#mavspeaks

[inthenight-inthedark]

Hi tumblr clikkies the ig clikkies are scaring me

[inthenight-inthedark]

“who radicalized you” ask the conservative christians in my home town

“Jesus” I answer

“My mom teaching me Bible stories” I answer

“The church community food share” I answer

“The church blood drive” I answer

“The hunger strike we did when I was 15 for world hunger” I answer

“Taking in a Venezuelan family when they were seeking asylum in the US, arranged by the church” I answer

It’s not what they want to hear because it points out the hypocrisy when they tout transphobia and racism and deny the genocide.

What child hears 1 Corinthians "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs" and does not begin to love deeply and without prejudice.

A child can read and understand the context of Leviticus, and understand that the real teachings were held in 19:18 “You shall not take vengeance or bear a grudge against the sons of your own people, but you shall love your neighbor as yourself: I am the Lord.”

My view of life has changed since I was little, but the fact remains that I was first radicalized in the church and they will hate me for the rest of my life. Isn’t that ironic?

"who radicalized you" ever since i was a child i wanted other people to be treated nicely and fairly because i didnt understand why theyd deserve otherwise and it fills me with disgust seeing how people treat their fellow human beings sometimes

[catkidjekyll]

Ur shit sucks ass

why r u looking then. get les grossman'd

[booksandbujos]

Ambitiously Satisfied

So Tuesday night, I had the pleasure of going and listening to Terry Crews speak, and while everything he was saying was very super impactful, the one thing I really took home from what he said was to be ambitiously satisfied, not ambitiously content. You should never be content, you should always strive for more. Because you can get more. So for anyone who needed a little pick me up, you should always strive for more. Because there is always more the world has to offer you.

[inthenight-inthedark]

Hoping I do this right

I don’t know if I’d call them essential to listen to but they are essential to knowing my taste in music

Tagging @toppingjeffsatur and @cassiecasyl and anyone else interested

hii thank you to @callixton for tagging me to post 5 songs that are essential to listen to <333

tagging @inthenight-inthedark @howldean and anyone else who sees this and wants to 😭

[inthenight-inthedark]

However many times I listen to oldies station is between me and Tyler Joseph ok???

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You know what, close enough, welcome back Lorne Malvo

[inthenight-inthedark]

Got hit by a car

Turned on Clancy to calm myself down

Next semester has a whole new meaning for me

[inthenight-inthedark]

So I have been coming to terms with the fact that I likely have ADHD. I think this actually gets talked about a lot, I didn’t get it till I got it though. And that’s the fact that time blindness and object permanence fuck up your life

It’s the 3rd day in a row that I’m going home at 8pm. I got to work at 8am.

My partner had texted me several times throughout the day but I had put my phone behind my laptop and then completely abandoned both devices doing experiments and working with my coworker.

I might have a UTI because I didn’t pee once today

I haven’t called my mom in a week. We have talked every day since I moved out here

It’s devastating to realize that you’ve forgotten people - not because you don’t love them, not because you don’t miss them, but because your brain cannot grasp onto them long enough to do something about it and then you don’t realize how long it’s been

I am so tired of fighting my own head

[inthenight-inthedark]

It may be the neurodivergence talking but I get genuinely upset at myself when I don’t get invited to weddings of people I went to high school with

Not in the Karen “you should invite me because you knew me” way

But in the quiet “why did you let yourself drift away from these people” way. The “why did you have to burn a bridge” way. The “objectively terrible people get invited because they know how to be normal” way

[inthenight-inthedark]

Hehe

[inthenight-inthedark]

Well….my boy can sure work a table saw

[inthenight-inthedark]

2001: A Space Odyssey live watch

[inthenight-inthedark]

I’m sorry - what?????

[inthenight-inthedark]

Ok I’ve given it time, I’ve watched the debut stream twice and listened to the album all the way through at least a dozen times so here it is

Clancy review - full version

Initial thoughts as written to my partner

Ranking + what I think after full review

Next semester: this one is personal to me and hits me at my core. I love the technical aspects of the song but what speaks to me more is how much we have grown since being in school and being reckless with our lives. It is everything I have lived

Routines in the night: this is the stressed out of the album. It’s so catchy and I catch myself already singing it out loud dancing in my kitchen just because

Oldies Station: another personal one. I can’t hear the line about the first dance recital without tearing up because I have people in my life that pulled through because they wanted to be there for MY firsts and I continue to do the same for those who look up to me

At the risk of feeling dumb: it is the tøp I fell in love with, and is at the core the way I choose to interact with my friends, checking in, because we cannot go through this life alone

Lavish: do I need to say more? It’s catchy and the music video makes me laugh. Also the vibe is like summer floating in a pool, I felt every bit of it

Midwest Indigo: I grew up in the Midwest, I know the exact experience he’s talking about. It is a solid song for sure

Overcompensate: my beloved opener. It is lore heavy so it’s a bit lower because as much as I love the lore, it’s easier for me to relate to the non-lore songs

Backslide: listen some songs just have to end up lower on this list. I love backslide but other songs are more meaningful or impactful to me

Snap Back: this one sits so heavy with me and I think because it weighs on me I can’t sit with it too long without overthinking

The Craving: the stripped down uke is great. I still think this song is just sweet and simple

Vignette: I like the vultures. It’s growing on me too, the more I read interpretations

Paladin Strait: the style is good but the story isn’t complete in my mind. This may change over time

Navigating: Tyler and I will be friends in this camp

Overall commentary

I really love this album in all its glory. It has tucked itself into a chamber in my heart and probably won’t leave. I am forever grateful for Tyler and Josh and the work they do - they have saved my life more than once and I will always be in their debt for that. Perfect album ❤️💛 |-/

[inthenight-inthedark]

Ya know how a lot of pop artists dabble in a Christmas/winter holiday style album, or are forced to by their label?

I think it should be mandatory for alt/prog/rock bands to produce a Halloween album