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marilyn manson lookin ass

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this post is Marina’s List Of Favorite and/or Iconic Music Videos

this could also be subtitled as: if you truly want to understand me as a person, watch these videos because it’ll answer a lot of questions

it’s gonna be a long one so i’ll pop it under a cut

alright we goin by artist then chronological

AIDEN

knife blood nightmare - this is iconic for me simply bc i rly wanted to look like wil in this video so bad in 6th grade.

die romantic - WHAT A BOP. i used to do my black eyeshadow like wil in this video too lmao

ALL TIME LOW

poppin champagne - because blonde alex and also?? honestly?? what a wild video. this is truly late 00s oversaturated pop punk at its finest

i feel like dancin - i’m not the biggest fan of this record or even this song in general but this is like, quintessential all time low to me video-wise. like. it’s everything i want from an all time low video.

ARCHITECTS

follow the water - or as sam carter says, follow the wah-uh. first of all i love that this is in a church. second of all when will i get to go to an architects show this lit here in the states

heartburn - bc they all look pretty. ok. aesthetically on point as well.

AVENGED SEVENFOLD

beast and the harlot - i don’t always bop this song but when i do, the whole cul de sac does too. no but really this was so influential to middle school me i wanted nothing more than a boyfriend who looked like zacky or jimmy and whatever eyeshadows zacky was wearing in this clip

BLINK 182

i miss you - the video that inspired this post. THE AESTHETIQUE. 20′s inspired romantigoth film noir. i don’t yell about this music video enough.

BRING ME THE HORIZON

chelsea smile - it’s literally just a house part video but the song literally defines the year 2009 for me. emetophobia warning at 1:08

it never ends - this video got mad shit but i love it. pretty heavy gore throughout this video

alligator blood - CREEPY ASS AESTHETIC SHIT!!!! i live for it. 16 y/o me had it so bad for matt nicholls and him getting tied up and violated was like, god tier for me

visions - more creepy aesthetic shit. the videos on there is a hell were underrated

THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA

hey john what’s your name again? - i gotta throw this one in just bc this hurls my ass right back to the year 2008. that bible imagery. those haircuts. it was a better time for music

html rules d00d - THIS SONG STILL SLAPS LMAO DON’T READ ME

ELISSA FRANCESCHI

salt - i’m not crying you’re crying!!! how did anne and christian franceschi manage to spawn two flawless and talented siblings!!!!!!

EVERY TIME I DIE

ebolarama - it’s a performance video in a roller rink what more could you want

wanderlust - you’ve probably caught on to the fact that i love creepy aesthetic shit.

decayin with the boys - THIS VIDEO HAS ME HOWLING. there are too many good moments to list here but the personal highlight is the dude admiring the lesbians making out, then he turns and admires they gays making out at about the 1:30 mark. also the jenga dream sequence. there’s a dick in this video, just a heads up. and a whole bootyass. i love andy williams. mild emetophobia tw at 2:30

FOXY SHAZAM

a dangerous man - eric nally’s screeching was the soundtrack of 2008

i like it - the chorus of this song is literally just “that’s the biggest black ass i’ve ever seen and i like it” and i have nothing more to say

holy touch - it’s a performance video but it’s. different. i really don’t wanna ruin this by saying too much about it. that’s just kinda how foxy shazam were. this song is a fucking banger. yes, they did have a trumpet player in the official lineup.

FRNKIERO ANDTHE CELLABRATION

joyriding - another performance video that’s. different. lmao. aesthetically perfect

GOOD CHARLOTTE 

lifestyles of the rich and famous -  the proletariat banger we weren’t ready for in 2002, but we’re ready now.

girls and boys - old people being punk rock. that’s all.

predictable - i SPECIFICALLY remember watching this on the good charlotte website the day this dropped. THE EARLY 2000S BAD CG IS REAL. i was literally ten years old but i somehow Felt every word of that spoken bridge, man. WHEN THE LITTLE GIRL GIVES JOEL THE ROSE AND IT TURNS BLACK i deadass thought that was so fucking dope y’all

i just wanna live - ignoring the irony of joel whining about being famous, this video had THE MEMES. 

