by panic at the disco. Definitely one of the best song ever made (Also Brendon is especially hot in this one)

13. What TV show would you recommend for everybody to watch? How I met your mother (very life changing) & Stranger Things

14. What is your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down? The perks of being a wallflower. It changed me and my perspective on life completely.

15. Do you play video games? Yes. I love them, especially Fable 2 and Bioshock Infinite.

16. What is your biggest fear? The ocean. I love the beach but I am really scared of deep water because my father and I had to save a man from drowning when I was maybe 7 years old. He experienced a stroke and only his little daughter was with him.

17. What is your best quality, in your opinion? I can be very interesting to talk to because I love getting into depth about everything.

18. What is your worst quality, in your opinion? My self confidence and my mental illness. It ruined and continues to ruin many things for me. It took my youth away.

19. Do you like cats or dogs better? I cherish dogs so much, they make me so happy.

20. What is your favorite season? Summer or winter. (Fall is quite awesome too, it's kind of spooky)

21. Are you in a relationship? No.

22. What is something you miss from your childhood? Not being afraid of anything. Being free, not being judged for what I do and who I am.

23. Who is your best friend? I have more than one. Someone I met through the internet in 2013. Someone I've known since kindergarten and suddenly met again 15 years later. Someone I've been deeply in love with for 5 years & Someone who's always been there but never really got the courage to be around until last year.

24. What is your eye color? Green.

25. What is your hair color? Blonde.

26. Who is someone you love? My best friends & my lovely grandma.

27. Who is someone you trust? My best friends.

28. Who is someone you think about often? I often think about someone I haven't met yet. Someone who will change my life forever.

29. Are you currently excited about/for something? I am truly trying to live in the moment. I'm not excited for something, but scared of the future because I have to move abroad next year and leave everything behind.

30. What is your biggest obsession? Fable 2, Dan and Phil and Stranger Things.

31. What was your favorite TV show as a child? Spongebob or Max & Ruby

32. Who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone? All except one person of my best friends are my opposite gender and I can tell them anything.

33. Are you superstitious? Yes

34. Do you have any unusual phobias? I don't know if they are unusual but the ocean, dolls, funfairs, bugs and speaking in front of people (except acting)

35. Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? In front of it. My greatest passion is acting and I've always wanted to become an actress.

36. What is your favorite hobby? Acting.

37. What was the last book you read? It's been a long long time. I have no clue.

38. What was the last movie you watched? Annabelle 3. Yesterday at a drive-in cinema with my best friends. One of the most special moments I've made so far.

39. What musical instruments do you play, if any? I can play the piano. I would love to play any instrument.

40. What is your favorite animal? Dogs, wolves and red pandas.

41. What are your top 5 favorite Tumblr blogs that you follow? I don't have a favorite.

42. What superpower do you wish you had? Time travelling, being able to read people's minds and heart.

43. When and where do you feel most at peace? At the beach, listening to the sound of the waves. I tend to forget everything during those moments.

44. What makes you smile? When people aren't afraid to show me that I mean something to them. Not only words.

45. What sports do you play, if any? Football, Basketball, Badminton.. did I forget anything? I like all sports except gymnastics.

46. What is your favorite drink? Water or Iced Coffee (it's so bad for my skin)

47. When was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody? This month, I believe. It was a letter.

48. Are you afraid of heights? Yes, but I still manage to push myself to do things that involves heights. I just recently climbed up a 80 metre high building with my friends at night to get a nice view of the skyline. Almosy shit my pants but I am still alive. Little did we know someone killed themselves by jumping off that exact building at the exact night.

49. What is your biggest pet peeve? Screaming. I hate it. I love chill people.

50. Have you ever been to a concert? Do little concerts count? If not, no.

51. Are you vegan/vegetarian? No.

52. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? I've always wanted to become an actress or a police officer.

53. What fictional world would you like to live in? Albion from Fable the video game.

54. What is something you worry about? My future.

55. Are you scared of the dark? I love the night and being outside during the night but I can't sleep without keeping my little light on because I tend to get sleep paralysis when my room is all dark.