GREEN DAY

longview - iconic simply by virtue of being their first video.

when i come around - ask me about my favorite songs of All Time and i’ll probably mention this one. it’s still great nowadays. i love all the shots of berkeley.

brain stew/jaded - this is such a great piece of art lmao the fucking. sludgy feeling of brain stew going into the chaos of jaded is great on the record, but even better in video form going from being stoned in sepia to tripping acid in an oversaturated cluttered space

walking contradiction - comedy gold

hitchin a ride - creepy weirdness and an iconic bassline. also mike dirnt looks fine as hell in this video

minority - i’m running out of ways to explain that a video is iconic to me purely bc of how important the song was to me at a given time lmao.

american idiot - is there anything i can truly say about this video? it was perfect in 2004, it’s perfect in 2017. uncomfortably relevant. epilepsy warning for strobe lighting effects in the second half

holiday - technically this was released before blvd, but since it chronologically precedes blvd in the story, i’m putting it first. this is like 90% here for the bridge section y’all. fucking iconic. i wore a fedora on the first day of sixth grade bc tre cool wore one in this video. not my proudest fashion moment. emetophobia warning at 1:56 but them playing EVERY character in the bar scene is perfection

boulevard of broken dreams - ah yes, 2005′s most overplayed song. i could not escape this song. every time the intro started everyone would just look at me bc i was The Green Day Chick. this video is aesthetically perfect though. shout out to mike dirnt’s jawline in profile

HOZIER

work song - first of all, this song makes me cry. second of all, the video is dreamy as fuck. it gives me irl chills. i love the choreography so much. the whole vibe is very modern southern gothic. and it’s incredibly intimate feeling without being... sexual or vulgar, i guess. 

IN THIS MOMENT

adrenalize - first of all i’m gay. second of all i’m gay. this video is decidedly nsfw

whore - aesthetically pleasing. chris motionless being subby is the real highlight here

sick like me - again, it’s here for the aesthetic.

big bad wolf - also aesthetic but THIS MAKEUP LOOK. maria’s makeup look in this video is actually literally my aesthetic goal. epilepsy warning for strobe light effects

sex metal barbie - say it with me: aesthetic. i also love this one bc the lyrics are largely lifted from people talking shit about maria on the internet, shaming her for being a woman with sexuality and agency, so fuck yes i support it. mild body horror warning for this one

JOHN 5

making monsters - john’s videos are mostly performance based but this one is so cute lmao. where do i cop a j5 action figure

LADY GAGA

paparazzi - i’m only including the RLY vital gaga videos here and the full version of paparazzi is her best work imo......

bad romance - .......but bad romance is a close second.

telephone - i can’t not include this one though. the collab of the decade.

LINKIN PARK

one step closer - i think this was the first linkin park video i saw Back In The Day......... it was 2 heavy 4 baby me at the time lmao but nowadays it’s one of my fave lp songs. the video is super corny let’s be real but it was 2000

numb - this song is so fucking emo but i love it. the video is like peak emo too. i swear the main girl in this video was like my fashion icon at the time. layered tank tops, ripped loose jeans, oversized hoodies and jackets. i wanted her hair so bad lmao

what i’ve done - this video is really visually solid. i thought this was like the Deepest Shit in middle school lmao

MARILYN MANSON

sweet dreams (are made of this) - THE CINNAMON TOPOGRAPHY!!! god i have no complaints about this video except that twiggy is in it. visual fx?? dope. wardrobe?? dope. location?? dope. manson in the wedding dress?? dope. unsanitary warning for the later half of the video bc manson gets pooped on by birds lmao

tourniquet - one of my fave vocal performances by manson tbh. i prefer this one of the two videos floria did w/ manson. 

long hard road out of hell - femme manson and religious imagery need i elaborate

the dope show - the first manson video i ever saw. i was... so creeped out lmao. LOOKS ON LOOKS ON LOOKS. john 5 lookin like a snack in this one

i don’t like the drugs (but the drugs like me) - this is probably the most heavy-handed manson has ever been with the christ allegory lmao and yet......... i love it. also shout out to manson and rose’s dogs bug and uncle fester for guest starring. body horror tw here

coma white - basically a flawless music video i have nothing to say here that isn’t already said by the video itself

disposable teens - everybody looks great in this one except twiggy fuck twiggy. i actually love the mtv version of this video too, which is all performance, but i can’t seem to find it rn??

the fight song - one of my fave manson looks. those boooooots tho. the gloooovessssss. i’m gross let me live

tainted love - sorry to send y’all to vimeo for this one but i couldn’t find one on youtube that didn’t look like it was filmed with a potato or watermarked. y’all slept on the genius of this video tbh

mobscene - hello it is me gaogfucker666. 

this is the new shit - still me, gaogfucker666. this video feels misinterpreted too honestly

(s)AINT (director’s cut) - specifically the director’s cut bc more tim skold in a dress and boots smoking a cigarette. this video is seriously fucking nsfw. needles, drugs, sexual content, vomit etc watch with caution pls

personal jesus - i love this glam rock look so much. tim looks so good in this he never wore the look again bc he knew he looked so good we could never handle it a second time.

putting holes in happiness - I CAN’T FIND the extended version with tim’s full solo and i wanna scream. but. here’s the official version

say10 (short) - i really fucking wish he’d compounded off this for the official say10 video, beheaded orange man or not. just the verse. it’s so good. moody and creepy and AHHH.

we know where you fucking live - heed the warning at the beginning lmao. i honestly loved this video. i know some people thought it was edgy but i rly rly don’t see that. it’s offensive and obscene yeah but it doesn’t have that edgelord feel, as much as i love to call him an edgelord.

MOTIONLESS IN WHITE

reincarnate - old school horror vibes!!! as a Humble Fetishist of Boots and Gloves, this is a great video. also this is one of those songs where i Feel the lyrics for real

eternally yours - THE COLORS!!! THE FUCKIN IN A COFFIN!!!! i have nothing more to say

MOTLEY CRUE

looks that kill - please watch this corny ass fuckin 1983 ass hair metal ass music video. please. i’m tryna add more shout at the devil era nikki sixx vibes to my wardrobe tbh

wild side - i love a late 80s arena performance video ok also where do i cop nikki’s shirt

dr. feelgood - i will always credit this as one of the songs that made me want to play bass tbh

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE

vampires will never hurt you - too emo to view with the naked eye.

i’m not okay (i promise) - the video that spawned a million high school AUs. god i love this one. even watching without the nostalgia goggles it’s great.

helena - perhaps my favorite music video of all time? if not then top 3. this video still remains my ideal aesthetic 12 years later. HOW I’M TRYNA BE. i just wanna look like an extra in this video, okay.

the ghost of you - time to cry!!!!! emetophobia warning at 0:47

welcome to the black parade - it’s hard for me to talk about these videos bc they’re so universally iconic that to explain why i love them so much would be mostly redundant.

famous last words - see above. this song means the world to me

desolation row - if i had to pick a video other than helena to look like an extra in i’d pick this one. has gerard ever looked this good, before or after this video?? peak.

NINE INCH NAILS

down in it - these are getting linked to vimeo since the official nin account has them all uploaded there in better quality. anyway i love so many of the shots in this video and i love the colors and i love bab trent

head like a hole - SO dated y’all but bab trent leveled up and became baby dread trent.

happiness in slavery - this is seriously graphic. but it’s great. also where’s the extended version that shows trent getting eaten by the weird carnivorous robot

gave up - bABY BRIAN!! infants, y’all. INFANTS.

march of the pigs - it’s a one-take performance video but it’s...... so much more than that. this video hurts me in my hand/glove kink.

closer - this is in the top 3 with helena honestly. it is... a piece of art film before all else. a Must Watch. 

burn - another case of a video being important to me because of the song it’s for tbh.

the perfect drug - marc romanek is a GOD. also a piece of art film honestly. just y’all wait till i make my dnd character based on trent in this video lmao

starfuckers, inc - hm, another nin video that trent invited manson to be in. interesting. all memes aside it’s a great video even as much as i hate the use of the “fat = ugly” trope. epilepsy warning for flashing effects in the last part of the video

deep - why. are. y’all. SLEEPING ON THIS!!!!

only - this may have been the first nin video i willingly saw and recognized as nin. this video still holds up, especially with it being 95% cgi and still looking as good as it does.