56. Do you like to sing? I wish I could sing

57. Have you ever skipped school? Yes

58. What is your favorite place on the planet? Wherever I feel happy and where I can connect with the people I love the most.

59. Where would you like to live? California.

60. Do you have any pets? No.

61. Are you more of an early bird or a night owl? Night owl.

62. Do you like sunrises or sunsets better? Both. Sunsets are like a beautiful ending, they make me believe that no matter how hard things are at the moment, they will pass, but the bittersweet feeling of the ending of my best memories comes after. Sunrises feel like a new beginning after the dark.

63. Do you know how to drive? No, I'm currently doing my car and motorcycle driving license though.

64. Do you prefer earbuds or headphones? Earbuds for music, headphones for gaming.

65. Have you ever had braces? Yes, I want them again, I'm not satisfied with my teeth.

66. What is your favorite genre of music? Rock

67. Who is your hero? Daniel Howell. I've never met him, but I saw myself in him. He saved my life. I feel like I've known him before.. in a different life.

68. Do you read comic books? No

69. What makes you the most angry? Negative people who always complain and never see the beauty in certain things or moments.

70. Do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book? A real book.

71. What is your favorite subject in school? Sports.

72. Do you have any siblings? No

73. What was the last thing you bought? Film for my polaroid camera.

74. How tall are you? 5'4ft

75. Can you cook? Not really. I can make pancakes, that's about it.

76. What are three things that you love? Dogs, nature, video games

77. What are three things that you hate? Negativity, hatred, self-centered people

78. Do you have more female friends or more male friends? More male friends.

79. What is your sexual orientation? I don't care who I fall in love with, but I don't know how to label myself. I'm in love with the feeling of love.

80. Where do you currently live? Germany but I'm moving to London next summer.

81. Who was the last person you texted? One of my best friends.

82. When was the last time you cried? This week

83. Who is your favorite YouTuber? Dan and Phil.

84. Do you like to take selfies? I take like 2 selfies each year so, no.

85. What is your favorite app? Twitter or Tumblr

86. What is your relationship with your parent(s) like? Not very good. I feel pressured most of the time and can't connect to them on an emotional level. It's even harder now since they got a divorce. I love my grandma so much.

87. What is your favorite foreign accent? American.

88. What is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit? New Zealand, Norway and Canada

89. What is your favorite number? 24

90. Can you juggle? No

91. Are you religious? No

92. Do you find outer space or the deep ocean to be more interesting? Outer space. I'm scared of the deep ocean and I don't even know what's down there.

93. Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? Not at all

94. Are you allergic to anything? Wasps, dust

95. Can you curl your tongue? Yes

96. Can you wiggle your ears? No

97. How often do you admit that you were wrong about something? 50/50

98. Do you prefer the forest or the beach? Both.

99. What is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you? "Cut the seed before it grows"

100. Are you a good liar? I hate lying and being lied to.

101. What is your Hogwarts House? Slytherin

102. Do you talk to yourself? A lot

103. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? Introvert.

104. Do you keep a journal/diary? I use my Tumblr as my diary since 2013

105. Do you believe in second chances? Yes

106. If you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do? Search for an ID and try to reach out to the person who lost it.

107. Do you believe that people are capable of change? Not really..

108. Are you ticklish? Yes

109. Have you ever been on a plane? Yes

110. Do you have any piercings? Yes

111. What fictional character do you wish was real? Reaver from Fable, I'd like to marry him

112. Do you have any tattoos? No but I'm planning to get three.

113. What is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far? To keep going.

114. Do you believe in karma? Yes.

115. Do you wear glasses or contacts? Either I wear glasses or go through life blind lmao

116. Do you want children? I'm not sure, but I prefer to adopt.

117. Who is the smartest person you know? Daniel Howell

118. What is your most embarrassing memory? I reject them lmao

119. Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? When haven't I?

120. What color are most of you clothes? Black

121. Do you like adventures? I love them.

122. Have you ever been on TV? Yes.

123. How old are you? 18

124. What is your favorite quote? So many. I really like "Irgendjemand liebt dich immer" a lot these days, it means "someone will always love you"

125. Do you prefer sweet or savory foods? Savory. I hate sweet.

I tag @ludicrousperson