ROB ZOMBIE

living dead girl - the theme song of my life??? iconic couple costume idea????

meet the creeper - i have to include this video because it’s BAD. it’s terrible and i fucking love it

american witch (live version) - WHEN ROB PICKS UP JOHN AND STARTS SPINNING HIM AROUND!!!! this is here specifically for all the long hair john content

dead city radio and the new gods of supertown - the aesthetic. everybody looks great. matt is in a gorilla suit

well everybody’s fucking in a ufo - highly nsfw. where do i begin with this fucking hot mess...... sheri’s huge fake boobs. john and matt and ginger as astronauts. john jerkin off. the aliens with dicks. the fact that the whole story is about getting gang banged by aliens???? nothing will ever reach this level

SKOLD

self titled promotional clip - epilepsy warning for a lot of flashing and smash cuts. sort of a few partial music videos in one, but there are only two official skold videos, so i gotta include both of them. the quality is garbage. it’s so incredibly 1996. yet i love it. the last song, anything, is pretty nsfw as in there’s actual femdom porn clips but this is why i love it.

better the devil - if there were more skold videos i’d put them here. but as i said there are only two. tim out there lookin like not just a snack but a full course meal in 4k quality. goddamn. the only man i can ever truly call d*ddy. tiffany and eli lookin like delicious side dishes as well.

TAKING BACK SUNDAY

you’re so last summer - flava flave is in it

this photograph is proof - this song makes me so fucking nostalgic............. it transports me right back to eighth grade lmao. tbs were one of my fave bands in middle school.

makedamnsure - the most emo song of all time?? side note regarding tbs: real talk, being fat in middle school, seeing another fat person in a band was so fucking reassuring and great. i love eddie. 

liar (it takes one to know one) - these visual effects are SO cool, even now.

YOU ME AT SIX

jealous minds think alike - ART... no but actually look at these literal fetuses. i fucking love this song. it’s probably my fave track on take off your colours.

kiss and tell - you right it’s another house party video BUT. baby josh with an undercut. he must be 18 or barely 19 here??

liquid confidence - WHEN YOU GOT NOTHING TO LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSE

stay with me - jkfljkghdfskljgs okay serious time: this song got me through a seriously rough part of my life and i have the title tattooed on me partially because of the video. 

loverboy - i have never seen a fandom in such utter chaos as the ymas fandom was on the day this video dropped. holy fucking shit. the THIRST was REAL. 

bite my tongue - peak ymas captured in one music video. that’s truly the most important part. that peak sns era ymas was preserved forever in this video.

lived a lie - is it bad if i still kinda want a “we are believers” tattoo lmao. i really....... love this song a lot. is it obvious by now that ymas love a big chorus lmao

give - this song gives me The Feels. it deserved better than a performance video in an empty arena but it’s all we got, so here it is.

[trashthebreadburnthecircus-blog]

003. All Our Heroes Are Anti-Heroes Now

And now we come to the conclusion of our opening trilogy. Unfortunately, as I've thought through what I want to write in this post, I realize that it isn't so much an examination of how to potentially fix a problem, as it is identifying a problem that is firmly in place and entrenched in our society – and bad news, kids, it ain't goin' anywhere.

Think about popular entertainment since around the mid-70s. This was the start, slowly but surely, of the hero that was a “loose cannon”; whose boss couldn't afford to take anymore of their (the hero's) shit; who was hungover but was still a better match for the bad guys than those who were straight-laced; who kicked ass and would sort things out later. He (and it's a he 99% of the time) might do bad things, but they were always in the service of a “greater good.” (Jack Bauer, I'm lookin' at you).

The anti-hero isn't a new concept, but our elevation of the archetype is all-American, and in our unique way, we did it bigger and better and dumber than anyone. In fact, go to the ever-reputable source that is Wikipedia's list of fictional anti-heroes, and sort it by date. It could be Travis Bickle, it could be Omar Little, it could be Walter White, hell, it could Eddie Brock/Venom (comic or movie, take your pick). In every form of popular media, The Lord Content has provided plenty of Anti-Hero Demigods to choose from, and it's been ramping up big time in the past few decades.

And to reiterate briefly what I've discussed in the last two posts: Content loves our isolation, as long as we continue to absorb what we're fed. Our worship of Content doesn't need to be done in fellowship with others. Think of what that means – combine this idea of our constant isolation, with the deification of celebrity culture and all that it entails. Meanwhile, the anti-hero is elevated in entertainment, and this prevalence allows a greater chance of parasocial interaction with, if not the character himself but what the character embodies, in some person who is alone, possibly downtrodden, possibly struggling with challenges both large and small, both real and imagined.

And now let's all keep being surprised that rejected, lonely, white, American, homegrown terrorists are running around shooting people. We've fucking celebrated – and I mean all caps italic CELEBRATED – violence for decades now. Crazy how idolizing that behavior over years, across popular entertainment that we all worship and is beamed into our eyesockets day and night, might somehow make people idealize the worst, dumbest, most violent shit there is to consume. (And oh yeah, another weird thing to think about as you look over that Wiki anti-hero list: the amount of white dudes there are! Shocking! Quelle surprise!)

Now, I want to be clear about two things that I think could be very easily misinterpreted from what I've written thus far:

1. I am by no means saying that the heads of the entertainment industries, or the powers above them, got together and engaged in some kind of conspiracy theory, where they said, “oh you know what, let's just keep making movies more violent, and eventually all these mouthbreathing assholes will think this behavior is normal at the least and extremely cool at best, and then they'll kill each other off, but we'll keep making money off them because they love our Holy Lord Content and the idiots can't get enough of whatever we shovel into their content trough.” While I do believe it is in the interests of the elites for us to fight, bicker, argue, or even kill each other – something in a similar vein of the late Dr. Zinn's theory of how racism was used as a function of dividing people that were of a similar class but different races to help solidify the white power structure in his excellent book A People's History of the United States (get it from an indie bookstore or your local library, fuck Amazon to death) – I don't believe that the popularization and idealization of violence and/or anti-heroes is a plot by the elites that has been implemented over time.

2. Nor am I blaming media for creating mass shooters. If you were around for Columbine, there was a lot of talk of video games and Marilyn Manson being “responsible” for it – which is a crock of shit. It's very easy to say what the issue is. The issue is that we make guns, and high-powered guns, available way too easily to anybody that wants to buy one. Is mental health also part of this picture? Sure, but too often, mental health seems to only apply to white shooters. Interesting how that works. Keep telling yourself there's no such thing as inherent white supremacy in America, and yet every mass shooter that is non-white never, ever gets a mental-health-get-out-of-jail-free card. Only the white shooters do. Weird how that works.

So then how are we here? Why did we elevate the anti-hero? Is it the same laziness that allows us to sit back and enjoy content in the first place – the idea that thinking or talking through what is the “right thing to do” is fucking boring and shooting a room full of bad guys is fun and visually enjoyable and exciting and it taps right into that violent part of our brains that have been cultivated since we had to choose between fight or flight?

Or maybe it's just that the standard hero was too boring. We needed a new exploration of what it means to be a hero. But the thing is this – we, in the real world, are always the heroes of our own stories. And so even when a piece of entertainment tries to show what a complete piece of shit the (anti-)hero of the story is, we are still compelled to somehow root for him, in some form or fashion. And if you take someone who is super isolated and is engaging in that aforementioned parasocial interaction, what's the dividing line between the “wrong” that an anti-hero does in the name of “right”, versus being “misunderstood” in the real world?

Whatever the hell happened – and yes, here at the end and getting the short end of the explanatory stick, we have to acknowledge income inequality has a huge part to play in our isolation, in how downtrodden we all are, how we look to the celebs to save and uplift us...income inequality keeps us in our seats cause we can only afford to go as far as our streaming service will take us – as I said at the top, the sad news is that this isn't going anywhere. I honestly can't even imagine what our popular entertainment would look like if we just snatched violence completely out of it. And I don't say that in a longing way, but in a way where it'd be like waking up one day, and the sky is orange instead of blue. I'm also totally complicit in all this. I've watched these movies, these TV shows, read the books and comics. Enjoyed em. Hooted and clapped like an asshole at em. To live in America is to be complicit to a host of awful things.

And yet, however we analyze it, as long as we remain complicit, the God Content will smile as we continue to watch, glazed eyes fixed on some screen as people get shot and blown up, knowing that unless we experience that horror for ourselves off-screen, either first-hand or losing someone we love in the real world where Content has no control, we'll treat the News the same way we do the Movies.

They are both on a screen.

What's the difference?

[mstique-blog1]

"Love, like blood, flows from the heart."

               “Where’d you get that? A card in Hot Topic? ‘Cause that shit only rings with kine and I don’t know anybody, all the way from the Carolinas to California, who’s stepped inside’a that scene.” She gives the woman a sideways glance, the deep brown of her eyes flickering to their corners in momentary subtlety -- it saves having to roll them. “But then you don’t look like you pick up your pumps from there either, and even though I was taught to never take His name in vain,” a hand raises up in psuedo-religious gratitude, "thank---the---good---Lord for that... as if it wasn’t a pain in the ass enough already just being here, let alone having to act like I can stand the sight of some two-bit, Marilyn Manson lookin’ stompers... But, whatever. Whoever first gave that line to you -- I sure hope you didn’t bend your neck for’em.”